New Fic: There You Are

[pacou]

Yeah Im really looking forward what happens next!

Great update and I dont think it was too short, it was perfect size!

Oh and loved the "Willow chewing on her thumb" scene, too. Its a nice picture.



Rock on!



-Viv-

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TARA: Willow, you are using too much magic. What do you want me to do, just, just sit back and keep my mouth shut?
WILLOW: Well, that'd be a good start.
TARA: If I didn't love you so damn much I would!

[BethanyB3]

Hey DW,

Loved the update. Finally read it this morning, 'cause I'm such a dork I forgot that you were posting back to the previous post & looked forward. Still trust such a muddlehead?

Anyway, what can I say it was a 21st/13th century hoot. Willow's ongoing stream of conscience commentary cracked me up time & again. My favorites were "Go 13th century me!....take notes (so Willow) & ...Eew suggestive much.". Those & Willow trying to convey thoughts to her dream self.

Ghaena or the image hidden beneath, was there at her birth, ok curious now. Look forward (as always) to seeing the paths your mind takes.

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"Love from one being to another can only be that two solitudes come nearer, recognize & protect & comfort each other." ~ Elizabeth Comber (Han Su[/b]

[Loco2]

cool, your 'puter's resurrected! don't you just love it when that happens?



um...i don't actually have an update to send yet, but it's very good to know that when i do you will be there



steph

"Dr. Becker, have you seen the skeleton?" "What do you think I am, a skeleton thief? You want to search me?!"
"Oh, bugger off, you BROLLY!" - Anya to Giles on his use of the english language
"We'll all be a lot happier without the constant whining....Mom, Buffy, Tara, Waah" - DMW to Dawn

[DarkWiccan]

Just buzzing in to say that there should be an update tomorrow.



Wouldn't you know it. I get the puter fixed and then just as I sit down to finish on the last bit of the mini update, my life gets "butt-nuts crazy" (To quote my friend Tim).



But, the storm has settled and the debris mostly cleaned up, so...



Update tomorrow at some point.



Cheers!

DW

"Promise me you'll never be linear." "On my trout."

[Jennpurr]

Ooooh, upydate tom. I so can't wait. Still wondering when we're gonna get some more, witchy lovin, DW. Hee...



OH... I finally was able to read your other fic, girl. WOW... that WAS different, but I did enjoy it. That was some idea you had there. Cool! I don't know what I would do if that happened to me though.



Thanks, girl,

Jen



Edited: Cause I can't seem to spell tonight. Still too wired with excitement.

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Melissa Etheridge on 8/10/02, in The Woodlands, TX

"I've been to everyone of Melissa Etheridge's concerts! ... No, really, I have!"
"THAT, is a bat! ... Hey, does it have a ticket? ... It doesn't have a ticket!"

Edited by: Jennpurr at: 8/11/02 12:11:03 am

[Loco2]

hmm...i checked at wiccanways for that fic of yours...couldn't find it....is it new? um...off to check again...

"I'm not gay - I'm just Trevor's bitch." - some drunken guy about his sexuality
"Oh, bugger off, you BROLLY!" - Anya to Giles on his use of the english language
"We'll all be a lot happier without the constant whining....Mom, Buffy, Tara, Waah" - DMW to Dawn

[Miss1234Kitty]

That was weird. But yay, update good! That'll teach me to go on holiday - I miss updates. I thought Willow didn't like beer, though?



Gem

Tara: There's just so much to work through... and can you just be kissing me now?

[nika]

Terrific up-date! I'm having trouble lately keeping up with all the fics. So much W/T goodness and so little time.

But one of the fics I'm not letting out of my sight is yours, I'm really enjoying how you write the girls and the suspense is really goooood.

[VampNo12]

Poor Willow not only suffering from the effects of her dream, but then the added pain that her "engorged" breasts are causing her (although for some reason the visual is making me ) makes me feel for her. Looking forward to once Willow calms enough to express her milk, and thus be in a better frame of mind, she can share her dream with Tara. And hopefully together they can try and figure out what bearing this dream has to the well-fare of their family in the present. Can't wait for the next part!

Edited by: VampNo12  at: 8/11/02 3:55:16 pm

[Jennpurr]

Awwww, poor Willow. WOW... I can just imagine what she must be feeling like. OUCH!!! Poor thing. I'm still curious as to why she had that dream, if it's supposed to mean something or not. I know you'll probably get into that later, so I'm trying to be patient.



I can't wait for more, DW. Thank you for the update. I hope Will, will be okay.



Jen

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Quotes from Melissa Etheridge on 8/10/02, in The Woodlands, TX

"I've been to every, one of Melissa Etheridge's concerts! ... No, really, I have!"
"THAT, is a bat! ... Hey, does it have a ticket? ... It doesn't have a ticket!"

[Tulipp]

I loved the connection of the dream to the engorged breasts. As I look back on this story, I see how motherhood--Tara's and Willow's really figures in the imagery and the emotions. This is particularly true for Willow, right? She has always had some ambivalence about actually giving birth, and as much as she loves her children, etc., it makes sense that she would experience this particular pain as knives. Wow.

[xita]

Oh that dream, weird. I say don't ignore dreams, but willow's breasts Poor Willow.

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Childie -"Not all girls are raving bloody lesbians, you know!"

George - "That's a misfortune of which I am perfectly well aware."

The Killing of Sister George

[Lonewolf22]

DarkWiccan: Great update, I just finished reading the rest of the update, that was really weird, first the dream and then Willow's breasts growing to three time their normal size, I really hope that she will be OK I really hate to see Willow in pain. And again you leave us with questions; Who did Ghaena kill in Willow's dream? What is the deal with Willow's hair? I'm dying to find out? I can't wait to read more.



Lonewolf

[saphire tear]

You are such a fab writer!

[DarkWiccan]

K



So I sat down to finish out the next bit of this little saga.. when... RL smacked be upside the head like a semitruck on steroids.



Nothing bad... honestly. Just stuff that needs my full attention.



I SWEAR by all that is W/T Goodness that I will have the next update up before the end of next week.



Please be patient with me.



I haven't forgotten about this fic.



I love you all and thank you for your generous support.



Cheers

DW

"Promise me you'll never be linear." "On my trout."

Edited by: DarkWiccan at: 8/18/02 11:28:23 am

[mollyig]

We won't kill you. If we kill you we won't get more of this wonderful story.



So don't worry about it, we'll be here waiting whenever you manage to update!

Adding up the total of a love that's true, multiply life by the power of two
Indigo Girls

[Murasaki S]

Just caught up with the micro mini update. Great stuff as usual. Particularly liked the way you tied Willow's dream to reality

Good luck with RL!

[Loco2]

yes - the tying was very good



and, of course - poor willow

"I'm not gay - I'm just Trevor's bitch." - some drunken guy about his sexuality
"Oh, bugger off, you BROLLY!" - Anya to Giles on his use of the english language
"We'll all be a lot happier without the constant whining....Mom, Buffy, Tara, Waah" - DMW to Dawn

[DarkWiccan]

Yes.. here is is folks!! HUZZAH!!!





Previously in TYA:



From out of the shadows behind her, a lone figure in long robes stepped out, sword drawn. Willow spun to face her, racing her weapon. They both stood stock still, each blade held to the other’s neck. Woa! Thought Willow, It’s Ghaena… sneaking up on me… with a sword. Um… well looks like I’m just along for the ride now. Go thirteenth century me! Kick some butt! This dream is probably important. I wonder if I should take notes…



Ghaena looked down at her feet and chuckled.



She’s laughing? Why is she laughing? That can’t be good.



“You are very clever, but for a mercenary, far too trusting.” The priestess stated, appearing to rub warmth into her boot-covered calves. “You should never have lowered your blade in the first.”



Okay, me. Probably a good time to demonstrate some kick-ass fighting skills! Willow thought nervously.



The mercenary swiftly moved to draw her weapon, but Ghaena was too fast, drawing a dagger from each boot, and throwing them at Willow.



NO!!



They landed striking her square in the chest and the impact knocking her off her feet. As she fell back Willow cried out in pain and anguish.



“Tara!!”



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Tara tried to clear her fog-filled brain, “Willow? What's wrong?”



“My chest! There are knives in my chest!”



“Sh. Try and stay calm.” Tara soothed again, “Honey, your breasts are engorged. That's why you're in so much pain. “



“Okay”, said Tara, “Alright, just stay there. I’ll get the heating pad. That should soothe some of the pain and help you to relax a little.” She started to rise from the bed.



“Don’t leave me!” Willow pleaded, grasping at Tara’s arm.



“It’s only for a moment”, Tara promised, “I’ll be right back.”



Willow relented and let her wife go, her mind still racing with pain and the memory of her dream.



And now continuing with our next episode....

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Willow sat at the breakfast table the next day shifting uncomfortably in her seat. She was exhausted from the previous night’s debacle. Her breasts were sore and the nipples bruised from the unrelenting suction of the breast pump they had used to relieve her of the painful engorgement. Sadly, all of the milk had to be disposed of because of Willow’s partaking of alcohol the night before. Enough milk for three feedings, gone.



But more upsetting to her than her current physical state was the images from the nightmare that had woken her from her sleep. She had told Tara some of what she had seen, and the blonde was understandably distressed.



When Willow stated that she still wanted to talk with Ghaena, Tara insisted that she not go alone. Willow agreed.



The redhead watched her beloved wife rush about the kitchen getting Emily’s lunch ready for school while at the same time cooking breakfast for both herself and Willow. Suddenly, Willow’s heart swelled with love while her mind filled with awe that this remarkable, beautiful, amazing woman was hers and that she, in turn, was the blonde’s as well.



“I love you”, her voice filled with so much sincerity it came close to breaking with emotion.



Tara turned from her tasks and caught Willow by the eye and seeing the utter, breathtaking love filling the green orbs, responded with equal truth, “I love you, too.”



They held each other in their eyes for a moment, before Tara smiled shyly and went back to her work.



These moments were not uncommon, and yet were still wonderfully surprising and refreshing when they occurred. They both knew full well that they could not live with out one another for they were each other’s souls and only complete when paired together.



“When are you expecting Ghaena?” Tara asked as she wiped down the counter.



“After we get back from taking Emily to school”, Willow replied.



“We should probably get going, then”, said Tara, turning as she called out to her eldest daughter, “Emily! Breakfast!”



“Coming, Mommy!” the little girl called from down the hall.



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The two women held hands as Tara pushed Michelle in the stroller and Emily skipped ahead in front of them. Occasionally the small redhead would turn and walk backwards long enough to tell her parents something exciting about the coming school day, or of things that had happened the day before. Willow and Tara smiled, keenly interested in what their daughter had to say, at the same time finding her enthusiasm adorable if a little bit overbearing. But seeing Emily excited about her scholastics was more than enough compensation for the older pair’s occasional exhaustion.



As they approached the school grounds, an image in the distance of the campus caused Emily to shriek with joy. Willow and Tara jumped slightly at the sound, but then relaxed as they saw to whom Emily was indicating.



“There’s Carrie!” she said, standing on her tip-toes to wave at her friend. Carrie noticed her and waved in return. Emily looked to her Mommy a little anxiously, “Did you pack the extra sandwich, Mommy?”



“Yes, Emily, I did”, Tara confirmed, “but this is only a once in a while thing, okay? Carrie’s mommy works hard to make her sandwiches so Carrie should be grateful enough to eat them.”



Emily nodded solemnly.



“Even if they aren’t as good as mine”, Tara added, a wicked glint in her eye. Willow gave her a playful look of reproach.



“You’d better get going now, baby girl”, said Willow, “Don’t want to be late for class.”



“Okay, Mama”, Emily replied, running into Willow’s open arms for a big hug. She then turned to her Mommy who was kneeling down to her eye-level, pointing her index finger in Emily’s direction, a jokingly serious look on her face. Emily matched Tara’s look and likewise extended her index finger reaching out and touching hers to the tip of her Mommy’s.



“Beeee Goooood”, they said at the same time, mimicking E.T. Tara then poked Emily in the stomach, causing the little girl to giggle. Standing, Tara kissed her eldest lightly on the nose, and then swatted her bottom, sending her off in Carrie’s direction.



“Have a good day!” Tara called after her. “We’ll be here at two-thirty!”



Emily waved back at them to show that she had heard and then continued racing over to Carrie’s side so that Emily could discreetly pass her the secret sandwich.

Willow and Tara both chuckled as they watched the pair’s fumbled attempts at being sly. They turned themselves and the stroller to go but stopped when they saw two familiar faces in deep conversation across the parking lot.



The married couple shared a quick glance, silently deciding to confront the situation. As they neared the talking pair, they were able to catch the tail end of the dialogue”



“….thing not right about that family”, Pat was saying to Mrs. Henckle. “I just don’t see how any child can be raised in such an unhealthy environment.”



Mrs. Henckle glanced quickly in Willow and Tara’s direction before turning her attention back to Patricia.



“And then there was that strange business with the cake…”, the PTA president went on.



“Patricia!” The teacher said, cutting her off. “What goes on in their home is none of your business. Nor mine either. All I know is that their daughter is the finest student I have and I am sure that it is a direct result of the so-called ‘unhealthy environment’ in which she is raised. Her parents are supportive, caring individuals… and here they are now…” she finished as Willow and Tara finished their approach. “Good morning Mrs.’ Rosenberg-Maclay. How are you both today?”



“Fine, thank you, Mrs. Henckle”, Willow smiled, sending a venomous look in the other woman’s direction. “Good morning, Pat.”



Patricia Horton straightened as though she had been struck upside the head. She looked every other direction but at the blonde and redhead. “Good morning”, she stiffly replied. “If you’ll excuse me I have some business at home to attend to.”



“Yes, of course”, Tara grinned, speaking through her teeth. Pat made a hasty retreat to her small sedan, practically peeling out of the parking lot.



“I’m sorry”, said Mrs. Henckle, shaking her head. “Pat Horton is… excuse me for saying so, but she is a boil on the butt of humanity.”



The three women broke down into a loud fit of laughter. Willow laughed, looking into Tara’s eyes, and then turning and looking into Mrs. Henckle’s as well. Suddenly, something caused her to grab at her chest in pain.



“Ah”, she exhaled, grasping at her shirt.



“Will?” Tara asked, wrapping her arm around her wife’s shoulders to support her.



“Mrs. Rosenberg?” Mrs. Henckle gasped, equally distressed, stepping forward and helping Willow to sit on a parking space divider. “Um…Maclay”, she added weakly as an after thought.



“I’m okay”, Willow assured them both, taking a few deep breaths. “Just a flashback to last night I think.”



The teacher regarded Tara curiously.



“We...uh... had a rough night with the baby”, the blonde offered lamely by way of explanation.



“Oh”, Mrs. Henckle replied, clearly befuddled. “Are you alright? Can I get you anything?”



“No”, stated Willow, moving to stand with Tara’s aide. “I’m fine. We should get home, I think.”



“Of course”, said the teacher, “This is my free period. I could give you a ride home.”



“No car seat”, Willow answered, indicating Michelle.



“Right”, said Mrs. Henckle, shaking her head apologetically, “I forgot. Will you be okay to walk?”



“I think so”, the hacker nodded.



“Alright”, the teacher said, resigned now to not helping. “I’d better get inside then. I hope you feel better.”



“Thanks” said the redhead as she and Tara turned to go.



“Are you okay”, she blonde asked softly, wrapping her right arm around Willow’s waist.



“Yeah, I think maybe the laughing aggravated the soreness”, Willow replied, before looking over her shoulder at the retreating figure of Emily’s teacher. “I think.”



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TBC...

Edited by: DarkWiccan at: 8/22/02 10:10:14 pm

[The Rose24]

Yaaaayyyy DW!!! Thanks for an update.



Who wants to slap Pat?!!!!! *raises hand enthusiastically*

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.

Tara: Willow, I got so lost.
Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

Willow: Hi, um Tara. I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

[Jennpurr]

Oooh, update! Update!! Thanks girl.



You know, can you write me into your fic for say, 2 seconds some how, so I can slap Pat across the face or something. Grrr... Damn her! I really don't like people like that. I'm not going to use profanity, even though I want to, I will not go there. But, I would still love to slap her. Think you can arrange it, girl?



Anyway, this was an interesting update, despite Pat's ugly comments. I just love Willow and Tara as moms. They are so cute with Emily and Emily's just darling.



What's up with Willow's last statement? "I think." Curious about that. Probably was just from the laughing; I'm sure she's right.



Oooh, can't wait for more.

Take care, girl,

Jen

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"Oh, man. I wish I WAS a lesbian. I would get laid every night for the rest of my life." ~ Amber Benson

[LeatherQueen]

Ooh, great update! And nice parting shots to Pat, too.



Very interesting with Willow's continued chest pains. Can't wait for the talk with Ghaena.

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"But when they're playing your song on the jukebox in Hell, you might as well dance." - K. Simpson


"Futile... like a FOX, baby!" - Tara in The Late Shift by wiccachica

[DarkWiccan]

***Rose24 and Jennpurr -- It's good to be back. Don't worry guys, Pat will get her come-uppance. And Jen, can I just say (again) that I LOVE your avatar!



Le Sigh



Cheers

DW

"Promise me you'll never be linear." "On my trout."

[Jennpurr]

You can say that all you want, hon. Thank you. Glad you still like it. It is rather touching, isn't it? Mmmm...



Glad to hear Pat will get what's coming to her.



Thanks for the update, DW. OH... you can call me Jen here, it's okay.



Jen

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"Oh, man. I wish I WAS a lesbian. I would get laid every night for the rest of my life." ~ Amber Benson

Edited by: Jennpurr at: 8/22/02 11:01:21 pm

[DarkWiccan]

Sorry, LeatherQueen... we must have posted at the same moment. Yes, more to come regarding Willow's flashback.



Jen, I thought I called you Jen, Jen. Oh well, Jen.. from now I shall call you Jen.



So...I'm thinking perhaps a ...oh... I dunno... a love scene maybe in the next update... I'll have to see...



But I won't write it if I suddenly get a stampede of people chanting for smut. Call me hoity-toity or what not... but... I don't like calling it smut. It makes me feel cheap. I call it a love scene b/c they are in love and communicating that love with their bodies and souls.



SO.. ya'll can chant for a love scene... but not for smut...



Humor me... if you don't mind



Cheers and Love Scenes

DW

"Promise me you'll never be linear." "On my trout."

[tiredsoul]

Great update, as always. I'm looking forward to Pat getting her due.



Love Scene . . . Love Scene . . . Love Scene . . . Love Scene



There's my chant

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"That was just rude. Now I forget what I was saying."

[Lonewolf22]

DarkWiccan: Great update, it was totally worth the wait, I absolutely LOVED Willow's "I love you" to Tara in the kitchen, also the "I love you too" from Tara to Willow, you can just feel the love that they have for each other, it is SO amazing.



Also, loved the E.T. thing that Tara and Emily did, AWWWW, just so cute, and the sandwich thing was really funny. I simply can't wait for Pat to get whats coming to her, who is she to judge.



I really hope that Willow is OK, like I always say I hate to see Willow in any pain, and again you leave us with questions: Was it only the laughter that caused Willow the pain? Or does it have something to do with Mrs. Henkle? I can't wait to read more.



Lonewolf



Edited to add: I just read what you wrote about the love scene, so here goes: LOVE SCENE.

Edited by: Lonewolf22 at: 8/22/02 11:34:10 pm

[Jennpurr]

Oh, you know what, DW? I totally forgot to mention what Lonewolf mentioned. Willow telling Tara she loved her. That was just... tenderly, hopelessly, gosh darn, beautiful. Loved it, girl.



Hey, don't worry about it. I was just letting you know you could call me Jen.



Oooh, a love scene?? You know, I prefer it to be called that, too. It's a much more beautiful use of words. Nothing wrong with the other, it just says more. So...



Love scene!... Love scene!... Love scene!... Love scene!



How's that?? If you need more, I'll do more.



Jen

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"Oh, man. I wish I WAS a lesbian. I would get laid every night for the rest of my life." ~ Amber Benson

Edited by: Jennpurr at: 8/22/02 11:40:53 pm

[mollyig]

That was a lovely moment, when they proclaimed how they loved each other. In the midst of banal morning activities, it was so very poignant.



Emily so excited about school - she's so like Willow. Bless her, she's adorable.



I really don't like that Pat person. Poor Carrie.



Maybe I'm just naturally suspicious, but Mrs Henckle coming back to teach Emily seems a bit off. But I freely admit that I get paranoid easily.



Willow's dream first off, and the after-effects are very worrying.



Brilliant update DW. Thanks muchly!

Adding up the total of a love that's true, multiply life by the power of two
Indigo Girls

[VampNo12]

DW glad to see another wonderful update! I loved the scene in the kitchen between W&T it just crystallized so well the depth of their love/connection, and I liked how this depth was further communicated by not having to utter a single word, but rather simply gazing into each others eyes (truly a beautiful moment). Again Emily is too adorable for words, and I enjoyed the ET moment between Emily and Tara. And I got a kick out of the discussion about why making an extra sandwich shouldn't become routine in deference to Carrie's mother, Tara still got a jab in by saying, ("Even if they aren't as good as mine".) Go Tara speak the truth!



I am agreement that their needs to be "pay-back"/"smackdown" of Pat, her bigoted comments make me so ! I am still intrigued with Mrs. Henckle (ie she seems more than she appears to be), and in this regard I found curious Willow's last comment (connection to her pain) as she is watching the teacher leave. Can't wait for the next part!



By the way I am jumping on the bandwagon for a love scene in the next part. My new mantra is love scene, love scene and !

Edited by: VampNo12  at: 8/23/02 1:28:04 am