new fic: The Outing

[jdcioffi]

Great update ... yes, small, but even a small update is worth posting.



We kittens get hungry fast ... and we need our (fic) nourishment.



Small portions, large portions ... as long as they are as sweet as these have been ... we'll take them gladly.



JD

"I smell the smelly smell of something that smells smelly!" (SpongeBob Squarepants)

[The Rose24]

There is always angst, but W/T handles it well.

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.

Tara: Willow, I got so lost.
Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

Willow: Hi, um Tara. I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

[mollyig]

So Willow's going to tell her friends. Wonder how she'll react to them already knowing!

Adding up the total of a love that's true, multiply life by the power of two
Indigo Girls

[LeatherQueen]

Aw, great update! So nice to see our girls working things out together.

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"But when they're playing your song on the jukebox in Hell, you might as well dance." - K. Simpson


"Futile... like a FOX, baby!" - Tara in The Late Shift by wiccachica

[Mainer]

Title: The Outing

Rating:PG-13

Disclaimer: All characters belong to Joss Whedon.



Part Six B:



This was it. It was officially time to tell Buffy about Tara. Willow wasn't exactly sure why that thought was so terrifying. She totally got why she didn't want to tell Xander. They had a history of accepting change in one another very badly, but Buffy. 'She's always so openminded about the choices I make. She encouraged me to date Oz even after we found out he was a werewolf, she was super supportive about my foray into witchcraft. But this isn't witchcraft and there is no way to predict how your friends will react to this kind of news.' The closer Willow got to 214 Stevenson, the slower she walked. She was quickly losing her nerve. 'What if they hate me?' Willow thought. 'Could my friends ever really hate me? No, this is stupid. They're Buffy and Xander, they could never hate me. Maybe they already know? They could have figured it out from the way I act around Tara. Of course how could they, they've never seen us together. I just have to put myself in their shoes. What would I do if they told me that they were gay? First, I would ask if they were happy, and they would say yes. Then I would say that's great and give them a hug. Maybe I'm just imagining it the way I want it to be. No, I'm sure I'd be understanding. I can do this, I can,' Willow thought pausing outside the door to her room. Opening the door she stepped in and then turned around to close it. When she turned back around to face the room she nearly jumped out of her skin. Sitting around the room were Buffy, Xander, and Anya all starring at her. Buffy was sitting on her bed facing Willow's bed, and Xander and Anya had pulled the chairs from the desks and had them facing Willow's bed as well. Anya was sitting with a large bag of popcorn in her lap. The arrangement didn't seem conducive for a heart to heart talk with her best friends, it seemed more like an arrangement for an intervention, but what had she done that they were trying to intervene?



"Will, sit down. We have to talk," Buffy said in a very serious tone.



"We do?" Willow asked nervously sitting down on her bed. For some reason she felt like she was at a public execution, and she was the one being executed. Everyone was just starring at her like she did something wrong, and she really had no idea what this was all about.



"Is there anything you want to tell us?" Xander asked. "And don't be afraid to go into detail." Anya paused in her popcorn consumption long enough to swat Xander. "What? I'm just trying to help."



"I beg you not to," Buffy said shooting him a stern look. "Now, Will, is there anything you want to tell us? Anything at all?"



"What's going on? Did I do something?" Willow asked throughly confused by her friends behavior.



"Did you ever," Anya said between handfuls.



"Anya!" Buffy and Xander yelled in unison.



"What?" She asked.



"Somebody better tell me what's going on here, or I'm leaving," Willow said standing up, putting her hands on her hips. Now seemed like a good time to employ her resolve face as well. She didn't understand what was going on, and she didn't like it. She felt like she was being accused of something, but they hadn't actually done any accusing. It was all very upsetting.



"Okay, just sit down and we'll tell you," Buffy said. She wanted Willow to confess. She didn't like the idea that Willow wouldn't confide in her, but if Will wanted to play stupid then Buffy would put all the cards on the table so she couldn't. Buffy waited for Willow to sit back down before continuing. "We saw you today."



"Yeah," Willow said still not getting it.



"On your picnic," Buffy continued.



"Oh," Willow said finally figuring out what they were all talking about, after they told her of course. Everything was finally making sense.



"So what's going on Will?" Xander asked determined not to let the betrayal he was feeling show. He just couldn't understand why Willow hadn't told him.



"I think it was pretty obvious what was going on," Anya said popping in a couple more pieces of popcorn.



"Wait a minute, were you spying on me?" Willow asked in disbelief. She didn't want to think her friends would spy on her, but what other reason was there for them to have seen her. She made sure to go as far from their hang outs as possible.



"No," Buffy and Xander said shaking their heads no, while Anya was nodding an ethusiastic yes.



"Why would you spy on me? Don't you trust me?" Willow said the hurt she was feeling evident in her voice. Xander who had been trying his best to keep his cool finally lost it.



"You don't get to be hurt here Will. We're the ones who were betrayed. I mean, how else were we supposed to know what's going on in your life? If we hadn't caught you today when were you going to tell us? Tomorrow? Next week? Next month? Never? You haven't exactly been forthcoming with the information, so do you really blame us? I thought we were best friends. Why couldn't you tell me?"



"Xander, I.. this isn't easy," Willow said beginning to cry. "This is a huge thing in my life and I'm just coming to terms with it myself, and I was gonna tell you, I swear I was. I just needed...I was scared." Willow said looking at her best friends. Buffy and Xander moved to sit next to Willow on her bed, and put their arms around her.



"All the more reason to tell us, Will," Buffy said wiping the tears from Willow's face. "We're your friends, we're not scary. Well maybe first thing in the morning and when Xander does his impressions, but that's not the point. The point is we just want to help. We don't care if you're gay, straight, or purple, we'll always be your friends and we'll always love you. Right Xander?"



"Right. We aren't angry because you're gay, we're angry because you didn't tell us in the beginning," Xander said, "and angry isn't the right word, we're hurt."



"It is the beginning," Willow said wiping away the last tears from her face. "I mean I've known Tara for awhile, but the whole girlfriend thing just started today."



"So that's the Tara you keep mentioning in your sleep," Buffy mummered to herself.



"You're more of a slut than I thought you were," Anya said. "We saw you having sex."



"We didn't have sex, we only...wait a minute. You guys watched that? What happened to privacy?" Willow said.



"No, we didn't watch. Well maybe for a second, but we looked away," Xander said.



"I didn't look away. I saw the whole thing, at least until we left, and let me tell you. You were doing it all wrong. Your hands were in the wrong place, and let's not even discuss where your mouth should have been," Anya said.



"Yes, let's not discuss," Willow said turning completely red. This couldn't possibly be more embarassing. Anya was giving her sex advice. 'This is not happening,' Willow thought.



"Really," Buffy said. "I'm all for gay Willow, but I don't really want to hear about her sexcapades."



"Buffy! There are no sexcapades," Willow said swatting her best friend. Xander had long sense been lost in the conversation, ever since Anya mentioned hands and mouths. "Xander you look a little flushed," Willow said.



"Huh? What? No I wasn't picturing you having sex with her," Xander rattled off quickly much to the amusement of his friends. "You didn't say anything about that, did you?" Willow shook her head no and then she and Buffy burst into a fit of laughter.



"I don't see how any of this is amusing," Anya said dropping the bag of popcorn. "You should be thinking about me and Willow having sex, or me and Buffy, or me and that girl, not Willow and that girl."



"That was almost too disturbing," Buffy said.



" And she's not that girl, she's Tara," Willow said.



"So when do we meet Tara?" Xander asked desparately trying to change the subject from his sexual fantasies to something that didn't make him want to jump in the hellmouth.



"I don't know," Willow said shrugging her shoulders. "We haven't really talked about her meeting my friends, seeing as how we just started dating today. I'm going over tonight, maybe we can plan something."



"We can hang out here, or in my basement?" Xander suggested.



"Are you ashamed to be seen in public with me?" Willow asked a little hurt and confused that Xander hadn't suggested the Bronze. That was, after all, their usual hangout.



"No, I just didn't know how you felt about being seen in public, you know coming out," Xander said unsure is he was still offending her.



"I am out," Willow said. "How many friends do you think I have? I don't care what all those other people think as long as you guys are okay with it. Besides I'm obscenely happy. So I think we should go to the Bronze tonight and celebrate. We'll meet there at eight," Willow said standing and heading to the door.



"Where are you going?" Buffy asked.



"To see Tara. I have to ask her about tonight," Willow said rushing out the door.



"She's got it bad," Buffy said.



"You said it. We're now dealing with a Willow in love," Xander said.



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"Bloodsuckers. They kill by sucking blood. Take it easy, Joan." Anya (Tabula Rasa)

"I've seen honest faces. They usually come attached to liars." Willow (The Initiative)

[snuggle79]

oh lovely! I really liked they way everyone was reacting. Especially Anya's, soooo typical... lol

Oh baby, want me to rub your tummy? She likes it when I ... stop explaining things.

Hi, um Tara..how are you? well...I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time...for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?


Looking down and hungry for your love, but no way to feed it...

Edited by: snuggle79 at: 5/15/02 1:24:21 pm

[LeatherQueen]

Loved Anya's reaction! This was a great update. Good to see the Scoob's so supportive of Willow.

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"But when they're playing your song on the jukebox in Hell, you might as well dance." - K. Simpson


"Futile... like a FOX, baby!" - Tara in The Late Shift by wiccachica

[jdcioffi]

Obscenely happy ... I like that.



And I love the interactions here. It was very Buffy/Xan/Anya.



Is there any way to prod you for more? *Purty purty please*



JD

"I smell the smelly smell of something that smells smelly!" (SpongeBob Squarepants)

[Thanatopsis]

Anya cracks me up. I love that she actually has popcorn. Ah, it's just like Hush with Giles' cute little slide show.

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"This world's no fun."
"You noticed that too?"

[witchbitchwillow]

heya,



great update!! im sooo glad that the scoobies were okay with it. buffy was lovely! i wish my best mate had done that when i came out lol. keep writing!





love ellie x x x x

*thats me as a vampire im so evil and skanky and i think im kinda gay*

*no candles? well i brought one its extra flamey!*

Edited by: witchbitchwillow at: 5/15/02 2:20:27 pm

[Karzia]

Wonderfully fun and .....well fun. All in your face Willow with the "her name is Tara...." You got the gang being the gang at their best, bonding. I look forward to the Bronze outing

Give into the sunshine....give into the W/T love..let it take over"

--------Sassette

[WillowTarafan98]

I really love this story!! And you write Anya so well, she's always the funniest on the show you nailed it!! The popcorn!! And I like how the gang is supportive of Willow, reminds me of my friends Now it'd be kind of interesting to see Willow's parents in this one, any plans on doing that?? Funny how friends can be supportiave and parents totally are the op. Maybe it's just mine? ? Anyways GREAT update



~Stephie~

a picture is worth a thousand words so can I take your's cause your beauty has totally erased my dictionary ~My line, after taking way to many cute girls photos for my college's newspaper~ ;)


Love didn’t listen
It only hears what it wants to hear
Two hearts beating as one
The odds were against ‘em
Oh but they had something on their side
When doubt said it can’t be done
Love didn’t listen
~Chely Wright "Love Didn't Listen" *off the 'never love you enough' cd*

[The Rose24]

I am glad Buffy and Xander are supportive of Willow in this Buffyverse.

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.

Tara: Willow, I got so lost.
Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

Willow: Hi, um Tara. I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

[mollyig]

Anya with the popcorn at the intervention - that was so funny!

Adding up the total of a love that's true, multiply life by the power of two
Indigo Girls

[KJchicago]

Mainer - I love how you write W/T.



I just love going back to Season 4 and having our great fan fiction writers fill-in what we didn't get to see. This was huge stuff for both Willow and Tara. Too much of the early goodness was always "off-screen" or just considered "subtext" to the writers/M.E. One thing that was consistent was how they always had Willow avoiding telling Buffy where she was. I like how you write her to be more open with her friends and them all actually having a conversation. I like how you had the Scoobs handle Willow coming out.



Maybe it's because I am a sappy romantic -- but I will ALWAYS read any variation of how our girls got together and I will NEVER tire of these stories

[Jennpurr]

Hee hee... you soooo have Anya down. This was great. I LOVED the update. I'm glad you wrote it this way.

Can't wait to see if Tara wants to go to the bronze with the gang. YAY for and .



Jen

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"It's good to be a chicken casserole," Tara murmured before passing out. -from "Answering Darkness" by Sassette




Tara: Can you just be kissing me now?

[Mainer]

Title: The Outing

Rating: PG-13

Disclaimer: All the characters belong to Joss Whedon.





Part Seven



Willow ran all the way to Tara's dorm and now stood waiting impatiently outside her door. It never occurred to her that Tara might not be there, she was always there. Every time Willow came over she would knock and Tara would open the door and give her that special smile that was all hers. The smile that made her grab the door frame from going weak in the knees, but this time there was no Tara. Willow sat down next to the door and leaned on the wall. She had too much she needed to tell Tara so she was just going to sit there and wait. 'I should have brought a book,' Willow thought, 'Although I didn't know I'd be waiting in the hall and bringing a book when you think you're going to be talking to someone seems a little ridiculous. I wonder where Tara is? She could have gone to the library, if she did I could meet her there. Maybe she went to get dinner, it is almost five. She probably met someone new and ran away with them, and now she's never coming back.'



"Willow?" Tara asked looking down at the redhead.



"Oh, Tara. Thank-God. Where were you?" Willow said finally looking up when she finished. When she did look up she saw Tara standing in front of her in a bathrobe with her hair wrapped up in a towel. 'Tara's naked under that robe. How can I talk to Tara if she's naked? I can't get naked Tara out of my mind when she's fully clothed, how am I supposed to not think about naked Tara when all she's wearing is a robe?'



"Are you coming?" Tara asked standing in her room holding the door open for Willow.



"What? No. I mean, you mean in the rooom. Yeah, I'm coming in the room," Willow said blushing from head to toe. She noticed the smile and the blush on Tara's face as she stood up and entered the room.



"I didn't expect you b-back so soon," Tara said removing the towel from her head and letting her wet hair fall down on her shoulders. "I took a s-shower. I kinda had some g-grass in my hair."



"Sorry," Willow said smiling. Tara sat down on the edge of her bed and crossed her legs, as she did the robe split revealing her bare legs up to her thigh. Everything Willow had to say left her mind and her jaw almost dropped to the floor. "I had something to tell you, but I don't remember now."



"Was it important?" Tara asked brushing her hair oblivious to the effect she was having on Willow.



"I think so," Willow said starring at Tara's bared flesh. "Do you wanna maybe get dressed? Not that I mind you in your robe, but it's very distracting and I think if you put some clothes on I could think again, and then I be able to remember what I had to tell you."



"I'm sorry," Tara said. "I didn't realize I was d-distracting."



"Oh please," Willow said moving toward Tara and sitting next to her on her bed. "You're gorgeous, look at you. I can't stop starring, and drooling. Of course you're distracting. I'm not gonna be able to get your legs out of my mind for the rest of my life."



"If it's t-that bad I guess I can put some c-clothes on," Tara said smiling. "Turn around."



"If you insist," Willow said playfully. She noticed a mirror on the wall and walked over in front of it. 'I look terrible. I have grass in my hair and dirt on my clothes,' Willow thought checking her reflection. She glanced back toward the room in the mirror and saw a half naked Tara. 'I should not be watching her in the mirror. If she wanted me to see her she wouldn't have asked me to turn away. She's so beautiful. I wish I could...oh. I think she saw me looking. No, she was just reaching for a shirt. Okay, back to myself. I have to get the grass out of my hair.'



"You can turn around now," Tara said sitting back down on her bed. "Did you remember?"



"Um, yeah. See when I got back to my room all my friends were there, and Anya. They saw us on the picnic and they know. They..."



"Know what?" Tara interrupted.



"About us, and they...."



"What about us?" Tara asked interrupting again.



"You know what," Willow said smiling.



"I want you to say it," Tara said taking Willow's hand. She remembered when she first discovered that she was gay and her mother had insisted she say it outloud. It was the hardest thing she had to do.



"They know we're girlfriends," Willow said, taking a deep breath she continued. She knew once she said it there was no going back. "They know I'm gay."



"Thank-you," Tara said giving Willow a quick kiss on the cheek. "Now you can continue."



"Okay. They really want to meet you, so I suggested that we all go to the Bronze tonight. So whatta ya say?"



"No."



"No, you're not supposed to say no. Why no?" Willow asked.



"I'm not comfortable in g-groups of people. Can't I m-meet them one at a time in a p-private setting?" Tara asked dropping her head and hiding behind her damp hair.



"You don't have to be scared, I'll be there," Willow said lifting Tara's head. "My friends are gonna love you, and not just because I do, but because you're a great person."



"Are you s-sure?" Tara asked sheepishly.



"Positive. So be ready at seven thirty, and I'll be here to get you," Willow said standing up and walking toward the door.



"Willow?" Tara asked.



"Yeah?" Willow said stopping in her tracks.



"Didn't you forget something?"



"I don't think so," Willow said.



"My kiss," Tara said holding out her arms.



"How could I forget that?" Willow said as she moved into Tara's embrace. After a moment she moved to pull away, but Tara pulled her back and whispered in her ear.



"I hope you enjoyed the view in the mirror."



"I....I...."



"Bye," Tara said smiling and holding the door open for a flabbergaseted Willow. "See you at seven thirty," she said as Willow walked out the door. Tara shut the door behind her and laughed. On the other side of the door Willow just stood there with her mouth open wondering what just happened.



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"Bloodsuckers. They kill by sucking blood. Take it easy, Joan." Anya (Tabula Rasa)

"I've seen honest faces. They usually come attached to liars." Willow (The Initiative)

[Drakkenfyre]

Hey, sorry for my lateness in posting this. I just caught up on all my reading. I just wanted to say, I think this is just wonderful. Their shyness, their awkwardness, their love. All present and so well written. Thank you for this. It made me smile. Please do continue.

"In my world there are people in chains and we ride them like ponies."

[snuggle79]

ooh, i love everything about this fic. It is so well written!! Can't wait to see how the big meeting will be..

Oh baby, want me to rub your tummy? She likes it when I ... stop explaining things.

Hi, um Tara..how are you? well...I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time...for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?


Looking down and hungry for your love, but no way to feed it...

[jdcioffi]

Holy sh- ... that was great ... the whole mirror thing. I love your Tara ... I love Tara, but I really love your Tara.



She's mature, but not above play time ... I like that. (And I like that she forced Willow to say "I'm gay").



JD

"I smell the smelly smell of something that smells smelly!" (SpongeBob Squarepants)

[witchbitchwillow]

heya,



yayyayayya, that update was sooo good. i love the whole willow looking in the mirror i mean who wouldnt lol. write more.



love ellie x x x x

*thats me as a vampire im so evil and skanky and i think im kinda gay*

*no candles? well i brought one its extra flamey!*

Edited by: witchbitchwillow at: 5/16/02 1:23:49 pm

[xita]

oh i think tara knew exactly what willow would see when she turned around. I am enjoying the story, thank you!

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"Everything is turning out so dark..."

"No, it's okay. Lost is good. Willow and I always know how to find each other!"

[tommo]

Heh, yes Xita. I think Tara was more vixeny than shy in this part.



I'm enjoying this; it's very sweet and tentative, just like I imagine the early days of their relationship to be. Lovely stuff.

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"Smut now." - Dark Madfic Tommo

[LeatherQueen]

Oh! Great update! Loved the sly, naughty Tara we got a glimpse of in this part.

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"But when they're playing your song on the jukebox in Hell, you might as well dance." - K. Simpson


"Futile... like a FOX, baby!" - Tara in The Late Shift by wiccachica

[pikescoob]

Willow's thoughts were just so cute....and the mirror thing made me giggle....great update!!



--Michelle

[AutumnT]

Hey, thanks for this.



I'm all about the fic now.

Autumn

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Well, the reindeer part was nice...

[The Rose24]

This is beautiful.

Quote:

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I hope you enjoyed your view in the mirror.

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This is classic!!!

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.

Tara: Willow, I got so lost.
Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

Willow: Hi, um Tara. I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

[Mainer]

Title: The Outing

Rating: PG-13

Disclaimer: All characters belong to Joss Whedon.





Part Eight A:



The Bronze was packed filled with couples dancing and people standing around talking. It was just a typical Saturday night in Sunnydale. Among the crowd, sitting at a table, was the scooby gang minus one couple. Buffy and Riley sat opposite Anya and Xander at the round table, the atmosphere around them uncomfortably silent.



"I don't get it," Anya said finally breaking the silence. "Why are we here so early? Xander and I could have had sex two more times, maybe three depending on if he was having a good night or a bad night. Sometimes he only lasts a few minutes." Buffy and Riley shared and amused look and Xander did his best to look sternly at Anya.



"To answer your question," Buffy said coming to Xander's rescue, "I thought we should have a plan. You know so nobody acts weird around Willow. I think it's important we appear a hundred and ten percent supportive. I don't want her to think we're wigged."



"What shouldn't we do?" Xander asked.



"I'm not gonna give you a list," Buffy said. "Just don't act any different. Pretend Tara's a guy."



"That might be easier than you think," Anya said. "We haven't seen her up close."



"No. Long hair, big boobs," Xander said.



"How do you know that?" Buffy asked. "We only saw her for a second from a distance."



"I have really good eyesight?" Xander said hopefully.



"When it comes to breasts," Anya added. "Maybe we could pretend Willow was a boy, she has no boobs."



"That was just a bad idea," Buffy said. "No boys, just act natural. Except for you Anya. You act like a normal human."



"Xander are you gonna let her talk to me that way?"



"I'll take care of this," Xander said. "Buffy, that was uncalled for. You owe Anya and apology. I don't want to get physical with you, but if I have to, I will."



"You're right. Anya, I'm sorry. I'm just anxious and nervous and I took it out on you," Buffy said. "I'm afraid I'm going to say something really stupid when they get here, and then Willow will be mad at me."



"Well, relax," Xander said. "Saying stupid things is my job."



"I hate to break it to you guys, but you're already acting different," Riley said.



"What do you mean?" Xander asked.



"You're having a meeting to plan how you're going to act when your best friend gets here. How often did you do this before you found out Willow was gay?"



"Riley, you are so right. We are sucky friends," Buffy said.



"No, you're not sucky friends," Riley said putting his arms around her. "Just remember she's the same Willow she always was."



"You're right. She'll always be Willow," Xander said.



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"Bloodsuckers. They kill by sucking blood. Take it easy, Joan." Anya (Tabula Rasa)

"I've seen honest faces. They usually come attached to liars." Willow (The Initiative)

[tommo]

"She'll always be Willow."



Thank you for that. Now, will someone get their arse over to ME and tell them?

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"Smut now." - Dark Madfic Tommo

[witchbitchwillow]

awwww, great update! he he he i love anya so much, always has sex on the brain lol.



love ellie x x x x

*thats me as a vampire im so evil and skanky and i think im kinda gay*

*no candles? well i brought one its extra flamey!*

Edited by: witchbitchwillow at: 5/17/02 6:47:10 am