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My shorts, song fics etc

Postby Magrat70 » Sun Jun 30, 2002 4:10 am

Title: Numb

Author: Magrat

Ratings: PG: 13

Spoilers: Up to the end of season 6

Disclaimer: The song Numb comes from the superb album Missundaztood by Pink and the song was written by Pink and D. Austin and I am only borrowing the words so please don’t sue me.

Notes: Just a short song fic dealing with Willow’s grief at losing her everything. Much angst, sorry



“No sleep, no sex for you from your x-girlfriend”



Willow had been getting through the past few days like a zombie. The funeral had been, well, brutal probably hadn’t come close to it.



“I was too deep can’t let you call me just jump in”



She and Buffy had packed up the things in Tara’s room. It was funny how little things could distract you and that was why Willow was sat in her room listening to Pink.



“At times I would push my feelings aside to let you feel”



Willow had found it amongst the blonde’s belongings and had been surprised not thinking that this would have been her beloved type of music at all. She took it home and became instantly hooked on its rawness and pain.



“I’m novocaine I’m numb and nothing’s real”



That one line burned into her mind; this can’t be real. In her own mind, in a hundred different universes the bullet just passed through Tara’s shoulder and a hundred different Willow’s fussed over her for weeks making chicken soup but instead she was stuck her with this numbness.



“Like the coldest winter”

“I am frozen from you”



She didn’t know if she could manage to stay here; live in this cold world without Tara’s light to guide her or find her.



“I was weak before now you’ve made me”

“So numb I don’t feel much for you anymore”



Her friends kept trying to talk to her, get her to leave the house but she didn’t want too. When she looked at them she saw nothing, felt nothing. How long could she keep this up, this feeling of total emptiness.



“I gave you my all my baby”

“I’m numb, numb, numb”



And what happened when the numbness went. The pain would just come rushing in.



“But the tears were silent inside you see”

“I laid there quiet”

“And watched you have your way with me”

“I might have cried”

“But the tears were silent inside you see”



One thing did disturb her; she felt nothing for the two lives she had taken. She felt a strange mixture of shame and righteousness but apart from that no sorrow, no guilt, in fact nothing. They weren’t important, nothing was important not now.



“You called me names”

“Made me feel like I was dumb”

“I didn’t feel a thing”

“And now I’m gone, gone, gone”



And she was, Tara was gone, forever. It wasn’t fair. Nothing was fair. Nothing in Tara’s life had seemed to be fair. She had been so sweet. Willow was sure she wouldn’t have been such a nice person if she had had to suffer the tragedy of Tara’s brutal childhood and then things that had happened since she came to Sunnydale; Glory’s attack, what she had done to her and then to have her life ripped away like that. Not fair. It didn’t seem enough, but hell, Willow didn’t know how else to express it. She just wanted her back



“Like a battered child”

“I got used to your pain but you know it’s ‘cause”

“I was weak before now you’ve made me”

“So numb I can’t feel much for you anymore”

“I gave you my all my baby”

“I’m numb, numb, numb”



So that was it, how long could she live with this numbness, this inability to feel? Willow curled up in her bed hoping that sleep would take her. Where at least in her dream world she could live and feel with her beloved



THE END



These five words in my head scream "are we having fun yet?"

Chad Kroeger

Edited by: Magrat70 at: 2/21/03 7:46:25 am
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Re: My shorts, song fics etc

Postby Magrat70 » Wed Jul 24, 2002 8:44 am

Title: The Wanting

Author: Magrat

Spoilers: Set between the end of season 4 and the start of season5

Ratings: NC: 17

Notes: Just some smut, as I seem to have a writer’s block.



“Will you look fine,” said Buffy trying to reassure her friend who was pacing back and for in Tara’s summer apartment.



“Do you think she had a good time?” said Willow. “I mean I want her to have a good time but not too good, you know.”



“I’m sure she missed you,” said Buffy. “And I think I better make myself scarce, don’t want to spoil big reunion smoochies.”



“I thought you’d wait here for Riley,” said Willow.



“No, he has few more students to drop off after Tara, so he said he’d meet me at his place,” said Buffy.



“I wish I’d gone with her,” said Willow.



“I didn’t think a week pony trekking would be your sort of break Will,” said the slayer laughing knowing Willow’s deep seated fear of horses. “I’m just surprised Tara went”



“She’d booked it before we…you know…and I told her I didn’t mind. I’d hate for her to fell trapped in anyway” said the hacker looking away from Buffy.



“Will, everything okay between you two?” said Buffy looking concerned.



“Yeah fine, just feeling a little crazy through lack of Tara kissage,” said Willow.



“Well in 20 minutes all craziness will be gone,” smiled the slayer. “Anyway I gotta buck, see you Will.”



“Bye Buffy,” said Willow.



Willow looked at the young black and white cat that had flattened its self against the floor as the slayer bounded out. “Don’t worry Miss Kitty, mommy will be home soon and I’ve missed her more than I thought possible, remind me never to let her go again.”



The cat meowed at Willow sympathetically.



*************************



Riley stood waiting for the school bus to turn up, although no longer part of The Initiative or part of the school he had volunteered many months ago to help take anyone who needed a lift home from the summer trip that some of the students had organised.



He watched Tara jump from the bus, she looked tanned and healthy after a week away and her blue eyes sparkled when she saw him and for a second he found himself thinking what a lucky girl Willow was. “Hey Tara need a hand with your stuff.”



“No thank you Riley, I travelled light,” said the Wicca pointing to the rucksack she had on her back.



“Did you have a good time?” asked Riley.



“It was okay, I missed W-willow, is she okay?” said Tara.



“Yeah, I think she wanted to meet you here, but she decided on a surprise for you instead,” said Riley.



“S-surprise?” said Tara looking at him questioningly.



“If I tell you it won’t be a surprise,” said Riley.



****************************



Willow paced the apartment nervously, she had known that she was in love with Tara but nothing had prepared her for the loneliness that she had felt the past week and if she was being honest the hornieness.



The sexual relationship between the two witches had taken a while to get going, but once started Willow had found it totally absorbing. She loved the changes she could take her girlfriend’s body through, the touch, the scent and not forgetting the taste of her drove Willow mad with desire and a week without the shy witch, was a week to long in Willow’s book.



Willow heard the creak of the stairs and knew Tara was on her away up. Her heart was pounding with anticipation. She watched the door open from the hall and the beauty that entered took her breath away. Tara looked at her and gave the patented lop sided Maclay grin. “Hey Will,” she said softly laying her bag on the floor. “Missed me?”



Without thinking the redhead bolted down the small hall and launched herself at the object of her desire, she found her self kissing the blonde with her legs wrapped round her hip’s.



Tara thanked the Goddess that her girlfriend was so slight, but the feeling off having Willow wrapped round her body was making her feel so good.



“Bedroom,” growled Willow her voice thick with passion and want.



“I take it you missed me?” said Tara.



Green meets blue “I miss you when you are away from me for 5 minutes, this week has been hell, but less talking I want you,” said Willow. Willow started to explore the blonde’s neck, basking in her scent and taste. She settled on the sensitive point where neck met shoulder and started to suck gently, then with a bit more fire, feasting on the creamy white flesh, wanting to mark and show the world that Tara belonged to her.



“Your going to bruise me,” objected Tara mildly but the passion within her girl was turning her on to the point that she just didn’t care.



“I wanna do a lot more than just bruise you,” said the redhead as Tara laid her on the bed.



“Hmm you’ve got my attention,” said Tara. “But what I want to know is this my surprise; because you know I like Riley and all but I don’t really want him to know when we…”



“What?” said Willow momentarily distracted.



“Riley told me you had a surprise planned,” said Tara giggling at the confusing flitting across Willow’s face.



“Oh that, no I was just preparing a nice meal to seduce you; looks like I didn’t need the food,” said Willow poking her tongue out at her love.



Tara took a playful swipe at Willow and then fixed her with a steely stare “I can think of a better use for that tongue of yours.”



Willow swallowed hard as the jokey atmosphere changed. Tara was kneeling over her now her blue eyes dark with desire. “I’ve missed you,” said the blonde in Willow’s ear making her shiver with want and need. “I want to fuck you.”



Willow’s eyes bulged with shock not used to Tara using such language and again the blonde laughed “You think you are only one to feel the want and you have on much too much clothes."



“I…” said Willow but no more words came as Tara pulled her t-shirt off revealing the redhead’s small but perfect breasts. The blonde bent to them taking one of the hardening nipples into her mouth. She sucked hard letting herself pull slightly and was rewarded with a cry and gasp from the hacker, her hand moved to other nipple just letting her finger tip skim the surface.



She let the hand drift down over Willow’s smooth skin until she reached the waistband of the hacker’s jeans, where her long slender fingers made short work of the buttons. “Love, move your hips so I can get these off.”



Willow scrambled to obey feeling like putty in this woman’s talented hands.



“Good,” said Tara as she tossed the jeans on the floor, Willow lay in front of her with just a pair of white briefs on and the blonde could see the cotton was already wet through. A thrill of electricity went through her as she realised just how aroused Willow really was. “You are so beautiful,” she murmured.



Willow lay on her back the excitement coursing through her veins she loved it when Tara sometimes kicked into this dominant mode, it always took her by surprise, but never failed to turn her on beyond belief.



The blonde went back to Willow’s breasts but this time only with soft feather like kisses, barely enough to touch the skin and she kept this exquisite torture going all the way down the redhead’s writhing body until she reached her panties which she grabbed with one impatient hand and pulled off. She then carried on with her feather kisses on Willow’s curly red hair and then lower to her slick entrance. Tara inhaled once; drinking in the scent of her lover before kissing Willow’s hard clit and then with agonising slowness allowing her tongue to join the action, but again only with the softest touches.



Willow groaned with delight and frustration loving the moment, but desperately wanting more. She wrapped her hand in Tara’s thick blonde hair urging her on. “Tara please…god this so good…please…I… fuck me baby”



Tara happily obliged and plunged two long fingers into Willow’s soaking pussy and at the same time increasing the speed and touch of her tongue until she feels Willow’s muscles start to crush her fingers and she concentrates on sucking her lover’s clit taking her through the waves of the orgasm that has broken over her.



The redhead closes her eyes; spent, satisfied, at peace with the world, only Tara could make her feel like this. Her Tara, her love, her life, her everything.



THE END





These five words in my head scream "are we having fun yet?"

Chad Kroeger

Edited by: Magrat70 at: 2/21/03 7:54:22 am
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Re: My shorts, song fics etc

Postby ninjitsugrrl » Wed Jul 24, 2002 9:14 am

I really liked "Numb". The song fits Willow and Tara's situation so well. Good choice!

"What you held in your hand,/what you counted and carefully saved,/all this must go so you know/how desolate the landscape can be
between the regions of kindness.." - Naomi Shihab Nye



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Re: My shorts, song fics etc

Postby MissQuirky » Wed Jul 24, 2002 12:42 pm

Loved em both, "Numb" went well with it, it was sad though. And the 2nd fic HOT, loved it!! :)

"W-well, I-I was wondering, maybe, you would wanna go out sometime? For coffee ... food ... kisses and gay love?" - Willow (Normal Again)

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Note to self . . . .

Postby katlurkin » Wed Jul 24, 2002 1:04 pm

Don't read short fictions with titles like "The Wanting" during slow times at work. :drool



Way too distracting but I loved it. :grin



Kat

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Re: My shorts, song fics etc

Postby xita » Wed Jul 24, 2002 2:18 pm

Ooh smut! Tara is so hot when she's aggressive, lucky Willow : -->>: ). When writing short bits this is def. the way to go. Yummm.

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Re: Note to self . . . .

Postby funkyasian » Wed Jul 24, 2002 7:22 pm

i completely agree with this note to self...wholeheartedly...it's very unseemly when you start squirming around in your chair :drool ...draws attention of your officemate...who then asks you whether you're okay...:blush



heartbeat has finally returned to normal...good...now... something about work?!



steph

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Re: Note to self . . . .

Postby The Next Tara Maclay » Wed Jul 24, 2002 10:59 pm

Mmmm wow,

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Re: My shorts, song fics etc

Postby Magrat70 » Thu Jul 25, 2002 3:09 am

Xita I think my brain is doing funny things at the moment this fic was supposed have been all Willow is butch and passionate and it sort of got turned around ;)

These five words in my head scream "are we having fun yet?"

Chad Kroeger

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Re: My shorts, song fics etc

Postby pacou » Fri Feb 21, 2003 2:55 pm

Yup, Magrat, those were great short fics :)



Numb was so sad :( But so good :) Good sad I guess ;)



And the wanting...what can I say else except:



:drool :thud :bounce



Yup, that describes it :)



Thanks for writing :)



:peace -Viv-

I am human and I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does

pacou
 


Re: My shorts, song fics etc

Postby SJ » Sat Feb 22, 2003 10:44 am

Like the way you used the song lyrics in your fic :clap

Pacou,nice sig from a Smiths song :)

SJ
 


Re: My shorts, song fics etc

Postby Magrat70 » Thu Jul 29, 2004 1:11 pm

Title: Bring Me To Life

Author: Magrat

Ratings: R

Spoilers: Everything I suppose.

Disclaimer: Bring Me To Life belongs to the wonderfully talented Evanescence and the brilliant Amy Lee.

Notes: suffering from the worst writers’ block that I have suffered from for ages and as always a short story is my only way out. Call this a doodle. There will be another part that’ll hit NC: 17.



Bring Me To Life



Another smoky club, another crappy town. Willow knocked back her drink and surveyed the place, even for some of the dives she had been in, this was pretty bad. A year since they had supposedly saved the world, again. A year since Sunnydale had gone and now she was alone. She couldn’t stomach going around the country looking for more teenage superheroes; there really was only so much one person could stand. Everyone seemed to trample over her and Xander’s grief; that they both should have moved on. He had got himself killed a few months ago and apart of Willow envied him.



“Another?” asked the woman behind the bar.



Willow nodded and threw her a couple of notes.



“We’ve got a singer on tonight,” said the woman, attempting to make a little conversation. “She’s pretty damn hot.”



Willow grunted and moved away. She wanted to be left alone and attempt to hit oblivion. She felt relief when the lights went down and she found a table off to one side of the stage.



The singer walked on to the stage; she was dressed in black leather trousers, a black tank top and had straight long dark blonde hair that curtained her face. She stood looking down at her feet; one hand on the mic, Willow noted that to top the goth look, her finger nails were painted black. She sighed, she felt like her life was being replayed ad nauseam. She was even more disappointed when the opening bars to Evanescence’s Bring Me To Life started; a goth fan girl.



Willow got up to go as the woman started to sing, but her knees almost gave way as she looked into the face of the woman who haunted her days and nights, her only true love; Tara.



How can you see into my eyes

like open doors.



It couldn’t be, it was the first back to hurt her, but those eyes were looking straight into hers and she couldn’t pull herself way.



Leading you down into my core

where I've become so numb.



As she sang, Tara’s hand rubbed down her body and cupped her crotch. Willow felt her mouth go dry. The blonde looked directly at Willow pulling her in to her performance.



Without a soul

my spirit's sleeping somewhere cold

until you find it there and lead it back home.



She pointed at Willow, looking at her with soulful blue eyes.





Wake me up] Wake me up inside

[I cant wake up] Wake me up inside

[Save me] Call my name and save me from the dark

[Wake me up] Bid my blood to run

[I cant wake up] Before I come undone

[Save me] Save me from the nothing I’ve become



Her breathing was becoming erratic, a voice in the back of her mind was telling her that this wasn’t real; could never be real. Her love was dead along with her spirit.



Now that I know what I’m without

You cant just leave me

Breathe into me and make me real

Bring me

To life



Tara’s arms went out and she seemed to draw in a deep breath, her eyes glowing. Willow gripped the table, hope sparking.





[Wake me up] Wake me up inside

[I can’t wake up] Wake me up inside

[Save me] Call my name and save me from the dark

[Wake me up] Bid my blood to run



Tara put her hand to her chest and when it was removed Willow could see a dark stain, her stomach churned, it looked like blood. She felt she was somewhere between dream and nightmare. She tipped the alcohol from her glass, she had to stop, she was obviously hallucinating.



[I can’t wake up] Before I come undone

[Save me] Save me from the nothing I’ve become



Bring me to life

[I’ve been living a lie..Theres nothing inside]

Bring me to life



Tara stepped off the stage and put her hand out to Willow. The redhead looked, but she didn’t reach for it, the blonde moved her hand up and stroked Willow’s face; she was expecting to find the touch cold, but her hand was warm and familiar. She lent into the touch, needing it more than anything she had ever had before.



Frozen inside without your touch

Without your love, darling

Only you are the life among the dead



Willow stood and wrapped her arms around the blonde and their lips touched for a brief electric second



I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems

Got to open my eyes to everything



Tara then whispered slowly and deliberately into Willow’s ear.



Don’t let me die here



“Are you real?” asked Willow, her voice breaking.



Tara threw the mic and motioned for Willow to follow her out of the bar, the music still pounding.



TBC



Freddie is king

Magrat70
 


reply to bring me to life fic

Postby willohand » Fri Jul 30, 2004 3:04 pm

into the whole emotional rollercoaster you now have me on.:okay:wtf . how could u just stop there? good lord are u trying to kill me?:tara alive?:thud :thud :thud :thud :thud if this is some sort of sick joke on your part...:thud :thud

:rage :fit2 oh and lets not forget how not funny that would be.

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Re: reply to bring me to life fic

Postby SJ » Sun Aug 01, 2004 2:44 am

Great fic :clap

SJ
 


Re: What's Next?

Postby PeachyNectar » Mon Aug 02, 2004 1:03 pm

Magrat,:wave



This is a haunting sexy story of loss and hopefully the rebirth of love. Though as I have come to realise nothing is ever quite what it seems in a Magrat fic. Who knows exactly what will happen in the next part. I have a sneaking suspicion things are not quite what they seem with Tara... but I won't speculate further.:hmm



I really enjoyed your incorporation of your musical selection with this fic. BTW... great song choice.:clap



Though I hope your writers block:crash clears soon... I hope not so soon that you wil forget about this short.



More please ... soon? :pray :pray

Cheers,

PN

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The best and most beautiful things in life cannot be seen or touched - they

must be felt with the heart ~ Helen Keller

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Re: What's Next?

Postby BurningWhiteRose » Mon Aug 02, 2004 10:03 pm

:thud



Bring me to Life...



Frilly Hell...



That was the most amazing thing....



Please continue...cause these are freakin' AWESOME!!



Sincerely,

:flower BWR

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If homosexuals dont reproduce, why are there so many of them?-Jim David

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Re: What's Next?

Postby sam darls » Tue Aug 03, 2004 2:42 am

Hi, I've just read all of these and they are so amazing, I especially loved "Numb"..and definitely "Bring me to life" so far :heart . Can't wait for more. Love sam xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

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