New fic-Passion Never Dies

[mollyig]

Willow starting to worry about their future. I'm sure she'll figure out something though . . . she's a brainy type after all!

Adding up the total of a love that's true, multiply life by the power of two
Indigo Girls

[Magrat70]

The start of the fic they way I've imagined is Tara's "Journey" the end is more about Willow "Journey" into forgiving herself.



Zero-

These five words in my head scream "are we having fun yet?"

Chad Kroeger

[Grimaldi]

very sweet update although that last sentence sounds very peculiar, can't wait to find out what it means

Dude, we're surrounded by perverts!

Worm, are you ready to die in the cleansing apocalypse?

Its not my fault that you're a little geek with no sense of humor

[Blue77]

If I haven't said it before, great story, the last couple of updates were really good!!



Love to see more.



Blue

"She should have died hereafter: There would have been a time for such a word ...

...it is a tale, told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing."

Shakespeare/Macbeth

[Magrat70]

Title: Passion Never Dies part 17

Author: Magrat

Spoilers: As before

Ratings: PG: 13

Disclaimer: The poem “The Life That I have” was written by Leo Marks and was given to Violette Szabo as part of her French Resistance work during WW II. It was away of radio controllers knowing it was safe to communicate. Plus it’s my favourite poem of all time and if any one has ever heard Virginia McKenna read it without being affected by it hasn’t a heart. You’d never guess this but I love Jersey.



Passion Never Dies part 17



The next day shone as bright and as blue as the last. Willow felt more energized than the night before when she had went to bed and left Tara, Giles and their friends from the MG club in the bar. Tara has wanted to come with her but she had rebuffed the blonde saying she felt jet lagged and just wanted to sleep.



Her mind was churning over their future. She knew that she wanted to spend the rest of her life with Tara but she also knew she didn’t want a long distance relationship, being apart from the beautiful blonde would be just too much to take. She didn’t know what to do for the best.



She tossed and turned all night but she had felt better when Tara had come back and spooned herself behind her, crooning softly, words of love in her ear



Now in the morning light she made a decision; the future was just that the future. She had missed spending one night with Tara because of her brooding and that was just stupid.



“Morning sweetie” said Tara. “You feeling better this morning?”



“Uhm, yes baby I’m sorry about last night” said Willow



“T-that’s okay. Are you sure I didn’t upset you in anyway” said Tara. “Because I would hate to think…”



“No it wasn’t you honey” said Willow then quickly changing the subject “What we doing today?”



“I thought I’d take you to the hospital” said Tara.



“I told you I was feeling better,” said Willow.



Tara laughed



“I can’t believe Jersey has a tourist attraction which is a hospital,” said Willow.



“I think you will be surprised,” said Tara.



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Willow looked agog out the car window as they travelled the short distance to the hospital. Jersey although small seemed to have spectacular narrow winding roads set in beautiful green countryside.



Tara pulls up in a car park and Willow is surprised because all she can see on first sight is what looks like a restaurant.



“Are we going to have something to eat first?” asked Willow.



“Why are you hungry, I thought we would just buy our entrance tickets and go in to the hospital” said Tara looking puzzled



“Okay it’s just…it doesn’t matter” said Willow.



“Will, I should have told you about the hospital. I don’t know if you know but the Channel Islands were occupied by the Nazis’ during the war” said Tara.



“I remember reading about it when I was kid” admitted Willow.



“Well they built this an underground barrack and munitions storage but eventually used it as an emergency hospital” said Tara leading Willow to the café/ticket office.



They paid for their tickets then walked back to the entrance of the hospital. Willow felt the chill as they descended into the tunnels.



“You know Buffy would have theories that the commanders were all vampires for them to live down here” said Willow.



“It might explain the evil that they did,” said Tara shuddering. “No, nothing could explain the evil that the did”



The walked from tunnel to tunnel, taking in the picture shows and memorabilia of the occupation of the island. Tara explained to Willow how many prisoners of war from all over Europe had died building this vast underground complex. Willow remembered her parents telling her about the cold, disturbing, feelings that they had when they had went to Poland and visited Auschwitz and although this place didn’t feel that bad, the knowledge that so many people had died there because of that evil regime chilled her to the bone.



They entered a main tunnel that held the memories of the people of Jersey. How they almost died of starvation near the end of the war and how people tried to escape and also put up a resistance against the occupying forces. The memories told how the so-called “friendly occupation” was a lie with people shipped to main land Europe POW camps and one brave young man shot on the beach as he tried to make his escape.



Willow wandered around the memories taking them all in, touched by the struggle and knowing that members of her own family had faced the same or much, much worse.



Her eyes were drawn towards the little exhibition about Violette Szabo the heroic British spy who after her French husbands death had parachuted behind enemies’ lines and had helped the French resistance before being captured and shot but it was a piece of poetry connected to her that really caught her eye:



The life that I have is all that I have

And the life that I have is yours

The love that I have of the life that I have

Is your and yours and yours.



A sleep that I have

A rest I shall have,

Yet death will be but a pause,

For the peace of my years in the long green grass

Will be yours and yours and yours.



Willow blinked away tears as she read it and her eyes focused on the blonde who was wondering around reading little bits and pieces. That one small piece of poetry seemed to encapsulate everything she felt for Tara. She knew deep in this underground cavern that her life had finally reached a point where she would give up everything for the gentle woman that she loved.



“Tara come here,” said Willow.



“What is it sweetie” asked the blonde.



“Have you read this poem before?” said Willow.



“Yes it’s beautiful,” said Tara.



“All these words could be written by me too you” said the hacker. “I-it’s how I feel about you and I want spend the rest of my life with you”



Tara looks into serious green eyes and she can feel the love radiating from Willow and she fights back tears. Never in her life did she think she would ever find love like this but know that she had a second chance of it she knew she couldn’t allow it too walk away from her.



TBC

These five words in my head scream "are we having fun yet?"

Chad Kroeger

[Jennpurr]

WOW... Magrat, what a touching update.



That brings back memories of stories about my family. Very emotional.



I'm glad Willow finally gave in and let her heart tell her what it wanted. She always knew, but now I think she'll let it lead her. Right?



This is such a beautiful fic. Thank you.



Jen

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser."Amber Benson
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Mi corazon perdido en ti...

[SlayerTazz]

WOW, that was a great update - very sweet!!! Thanks!! Love the poem

A dream is a wish the heart makes.

Willow: "You had two eggs, sunny-side-up. I remember because they were wiggling at me like little boobs."

Tara: "Sassy Eggs."

[BethanyB3]

Beautiful update. It was so very touching. I've never heard that poem before, but think that now I shall never forget it.

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~ "If I could, then I would I'll go wherever you will go. Way up high or down low, I'll go wherever you will go."~

~The Calling~

[zero]

Hey, the Channel Islands. I know someone living over there atm.

Great update. That poem is good.

'Winners never quit, and quitters never win, but those who never win and never quit are idiots!'

[areslei]

very beautiful. love the poem

you two are the two who are the two...


I never took us for granted and I always knew you and I are special but I never knew how much I'd miss you... 'Always Everywhere' K's Choice

[ExtraFlameyWT]

Beautiful Magrat...beautiful.



Aimee

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"Pope John Paul today confirmed his opposition to gay marriages, said they're unnatural. Gay marriage is unnatural. Then he put on a pointy hat, his dress, and returned to never having sex at all." -Bill Maher

[xita]

Oh this is a great piece, that's a great poem. And Willow has decided, her home is where her heart is and that is with Tara.. sigh.

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Willow: (to Tara) I could heal.

Tara: (to Willow)And we’re gone.

[eccentrictulip]

that was my favorite update. thanks

*please use both hands....*

[snuggle79]

truly beautiful!

Oh baby, want me to rub your tummy? She likes it when I ... stop explaining things.

Hi, um Tara..how are you? well...I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time...for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

[TareBearRS]

I am so glad they are having such a good time.

But i understand Willow's concern how things will continue when she has to go home.

Giles and his car haha.

R.

[Grimaldi]

sweet update love the poem and Willow saying that she wanted to spend the rest of her life with Tara

Dude, we're surrounded by perverts!

Cross my heart, smack me dead, stick a lobster on my head.

My hormones?! Hey, I was lips, you were tongue!

[LeatherQueen]

Love the poem. So beautiful. And it's lovely to see that Willow has decided she'll do whatever she has to to remain at Tara's side, where she belongs.

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"But when they're playing your song on the jukebox in Hell, you might as well dance." - K. Simpson


"Futile... like a FOX, baby!" - Tara in The Late Shift by wiccachica

[Murasaki S]

Just caught up with this fic. You do the little moments between them really well. I don't really see either of them getting all with the physical violence thing but they've certainly hurt each other a lot, so there's bound to be some unpleasantness as they figure it all out.

I'm impressed at how prolific you are. Two frequently updated fics running at the same time. Cool.

[Magrat70]

I'm quite embarrassed by the nice things you have all said



I'm so glad that you all enjoyed the poem, it's been rattling around my head ever since those b******s at M.E killed Tara as something that could be used to highlight W/T devotion to one another.



Jen: you are so sweet and yes ti is time for Willow to let her heart rule her head



Bethany: the first time I heard the poem it was being read out on the radio and I don't think I have ever been affected so much by a piece of reading before that or since.



Too everyone else I'm so happy you are enjoying this fic and once again thank you for all your kind words .



Zero: if you have a chance to visit your friend in the channel islands i'd really recomend it



bye for now

love



Wendy

These five words in my head scream "are we having fun yet?"

Chad Kroeger

[Jennpurr]

Quote:

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Jen: you are so sweet and yes it is time for Willow to let her heart rule her head

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Aww... thank you. So are you, you know.



Goody... glad you think so. I'm glad she took that first step, too. Can't wait to see what our girls experience next. Hee... I'd love to see a little G/W/T bonding, daughter time. That would be cool.



Thank you, Wendy.



Jen

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser."Amber Benson
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Mi corazon perdido en ti...

[mollyig]

Wonderful update Magrat. You used that poem to great effect.

Adding up the total of a love that's true, multiply life by the power of two
Indigo Girls

[IsayAmberBensonsgorgeous]

the poem was wonderful and the history behind it, though tragic, too. it actually made me look into it. and i love your fic as well. thank you.

take care.

C

"Es ist fuer einen Menschen unertraeglich, ertragen zu werden." (Jean Cocteau)

[pikescoob]

What a beautiful poem....it worked so perfectly with the story.



--Michelle

[Magrat70]

Mollyig, Pikescoob-I'm glad you liked the way I used the poem.



IsayAmberBensongorgeous-I'm so pleased that you looked into the history of the poem/Violette Szabo/leo Marks, I hope you found it interesting



Jen-You are too sweet as always

These five words in my head scream "are we having fun yet?"

Chad Kroeger

[Jennpurr]

You went and made me now.



Thank you, Magrat. That's very sweet.



Take care,

Jen

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser." Amber Benson


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Mi corazon perdido en ti...

[Magrat70]

Title: Passion Never Dies part 18a

Author: Magrat

Spoilers: As before.

Ratings: NC: 17

Notes: This part is in Jersey; the next part will be in Sunnydale and will be solely about Willow, apart from one small scene with Tara and Giles at the beginning.



Passion Never Dies part 18a



Willow keeps rubbing her hand against Tara’s leg as she drives back to the hotel.



“Hey baby if you keep doing that I’ll end up smashing the car,” said Tara.



“I just can’t keep my hands off you,” said Willow



“Will, what’s going on with you, last night you seemed so off with me and now…”



“Please don’t worry Tara, it’s just sometimes I think too much, you know” explained Willow.



Tara pulled into the hotel car park then turned to Willow “W-what’s worrying you?”



“Nothing now, I know what I have to do” said Willow.



“What’s that?” countered Tara.



“Chase you to our room and make love to all afternoon to make up for last night” said Willow.



Tara starts to giggle.



“I’m serious,” said Willow. “I want you baby and I’m not taking no for an answer”

The red head leans into the blonde and whispers seductively in her ear “and if you don’t start to move I’ll have you here in the car”



Tara heart starts to pound as her girlfriend starts to lick her neck and her hands starts to sneak under her skirt “Will please”



Willow stops what she is doing “Please what?”



“Wait, someone will see…”



“And?” said the hacker.



“Willow let me get back to the room and you can have anything you want,” said Tara pleading with her love, because although the witch was turned on she really didn’t want to get caught by Giles.



“Okay but you better come up with the goodies when we get to the room” said Willow.



Tara quickly gets out of the car and doesn’t even look behind her knowing the hacker will only be a couple of paces behind.



She pulls open their room door and barely has time to close it before Willow pounces on her with a passion that is almost ferocious pining the blonde against the door, Tara’s skirt is pulled up round her waist and Willow pushes her hand into her panties and at the same time is sucking on Tara’s pulse point “Will I… “



“Hush now, you promised me anything and I want my payment,” said Willow her hand hovering just over the other woman’s heat “you burn me you know, every part of me wants you”



Her hand moves on, feeling the witch’s damp curls “And you can’t lie to me I feel your desire, open your eyes, I want to see your soul when I posses you.”



Tara opened her eyes stunned suddenly by the way Willow was demanding her. She can feel the hacker enter her slowly, her pace changed. She tried to look away from intense green eyes that are watching her every reaction.



“Don’t look away, keep up the contact with me. I need to be with you the whole way,” said Willow as she moved her thumb gently over Tara’s clit, just one small caress, but the witch gasped needing it more than she knew. The movements are small but so intense; two fingers deep inside Tara and Willow’s thumb making small circles round her engorged nub.



They lose themselves in one another eyes. Mouths meet in what starts as a gentle, almost chaste kiss but their passion soon overwhelms them, a passion that could never be contained. Willow’s free hand moves to Tara’s hair luxuriating in its softness for a second before gripping, pulling the blonde in closer, and her tongue now exploring the velvety wetness of her mouth.



Willow feels the blonde’s breathing start to become ragged so she increases her pressure on her loves clit and moves her mouth back to Tara’s ear. “I want this forever, you and me in harmony, making our own magic. I love being inside you, being part of you”



Tara’s neck starts to arch as she feels the mind-blowing orgasm rising within her, taken over the edge by Willow’ caresses and words. Her mind wiped clean by passion and desire but one word escapes her lips “Yours”



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They lie together, talking, giggling both are tired from their afternoon exertions “We’ll have to get up soon” said Tara.



“Oh, do we have to” said Willow



“Yes we do,” said Tara



Willow swallows for a second, she knows exactly what she is about to do, the plan that had hit her with absolute clarity when she was at the hospital but this was going to be the hardest part “Tara”



“Hmm” said the witch playing with a lock of the hacker’s hair.



“Last night my company paged me, I have to go back to the States…”



The blonde jumped back as if she had been slapped. “You have too…you knew this when we were…why didn’t you tell me this morning, instead of…”



“Tara, baby, I’m sorry I just wanted us to have a perfect day together before I left,” said Willow grabbing hold of her hand. “Believe me I don’t want to go but I have to…”



“You’re going tomorrow?” said Tara tears and disbelief showing in her eyes.



“Baby, please don’t cry” said Willow gently caressing Tara’s beautiful face, she felt terrible for causing her any pain but this was something Willow felt she just had to do. “I meant everything I said to you; I want you forever, don’t ever, ever forget that.”



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Tara stood at the airport feeling absolutely desolate. She watched Willow and Giles talking together, they both kept glancing her way, but they seemed to deep in conversation to really notice what she was going through. She couldn’t believe it could be over so soon. Her mind was trying to search for some logical answer to Willow’s strange behaviour yesterday, but nothing was making any sense and she decided that she needed to concentrate on holding herself together.



They tannoy announced the Heathrow flight for the second time.



“I’m so sorry baby but I have to go now, I love you” said Willow and held Tara close to her and not caring what anyone would say or think she kissed her with all the love and passion she could muster. “I promise I will be back to you soon, you know I can’t stay away.”



“Don’t go,” pleaded Tara urgently, tears flowing down her face. “I can’t manage without you”



Willow’s resolve almost broke but she knew that they both had to go through this small pain to get to a larger more important prize in the future. Her tears mingled with her beloved as they clung together. Willow just hoped that what she had planned would be worth this heartbreak. “I have to. Please Tara, don’t make this any harder than it already is”



“H-how can you say that, do you even care?” said the blonde knowing she was being unreasonable but not really caring. She turned and ran from the airport.



Willow went to run after Tara but Giles held onto her shoulder. “Willow you are doing the right thing. I will calm Tara down but you must do what you said. Go tie up the lose ends.”



TBC

These five words in my head scream "are we having fun yet?"

Chad Kroeger

[snuggle79]

Oh! That was so heartbreaking!

I really feel for the girls...

I hope they are going to do fine soon.

Oh baby, want me to rub your tummy? She likes it when I ... stop explaining things.

Hi, um Tara..how are you? well...I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time...for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

[Mix]

I agree, that was heartbreaking, however tying up loose ends sounds very promising. I have faith that our girls will be back together soon. um right?



M

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A pocket full of Goldfish.

It didn't work out!!

[IsayAmberBensonsgorgeous]

sure did look into it. truly, i know the poem by heart, i even e-mailed it to a friend of mine in germany. now we have an entire literary discussion about it and about love and life. thank you for making this happen by including the poem in your fic, which i totally love.

take care.

C

"Es ist fuer einen Menschen unertraeglich, ertragen zu werden." (Jean Cocteau)

[mollyig]

Willow has a plan. A future with Tara type plan. That's all of the good.

Adding up the total of a love that's true, multiply life by the power of two
Indigo Girls