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Why doesn't this subject response ever make sense...

Postby Katharyn » Wed Oct 29, 2003 11:07 pm

Hey c3n thanks for joining in. Lots of lurkers appearing suddenly. Is there a reason? Is the revolution coming? LOL



Finding by accident is okay, and flattery will get you most places! It's important to me that the character strikes you as good, though "best" is something personal to your judgement (thanks though!). Someone could accuse me of being "superior" here - but what I mean is that the characters are where this fics lives or dies. The characters have to work as we spend so much time within them.



If the characters do not work I should stop now.



The reasons for carrying on hunting... I think this is a case where reader feedback has changed the fic. The reasons have not changed, but I have stressed and refined them as a result of what readers have said earlier. Both to clarify them and to gently shift them.



Readers feedback is valuable for just this kind of reason.



Yeah, if she wasn't needed in Sunnydale then I guess she would be free... as she thinks to herself. However with just one Slayer (and there is just one) in the whole world that is likely to be tricky.



Poor things.



The important thing is though that they are HAPPY and TOGETHER.



As I keep promising.



Thanks so much



Katharyn

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If I want a little pussy, I got my own to play with.
Chance in Chance.




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Katharyn
 


when the revolution comes...

Postby tillowara » Thu Oct 30, 2003 3:02 pm

...kittens will write get to pen at least four episodes of their favorite tv shows...hold perpetual smut lists...give Noebl Prizes in literature to fan fiction writers...and determine any and all necessary outcomes...geez vague much, but seriously folks...

as Bones would say on almost a weekly basis:

Dammit Captain...as I with reverence refer to thee...

...In The Big Thoughts Bin, both of their reasons for what they want, what they think they can have, and what their future should hold for them, makes sense and I'm with the why Katharyn, why oh why did you have to make this so damned good, so utterly compelling, so engaging on levels that flood my sockets with all that pleases, that I say to Hollywood, "take notice, yes indeed, for the kittens are coming...the lurkers too"

um, maybe i drank too much coffee this morning...:hmm

tillowara
 


Part 139

Postby Katharyn » Sat Nov 01, 2003 11:52 pm

Tillowara - Possibly one less cup? LOL

Part 139 is below...

Enjoy

K

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Title: The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle – Heading to the Party (Part 139)
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Constructive criticism is always welcome. katharynrosser@hotmail.com Flames just demonstrate you have a tiny mind.
Spoiler Warning: Pretty limited. The story occurs in an alternate universe as set up in “The Wish” though reference is made to events that occur in both realities. Nothing is referenced that occurs after S5 though. Guess why? Most “spoilers” would be for the first chronicle of this fic rather than the show and if you haven’t read that then much of this will make no sense but you can try and get round it by reading the preface to Part 104 which summarises most of what went before.
Distribution This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens (This applies to all of the Sidestep Chronicle)
Summary: Tara, Willow and Rupert make contact with the enemy.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc, etc. I am making zilch from this series of stories. You know the drill.
Rating: R – a general rating for occasional content. Individual parts might be less than this level.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever – others couples as necessary but nothing unconventional.
Notes: Yet another part in the long underground section of this story… It serves a purpose though.
Thanks To: All My Brilliant Beta Readers (AMBBR) Kerry (Forrister) and Jo (Wizpup) who for some reason signed right back up for this fic after seeing the size of the last one. No accounting for madness is there. And Celia (TiredSoul) who should have known better but signed up anyway. *HUGS* and Big Thanks to all of you. This one is Celia’s, bless her, it gave her shivers. Apparently.

The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle

Heading to the Party

By

Katharyn Rosser


They hadn’t so much ‘sneaked’ as they’d ‘silently killed’ their way into what must, by now, have been the heart of the nest. There was no way that the heart could be located anywhere else. Surely there couldn’t? It seemed obvious from the changes in the way that the air was flowing, as well as the sounds that were coming from up ahead, that they were coming up on a much bigger, and more open area than the many other ones that they’d already been through. Echoes tended to give that sort of thing away.

Resonance.

Those other areas would have looked like bulges their tunnel had snaked, if they had been looking at a giant overhead map of the place. Some of those had doors, which led to either genuine machinery rooms, installed to keep Sunnydale running, or else it was something the vampires had created for themselves. But what was up ahead was bigger than any of that. Eventually, Willow ruminated, someone was going to have to figure out that they were here. Some vampire. They’d killed eight vampires just to get this far inside and avoided nearly an equal number where there had been other junctions that they could take. Junctions for tunnels, which still headed, broadly, in the same direction without risking being spotted. That was key. It was important to get as far as they could without alerting the heart of the nest. They needed the element of surprise on their side if they were to have the maximum degree of success.

Right now it was a trade off. The best way inside seemed to mean killing more vampires… if one of those got away or raised the alarm…

They hadn’t managed it though. The three of them had been super-stealthy. Quiet as mice and deadly as Miss Kitty on the prowl.

One vampire had even come around a corner behind them and Rupert and had swung his axe and decapitated it in one smooth, easy movement before either she or Tara had even realised it was there. The clang of the axe and the whoosh of the dusting had been the first they’d known about it. He had, she smiled, surprised himself with the instinctive accuracy. He’d surprised all of them with the solid clank of the metal, once it had been through the vampire, thwacking into the wall. They’d frozen at that point, prepared to dodge down any tunnel, in any direction, they needed to but nothing had come to investigate the stone on metal sound.

And so here they were.

It wasn't like she had doubted Rupert at all, he’d killed more vampires than he had in his time, but saving them like that – it had given her much more confidence in him being back there, watching over them. Confidence was good – she didn’t feel she needed to keep looking back.

Since they’d left what had laughingly been called water, Tara hadn’t been letting her go off alone around corners – at least not all the time. The first time going off alone was enough. It made sense for just one of them to be first around the corners rather than both trying to move round at the same time. They weren’t macho swat girls, appealing as the police uniform might have been. They couldn’t leap out, ready for action. Not both of them anyway. Tara wasn’t letting her accept that risk alone – so they alternated. They shared… that was what lovers did. They shared. Good times and bad.

She wasn't sure what this was yet – she supposed they’d see when they were able to breathe fresh air again. And maybe slip into a clean pair of clothes.

No. A warm shower and no clothes at all… between cool sheets. That would be way better. A good ambition to have – a reason to make it back, if she’d ever needed one.

This whole experience might even turn out to be ‘good’ – with just one close shave to show for it – they’d already killed eight vampires. Eight was a pretty respectable target for any single night of hunting, outstanding by the recent standards of Sunnydale – if not historically. But only because all the vampires had been hiding from them. She liked to think that now the three of them would be able to show the vampires just what they’d been so afraid of all this time – but that wasn’t something she should be thinking.

It was far too easy to be mad at them for what they’d done to her. For what they’d done to Tara’s parents and for what she remembered some thing that had worn her face had done to Tara.

Tara had always shown her the way though. Then and now. This had to be an, almost, dispassionate thing that they were doing. They had to be clear and focused on the task they wanted to achieve. There was no room, not down here at least, for anger. Well, maybe, between actual fights with vampires – just a little anger was valid. But in the main, no room at all.

At least there hadn’t been until they’d gotten here, and now they could hear something of what was going on up ahead. Or rather they knew because they couldn’t hear. It was a sort of quiet which was unnatural in its terribleness. It was a quiet that was filled with people, but more like they were people who knew better than to take the chance of attracting attention to themselves – by not even making a sound. People who probably kept each other quiet too – maybe with some brutality – so that they could all stay alive and not be the next one to be hauled out to die.

She was sure they’d reached one of those places.

Toni had described many of the conditions in those holding areas – but she hadn’t mentioned the sound for obvious reasons. Maybe there hadn’t been a whole lot to hear anyway. Willow suspected that the quiet was punctuated just by the occasional screams of those who had attracted the unwanted attention or had been picked out for other reasons.

Or perhaps by those who lost someone – in front of their very eyes – just like Toni had. Had such emotion ever forced a cry from those lips? A cry Toni had never heard herself making. Willow didn’t really want to think about that too much. Toni would tell them if she wanted them to know.

Willow remembered her vampire self, having people in cages. She remembered what people did… how they started to behave as fatalism set in. They’d started to accept their fate, and would only fight each other for the privilege of not dying first. They’d never really resisted their captors. She knew a little of what was coming up.

The point was that it was hard, knowing what they were about to see as well as hear, not to let frustration get to her. They’d already been through this – they’d talked about it at length – they couldn’t help people right away. None of them. Willow knew it, she agreed with what Tara and Rupert had both concluded – sometimes her love was more like a Watcher than the actual Watcher was – but she didn’t have to like it. It seemed cold and cruel to leave them there one minute longer than they had to, but then… they did have to.

They couldn’t let those people out. They couldn’t actually help them at all – not yet. Not even if someone was about to get hurt. They just couldn’t – because if they did, it could go a lot worse for all of them. If, Tara had said for example, they let them out and they started panicking, searching for exits they didn’t know the location of then, aside from all milling around getting in the way, they’d bring every vampire in the place down on them. Possibly from more directions than they could possible hope to deal with – large exposed places weren’t good for their plans.

And there would be panic, Rupert had added. Maybe it wasn't guaranteed… but it was highly probable. What more could you expect from human captives who were waiting for however long to be hunted and killed?

And when had she started thinking about people as ‘human captives’?

It was also quite possible the vampires might well kill them out of hand rather than bother with trying to put them back into the cages. There would always be more humans to eat – Willow well remembered that attitude. It had been the Master’s thinking as well when he’d had the vampire that she had once been design and build the mass-production ‘exsanguinator’ for him. There was always another human – but there might not be another minute like the one you just wasted hunting one of them.

It was precisely the kind of logic that had led him to the monstrosity, which treated people like oranges in juicers. And nearly getting as much juice to the cup… She’d never quiet managed to boost the output. Not if you wanted to keep the best taste. It had needed to be concentrated. Maybe, if she’d…

Why was she thinking about this? Re-designing it in her head? Now?

Better that, she supposed, than facing up to what was going to be ahead.

Even if the vampires didn’t choose to kill any people they let out on the spot, then all these, understandably frantic, people would attract a whole lot of attention they could do without whilst trying to fight the vampires. It would be hard enough to tell, in the inevitable melee, which were the vampires and which were the humans. That would put them all in serious danger – vampires were never above playing the innocent, poor-little-me act when they wanted to get something done. Or someone killed.

Willow, in her former unlife, had played that card a few times. She’d found it rather boring though. It had been much better to have a good chase. Darla had always been the one with the heaving bosom… or schoolgirl outfit. It had got her through the centuries though. She wondered what had happened to that vampire, after the other Willow had interested the Master enough to have Darla exiled. She remembered her vampire self, regretting that she wouldn’t get to deal with Darla as she had Luke.

Not because the old bitch had been a threat to that Willow’s kitten, but just because she would have really, really have liked to kill her in a special way.

It really didn’t matter.

Whilst they were in the cages it was obvious who was who though. Spells, as long as they didn’t affect the people in the cages, were something they could use freely on anything moving outside of confinement. The way they had to look at it was that if it restricted or made them think twice, then it was bad.

The result being that letting the people out would be bad.

All they had to do was kill the vampires and then come back for those in the cages when it was safe to do so. That sounded something like a plan but, truthfully, it was the sort of hard-headed decision she’d never been terribly comfortable with. Hard-headed decision girl just wasn't who she was. But to be equally truthful, it wasn't the only reason why she was uncomfortable. It wasn’t so much herself as it was because it wasn't who Tara was either.

Not any more.

The vampire she remembered being, once upon a dark night, recognised that, much colder, Tara – and perhaps she was only back in the coloured, daylight world and able to be in love because of that Tara. But here and now she didn’t recognise that harsh, realistic Tara as the woman that she loved each and every day. And every night. All the time in fact.

That person had gone away with the pendant when Tara had taken it off a few years back.

When Tara had put the pendant back on… well, Tara wasn't that person just because she had. It was a side of herself that Tara didn’t like to show or explore – even if parts of it were ones that were very necessary to what they had to accomplish. Willow knew very well that Tara still had that serious, devoted, edge to her. The one that translated the caring woman she always was into the person who could do something concrete about all this without getting herself killed… That was valuable… but Tara still wasn’t who she’d once been.

And Willow could just say ‘good’ to that honest truth.

‘Good’ and ‘I hope it never comes back.’

It was just that, even though she knew, she was still so afraid of whether, one day, it might be the main part of Tara again. If Tara carried on with the hunting, might the loving, fun, wonderful woman, be the part which was only be seen in flashes whilst the harder woman was the one that was there all the time?

No.

She didn’t really believe it could happen – Tara wouldn’t let it.

Willow wasn't going there because it wasn't going to happen. Ever. Tara wasn’t going to let that happen to herself any more than Willow would let it happen to her. Tara had said it so often. Love, real love, was the only thing that had allowed her to emerge from the hard, protective shell. And they were always going to be in love. No question there. But Willow couldn’t help why she felt the way she did.

It appeared the tunnel they were in now set off in an elongated loop around that larger chamber they seemed to have found, and Willow would have been happy to just carry on round if they couldn’t help those people right now – but they needed to know, before they went onwards. They needed to be sure everything was what they thought it was. And it would help validate Toni’s information. To make sure their guest was recalling everything closely enough for them to bet their lives on the accuracy of those memories from what had been a terrible, stressful, time in her life.

Actually, she supposed that they just had to see what was in there. She didn’t really want to, but she had to all the same. So did Tara. So did Rupert. They all needed to know whom they were leaving behind – how many – even if it were just temporarily.

Rather than going up to the corner and peering round, Tara chose to retreat and go back down the tunnel a little way, using the angles to look from there into the chamber. They’d stuck to the walls when they had ventured in a little way last night – but never so far as this – and they’d got used to judging where they could easily be seen from – and now Tara was taking advantage of what they’d discovered. Hopefully without taking many chances. Vampires might be able to see in the dark with ease, but they did no better with the contrast between light and dark than humans did. Being down the tunnel a little way ought to help hide Tara.

And Willow when she joined her lover.

Willow followed and stood behind Tara, so they were presenting just one form to anyone, or anything, who happened to look this way. And there they were… It was terrible, even from this distance.

All the people, there in the chamber. Willow could see movement – but nothing specific – within the cages. They could only see a couple of those cages from here, but they were just as big as Toni had suggested. Twenty or more people could be in there and still be able to lie down. It might have been a tight fit – but none of that would bother the vampires. The pens were just to hold the people. Comfort wasn’t a big factor for food.

Look at how humans treated animals destined for the dinner table.

Toni had said there were four or five cages of that size, and those were just what she knew of. In that one chamber she’d been in – unlikely to be this one. Then the girl had gone on to say there were more cages, she thought, were around corners from where she’d been held or had later been taken. Out of sight. If you just figured as many again then there were at least two hundred people in there.

At least…

“Still want to leave them?” she whispered into Tara’s ear. The sheer numbers shocked her as she was sure they did her love too. Though logically she had to see it Tara’s way, she also felt for them all.

She knew Tara did as well though. It had to be killing her inside to be forced to be so rational and to seem so harsh again.

“For now we have to, sweetie,” Tara told her equally as quiet.

There wasn’t a hint of admonishment in her love’s voice. Tara was right – and she’d already agreed the plan was the best way – but the reality of the situation made it seem like she had to ask anyway. Everything always seemed logical when talking in theory, but all these people here, so close, theory was harder to understand over reality. Reality was just too real. They could do it a different way if they really wanted to. They were here to help these people but – Willow had to admit – not just these people. There were people who weren’t here yet – people in Sunnydale and other towns who they were also trying to help.

Help them by keeping them from ever having to go through this. They’d never even know if it worked – only if it didn’t.

“I know,” Willow admitted in a whisper and took the chance to kiss Tara’s ear gently. The little things were a comfort in the face of horror. “Let’s go baby. Let’s get it done,” she said. “Then we can help them.”

“Sure you’re ready?” Tara asked, louder so that this time Rupert could hear too as he came over to look what was ahead. It was clear what she was actually asking. ‘Are you ready to go and fight for those people.’

That would have been too dramatic though. True, but a bit like a bad movie.

Up till now it had kind of been like a stealthy, precision, operation. She was thinking in terms of ‘operations’ now? This was getting more and more clichéd. Perhaps it was a mental thing. Too easy to into Rambo Willow mode. Maybe it was part of the problem Tara had once faced… Regardless, things were about to change. They couldn’t sneak for much longer.

Until now, they’d just been getting in here. Now they were inside, they were going to have to fight. Maybe, even probably, literally. It was going to get down and dirty in here. It was going to get dangerous. She was glad there was someone she trusted with a big axe behind her. In that kind of fighting, having these people milling around wouldn’t be good for anyone.

“I think that we certainly have to do something for the poor wretches,” Rupert added, “but I still stand by what we agreed, we should push onwards and make sure that there are as few vampires left as possible before we risk allowing all those frightened people out and into the firing line – so to speak.”

Tara didn’t say anything, Willow watched her, saying nothing more, and she knew the struggle that was going on inside the woman she loved. It was the same struggle that she’d just been having within herself – it was just that Tara had to be the one who was tougher about this.

Willow and Rupert could disagree about things all they liked – and they often did as he was a very pragmatic person when it came to this sort of thing – but Tara then had to be the one who kept them alive. Tara was the one who was able to do the ‘keeping them alive’ thing better than anyone. Tara had to be the one who decided whether to choose to follow her own, sweet nature or the side of her that she had to bring back to the surface just for this kind of night.

Tara was going to do what was best for them and best for these people. Whoever she had to disagree with – even the woman who gave her sweet loving – Tara just wanted to help them all live. She’d do just that.

Willow knew they’d all agreed beforehand what the best way to do that was – there was no point in rehashing that debate now whilst they couldn’t even speak properly for fear of being overheard. Besides, she accepted the logic. She agreed. She just didn’t like it and she kinda wished someone would overrule her following the plan. She wanted to help these people now – they all did – but she wasn’t about to deviate from the plan. “We need,” Willow said, “to find the best way in. And we need to know…”

“How many of them there are,” Tara completed, agreeing with her.

Knowing how many people there were, even roughly, would help in figuring how many vampires there were likely to be – and what they could call a success in killing them. Killing ten and pushing fifty up onto the streets wasn't going to help – at least not unless they were the right ten vampires and they had a reason to believe, once they’d killed those other fifty, they were all done.

For one horrible moment Willow wondered what would happen if they failed, and couldn’t come back? Would it have been better to open the cages now? Give these people a chance.

But they wouldn’t fail.

They carried on down the gently curving tunnels, leaving the people in the cages behind but knowing they would come back to release them when they’d succeeded.

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It had become apparent the tunnel they were in skirted right around the edge of the larger chamber, several places were turning out to be pretty narrow electrical access ducts with cables as thick as Tara’s wrist burrowing into the ceiling and up – presumably – into the outside world, offering light and power to the people of Sunnydale.

Most towns, Tara guessed, would rely more on over-the-ground electrical cabling, but this was Sunnydale. Her previous employer would probably have used any excuse he needed to, in order to provide tunnels for the demons that the designer would have been instructed to attract here. Visible power lines weren’t all that common in town – though she’d never noticed that before. She guessed it was harder to notice something what wasn’t there, and had never been.

Once down here though, the reason was obvious. Along the way they’d found that there were newer links into the cabling – some of which hummed as they walked alongside it – which was probably where the vampires, or someone else, had modified and interfered with the old layout. There was no doubt it was to provide the power that seemed to be needed down here.

Or at least some of it. They still couldn’t rule out the possibility, and potential danger, of there being generators with flammable fuels around, but it seemed much less likely now – which untied their hands. She was willing, if the need came, for them to risk something, which would have been dangerous with the possibility of fuel being around.

Maybe, as Willow had speculated, they could have pulled the plug on the vampires. It would have been confusing for all of a few seconds certainly, vampires got confused as easily as humans did – maybe more so when they got stuck in their ways – but after that, then it was they who would be practically blind and the vampires that would have been in their element. The vampire’s nocturnal vision to their human vision would work against them. But they had been ready to work like that, in the dark, and light had been beyond their wildest dreams when it came to this hunt. But Tara couldn’t help thinking… now that they had the light; it was best to make use of it.

She’d been tempted by Willow’s suggestion – any confusion could help them a lot, however momentarily – but ultimately the biggest problem with that approach was they’d have leave someone behind to disconnect it, so the other two could be close enough to the vampires to exploit the confusion. And then what would happen to them, the person who was left behind? Alone.

No, not an option she was willing to consider.

With light on their side they could do this task lot more easily and a lot more accurately too. Light was their best option by a long shot. It was Willow who had surmised something else too though – something that could very definitely help them out. If the vampires were tapping into the local grid instead of having generators and flammable fuels – which, let’s face it, vampires shied away from for their own very good reasons – then they had one less thing to worry about and one more weapon to use against the vampires.

If they had to.

Willow and her fire. They’d still, and always, have to be careful but… it was better.

Tara was perfectly happy with their stakes… at least for now. She smiled grimly though; because the power lines did, obviously, let Willow off the self-imposed leash – if she needed that freedom to help them, or someone else, live through this. But she trusted Willow to be careful – super careful – if it came to that. Stakes were good though – stakes had always done well enough for her before, but there was no denying that it was better to have more options open to them. Options were good. Options allowed them to ‘think on the fly’ if something went wrong – or got too fraught.

As they’d made their way around the curved tunnel, they’d come to another intersection that looked back into the holding area – or actually another holding area. And each bulge in the tunnel they walked into indicated another. And another.

And another.

As they moved around the perimeter tunnel, it was quickly proved that each such bulge was another holding area – the last of them they had come to a little different to the others, but still a place of human misery. Each of the other three they’d found had its own character – it wasn't like they were laid out in a generic fashion. But this last one, the fourth, was very different. Better guarded for a start – they’d had to kill two vampires just to remain undetected and be able to see into the main chamber.

If Tara had to guess, she would say this last chamber was the place Toni had said she’d been moved to, the one with the smaller cages. It seemed to fit the description they’d finagled out of her. It was where Toni, and lots of others, had been put to fatten up before being released into the hunt, which had ultimately led the girl to her and Willow. Mercifully Toni had escaped, but so many other people mustn’t have been so lucky.

Did the vampires like to hunt for the taste? Did the taste, if it was that, come from fear? Fear built up through adrenaline as they ran? Knowing they would be eaten soon?

Or was the fattening cage to make sure that their victims had enough energy to run and provide them with a better hunting experience all round?

Tara wasn’t sure that she wanted to know about that – and she had no intention of asking for Willow’s better-informed opinion. Especially not now. If she did, then she’d have to watch her love’s reaction to remembering about all those bad old days, which was a reaction she never particularly liked to see. No, it didn’t matter enough to need to know now – though once upon a time it was the sort of thing she’d thought was important for figuring out how to best fight vampires.

And kill them.

This nest though – what it did – it would be stopped. Tonight.

They’d come almost full circle, at least so far as Tara could tell from her inbuilt senses, when they stopped to look into that area filled with the much smaller cells. There was a greater distance between those cells too, more private. More isolated.

If they’d turned in the other direction when they’d entered this long, curved, perimeter tunnel they’d have been here sooner. Perhaps it was best it worked this way – to get to these cages last of all. Final destination for so many people.

The structures in this part of the tunnels were made of old materials, those were probably adapted equipment cages or something from back when the sewer system was laid down. Or would the Mayor really have arranged for cages to be down here – human cages? They certainly didn’t seem to have been fitted too recently and…

She wouldn’t have put it past him.

In fact, it wasn't so much a full ‘circle’ they’d come round as a ‘full curvy edged square.’ Willow would probably know the proper name for a shape like that, but Tara was willing to make do with ‘curvy’ for now. In general she had to say that she was a fan of curves – whether they were shallow or more pronounced ones. Curves were very natural. Curves could take her to all sorts of interesting places… and there was just the one set of curves she was really fascinated with.

She’d make sure to get back to those curves when they got in tonight – running her hands over them soothingly would be a good start. Maybe she could even wash them clean. Thoroughly of course – they were getting pretty dirty down here and she always wanted to do the best job she could. She thought that the night might be a little old for snuggling though by the time they got back. Except in the literal sense as they fell asleep, of course. Still, Willow wouldn’t be denied if she were still in the mood then. The adrenaline might well still be flowing, even so late into the morning.

So they’d come full circle, full curvy square… whatever. And all there had been, other than the four views into the different holding area and a few guards that they’d taken care of pretty easily, were a few other tunnels that they’d been able to discount as entry routes. Routes much like the one they’d come down – some of which they had probably scouted out – and others, which they hadn’t even been aware of before. The one thing that they did know was there had to be a pretty big space within the boundaries of the – seemingly interconnected – holding areas.

Based on the speed that they’d been going, it was at least a good couple of miles all around the perimeter through that outer tunnel. And that left a lot of space within that perimeter, which couldn’t be accounted for by the holding areas, and cages they’d seen. There was obviously nothing much outside of this tunnel they were walking around except for a few storerooms remade into sleeping quarters and the like. Or that’s what it looked like anyway.

This set-up was good-ish for them and bad-ish for the vampires. The ‘ish’ was the important part of both statements. What they wanted was at the centre and not scattered all over the place. That was good. But they had to go inside to get there. They had to go in through the holding areas to get where they needed to be. They had to cross the spaces where they were almost certain to be seen. And where the people were. That wasn’t so ideal. Hence bad-ish too. Tara would have preferred to get to the heart of the matter and then work outward from there. Now they were going to find themselves in a position where they might have to fight their way in and then they were going to have to try and clean that up – before fighting their way out and releasing all those people as they did so.

It didn’t lend itself to what she’d found to be good tactics.

It could turn into chaos there if the people started screaming for them to let them out of the cages. There would be no ability to communicate with each other in such chaos – even in sign. It would be lack of an ability to concentrate which might get them hurt. But they each knew their roles and were prepared. Preparation was important.

Once they’d killed the vampires, they couldn’t even just go out of the nest one way – they were going to have to go from holding area to holding area to release these people and in every one, there would be another chance for the vampires to hurt someone – one of them or one of the captives. More than one chance. It was going to get more and more difficult as they freed more and more people as well.

Right now they found themselves at a point where the vampires would most likely have released their victims for the hunt. A large, high arched tunnel ran perpendicular to their path. The purpose was obvious not because they had any great intuition for what Toni might have described – which the girl had in detail in this case – but because there was obviously a hunt about to start. It matched Toni’s description.

Two vampires, both female, and a young man who was obviously very scared of what looked like was about to happen to him.

What were they supposed to do now?

They could take thirty paces down that tunnel, into the holding area, and they could be seen and be in a fight for their lives anyway. Or they might get lucky and be able to sneak it… They could just let these vampires go… allowing them to hurt this guy.
And if they intervened… well, they had no idea if there were any more vampires out of their sight who might be watching the start of the hunt. Participating or not, they could be there.

There might be a warning if the vampires managed it – and then they’d be forced to try and look after the young man if they did that. How could they keep him safe and still do what they had to do? But were they really going to stand still and let him get eaten for the sake of a few paces of less fighting? It was one thing to leave those people in the cages and know that some of them might get hurt – it was entirely another to know that someone was almost definitely going to get killed. If the hunt started, the vampires would be away up that tunnel – and they’d never be able to help this guy. They’d never get there in time.

Even if they were able to try.

Tara had been there before.

So had Willow.

So had Rupert.

They didn’t need to have a conference about it. She and Willow stood ready with their stakes, and it was Rupert who stopped them by resting a hand on each of their arms. Tara glanced back and he nodded towards the vampires who were still unaware of their presence. Vampires who had the scent of blood, the anticipation of the hunt within them. They didn’t much care about the rest of the world because they couldn’t think beyond their stomachs. They were expecting to smell humans – the only thing which might have given the three of them away – because humans were why they were there after all.

Rupert’s hands on their arms said ‘wait’ before he let them fall and they both did as he suggested. And he was absolutely right – the vampires did a part of their work for them. They taunted the young man they thought they were going to get to eat and then released him.

Ready for the hunt.

The young man looked back at the vampires – seeing them as they really were and then he fled… quickly. He was away from the immediate danger and that meant that they didn’t have to look after him when he got away.

Toni’s description had been what stilled Rupert, made him ‘suggest’ that they wait. Even without words. He’d remembered that the vampires liked to give the victim a head start.

They’d heard it.

The vampires had told the young man he could have a count of twenty and as they counted up past ten, fourteen, it looked as if they were going to give him all of that time. A slow, twenty count with the speed and strength of vampires? Surely they must have given Toni more than that? The girl was fairly small… she might be a runner but that would have only put her a hundred or less small strides from the vampires who were hunting her…

And she’d escaped them over a distance of miles, in near darkness, through the sewers that were strewn with debris…

If Tara hadn’t been impressed with Toni’s feat before, she certainly was now. Even if vampiric abilities didn’t run to long distance running, they were tireless. Good for you, Toni.

Seventeen.

Three.

Eighteen.

Two.

Nineteen.

One.

This time Willow waited, either for the right interval or for Tara to make her own move – it didn’t matter which – the upshot was that they were in sync with each other. As they should have been – they just clicked into the same timing. Tara had been able to feel Willow gathering the magic to herself, she knew that Willow could feel the same thing from her, and she’d known, even before Willow had done it, the instant that her love was planning to release the stake.

Without looking she could feel when it actually left Willow’s hand.

So she timed her own stake to coordinate with that.

Two stakes, crossing almost the same distance, at the same time, striking at the same moment and eliminating two entirely separate vampires with perfect heart shots. At distance. It was well done and they could take a moment to smile at each other in appreciation of their combined efforts.

“Well, I have to say that was very impressive,” Rupert commented. “That kind of precision is all too rare in your generation.”

“Better than you’d manage with the crossbow,” Willow whispered mischievously in reply. “If you’d bothered to bring it with you.”

Wanted to talk about precision and ‘generations’ did he?

“You know how I am with crossbows, Willow,” Rupert admonished her.

Tara admired their ability to detach themselves from what they were doing. The smile had been all she was able to manage. Sometimes she managed to slip out of the role of the hunter whilst she was with them – certainly she too appreciated the breaks in the tension – but mainly she had to be, and was, the serious one. Whilst Rupert was good at focusing he was also very willing to play along with Willow who needed to make little jokes, or observations, to bleed off the nervous energy that always filled her on these occasions. In that way, perhaps Rupert was better for Willow on a task like this than she could be.

At least in that way… Rupert helped Willow along in a way other than just having total faith and love for her. Which, Willow had often told her, was all she actually needed.

Tara supposed that, if it were just she and Willow out here, she would have done the same thing. Willow needed to let that tension out and, failing the best and most satisfying way of achieving that, this would have to do for her. It was how Willow reached and maintained herself at her best – and that best was always very, very good.

Besides, she actually also thought that Rupert needed to be the one who was helping them stick together as a group. It appealed to his nature – his ‘fatherly Watcher role.’ She’d seen him adopt it often enough with Faith – his Slayer.

And it had helped him rather than the, externally, tough Slayer.

Tara didn’t disapprove of how they helped each other – but she had to hold herself a little out of their ‘banter.’ Holding herself a little aloof was how she’d always been at her best when she was hunting – she’d always had an intense focus on the moment. The surroundings and the task at hand. Rupert… he was at his best supporting others. He was a rock that they all tended to lean on – all things to all of them as they needed him to be. He might even have been taught that at Watcher School or wherever it was that Watchers were trained. And he was well trained to the task. So well trained he just slipped into the role – he never tried to be that sort of support.

He just was.

She supposed that they, the Watchers, had to learn to support all different kinds of Slayers – and she’d met a few Slayers now – and, of course, they were all different. They were young girls after all. Some of them younger than Toni. And their lives promised to be short, painful and devoted to things young girls shouldn’t have to be. The idea of the extremely tweedy English man winning Faith, the Slayer’s, respect and then fighting along side her seemed a little ridiculous when she thought about it.

But he had done anyway. Faith had been a totally different personality to poor Kendra, who’d been raised to serve the Council. Different Slayer. Different skills. Different way of handling them. Different Watcher certainly – but they hadn’t selected Rupert because he was suitable for dealing with Faith. They’d selected Faith to come to the Hellmouth – where Rupert was. It was down to chance how the Watcher and Slayer would pair up. So, ultimately, a good Watcher had to be able to work with anyone.

Tara had found herself thinking about Faith a lot recently. That other Faith. She supposed that events were conspiring to make that the case – not that she’d ever forgotten about her friend and what had happened to her. What she’d allowed to happen to happen to her.

Neither she nor Willow could ever forget it – even though Willow had never really known her. She wondered what Willow, her Willow, would have made of Faith. And vice versa.

It was good that they didn’t forget her – because in a way Faith was still with them. Sometimes, well sometimes Tara still thought that she could hear the Slayer in her head. Not in a crazy way, as Willow would have put it, but in a… In the way that suggested that Faith’s influence on her had gone deeper than she’d ever thought and it was nice to think that she was somehow still around.

When voices in your head were comforting, then you knew you’d done bad things. She found herself smiling again, and Willow giving her a quizzical look. She knew it wasn’t about the stakings. Tara just gave her a little shake of the head. It was okay.

She knew what Faith would say to her now too… ‘Get out of your own head and kill them vampires T.’

And she would have been right about that. She was thinking way too much about stuff that wasn't killing vampires.

‘Then you can take Willow and go party.’

Okay, now party might be a little excessive. She didn’t remember Faith doing anything but going to hospital after the last time any of them had tried anything this big. Though, with her arm and leg in bandages and casts, Faith had partied the night she got out of hospital… ‘Snuggle then,’ the Faith within would have conceded – probably disgusted by the lack of partying.

But it was all just a thought. A musing of what Faith would have said.

“Good shot sweetie,” Tara told Willow supportively. “Now, let’s go make a few more count. Then we can go and party.” Definitely better to party than to be in hospital though.

She could almost see Faith’s grin.

And she knew that there were two very confused people behind her as she headed back towards the core of the nest.

Five by Five.

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Re: Part 139

Postby heraldgal » Sun Nov 02, 2003 2:41 pm

This is better then trick or treating was, there are only treats here.



The sounds coming from the cages, I can imagine how hushed they might be since the would not want to be attention getting. So many people too. If these numbers shocked them I wonder if the vampire count will since the pendant pain was so bad. I hope they are prepared which I know you would have them be. ;)



Willow thinking about Darla. Little does she know she is the reason for this nest. They did not have many run in’s in the first story did they? No love lost there I think. Will they meet again? That meeting could be cool.



Thank you for the update.



Cathy.

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Re: Part 136

Postby tiredsoul » Mon Nov 03, 2003 3:34 am

Shivers are good… sometimes very good.



How you’re showing the mindset of all them in the face of what is going to imminent danger is great, particularly Tara’s memory of Faith. It was kind of sweet thinking of what Faith would have said in that situation. I miss Faith :(

Quote:
When voices in your head were comforting, then you knew you’d done bad things


Hmm… that’s sounding familiar to me, can’t understand why ;)



It must be hard to leave those people behind but it makes sense. It could turn to utter chaos even if those captured people saw them. The last thing they want is give any indication that the nest is being compromised. Smart plan.



Thanks Katharyn.



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Re: Part 136

Postby Katharyn » Mon Nov 03, 2003 1:11 pm

Phew, I made it back.



Cathy - No scary pumpkins please!



I just couldn't help thinking that, though Toni was deaf, maybe there wouldn't be too much to hear. I think silence says so much more than moans and screams.



In the right circumstances anyway.



There are alot of vampires here. More than in the Bronze. Only cos as a writer everything has to be Faster! Bigger! Harder to kill!



Willow and Darla, yeah there will be an interesting encounter there.



Eventually.



Thanks



Licky - I like shivers... the shiver getting into a cold bed... then warming it up. For example.



The mindest is all I can do! Faith pops up a couple of times, as you well know. I miss Faith too. I wish, sometimes, there had been a way to do this other than killing her.



Was that quote one of yours? If it was then all credit to you - I have no memory. BUt it means I can steal with good conscience.



Thanks for everything Licky.



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Re: Part 136

Postby xita » Mon Nov 03, 2003 10:47 pm

Well well, we're in it now! The action! I hadn't thought of the people down there as far as what they were going to do with them. And it's a good thing they did because that must have been so hard. Really tough decision to make. All those people, you'd think they would have been missed... but i really hate to think of how many vampires await them. But they seem calm so that helps me. Cause god I want them safe, you know me :p

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Re: Part 136

Postby Katharyn » Wed Nov 05, 2003 12:23 am

Yup... we're into the action - which is so not the point! Thanks hun. The people down there came from places that were not Sunnydale... my reasoning be they would be missed where they were lost, but why would anyone think they were in Sunnydale?



Yeah, its a writer's contrivance. Logical enough to let me tell the story, but not standing up in the real world.



Safe?



Of course they are safe... *If your happy and together clap your hands...*



Thanks



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Re: Part 139

Postby forrister » Wed Nov 05, 2003 3:29 am

Safe?



SAFE?



This is obviously some strange new usage of the word 'safe' that I wasn't previously aware of.



Its ok. I have the Guide and on the cover it says in big friendly letters "Don't Panic."



Hmmm - Whats six times seven? Are there more than 42 vampires? Are there mice in the sewers? Will Tara have to buy a digital watch now? Why am I having a surreal type of 'Hitchhiker' moment?



Hmmm - perhaps I should put on my straitjacket and get back to the beta?





Semper in excremento sum, solum profunditas mutat.

Always in the shit, only the depth varies.

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Re: Part 136

Postby c3n » Wed Nov 05, 2003 9:35 pm

One certainly can't help but feel the tension here--Willow, Tara, and Rupert having to leave all the people in the cages, perhaps to be killed. And, now they're heading to the heart of the nest where (presumably) Darla & Company are waiting for them. A few days until the next update, too.



Thanks for the entertaining update--



c3n





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Part 140

Postby Katharyn » Thu Nov 06, 2003 11:20 pm

Kerry - Well safe is a relative term.

Love the latin...

C3N - Tension is good - what we are aiming for. As for a few days... try right now.

Thanks and enjoy.

Katharyn

Title: The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle - Cruel and Kind. Strong and Gentle (Part 140)
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Constructive criticism is always welcome. katharynrosser@hotmail.com Flames just demonstrate you have a tiny mind.
Spoiler Warning: Pretty limited. The story occurs in an alternate universe as set up in “The Wish” though reference is made to events that occur in both realities. Nothing is referenced that occurs after S5 though. Guess why? Most “spoilers” would be for the first chronicle of this fic rather than the show and if you haven’t read that then much of this will make no sense but you can try and get round it by reading the preface to Part 104 which summarises most of what went before.
Distribution This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens (This applies to all of the Sidestep Chronicle)
Summary: What the hell are Dru and Darla doing whilst Tara and Willow tramp around in their nest? Well here is the answer.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc, etc. I am making zilch from this series of stories. You know the drill.
Rating: R – a general rating for occasional content. Individual parts might be less than this level.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever – others couples as necessary but nothing unconventional.
Notes: There is a story reason for this… we need to see what the vampires are doing – but I just love being in the head of someone dealing with Dru too.
Thanks To: All My Brilliant Beta Readers (AMBBR) Kerry (Forrister) and Jo (Wizpup) who for some reason signed right back up for this fic after seeing the size of the last one. No accounting for madness is there. And Celia (TiredSoul) who should have known better but signed up anyway. *HUGS* and Big Thanks to all of you.
This is one of Kerry’s – and somehow she finds the most occasions to add Python quotes pf anyone I know. It’s always fun, hun.

The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle

Cruel and Kind. Strong and Gentle.

By

Katharyn Rosser


Where are Karen and Suzanne?” Darla asked Drusilla, as if her counterpart would have any idea – or even probably show that she’d understood the question. She had to think of Dru as a counterpart, because she very clearly wasn't an inferior. An inferior would do as she was told. Dru… would do whatever the fairies told her to. Which might be what Darla told her.

It should have been so very simple. She’d asked for everyone – everyone bar the tunnel guards – to be here for this conclave. What she had to say was always important enough for unquestioning obedience, this more so than usual. They should have been here. As they’d been asked to be. ‘Asked’ in the Order was little more than a euphemism for ‘summoned’ or ‘commanded.’

Instructed even.

Every one of requests was an instruction. Every instruction was a command. They, her vampires, all knew the way things were and they knew the consequences of disobedience.

Of course, since she’d sent Drusilla to deliver that message she couldn’t exactly be confident of it getting through properly and clearly. There was a lot of interpretation involved in understanding Dru. The vampires in the Order – and beyond it – were all terrified of her, and with good reason. Terror was why Darla made the proper use of her – but in no way could you consider Drusilla to be a ‘henchwoman.’ Drusilla, if such a thing could be said of a vampire, was a free spirit.

Dangerous.

Unpredictable.

And absolutely insane, of course.

But, perhaps, this was Drusilla’s subtlety at play. Darla knew she’d been taking the dark vampire for granted recently. It was simply a product of being cooped up down here for as long as she had been. The exercising of power was all that she had to amuse herself, power and Drusilla. Dru could be very, very entertaining when she was in the mood to play. She was perhaps the most fitting legacy of that dear boy Angelus.

A creature so cruel that she could be kind. Or at least appear so.

A vampire so strong she could be gentle. Or at least pretend to be so.

A demon so far over the edge of sanity that she had the most exquisitely accurate insights into the minds and hearts of all creatures in this world they would soon rule. Darla had found herself relying on her… and being inordinately enamoured of the crazy woman’s presence in her court.

The thing was that she’d never seen Drusilla bored… Sometimes she could be off in her own little doll-filled world which frustrated Darla no end, but there was no bringing Dru out of it that was where her mind was. And there were dangers in trying too hard. But the lack of boredom kept Dru fresh – and that was something Darla valued. It was harder to be bored herself when there was Dru here to entertain her – in any number of ways.

She’d come to expect that recently though. She expected Dru to be there for her – on demand. Just as though she was some other member of the Order.

Dru was much more than that.

Drusilla was bound to her simply because she wanted to be – unlike all the rest of them. There was respect there, which might simply be because Darla had sired the vampire who had sired her… but there was no loyalty to the Order of Aurelius as such. Such things didn’t interest Dru at all. Organisation… A woman who could count the legs of all the bugs in this, the main chamber for hours at a time didn’t much care for power or who had it. She stayed because… Darla thought it was because Dru found her interesting.

Something… Darla enjoyed being interesting. Where Drusilla took an interest there was play to follow. And Dru played in the most delicious ways.

And the other vampire found her amusing, of course. The world amused Dru, perhaps because it was – from her unique point of view – a place which was abnormal in every way. This vampire’s perceptions were far enough askew that everything must have seemed strange and amusing.

Attempting to make Dru do something she didn’t want to would have certainly turned out badly… Darla had no doubts about who was the stronger physically and in terms of the powers Dru could bring to bear if she wanted to. The alternative was a sulk.

On the other hand Dru had next to no focus – fixation certainly – but not mental focus. A sulk might have lasted very long simply because Dru wouldn’t keep focussed on what it was about. And, through that same flaw, she might have forgotten to summon Karen and Suzanne, sent them elsewhere or, perhaps, tortured them to death.

Next time, Darla promised herself, she’d definitely send a flunky rather than a dark queen to deliver her messages. That was how the dear, departed William had seen Drusilla and, for once, Darla couldn’t argue with one of his assessments. They had, after his death, finally found some common ground.

Dark Queen.

There was something about Dru… some sort of charisma. Perhaps it was a tiny reminder of her long departed humanity – something that all other vampires missed in spite of the glorious nature of what they were now.

It was… perhaps majestic was the best word. A word that suited a queen.

So very few vampires had any charisma… it wasn't something that carried over from being a human to being a demon. Charisma wasn’t simply a question of physical presence, or memory. It was, as best Darla could tell, indefinable. The word itself was an invention – a catchall term to refer to whatever it was that made one person, or demon, stand out from the crowd.

As a vampire, no matter what you had been in the human world, you had to find your own identity in the new world. Those that failed to do so… they were drones. The Master had found it, Angelus had found it in a different way… She’d never really needed to realise that she’d also found it until after she’d assumed the Master’s mantle… She liked to know there was something there, something which tied her vampires to her.

Fear. Lust. She wasn’t bothered as long as they obeyed her. Immediately and without question. But perhaps not so simple as that?

Certainly she had feared the Master’s power – but hadn’t she also been drawn to it? Charisma was anything which drew others to you.

But Drusilla didn’t even know she possessed that kind of trait. She might even have come over all school girlish and shy if someone told her she did. Perhaps the very real, yet entirely false, innocence was a part of that charisma?

It was equally likely that, once Dru had got over her embarrassment, she’d have ripped their head off.

Every vampire in the nest was afraid of her, including Darla herself, though she’d never admit it, but equally every vampire was strangely drawn to her dark power. Others, from outside the Order, had even come to town to join with Drusilla… Darla had made sure they were destroyed of course.

There was a radiance to the dark queen. Some found it sexual, some found it to be a commanding presence. Still other’s were impressed by the fear Drusilla could instill in them. Everyone might see something different there.

Darla wasn’t quite sure what it was. For her… perhaps it was all of those things. A package.

It was, then, best described as the indefinable charisma.

If Drusilla had possessed just an ounce of true mental focus she’d be extremely dangerous – in the sense of threatening the entire world… but she really didn’t have that quality.

Dru just didn’t have it in her to spend decades seeking something that would pull this whole dimension down around their ears. So Darla was providing that kind of focus for them both – and the brains in the outfit – for her. Fortunately for the human cattle, she wasn’t too interested in destroying the world…

But together they could be very dangerous – would be and indeed were. All she had to do was to keep Dru focused on her, and then turn herself to whatever was necessary… Keeping Drusilla focused was proving more pleasurable than she would ever have anticipated.

When they had the assembled throng of the Order of Aurelius at their side – and by now they were almost completely gathered – then they would be practically impossible to defeat. And they’d left just enough vampires in the cities she had summoned them from to maintain their positions there. All it was going to take now was some planning and a good massacre.

They were all here – sooner than she would have liked so the number of vampires they’d been able to create for when they revealed themselves were a little lower than planned – but she supposed that was inevitable. Even when she called all her followers to her there had to be certain functions that continued. For example, she knew that a few of the ones who were missing were those that had been assigned to guard them all this night.

And, of course, there were those few who had been left behind in other cities to ensure that their place wasn't usurped by the less deserving. In a few places there had been wars fought with other species of demons to ensure the Order was pre-eminent – or at least well placed. She wasn’t about to give those hard won positions up now. Not even for this. It would have delayed her plans far too much.

There were bigger fish to fry than simply this small town.

Despite all those of her Order she could excuse for not being here – there was also Karen and Suzanne who were… She looked at Drusilla waiting for her explanation – if she even remembered who those vampires were.

“They’re getting something to eat,” Drusilla told her to fill in the blanks.

Eating? Now? When she was about to offer them all the food that they could ever want? All the children they might want to snack on… all the filling, fully grown meals that were out there? It was these sort of impulses that the Master had striven to bring around to his use – rather than simply allowing his subjects to give free reign to them. It was pitiful really. She gave them most of the hours of the night to feed.

Every night.

She provided the food for them to hunt through the tunnels – as pitiful as that was compared to the sensation of a free hunt in the open air – but they still disobeyed her. They couldn’t stop listening to their stomachs.

“And did you even tell them that I wanted them here?” There was really nothing she could do about it now, even if she wanted to. She couldn’t interrupt or delay what was about to start.

Her soul was already damned of course, but she would be doubly damned if she was going to wait for them to finish eating and show themselves. That would simply look weak to the others and she couldn’t afford to appear that way now. It was the whole point of this after all. No one was her equal… not even Drusilla.

They all had to believe that – and live by it. She was the Mistress of the Order of Aurelius and they would obey her.

Nor was she actually weak. She would have Karen and Suzanne punished anyway – and not just for how they might make her look before the others. None of the old Order would have ignored the command of the Master. No, their absence was reason enough – even if Dru hadn’t actually told them at all.

It was their duty to find out what her commands were – not to wait to hear them.

“Their tummies were all grumbly and rumbly too,” Drusilla said as if that explained everything. And after a fashion she supposed it did. Hunger was hunger and whilst she wore the Master’s mantle she clearly wasn’t the Master. She was simply trying to live up to his example – and bring her vampires to the level of his expectations. He might have chosen to restrain the feeding instinct for the greater glory of the Order – but Darla had to admit that she often hadn’t even been able restrain her own instinct to feed in the past. She’d disobeyed the Master herself over food more than a few times…

And, if she looked back now on those few times, he’d almost had her staked out in the sun for it on each occasion. There had to be, as he’d always explained, discipline in any family – but even if Darla had ever dreamed of disciplining Drusilla outside of their more private moments, what would it be for? What lessons could she learn?

Dru was insane… she saw things in other ways than the normal. Including discipline. Besides, as Darla well knew, Drusilla quite liked pain – being on the receiving end of it as well as inflicting it in increasingly weird and wonderful ways.

You didn’t have to be insane to be a gifted torturer, but it seemed to help.

Darla had never quite seen the point of pain if you weren’t inflicting it yourself – or at least witnessing it being inflicted on someone else. Dru… had another viewpoint entirely on that supposition. She had to admit Dru had actually even shown her the other side of the coin and the only thing which bothered her about any of it was putting herself in the position William had once been in… but then she wasn’t addicted to Drusilla as he had been.

So that was all right. She was getting to see, and feel another part of Drusilla, one which that blonde poser had never been touched by.

Ah yes, she needed Drusilla all right – but not for the reasons he had. She wasn’t so weak willed as he’d been.

Drusilla was, after all, one of her main methods of maintaining discipline amongst all of the others – even if Dru couldn’t have seen it as such herself. The Master had been individually powerful very powerful, yet he had used Luke to keep the other vampires in the Order in line.

There was fear, there was loyalty and it was backed by the threat of an immensely old vampire with all the power which it had brought him – and that had been if the unfortunate subject had survived Luke’s delicate attentions. Darla knew she was amongst the strongest of his erstwhile followers, but she wasn’t strong enough. Not without Dru… There was something special about Dru which no one had ever really identified the nature of.

Like the Master, Drusilla didn’t just have power – she had an attitude, one which others feared. She was unpredictable and she was vicious - even for a vampire. She was, Darla surmised, an unknown quantity to the others.

Perhaps Drusilla was an unknown quantity to herself. Was there any vampire who looked within herself quite as much as Dru? Probably not, and yet Darla couldn’t see that her ‘granddaughter’ knew herself any better than Darla herself.

The fear of being handed over to Dru’s tender mercies helped keep the other vampires in line. Darla had more vampires than the even Master would ever have dared to create – at least in this day and age. The Inquisition had ended the good years of free movement around Europe. Since then, she’d heard, he had been much more cautious then she was now.

But then she needed them – and they were scattered over and beyond this state. The fragmentation caused problems she’d never really anticipated. The Master had used Luke, and sometimes Darla herself, to enforce his will outside of the ‘family home.’ It was in dealing with those who had been sent away from the heart of the Order that the favourites had shown their value. Now, she hadn’t had that advantage – she couldn’t afford anyone as strong as she was… they would have been a threat.

Unless they were too insane and unfocused to ever be a threat to her control. Unless they were… Drusilla.

But where once her ‘fellows’ would have died at the whim of the Master – she would have done so herself if he had explicitly commanded it – she was reduced to keeping them so directly in fear? Fear was what kept them in line.

Fear of Drusilla.

How many of them would willingly die for her when they were given a choice of simply proving their devotion or keeping their worthless existence? They were no different to how she had once been – she would have avoided death, unless there was absolutely no other choice. In many ways she’d been an inferior member of the Master’s Order.

Yet it was she who had survived to be the new leader of that Order.

Results were what counted.

And there it was. With Drusilla’s power at her command, what Darla had to call a ‘dark magnificence,’ and her own leadership, there were probably quite a few who would now die for her. Despite the low esteem she generally held the members of the Order in, it was now the truth. To avoid being handed over to Drusilla, tortured before they were killed… these vampires would die for her.

It just went to show that with the right motivation anyone would sacrifice themselves for her. And now she had the right motivation for them. This night though it was a motivation which wasn’t one of fear. It wasn't pain. It was unconnected to Dru. It wasn’t even – strictly – blood. She could finally offer them everything they might have wanted. Everything she had promised them.

It was everything she wanted anyway, which was all that mattered. Everything she’d promised herself.

They should want what she wanted.

She was all vampires. She was the Order… the oldest Order in existence. Leader of an organisation which had formed while humans were still scraping around and trying to figure out why staying still and getting a few of their number to grow food for the rest was a good idea.

Before civilisation was raised from the depths of inefficient barbarity, vampires had been simply wandered from hut to hut… a distance of mere miles to humans who might never have met – or warned – their neighbours. Civilisation had, ultimately, allowed vampires to stop wandering the countryside and take their proper places, ruling the night time of towns and eventually the cities. When vampires had subsequently wandered, before the invention of modes of transport which hadn’t bolted at the unnatural presence of a demon, they’d been forced to find caves, or bury themselves in the dirt as Dru was still so fond of doing…

Civilisation and human invention had given them freedom from that filth… from places like this.

And now she was ready to raise her followers to a new kind of civilisation which would free them from these damned tunnels. Freedom from the persistent draught, which rippled through them. Freedom from the perpetual damp, which got into everything. Freedom from the fouling of clothes and shoes no matter how carefully you stepped in the tunnels.

Freedom from the stench of human waste, which would never, ever, go away. She was certain that it was ground into her skin and she’d always – even when she had chosen to surround herself with a cloying pool of the thickest blood – been able to smell it. Humanity….

Civilisation was freedom from the effects, smells and textures of nature at its rawest and most despicable. She was planning to create a world for vampires – gradually of course – which would allow her to be free of everything natural except the blood and the sweetest of things she enjoyed… her views. The perfumed scents which she used to try to mask the sewer. The touch of silk upon her naked flesh. All natural things she could more than tolerate – she even desired them.

And soon they would all be hers.

Okay then, it was time to move away from thoughts of bathing in sweet, but slightly clotting, blood… before she got too deeply into the blood lust and lost control of herself. It always partly clotted unless you constantly bled new humans into the pools – but she’d only had chance to be so self-indulgent once in her existence.

They were still importing the humans, wasting them for fresh blood pools… she wouldn’t have allowed it. But perhaps, once they’d finished tonight – there would be a few hundred people down here who they no longer needed.

She already intended to seek out the finest view in Sunnydale, it was bound to have its own pool… and if it did… She’d fill that pool with the blood of those in the cages. Hunting, after all, would be a free pursuit from tonight.

And so there were a few of her followers missing? Maybe those two chief offenders would die for her too – without choosing to. Had this been a last meal for them? Perhaps. Just perhaps for now. She would wait and see how the rest of the ascent went. She didn’t want to destroy them before the ascent… it would be a waste she might regret. For the want of two vampires, the battle might be lost. If their victory was crushing then she might be magnanimous, she might allow them to live – albeit in great pain.

“Ritual and ceremony,” she said quietly as the throng continued chattering amongst themselves.

Discipline was a much more interesting concept than ritual. She had little use for rituals in their own right – they were simply another method of control. It hadn’t been the same for the Master.

Her discipline was almost ritualistic though. It was expected of her and she fulfilled that expectation. Their expectation was such that if she failed to impose her will they would probably feel cheated by it. As long as they were not the ones she chose to chastise then they were actually happy she was making another of their number suffer.

Sometimes she felt, despite their expectations of her position, they didn’t take her as seriously as the members of the old Order had always treated the, very imposing, Master.

Unlike the Master she was the sire to every one of them though – all bar Dru – which gave her a certain hold on them. And they should have all appreciated that her girlish looks were not a true reflection of what they could expect from her. She’d proven it often enough. When in the Master’s presence, had any of them apart from Drusilla ever known him, they would have been silent until spoken to. Awaiting his pleasure as they should be awaiting hers.

And yet they weren’t.

Instead they were all stood there, and she wouldn’t allow them the comfort of sitting, catching up with each other. Chatting. Some of them had, inevitably perhaps, known each other before she had sent them to other cities and towns. Vampires, she knew very well, loved to brag to each other – especially when they were in competition with each other for her favour. They would be swapping accomplishments, probably revealing what faint praise she had given them for their successes.

The punishments for their failures – and there had been some.

And the upshot of it was that her vampires… those of the most august Order of Aurelius were turning into fishwives. Gossips.

They certainly needed to fear her more. She was standing right here before them. They could see her and still they gossiped. They knew, perhaps, that she would only turn them over to Drusilla for an actual crime. Lack of silence wasn't an offence against her – at least so far as they thought – and they were right in that she didn’t have time now. The night was already a few hours old. They should already have been out there – killing for her. That was what she’d brought them here for, so – as the Master would have said – she would forbear her discipline and Drusilla’s pleasure in search of a greater pleasure.

Freedom. Ascending to the surface. She’d almost forgotten what the world, her beautiful world, was going to look like.

Oh, and sending her enemies to one of the various hells.

“Enough of this!” she called out. It wasn’t a shout. But nor was it softly spoken. They should have been silent anyway, more especially at her last words. It didn’t matter though – she’d made her intentions clear to them now. And there was certainly something they wanted to know. They might suspect, but they couldn’t know what she intended now they’d come from far and wide. They couldn’t be sure why they were all here.

Now.

They had to theorise it was something other than a meeting though. There was a buzz of excitement about them.

Every eye in the place turned to her, and there were still an even number of eyes after the last lessons that Drusilla had taught to her. Now there were two one-eyed vampires… It was a classic punishment and would only debilitate them for a few weeks until the one which had been plucked out was regenerated.

It was a punishment that the Master hadn’t been fond of… he had been more interested in death. But it still worked and was widely regarded as one of the classics. There was something about the eyes – something Drusilla certainly liked. The terror and pain in the remaining eye as her dear, sweet, Drusilla had removed the other had been particularly satisfying. It was good to be feared – even by proxy.

Drusilla was hers – the fear that she brought was, ultimately, fear of Darla herself. She accepted it utterly. It almost seemed natural… as natural as the smoothest of silks.

Fear by proxy, and it saved her having to spend more time than she liked to imposing that discipline on them. Like the Master she was able to stand back and allow someone else, a favourite, to impose the order which was required and because she was detached from it she was able to stand aloof. And, she believed, they showed more respect – the requirement for discipline was less frequent – because they feared her hold over Dru so much.

What was she going to have to do to bring them to, and maintain, awe though? Overwhelming fear of what she could do – at a whim? The Master’s discipline was built, ultimately, on the premise that no one – no one – in the Order was more important than the Order itself. And that everyone – everyone – should be glad to die for him due to that simple fact.

To be killed by or for him not for making a mistake but simply because he judged it to be the right thing for the Order – and thus for himself.

But that level of respect was built on accomplishments as well as simple fear. Yes, she had expanded the Order in numbers and influence but that was a mere matter of applying herself to creating them. It wasn’t an accomplishment and everyone here knew it. There were as many vampires out there, loyal to her, as were in this room – ready to move to take control the cities of this state by night. Soon perhaps the whole Western Seaboard? Then the country… Now, that would be an accomplishment. The Order was already the greatest, in terms of territorial control, that it had been for centuries… Since before her creation – back in the Master’s earliest flush of power.

But the old Order, one that had covered Europe in the dark, sticky, blood had also been one which had been created by the Master. The Inquisition might have interfered with his power, made him head under the ground to await the day he could rule, or destroy, the world, but until she controlled a continent in the dark… then she would never equal his accomplishments. But she could make her start here. Now.

And the start, as her father had told her very long ago - right before he’d sold her to the highest bidder he could find and made her into a whore, was such a tiny thing. Just an inconvenience to get out of the way – but so important.

She’d never looked back on what he’d done – ultimately he’d made her what she was today. The woman, thirteen years after that first night, who’d welcomed death, had been greatly surprised by the pleasures it offered to her. Death had been what had made her. She’d found a new father, a new creature in the Master.

And nothing he’d done to her had been anything other than she’d deserved. Unlike her late, unlamented, natural father. Perhaps not so natural perhaps in what he’d done to his own blood.

But then neither was what she’d done with his blood years later.

They thought she meant enough talking by her words, ‘Enough of this’ – because the voices stopped immediately as the eyes turned to her. That hadn’t been what she meant at all – but it was a desirable outcome all the same. Examples would still have to be made at some point in the near future, but her first instinct – to wait until after they had taken this town and left it running in blood – was the correct one. For now she needed every pair of teeth she could muster. “There is too much ritual and ceremony around here,” she called out to them, taking advantage of the natural acoustics of this place and she saw a different look in those eyes. They had been curious, perhaps a little afraid of her judgement.

But now it was…

Perhaps, some confusion. Where was her judgement.

Perhaps some hope of what was to come.

Certainly there was a lust for the kill. They were vampires after all.

There was still some fear that this might all be a trick… Perhaps they thought she’d brought some imagined traitors here to die? Perhaps they were trying to decide what they might have done wrong for her to suspect them.

There were certainly all sorts of thoughts. There hadn’t been any ritual at all in her Order until she’d decided, and then made it clear that there should be, to continue the Master’s traditions. There was a reason for it. Their strength came as much from being the Order as it did from their numbers. So, to keep this being the Order and not just some gang of vampires she’d needed to make sure they continued the traditions she’d never really seen the point of during the Master’s long, long night. There was something in that, it had helped them, but then again there was too much chanting, reading from prophetic texts she still didn’t understand or care about.

Just because the Master had done it. He, however, had believed in it all.

Their destiny was now in their own hands… and their hands were her hands. Each and every one of them – not that Dru had removed any of those recently.

“Play nice,” Drusilla said to her, without even trying to be quiet. “Its what they all expect of you.”

From anyone else that would have been a challenge. From Drusilla it was an invaluable insight – but one that should have been made quietly, or in private. Having Dru actually in the moment the rest of them occupied was surprising enough. Insight, on the mundane level, was strange indeed.

“It is what you all expect,” Darla noted equally as loudly, forced to acknowledge and respond to Dru but addressing them all as she did so. “But then I was the one who showed you what to expect. If you want those few words then I will say them. I will bend to your expectations. I will preach to you about ‘the day’ and how ‘glorious’ it will be. But you know that now. Ritual has served its purpose and you understand why we are here. You know that you were created for one thing… To kill our enemies. And I can tell you now that you can bring the day closer by doing just that. Killing is all I require of you to demonstrate your loyalty to the Order we serve.”

And they cheered. It wasn’t the cheers of followers who expected to have to cheer. Not the cheer of vampires who saw ‘the day’ coming or even food… It was the cheer of those who believed just enough now – and accepted what she had to say because they had that belief. Even though, apart from their numbers here, nothing had changed.

“Tell us what we’ll do tonight?” someone from the throng called back to her.

“Don’t you know?” she asked as if they were children to be led to the place she needed them. She knew that the rest of them would pass the information on.

“We’ll kill!” the other suggested first.

“So simplistic…” Darla said to Drusilla but loud enough for them to hear – deliberately so. She wanted them to feel she was disappointed at their lack of ambition. Drusilla just smiled. She could read the crowd as well as Darla could – literally in many ways. She knew that they had them right where they needed them for this first act of the finale.

At least the Sunnydale finale. This night would mark the end of the war with the Witches and the Watcher.

The rest of the vampires turned on the one who’d asked, the one who’d suggested killing. Yes, they certainly would kill… but they wouldn’t just kill. Vampires were killers – it was what they did. Why would she need to gather to accomplish that?

“We’ll enjoy ourselves… We’ll take what we want!” another called out to her.

At that Dru descended into the crowd, wagging her finger at the one who’d thought of that little extension to the killing spree they all wanted. “You’re a bad boy,” she cooed. “Speaking out of turn. Naughty!”

Darla smiled at the instant fear that was evident on his face. She could see his eyes following those deadly claws. Claws or not, Dru had such a deadly presence… No one, human or vampire, could be totally at ease in her presence… she thought that might what had been poor William had liked, being on edge all the time even when he should have been able to control and dominate the more childish aspects of her personality.

Even Darla couldn’t relax in Drusilla’s most intimate presence – but that made no difference. She hadn’t ever truly relaxed since the Master had turned her four centuries or more ago.

“You’ll take what the doctor orders,” Drusilla continued. “Milk, honey.” She counted them off on those deadly fingers… “and all the blood you can ever drink. Ruff!”

The crowd of vampires listened, then they wondered if Dru was just being Dru – or was this real? Then they turned to Darla. She could see it in their eyes. Was this really the time? Was this really the day? Or rather the night?

“That’s right,” she confirmed to them, watching their eager, demonic faces. “It’s time for a massacre… but first you have to make sure that those witches are torn limb from limb and their home, their friend’s homes too are burned to the ground.” That ought to do the job – fire was deadly to them, but it was terrible to the human’s too. The pain it would inflict on them. A nice, cleansing blaze would, at worst, leave them their enemies no place to shelter. “And you can apply that to anyone… Anyone who won’t let you into their house… well, you should burn them out.”

Her vampires would be cautious of using the flames, but then what else were they going to do to bring those people from the safety of their homes? Humans had to be shown that the old rules no longer applied.

And where they did… that the Order was willing to work around them.

Some of Sunnydale was going to burn until the humans learned their lessons… Then again that might not be a great thing. Mass fires. Mass deaths. That would mean no people if things got too out of control. They needed homes to stay here in town.

Accessible for the hunts they all wanted so badly.

Perhaps burning them all out was going just a little too far. That was the old Darla – now she had to be disciplined and responsible for the Order – and her responsibility wasn't going to be best served by destroying the whole town. “And they should know it,” she completed without missing a beat as if she’d intended to say that all along.

The humans had to know it – and to know it they had to be alive. She’d let her vampires drink. She’d let them kill. She’d replenish their numbers herself. But they had to leave people alive out there for the future.

“The taste of fear!” one of her followers called out.

“Yes,” she agreed. “They’ll start to anticipate their own deaths again – one way or another. But you may only take one per house. Unless they fight you. Unless they refuse to let you in… or to come out to you. They must learn the lesson. Each house must pay the tithe… one of them must come out and belong to us. Over time they must learn this.”

Starting tonight. But still she didn’t want uncontrolled burning.

“So,” she went on, “one house per block will serve as the lesson. Let the human’s understand the penalty for failing to obey you as you obey me. But don’t let them give you the stringy ones when they do learn… we do want a good hunt don’t we?”

End on the humour. That was important. They laughed – they laughed because they found it funny – and because they know they could do it. They would show the proper restraint now for the longer term gain.

When the laughter faded they were all quiet them for a moment. She knew they would obey, but they were considering what it was they were complying with. Restrictions? She was stopping them from taking anything they wanted? Why?

It couldn’t just be because she ordered it.

“They’ll learn to be good boys and girls again,” Drusilla reminded them all in her own way.

And she was right. The objective wasn’t just to have a massacre, the likes of which hadn’t been seen here since the Master rose; rather it was to make Sunnydale theirs again. There was no Mayor now. Soon there wouldn’t be any witches.

They’d go out there, they’d feed. They’d kill those that had to be killed – the ones who fought back would be taken first. They’d kill more than that. And… Sunnydale would learn that it had never, really, stopped being the property of the Order of Aurelius. It had been a brief hiatus. The town was still just a food source. There had just been a respite to allow people to breed… to bring the numbers back up to where they should be. That would be the official position – and it was true enough in its own way. The population had exploded in this town after the defeat of the Master.

People felt more inclined to breed when they had security… even if they’d been breeding through fear in the past.

And now those children, like the town and the vampires, were Darla’s.

“You may take the children. The old. But you will leave the breeders for now,” she instructed. “Their fear will make them want each other and their numbers will stay healthy.” She had to think about the long term now. She couldn’t see herself abandoning the power of the Hellmouth until the entire country was hers. If not the continent. There always had to be food.

“And when we’ve marched them up to the top of the hill,” Drusilla continued before her demon manifested itself within her and altered her features, “we’ll throw them off the cliff onto the jagged rocks below and then we’ll lick the blood from the rocks…”

One vampire raised a hand. Darla raised her eyebrows in response. This wasn't a school. “Erm… there are no cliffs in Sunnydale. It has a gently sloping beach but then we’d get sand stuck to our tongues.”

“Well then,” Drusilla responded as she swayed her way over to him, running her deadly nails around the cheeks of the vampires in between and slicing them wide open, “we’ll dig a very big hole.” To his credit he didn’t scream – which probably saved him.

“O-okay,” that vampire, Jonathan she thought he was called, told Darla, rather than Drusilla, as if he thought that she would save him from whatever Drusilla had planned. Darla had no intention of interfering. “A-A big hole, I can help do that. I’ll take a shovel.”

Drusilla looked down at the ground, as if waiting for him to dig for her. Here and now.

Jonathan looked down as well, guessing what she wanted. “But it’s concrete.” Drusilla just looked at him. “Oc-Okay.” He got down on his hands and knees in amongst the rest of the vampires and Drusilla, with a smile, left him alone.

Darla didn’t really want a big hole in the middle of her chamber… but on the other hand when this night was done she fully expected to have taken a room with a view of her very own. She wouldn’t have to be in this dingy, dank, dirty place anymore. Never again. No, matter how many human slaves she offered extra rations to they’d never, ever, got the last of the cobwebs. They never cleared the scent so she could smell their fear clearly.

And it was always damp.

There was never anything to look at… Her forays into the world outside were curtailed by… example. She had to set an… example to those others she’d restricted to the underworld. None could rise to the surface without her permission.

She missed the terror she’d inflicted for so long. The brutal pain and the exquisite deaths. It just wasn't the same releasing the humans in the tunnels. The hunt… she knew it was rigged and just the knowledge took all the fun away. A tunnel wasn’t a suitable place to inflict the kind of suffering she’d always so loved up in the world.

Give her a view and a house with plenty of rooms to play in… Close to the hunting grounds.

That would be where she would rule Sunnydale from. California…. She’d be able to look out over it.

The whole country maybe… one night. That would take more preparation though. A half century at least if she wanted to avoid a government problem. She would have to move slow enough not to alarm them – fast enough to make her dream a reality before her followers gained any real benefits from their age which would be in about a century. There were whispers of the government interfering in the dark already. But far from Sunnydale. Cleveland wasn’t somewhere that she had any interest in at all. She’d leave it until last. Perhaps she’d leave it alone altogether – let them have a bastion where they could breed freely.

A place they would see as heaven and try to get to – allowing her followers to pick them off as they travelled. Such dreams, such dreams.

He could dig his hole if that was what Dru wanted. She never wanted to come down here again after tonight.

“You take only one…” she repeated for clarifation, “unless they refuse to let you in. Only the ones I told you. You warn them that they cannot expect anything but the purity of flame if they refuse. Make the example one house per block and make sure the other humans hear the screams.” She needed to reiterate the point – to drive it home. “Then there will be some for tomorrow and the next night – and in their loss they’ll seek comfort in each other. Most of you have never tasted the sweet blood of children…” She allowed that to hang in the air. Appealing to their tastes, their stomachs rather than their sense of logic. Their innate cruelty.

She had no desire to rule a town with no one in it. Aside from having to keep importing food… Well, where was the fun? Power was the ability to kill. To punish. To spare a life for her own purposes and not because she had to. Respect through terror required there to be people to be terrified of her. Not just vampires. A few nights of unrestricted massacre – especially with fires – and there wouldn’t be any left – not enough that the humans would stay. They had to stay – they had to feel the losses were… manageable somehow.

The Master had kept tight reign on that sort of thing and she would follow that example – because it suited her to do so.

No more tunnels. No more cramped quarters with well over a hundred vampires… more so now she had recalled them. Even as their leader she had so little privacy that it rankled.

She’d have a view… a view of a town with flames of warning and terrified humans running into the arms of her vampires… begging to be eaten to save the rest of their families.

Even the Master had never made them volunteer for death.

It was a new level of control and it started tonight. It started with their genuine, heartfelt – if they’d had beating hearts – cheers.

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Re: Part 136

Postby tiredsoul » Fri Nov 07, 2003 1:18 pm

I think I’m slacking on the scampering…



*sca… scamp…*



Uh oh.



Such grandiose ideas from Darla. Little does she know what (or who) is coming through the tunnels. Though even if she did, I imagine she’d still be all smug. She seems so the type to stand her ground and think she’d win no matter what faces her.



And Dru, whenever I think she can’t appear any more insane, you go and make her more so. I love it ;)

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Anyone who won’t let you into their house… well, you should burn them out.


That would have been smart in so many ways to get around the invitation issue on “that” show. So simple. But I suppose simple would make for little drama.



Thanks Katharyn.



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Re: Part 136

Postby Katharyn » Sun Nov 09, 2003 12:48 am

You can never have too much scampering. On the other hand scampering is a very private thing. I kind of assumed you were doing it anyway.



Darla has to have grandiose idea's - its expected of her in her position.



Actually I think Darla is the kind to get someone else to stand her ground for her - keeping it warm - whilst she looks for the nearest way out. She's really not a fighter - but that is just my take on her.



Dru's insanity is one of those little perks you live for when you are writing...



As for burning and invitations. Yeah. 'I am a big bad vampire. Oh you went inside. That's okay I can come back another time. When you have everything ready to kill me would be fine... No, I don't do daytime appointments, but I can make just after sunset... how about Tuesday.' AGGGGGH!



Thanks Licky



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Re: Part 139

Postby xita » Sun Nov 09, 2003 3:21 pm

Ahh well you stole my word, the first thought that came to mind was Darla's grandiose dreams. Very amusing, that's some dreaming she's doing, especially when she recognizes her greatest strength is the other vampires' fear of Dru. And Dru is charismatic and unsettling :heart . And Darla thinks she controls her , well as best as anyone can. hee.. i can't wait. So they are setting up a huge massacre, something tells me they won't get out of those tunnels!

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Re: Part 136

Postby heraldgal » Sun Nov 09, 2003 10:24 pm

Others are using grandiose so I will use ambitious and idealistic. Either way I do not think Darla will achieve the results she is aiming for. Her arrogance will be her downfall in my opinion but I am usually wrong since you are a very unpredictable writer in the best of ways. But I am sure happy and together for the girls includes the eradication of the threat that Darla poses. I am not sure how you will do it though and I hope you keep them around for a little while longer :)



Agree with everyone that Drusilla is very disturbing in a good way. She is fun to read and I imagine fun to write. Her madness as you write it is so illogical its fascinating.



Thank you for the update.



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Re: Part 136

Postby Katharyn » Tue Nov 11, 2003 11:36 pm

Xita - Grandiose is a good word. It can be used again and again as required.



Grandiose.



See?



Dru is unsettling - it's what makes her so much fun!



Darla knows she is in a a race against time. She just doesn't realise the race has already started.



Thanks Hon.



Cathy - Ambitious and idealistic... also good words. She won't achieve her results... I suppose that is a given. T/W happy and together, T/W bound to win in the end. I'm not giving anything away here though.



Unpredictable is also good - I like that thanks. As for their eradication... yeah they are around for a while yet.



Thanks



Next part in a minute or so.



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Part 141 and why do the headings keep going back to 136?

Postby Katharyn » Tue Nov 11, 2003 11:38 pm

Title: The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle - Letting Him Down (Part 141)
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Constructive criticism is always welcome. katharynrosser@hotmail.com Flames just demonstrate you have a tiny mind.
Spoiler Warning: Pretty limited. The story occurs in an alternate universe as set up in “The Wish” though reference is made to events that occur in both realities. Nothing is referenced that occurs after S5 though. Guess why? Most “spoilers” would be for the first chronicle of this fic rather than the show and if you haven’t read that then much of this will make no sense but you can try and get round it by reading the preface to Part 104 which summarises most of what went before.
Distribution This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens (This applies to all of the Sidestep Chronicle)
Summary: Jenny and Toni live with the fact the others have gone into danger.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc, etc. I am making zilch from this series of stories. You know the drill.
Rating: R – a general rating for occasional content. Individual parts might be less than this level.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever – others couples as necessary but nothing unconventional.
Notes: This is the sort of part which is, to me, much more interesting than writing the “action.” Action, of course is just there to let me show the girls… so all in all I am pretty happy!
Thanks To: All My Brilliant Beta Readers (AMBBR) Kerry (Forrister) and Jo (Wizpup) who for some reason signed right back up for this fic after seeing the size of the last one. No accounting for madness is there. And Celia (TiredSoul) who should have known better but signed up anyway. *HUGS* and Big Thanks to all of you.
Thanks to Licky for this one. She’s a little star, even if she wouldn’t ever admit it. She keeps me straight…

The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle

Letting Him Down

By

Katharyn Rosser


Jenny looked over at Toni. Being as Faith’s bedroom was just where the girl had stayed the previous night, and not on the couch in the room where her Father had been killed, it had been easy enough to put Faith back into it. Putting Faith back into her own room had let her find the reason they needed to dig the young woman out of there.

Nothing had really worked. Toni didn’t want anything, and Jenny had asked plenty of times during the day. She’d started to ask just to get some sort of response, and to have an excuse for making sure Toni was all right.

Eventually Jenny had to admit that she’d needed to cheat - because she’d needed someone with her and Faith once Rupert and the girls had headed out into danger.

No matter what was wrong, and how it was making her feel, when Jenny had finally suggested that Faith needed her own room back to go to sleep, it had been an instant response.

Toni had finally come out of there.

She might have been sulking, worried about the others or just feeling sorry for herself… Jenny didn’t know her well enough yet to make any sort of reasonable judgement. But she didn’t need to know Toni well to see that she wasn’t happy.

And why should she be?

It was okay. Happy wasn’t expected – certainly not so soon. Jenny always had trouble being happy at these times too – though Toni had more reason than just the absence of friends and loved ones. These kinds of times were hard on a person. Jenny had waited for one or more of the three hunters who were in those tunnels, more times than she cared to remember.

It was always hard – doubly so for Toni now.

Even when Toni had come out of Faith’s room though, she hadn’t exactly been chatty. Eventually, tired of a silence that was imposed by more than an inability to communicate verbally with each other, Jenny had picked up Faith’s toy ‘puter’ and gone and sat next to Toni. Jenny remembered having a big desktop computer, when she’d just graduated from college, which had less power and memory than this toy. Then, remembering all the horsey sounds it insisted on making – which was bound to wake Faith – she stood up again and went to get Willow’s Powerbook. It made more sense.

Jenny was grateful Willow had left her bag there when they’d gone out. She’d had a difficult enough time getting Toni out of Faith’s bedroom, she couldn’t imagine trying to coax Toni to sit beside the desktop to ‘chat.’

When she’d picked it up she’d really been hoping they could keep each other company through this evening, and into the night.

Company? The girl hadn’t been making the effort to even meet her eyes though and Jenny hadn’t been able to think of how to start anything off. So there had been an awkward period where Toni had waited, expecting her to type something –a nd she really hadn’t known what to say. Toni already knew that they were all sorry about her Dad. She already knew that they all wanted to help her. What else was there to say?

And Jenny knew that Toni had, somehow, upset Tara.

Tara had come out of that bedroom from seeing Toni earlier in the day, and had shown a roughly drawn map to them all. Obviously Toni was the one who had drawn it. Between herself and Willow they’d been able to come up with something to help match those features up with the sewer plans in the computers – at least they thought so – to give them an idea where they were going and how dangerous it might be.

They had a pretty high degree of confidence in what they’d found out.

Tara was, as always, very aware of ambush opportunities – to an extent that Jenny hadn’t seen since she’d helped the witch assist another girl called Faith. A young woman her daughter would, regrettably, never know. Tara was… If she was anything, then Tara was three things… She was in love with Willow, she was devoted to her friends and she was committed to doing what she saw as the ‘right thing.’

And she knew what Willow thought of that ‘right thing’ too… Jenny was sure of it.

Jenny was also sure that Tara was right. It was the ‘right thing’ since it was the same ‘right thing’ that Rupert had continued to do ever since he had been placed in Sunnydale without the Slayer he, and the Hellmouth, were due to help make things better. The Council had hung him out to dry with that decision.

Eventually, through his time with Faith, and working with Tara, he’d still been able to continue to do that ‘right thing’ without getting himself, or their family, killed.

Apart from dear Faith.

He’d always been committed to his vocation. She’d fallen in love with the man who had that commitment to the ‘right thing.’ She knew all about it. Just as Willow had fallen in love with the woman that had her own commitment to the ‘right thing.’

They all knew the score. They’d all shared the risks that doing the ‘right thing’ entailed. She’d been out with Rupert in the past, before the children. She was all fingers and thumbs when it came to weapons though. In desperate times she could help out, but they wouldn’t want her around for a mission. Willow was by far the better option. Willow was the one going out there with Rupert and Tara now and would continue to go out…

But Tara seemed, and it wasn’t just today Jenny was thinking of but rather over a period of time, Tara was more focused on that aspect of her life than she had been since Jenny had first known her. No… not focused, she seemed more worried about it. About where it was going, where it was leading her to. Jenny had wondered what Willow thought about that – because from what Willow had said over the years, in passing – she hadn’t been sure that Willow was seeing the same long term picture as Tara.

Together. Forever. Definitely.

No question about that. If there was one couple in the world that was going to make it together, forever, it was those two.

But hunting demons? She didn’t know if Willow wanted that forever. Willow, when she’d told her about some of her thoughts in the kitchen at their college dorm not so long ago, had confirmed a little of that supposition but not all of it… lack of confirmation was what Jenny had to wonder about it now.

And it helped bridge the gap to knowing what she could say to Toni… what wouldn’t seem trite, stupid or repetitive. Just being here with her was a good enough start.

Jenny wasn't sure if she wanted it either – for Tara, Willow or for Rupert. Hunting demons, forever. Doing the ‘right thing’ forever. She wasn’t sure, by extension, she wanted it for her or their children either. There would have to come a day, surely, when enough would be enough. When someone else took over the fight from her husband and Tara.

When the ‘right thing’ was someone else’s duty. And it was no longer quite so ‘right.’ For them at least.

But for now Toni had upset Tara somehow… and Jenny wasn’t sure what it was that had done it. She definitely wanted to know, she was curious even if she hadn’t been worried, but Tara hadn’t even seen fit to tell Willow – at least not whilst they were here in the apartment and Jenny could have overheard it – and it wasn’t Jenny’s business. There was lots of stuff that wasn't her business which she’d have freely asked about. She did it a lot. They shared stuff, and sometimes it helped but…

She was just nosey she guessed. She liked to know.

Besides it could be important.

‘It could be important.’ It was the rationale of the nosey people. Jenny was proud to count themselves amongst their numbers.

She wasn't going to ask Toni though. Well, at least not ‘ask’ in the sense of forming a question and waiting for a response to that question. She might go fishing… If it came out then that was fine. Preferable even. But she wouldn’t push it – or Toni. She rested the Powerbook on her knee and fired it up – very aware of the flinch that rippled through Toni when she saw that being done next to her. At least the young woman didn’t have to listen to that damn chimes when it was starting up. She always forgot Willow wouldn’t turn it off and it was very good at waking people up – and leaving them unaware of what the offending sound had been.

Now, was that flinch an indication that the young woman didn’t want to talk? Probably so. The thing, which had become clear about Toni, was that she’d been raised too well by her Dad for the persona she might have liked to have shown to work properly.

The signs were all there. She was a headstrong young woman but Jenny knew she wasn't going to storm off – she’d sit there and she’d probably do as much as she could to respond to Jenny without necessarily being very happy about it.

Toni might resent it – which Jenny definitely didn’t want – but Toni wouldn’t just ignore her – she was pretty sure of that. Still… she was wary of intruding, of pushing too much. The girl would still have been grieving for her Dad even if he hadn’t come to kill her last night. Toni was a guest and Jenny wasn’t her mother, her official teacher or anything but a friend. At least she hoped Toni thought of her as a friend and she didn’t want to even seem like she was trying to be anything more than that. She wasn’t trying to be a mother figure. It wasn’t her place.

She wasn’t sure she’d even know how to. She needed to grow into the Mom role – with her kids. Faith would be the experiment and Ben would reap the rewards. That seemed to be the way nature had intended. Faith, on the other hand, got to boss her little brother around for… well, his whole life. Being any kind of Mom to Toni would have pushed her ten years further into her ‘course’ before she was ready.

No, friend was about it. Aside from which, she was certain it was all Toni wanted anyone to be. No one really liked to mention the ‘M’ word.

Toni hadn’t had it easy in her life so far and Jenny just wanted to help make it a little easier now. The one thing she’d learned through all the things that had happened to them all was that no one should be, or had to be, all alone when they had friends who were willing and able to be with them. She’d learned that from all of their own friends, Tara, Willow, Larry, poor Oz and yes, even that ultimate loner, the Slayer, Faith. Faith had wanted to be a loner, had come here like that, and she’d become… a good friend. Jenny missed her a lot.

Even if someone didn’t need to talk – they might want to. And if they didn’t want to talk… then they might really need to. It was still easier to think about it as talking rather than just communicating. ‘Talking’ was a state of mind rather than a descriptive term.

It was harder for Toni though – to do the ‘talking’ thing. Jenny liked the girl – but the truth was that neither of them had known each other for more than a few weeks. What was it? Three? Something like that. Added to that was the fact ‘talking’ seemed like an effort for both of them – for all of them really. It would get easier, if Toni was around long enough for them to learn to sign well enough to carry on a conversation that wouldn’t take hours of finger spelling that left their fingers bent and cramped. But until then, you just had to witness the Powerbook which she’d picked up just because she was determined that she was going to give Toni a chance to say whatever she might want to – even if that was actually ‘go away.’ It wasn’t the most spontaneous method of communication that had ever existed.

But that didn’t matter because, right now, Jenny badly needed to talk to someone too. It was better than in the past when she’d just had to talk to Faith, or more recently Ben, neither of whom had – fortunately – understood what she was saying about their father and two ‘aunts.’

Wasn’t it better?

The laptop, or Powerbook if you were a Mac geek like Willow, was a hindrance to communication that only her daughter seemed to have truly overcome – anything where you could type and see words was good and Faith, at least, knew her ABC’s now as well as her QWERTYs. Until they learned to sign well enough to, at least, carry on a conversation at Faith’s level then they were stuck in body language and expressions – or typing. Right now Jenny wasn't sure if Toni’s body language was one that said ‘go away’ or ‘please talk to me but I just can’t say it to you.’

It was a whole new language to learn. Body language was something everyone was aware of subconsciously. It was harder to work out when you tried to make sense of it because you thought you had to.

In so many ways, Toni was the kind of person that she hoped that Faith would grow into. Perhaps a little less moody, but then Toni had cause for her moods. Once you accepted that your kids were never going to be perfect then expectations were a lot more manageable.

The same thing applied to husbands, of course.

Sure, Toni had some faults, but compared to Jenny herself at that age Toni was a virtual angel. Not even Rupert knew what she’d used to get up to, and how little she’d attended school at this age. And now look at her, she was a teacher.

Toni was strong, resourceful in a tough situation, considerate to a fault – even when she really wanted to be a moody bitch. She was also clever and a survivor. Jenny was pretty sure it wasn't natural in someone of that age – certainly not the teens she’d taught. Things had to happen to you to develop, or at least bring out, qualities like that.

Jenny well knew she could do far worse than have a daughter with just those kinds of qualities by the time she was a teenager. Aside from caring what happened to this girl, Jenny had to admit to a kind of curiosity about how she would deal with the ‘teen animal.’ Another ten years for Faith… It seemed a long time away now. It was bound to seem like way too short a time when they were dealing with it.

Then again, there had been a time they hadn’t been able to imagine their baby walking around and getting into everything that interested her.

‘I think you tired Faith out,’ she typed as an opening in the text window and followed it with a smiley emoticon, which was faithfully rendered by the laptop.

Toni, and Jenny was looking at her as she hit the last few letters, looked surprised at that choice of a starting point. It was as if she was expecting something else, something more serious. That was sad, but Jenny knew why it was the case.

She, like Tara and Willow, was very aware of the fact that – for a while – the only person who had ‘talked’ to Toni for the simple sake of it was Faith. The rest of them, though they liked talking to Toni, nearly always had a reason to start any conversation – no matter where it happened to go later. Her ever exuberant little daughter didn’t mind dragging her toy ‘puter around and jabbering to Toni just as she’d jabber to her Mom or to Willow. Jabbering more slowly as she wasn’t a fluid typist yet by any means – but it was still a good thing for both Faith and for Toni.

It was nice to see that kind of spirit in her daughter. She could only hope for as much in Ben when he grew up.

Faith might be little, but Jenny could see how the people that she’d always known best – who she’d grown up around – were influencing her development. She definitely had her father’s studiously infuriating application to any task – when it was something she was interested in anyway. Faith also had Willow’s endearing ability to babble – which Jenny thought she might have picked up as a mimicry thing because she could see how it made all the rest of them smile. A way of looking for approval? Maybe it had been once. Now it was just who Faith was. Once she learned the bigger words… wow. Those two would be able to keep going at each other all day. It would like one of those private languages. There was also, just like Willow, a slow development of the ways of…‘manipulating’ Tara. Not in a bad way, just in the way that couples dealt with each other.

It wasn’t quite appropriate for Faith, but… it was amusing all the same.

Faith was picking up on the ways that Willow chose to do get she wanted from Tara. At least the less intimate ones. And Tara, of course, was absolutely aware of both of those people’s attempts to get around her. It amused her so much that she usually let it go – just so long as the two girls, Faith and Willow, were being good.

Quite often, with Faith, it revolved around an almost insatiable desire for pancakes – or rather for Taracakes – which Tara would oblige with as long as it was close enough to substitute for, or supplement, a regular mealtime. No special treats unless Faith had been really good.

Besides, if she cooked them for Faith she had to cook Taracakes for everyone. Everybody liked them. That was a lot of pancakes.

Jenny was no good at pancakes. Many of the culinary arts eluded her. She comforted herself with the fact that she was a good teacher, a fair mother and could break into a dozen different state databases with a few clicks of a mouse.

What was cooking compared to that? They made meals in a box for people like her. They didn’t make hacking applications for people like Tara now did they?

And what had Faith picked up of Tara’s? Perhaps it was something about how Faith saw her deal with people. Tara was very patient and Faith was… well, she was an incredibly patient child when she had to be. Still a child though – perhaps it was a little early to expect her daughter to pick up on Tara’s sensitivity and selflessness. Even so… Faith probably had a little of that in her. Tara was a great example of how that could get results and Faith was more than observant enough to have figured the connection out.

Tara got what she wanted from Willow, from Rupert, from her Mommy and from Faith herself. Faith would be aware of the ways Tara got her to do stuff, she might even have been thinking about it.

Jenny wondered if she could really be honest enough to admit what did Faith had got from her mother? Well, there was the genetic stuff. She was dark haired and both her features and her skin carried the hue and shape of the Calderash to the exclusion of nearly all things English and slightly tweedy. Faith would thank her for that one day she was sure. She supposed that the rest of them, and even Toni, would see more of her in Faith than she could admit for herself. As a general rule people didn’t see themselves in the same way they saw others… Jenny supposed it was true of herself as much as anyone else.

And if she was partially blind to it now, she supposed those same similarities might drive her to distraction when Faith was older. Unless she turned into a mini-Rupert.

Perish the thought.

‘I thought,’ Toni started to type. ‘she needed to sleep. After last night. With what was happening tonight too.’ Jenny had to agree, that might be part of what had tired Faith out – a lingering fatigue from the previous night. Today had been all go too.

Jenny smiled. It looked like someone else had some sensitivity within them. ‘She’s a little girl, I think they forget the bad stuff sometimes – or at least how bad it was. Sometimes they forget to be scared unless it really gets to them deep down.’

‘You don’t hide the bad stuff from her do you?’ Toni asked, barely looking up after typing her question.

It was carefully asked, it seemed to Jenny, if typing style and eye contact were anything to go by. She turned the Powerbook back towards herself so she could type. ‘We hide some of it. The details. She doesn’t know what a vampire is – she’s too little to know it all yet.’

But you’re not, Jenny thought. You’re not too little. And you know. Now you really know.

‘She doesn’t know what vampires are,’ Jenny typed, ‘but she knows the rules that we have to follow because of them.’ Faith had broken those rules though – as they’d discovered from talking to her it was because she was trying to help. It was because she’d thought that Toni was looking after her and she had to be extra good about that. It hadn’t really been Faith’s fault.

Or Toni’s.

Or anyone’s. Sometimes things weren’t anyone’s fault. Not everything could have blame assigned. Sometimes things from the outside took a hand.

‘She knows that her Dad… and Tara and Willow are out there, and that they are doing something dangerous? She definitely knows that you’re worried,’ Toni added quickly, without breaking the motion of her fingers on the keys or hitting enter to start a new line.

‘She always does. Perhaps she’s too young to be totally wrapped up in herself yet,’ Jenny joked. It was true though – Toni was right. Faith did always know when something like this was happening. And she was always extra good at those times.

Animals and children… Faith always picked up on it – so did Miss Kitty when she was staying here. ‘Staying’ was such a loose term – after spending a year here… and being a big, independent kitty now, Miss Kitty Fantastico sometimes just turned up on the doorstep and mewled, loudly, until she was let in and given treats. Then, sometimes, she would leave. But when she was willing to reside here for a little while… Well, she could certainly tell what was happening too. She became a lot more of the ‘household pet’ and less of the ‘proud feline’ for the duration of the trouble.

Comforting. She’d let herself be stroked, rather than demanding it at a time of her choosing.

Perhaps, Jenny wondered, it was her that was doing it? Maybe she was the one that was giving off so many vibes that it was really, really obvious to her daughter. To Miss Kitty. Toni too it seemed? That wouldn’t be good… At least Faith was sensible enough not to get upset about it. Maybe, when she was older and more aware she would worry more… but for now she was okay with the whole thing. As Jenny herself was. She knew that Rupert and the girls had to do this for them all. It was just impossible not to worry – especially when it was something so big and serious as it was tonight. ‘I know that they’ll be okay’ she typed.

‘They’ll be okay.’

Why had she felt the need to retype that?

Was it a wish? Or was it truly a certainty? Something she knew?

Or maybe it was just to convince herself.

Toni didn’t seem to feel she could type anything in response to the repeated lines of text. Either that or she’d just lost her train of thought… or something else. Jenny didn’t want to go down the line of whether Toni thought they’d be okay. Toni had, after all, been down there. She’d told them how dangerous it could be though – and they’d still gone despite her – alternately wanting and not-wanting them too.

Of course they’d gone – they had to go. It was the ‘right thing,’ which was what they all did.

Toni might have been entirely too pessimistic for her to deal with right now.

‘Thanks for playing with Faith,’ Jenny typed. The click of the keys breaking the silence in a way that the typed words themselves never quite would. ‘For helping her sleep. It’s better that she does at a time like this.’

‘I think.’


Toni had known keeping an eye on Faith would help – and she’d chosen to do that, no matter how she’d been feeling herself. That was good of her. She was a good kid, who obviously liked Faith. Perhaps she’d needed it too, though? Perhaps some contact with someone who didn’t have an agenda, a mission or a need for anything but company.

Just like Jenny felt now.

‘I never had a little sister,’ Toni typed as if it explained everything.

‘Me neither,’ Jenny revealed. ‘All brothers.’ More brothers than she’d been able to count for a long time. Her mother had been, allegedly, delighted and even her father had welcomed the change when she’d been born. That had changed by the time she reached her teens.

She’d been in much more trouble than any of her brothers. In fact she’d often taken them with her into trouble. Faith just better not do that with Ben.

‘Do as I say, not do as I did’ was something she had found to be a mainstay of motherhood.

‘I never had a brother either,’ Toni added.

The fact that the girl had no one left, after losing her Dad, was inescapable. It was in all their thoughts when they considered Toni, and her future. Dad dead… Mom had left them. Though Jenny could understand Toni not wanting any part of someone who abandoned her, she had to wonder if there was more to what had happened than Toni was saying or even knew about. Until they found that woman, there was little point in speculating.

Right now, Toni had no one except for them and they could only really be a temporary thing for her. Unofficial schooling aside… They’d have to tell someone about her eventually – her own school would have reported her missing by now, surely. Jenny knew she would have if Toni had been her student – especially after finding out that her Dad wasn't in town either – or going to work. She supposed she could look to see if there was official interest, but if she knew that there was then it would be harder to believe they were doing the right thing by not letting anyone know right now.

‘Are you worried about them too?’ Jenny typed quite suddenly. It had just come to her that she wanted to know that. It hadn’t been that long since they’d first met Toni – but she did want to know just what the girl thought about them and their absence. All of them, she wasn’t just fishing for what might have happened with Tara. Somehow Jenny wanted this girl to have the same hopes and fears she had – so that there would be some sort connection between them now. She felt like she needed a connection with someone capable of adult communication.

Even if her lack of skill made that a little trickier.

And she was also curious to see if Toni was able to see past her own loss to what was happening now to the people around her. If she couldn’t… well, there was much more healing that needed to occur and they’d have to give her more time, space and support for that. Right now, Jenny just needed someone here who understood what was happening.

She needed to be with someone who could understand how she was feeling. She’d been here before, but she this time felt different. It felt like it had when that other Faith, the Slayer, and Tara had attacked the Bronze.

She hadn’t known they’d left Rupert behind until later… so she’d worried appropriately.

In text there was no softening that question though. There was no way to stress the right words so it couldn’t be taken as accusatory. What would Toni say?

‘They saved me, you know?’ Toni typed slowly. ‘More than once.’

Was that what she felt? Or was it a considered response, based on what she thought Jenny would want to hear? She didn’t think Toni was so calculating as to do that.

‘They do that,’ Jenny admitted. ‘And they came back and saved us last night. Faith and Ben too.’ Was she pushing the point too far? Or just far enough? She knew there was a chance… more than a chance – after how Tara had emerged from this room after seeing Toni earlier – well, it had struck her that there was a good chance that Toni… How could she think about it and be fair to the girl? Perhaps… Jenny thought maybe she resented the people who’d killed her Dad. Or the one person at least.

Jenny wasn't sure there could ever be a way around something like that – not if Toni chose to dwell on it now. It would become her unchanging reality if she lived with it too long now. There wouldn’t be a way to move on beyond it and be fair to Tara.

Toni nodded. Though about what had been typed on that screen – or something else – Jenny couldn’t tell. ‘Is it wrong of me to want to not like her for killing my Dad?’ she asked finally.

Jenny had no intention of addressing the issue of whether it really was or wasn't him. Toni knew better than anyone that it hadn’t been him at all. Just a representation of his body, maybe a memory or two, but nothing more than that. Toni had known him her whole life. She knew that he wouldn’t do the things to Jenny, to Faith… to Toni herself that he’d evidently been threatening. Promising even.

He’d signed much more to Toni than either she or Faith had heard him saying. She’d been too panicked about Faith to pick up even a tenth of it, and she didn’t know enough sign to understand what she had seen. But it hadn’t been good things obviously – which was why Toni could believe, at least partially, that it wasn’t fair to blame Tara for doing what any of them would have done given half a chance.

And Toni had said she wanted to not like Tara. It suggested that that wasn’t where she was. Or did it?

She knew that Toni knew the truth. There was no need to type it out. And there was no need to wonder how some part of Toni was trying to look at it.

It was a loaded question though. Very much so. One question that she needed to answer very carefully. She had to work around the implications of the question – the positive and the negative. ‘Do you think you shouldn’t like Tara?’ She deliberately stressed the ‘shouldn’t.’ In speech that would be a matter of interpretation – probably in sign too. But in italic text the word leapt off the screen. There was no avoiding where the stress of the sentence was. It was right where Jenny needed it to be to avoid misunderstanding.

Toni nodded though.

Jenny’s heart skipped a beat. Literally.

Just a simple nod and yet it was so tragic. Toni felt that there was a reason she shouldn’t like Tara – but the phrasing of her original question seemed to suggest something slightly different. It suggested that Toni was fighting herself.

Toni really thought that. She thought that she shouldn’t like the woman who’d saved her more than once – and it was so significant because Toni hadn’t asked if it was ‘wrong not to like her because of that.’ She just felt that she shouldn’t… There was such an important implication there. ‘But you don’t… you just want to not like her.’ Jenny continued to type. Again with the stresses. Conversations like this were hard enough when talking but there was no room for inflection or emphasis when there were just words on a screen.

‘I think I should want to hate her,’ Toni added to another nod. For what she did to him.

‘What she did when she helped save all our lives last night? I can’t hate her for that but I think I get where you’re coming from,’ Jenny told her. ‘But you also know that’s not fair too? Right?’

One more there was a nod from Toni.

Jenny thought carefully about how she was going to put this. What Toni felt, she felt. Who was she to say it was right or wrong? Even though she had a firm opinion on it. Toni was struggling with it. She didn’t hate Tara. ‘No. It’s not wrong to feel you should want to. I think we feel what we feel and that’s it. But I think it would be sad if you did.’ She knew that they’d all been trying hard for Toni over the past few of weeks – Tara harder than the rest of them – and that the young woman had been trying hard with them too. Why take it all out on Tara? It could have been any of them who’d done it. Rupert could have cut her father’s head off. Willow could have toasted him.

Tara had just been the one that had been forced to do it by circumstances. It had been bad luck – or good luck – depending on your viewpoint.

Tara had been the one that had saved all of their lives and Toni knew that as well as she did.

Toni made as if she was going to type, more than once. A few times. And every time her fingers twitched, or she reached out for the keyboard, she pulled back from it.

‘What is it?’ Jenny typed eventually.

Toni paused. Then, finally, she did bring her fingers back to the keyboard and made them work for her. ‘I feel like’ She stopped and then started again on a new line. ‘I feel like if I still like her, Tara, then I’m letting him down. Forgetting him. Not caring what happened to him. My Dad.’

Once again Jenny knew that Toni didn’t need to see it typed out that it hadn’t been him that Tara destroyed. The dust which had settled on the floor and been cleaned up later had been nothing to do with him. She knew that she didn’t need to say that Toni shouldn’t remember him like that – or want to. She should remember him as he had been – at their best together. But the mind didn’t work like that. Especially a teenage girl’s mind – a teenage girl in pain and not sure what to think about anything in a world which had totally changed as it was ripped apart around her. ‘And you don’t want to forget?’ Well, that was a dumb question, Jenny thought, but one that needed to be asked.

A shake of the head this time.

‘Tara’ She only managed that one word – then she had to stop typing. Jenny had been about to try and explain things. But she really, really didn’t need to. It would just make Toni think more and that wasn't necessarily the best thing right now. They were all aware that, apart from Faith, no one was talking to Toni about anything that wasn’t serious without having to make an effort. It was hardly spontaneous or natural when they did just ‘talk.’ Everyone felt like they had to… But maybe there was more than just natural conversation that was needed. Maybe they’d been so fixated on communicating in some form of words that they’d neglected something else that everyone needed. Toni no less than Faith, Willow, Tara or even Rupert. ‘Do you want a hug?’ she finally typed to the girl who was hurting inside.

The question was really if Toni needed one – but ‘want’ was a softer word – she was glad that it had sprung to her mind as she typed. When was the last time that Toni had received a hug? Damn… everyone needed hugs, she was always asking Rupert for them. Tara and Willow, they were touching and hugging whenever anything got to them – and when it didn’t too. Hugging was just what people did for each other.

Toni didn’t type a yes or no to the question, but she sort of allowed herself to move sideways… more and more. She never formally acquiesced but slowly, definitely moving, she came closer to Jenny until the girl’s head was resting on her shoulder. Jenny had to take that as an affirmative answer so she snaked her hand behind Toni’s back and brought it round the young woman’s shoulder. Pulling her in a little closer.

It was a little stiff, like Toni wanted the hug Jenny had offered but wasn't sure just what that was going to mean to the distance she’d always maintained from them all – and Jenny was just as uncertain. She wondered if Toni might see it as something like giving up. This wasn't her child – it was someone else’s and offering too much might seem as smothering – especially whilst Toni was grieving. Too much thinking perhaps…

She wanted to say soothing things to go with the stiff hug, but she’d have had to type it one handed – and with the wrong hand too. So she settled for a very short ‘itll be okay theyll be okay’ missing the punctuation entirely as Toni put an arm around her stomach and finally hugged her back a little. Finally seemed as if this was what Toni wanted.

They stayed that way for a few minutes and it seemed less awkward after that little time. Jenny wasn’t even looking at the keyboard or screen when she heard Toni typing. That other hand was still latched onto her side as Toni prodded at the small keys with one finger. Jenny just waited until the sound stopped before she looked down from the top of Toni’s head to the screen.

‘I told her to kill them all.’

It was an admission. She could tell by the way the girl was clinging to her.

It was then that the chill ran through Jenny, which she was sure Toni must have been able to feel. Jenny knew enough about Tara’s background by now, she’d heard all the stories… She knew that once upon a time Tara had that precise mission in mind. ‘Kill them all.’

And back then, Tara hadn’t been the woman she was today…

Jenny hugged Toni tighter, absolutely certain that the younger woman regretted her choice of words to Tara now. Even if she couldn’t know what those words meant to Tara. When Toni had talked to Tara, the part of her that had wanted to hate Tara had still been strong. Maybe she even understood some small part of what she might have brought into being inside Tara with those words.

Last time for Tara… well, it had been grief at the death of her own family. Outrage at what was allowed to happen in the world because no one had been willing to try and stop it.

Tara had been willing to stop it. She hadn’t been willing to allow that to happen any longer.

Jenny had to wonder – even worry – what it might mean if Tara started to feel she had to be guilty about what had happened to Toni’s Dad. Tara was already feeling guilty… and about that. Kind of. At least about letting the vampires take a hold again. She seemed to think she should have known – and done something. But they’d all been a part of what had allowed that to happen. As had the tactics of the vampires. And yes, it had led to Toni’s Dad’s death. In a way.

But Toni’s request… A way that seemed to ‘make it right’ that was… it wasn't fair on Tara. Or Willow… Any of them really. She just hoped that Tara didn’t take that instruction too much to heart. If she listened to the words that wouldn’t have been spoken… or rather just typed, perhaps written by hand… There had been that torn piece of paper Toni had given Tara – the one with the crude drawing of the tunnels. They’d all seen it, hadn’t they?

Perhaps it hadn’t been torn before Tara had received it. Toni was a neat person, or seemed to be. There was paper available all over the place. Sheets and sheets for Faith to draw her horses on. They’d been in Faith’s room after all. Toni wouldn’t have had to pick a torn piece. She’d have given Tara a full sheet if she gave her anything.

Especially for something as important as the map of the nest. What had Toni, or Tara, torn off that sheet? Was it the instruction to kill them all?

And why hadn’t Tara shared that instruction as she shared the map?

It wasn't Toni’s fault though. Whether Tara took that request… instruction… to heart wasn't going to be this girl’s fault. People said things and they didn’t always mean them – at least not forever or in the most literal sense. So they’d deal with the implications as they became apparent. It was different now. Tara wasn't alone this time. She had all her friends… her family. She had Willow – and that was the biggest difference in the world. Love was always the difference.

Jenny wondered how the woman that Tara was now would respond to something like this – compared to the girl, not so much older than Toni was now, who she had been back then – when she’d put herself on the path which had brought them all here.

She wondered how Willow would take the instruction – and Tara’s reaction to it?

She wouldn’t be happy about it.

Willow would stand with her love – they were always there for each other – just like she and Rupert were. But, Jenny thought… Well, from the little things she’d noticed, maybe Willow wouldn’t be desperate for them to carry out the instruction. Maybe she’d even want things to be allowed to lie. To go away. To leave them alone for once in their lives together.

It was just an impression of Willow’s thoughts based on a snatched conversation over chopping cucumber – but between Rupert and Tara there was a whole lot of duty on show. They were so alike and so very different too.

‘I guess,’ Jenny typed as she looked up at a sign of movement out of the doorway, ‘you didn’t tire Faith out enough.’

Toni looked round as well. Faith was standing at the end of the corridor that led down to her room clutching her own ‘puter. Pausing, the little girl struggled to hold it upright with one hand as she prodded the keyboard with her finger and then brought it over and showed it to them.

‘want huggle too’

Jenny smiled. Was this the start of quiet Faith? Faith mimicking Toni’s imposed silence? That might go down well sometimes. Toni must have been able to read what was typed on the screen which was laid out like a farmyard, because it was she that held out her hand to Faith and pulled Jenny’s daughter to them. They were all worried, but they were safe tonight – and they were together until everyone else was home.

Jenny hoped that the same could be said of Willow, Tara and her husband.

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Re: Part 141

Postby tiredsoul » Wed Nov 12, 2003 5:34 pm

Cue music…



Twinkle, twinkle little star, how I wonder where you are…



And thank you for now placing that into my head all day :p



I was just starting to miss Toni and Jenny, wondering what their thoughts were and here they are again. Perfect timing. Of course I knew it was coming, just forgot where (old age you know). As much as I love reading about the girls, I like the viewpoints of those that care about them too.

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The fact that the girl had no one left, after losing her Dad, was inescapable.


Jenny is the perfect person for Toni to talk to at this point. Okay, maybe the only person around but still the perfect one, given the situation. It’s kinda understandable that Toni feels like she should not like Tara but she can’t really blame Tara either, can she?

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‘Do you want a hug?’


*sniff* That got me the first time and still gets me. I can so picture that hug. *I want huggle too* :)



Jenny, Faith, Ben and Toni are safe at home while those they care about most in the world are risking their lives. And all they know to do is wait. Waiting is the hardest thing of all.



Thanks Katharyn.



--celia

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Re: Part 141

Postby chronic » Thu Nov 13, 2003 9:58 am

I found The Sidestep Chronicle in the recommended fics thread, and nearly 3 months later I’ve finally caught up. I think this is one of the best (and longest!) fics I’ve ever read.



Where to begin? The characterisation of Tara, Vamp Willow and later “real” Willow are just brilliant. Tara especially is fascinating, with the compassion of the canon Tara, but forced to become cold and at times almost ruthless by her quest for revenge/justice. I like your expansion of the wish universe, with all the differences, and similarities with the canon universe, especially the fact that not everything is worse. Giles and Jenny are a nice look at what could have been, Jenny’s teasing is so much fun, and Faith as a hero works so well I kept forgetting she was a villain in the series.



You captured the master and the mayor perfectly, especially the mayor, so likeable despite wanting to eat the town. And the mayor and Tara’s relationship was great, his fatherly concern and her liking him so much she had to keep reminding herself what he was. And then there’s his final comment on the video about coming back… I also liked Lilah, still happy to be a bitch but allowing herself to be vulnerable, only to get her heart broken. And Wolfram and Hart’s master plan, which kept me guessing the whole way through, only to find it wasn’t about Willow and Tara at all!



I have to admit one of my favourite things about the fic was how dark it was. The vamp willow/Tara relationship was amazingly well written, with Tara knowing its wrong but unable to leave the last remnant of the woman she loves, and Willow coming as close to love as a vampire ever could, made Buffy/Angel seem happy and angst-free by comparison. Giles telling Faith to kill Tara, and Faith willing Tara to defend herself while she just sits there, had me biting my nails! Faith’s death at vamp Willow’s hands, and its aftermath, was the tensest thing I’ve ever read, at least I thought so until Tara turned up at Lilah’s with a jar of vamp dust. In a way I glad I didn’t start reading until the fic was finished, because I don’t think I could have waited between some of the updates.



And then the return of “real” Willow. I enjoyed the time when they were just friends, although of course they would never stay that way. And when they finally got together :thud And then everything that had been wrong with T/VW was so right with Will/Tara.



I’m really enjoying the Second chronicle. I like the fact that Willow and Tara are dealing with (well, thinking about, but I assume they’ll deal with it) the issue of how you stop being a vampire slayer, its something the series never really explored.



Its good to see Drusilla again, she was always my favourite vampire. I like the relationship between her and Darla, with Darla often irritated by her insanity, but knowing better than anyone how powerful Dru really is. And of course I’m looking forward to the confrontation between Willow and her siress.



I’m liking Toni. Although I’m not deaf and so can’t really judge, I think you write a deaf character convincingly. I like the fact that she’s not a bratty teen (the line about not signing “get out get out get out” made me laugh!)



The “dad attack” was terrifying, I really thought not everyone was going to get out of that unharmed, though of course what Toni saw was more damaging than any physical harm. I liked the fact that she wondered about controlling her father, or helping him with therapy – Quentin Travers’ worst fear and the reason he ordered Tara killed. And perhaps its only a matter of time before she finds out the truth about Willow? I also thought the idea of the “wild” vampires was interesting.



So, in to the sewers. Really looking forward to the next update.



chronic



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Edited by: chronic at: 11/13/03 9:05 am
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Re: Part 136

Postby heraldgal » Thu Nov 13, 2003 4:16 pm

Poor Toni. I find it odd that she knows about vampires and what they can do but does not seem to understand that knowing her dad was a vampire that Tara had to kill her. But maybe it is denial? It must be hard to like Tara and think she should not like her. Not a quandary I would like to be in. I wonder what it would take for her to see that what Tara destroyed really was not her dad.



Jenny is so composed even knowing how much danger Giles and the girls are in. Shows so much strength and still she can try to talk to Toni and make her feel better, I like that about her.



A sweet update, thank you.



Cathy.

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Re: Part 141

Postby Katharyn » Fri Nov 14, 2003 12:39 am

Licky - You are saying something very different now to what you said in the beta, where I believe you were bemoaning being away from the girls for so long?



Okay, it was badly planned, it should have been dotted around more.



Jenny and Toni are a natural pairing I think for this sort of thing. There is no baggage there at all, whilst with T/W there are little issues... Some of which Toni has no idea about.



The hug thing... god, I have no idea where that came from. BUt I like it too.



Thanks licky, you are a star.





I will skip to Cathy now and come back to Chronic... who's long review needs special attention I don't quite have time to reply to now (later I promise thanks for posting though - it was really nice to read it all!!)



Cathy - I think, just a day on from him being dead, that Toni is in denial. Also, though she knows something she does not 'understand' vampires etc. She just knows they are there.



I think what Toni needs is time, rather than something to prove anything to her. To me that would just be like persausion when I would not want to be persauded. I would let her work it out - what the people in the story do is another matter.



I think Jenny has had lots of practice at this, even if this is bigger. Plus she'd been out there with them - which gives her a perspective on how well they can work together. Yes, she is afraid for them, but she can mask it for her own kids and Toni.



Thanks so much



Chronic - I promise to get back to you later. Thanks.



Katharyn

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Re: Part 141

Postby tiredsoul » Fri Nov 14, 2003 2:13 am

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You are saying something very different now to what you said in the beta, where I believe you were bemoaning being away from the girls for so long?


See, that's the beauty of beta'ing. I read several parts in a row and can bemoan the absence of the girls but then, while reading about the girls in beta, I can read a part like this again and be all excited and scamper around :)



Can't beat that. Well, you could but it'd probably hurt :p



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Re: Part 141

Postby Katharyn » Sat Nov 15, 2003 1:50 am

Okay, sorry for the delay...



Chronic - 3 months? At least you were taking it slow. Now you can wait like everyone else! It is long, I will give it that. Thanks for the compliments though.



It was the characterisation of Tara and the "Real" Willow who would come later which intrigued me with this - and the idea that if they are always supposed to be together how could I square it in the Wisheverse? It seemed impossible, but then I had a flash... the rest is long winded.



Not everything is worse no, especially once the Master is defeated, it becomes a better Sunnydale in many ways. As for Giles and Jenny... its nice to still have them. I wish I still had Faith. But it had to be Faith or Jenny that got it, I opted for the Slayer. I sometimes wonder where I would be if I had gone the other way and killed Jenny. I honestly believe that Faith, given a fair shot by the Scoobies AND Giles (and mainly the council) might have been a decent Slayer. YOU could see how much she loved being the Slayer - it was just that everyone tried to stop her (to save Angel or keep a secret blah blah) and she had too much pride to back down.



The Master... well he was a given in the Wishverse, the Mayor... I liked the idea of playing with him. I don't think there are many people who do not see him in the top villains. And I wouldn't believe everything you see on TV.



Lilah... I took most license with. She changed so much it was not really her in many ways, but I hope it carried the readers along. As for the plan, I like to give you a jolt from time to time. Not everything is about Buffy/Angel or (in this universe) T/W.



The darkness was kind of a necessity and also very compelling. VW/T was fun to write (as a writer) but painful as a T/W fan. It had to be so drawn out though to make it believable, and I hope it was.



I think reading it through is the best way to go, but you fell into the update trap now!



Real Willow... oh I loved all that. It was pure joy to write. From her return through to the end... it was heaven. Especially after the first one...



In many ways 2nd Chronicle is a cheat... it trades on the SS name and borrows from it, but the lack of VW, the lack of the Wishverse reality and the darkness makes it a fraud. Still, I am having fun.



How do you stop being a vampire slayer. It is something all readers should think about. How does Buffy think she can stop, only if Faith takes over. Heck, the others know they have to have a (S6 spit) Buffybot to make it look like there is still a Slayer. The role of someone killing vampires and demons is crucial. YOu can't just stop or people die. All around you. Maybe someone you love or know.



Dru... I wish I could be in her head. BUt its too scary. I love her too - and I liked her with Darla in Angel. I had to have them hook up, besides Spike needed killing.



I'm glad Toni is working - she was the real risk. Jenny to some extent I built my version of her character, but she already existed. Toni was brand new and she was central to this early portion. As for Bratty... from day one I told myself "THIS IS NOT DAWN"



Dad attack, that was kind of a whim. I needed a threat and that worked better to tell her story.



Finding out about Willow? Who will tell her? Who actually knows?



Wild vampires, I liked that too... but I did not do him justice in the writing as one of those. Shame about that but it is posted already.



Thanks so much for all your feedback, keep it coming.



Licky - don't beat anything... unless it really likes it. Pervy?



Thanks



Katharyn

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Re: Part 141

Postby TexanZeppo256 » Sat Nov 15, 2003 9:26 pm

Hallo!



I realize that most of my posts recently have been kinda bitca-ish, but I'd like to make up for that by saying that I absolutely love this fic: it is one of the great fics on this board that I check the board daily for updates.



I love this fic because of its sheer size. When you write an update, you don't just write what happens. You write exactly what the characters are thinking. You don't allow the person you're writing about to just sit there and brood about stuff that nobody knows about. You take us into the minds of the character absolutely and completely, each a unique individual with characteristic mental and physical idiosynchracies(sp?) that belong only to that character. You also write your characters' thoughts in such a way that I can often see very easily how i might think exactly the same way.



I also love how you have our girls together and in love, and yet set up their characters so as to have believable conflicts between the two. It isnt just a fairy tale, its a relationship. Yes, their coupleship may have been pre-ordaned by fate, but it's still not comepletely perfect; they have squabbles and they have profound differences of opinion in certain aspects. It makes it more believeable to me. And I love that.



Anyways, just wanted to let ya know that I adore your fic.



Dosvidaniya!

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There she is! There she is... ahh... Not so wounded as we were led to believe... So much the better.
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Re: Part 136

Postby xita » Sun Nov 16, 2003 1:08 am

I love how you handle events from all points of views. It's great. We've seen Willow's , Tara's, Darla's and now really Jenny's. Wonderful.



I love little Faith, so cute with her little computer typing stuff way as if she was coversing normally. Very endearing.



Now, ok Toni makes more sense. She is just feeling guilty for not hating Tara.. poor thing. So much to deal with.

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Part 142

Postby Katharyn » Sun Nov 16, 2003 11:33 pm

Texanzeppo - no need to check daily Tex, every 5 days will do (and today is one of those days!) Thanks

It is big isn't it? I couldn't conceive of not going into what and why people think as they do. I am quite jealous of writers who manage it! Together and in love is the whole point for me. Crafting a "conflict" which does not interfere with that is tricky but ultimately rewarding.

Thanks so much.

Xita - I think we even saw Faith's PoV but I forgot! Faith is always a joy to write, even if I am not a person who loves kids... I am glad that Toni makes more sense - it's important you all understand her reasons, which is why I rehash things over and over... You will see this material again.

Thanks
K

Part 142 is below.

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Title: The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle - That’s A Lot of Vampires (Part 142)
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Constructive criticism is always welcome. katharynrosser@hotmail.com Flames just demonstrate you have a tiny mind.
Spoiler Warning: Pretty limited. The story occurs in an alternate universe as set up in “The Wish” though reference is made to events that occur in both realities. Nothing is referenced that occurs after S5 though. Guess why? Most “spoilers” would be for the first chronicle of this fic rather than the show and if you haven’t read that then much of this will make no sense but you can try and get round it by reading the preface to Part 104 which summarises most of what went before.
Distribution This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens (This applies to all of the Sidestep Chronicle)
Summary: Back to the tunnels and Willow and Tara’s progress with Rupert into the nest.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc, etc. I am making zilch from this series of stories. You know the drill.
Rating: R – a general rating for occasional content. Individual parts might be less than this level.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever – others couples as necessary but nothing unconventional.
Notes: Here we go…
Thanks To: All My Brilliant Beta Readers (AMBBR) Kerry (Forrister) and Jo (Wizpup) who for some reason signed right back up for this fic after seeing the size of the last one. No accounting for madness is there. And Celia (TiredSoul) who should have known better but signed up anyway. *HUGS* and Big Thanks to all of you.
This is one of Kerry’s. She chides me when I do something too much. She chides me when I do something too little. In general she chides me. But hey, after all this time, its obviously what I need! She doesn’t chide me when I get it right though. Thanks hun.

The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle

That’s A Lot of Vampires

By

Katharyn Rosser


They were being even more careful about how they moved now, how much of themselves they showed to any vampires that might be at a distance from them. Watching. Sometimes vampires did watch. But with them pressed up against the, fortunately now very much cleaner, walls they offered less of a target. And they changed sides according to which way the tunnel bent next. They were keeping the noise down – just in case the vampires were listening too.

It might be cleaner, but it still smelled down here… a gradually changing smell. Evolving probably, because it must be so alive that it was capable of evolution. She didn’t know how the vampires stood it… perhaps they just got used to it?

Whatever, it just seemed that the vampires weren’t alert. They’d had to take the chance to kill a couple of guards that they’d found – some more that were about to perform another of those cruel hunts Toni had escaped from. Apart from those… the vampires weren’t paying attention to what was happening in their own lair at all.

All of a sudden though, there had been an echo of something. Something, which had probably started out as a cheer. It had had rolled over them acoustically, and made them stop still for a moment in the tunnels.

“If that’s vampires, then that’s a lot of vampires,” Willow commented. “It sounds like they’re all in one place too,” she added.

Tara had just been considering that very fact for herself. It was a lot of vampires. A gathering of whatever kind would explain why they’d found so few of them out in the tunnels, and really those were just going through the motions of standing guard. She knew, from the pendant, that there should be a lot of them. Where they were had been worrying her.

Aside from those two that had been about to start feeding there hadn’t been any more who had been moving around, not even just from one place to another. Maybe they could even have got the people out of their cages in those circumstances… but they hadn’t known that the vampires all seemed to be in one place.

They still didn’t know it for sure.

The earlier objections to rescuing people right now, before they killed the vampires, still remained. Having them all out here, milling around, would be dangerous for all of them and would just help the vampires. They weren’t in the business of helping vampires. It definitely wasn’t why they were here.

“Maybe,” Willow mused and Tara knew where she was going with that thought before it even came from her mouth, “we should think about…” she shrugged. Perhaps she’d noticed the start of an expression on Tara’s face.

She wouldn’t have been shocked if she’d been having the start of an expression.

“Larger scale effects?” Rupert suggested, completing her sentence. Willow nodded her confirmation that it had been what she’d been thinking of, before she hesitated.

Tara knew what was causing the hesitation. It was her they didn't want to be all gung-ho in front of. Yeah, she’d probably started to have the expression, and Willow always picked up on that sort of thing. Tara just didn’t like the level of magic Willow was talking about – even though the magic itself was no longer dangerous. Or not dangerous to them, at least.

In Tara’s eyes there were always better ways. Ways that couldn’t go wrong and come back to… oh, do anything like burn them to a crisp or something along those lines. She didn’t want to hear the explanation – ‘the magic didn’t hurt us – it was the fire that roasted us alive.’

Willow, if not Rupert, remembered the ‘oops’ from when Willow had practically demolished the sewer beneath the park on the night they’d rescued Toni for the first time. It wasn’t that she didn’t trust Willow, or have faith in her abilities, it was that she didn’t trust the magic as much as she did her girlfriend. When you gave any of the elemental forces as mush energy and power as they were talking about… It was a bargain and there was always a chance they wouldn’t take the bargain.

Or that they’d only pretend to.

Not to mention if there were any methane pockets down here… that could get unpredictable pretty fast.

She supposed, in the larger picture though, Willow might have been right – that chance might need to be taken. Just not yet though. “Maybe,” Tara hedged at the end of her considerations.

And it was with the word that she got Willow to blink. Her lover was surprised at ‘maybe’. Well, she always liked to keep Willow on her toes.

On her back was good too – but on her toes was best all round. Good for all occasions.

Despite the surprise, their faces suggested that they were willing to follow her lead in this matter – which was good. This time she was the one who knew what could happen. She’d been the one who came so close to getting lost in the magic before and she was the one who knew that they could do this in other ways. Together they really could, without having to resort to something that could turn around and hurt them – or any other people that were down here in the cages the vampires had built.

Not unless they really had to.

‘Big’ magic was something that she was always willing to consider – and even the use of that sort of magic against a single vampire in tough circumstances… it was more than fine if it kept everyone safe. But ‘big’ magic was also a dangerous thing. She’d used it before. Back when it was more dangerous to her just to let the power flow through her mind, but it was still magic.

It still had to be respected.

The potential for problems might be different now, compared to how she’d always seen it five years ago. They didn't have to worry, with the cooperation of, and bargains with, the elements about being swallowed by the power. But there were other worries.

They all knew the problems… and when they went on the ‘big’ magic route they had to make a judgement about whether the demons were a bigger problem, a bigger danger. And was there any other way that could work without getting people hurt? To Tara, ‘big’ magic couldn’t be the first resort – only one of the last ones.

Magic wasn't there to make things easier. Magic was never to be used just for ease… even if the nature of magic itself wasn’t harmful to them, it wasn’t right to use it to makes things easier for themselves. Some things in life were just hard and people had to learn to deal with that reality. Tara firmly believed that it was the hard things in life that helped you develop and grow as a person.

Just for example, she honestly believed that if she and Willow hadn’t needed to fight through the worst kinds of adversity to be together, they wouldn’t be as strong together as they were now. And it was just one example of why the hard things were the ones that made you grow.

With magic especially, taking the easy way led to the magic being nothing more than a crutch, one which could easily get out of the wielder’s control. Tara had thought and worried about that a lot over the years, and it was why she still restrained herself. Now, with the elemental power they had access to, it was less of a concern in terms of immediate personal safety. There was always a bargain that was made – they weren’t just taking power for themselves. The power could only be used in certain ways, but that didn’t mean that they could ever take it for granted.

And she was glad to say that they didn’t.

But, equally, she wasn’t going to ever try to forbid them anything in the realm of magic. For one thing Willow was her own woman, with her own choices to make. For another, Tara knew she wasn't wise enough to make that kind of judgement. She just had to do what felt right to her – or not do as the case might be. They just had to be careful they were being helped by the magic and not helping themselves to it instead. And they were always using it for the right reasons.

So far she had no doubts – which was why she didn't want it to change now.

“They’re on the move,” Rupert commented as they listened to the sounds of the vampires which the concrete and brick tunnels magnified and echoed along with.

It was pretty clear to Tara he was right from the changes in the sound, but which way were they moving? They edged a few more metres down the tunnel, sneaking along now. It wasn't so they wouldn’t be heard, but instead so that they could hear the vampires clearly without covering what they wanted to hear with the sounds they made for themselves.

And after a few moments Tara thought she knew. She looked at Willow and Rupert… they seemed to be thinking the same things she was. It was always best to reassure herself that her comrades thought the same as she did.

“And I think they are heading in this direction,” Rupert added to his earlier statement, unnecessarily it seemed.

Tara considered the options. Right where they were now, they were exposed. Very much so. The tunnel was long and open. There really wasn’t anywhere for them to take cover. But, equally, there were no ambush points for the vampires either. They weren’t going to get caught out by anything sneaky – even if the vampires had it in them. Ambushes, corners… all those things were important to the vampires and their chances.

While she, Willow and Rupert had space to move and importantly in Rupert’s case to wield his axe, the vampires – no matter how many of them there were – wouldn’t be able to come at them more than five or maybe six abreast down the tunnel. That was good. That was a number which, as long as they were at a distance, was something they should be able to deal with. And at a distance vampires were very rarely a threat. Up close they were deadly, but further off…

Despite their exposure, they had a measure of control here and the weapons for the job. It might not be what they’d planned, but it could be a lot worse. The plans had been pretty general anyway and they hadn’t expected them to last beyond contact with the vampires. They hadn’t known what they might face – or where. They’d were really surprised to get this deep into the nest without being discovered. This was all a bonus really.

There were no access points behind them for a good distance and Rupert knew that his job was to keep an eye out back there. And if necessary, with all that space, they could back up too. Backing away, once the vampires were in sight, would maintain the distance that was more likely to keep them alive while they could still hurt the vampires.

Overall this would do. Right here was looking pretty good. She knew Rupert and Willow would have their own opinions, but she also knew they’d want hers. She had the experience. And her vote was that they’d stay right here. They’d do what they had to and then they’d go and help all the people that they were here to free afterwards. All the cages they’d seen were a fair distance away – if they fought all the vampires here then those people would be safer too.

Maybe when those people were free Toni would feel that enough had been done. The girl, by escaping, would have helped to free them – her map had already helped them too. What she’d told them had given them more information about what was going on in there than they’d ever have been able to get in any other way. If she hadn’t escaped then they wouldn’t even have known. Oh, they’d have found out one day – but how many more people would have died by then? And without Toni they might have stumbled in and got some people hurt.

All this, when they’d won, would be enough for Toni wouldn’t it?

Would it have been enough for her, when she was Toni’s age and suffering a similar pain?

No. It would never have been enough. It would just have been… a start.

But Toni wasn't her was she?

This, Tara realised as she looked at the woman she loved and their friend the librarian who was also with them, wasn’t really the time for having those really deep thoughts and being off somewhere else. She needed to be focused in this critical moment. Besides if even if she were somewhere else she’d want it to be with Willow, which her little mental trip hadn’t been.

She’d worry about Toni after they’d done what she asked. Killed all the vampires. All the ones which were here anyway.

After they’d made it safely home.

“Stay or go baby?” Willow asked her.

There were no ego’s here, especially between the two of them who were almost one. They all respected each other too much for that. When it came to computers, and being the most wonderful woman in the world, Tara deferred to Willow every single time. When they needed to know something from books – or about the supernatural, Rupert was their man. And when it came to battling the undead… well, in the absence of a Slayer who were they going to ask other than Tara? It was just how things were. Her vote was going to first amongst equals here.

She knew that from their point of view she’d kept herself alive for years doing this. She’d kept them alive sometimes. It was true. If she was proud of anything other than her love and her friends it was that single fact, in all of this. She was still here – they all were. If they hadn’t been, how could they have loved each other? There was only… There was only Faith, an older Faith, that wasn't with them anymore. And Faith wouldn’t have left this fight, or backed off. Tara couldn’t think of a time that the Slayer had ever retreated – even when there was something she should have retreated from. There was a good reason for that, a good reason why Tara wouldn’t retreat now.

No way in hell Tar, this is going to rock. Say it with me now.

It wasn’t going to get better than this while they were down here. There was no reason to back off. This, the more she thought about it, was going to be as perfect as it could be. The whole setting was perfect. This might be the vampire’s lair – but here it was they who had the advantage in a way only people who used magic against vampires could do.

“Stay,” she said calmly.

Perhaps the calm in her voice masked the way that her heart was beating. This was bigger than anything they’d done for a long time. This was more risk, more danger, more chances to get killed – more vampires then they’d had to fight for a long, long time. It was a different magic to last time round. She was with different people to last time too. She was a different person to the last time round.

She was so much better off now. She was in love. She had friends that she’d die for and who’d die for her. The thought of losing them didn’t truly cross her mind. She could only see them as a benefit, not something to be worried about.

Last time round it had been her and Faith. Both of them had been willing to die for the cause, maybe even for each other in a non-romantic comrade in arms way. Friends… yeah, they had been unlikely friends. In another life Faith might even have picked on her. But they were in this life. They’d not had the time to get as close as both she and Willow had to Jenny and Rupert. Or to their children. Things were different now. For Tara there was Willow above all other things. A real, living, breathing, warm, loving Willow she hadn’t been able to more than dream of when she was hitting the Bronze with Faith.

This was a Willow she could be afraid for but didn’t need to be. Not a Willow she had to be afraid of either.

This was the Willow she’d always, deep down, known she was going to love – even before she’d first heard the name Willow Rosenberg. Knowing the name had just been another brick in the wall of coming to know Willow.

Her life wasn’t ever going to get any better than this. Better than how Willow made her feel. Better than how they would be able to deal with the vampires – which brought her back to how suitable this situation was, you know… if you actually had to fight a throng of vampires in the way that they did. This was the best way.

Willow might have something to say about using the word ‘throng’ and how suitable it might have really been to this situation. But not right now. Now was much more the time to be thinking about getting ready for the vampires and what they would do about them than about discussing the finer points of language.

It would take the vampires several extra minutes to try and come around behind them, given the directions of the tunnels that fed into this one that they’d already passed. At least that long – so, realistically, the vampires were just going to have to face them and both sides would probably feel that it was to their advantage. They because of their magic, the vampires because of their numbers.

The difference was Tara just knew that it was their advantage and not that of the vampires.

Okay, so there would be no surprise, no easy kills made from hiding places but trade that off for what they were gaining in other ways and they were in pretty good shape – all in all. The tunnel wouldn’t let them be rushed. The entrances to their rear weren’t near enough to count. Everything else was sealed off.

This was best.

And, as usual when there were other people’s lives at stake, a momentary doubt crept in there. Wasn’t this best?

She supposed that they’d test the truth of the assumption in the next few minutes. It hadn’t just been her choice – they’d all made it – but it was down to her to bring experience to it. Just a few minutes. Seconds might seem like hours, but, really, it was all going to be over within what… ten to fifteen minutes. At most. One way or… No. This was she and Willow. There was just one way that was acceptable. One way this was going to happen – even if Rupert hadn’t been at risk too. Everything else was out of the question.

The surprise would still be achieved, she mused, because the vampires wouldn’t expect them here at all, not here at the heart of the nest. That was what all the traps and diversions were for, to make sure that no one got so deep who shouldn’t have. Maybe, if the vampires had been coming after Toni to stop her revealing any of the details of this place, then they might expect something – but the fact remained they’d set traps and watchers to keep intruders out, so they wouldn’t expect them to be here now. Reality was always very different from expectations.

Witness last night when a vampire had managed to get into what they’d always expected to be the safest of places. Even for Tara, who’d set up her own rituals to provide protection to where she and Willow lived, Jenny’s had always seemed the safest, most comfy place in the whole world. It was the centre of the family they formed. She’d expected it to remain so because it was so comfy.

Expectations… well, there they might have got someone killed last night. Fortunately they hadn’t – but the point remained. She and Willow should have put a mystical barrier in place at Jenny’s a long, long time ago. They’d seen to it now though. Jenny, the kids and Toni, were snug as a bug in a rug now. Secure. No one had really been hurt – no one except Toni and her suffering might not have been any the less if the wards had been in place.

Toni might have gone outside to her Dad and died. But she hadn’t and that was the key thing. No matter how she felt – at least she was feeling.

The tunnel was long, straight, but dipping slightly ahead of them. It was driving like a stake into what she assumed was the heart of the nest – it was certainly where the vampires were coming from unless there were some very, very weird acoustics going on around here. If the sound was behaving strangely down here then they could definitely be in trouble. In that situation then the vampires could come at them from anywhere and be as noisy as they liked while they were doing it. Rupert was looking back behind them.

There was nothing weird about it so far though. No reason to start doubting her own instincts now. The tunnel was so straight, only with a shallow dip down to head further into the ground, which meant that they’d be able to see each other from quite a distance. And the vampires would be heading up hill.

If they were really down there.

Seeing them, that would wipe away any doubts that she did have. If she couldn’t see them in what… about another minute, then she’d start to second-guess her assumptions and look to the others for new opinions about what they should do. It had been much easier to trust her instincts back when they weren’t responsible for other people as well as herself.

And when there hadn’t been any other opinions which might have sounded so reasonable as her own.

She’d had trouble with fears about taking them out with her at first… She remembered when they’d all gone hunting together for the first time after they’d come back to Sunnydale. She’d been so terrified, after so long away from the hunting, that she might get someone hurt. That she might have lost her edge over the vampires.

And then, when she’d found she could still rely on Rupert to look after himself just as much as he did she and Willow - then she’d been able to breathe again. Willow… dear Willow, was well able to take care of more than just herself. Willow had saved her a dozen times and when she was in her own trouble she was well able to get out of it too. Willow could easily cope with hunting on her own. She’d proven that too.

Okay, so sometimes Willow had a tendency towards showy magic, but nothing that would risk anyone’s life. It was just her natural affinity went in the way of the magic which was by nature very visually impressive as well as effective. Tara was sure of that.

Willow’s capabilities, and Rupert’s made life… What they all could do had made this part of their life an acceptable risk for all of them.

But the risks hadn’t been as great as this for a long time.

“You got the smoke sweetie?” she asked Willow. Tara hadn’t had cause to use a magical smoke screen, which would illuminate the undead whilst shielding them from the vampire’s sight, since she and Faith had attacked the Master. The smoke had worked then – without it they’d probably never have made it. It had protected Faith and it had protected her too. It worked. She trusted it as a tool as much as she’d trust something as basic as a stake. Besides, Willow had made a few changes of her own. Always the brainy one, always the one looking to make things better. Always the woman Tara would love.

Willow nodded and patted her bag, which Tara had watched her pack with the small packages of ingredients. Each of those bags would be charged by the repetition of just a few words and a little of their power at the appropriate time.

One thing she was glad Willow had considered was the draft. There was a draft in the tunnel and Willow had anticipated it – it was the reason behind her improvements. No matter how much the smoke lingered around undead creatures, marked them out and blocked their sight, it was going to disperse quicker than it was in a room like the Bronze where it had worked for them before. Willow had tried to compensate for that problem. It had kept them alive before, it had let them kill a lot of vampires. Tara hoped it would still do the same now thanks to Willow.

“Perhaps I should deal with the smoke,” Rupert offered. “At least until things become fraught enough to require my services in some other, more martial, capacity.”

Of course he meant until the vampires were close enough for his axe to be crucial. If they were so close… the plan would be failing.

So it hadn’t been the plan… but then his Slayer, Faith, hadn’t big on plans either – and none of them had known what was really going to happen down here before they arrived. They still didn’t. Plans could change. Tara knew plans had to change. They’d all do what helped them get this finished in the easiest, quickest and in the safest way possible. Rupert could keep laying down new smoke, while Willow would definitely be better focusing on her stakes as much as possible.

Rupert’s axe wouldn’t be needed until the vampires were much closer than any of them intended to let them get. He could perform the physical acts that were needed to create the smoke, the bits that would have distracted Willow from staking vampires.

Willow passed the small bags of ready mixed ingredients to Rupert. All he needed from her now were the words, the power that was within them both. A momentary act they could fit in with ease… she hoped. He could lay down the effect for himself and tell them when he needed a charge out of them. He smiled at them wryly. “I’m sure Jenny would prefer I brandish herbs than axes. She always teases me about cutting myself shaving.”

Which he did tend to do, at least until she and Willow had got him an electric razor last Christmas.

“I guess I’m on stakes then,” Willow noted. “I promise to try not to get a splinter this time too. I was really careful with my carving.”

“We’re both on stakes, sweetie,” Tara replied. Willow, like Tara, carved her own stakes but somehow she always managed to end up with a splinter anyway. Then again, if that was the worst thing that happened to them then Tara was going to accept that and go hunting the splinter for Willow later. A splinter was, all things considered, what would be considered an acceptable risk.

“So the smoke marks them out?” Willow checked, never having used it before. Even though she’d improved the mixture of powder and magic, she’d never actually seen the smoke surround a vampire.

“That’s it,” Tara confirmed. It glows as it settles on them – at least whilst they’re in the smoke. It should linger around them more than normal smoke would too.” Especially after the changes Willow had made. “It’s attracted to vampires to some extent. And because it’s all smoky they can’t see us through it,” Tara explained. “We get to see the entire shape of them, enough to aim at and even pick out the heart, but they just see the smoke. It won’t last forever but if Rupert can keep going as it starts to thin out…?”

“Until the last of it is used up,” he promised. “Certainly, I’m not keen on giving them a fair fight. The Marquis of Queensbury never imagined rules for anything like this. By all means, let’s stack as many odds as we can in out favour.”

Tara’s attitude exactly. These were vampires. Not people. They didn’t respect fair. Their existence wasn’t fair. They didn’t deserve fair and they weren’t going to get ‘fair.’ Not from any of them. There wasn’t a single reason to give them any chance at all.

“Erm. Guys, I think we better start stacking those odds. You know, higher.” Willow said as they saw movement in down the tunnel. The vampires were coming around the dip in the tunnel. It already looked like a lot of vampires and they couldn’t see the back of them yet.

Tara’s second guesses and concerns rushed away from her as she saw them and she was sure again – sure that they could do this. The vampires weren’t being clever. The tunnels acoustics weren’t deceiving them. Everything was as they’d thought it was. “No,” she said to Rupert as he brandished the first pouch to do what Willow had suggested. “Wait for it. It’ll disperse too much to work for long if we do it now. It would just be a waste if we started the smoke too soon.”

“And if they see us?” Rupert asked, sounding concerned about the possibility. If the smoke was supposed to protect them then the lack of it was a reasonable concern. Tara understood him completely.

“But if they don’t see us…” Willow thought out-loud.

Willow was right. “If they see the smoke without knowing we’re here then they might think it’s a fire or something, go another way around and we won’t know where to expect them from. We need to wait,” Tara insisted over Rupert’s concerns.

“And they won’t worry about three people being down here in their territory,” he said seeing what she meant. If the vampires missed them then they’d lose their best chance at killing them all.

“This way, if they know about us, then we’ll get to kill them all,” Tara said and she pulled out as many of the special pencil thin stakes as she thought she could manage to hold and still fight with. New wood this time though. Which was another change. But one with a good reason behind it.

As she manipulated them between her fingers she thought once again about how long it had been since she’d had to do this last. To try to hold and to work with so many stakes at the same time. She glanced at her love, and by contrast Willow had just taken two of her thicker stakes, one in each hand. Tara had laid hers between her fingers – as well as one more in each palm held secure by her thumb. This move was, she knew, just going to work once tonight – just as it had only worked once on that other, dangerous, night. Better once than never though.

“Ready?” she asked when it was clear the vampires had finally noticed them. After a slight pause the demons had started to surge up the tunnel with renewed speed if not actual vigour. She wasn't sure something dead could have true vigour.

She also wasn’t sure they’d know who they were – at least not at this distance. Intruders were intruders though, she supposed. Humans where they shouldn’t have been – perhaps even more escapees.

As they surged forwards the vampires were like rats escaping from a flood – when the reality was that they were actually worse than the flood itself. They would be, if they had been planning on finally going outside, like a tide death – washing away the good, innocent people of Sunnydale. Why else would they all be here, coming this way? They’d been heading out into the world… She knew now that they were just in time to stop these creatures. Even a few minutes later…

By the Goddess it would have been a massacre…

Since the defeat of the Master, and she supposed the old Mayor, Sunnydale had seen a return to innocence for its people. It had been a return to the sort of world, which outside of Sunnydale people tended to think that they lived in anyway.

The vampires would have wiped that away as they sucked the life out of people who thought that maybe it was safe to be outside now. In the darkness. They would have done that, if they’d been able to go outside without interruption. But now, the vampires had come the wrong way, even if they didn't know it yet. She wasn’t, they weren’t, going to let any of that happen.

There would only be one massacre tonight and it would be down here, in this tunnel.

“Absolutely ready,” Rupert replied as he fingered the cloth bags that contained the delicate mixture of ingredients. Willow had been the one to mix them this time round – and it was she who had suggested that maybe the smoke could be made to linger more around the undead, rather than simply acting as smoke always did – which wasn't going to help them too much down here without those modifications. Smoke that just rose would hang around the ceiling of the tunnel without accomplishing much at all.

And the draft wasn’t going to help. Willow’s modifications – should make things a little better.

Every time Willow did something like this, making improvements and suggestions, when she thought outside of the training that Tara had so carefully given her in magic, it made her teacher just a little bit more proud of the woman she was already devoted to. And full of pride for. It wasn’t that Tara thought she deserved the credit for it, but she couldn’t help the pride. And she got to see a little bit more of Willow’s potential.

Willow might not realise it, or even want to go beyond where she was now in the magic, but Tara was sure that Willow had a great deal more raw power than she did – or potential for it at least. And it didn’t worry her in the slightest. Willow was careful now. Willow was more bothered about her than she was the magic and that was a safe way to be.

As well as being generally adorable.

Tara liked it. It made her smile every time she realised how perfect they were for each other. She was a little obvious about it too, she admitted it to herself.

Willow answered her question by turning to look into her eyes, and she must have seen that smile there too. Tara could never, ever, hide it. Not from Willow. “You were thinking about us again weren’t you?” she asked for clarification as they watched the vampires come a little closer.

“Of course she was,” Rupert observed. “Can’t you, of all people, tell?”

Tara was forced to admit she had been and she did so by expressing the feelings they both held. “I love you,” she whispered, tipping her head forward to rest against Willow’s. Just a moment. A moment was all she needed now.

And Willow completed the other half of that conversation with her own words “Right back at you.” She grinned and turned to face the vampires again.

Tara paused; Willow had never used those precise words used before. It sounded a little… less than serious. “‘Right back at you?’” she asked not quite believing the choice of words. She was still watching the vampires, but… Those words. After professing her love to Willow they sounded almost casual. What was up with that?

“Yeah,” Willow said – obviously, from her tone, amused by the reaction and probably trying to cause it in the first place.

So she was predictable now? Was that it? Willow thought she could predict what she would do?

“Since when do you say ‘Right back at you?’” Tara asked her, momentarily caught up in the words. She’d get to predictability later. After this had played out. Another reason to make it if she’d needed one.

“Since just now – and baby can we be focusing on the… you know… the bad-guy vampires now?” Willow leaned over and gave her a peck on the cheek to round off her request.

Well, a peck was almost a full kiss – more than she could have thought to arrange while they were being surged towards by vampires – so that was pretty much okay. ‘Right back at you though?’ It lacked, as Rupert would have surely said, poetry. It wasn’t one of the all time romantic lines. ‘Right back at you?’ Tara wasn’t sure that she’d be getting over that very soon – no matter what sentiments Willow had being expressing by using those words – and she was equally sure that now she’d showed that confusion Willow would tease her remorselessly about it.

Then Jenny would pick up on the teasing.

Before she knew it even little Faith would be saying those words to her – but they’d never mean more than they did right now. ‘Right back at you’ was enough. In the context. Context was everything.

“I love you,” Willow breathed to her as they squared up to what they were facing.

Tara knew that. She’d pretty much always known.


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Re: Part 142

Postby heraldgal » Mon Nov 17, 2003 10:38 am

How many vampires is alot? The potential amount described is kind of scary but I have faith they will come out okay. I like the view on magic that it was not there for them to make their life easier and they don’t use it that way, healthier I would guess too.



It is an interesting observation that Tara makes between her and Toni. Would something like this have been enough for her? Maybe their differences are because the world is different with no master running the town, or that the Tara and Toni have different perspectives?



Thank you for the update.



Cathy.

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Re: Part 142

Postby Katharyn » Mon Nov 17, 2003 12:48 pm

How many is alot?



More than a few and less than too many. Simple huh?



It is scary, its supposed to be scary... Its a rule of writing or films. Bigger. Faster. More. It always has to be that way in sequels. LOL



You may spot me making this little remarks which counters the shitty treatment they got in the show and season which will not be named. It's the healthy way as you say.



The funny thing is, and its good in a way, is that I can ask these questions - such as that you refer to - from a characters point of view and I never have to answer them LOL. It's just one characters PoV... I don't know the answer there. My feeling is it wouldn't have been enough... but that's not gospel.



Thanks for your support.



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Re: Part 141

Postby xita » Mon Nov 17, 2003 9:02 pm

I was very amused by that coversation at the end. Tara so bothered by Willow's phrase, how cute is that. Vampires everywhere and she's worried about that. But it's all so playful for them even at this time, their love. Bring on the vampires, they're ready! And I am glad Tara at least considered that they might need to use big magic, i mean it's good that she didn't just dimiss that.

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Re: Part 142

Postby tiredsoul » Tue Nov 18, 2003 2:12 am

Fun with a lot of vampires :) Is it so wrong to find that exciting? Exciting in an action sort of way. Err, I mean… I’ll shut up now :p

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“I guess I’m on stakes then,” Willow noted. “I promise to try not to get a splinter this time too. I was really careful with my carving.”


Only you can make a character worry about splinters in the face of a ton of vampires seem natural :)

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“Right back at you.”

“Since when do you say ‘Right back at you?’”


It’s fun that, as the vampires are descending upon them, they can have this little banter between them.



So they’re in the tunnels, the vampires are descending on them and they’re prepared. They are prepared, right? ;)



Thanks Katharyn.



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