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Re: SSC 2.010 (aka Part 113)

Postby TexanZeppo256 » Fri Jul 11, 2003 5:13 am

Nice update Kathryn. I like the way how you switch narrators between Toni and Willow: You can almost taste the fear when reading the former, and the jovial bounciness is easily apparent in the later.



One thing though: WHAT HAPPENED TO TONI??? arrgghh!!! Now I have to wait another whole 3 days just to find out if her running was in vain or if she actually makes it someplace (Like Willow and Tara's maybe? ;) )



Oh yeah, "oops": :rofl just a teensy bit over-kill, eh? :)



Can't wait for SSC 2.011/Part 114 Kathryn... even though I know I'll have to somehow...

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Listen! Do you hear that? IT'S THE STICKY NOTES OF THE APOCOLYPSE!!!
--Double D, "Mama's Little Ed"

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Re: Part 113

Postby notl33t » Fri Jul 11, 2003 6:48 am

Did Spike go poof? Hmm...two possible answers, I think. He could have avoided and/or survived that fireball, so it could be a no. And Willow could merely have been overconfident about her abilities, so it could still be a no. However, Willow's a pretty wicked wicca at this point, thus she could probably sense the death of a vampire(just a guess really, most wiccas tend to be sensitive to life altering events) and she seemed really confident that she had killed him, so it could be a yes.



Eep! You have done something wonderful and deliciously evil. You could form the story manipulating us into thinking that he's dead...distract us with wholesome plot...then bam! Spike could appear not a la flambe. Or we could think that he's alive...then bam! roasted leather jacket found in the sewers...



I'm going with the Sewer BBQ Spike despite my doubts. I'll miss his sodding comments...and his attitude. Unless...I'll just stick with the idea that he's gone for good. Ok, sticking with the idea.



As to what is going on in Toni's head...wow! That was pretty incredible. Poor Toni. I think you handled this well. If I had been stuck with people playing mindgames with me in the sewers for a while, I would go bonkers if someone tried to initiate deep psychic contact, too. Poor W/T, they don't really have any idea of what's going on yet. And with Toni needing to get as far away from the scariness that is her new memories and W/T in general, W/T may not find out until its too late. I wonder if some of Sunnydale's finest are in on this vamp sewer thing. Someone high up has to be protecting them. You can't really stay in a sewer for a long time, they have regular maintenance, I think. But if someone were to take a bribe...who knows?



I wonder if Toni will be successful in getting any help at all. She should try not to tell the entire truth, otherwise they'll just lock her up in an insane asylum...then again, the first people she'll come upon will probably not realize that she is deaf. I can't wait to see how you handle this.



In response to your earlier comments about how you are filling out earlier hints that you doled out in First Chronicle, the filling is probably the most scrumptious thing IMHO. I like backstories...hints of backstories...hints of more stories that need telling. I especially like Willow's memories of a darker time and how her character deals with the memories in the present. It's really interesting. More important, she can delve into her memories for things that could be important to remember, like her siress.



I know I'm not really commenting on Tara at all, but I think your writing of her reactions are spot on for where you've placed her in the story's chronology right now.



Lastly....Mmm...Long updates. I loooove long updates. I just pray that you don't get carpal tunnel or RSI to all the deities that are in existence. Such a malady would perhaps decrease the amount of plot which flows from your keyboard to the Kittenboard. Then I would be sad. I may have to wait longer for updates...sad me. But no more talk of sadness. Happy Katharyn with happy wrists writes happy snappy updates!



Whee! Now to languish and pine for such an update...

:kitty

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Re: Part 113

Postby Kalita » Fri Jul 11, 2003 9:10 am

Hmm, realy hard to tell if Spike IS gone. I get a niggling sense that he isn't; it could go either way. Hm.



Toni is understandably freaked, seeing Willow and having somone touch her mind after all the stuff before. But, now that she IS out of the sewers she should be safe; we just have to hope our good guys find her and communicate the situation and hopefully get her help.



Hey, there's that 'communicate' word again. Interesting...

"Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world. Indeed, it’s the only thing that ever has. "

- Margaret Mead

Kalita
 


Re: Part 113

Postby Cicca » Fri Jul 11, 2003 9:29 am

A double part! Woohoo!



Spike.... Alas! There could have been much amusement with him still in the story (unless you're really sneaky and he's not gone), but Drusilla's reaction is going to be veryyyyyyy interesting.



Toni... *sigh* That girl is so messed up! She's going to need Willow to help her deal with those memories that don't belong in her head.



Thanks for the update!

“Spirit of Sappho, ... I summon you. Come fill me with your big, dykey power!” ~ Final Exam by Tommo

Cicca
 


Re: Part 112

Postby xita » Fri Jul 11, 2003 12:36 pm

Yeah i kinda knew, but still! Spike , poof, gone! Yay! Thank you :)



It's understandable that the girl ran off even though Tara was as gentle as could be. Still I hope she reconsideres the next time they run into her. How much did I love Willow's little jealousy there, very cute!



I know Tara's trying to comfort Willow but really she should listen to Willow's fear. Also, Willow I think was right in feeling a little revenge, why not, I know they say it's not healthy but these are vampires. It's not like she was obsessed with it, it just came upon her. Thanks for the update :)

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"The suspense is terrible. I hope it'll last."


-Willie Wonka

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Re: Part 113

Postby TemperedCynic » Fri Jul 11, 2003 5:11 pm

What an update!



Tara tried to bestow a gift to Toni that only she and Willow share. Willow was even a little jealous of the connection. And Toni refuses the intrusion. Loudly. Then runs to safety towards the lights. If Toni ever does trust the witches, this act won't be forgiven. Such layered complexity between the characters. Just like real life.



Is Spike dead? Well, if he is Dru will sense his demise. Her reactions to Spike's demise will confirm Willow's worst fears of her former siress.



Will we see Toni again? There is always the need to see W/T safe, since slaying is a hard duty. Especially when lacking Slayer skills. Toni could be a very interesting addition. But if she ends up safe and happy away from vampires, that's just as good, for me. Toni would need to work through a lot of issue with Willow and Tara before ever agreeing to slay side-by-side. **realizing I just came full circle** Only you, Katharyn, could work that kind of written magic. I look forward to seeing how Toni develops, especially after being 100% inaccurate in her reaction to mental communication. I really thought Toni would leap at the opportunity to share her thoughts with others. It's early yet. Maybe I'm just "jumping ahead" too much.



I'll take your updates in any size - quality vs. quantity.


More than any other time in history, mankind faces a crossroads. One path leads to despair and utter hopelessness. The other, to total extinction. Let us pray we have the wisdom to choose correctly. Woody Allen (1935 - )

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Re: Part 113

Postby Grimlock72 » Sun Jul 13, 2003 6:45 am

Hmm... so Toni doesn't want Tara or Willows help. Fine. Let's see how she does without them. (can you tell my love for Toni took a nosedive, grmbl ? :-).



I would have liked a bit from Tara's point of view on the whole 'who is Spike' discussion. I think that even though Tara had never heard of Dru she just made it to the top of her most-hated-vamp list :D



I won't assume Spike is dead even though their won't be anything to find to prove that one way or the other. It's not that hard to survive such a sewer blast, esp. if you're fast.



Willow is scared of Dru, primairly based on stories and experiences VampWillow heard about. Physical strength doesn't really scare me, for all I care Dru could left ten Lukes above her heard. A wooden arrow fired from about 100 meters away would STILL kill her. Same goes for magic, I'll agree Dru can be dangerous and wacky up close but once you know where she is she should be dust soon after. I do hope W/T's room is well protected. Would fit Dru to try and sneak up to her victims, can't have that now can we ?



I'm sorry for Willow having to relive some of her worst memories. She shouldn't feel guilty about wanting to kill Spike, revenge in itself isn't too bad. You mustn't think about exacting revenge for the rest of your life sure, but I can't see killing Spike as a bad thing.



I'm still wondering WHY Dru put those memories into Toni's head. Can't think of any obvious reason for now. Then again, Dru never needed much reasons... obvious or not :D



Grimmy

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"You hurt Tara," Willow said too calmly. "The last one who tried that was a god. I made her regret it." -- Unexpected Consequences by Lisa of Nine

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Re: Part 113

Postby Katharyn » Sun Jul 13, 2003 7:40 am

Hey guys, nice to see you all have so many theories!



Love to make you think.



Celia - Yeah bye, bye Spike. Or: Boom, Ouch, Bloody He-, Strange Vamp Effect, pssssh (dust falling to ground.)



Maybe.



Who knows.



Well I know.



Ooops... I went for big effect to make it fun and then it was so big... only oops would do. Me? Dark? Can you not see all the love?? Its light. Honest... Isn't it?



Willow... I can't let her forget for canon reasons, but also because she shouldn't. Its part of who this Willow is.



You can see the safe coming? Erm. Maybe an anvil... to be unpredictable.



Effortlessly tie it together? Try lucky. With work. Effortless would mean remembering stuff. And damn I can;t.



Thanks



Justin - Thanks. Banana's are good. Erm. When they dance. No... erm. Yeah. Never mind.



Spike dead? Seems to be a split decision and posting like this I can do what I want. Apart from... well it is already decided.



T/W have stuff to find out about Toni I guess. They better, cos I wrote it.



Texanzeppo - You know why I swicth Pov? Not for style I assure you. I have something I want you guys to know and the current character has no reason to know it. Oh and I hate forced dialogue to explain stuff when there is no reason to say it. Just to show the audience or reader.



Toni... is gone. At least from there. Easy answer huh?



Ooops. I like that. I can just see Willow in my head as the sewers burn, manhole covers fall to the paving and she goes "Ooops" What I can see like that has to go in.



Only a few hours left to wait as I type this.



Thanks



notl33t - Oooh theories. On the basis that I deliberately left it hanging I cannot really tell you but I guess I can go over the theory.



Willow, IMHO, would not have sensed the destruction of Spike or otherwise. Tara, with her pendant (which she is not wearing) could... I think her confidence comes from the amount of fire, the size of the area etc. Also lets face it, vamps go up like they are covered in flammable fuel (stunt guys seem to be in the canon!) and so you light him he is probably going to burn.



I could be evil yes. I have been known for it. I will say this. Nothing is in place, I mean in the right place, for the big bad of this story yet. That could mean Spike, Dru or Darla has to move around until they/he/she is/are in place or that there is something else. I aint saying. Yet.



But the big bad is soooo not the point.



To tell the truth, originally either Tara or Dru did not do that (I forget which) but I needed Toni to go away so the other did...



The sewers, you have a good point. That said, the vamps are careful not to block anything totally as I think I said. So friends in high places? Maybe...



Filling out hints...? Actually I didn;t think I had started that yet!



The next update was supposed to be short, yet somehow it is still above average. LOL



Thanks for good thoughts.



Kalita - Ah, a Spike is alive believer? Well, I will say this. As a writer I would be crazy to lose the most interesting bad guy character so early.



And yeah... communication is the key!



Thanks



Cicca - I have just been preparing Dru's reaction. Or the start of it... Its... curious.



Toni, she is messed up but doing well considering - IMHO. I'm not sure she needs anything - at least in her own mind.



Thanks



Xita - You think you knew... and you did. It was a gift to you. If I really did it. If I didn't its not.



Willow is Willow. She will be jealous if she can *S*



As always the characters are conflicted because I am. Is revenge bad or good? You laid it out... can go either way. Where a character wobbles though, especially the girls, it is usually cos I do not know *S*



Thanks



Tempered Cynic - Nice summary - a little like Vamp No 12 used to do. They are alwats fun to see how you read the key events (was what I thought was key the same as you?!) and good references to save me, you know, actually reading it!



Aaah the magic... There is some magic coming soon that... Well wait and see what you think. Wait for the seedling and tell me what you read it as.



Thanks



Grimmy - Toni has her reasons for not wanting help and it is not just self reliance.



The problem with the PoV thing is that I cannot go do everyone's. I make choice depending on what we need to see and who has (or can observe) what I need you to see. The fun part is that other characters often have other info. In many books you might find that out within a couple of paragraphs. Here I can make you wait for chapters...



If Spike survived it will have been impressive, believe me and there will be a good story behind it. If.



Willow is afraid of Dru because she was VW's siress and also because VW was afraid of her. Also there is some pragmatism there. Buffy could/should have killed Spike and Dru in S2 on many occasions but she failed to do so. Circumstances get in the way. And that could be called luck too. Dru is bad and she is also lucky in the Ben Kenobi definition of it.



I don;t think she thinks killing Spike (if she did) is bad for a second. What was bad was more the feeling, or she thinks it should be. Even if it wasn;t. Is her guilt about NOT feeling guilty for how she feels? Did that make sense?



Why does Dru do anything?? Some things she does will and do have deep important meanings. And some of them you will never see again no matter how key they seem now.



Which is it???



I ain't telling.



God I love to tease.



Katharyn

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If I want a little pussy, I got my own to play with.
Chance in Chance.




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Part 114

Postby Katharyn » Sun Jul 13, 2003 10:14 pm

The girls aren't in this one... sorry. The story gets in the way again.

Enjoy though

Katharyn

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Title: The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle – Swings and Roundabouts (Part 114)
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Constructive criticism is always welcome. katharynrosser@hotmail.com Flames just demonstrate you have a tiny mind.
Spoiler Warning: Pretty limited. The story occurs in an alternate universe as set up in “The Wish” though reference is made to events that occur in both realities. Nothing is referenced that occurs after S5 though. Guess why? Most “spoilers” would be for the first chronicle of this fic rather than the show and if you haven’t read that then much of this will make no sense but you can try and get round it by reading athe preface to Part 104 which summarises most of what went before.
Distribution This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens (This applies to all of the Sidestep Chronicle)
Summary: The vampire’s reaction to the death of Spike and Toni’s escape.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc, etc. I am making zilch from this series of stories. You know the drill.
Rating: R – a general rating for occasional content. Individual parts might be less than this level.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever – others couples as necessary but nothing unconventional.
Notes: This is, once again, a part without Tara and Willow. It is also a little shorter than the usual. This is really because of how long the last part ended up – otherwise this would have been attached to it. Back to the girls next time, I promise. I suspect that you yanks don’t have roundabouts… the phrase fits though.
Thanks To: All My Brilliant Beta Readers (AMBBR) Kerry (Forrister) and Jo (Wizpup) who for some reason signed right back up for this fic after seeing the size of the last one. No accounting for madness is there. And Celia (TiredSoul) who should have known better but signed up anyway. *HUGS* and Big Thanks to all of you. This is one of Celia’s and ain’t she just soooo opinionated? I love it.


The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle

Swings and Roundabouts

By

Katharyn Rosser



Lucas came into the audience chamber very warily - carefully even - and that, Darla knew, was a good indicator of bad news. Her followers here in Sunnydale had been a great deal more careful in the last few of weeks. Careful to avoid being in the wrong place at the wrong time.

The wrong place was, though, increasingly becoming the space around Drusilla. They were afraid of her. More afraid of dear Dru than they were of Darla herself…

Which was acceptable. Fear was fear and Dru was hers. More so every day. A fear of Dru was a fear of her. Of what she could do simply by asking Dru to do it for her. It was the way things had always been. The Master had been feared – but he had always known when to pass that responsibility, of maintaining the fear, onto others.

William, when he’d arrived, they’d simply been wary of. Even the newest of her creations were more directly connected to the power of the Master than he was – their right to seniority was greater than his – but William had learnt many things over the last century. He was something that they had to respect – and he was their brother, in a sense. Under the edicts of the Master – many of which Darla considered it good practice to maintain as it suited her – he was one of them.

Even if he didn’t want to be.

Membership of the Order of Aurelius was a matter of blood – never choice. He couldn’t choose to leave the Order any more than some stray vampire up above could choose to just walk down into the sewers and join them. Being a member of the Order also meant that you were subject to its discipline.

William was subject to her discipline.

And she would have disciplined him for the way he’d spoken to her before – but for Drusilla. She still maintained some of the ties to the old days - in part for her insane ‘granddaughter’ since she’d returned on that first errand for the lawyers. Back in the old days, she’d never been able to understand why Angelus had wanted to turn Dru. Driving her mad certainly she’d appreciated. He’d tortured her mind and her soul as lesser vampires would have tortured her body, definitely. But turning her… that had been all his idea and now she was glad that he had. Angelus was long gone and she would, otherwise, have been alone here – which she couldn’t bear for very long.

He’d created a work of art in Drusilla.

She was his legacy and her company. Almost as important to her as Angelus had been. She’d happily offer up Dru to save herself… but she didn’t want to. She’d offered Angelus to baying mobs in the past – he’d always understood because he’d done the same thing to her.

There was no ‘love’ between vampires. Just a mutual attraction. Love required a soul and Darla didn’t miss it at all. Her soul or ‘love.’ She’d never known it, even at her mother’s knee. Born as a whore’s child… she’d always got in the way of money making. Until she was old enough to make money for herself.

No, she’d never missed what she’d never known. She’d missed what had been taken from her Angelus though.

Damn gypsies. She was sure, when she passed through some of, and even beneath, the streets of Sunnydale, that she could smell them. They were here… somewhere. But when she’d sent her followers to enquire… nothing. No gypsies in Sunnydale. The names of the Clans were well known to her. She’d made very certain she’d known them and how each and how every Romany clan was connected to the hated Calderash. Where she found a part of a clan connected though the female line… She killed all the women. Just to make her point.

Other’s all the men.

When she couldn’t figure it out she’d used to slaughter them all.

At least there were no gypsies living the old life in Sunnydale. Not in the old ways. But there was one of their blood here in town, Darla was very sure of that. She’d never been able to get the stink of them out of her mind since the night they’d taken, abused and killed that sweet little gypsy girl – the favourite of her tribe. And she had been sweet. She’d never forget them for another reason though. The only creature that she’d ever valued nearly as much as herself had been ruined by them.

At least until Dru had become hers.

Angelus had been taken before he’d even had chance to see how his work of art – Drusilla – had turned out. Her darkness was deeper now than he had ever known it. Her madness was more complete. Her power more magnificent than ever it had been in his day. Dru, contrary to the static viewpoint of many vampires was definitely improving with age.

Like a fine wine.

If Drusilla had been a whisker saner than she was, then she would have been a threat to Darla. If that had been the case then she’d never have allowed her to stay around for that very reason – or attempted to use her as she was willing to. But now… now Dru was simply dangerous. A weapon that couldn’t easily be pointed or guided – but a weapon all the same.

And all of the Order knew it.

It had rankled a bit with her that they feared an upstart of less than two centuries more than they did she, but then she’d realised… it didn’t matter at all. Because Drusilla, for as long as she was here, was just what her ‘Grandmamma’ wanted her to be. A dark mirror of her will – even if it was a fairground mirror which was distorted. And she was fun to have around, too. As she’d learnt a century ago, though she’d disapproved of Drusilla then… but she’d always, and still, disapproved of that idiot who called himself ‘Spike.’

Perhaps she’d disapproved of Dru because of William? He’d been brought into their family so soon after Dru had been turned. And Angelus had indulged her – letting him stay. There had been no democracy in that group – but she couldn’t have resisted all three of them, which meant that William had stayed.

It had been interesting, she had to admit, to see how Drusilla’s selection had changed from mild mannered poet to demon inspired killer. It had been interesting for all of about three minutes. Neither she, nor Angelus, would have seen William as anything but a meal. He had made a fine vampire – when you wanted chaos. A fine vampire when he was away from her.

Drusilla had seen something else in him though – something she wanted. What it had been Darla had no idea. Perhaps Drusilla had detected some trait that would have transferred from the human to the demon – someone who would be devoted to her and follow her to the ends of the earth – or sanity. Whichever was the further away.

And then Angelus had been gone. Taken from them by the damned gypsies and their curse. That pesky soul was all that had led him to oppose the Master and ultimately meet his death. Oh… and when she found the gypsy in Sunnydale, then even Drusilla would stand back and applaud her originality as she tortured that filthy human to within an inch of death a hundred or maybe even a thousand times.

One inch and one day at a time. Some inches would be better than others. But she’d be patient… for that. To remember her old partner in eternity and to finish off that bit of business. No matter how unlikely, she didn’t want any gypsy curses interfering with what she, she and Drusilla had here. She was too close to being ready. Sunnydale had been primed for a while, taking up a lot of extra effort – but the rest of the South California had taken longer once she’d decided to try for parts of the North as well. But soon now, she and Dru would have everything they wanted. A Hellmouth to call their own for a start.

She, Drusilla and William. If it had to be... at least for now. She knew she’d find a way of reducing that from three to two.

But when Lucas approached her and whispered those magic words in her ear. She hadn’t hoped to hear them – it would have been too unbearable when it didn’t come to pass. Oh, they were so delicious… and she’d just been thinking about William, the dear, dead boy as well. Absolutely perfect. Almost poetic really in a way he might once, as a mortal, have appreciated. He was… gone. Truly dead.

The number of times over the past few days she’d bitten her tongue, literally bitten it to keep Drusilla on side, and now… he was gone without her having to do a thing. She hadn’t wanted to risk William taking Drusilla away from her – the insane vampire was far too powerful for her to let that happen. Drusilla had been destined to be hers as soon as she left the lawyers and came back to the fold.

William hadn’t ever been a part of that plan – not at all - but until she’d had full control of Drusilla, supplanted him in her ‘granddaughters’ affections it had been necessary to ‘respect’ his position.

Not any longer. Now she could be herself and she could have Dru all to herself too.

Her existence was, sometimes, a beautiful thing. She was certainly going to have to celebrate this. Once she’d gotten past the question of telling Dru what had happened and worrying about the reaction. It… well, she couldn’t believe her luck. This was the sort of thing that made it all worthwhile. The moments you could take satisfaction in something which you hadn’t expected.

Satisfying as it was, this wasn't a time to gloat though – not if she wanted to bring Drusilla even more firmly to her side. Handled right, this would make her unbalanced sister into her faithful servant – even in her less balanced moments. Perhaps even more than that. But handled badly…

Well, that wasn’t going to happen, was it? She wasn’t about to allow that. This was going to be the most important thing she had to do before she led her Order to claim this town.

She turned in the chair, primly, towards Drusilla who was playing with a set of eyeballs she’d obviously found somewhere in her travels. She was talking to them as if waiting for a reply. Such a sweet sight, almost cute. So, with the removal of those eyes from their owner’s head, a perfectly good hunt had been spoiled and the, now eyeless human, just turned into a bag of blood by that decision to pluck. She would have punished such waste in anyone else. Darla allowed some latitude to this vampire though. She’d have to allow even more now. She wouldn’t ever return Drusilla to sanity and she never wanted to anyway – no matter how trying she could sometimes be - but the others would have to understand that she was a special case and her example did not apply to them.

They pretty much understood that already, Darla was sure.

They couldn’t litter this place with snacks, like the Bronze had been, until they’d taken control of the town and they could afford such wastage. She wanted to revel in it, to be able to play without having to ask for humans to be delivered to her, but until then she would set an example. Even if Dru didn’t.

“Drusilla, honey, I have to talk to you,” she said. She wanted to laugh. She wanted to celebrate. There might even have been a dance within her, trying to get out. She wanted to pluck out a few eyeballs herself, maybe even tell them all about the end of that buffoon who called himself ‘Spike.’ But this… this was perfect. This could be perfect. This could be everything she needed. Angelus was long, long gone… and Darla had to admit she was better when there was someone, someone who was almost her equal, with her to share the ecstasy of inflicting pain and of ruling the night.

It was strange how they’d all followed her example. She had been the Master’s. Angelus had been hers for over a hundred years. Drusilla, whom he had created, had sired William for her own reasons, and maybe they’d been the same as Darla’s for turning Angelus. Desire… physical desire, a kindred evil…

Now, perhaps, she and Dru… They could share each other’s existence for a while and perhaps even bring wider existence, the world as it were, to an end.

If the mood took them or they didn’t get what they wanted. She wasn’t overly keen on apocalypses but they had their place as opportunities of last resort. When she got bored. The Master had been planning one – at just the right time – for centuries. She’d always bought into the idea it might be a good thing.

One night…

But even the Master had come to hold back from that when he had risen. The world was perfect for vampires now. People were out of their homes in the night. Feeding was easier. The demon within them wasn’t surrounded by religious conviction – a cross on every neck. No… Now the world was a place that might have been built for vampires.

Except Sunnydale – with its protectors.

Drusilla turned around, wide-eyed as if curious what could have made Darla pull her away from her new friends. In each hand, held up alongside her own eyes, was an eyeball. Occasionally, they turned to her as if they were whispering in her ears. Perhaps, to her they really were.

She was such a delicate flower… such a tribute to Angelus. His legacy was truly astounding – even if it was she who’d discovered the girl Drusilla had been and pointed her out to him. They’d enjoyed her sisters too. The blood of the virtuous was so sweet.

They’d had so much fear in them.

And it wasn’t just the blood that had been sweet…

“Yes, Grandmamma?”

“Honey, I’m afraid that something has happened to William,” Darla said gravely, despite the glee that filled her cold, dead heart. “Something bad.” So bad she almost had to laugh out loud. He’d been… the only words for it, apparently, were ‘blown up.’ Blown to pieces and within a few moments he’d have been blown to dust and all burnt up too. Lucas had only made it back to her because he’d been thrown into a pool of slime in a larger tunnel whilst avoiding being seen by the late, unlamented, William. She shuddered in sheer delight and tried to mask it as sorrow for Dru’s loss.

With a gesture she dismissed Lucas. His vile scent, his clothes covered in filth, offended her and spoiled her appreciation of the moment. When he returned he would be in a proper state to display the proper… sorrow. She was so glad she had sent him after William though.

Sorrow… Dru really was hers now. It was an effort to avoid making some human celebratory gesture and suddenly she found she was aching for blood rushing past her lips.

“We know,” Drusilla told the eyeball in her left hand. “We saw it happen.”

“We did?” Darla was forced to ask. Taken aback. If Dru had known and now she wasn’t all upset… then… Was she the tool that Darla needed? Was this a good thing or a bad thing? A Dru compelled to seek revenge would have been powerful – but might have given them all away. A Dru without rage, accepting his fate… That hadn’t been what she had been planning for.

Swings and roundabouts. Upsides and downsides.

Which was better?

The right eyeball nodded as the hand tipped and Drusilla turned back to look at it. “We saw my Spike chasing the little girl and we saw him catch her. Spike always catches what he chases.”

Present tense… Could William still be alive? Had Lucas been mistaken – or overanxious to please her? No… Drusilla had said that he was gone. Dru had actually said she knew something bad had happened. But what if he wasn’t gone? William was a survivor – she had to give him that. The way he’d behaved throughout his vampire existence a dozen Slayers should have tracked him down.

Instead he’d killed at least two of them.

And the girl… what of the girl that she’d given him? That had been the loose end. If the girl had escaped, no matter what had happened to William, then… then there was a problem. His discovery was one thing – but if someone escaped and revealed what had actually been happening here… No one could be allowed to escape and tell anyone - especially the witches - where they had escaped from. As soon as that happened, they would be forced to come out above ground and take the town. The only alternative would be to wait for the Witches here – and in all likelihood die here too. But they weren’t ready to ascend just yet. She’d planned that night thoroughly and she needed more. It shouldn’t have taken long but… she knew she needed more. More vampires. More demon ally’s to cause problems. More food to feed them. More weapons which would negate the Witch’s advantages. She’d had a military officer she’d taken from the local base advise her – before she’d tired of the woman’s officiousness and sent her to San Francisco where she could do a better job in infiltrating her former colleagues operations.

Darla knew that if she moved too quickly then she might have wasted all this time. She wasn't just trying to kill the Witches. She was trying to take the entire town for her own, secure the Hellmouth and secure more food than they would ever need. The Master… He’d been unexpected. No one had really known the rules. That wouldn’t work this time. The Witches were here – hunting vampires every night. The people in town knew not to open their doors after dark.

Things were harder now. She needed more forces than the Master had dreamed of and she couldn’t move too soon. Not until she had what she needed. She’d already brought her plans forward – in her own mind at least – because of having Dru on her side. The power, along with the discipline fear of her brought to the Order. Perfect. The timetable couldn’t shift again – unless there was no other choice. A matter of weeks was all that was needed.

“My Spike always catches what he’s chasing,” Dru repeated – a little sadder this time.

Not anymore, Darla thought, finding a place inside her to hide away the thrill that all this had given her. Yes, there were worries – but this was something she’d wanted for more than a quarter of her existence. She’d have to bury her elation very deeply to hide it from Dru, who knew her so well. She had to admit that she’d been afraid of Drusilla’s reaction, but… this was too far the other way for comfort. Another worry she could do without. Why wasn’t Drusilla angry? Why wasn't she raging? Why wasn't she trying to kill everyone around her for whatever reason her mad brain could dream up? No one to bring her dollies or something?

“She’s dead then?” Darla asked carefully, referring to the girl. Her followers – literally following William everywhere that he’d gone – hadn’t been able to say for certain. It seemed like a good thing now that Lucas hadn’t seen the ‘how’ of his destruction. Just the ‘where’ and the ‘when.’ Lucas was one of the more promising of her creations. If he could avoid aggravating her for a few decades he could be very powerful. Having him fried too wouldn’t have been helpful.

This she certainly wanted to know – but the girl was the concern. Where was she? Dead with William?

Ordinarily, William’s destruction would have been more than enough for her – auspicious even – but not when there was a human involved. She needed more than that. She needed to know that the truth about what existed beneath Sunnydale wasn’t going to come out before she was ready to come out for herself. There was a party she had planned – it would be a shame to spoil the surprise. When they were ready, as the Master had been ready, this whole town – much of the state – would be hers.

All in one night.

William, in her mind, would have been perfect. As bait – or a distraction - should something have gone wrong. If they’d been discovered then she could have set him up as the leader of a small group – perhaps the most useless ten members of the Order she had – which could be tracked and destroyed by the Witches. That would have left the bulk of her forces intact and the Witches happy that they’d been able to destroy a nest. His loss didn’t bother her – but if only he’d stuck around long enough to act baity when required.

He might even have survived it – to keep Dru happy she’d have allowed that.

Without William to distract the Witches, then she had another slight problem – who to give to them if the girl had escaped or they knew what was going on? Even if she had hoped that they would succeed in killing William eventually, this was inconvenient now. She so wanted to hunt freely in the world outside. To get out of this dirty, filthy place and to have a big window looking out over a world that would either be hers or one she could destroy at a whim…

Before the world ended though, she would deal with any gypsies in this town. She’d take over and have every one of them brought to her. Once she’d had that pleasure… then she might choose to end the world. Such was the benefit of having a Hellmouth of her very own. Angelus had called her ‘spiteful’ more than once. Even he’d had no idea how deep that went because for some reason he’d never invoked it in her. The soul had never been his fault. Killing ‘Angel’ would have been a blessing to the tortured vampire.

So she’d left him to his human feelings and misery.

Her spite was the one human quality she’d been proud to retain though.

If, though, the girl had escaped then the Witches would know there was a vampire nest, at least one, in town. She might still have to given them some of her Order… to preserve the rest of them. Without Spike to act as the obvious power that was guiding them it would be harder to ensure they were convinced.

The Watcher, especially, would have to be convinced by whoever the leader was supposed to be. Leading vampires took power and a certain degree of charisma – whether that came from genuine inspiration or from fear. Mentally she started to think through who in the Order had the requisite attributes and was expendable to the cause.

Or a threat to her in the future.

As she thought about it she looked at Drusilla, still in conversation with the eyeballs. She was the most obvious candidate on one level. She could have given Dru to the Witches and been sure they’d never look beyond the sacrifice for anyone else. Drusilla was notorious in her own way. But somehow… that wasn’t something that she thought would give her the advantage in the longer term. After all, she and Drusilla could wait until the Witches had died of old age if they really had to.

Not that she wanted to stay underground for that that long. She didn’t want to be underground now. Maybe… maybe the lawyers in L.A. would still have something for her, some way of dealing with the Witches. The idea turned her stomach - begging for help after her posture of disdain. They had offered her the tool already though. And if she asked then they would be gracious enough to make her actions seem respectable even though it was still begging - but they might have what she needed. They’d already offered, but the price had always seemed too high.

Her original plan would still work – but the losses would be huge, too huge to rush anything unless she had to.

The problem was that she didn’t know whether there was even a threat. If the girl was still alive or not. If she was then she could even leave town without saying a word to anyone. It depended how much fear was within her. Every one of her captives in the blood cages was from outside Sunnydale. Human’s were weak – they craved the place and the people they belonged to. She might just leave to go home.

Abruptly, Drusilla turned away from the eyeballs, one of which was now speared on her index finger as she gently squeezed the other one, testing its capacity to withstand pressure. A capacity in Drusilla herself that Darla was both impressed and worried by as she examined those long, slim fingers with interest.

Why wasn't Dru reacting to Spike’s destruction?

Was he really dead? Dru would know…

But Lucas had said that he’d been seen disintegrating – admittedly at a distance. Even if that weren’t as final as it should have been… There was a possibility his destruction didn’t have to be final – at least not for those that knew some of the secrets… which at least one of the Witches did… but for Spike it would be very, very final.

There were ways, which one Witch knew all about, to bring a vampire back. But… Dru had never spent enough time with the Master to discover any of those. So there was only Darla herself who would possibly use the knowledge and Darla knew she was much better off without him – because now Drusilla was hers to use as she was needed. She wouldn’t have dreamed of trying to bring him back even if she could have found the means to do it. It sounded as if his bones were already dust. He hadn’t been old enough to leave a skeleton. So very few vampires were... Darla wasn’t even sure about herself. There might be other ways, but Darla was damned if she was going to find one that might work.

Not even for Dru.

Drusilla, finally, had come back to the Order she’d never really been a part of before. She might have been the lawyer’s intermediary, but now she belonged to the Order. And the Order belonged to Darla. Drusilla would be the one vampire that she could ever trust. Not even Angelus had truly gained her trust.

Drusilla though… she wouldn’t want power if it was dripping in warm blood. And Darla intended to make sure that it was. Drusilla’s wants weren’t necessarily easy to satisfy – but they weren’t going to interfere with the new Order that they would impose on the world of the undead. Together. They could do that together. It would be good to have someone to share a small part of eternity with again. It had been too long without someone to pay the right kind of attention to her.

Dru would more than just do. They’d have all sorts of good times together.

“Who’s dead?” Drusilla asked as if she hadn’t just confirmed it.

“William is dead,” Darla confirmed. “What about the girl?”

“No, not the other. She isn’t dead at all. She runs like a deer. She runs and runs and runs. She’ll run all the way to the stars if they let her but never hears her feet. She’ll run-”

“The human is alive?” Darla interrupted urgently. That was serious. That wasn’t good at all – speculation was one thing. The confirmation was something else. Couldn’t that idiot ‘Spike’ kill a little girl without messing it up? He’d killed, in the past, people she’d never wanted him to – at least not until she’d had what she wanted from them. She needed to hear that the girl was dead – right now. She’d even trust a vision for reassurance.

Or at least she wanted to.

They weren’t anywhere near ready to take on the Witches. William was supposed to have bought them time, if necessary – taking the focus away from the reality and switching it towards the mayhem he would have caused. Mayhem was one thing she was sure William could have managed. And he got killed before she could even set him loose to provide the distraction.

“She’s running. She still hasn’t stopped.”

The girl was alive. Dru knew it and now so did she.

The girl was out there. With the Witches? Was she with the Witches? Would the Witches find her? Would she find the Witches? What were the Witches doing? What did they know?

Darla hated questions when there was no one to torture for answers. She might just have to torture someone for fun, ask then the questions they would have no answer to.

Why wasn't Drusilla in a rage? And then, finally, she did react. Reaction was good – it removed the uncertainty.

“My Spike was running after her…” Drusilla said quietly and she actually started to cry.

Darla found herself, for the first time in either her life, or her unlife, having to comfort someone. And she didn’t like it at all. She knew the words though. She’d heard mothers try to reassure their children whilst she’d ripped the father’s throat out – saving the more tender morsels for later. “There, there,” she said awkwardly and tried to stroke the long dark hair as Drusilla’s head rested on her knee.

She gestured to the swiftly returned Lucas and beckoned him over as she rested her hand on the back of Drusilla’s head. With an instinctive appreciation of the time that was available to her followers before the sun rose, she knew that they wouldn’t have chance to search for very long before they couldn’t leave the shadows because of the cursed sun.

However, not very long might be long enough.

“Go out there, find the girl. Kill her. And if you don’t find her before sunrise, then you go out again tomorrow. And the night after and the night after that. Until she is found, you go out. Kill anyone she talks to as well. But no feeding up there. You can’t give us away now, Lucas.”

They couldn’t be given away now, not so close – Lucas was intelligent enough to understand why. He might even do as a sacrificial substitute for William if the time ever came.

Darla looked down at Drusilla who seemed to have perked up at the idea of killing. She’d stopped blubbering in one of the sudden mood changes that typified her. It wasn't like there was a soul to satisfy, now was there?

“Then, my dear, we’ll make sure that we find a way to go out there and hurt the humans that have hurt our family.” Gypsies. Little girls. Witches. All of them.

The tears were gone. There was just the grin of the wolf on Drusilla’s lips.

Now that was Darla’s girl.

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He didn’t know what Darla was thinking, Lucas mused, as he patrolled the streets of Sunnydale. He’d only seen the girl from a distance for a few short moments before she’d been released, but Darla hadn’t cared about that. She’d sent him to the girl’s former cell and he’d found something that carried her scent – but he wasn't some damn bloodhound. Darla hadn’t cared about that either. Having her scent would do him no good until he caught up with the girl – to confirm that it was her – and he would have to confirm it if he wasn’t allowed to kill anyone who was uninvolved.

It wasn't like he was bothered how many humans he’d kill before he found the right one – but they were still supposed to be keeping a low profile. Darla did care about that. It was, after all, why he’d been sent out here to find the kid. Couldn’t do the low profile thing if he massacred every kid in the town now could he?

Coming out, he’d actually been relishing the challenge. It was a chance – finally – to impress his sire and worm his way further into her trust. He’d chosen to stay here, with Darla, the Mistress of the Order. She’d been willing to send him out – to take his own town and rule it by night. She’d offered him that. But it would have been just that. A town. Nothing special about it. Not a vast city like LA. Not an economically important area like Silicon Valley. Just a town which would be expected to feed the growing numbers of vampires in Sunnydale.

Better being a servant on the Hellmouth than a farmer in a nothing town. So he’d chosen to stay. The hunting was okay in the tunnels – there was food sent from the Order’s other strongholds. He’d been quietly impressing Darla. She was against favourites… but he thought that he was one anyway. With the end of Jose at Drusilla’s hands, there weren’t many who could think of themselves as a favourite.

When Drusilla had arrived, as the messenger for the L.A. lawyers, he had sensed something different. The… mmmn… he liked to think of her as a dark goddess. He thought he’d heard the description somewhere. She’d made it clear she was sticking around. He liked that… really liked that. He’d flirted with her and she’d almost ripped his ears off. He liked a woman like that. Besides, she was unstable. She might have spent all her time with Darla, limiting his own chances to impress, but she wasn't going to take over any of the tasks that he performed – the jobs that had made him trusted by Darla.

Trusted to be the one who would help keep the secrets of the Order.

He came out of the alley. Still nothing. The girl was… well, she wasn’t where he thought she might be. She didn’t know Sunnydale – and she didn’t know that there were places that you just didn’t go in a town like this. By night at least.

He should have been able to track her – but she’d had such a head start she could have been anywhere. She wasn’t in the shelters. She wasn’t in the most obvious alleys with the secluded doorways and a good supply of cardboard to sleep on. She hadn’t caught a bus and there were no trains running at night.

Where the hell would a lonely girl, in trouble, go for protection?

Oh… right… there. If she was stupid.

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Re: Part 113

Postby Cicca » Mon Jul 14, 2003 12:59 am

uh oh!!

Run Toni Run!



So Spike still seems to have gone poof... OK.



Darla's desire for companionship and luxury is very interesting. Drusilla's even scarier with those eyes!



Hints of Darla bringing someone back. I forget what the price is, but I'm having visions of a certain someone coming back from the dead.

Interesting!



Thanks Katharyn :)

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Re: Part 114

Postby notl33t » Mon Jul 14, 2003 1:59 am

Go Darla! I can't believe I'm cheering for Darla, but, well...the girl deserves a little respect for all of her hard work. I commend her. Managing to build up an empire without W/T finding out...but she knows about them without them fully knowing about her and her potential Big Bad-ness. I've always liked Darla. Evil, intelligent...hot...leaves nothing to be desired in the Evil Villainess department.



Druzilla's reactions are spot on, IMHO...thank you for keeping her insane....but sane occasionally...that girl's got issues. Poor Spike-y. But as you pointed out...Tara did resurrect a vampire, didn't she? Perhaps this is merely one step in his chronicle...but I'm digressing. And Dru does have a lot of magic....even if she is crazy, she's got a lot of tenacity. Mmm, Drusilla...hmm...no more speculating on my part about this....though I think I'm a bit insane. After all, why do I like the evil women? What's so alluring about a woman who would as soon grab your eyeballs out than hug you?



I love Lucas, too. He's soooooooo stupid. I always have a little spot in my heart for the imperceptive evils. All he is, is muscle. But he allows himself to believe that he is more than that. Thank you for rounding him out a little bit by letting us see into his head.



And

Oh

My

Goddess.....the ending was just so...so...its a cliffhanger, though I think I can see where you're heading with it...who do normal humans trust that shouldn't in this case be trusted?...but I'm not sure...I certainly hope that W/T are trying to track down Toni, too. Lucas may be stupid, but muscle-y types tend to get down to business a lot quicker than the "I'll take a really long time torturing you and making you afraid of me then perhaps eventually thinking about killing you while you escape" villains. Ooh...cliffhanger. And it's a good one, too. You write ambiguous (or is it ambivalent?) endings very well. Eep. Run Toni Run...



As for the lack of W/T...hey, you gotta write what you gotta write. No regrets. Especially since it came out so nicely....



I'll try to stop thinking about these wonderful threads running right now in the story...but its just so nice to speculate...eep. And short updates....whee! I like short updates, too. I like updates period.



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Re: Part 114

Postby justin » Mon Jul 14, 2003 5:56 am

For someone who says that she doesn't like cliffhangers, or at least I think that you said that - I may be wrong, you certainly write them well.



So Toni is likely running to the police. The problem is that given what Lucas thinks at the end, and what people have said in this thread about Darla having friends in high places, it seems likely that the police will just smile and hand her over to Lucas.



Also since Willow and Tara think that she's a local girl they won't look for her till they've had a chance to talk to Jenny. So unless Tara has another premonition there won't be another just in time rescue :sob



I'm looking forward to the next part.

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Re: Part 113

Postby Kalita » Mon Jul 14, 2003 8:49 am

I note that there is no absolute evidence of Spike's destruction. Lucas saw something happen, but not necesarily what he thinks; Dru is sad, but hasn't confirmed anything. Interesting...



Is there a police problem here? That could be trouble, indeed. Toni had better proceed with extreme caution...

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Re: Part 114

Postby tiredsoul » Mon Jul 14, 2003 9:58 pm

That was quite the cliffhanger, Katharyn. I so like being in the loop on this one.



Though scampering quietly :p



Can I just say … ewwwwwww… to that eyeball thing again? Reminded me of the spiders in the First Chronicle.



*shudder*



Think I’ll scamper above ground for awhile. Too disturbing under the soil for now.



I like your versions of Darla and Drusilla. The more creepy and devious, the better. Versions you just love to hate.



Darla’s plans have a snag in them now? Poor Darla. Not! While I know it’s not gonna be quick, it’s definitely going to be fun seeing how this plays out.



Thanks.



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Re: Part 114

Postby xita » Tue Jul 15, 2003 2:00 pm

Enjoyed this update very much. Darla was always a favorite of mine. I think if you are going to have a villain they have to be interesting, otherwise what is the point? You sort of have a desire to half cheer for them, knowing full well they'll never get away with it. Drusilla's reaction was strange but then again she's insane! So appropriate. Now if Darla was so concerned about being found out she should not have been keeping prisoners who could escape.



I hope our girls have a chance to find toni before this lucas does.

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Re: Part 114

Postby Grimlock72 » Tue Jul 15, 2003 2:22 pm

Oh I think it's very likely Toni is filling a report at the local police station. Wouldn't surprise me in the least. Can vampires enter police stations without invite, probably 'cos they are public buildings.



Darla does think mighty highly of herself but so far has little to support that. Sure she has setup an underground operation right under Willow and Tara's noses, but that mostly indicates faulty patrolling/hunting/researching by the witches. I'm still pissed about that btw.



It was fun to read at the beginning how Darla tried to justify to herself why 'her' followers fear Dru more than Darla herself, heh :-). Anyone trying to use Dru for anything is going to end up dissappointed. Darla really thinks having Dru around is going to pay off, that alone drops her down the respect-ladder for me. I like my enemies to think they're invincible though, nothing wrong with that : -->>: .



Darla's thoughts tend to bore me. At least Spike's thoughts were fun and sarcastic, Darla is all about how great she is. Haven't seen much of a plan to "take-over over the world Pinky" besides gathering a lot of vampires around. If all she wants is to open the hellmouth that should be feasable, but vamping most of the inhabitants of Sunnydale would be difficult. They're forewarned after all.



Darla thinking about involving W&H is worrysome, they might have some stuff that would actually hurt Willow or Tara. I doubt a reunion with Lilah would be all that nice either. For several reasons I would view Lilah as far more of a threat compared to Darla (watch out for screaming attackers but truly fear the silent ones -- thats me).



At the moment I'm more frustrated by W/T not knowing about a year-long operation in the sewers of the town they claim to be protecting and Toni running away from the best she could get. Can't say I'm truly worried about W/T just yet, seems their combined magics should be able to handle most of the threats currently present in town, even though they don't KNOW all those threats yet.



Hmm... I suppose it would be very evil to tell Toni she has only herself to blame when she's transferred from the police station back to vampire land ?? Yeah, wouldn't wish that on Toni. Still if she really IS so stupid to take refuge in a public building... yeah I know, just can't get over someone not instantly trusting Tara at least.



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"You hurt Tara," Willow said too calmly. "The last one who tried that was a god. I made her regret it." -- Unexpected Consequences by Lisa of Nine

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Re: Part 114

Postby TemperedCynic » Tue Jul 15, 2003 6:55 pm

This update has me concerned, and not for Willow, Tara or Toni. I'm concerned for Jenny and her family. Darla's hatred for the gypsy family that cursed Angelus will cause Darla to pursue Jenny. And our heroines don't even suspect.



Darla rules with fear and her linchpin is Drusilla. Lovely, insane, unstable Drusilla. Darla had better stick to her plan to take over the town and eliminate the witches. Otherwise, she may lose Dru as an ally. That would prove fatal.



Toni needs to learn the hard way that the police cannot and will not help her. Lucas will find the girl at the police station. I'm looking forward to Toni's life lesson, and how she processes the information. And to whom she will turn, in need.



Loved this, Katharyn.


More than any other time in history, mankind faces a crossroads. One path leads to despair and utter hopelessness. The other, to total extinction. Let us pray we have the wisdom to choose correctly. Woody Allen (1935 - )

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Re: Part 114

Postby Katharyn » Tue Jul 15, 2003 10:56 pm

Hey kittens, I have to be a little quick right now on account of actually needing to write this things, so forgive me if I do not pick up on every point.



Cicca - Toni is running, Spike is still poof and Darla is still Darla. I wouldn;t all get too hung up about Darla's suitability as a big bad (not that you do Cicca) simply cos she is soooo not the point.



The big bad is not the point.



Ever.



Dru in vampface is... scary I agree.



Darla bringing someone back. Let me make this really clear here, as I realise that I might have imadvertently have suggested more than one thing. Darla is thinking about the knowledge the Master's fave's had which would allow them to bring him back.



There is really on she and Willow who have this. (This is S2 Ep1 stuff.) It doesn't refer (my bad!) in any way to how willow was brought back by Tara, or how "Amy/Amy's Mom" brought Willow back waaaaay back. Just thought I had better say as this is not as obvious as it should be!



Interested to know who you see coming back?



Thanks



notl33t - Now this is the reaction to Darla I was hoping for. She has worked damn hard at keeping out of sight of T/W. Nothing, and I mean nothing, was happening to people in Sunnydale - which is totally atypical for vampires. And hence T/W could genuinely believe they were on top of things.



In terms of things hurting Sunnydale they are.



The only thing which could have revealed Darla easily would have been Tara's pendant.



The one that hurt her and caused her pain every time it worked. She doesn't wear that now.



Glad you got what I meant here. *HUGS*



I like writing about Dru, having others see her, but getting in her head is too scary. For the resurection theme please see above! It's Willow I mean, her knowledge from the Master (which she never did.) Tara's raising, wasn't really hers. The Vocah did pretty much all of it. Tara could not have brought Willow back on her own.



You think Dru could recall Spike? Now there is a thought...



Lucas thinks he is smart, he used to be, but the vampire ceases to use the brains the person had.



Cliffhanger? Really? I suppose so. It just represented a place to split it to me.



"Run Toni Run" seems to be the motto right now!



Thanks Noe.



Justin - If I tried to write a cliffhanger it would be a damp squib.



Toni running to the police? There is a fair chance. Does she know where to find them though?



Also... I am amused by the "corruption" in the police thing. Its an urban myth - like a Bigfoot (which is probably a rural myth.) I am not saying there isn't - but I never actually said anything of the kind! Someone posted an opinion based on what I did say... and now Darla has friends in high places? Okay... It could be true or not, but whatever happens I did not say it!



Thanks



Kalita - Woohoo - a believer. Or a cynic. No. There is no "evidence" of Spike's destruction. I noticed that too. I would say though that is there ever (apart from the Master) any evidence of a vampire's destruction - esp on a breezy day.



Police problem...? Oooh look a Bigfoot!



*S*



Thanks Kalita.



Celia - Its not a cliffhanger when you have read the next 16 parts is it?? Perhaps that is why I do not see it, I am even further ahead!



Ewww indeed. I was looking for gross-out - eyeballs had to be that. They also have personalitry (so to speak)



And yeah... you still do not know how it plays out. I guess that means I get nowhere fast?



Thanks



Xita - Villains should be interesting. Which is why Adam didn't work. They should also be a real threat (3 stooges bleh.) Are the vamps a threat? Sure... but...



And yeah, silly Darla.



Our girls always have a chance... I would all of you be aware of how time passes in the next few parts.



Grimlock - I would say vampires can enter a police station as they are not a home. Darla thinks highly of herself because of who and where she is. Alive for centuries, direct descendant of the Master.



Kind of reminds you of inherited money. The great think they are great cos they have money and who they were born to.



See above re T/W missing the vamps.



Darla/Dru cannot work IMHO unless something changes. You can;t use Dru it is very true.



Darla's thoughts bore you? Gee thanks. LOL.



W&H - Darla does not want them - but she has to consider the option...



Oooh look, another Bigfoot.



Beware the Urban Myths.



Thanks.



Tempered Cynic - aaah, nicely spotted TC. Yeah... Jenny could be in trouble there, assuming Darla lasts that long.



Fear is a bad way to rule, but necessary amngst vamps... Dru is the key now though.



Will the police help Toni? If she went to them I doubt they could, but watch out for the Bigfoot. I don't think you see it yet.



Thanks all,



Katharyn

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If I want a little pussy, I got my own to play with.
Chance in Chance.




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Katharyn
 


Part 115

Postby Katharyn » Wed Jul 16, 2003 10:05 pm

Hey kittens, here is 115. Have fun.

K

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Title: The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle - Hide and Seek (Part 115)
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Constructive criticism is always welcome. katharynrosser@hotmail.com Flames just demonstrate you have a tiny mind.
Spoiler Warning: Pretty limited. The story occurs in an alternate universe as set up in “The Wish” though reference is made to events that occur in both realities. Nothing is referenced that occurs after S5 though. Guess why? Most “spoilers” would be for the first chronicle of this fic rather than the show and if you haven’t read that then much of this will make no sense but you can try and get round it by reading the preface to Part 104 which summarises most of what went before.
Distribution This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens (This applies to all of the Sidestep Chronicle)
Summary: After Toni leaves the girls standing she has to go somewhere, right?
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc, etc. I am making zilch from this series of stories. You know the drill.
Rating: R – a general rating for occasional content. Individual parts might be less than this level.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever – others couples as necessary but nothing unconventional.
Notes: My mistakes are my own, despite all the help I receive. I am sure you guys have figured that, for at least a little while, Toni is going to be part of this fic – she’s been in it a fair amount so far. It’s a no-brainer then. It is, for me, very hard to write a deaf character – not because they are deaf (as such) but because of the language I use to describe stuff even when it does not directly involve “hearing” is different. As such please excuse any tiny lapses that slip through scrutiny. But she is deaf – and anything to the contrary is a simple error of language use. On the other hand… I think that it is possible to carry this too far, which I am also guilty of. If Toni refers to a TV program for example, I think it can be taken as read that she was using closed captions (subtitles to UK kittens) rather than me having to say that all the time? Go with the fact she is deaf and the rest is easy. *Cough* You may have figured out she is in this part. *S*
Thanks To: All My Brilliant Beta Readers (AMBBR) Kerry (Forrister) and Jo (Wizpup) who for some reason signed right back up for this fic after seeing the size of the last one. No accounting for madness is there. And Celia (TiredSoul) who should have known better but signed up anyway. *HUGS* and Big Thanks to all of you. This is one of Kerry’s. I am not sure how I managed this, and its weird coz I never asked, but somehow I have two beta readers who between them know something of ASL and deaf people. What are the chances of that? Also it struck me I have not been varying these thanks very much – I would just like to thank all the readers out there. I think many of the people posting either came late to Sidestep or lurked their way through it – its nice to see you posting now.


The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle

Hide and Seek

By

Katharyn Rosser


Toni didn’t know why she was so tired. She’d run a lot sure – further than she ever would have usually. But she’d stop running nearly two hours ago and her recovery time was never usually this long. This was hardly a usual day though – or night. It hadn’t been a good few weeks. It was no wonder she was mentally and physically weirded out.

She’d been walking around through the suburbs of the town and then, when she’d found a place where there was no one around, she’d sat and rested - and she was still exhausted. There was really nothing left, if she needed to run again then… She didn’t think she’d get more than a dozen paces before the fatigue and cramp stopped her. Maybe it was because it was so late. Maybe it was because she’d been up all day and hadn’t done more than napped for weeks now. Maybe it was because she’d been out of her training routine…

Or maybe it was that adrenaline stuff. Her coach had clued her in about that. How, in the big races, tension and excitement could be your friend – even though a lot of other people were of the opinion you should be loose, easy and that she should just treat it as routine. She hadn’t paid attention to those other people much. Her coach thought that this adrenaline thing could help her win, if she focused it right, and he’d been right. At least she thought he had been.

Toni had won her races and she’d never gotten over her nerves yet.

She’d run for her life and she was still alive. There must be something in it.

She wasn’t really sure just what adrenaline was - even if she’d seen stuff about it in books and on captioned TV too. She was pretty sure that there was a gland involved in it somewhere. It had only been the effect that she’d ever been interested in. All natural, all clean. When that effect ended – after it had helped you out – did it make you tired? Maybe that was it. Maybe that was what was wrong with her right now?

Maybe, as long and as hard as she’d run she hadn’t been able to get away from everything about that place. Dad was still dead – she couldn’t leave that behind, no matter how far she ran. She couldn’t get past the way it ached inside her… and she was pretty sure she wouldn’t ever be able to get far enough away for it not to hurt.

She didn’t think she’d ever actually want to.

She was sure no one had followed her, she’d even paused in the trees at the edge of the park to make sure of it. The only people out there had been those two women and she didn’t want to be anywhere around them either. She’d watched them for a minute from the trees and they’d just seemed to be talking or something. About her? She’d been too far away to really tell of course. Too far to tell if they were really speaking that was, like with their mouths, or there was some sort of ‘getting into someone’s head’ weirdness going on which one of them had tried to force on her. They did that – those two – so why not with each other? At least one of them did it… and the other one…

Toni had seen and felt the death of that other one in her head, the vampire had put those feelings in her. A feeling of sucking the life out of a neck whilst red hair was in her face. But this redhead didn’t seem… well dead. No was she seem to be the same as the bad thing which cropped up later in other thoughts and feelings which weren’t her own.

There hadn’t been any more fire though – not after the one which had… destroyed a whole sewer but had, she was forced to admit to herself, driven off the vampire which had been chasing her – and probably saved her life.

Looking back at them she’d found herself becoming more and more certain that the red-haired one was the one from in her head, if she’d had any remaining doubts at all after being face to face with her. That woman had been from a small part of the bad, bad dream the dark haired vampire had put there. If Toni hadn’t run into her then she might never have put it together. The death of that red haired girl was a small part of it… not even the worst of what the vampire had put in her head.

But she was certain, given what was in her head… The redhead was, or had been, a vampire. She’d felt the life being sucked out of a girl with longer, but still red, hair by the vampire. She knew it was the same person. And then, after that, the surge of pride as the new vampire had made her first kill… She’d felt it and she didn’t want to feel it anymore. So she’d run again, away from the one who could be a vampire and the other who’d been in her mind and could give her more thoughts, nightmares and feelings she didn’t want. Feelings and thoughts which came to her when something triggered them… If she got away from vampires and from the redhead then they weren’t so bad.

What the blonde had put there… She could still feel… no… was it like hearing that voice in her head? A voice. Had she ‘heard’ a voice there? Was that the other one, the blonde ones voice?

She couldn’t have ‘heard’ anything and she shouldn’t have felt anything either. That wasn’t how things worked. No one was supposed to be in your head like that. Just like no one was supposed to be too close to you… not unless you wanted them to be. She couldn’t have stayed and let that blonde woman make her feel stuff she didn’t want to.

If someone was there, inside her head, then it was definitely wrong… No one should be in her head like that. It shouldn’t even be possible. Not in anyone’s head. No one. That vampire… she’d been in there and she’d left terrible, ugly, things there. Things that the vampire had thought were beautiful… all pretty. But they weren’t. They were… all the things that had happened over such a long time and some of them were things that had happened here in this town – which by now she knew was called Sunnydale. Not much of it had happened here… This wasn’t the vampire’s home but it was somewhere she’d been before. Once.

And Toni thought that was how the vampire had met the redhead. Killed her. How the redhead had become a vampire too.

‘Welcome to Sunnydale’ indeed.

Except the redhead wasn’t a vampire now was she? Could a person be a vampire and then not a vampire?

That was a big-ass question – two weeks ago she’d have thought anyone who believed in vampires was crazy and she had no real idea how it all worked, just ugly snatches of memory which she didn’t want.

This might be Sunnydale, but she didn’t know where this town was though. California according to the road signs, she hadn’t seen any for the big cities though, which would have placed her. Nor had she found a map that would tell her how far it was to get home. Could she just get on a bus? Was there a bus station? Even if she had any money, what was there at home for her now?

Dad was dead.

Mom had gone years ago – left them both because she couldn’t cope with a deaf kid. At least that was what she’d always thought. Dad had pretty much tried to make Mom look good by taking the blame on himself, but Toni knew the truth. She knew when he’d been lying to protect her. He just hadn’t wanted her to hate her Mom. Too late Daddy…

There was a residential option at her school that she could take up. But who was going to pay for that? And who would even care? Who would look after her? She didn’t need anyone or… Well, she didn’t want to need anyone… but she was realistic enough to know that she would – at least officially. The police and the judges would insist on it. They’d put her with someone. Maybe her Mom – who she didn’t even remember, let alone know. Mom didn’t even send her a card on her birthday or want to know anything about her.

Foster parents would be better than that.

But she didn’t want them either.

She wanted her Dad the way it had always been – not someone else. Just him. But….

That was part of why she’d been wandering around. She had to… she had to tell them about her Dad. The police. The authorities… They had to do something, if they could, but… she wanted to do that and still be able to just leave when she was done there. If she told them and they found out how old she was…

They wouldn’t let her leave. Surely they wouldn’t let her walk out of there once she’d told them? The police would know how old she was, hear that her Dad was dead and they’d make her stay there until they put her into care.

And how were they going to understand her without getting an interpreter in?

She’d have to write everything down and that would take ages… and then they’d have stupid questions to ask… or valuable ones. Questions that she just didn’t know the answers to. Dad was dead. That was all that mattered. Vampires did it… Vampires fucking existed! They were real and they’d killed her Dad and why had the police let that stuff go on under their town anyway? How could they not know there were monsters under everyone’s feet?

All she’d done was run. That was all she knew how to do. They were in the sewers and that was all that she knew about them – maybe a little of the directions she’d run in. Her Dad was dead. They were in the sewers. They were vampires. And she’d run. That was all she knew.

Her Dad was dead and she didn’t want to be taken into care. She knew that as well. She just wanted him back – she knew that too.

She knew she didn’t want to be with her Mom either.

She just wanted her Dad back. Was that too much to ask of the world after everything else?

Yes. Because she couldn’t have him… because he was dead. They’d killed him and that was that.

It wasn't fair. Why did they pick them to be brought here at all? It just wasn’t fair. There were other houses on their street but they hadn’t gone there had they? No. Well… some of them. But there were vampires and people doing… magic or some such shit here. What was it about this place that people allowed that sort of thing to happen? What were the police doing? Okay so the magic thing had saved her from the vampires but both of them had been in her head – which had to be a crime because it felt bad that way, to have someone there… And they, the vampires, had wanted to kill her. Her Dad was already dead. The police had to do something. They just had to.

But what could they do really?

She’d been worrying about that too. What she would be doing by telling them about this? Would she get them, and everyone else, hurt?

Dad had a friend who was a cop… Nice lady, she and her husband had both even bothered to learn some simple signing too. They didn’t have to at all – even with the school for deaf kids in their town, most people there didn’t really bother to learn anyone else’s language – let alone hers. The point was that Toni was pretty sure that vampires and magic and stuff didn’t come under the training that those guys got. They’d never said anything about that sort of thing to her Dad. He would have told her – just to keep her safe and away from dangers that should just have been in films. He’d always believed in telling her bad stuff which was happening so she didn’t run into by accident. She’d had a few worried nights sometimes after he told her what could happen, but at least she’d known and kept herself safe.

His friend would have told him – and he would have told her. So the cops – at least cops elsewhere – didn’t know about all this sort of thing.

If he had known then they might still have been safe? Maybe.

But in this town why hadn’t anyone warned the public – even if vampires were just here in Sunnydale? Surely they had to know… And if the public didn’t know, did the police? They were there to investigate robbery and mugging and… murders. Dead people were their job and there were a lot of dead people down there – there had to be. Toni had known people were being killed.

She’d seen people being killed.

Her Dad was dead and that was all that really counted here wasn’t it? He was dead, he had been murdered and other people were going to die down there too – already had done. That had to matter to the police and they had to be able to do something about it. Right? Even if it was impossible creatures that’d done it – people were dead. The police had to care about that – that was what they were there for. It didn’t really matter what had done it…

In fact she kind of thought that if she told them all of it, they might think she was crazy and just ignore her anyway. Lots of hearing people thought deaf people were ‘crazy’ or at best were ‘slow’ anyway, and tales of vampires were just going to make that worse – unless they already knew. But if they knew then why wouldn’t they do anything?

Stupid deaf kid. That would be their conclusion.

Like some people she had met on the main street. ‘Met’ wasn’t the best way to put it. She’d run into them from a side street whilst she’d been looking back to make sure she’d gotten away cleanly. A couple walking together, at least thirty – so she supposed they were pretty old. They’d seemed concerned about her being out at night. Probably. All Toni had to go on were the expressions on their faces and those had said ‘concern’ to her. She was good at reading expressions, noticing shifts… even if she didn’t read lips. Sometimes, she supposed, expressions might even tell you more then the words.

Like what people were really feeling.

She’d thought about trying to get the message over to them, asking for directions to the police station – and if there had been a paper and pen she would have gladly written the question down for them. But she hadn’t had any with her so it was non-starter. They were okay to start with… They talked at her. Talked and talked and talked. There were questions in there she was sure… Like they paused and their expressions were obviously ‘wondering’ ones and ‘concerned.’ ‘Puzzled’ as to why she didn’t say anything. And pretty soon the woman got to be ‘impatient’ along with ‘dismissive’ or ‘disgusted.’ Whether that last was with her or with someone else for letting her be outside at that time of night – well, how could she know that?

Her Dad was dead he didn’t have anything to say about it – but he’d wanted her to live – and up here she was living. She was doing what he wanted. That was why she’d bothered with them at all.

The guy had lasted longer… he’d kept up the concern for longer. But they were talking at her and obviously she couldn’t hear them. She couldn’t lip read to save her life – at least not at regular talking speed. Maybe, sometimes, she could manage something really slow if she already knew the person and had been studying them for a while. But there was no one left that applied to. Those just hadn’t been able to figure her out when she shook her head or tried to indicate that she was, in fact, deaf and not hearing any of their babble.

Their breath smelled of booze, though she didn’t think they were actually drunk. They were probably making their way home after having a few drinks somewhere. Maybe it wasn't their fault so much as the booze. Eventually even the guy had given up on her, at his girl friend or wife’s urging, and they’d set off again for wherever they were going.

Leaving her alone in the street at ‘that time of night’ which she was pretty sure any adult would have been saying to her was a bad thing.

Still, he’d given her ten bucks, which again was probably booze inspired, and pointed her towards somewhere.

Being as, right then, she hadn’t known where else to go and it had been towards what was obviously the centre of town she’d followed his gesture and left them there. Better to walk away than to be left and walked away from.

And she’d kinda hoped that the woman got eaten by vampires.

Or magicked into something if that stuff was happening here too. A toad maybe.

No she didn’t want that. Not really.

Was it just this town? Was this place the only place where vampires and magic happened? Was that why no one had told her? Had no one known unless they lived here and why weren’t the people here all protesting?

It made no damn sense.

The man’s directions had led her to the centre of town, and past city hall. Eventually, from the signs by that building, she’d found the police station. And it was here that she paused again. What if the police didn’t believe her? Then what? Then there was nothing that she could do for him… nothing she could do for those other people down there – even though a lot of them had been mean to her and not helped her Dad when he needed them to.

She understood that though – they’d just wanted to live. She’d left them behind too. She’d just wanted to live too. Still did.

And now she might be their only hope.

Great. Wonderful. She wished that there was another hope, then she didn’t have to do this and get it right. She wouldn’t have to risk being put in care, or sent to her Mom – wherever the hell that selfish bitch was nowadays. She wouldn’t have had to risk it until she’d figured out what she was going to do, seeing as she couldn’t ever have her Dad back… She already missed him so much. But as he’d always told her ‘you can’t always have what you want.’ She wanted to help those people too.

She took a deep breath and stepped forward.

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So Drusilla was staying around – at least until she changed her disorganised mind. To Lucas that had been something of a blessing – for more than the obvious reason. The dark vampire distracted Darla. That in turn allowed him to run more of the affairs of the Order. He’d never admit to it and he’d never abuse it – yet - but doing those things gave him a rush of power that felt good deep down inside. Where the hunger for blood came from there was a hunger for something else. Two other things actually. Power satisfied one of the things he wanted.

It felt almost as good as Drusilla threatening him.

There was potential there… for him to be what he had been created to be. With Drusilla at his side. Her strength and his smarts. Oh, and a convenient accident for Darla – that he would have nothing to do with at all. Would he be able to help it if the Witches or a passing Slayer happened to follow a trail of bodies straight to Darla’s lair, which was conspicuously lacking in more than a token force of other vampires at the time?

No. He would be entirely blameless.

It would be a tragedy – but they all carried the blood of the Master thanks to Darla’s determination never to allow them to bring anyone into the Order who was not one of the blood. The line would go on. And Drusilla had actually known him when she had spoken to him last. She’d said his name and it had sounded better than the most perfect scream. She was the key to it all. The link to his greatness to come. And until then – for centuries if necessary – he would play his part – doing his best for Darla and his brethren in the Order.

Just as he was doing his part now.

There it was. The police station.

The problem was knowing if the girl was even here, let alone inside. If she was already here then he had a serious problem. The police weren’t just going to let him walk inside and kill the girl – which he’d sworn he would do – nor would they let him kill them. That was the order – ‘anyone she’d talked to’ had to die too. They couldn’t really stop him – but they could slow him down. Shoot him so full of bullets that eventually the lead would weigh him down.

And that would hurt like hell.

He liked pain…. But usually he preferred it to be in others. No. Going in there like the Terminator wasn't going to help his cause even if the movie had been cool. He checked his watch. It was a little before two a.m. Spike had bought it just before midnight at the park and he’d reported to Darla straight away. Not much time for the kid to get into town and find her way around – but… Well, if she went straight to the police then she could have done it easily.

But what were the police going to do about anything she told them anyway?

In the Order they’d always known that the police could find out about them if a body wasn’t disposed of properly – but what would they do? It was only a problem if the Witches or that damned Watcher found out about them – they were the dangerous ones in this town. The police wouldn’t do anything if they found out – because they couldn’t. Darla had told stories of the nights after the Master had arisen.

The police in Sunnydale had got bold – well, a shift of them had anyway – just the once. They’d actually tried to take down the Bronze – which had been the Master’s lair back then rather than the club for kids it was again during these nights.

Not one of those brave police officers had made it out alive. More than a few had made it out dead though. It had been one of the greatest losses of law enforcement officers here in Sunnydale in decades – if not ever. And it had barely been reported in town – let alone outside. Everyone knew, because when twenty officers died then lots of people knew them… but there was not actual publicity.

Since then the police hadn’t bothered too much – and the old Mayor was supposed to have helped with that as well. He hadn’t wanted the police investigating things that bordered on his own business for fear of where those prying noses might lead them. Lucas would have ripped those noses off anyway - instead the Mayor, the old Mayor, had brought in the first Witch – and from then on everything had fallen apart for the Order. What twenty police officers couldn’t accomplish, one little girl had done instead.

Lucas remembered those days as the human he’d been before he’d been blessed. He remembered living in fear of vampires for years and he still hated that – the fear. He remembered how things had started to get back to normal, which had seemed good at the time. And then he remembered hating the Witches, but only after he’d been sucked dry by Darla, finding out how things had come to be.

Or not to be.

No. He had to admit Darla was right. The girl couldn’t be allowed to speak to anyone who might pass the word to the Witches. But it wouldn’t be the police who did that, Lucas was sure of it. He’d stop her going in if she wasn't there already and he’d kill her when she came out otherwise. It was a simple plan – as the best ones were. The police, though they might not have the nerve to do anything, weren’t about to accept ‘vigilante’ help.

There was no point in over-thinking things though. His plan to get rid of that newcomer Spike had been pretty simple. But he’d never got time to test it. He’d known Spike only by reputation. Darla had talked of him before and Drusilla had never really stopped when she was around. One day she would talk about him like that too.

Lucas had known that with a, sane, centuries old male vampire around he was going to get pushed down the pecking order – no matter how much Darla loathed Spike. Besides big bleached had been in the way of he and Drusilla getting together – even if she didn’t know about it yet.

But now Spike had, somehow, been removed from the game things were different. That made things real simple. Now there was nothing, nothing but the kid, between him and Darla… and between him and Drusilla either.

Demons didn’t need to grieve… but he’d make it clear that he was the vampire for her – he’d already started. Drusilla hadn’t really responded though – he’d give her centuries if he had to. Talk of her involvement with slimy Chaos Demons didn’t bother him. He just had to be vicious, strong and willing to submit without question to her every whim. Spike had shown him the way.

He could do that.

He would do that. In his own mind she practically had him chained to a bed already. He shuddered in anticipation and it was only then that he realised that there was a young girl with dark hair, outside the police station at two am. Looking at it. Looking around. As if she was trying to make a decision.

He’d almost missed her, thinking of tortuous bliss with Drusilla - but now he saw her.

I see you.

He made his way forward from the position in the trees of the small green area where he’d been waiting for her. She was his. Spike couldn’t manage to take her without getting blown up. That was what happened when you didn’t have a plan. You got blown up.

Bleached idiot.

But he was going to kill this kid. Stone dead. As ordered he wouldn’t even bother to feed – just so he could take the body back and prove his devotion. He came up right behind her and she never slowed… Just kept heading for the police station.

Possibly though, as he reached for her and said “You’re mine,” he’d miscalculated. He’d expected her to stop when he spoke, hesitate. She never turned around, even when he spoke, and just went up the steps. Into the light and into the range of the security cameras. His hand just missed brushing her thin jacket by a whisker.

Damn it!

Now, because of the cameras, he was going to have to keep waiting for her to come out – and he had to hope she wasn’t surrounded by cops when she did that. One or two he could cope with – more than that and he would get hurt – not as badly as they would though.

He was going to have to keep watching.

Waiting.

Wondering if she was metaphorically spilling her guts before he had a chance to do it to her for real.

He’d just have to stay here and keep dreaming of what Drusilla was going to do to him. If something had to make him miss the chance to grab the girl then it was best that it was something like that. Plans were the key. She might be unpredictably insane but he loved it…

He needed a plan to make himself into hers.

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Willow held her the woman she loved in her arms – and it was love. Love so wonderful… But would Tara never get to sleep damn it? Sometimes this happened. Sometimes they were psyched by what had happened in the evening – or something was playing on one of their minds – and the other stayed awake too.

Usually…

And if Tara fell asleep when she was stressing about an assignment she had to hand in the next day then Willow wasn't very impressed. Though sometimes that could be her own fault she had to admit. They were… as sleep-compatible as they were in every other matter. When they slept they slept at the same time – together. And when they were awake… they were awake together too. If Ben and Faith were staying over and having bad dreams, or just crying, then being awake was sometimes out of their control. Same when they stayed over at the Giles’s apartment for the same reason.

But sometimes it wasn’t. Mostly even.

Sometimes Tara, or to be fair Willow herself, just wouldn’t be able to drop off. Drop off? Right now, after the big magic display, Willow would have settled for a shallow incline. She didn’t feel any closer to sleep than she had done an hour ago and a lot further away than she had two hours ago, and it was all because her baby couldn’t find a peaceful place to let go of the night.

She could tell that Tara was trying hard not to toss and turn too much, gently restrained in Willow’s arms it was harder than it might have been but… They just weren’t going to be able to rest until they dealt with whatever was bothering Tara and Willow had a pretty shrewd idea what it might be.

She knew she’d kind of hogged the concern stakes with her fears about Drusilla – she’d passed those fears to Tara. That was okay, Tara needed to know – but the crazy vampire bitch wasn’t an immediate problem. No… Something else was bothering Tara and Willow was sure it was the kid. The one they’d allowed to just run off because neither one of them had wanted to be the one to stop her and scare her even more.

Besides… She must have had a home to go to. Right?

They should have made more of an effort – Tara would be feeling that even more than she was because that was the kind of woman she was. Always so concerned for everyone else. Of course Willow felt it, but she thought she might have been able to sleep.

She kissed Tara’s ear gently, just to prove she was awake – as if her baby wouldn’t have known it anyway – and murmured to her, “There’s nothing we can do right now babe.”

“I know,” Tara told her and pulled Willow’s hand tighter around her, snuggling backwards, deeper into their spoons.

“But it doesn’t make the feeling go away?” Willow asked quietly.

“No. It doesn’t.”

Tara had been drawn to that park. Drawn as in ‘had a feeling.’ Willow admitted she’d felt something but… Tara was the sensitive one when it came to that sort of thing. Maybe it was because Tara was always one to trust her feelings but… Not feelings like that. Not about someone else. At least not very often before. They’d just let the cause of those feelings go because they didn’t want to scare her? That was… fine. Good even. But it hadn’t resolved the matter for Tara because Willow’s lover didn’t know what had happened to that girl she’d been worried about - before she even met her.

It was bothering Willow too… but she hadn’t been the one feeling it inside. Something about what had happened to that girl had pulled Tara there and they still didn’t know what it was. Perhaps it had been about Spike, and hence Drusilla, but that should have been her that felt it rather than Tara. Tara didn’t even know those vampires. Maybe they couldn’t figure it out until they found her and… Well, they’d just assumed she was okay and made vague plans to ask Jenny if she could find anything out.

That wasn't enough – not to reassure Tara.

Willow wasn’t about to let Tara go out again tonight – she needed her rest. They both did and they could look all night and still not find the girl. All night and all day – especially if she’d gone home. There was no ritual, at least not with what they had available here, which would help them in any way. They didn’t know enough – they didn’t have anything of the girl’s to base any ritual on. It was going to have to be done the mundane way but…

“Tomorrow,” she promised Tara, “is soon enough love. Tomorrow we go to Jenny and…”

“She can check the school records I know,” Tara replied, sounding unsure it was enough.

And,” Willow went on, “we can check some other places.” She didn’t like to suggest the blatantly illegal – and you didn’t get much more illegal than the police computers – but needs must. They would need to know if the girl had been to the police – that she was okay and what she might have said to them. If she made a statement to them then at least they’d know what she did – and what they did about it. Then they’d be able to act on it.

The police, even knowing what they did about Sunnydale, weren’t suited to the tasks she and Tara undertook.

“Police?” Tara asked.

“Yeah, social services too. Everyone we have to,” Willow promised. “Even the bus company records and stuff. We will find her,” she promised.

“Yeah?” Tara asked.

Willow smiled. Tara sounded as if she just needed that tiny bit of permission to rest… permission to stop worrying and reassurance they’d sort it all later. Tomorrow… well today as it was now. She kissed Tara’s ear again, then nuzzled the back of her neck. “Yeah… As long as you promise to get some sleep I’ll search every database in the country for you.”

“Sorry…” Tara murmured, already sounding sleepy as if Willow had flicked a switch.

“No apologies,” Willow whispered and pulled herself into Tara’s back. “Never any apologies love.” Tara had given, did and would give her everything that had, did or would ever matter.

Starting with life and not ending with love.

Never any apologies.

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Re: Part 115

Postby justin » Thu Jul 17, 2003 2:12 am

Oh my, the tension just doesn't stop.



How will Toni communicate with the police? If she manages to then will they believe her? More importantly, will they (Unknowingly) send her out into the waiting arrms of Lucas with just a couple of officers as an escort.



Or maybe there'll be some officers who'll remember what happened at the Bronze and who'll take Toni under their wing. Is that too much to hope for?



Looking forward to reading more.

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Re: Part 115

Postby notl33t » Thu Jul 17, 2003 4:02 am

Ah, fanfic writers make the world go 'round.....



Here I am, sitting with a half-finished project, bored of data entry...then bam! Up comes Katharyn with an update! Whee! I'm actually looking forward to going back to my boring columns of Excel spreadsheet unfun. It seems every time I do days worth of work in Excel, another update...or two...pops up to make life worthwhile. Whee! I never thought I would thank various deities for vampires, but it keeps life exciting.



As for the slip-ups that you claim to make when it comes to Toni, I haven't noticed. But then again, I only know one hearing-impaired person and not an army of them. And the way Toni thinks is intriguing to me because I've never really understood my own friend's viewpoint about "hearing" or communicating in general. I do try, but I think I'm just fundamentally unable to understand. I listen (she is able to speak and hear with the help of aids, but she has to see my face) and I don't think I can ever truly understand because I'm not in her place, thinking her thoughts. Reading about Toni is good for me. It expands my mind a little. And it keeps me entertained, as always.



Run Toni Run is a good theme in this case, but you've really fleshed her out as a full person, which I know I keep emphasizing. Tell me if you want me to stop praising you anytime soon...it'll be hard for me, but I can stop praising you...next year or the year after...or so. Anywho, Toni's got more problems than vampires on her tail and she knows it. She's of an age where truancy is a problem, she has to find a home, she has bound herself (at least mentally) to figure out a way to help the other captives. In my estimation, the police are a good place for her to go to and she's right to have doubts about telling them the truth. Maybe she should tell a veiled half-truth...but then she risks the innocent policemen's lives if she doesn't tell them to bring stakes and crosses, if she can't reveal the true nature of her torturers. And no vampire killer types like Giles are around to explain or help her, for example, Giles could waltz in and say "Oh, right, gang-related PCP. We're part of the secret government agency division S. We're going to round up some stakes and crossbows and head in. Don't worry, Police Captain Random-Person-Who-Should-Not-Patrol-Alone-Without-A-Cross-At-Night, we've got it under control." Or maybe one of the police guys knows W/T. Or... Oh, so many possibilities. To say nothing of Lucas lurking about outside the station. So many ways for her to end up in a bad or even good situation. Poor Toni. I will not speculate, I will not speculate...



Lucas, Lucas, Lucas. Wow. I used to think he was an unworthy character. Stupid even. Now I just believe he's misguided. Power-hungry. Greedy. Masochistic. Possessed of a one-track mind that has slowly built other tracks directly related to the one-track. I know people like this. They usually end up being cornerstones of our society: politicians. These people are strange and not always intelligent, but still intriguing.



He may not be the sharpest crayon in the box, but Lucas is still a character with bite (ouch! bad pun, forgive me please).

And whilst I still want him to fall on a stake and die for even daring to think about harming a hair on Toni's little head, part of me wants him to succeed. Part of me sees the dream he has of being with Drusilla and ruling Sunnydale as a worthy one. I certainly wouldn't mind Drusilla's, um, amorous attentions...and Sunnydale is a Hellmouth. You go, vamp boy! Uh, I mean, die evil vamp scum without touching Toni! I hate being able to sympathize with "bad" characters, but really, most bad people aren't all that bad. Most of them are quite hot. I think everybody has a bad side and a good side. And sometimes your bad side wants a badder side, in the case of Lucas' obssession with Drusilla. And I shall now shift the focus to the kind of relationship I should actually desire....one built on trust and commitment, difficult to maintain and yet completely worthwhile.



Could I be speaking of W/T? Oh, yes.



Awww.....cute W/T exchange. It reminds me of occasional scenes we get of them talking in the show before bed time. But while it's cute, it serves to also remind me that W/T still don't really know what's going on. Sigh. It's nice to see Willow in helpful Willow mode again though. Hee hee. It made me grin from ear to ear. :grin



Ah, the plot is thickening yet again? Count me in for some fun, then...my data entry calls, but I'll be waiting...and hoping...and thinking...and wishing and praying.

:pray



-Noe



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Re: Part 115

Postby Katharyn » Thu Jul 17, 2003 9:53 am

Justin - YOu have no idea how long I had to think about how to get tension into this story... The right kind of tension anyway.



What happens with the police? I believe you find out next part - though that is all W/T as I recall. And my favourite part so far... You can all hate it if you like, but I love part 116.



Thanks for looking forward to it.



notl33t - Fanfic makes my world go round. Well half of it anyway. If I can make spreadsheets fun then so much the better! I love spreadsheets.



My slip-ups with deaf-people. My exposure to is limited... I write here what I feel, what I read and what I think I know. Whether that is valid? One thing is that most people here are not likely to know more than one hearing impaired person, just by a law of averages, so chances are I will not mess up too much in anyone's eyes. But this is like excuse before the fact.



You can keep praising - my ego likes to be stroked. *S* Toni has lots of problems and I am sure, if she makes it, they will need to be addressed. The only part of your hypothesis I have problems with is Giles as secret agent guy... Just cannot see that one. LOL.



Lucas is a slightly more complex character than he appeared at the start... You will see some more of him later which gets to this too. And funny you would say he could be a politician...



Go vamp boy? LOL



Where is my pencil?



This sort of T/W exchange is why I write this story. I love to do these... the rest is all padding for T/W and their story.



Plot thickening? Yeah... but so far it is pretty thin still. It will get much thicker.



Like me.



Thanks so much.



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Re: Part 115

Postby Grimlock72 » Thu Jul 17, 2003 4:27 pm

Lucas is a greedy little vampire isn't he ? He wants it all to himself, should make a nice happy vamp familly one day :-) Just as long as they move out of Sunnydale. To bad no-one told Lucas Toni is deaf so he expected her to at least react somewhat to his verbal threat, heh.



I liked Toni wondering on about adrenaline, which is indeed the flight-or-fight hormone, but runners have another chemical working for them as well; epinephrine. Anyway it was fun to read Toni think about how all that worked and how she tried to convince herself going to the police would be good thing. It would be wise to be well away from danger before resting, of course Toni thinks the police station is safe. She doesn't seem to want to communicate with non-deaf people all that much, she's rather dismissive of people who try to anyway. Fits nicely with her age I'll tell you :-) Local school for the deaf in this town (where my dad works) so I got a bit more exposure than average I suppose. You got the distinctive scream down pat, heh...:-)



It's odd but I like Lucas and his dreams about grandeur, even thoug he has icky dreams about him and Darla and Dru, yech. All the same I dislike Darla and her even more grandiose dreams which are currently mostly talk. I got to give her credit for setting up what she did though. It's just that I don't like people who not only think very highly of themselves but also like to talk about it al lot (self-centered talk bores me to tears really fast). The fact that Darla could be some threat to Willow/Tara or at least does wish them harm surely has nothing to do with my dislike of her.... surely not... really...:-)



I was half expecting Willow to get out of bed and check the SPD computer-files that very moment. Just so Tara would relax enough to sleep.



Now who can interpret sign-language in Sunnydale ?? Writing doesn't HAVE to be slow by the way, use two pc's and create a private chatroom and hey presto... you can be down real quick.



I'm not sure Sunnydale police will be all that keen to go after the vamps at all. Esp. given their experience storming the Bronze (for which they needed more knowledge 'cos some small explosives would easily have taken care of the roof -- burn vampy burn) which didn't end to well.



Time to bring in the local expert(s) on vampires. Would that be Giles or Willow and Tara ?? Heh, now that should be fun... Tara finally asleep being phoned out of bed by Sunnydale's finest about some deaf girl.. heh.



Grimmy

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Re: Part 115

Postby TemperedCynic » Thu Jul 17, 2003 5:43 pm

Toni ends up at the police station, as we suspected. Yet she is unsure about what to tell them. Or even how to tell them. Now that Lucas is waiting outside the station, and our heroines are snug in bed, Toni is really on her own. She must convince the police of her plight, yet still keep herself from becoming a ward of the State of California.



Lucas better pull up a chair. If he's as bright as he believes himself to be, he would realize that a deaf girl telling a fantastical story to the SPD should take hours. Many hours. And he doesn't strike me as the patient type.



I read this chapter, and Toni's thoughts about foster parents, her Mom and her dead Dad had me thinking in two directions at once. First direction: Toni's need for stability and love in chapter 115 contrasts greatly with Willow and Tara's discussion about children in chapter 106. I sense that we have the beginnings of change for all three characters, but especially Tara and Toni. Tara can't keep the girl's welfare out of her head. Toni will soon realize that she has no one who will help her in Sunnydale. The key will be whether she turns to the witches. I'm going out on a limb and predicting that Toni will end up with Willow and Tara as parents. After many, many, many wonderful updates, of course. Life's journey isn't that easy. Second direction: Darla and her Order have been creating vampires from human stock outside of Sunnydale. This keeps the witches from catching onto the plan. But it also means bad news for Toni - her Dad may be a vampire. Perhaps looking for her, say, in the police station? I'm wondering if this is your Bigfoot...



Wonderful as always, Katharyn.


More than any other time in history, mankind faces a crossroads. One path leads to despair and utter hopelessness. The other, to total extinction. Let us pray we have the wisdom to choose correctly. Woody Allen (1935 - )

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Re: Part 115

Postby tiredsoul » Thu Jul 17, 2003 10:08 pm

Well, with all of these theories going I on, I’m going to keep my scampering to a minimum. I know nothing, I swear :p



Oooh, and talk of spreadsheets!



As I read this, I finally hit upon the reason I like Toni so much. Okay, there are several reasons. Sure, she’s a kid who got away from a bunch of vampires, but you’ve made her so much more than that. She’s so real – strong enough to be a survivor, yet innocently niave in that the police will help her; determined to survive, yet scared that that could mean going to her Mom – and you portray all of this each time we see her. You’re not letting us forget that she’s deaf, but you’re also not making that the focus of her character. I like that. Yes, communication seems like it will be a problem as, by mere percentage, most people don’t know or even understand the hearing-impaired. That is impressive and I won’t stop telling you that :)



Thanks Katharyn.



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Re: Part 115

Postby Katharyn » Sat Jul 19, 2003 12:25 am

Grimmy - Lucas's move on Toni - I just loved the idea of him trying to be all "perfect hunter" catching her just in the nick of time and then... missing.



I will take your word on the hormone, Toni's ignorance reflects my own - which is the lovely thing about wrwiting PoV based fic, if the character doesn't know it then I get away with it.



Toni's attitude is part age and part 'political awareness' or at least her version of the politics. Maybe those politics do not take the same form in the real world - but they are what she feels...



The thing I think you have to note about Darla is that she is not just looking at Sunnydale. Not just working in SUnnydale... Sunnydale is just the heart. Her successes are much greater in the larger context. And yeah I hate her for wanting to hurt the girls too.



Who can interpret sign language? LOL. Well the number of people on this board who seem to have some experience with it (and read this fic) suggests maybe more people than I would have thought at first.



Police with explosives? Nah... That's more the initiative's style. Now where did I leave them? Oh yeah... Cleveland. It's only a plane trip away.



Thanks...



Tempered Cybic - I will admit now, and this is Toni's ignorance too, I have no idea what procedure would lead to Toni being taken into care. If I chose to go there, it would probably be wrong. Research isn't my thing - I just tell the story.



Lucas could get a chair, but he has a time limit... About 4 hours away.



That is quite a prediction TC, Toni with T/W? Interesting. Okay... there is no point in pretending I am not aware of that thread and the possibilities therein and I would not tell you anyway so early. Lets just say though that, having set up the issue so early in the fic (the possible child/foster kid etc) I will not be clearing that up until close to the end... So I suppose you have to ask 'is Toni too early?'



Okay... now, the bigfoot. The bigfoot was the corrupt police. Urban myth I did not start. Until that bigfoot is sighted or proven to be a myth nothing else can be the bigfoot. Once that is wrapped up though then we can have more bigfoots.



Which apparently hope everywhere, which is why they are bigfoots and not bigfeet.



Thanks.



Celia - Do you scamper in code? I mean if someone watches you scamper is the plot revealed? My one regret in this fic is that you do not get to read it "fresh" with everyone else - but the wonderful beta more than makes up for it. Thanks.



Spreadsheets rock.



Toni... I like Toni, even if she is enormously difficult to write (technically not as a character.) What I am about to say is not to suggest that this girl is staying around or going but it was very important to me not to land myself, even for a little while, with a 'Dawn' character. Toni has 'said' the famous words "Get out!" but she had a different meaning... Toni is the antithesis of all things Dawn (and no she is not the key of this AU) apart from her age and sex. Otherwise she is so very NOT Dawn. That is the key to her. Remember, NOT Dawn - its important. Maybe that is why you like her *S*



Thanks hun.



Katharyn

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Part 116

Postby Katharyn » Sat Jul 19, 2003 11:21 pm

Title: The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle - Jumping to Conclusions (Part 116)
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Constructive criticism is always welcome. katharynrosser@hotmail.com Flames just demonstrate you have a tiny mind.
Spoiler Warning: Pretty limited. The story occurs in an alternate universe as set up in “The Wish” though reference is made to events that occur in both realities. Nothing is referenced that occurs after S5 though. Guess why? Most “spoilers” would be for the first chronicle of this fic rather than the show and if you haven’t read that then much of this will make no sense but you can try and get round it by reading the preface to Part 104 which summarises most of what went before.
Distribution This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens (This applies to all of the Sidestep Chronicle)
Summary: Tara and Willow get some help seeking Toni out.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc, etc. I am making zilch from this series of stories. You know the drill.
Rating: R – a general rating for occasional content. Individual parts might be less than this level.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever – others couples as necessary but nothing unconventional. Rupert and Jenny.
Notes: Okay… This is my absolute favourite part so far. It has some serious stuff in there, but occasionally there are parts that are an absolute joy to write. They might not be the best parts – but they are just wonderful to do, wonderful to finish (though I wished I could add more) and where I cannot wait for what others think. This is such a part. If I am lucky I get maybe one part in every twenty or thirty that works for me that well. Don’t worry – you do not have to feel the same way! But it is parts like the first half of this which are why I want to write at all.
Just a reminder, in this story Faith is Rupert and Jenny’s daughter, named for the Slayer who was killed in the First Chronicle. It can get confusing, especially when I need to refer back.
Thanks To: All My Brilliant Beta Readers (AMBBR) Kerry (Forrister) and Jo (Wizpup) who for some reason signed right back up for this fic after seeing the size of the last one. No accounting for madness is there. And Celia (TiredSoul) who should have known better but signed up anyway. *HUGS* and Big Thanks to all of you. This is one of Celia’s and I am flattered to say she liked it… which is always a good sign.


The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle

Jumping to Conclusions

By

Katharyn Rosser


Willow had sort of decided a few months, if not over a year, ago that the ‘jumping’ game was kind of a bit past its best now. From her point of view at least. A point of view that certainly wasn't shared by four-year-old Faith, bouncing up and down on the mini-trampoline that was set up by the couch. She was holding Willow’s hands so she didn’t lose her balance again, but she certainly wasn't the dainty little child she had once been - and not so long ago.

It didn’t seem any time at all since Faith had been tiny… and now look at her. A bundle of highly energetic fun with a penchant for jumping until someone was sick. Usually not Faith herself. She had a cast iron stomach.

Okay… so the four-year-old was still ‘dainty’ for her age, she was never likely to be a big girl, but she was definitely a lot bigger now than she had been, and sometimes, when she was bouncing like this, Willow started to feel sort of seasick. Times like now. It was her delicate stomach. She’d never actually been seasick because she’d never been out on the ocean, or even a riverboat or on a large lake, but she was pretty sure that the motion sickness that was starting to come over her was a good approximation of how that would work.

Jenny had once caught her looking green – which was definitely a seasick thing.

It was like the whole world was bouncing and Faith was just staying still. Willow closed her eyes, but it didn’t help. In fact, it just made it worse when she couldn’t see. Sensation without visual explanation. Then she started imagining the room rocking. Sometimes with waves outside the window. She really had too may thoughts. The reality was she and Faith were connected via their hands and her stomach started to twinge.

The couch-come-sofa-bed was old. It might even have been older than Willow. It had, apparently, been there when Rupert first moved in, part of the furniture, and they’d never gotten rid of it. When you sat down, it felt quite hard – but then when a four-year-old little girl with more energy than the Slayer that she’d been named after started jumping on a trampoline next to it whilst she was holding Willow’s hands... well, the transmitted movement caused the couch springs to respond in peculiar ways and Willow, in her turn, was feeling quite peculiar too. “Do you want to stop now, Faith?” she asked the little girl, hoping she might have had enough already. Surely they’d been here for hours and hours… At least. Maybe days.

The answer was as inevitable as it was loud. “Nooooo!”

Perhaps if she kept her stomach muscles tight, nothing bad would happen. That had to be good for the abs too. And she hadn’t barfed yet. Things weren’t so bad.

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After last night’s hunting and the long sleepless hours after they got home, they’d gotten here only in the early afternoon, but they were making progress now. Well, she and Jenny were. Willow was… minding Faith. Or Faith was minding Willow. One or the other was certainly the case. The little girl was… she was a strange mix of qualities – but one of them was that she had a good attitude for a four year old. Sure she got tired and cried, but by and large Tara was impressed with how good she really was.

And without being quiet and withdrawn either.

Tara stood looking over Jenny’s shoulder at the laptop screen the other woman had set up on the desk. She caught the teacher looking at Faith and Willow with an exasperated expression. “You can ask Faith to stop,” Tara said to her. “Willow definitely won’t mind.” After many gentle tummy rubs, Tara was well aware of how the jumping movement sometimes got to the woman she loved, and sometimes she even thought that she’d seen Willow turn a shade of green that was quite ominous for the carpet. Jenny delighted in reporting seeing something vaguely grass-like in the green-stakes which Tara had to admit was one up on her own sighting.

Willow had never actually barfed though.

“It wouldn’t be fair to take it out on her,” Jenny sighed. “Faith’s always done that with Willow. You know that when she was smaller, she would do it on the couch so we bought her the trampoline instead. It’s good exercise and she doesn’t do it much with you… definitely not with me unless I have some time… and Rupert… well, you know he wouldn’t like it too much either. How can I tell her to stop that now just because we want to concentrate a little more than usual? She isn’t being bad. She’d just being… Faith.”

“I think it’s just called being Mommy,” Tara observed. “You know that well enough. Mommy doesn’t have to be rational, she just has to be Mommy.” And Faith hardly needed the exercise – she had enough energy and outlets for it for five kids. If anything, the trampoline was a calming thing – getting some of it out of her system before she wanted to do anything else. Faith wasn't hyper – but she was just a kid who wanted to be busy all the time.

“I figured that one out a little while back,” Jenny admitted ruefully. “Doesn’t mean I have to like it. Even after four years… I’m a teacher by training, Tara, I want to treat her like a young adult. To have things make sense to her when I tell her – then she can learn instead of waiting for me to tell her everything.”

And it had worked. Faith could figure lots of ‘Mommy’ stuff out.

Tara smiled. This had been the constant quandary for Jenny since Faith had learned to understand what she was being told and to talk. Most especially since she’d figured out how to ask ‘why?’ For a long time, that was her favourite question. Sometimes though, Mommy did have to be Mommy – Jenny knew it and she was a good one. And sometimes the good reason for something was simply that ‘Mommy says so.’

Faith, for her part, shamelessly exploited Willow’s willingness to put up with pretty much anything that she wanted do – within the limits of safety of course. And like every four-year-old, she was also fearless. Jumping down the steps from Mommy’s bedroom, which Tara was convinced would have broken her own leg if she’d tried it, was just a game to Faith.

Okay, Faith was a kid and sometimes she hurt herself – like when she bounced right off the trampoline and hurt her wrist, but kids did hurt themselves. You could just try and minimise the chances. Three hours later, arm in a sling, holding Willow’s hand for the first time, she was right back on that trampoline and bouncing again. She’d been holding someone’s hand ever since.

Most of the time, Faith didn’t get more than a bruise and she didn’t even cry much about that after the initial shock.

Tara privately thought that only the ceiling was the limit to her bouncing – and that was high in here. Like Jenny, she knew that Faith would find her own limits eventually… it was just that until then someone had to hold her hand – and not just on the trampoline. And right now, that was Willow.

“I think you have to wait for her to be a young adult, before you can expect her to respond to being treated like one,” Tara told her as she watched Willow. She knew that her girlfriend wouldn’t stop Faith’s fun until the little girl stopped herself. Willow was definitely Faith’s favourite – she brought her presents, she let her play on the trampoline and Mommy allowed it. What was not to love about Willow?

Tara really couldn’t think of anything at all.

It wasn't that Willow was too easy on Faith – it was more that Faith knew that Willow would let her do whatever she wanted to as long as it wasn't going too far. And she was, shrewdly, aware that her Mommy didn’t often interfere in that kind of playtime as long as it stayed off the furniture and she obeyed the rules. Not when Jenny had her work to do and she was taking care of Ben, too. And when there was stuff about their after-dark lives to take care of too. Usually she and Willow would talk before getting here and one of them would stay with the kids whilst the other talked with Rupert and Jenny. It worked for them.

Quite where Jenny had come up with the idea that she could study from home at the same time as looking after a new baby and a hurricane of a daughter, Tara had no idea. She’d managed it last time round, her last maternity leave she’d gotten most of her Master’s degree course done. This was a bigger job though, there was Ben too now and Faith was less… static than she had been back then. She and Willow helped as best they could, along with Rupert, and as a result Jenny wasn't too far behind in her coursework. Dr Gregory was being very supportive too. Even though she was on maternity leave, he was letting her log into the school systems from home – officially log in, rather than… well, sneak in the illegal way that they had sometimes used for finding about things they shouldn’t have had to.

Not that they always used that doorway for ‘official’ purposes. Like now, when they were trying to track down the girl that they’d seen and saved from bad things, the previous night. They knew what she looked like, but… the main clue was her apparent deafness. That sort of thing, in a girl of school age, was something that would have to be recorded in the education system as Jenny had confirmed. There would have to be resources made available at her school and Jenny – not strictly as a part of her qualification coursework – should be able to track that allocation down.

Tara could have let Willow do that for her, but it was always good to see Jenny at work. Willow was good on the computers… Jenny was better, if a little more respectful of the law. Just a little. To Willow, using the computer was as natural to her as playing music would be to someone else. It wasn't that Willow believed in freedom of all information – she believed in the freedom of the information they needed to do what they did.

Jenny had taught Willow a lot of how to manipulate that instrument after she’d come back to town and needed to catch up with the latest techniques. Willow had just been behind the times and Jenny had brought her right back up to date. And besides, Tara just liked to watch the effortless way either of them pressed a few keys and all they needed appeared on the screen – it was like a miracle. Besides, they liked to give Jenny breaks from the near constant demands of Faith and her adventures. Faith, who right now, was demanding from Willow instead.

“Remind me,” Jenny said wearily, “When that will be?”

Faith a young adult? “Maybe when Ben’s about twelve himself… and starting to be a really annoying teenager,” Tara suggested, looking over at the sleeping baby.

“You know,” Jenny said, “I thought that waiting for Faith to grow up a little would have made looking after Ben easier? I explained that a few times right?”

“Works in theory… I remember you coming up with that plan when she was teething,” Tara said, laying a hand on her friend’s shoulder. That had seemed as bad as it was going to get - until the sweet little girl had found out how to charge around the apartment under her own power. Rarely being naughty… just being… Faith. Tara couldn’t get over how… well, she supposed, that the young woman she’d been named for had probably been just the same at her age.

And if this girl grew up to be half the person that young woman had been… no one would have any complaints. Though Tara was sure that, morally, Rupert would want his daughter to be a little more… on message than his Slayer had been. In terms of boys… or if her heart took her there, girls. That was something that was way off though. Tara would be interested to see who a much older Faith would find to share her life – she was sure it was going to be more a question of who could keep up with her before who she fell in love with.

They just had to survive the next twelve years or so before that started to be an issue.

“It seemed to be the best thing,” Jenny said about the plan, “and Rupert was more than happy to wait. Perhaps he knew something I didn’t.” She looked at Faith with exasperation. “Now I wonder if they could have kept each other busy if they were more of an age?”

“She’s just a little girl with a lot of energy,” Tara commented, and not for the first time. “You probably noticed that, right?” They’d had this conversation a lot in the past. How many times had they marvelled at Faith’s energy?

Jenny rolled her eyes and turned back to the screen.

“It’s not like she has a single bad bone in her body,” Tara continued. “She just wants to be doing stuff. Once she’s a little older and she can go out, or read for herself… all sorts of things…”

“Yeah, then I’ll never know where she is and will have to worry about more than her bouncing off a mini-trampoline,” Jenny completed. “Even now, I’m not sure what we’d do without you two helping out so much. Or how parents without friends manage. I think I’d be depriving Ben if I spent as much time with Faith as she obviously would like.”

Not that Faith needed attention or even played up to get it. It was just, you felt better when you could make sure she was okay. Just in case she was off on an adventure.

“I think you were the one pushing for lots of kids,” Tara reminded her with a smile. She was well aware that Jenny wasn't necessarily finished with having children either. Her ambitions had always been a large family – even if that would mean a house for the Giles family rather than this apartment. But, by the time Ben was running around like Faith, this apartment was going to be way too small anyway. She was also well aware that there were few things, aside from Willow, that she valued more than being here with - and a part of - this family.

Being a part of it in every way that counted outside of accidents of birth and blood.

“Right now, I’m done pushing for a while,” Jenny told her, remembering the difficult night she’d had delivering Ben just a few months back. Then she sighed. “Your girl isn’t here,” she announced finally.

Tara looked over her shoulder at the records that had come up in the search. “Are you sure?”

“Definitely. There are no deaf girls in the Sunnydale school district between the ages of ten and sixteen. There is a boy, fourteen, one district over. And there’s a little girl in kindergarten here in town. But neither of those is the one that you want,” Jenny confirmed. “There just aren’t that many deaf kids in the school system around here, Tara.” She shrugged. “It wouldn’t be so hard to track her down even if she was being tutored at home – the local system often makes provision for that. Books and stuff.”

“So either she wasn’t deaf – which means looking at every picture in the records – or…” Tara was sure the girl they’d been with had been deaf though.

“She isn’t from Sunnydale,” Jenny concluded.

“We need to find her,” Tara said for the benefit of Willow. Faith was still jumping and now making ‘wheeee’ sounds. Willow tipped her head to show that she hadn’t heard. “Faith,” Tara called out. “Honey, sit down for a few minutes. Mommy and I need to talk to Willow.”

Faith looked over at her and then carefully bounced herself down on the seat beside Willow without any protest at all. “’Kay.”

Tara watched as Willow rolled her eyes. It was well established in all their experiences that whilst Willow was Faith’s ‘favourite,’ she would listen to Tara – even more than she would Jenny. Tara often thought that part of the little girl was like a mini-Jenny, with an equal measure of her namesake thrown in for good measure. She and her Mom were so alike sometimes that they couldn’t help sparking off each other, and it would only get worse as Faith grew older and more independent. In some ways, Tara was sure Faith was going to be an interesting mirror of how Jenny must have been when she was growing up – just as much as she probably reflected the former Slayer a little. She was looking forward to seeing it. Rupert, a very traditional man in the way he raised his children, made sure he always had the final say, but usually it didn’t get to that. Tara put it down to the little girl’s wish to challenge authority – or at least test it a little and find the boundaries. She was a good kid, but she had her own fully formed opinions already. It came with the intelligence that was so very, very obvious in those sparkling brown eyes.

A Jenny-Faith hybrid in the second girl Tara knew to be called that. It could be interesting.

Tara wasn’t, in Faith’s terms, an authority to be challenged. As the girl herself had said, she was ‘just Tara,’ which once Faith had started to talk, was an opinion Tara had tried very hard to maintain. And that meant that Faith would listen and usually do as she was told with very little argument.

“How do you do that?” Jenny asked her for what must have been the thousandth time.

“It’s all in the voice,” Tara laughed. Faith and Ben were such big parts of their lives, they always came back to those sorts of questions. “Plus, she knows that she can’t bounce if I tell Willow not to let her. At least she thinks so anyway.”

“Positively Machiavellian,” Jenny said with a smile.

“I try my best.” I learned from a master too.

“Oh,” Willow said as she came over and glanced at the screen. “You’re doing your best again? I thought you just did that for me?” She fluttered her eyelashes.

Tara playfully slapped her lover’s arm and got back to the matter at hand. “She’s not here, sweetie.” She’d been so worried about the girl last night… now, here, with the rest of her family as well as Willow, things had seemed a little better. Darkness, even in Willow’s arms, wasn't the best place to be thinking about what could happen to a young girl in Sunnydale. But they weren’t really any closer.

“The girl from last night?” Willow checked.

Not that she had any reason to think it was anyone else, but Willow was fact-girl. She liked to be sure.

“Not a sign of her,” Jenny added. “As I said to Tara – there would have to be some trace. Either in home tuition, or using some resources that we could trace – quite apart from the school records themselves. But there’s nothing.”

“So she’s from out of town then,” Willow concluded.

“Yeah,” Tara admitted. And now she’s alone out there. She has been all night. Somewhere. Either that or something caught up with her. They’d left her out there. They’d lain in bed, worried, and decided to wait. Willow had been right though – they couldn’t have done much then, and to help her now, they’d needed that rest.

The girl could even have left town.

Tara didn’t think she had though. Why would she have had that intense feeling in the park if it had been for the girl to just vanish? She played some sort of part in something that was going to unfold. Something big. There was a danger and that girl… she was going to be a part of how that unfolded. Perhaps key, perhaps the way they would find out about it?

Something important she was sure…

Right now, she and Willow couldn’t identify the danger that might exist, but they could find the girl. That was what they needed to do. It was just that, without an address or really anything to go on, they were going to have to do it the hard way.

But why had the girl been so terrified of she and Willow? They weren’t scary people – not at all. In the all time pantheon of non-scary people, Tara saw them up towards the top of the list.

But she had been scared. Maybe Willow’s display of magic… maybe Tara being in her head, trying to get the message across to her. Willow had wondered if, somehow, the girl knew her back from when there had been a vampire with her face. But if she was from out of town that was less likely, but Tara was thinking it was – at least in part – the mental touch. Certainly there was a fear of ‘the redhead’ but… The connection of their minds had been a mistake. Tara remembered touching Willow like that for the very first time. For them, as the love of each other’s lives, it had been wonderful. For someone else, who never knew that could happen, wasn’t expecting it and didn’t even know who she was…

That must have been it.

Terrible. A violation.

So, between them, they’d scared the girl – it was going to make getting her to trust them interesting. If they ever tracked her down and had the chance.

“We have to find her first,” Willow told her as if reading her mind.

Tara smiled. Once again, Willow had seen into her heart and come away with exactly the same conclusion.

“Maybe she went to the police,” Jenny said, without much enthusiasm. “If she was really new to all this, everything we take for granted – and she was so young – she might have thought that they could help her.”

They thought about that. They all knew that the police wouldn’t be able to do much at all. Although Tara had to admit that the girl wouldn’t know or understand that. Freed from the control of the Mayor, the police were investigating more these days than they ever had before – but the legal system made no provision for demons. The death penalty didn’t really run to beheading or stakes through the heart. You couldn’t fill jails with immortal demons – besides no one wanted to believe what they knew deep down. The criminal justice system couldn’t cope, because as an entity, the police, courts and people as a whole couldn’t accept it.

How could the police go out, with guns, and raid a vampire nest?

They’d all die. It had happened before… Tara had read the reports.

Which was why she and Willow, along with Rupert, had to do that for them. For everyone.

“They could be keeping her safe whilst they looked for a way to get her home,” Willow remarked. “Working on the basis that home isn’t here.”

Tara had to admit the possibility. “There’d be a record right? Of that? Of her report – and of where she was whilst they tried to do that?” Willow had suggested the police computers to her in those sleepless hours the previous night. Promised they could – if they had to.

“I think,” Jenny mused, “that Willow would know more about that than me.” She vacated the seat and went over to her daughter, leaving Willow to slip into the chair and bring up her own list of bookmarks. Officially… she had no idea. None of them did.

“Sunnydale…. PD. There we are.”

“I’ve said it before,” Tara said and kissed the back of her love’s head. “You’re a whiz,” she completed, as Willow slipped past the rudimentary password protection.

“If ever a whiz there was,” Willow said automatically as she moved through the records.

Tara waited patiently for Willow to complete her search, noting how her girlfriend was becoming increasingly impatient with the design of the database, not to mention the spelling of Sunnydale’s finest, which had often frustrated the ‘find’ functionality. Oh, and the lack of what they wanted wasn’t helping either. Anything less than perfection wasn’t really good enough for Willow. Or at least not aiming for it could never be. She had to smile as there was the usual barrage of ‘why don’t they…?’ and ‘what were they thinking of…?’ questions muttered under her love’s breath.

Until finally…

“Here’s something. Someone, and it says ‘she’ went to the front desk last night – at just gone 2 a.m.,” Willow told her.

“That would fit with the time we saw her – time for her to get right into town,” Tara suggested.

Willow nodded. “And time to find out where the police were based,” she agreed. “Well, it says that they started to ring around for an interpreter. It doesn’t say what kind – but she’d left by half-past-six when they found one. It doesn’t say who ‘she’ was though.”

Tara considered that. There were holes in it – but it was more than likely the person they were looking for. At least she’d gotten into town okay – and had the sense to try and find the police. It wasn’t her fault that they wouldn’t be able to help her. How could she be expected to know that? There had been a time when she’d thought that the police were going to be able to fix things for her too.

And usually they could.

At least when the problem was mundane. It was just the supernatural where they didn’t have much of a chance.

“So we think she’s okay?” Jenny asked, as she wiped chocolate from Faith’s mouth. It had been there since before the trampoline time. It was a wonder the little girl hadn’t been sick.

“I think so – well until six am at least,” Tara confirmed as she read the notes. “And that means it dawn was already past – the sun was up. She should be okay until sunset now.” If it was the same girl… well, she was so relieved about that. They’d let her run off – not protected her further… but it looked like she was okay.

If it was her.

“Good.”

“Is there anything else in there?” Tara asked Willow, touching her neck. She just wanted to touch Willow – to feel that close because she knew that… something, sometime soon, was going to threaten them all. She could feel it in the pit of her stomach. Something to do with the girl… or what had happened to her.

Something big was going to happen. But maybe not yet…

“No,” Willow checked again and then said. “Wait… look at this. She left a note behind – that was what made them scramble around for the interpreter, rather than waiting until morning. I mean… would you want to get up at two a.m. to interpret unless it was important?”

Tara read it on the screen without answering Willow, and she knew that Jenny’s next question was a reaction to the way that her face fell.

“What?” the teacher asked.

Tara was quiet, she didn’t know how to answer that.

“Tara, what is it?”

“‘My Dad is dead.’” Willow read the words when Tara couldn’t.

Tara closed her eyes. She and Willow had both lost family to vampires – one way or another – and she didn’t want that for anyone else. That pain. That helplessness. That being ‘all-alone’ in the world – until you found that special someone, if you were lucky. Willow’s hand came to rest on her own as it clasped her lover’s shoulder tighter.

More to the point, she didn’t want anyone to follow in their footsteps. She didn’t want the girl to follow their example - thinking that she could have revenge, impose justice or try and make it right.

She and Willow… they were able to look after themselves. They had… abilities, which let them take on vampires… but...

This girl… she could run. But she would still get killed just the same. Eventually. She could never run fast enough to get away from her past, her fear, her anger and her sadness.

“We have to find her,” Tara said. “Now.”

No one argued. No one wondered why she was so intent on doing this. They all knew what had happened, and how Tara felt about anyone losing themselves to hatred. Even in the hatred of vampires. They knew she’d been there. What it had almost cost her and the price some other people had paid.

“We’ll start near the police department,” Willow said. “She won’t have gone far from there – she must have been dead tired by the time she left.”

“That’s what I’m worried about,” Tara told her. That the girl would be so tired that she wouldn’t care what happened to herself. That she’d be tired of life. Tired enough to let herself get killed or tired enough to do something really stupid.

Tired enough to behave like Tara had herself many years ago… but without the advantage of magic to protect her and kill the vampires.

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Re: Part 116

Postby justin » Sun Jul 20, 2003 2:17 am

That was a great part :applause



The part with Faith was wonderful :rofl She probably is going to be quite a handful when she gets older.



I'm glad that Willow and Tara were able to track Toni down. Though I got a bit worried when Tara assumed that Toni would be safe till sunset, since there are ways for vampires to shield themselves from direct sunlight.



So it was a good thing that the note them decide they needed to find Toni right away.



Though I have to ask what has Lucas been doing in all this time, since I assume he'd be reluctant to return to Darla and tell her that he failed.

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Re: Part 116

Postby notl33t » Sun Jul 20, 2003 5:16 am

Ooooooh the suspense is killing me! I meant that in a good way, though. This part was very, very precious. I treasure it. It's cute. But....so much suspense!



The Faith/Willow/Tara/Jenny-mom dynamic is great! In my eyes as well, Willow would be lenient while Tara would be more disciplined when it came to children. Hee hee. so cute. Mmm...Take Charge Tara. Sigh. Far more attractive than Drusilla IMHO. And, ah, the anality (is that a word? uh, trying to convey a sense of attention to detail, and such...) of Willow. Damn their spelling....ruining her search functions....heh heh.



I'm intrigued by Toni's situation. I know that you know that we know...the details that you just laid down. I'm just hoping W/T can find her at this point. I'm so excited to finally hear what happened to her....she left at six a.m., which means she must have been safe from the vampires...unless there are minions that can walk around during the day....but I won't speculate. I'm getting better at controlling my thought processes. Really.



Tara seems to think that Toni might try to go after the vamps herself. I think that's a totally valid idea. I'd want to kill them too...even if I was just a girl, especially if they had killed my father. Grrr...I would walk in there without any kind of plan...maybe a gun or two...and just try to take them out. I probably wouldn't succeed, but I would try. I think she would try, too. If she knows anything about vampires, daytime's the time to try.



Then again, this could just misleading information because Tara thinks that Toni would react the same way that Tara reacted when she realized her family was killed by vamps. Toni doesn't have wicca...Toni doesn't have superstrength...what Toni does have is speed. If she knew what was good for her...she might just try luring vamps to a dusty ending by being bait and leading them to sunlight...or leading them to a couple stakes. It's always worth a try.



And I think Toni will try something. It may not be a big something. It may not be a useful something, but really, when bad things happen to people, people react. I call being stuck in the sewers and watching my father die quite a bad thing. Grief does funny things to people. It can drive them temporarily sane for moments at a time and then deposit them right back at the spring of despair. It can fill someone up with energy for days at a time, then let them crash for an equal amount of time or longer. Toni's clearly been grieving, but can't come up with a healthy way to deal with it. So I think whatever Toni does regarding the vamp situation be it ignoring it, charging into it or actually formulating a good plan will be justified.



As even and level-headed as Toni is, I think she'll actually try something. I really do. I hope if she does become "Toni the girl who managed to kill some vamps" or even "Toni the girl who failed" that W/T manage to find her and help her.



Crossing my fingers....



-Noe



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Re: Part 116

Postby Grimlock72 » Sun Jul 20, 2003 9:52 am

I'm not all that afraid of Toni trying to kill vampires herself. She has shown to at least think under pressure, don't see why she would snap NOW. I can understand Tara jumping to that conclusion, it would however by nice if she notices that she IS jumping.



I'm not following why Toni appearantly went home with the interpretator, didn't they want an interpretator so they could take Toni's statement ??



If the police can find an interpretator surely Willow can :-) Whats to gain by 'starting' a search at the police station ? Going to sniff her out and follow the trail ? For some reason I can't see Tara playing a dog, heh.



The Faith part; poor Willow getting sea-sick... I do find it weird that Giles and Jenny would have a baby so similair to 'old' Faith. At least Giles now has that chance to fully educate/teach this Faith and spare her a bad childhood. It's obvious that trampolines are the source of all evil by now... they must be destroyed :-)



As for Toni not being Dawn; she is indeed far less reliant on other people to rescue or help her. That can very well turn against her, but it's better than a girl whining to be rescued :-) The biggest reason I like Toni vs. Dawn is that Toni is not the cause of any trouble but merely an indicator of it. Killing Toni won't exactly make the vampires go away : -->>:



I know Tara is for some reason hell-bent on finding Toni but shouldn't they be doing some spell to at least check for demonic activity in the sewer system ? Killing all or most vampires is a pretty good way of ensuring Toni's safety and has the added benefit of keep other citizens safe as well.



Grimmy

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