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Re: ...

Postby chilled monkey » Thu Apr 03, 2003 8:40 am

You like Red Dwarf? Cool, so do I.



Very exciting update. Hopefully in the next part, we'll find out what stopped Tara from kissing Willow, and (more importantly) we will get to see them kiss!

chilled monkey
 


Re: Fic: TARA

Postby Artemis » Thu Apr 03, 2003 9:58 am

Thanks all :)



TemperedCynic: Yeah, I like the tanks :) Aside from my fondness for the poor, silly things (well, they tended to be a bit Keystone Kops in Tron, knocking each other off bridges and so on), I can't quite figure out where that little battle came from - my plan was to go straight from the chase to jumping into the recogniser. But Tara insisted I put some tanks in her way, so she could show off.



And yes, Willow's abilities do tend to manifest most powerfully when she's doing it for Tara's sake. This is a trend that will continue.



MellindraX: It's okay, you don't have to be too patient - I write fast at times :)



chilled monkey: I adore Red Dwarf - I can quote it something wicked, too. Even to the point where, at times, I reference it without realising. I was describing the end of this story to my programmer friend the other day, and he pointed out that one little bit reminded him of a joke from Red Dwarf... you might recognise it when you see it.

Artemis
 


Fic: TARA (chapter 12)

Postby Artemis » Thu Apr 03, 2003 10:07 am

TARA



Author: Chris Cook

Rating: PG

Summary: Cycorp programmer Willow Rosenberg knows her boss is up to no good - but can she break into the impenetrable Echelon system to prove it?

Spoilers: Pretty much none.

Copyright: Based on characters from 'Buffy The Vampire Slayer', created by Joss Whedon and his talented minionators, and 'Tron' created by Steven Lisberger. All original material is copyright 2003 Chris Cook.

Feedback: Please. Here, or to alia@netspace.net.au



Note: I'm really not sure what to rate this one, but I'm going with PG, because Star Trek gets away with it whenever they show aliens getting all orgasmic in some novel fashion that doesn't involve getting their clothes off. If the notion of hot program-on-program action, that doesn't exactly work like the human version, bothers you, read no further.



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Chapter Twelve

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Sark stared down at the Game Grid beneath his Command Carrier, ignoring the voices of his menial programs delivering their reports. Squadrons of recognisers were streaming out into the open system as fast as the simulation bays in the Game Grid could generate them, but it was too late - the renegades had had all the time they would need to go to ground, in any one of the tens of thousands of isolated memory areas in the system. It would still be ten millicycles before the Carrier itself would be ready to move through the open system.



"Commander," said one of the menials urgently, "transmission incoming." Sark had already felt the approach of Echelon's power. Even the thin strand of communication that now leapt from the horizon into the Carrier's antenna was enough to tug on the power within Sark, the reminder that he was not, and could never be, free of his master. He nodded and crossed the deck to his communications port. The light surrounded him and created Echelon's massive face before him.



"Deliver report," it ordered.



"Two programs escaped the Grid," said Sark, determined to get this over with. "The counter-security program Tara... and the user Willow." He braced himself, expecting to feel the pain at any moment. It didn't come.



"Pursue and recover," rumbled Echelon.



"Pursuit is underway," reported Sark slowly, still hesitant. "All available recogniser and hunter-killer simulations are being generated and deployed. Orders have been dispatched to open system operatives."



"Instruct hunter-killers to target the counter-security program only," said Echelon. "Assign recognisers to recover the user."



"My orders have specified intact return of the renegades as a priority," offered Sark cautiously. "They will use terminal force only in the event that-"



"The user must not be terminated!" thundered Echelon. Sark staggered in pain as the giant face's energy surged to blinding intensity.



"The user will be recovered intact," he shouted desperately. The light faded back to a manageable level, and the pain receded.



"The contents of her code are worth more than every system in existence," warned Echelon, "do not fail me. She must be recovered and broken. Acknowledge."



"Acknowledge. And Tara?" asked Sark. Echelon was silent for a moment.



"Recovery is to be attempted," it said at last, "provided recovery of the user is not impeded. Terminate if necessary. End of line."



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Willow awoke to unfamiliar surroundings. Her first thought, which caused her to start as consciousness returned, was that she was no longer cradled in Tara's lap, but a gentle hand on her brow soothed her of that worry as soon as she moved.



"Are you functioning better?" asked Tara, leaning over her. Willow stifled a giggle, hearing what to her was such formal language, spoken with such tender care.



"I'm fine," she said softly, "I feel... I feel really good. Where are we?"



Tara helped her sit up, and Willow looked around. They were in a cave, or a chamber of some sort, geometric in design but with a kind of natural fluidity to its shape, as if it had been slowly eroded out by water over centuries, and then someone had carved all the walls into flat surfaces. Not far from where she was sitting was a small pool of something light and silvery that rippled and shimmered like water.



"We're safe," said Tara, "we're in a power outlet. I hid the recogniser outside. It'll be millicycles before any search can get this far, we don't have to hurry. I thought we should both rest while we can... and figure out what to do next." She and Willow both stood up, and Willow moved over to the almost-water, staring at it.



"Is that... power?" she asked. Tara came to stand beside her.



"It's an undesignated outlet," she explained, "you get them sometimes in the open system. You've never seen one before?"



"I didn't get out much before they brought me to the Grid," said Willow, hoping Tara wouldn't think this somehow suspicious. She really had no idea how much programs knew about their environment.



"You should take it," said Tara. "I gave you some while you were recovering, but I didn't want to give you too much until you woke up, I wasn't sure whether your allocation subroutines were fully functional." She took her data disc off her back and scooped up some of the power. Even though the disc didn't have edges, the power only ran off a little when she drew it back and handed it to Willow. Willow dipped a finger into it - it was light and fluffy, like soap bubbles only smoother. She tentatively scooped up a tiny piece of it and - moving slowly, just in case she had reached the wrong assumption about how this was done, but Tara just smiled - tasted it. It was chilly but invigorating - she felt it course through her like a cold drink, and saw the yellow tracery on her arms brighten with new energy.



"Take as much as you like," said Tara, "I've already had enough." Willow glanced at her, and noted that the green lines covering her were indeed glowing brighter than she had so far seen. She brought the disc to her lips and tilted it up, drinking in the energy in one smooth gulp. The feeling of vitality that ran through her was like nothing else.



"Wow that's good," she mused. Tara turned to smile at her, but then her smile faltered.



"Willow, are you- what's wrong?" she said, her voice slightly panicky.



"Nothing's wrong," she said, frowning to herself - had she done something wrong? Was it dangerous to gulp down a whole disc-full of power all at once? She *felt* wonderful. "Is it?" she asked, trying to understand Tara's distress.



"I don't..." Tara trailed off, her eyes darting over Willow's body. Willow looked down at herself, and gasped as she saw patches of her yellow tracery turning green. As she watched the colour spread over her, out from her torso, along her arms and legs, until finally she was exactly as she had been when she first arrived in the system. She looked up again at Tara, whose expression had changed from concern to confusion.



"I'm fine," she said quickly, "I'm, uh, functioning perfectly. Aren't I?" she asked. Tara took a step closer and ran her fingers along the tracery on Willow's arm.



"Y-you're... you *are* like me," she whispered. She gently took Willow's hand in hers, and ran the fingertips of her other hand over the patterns on her arm.



"I guess I am," said Willow. Tara jumped slightly at the sound and drew back her fingertips, but she kept hold of Willow's hand.



"I've never seen another program like me before," she said quietly, as if afraid to disturb the moment. "I thought I was the only one." She inhaled sharply, as if she'd just thought of something, and after a moment tore her gaze away from Willow's tracery to look her in the eye.



"D-do you," she began, then halted and started again. "I have... parts of me... You should know this in any case," she interrupted herself, "there are elements of me that aren't part of my core code. Parts of me - feelings, thoughts... that I don't think our user gave me. When I... experience new things, they affect my decisions, how I behave. I always thought I was malfunctioning somehow..."



"No!" said Willow automatically. "No, you're not, you're..." she paused to gather her thoughts, and to make sure she didn't end up saying too much. "I think you're exactly what our user would want you to be. You're not malfunctioning, you're... special."



Tara glanced away for a moment, composing herself, then looked back and held Willow's gaze steadily.



"Before, in the recogniser," she began, "I had... I... you're not a paired program?" Willow shook her head, wondering. Tara seemed to relax a little. "Have you ever seen a program pair together?" she asked. Again Willow shook her head - all she knew about pairs was Verizen, his expression like a haunted man as he described his partner being de-rezzed.



"Together a pair is... complete," Tara explained. "Their functions are enhanced, the exchange of data between them creates a, a cycle, a partial merging. They sometimes call it unity. It's how they're meant to be. It's how they're created, pairs can only be created by users. But," she lowered her voice, as if confessing a tightly-guarded secret, "I feel as if I should be... a-as if you and I are a unity." Tara paused, but drew breath to speak again before Willow had the chance to form a coherent thoughts.



"But I knew you couldn't," she went on, "even though I, part of me, believed it, it was an irrational conclusion. No program can become anything they're not created to be, so I knew I was in error. Unless..." she paused again, her gaze so intense that Willow couldn't have even moved, if she'd wanted to.



"I-if you're like me..." Tara said at last. "Are you? Like me?"



"I am," said Willow simply. She couldn't think of what else to say, and when Tara took the last fraction of a step forward to her, she couldn't think of what else to do but let herself fall into her embrace. As Tara's hand gently held the back her neck, Willow opened her lips, inviting the kiss. Finally their lips touched, and their eyes closed.



For a moment Willow was slightly confused, as Tara didn't move her lips at all - their lips were touching, but not exactly kissing. But then, as Tara leaned the last fraction and her forehead touched Willow's, a starburst went off in her head and she stopped thinking rational thoughts. She could feel Tara's body pressed against hers, but behind her closed eyelids - she saw Tara there as well, outlined in energy, infinitely complex and beautiful, a galaxy of lights. Brilliant as the aurora borealis, unfathomable as the night sky, energetic as a blazing fire. By instinct alone, for there was no way she could think under the barrage of stimulation, Willow's arms closed around Tara in a fierce embrace, which Tara returned.



Willow felt her palms tingling, then the energy flowing out from her hands - not such a tremendous flow as when she had healed Tara, but somehow much more intense. The instant it happened her inner vision doubled, and she saw two galaxies of energy, different but somehow in tune with each other. The rush of feeling, which was already almost unbearably sensual, gained a surging undercurrent that was downright sexual. A fraction of a second later Tara near-collapsed into Willow's arms, her legs simply folding beneath her. Their foreheads parted, the contact broke, and Willow was suddenly terrified as she stopped Tara from falling.



"Are you alright?" she whispered urgently, lowering herself and Tara to the ground, "Did I do something wrong? Please, Tara, you're-" Tara's eyes fluttered open, and she raised a trembling hand to Willow's neck, pulling her close again.



"Again," she murmured, gulping a breath of air. Willow's relief made her giddy as she closed the distance between them again, and this time - with Tara blissfully dazed - Willow kissed her properly. For just a fraction of a second Tara's lips were still, then she responded as if by instinct, and the connection between them blossomed. Energy flowed through Willow's hands - it seemed as if she was generating pleasure like an electric current, pouring it directly into Tara, who writhed beneath her, moaning and sighing into Willow's kiss, wrapping her arms and legs around her, pressing every available part of her body against her. And everything she gave Tara was reflected back, so that Willow herself was quickly overcome, and couldn't tell who was giving and who was receiving anymore. Willow felt a surge of power building inside herself - or maybe inside Tara, she couldn't tell - and both cried out as it exploded through them and between them.



"How did you do that?" Tara breathed, after a long time when neither she nor Willow could do anything but lie together, legs tangled, Willow's head nestled against Tara's neck.



"I don't know," murmured Willow, her lips tickling Tara's throat as she spoke. "Did you feel... it was good, wasn't it?" She felt a reassuring vibration in Tara's throat as she laughed quietly.



"It was perfect," Tara laughed. "It was... more than opening to each other, I became part of you... I felt you become part of me. As if we were created in unity. Willow... Willow," she repeated, just enjoying the sound of it. "How did our user make you so perfect?"



"Just like you," answered Willow, feeling a contentment that was almost like being sleepy. But as she lay with Tara, doubts coiled in her mind. She *was* Tara's user - how might Tara react, if she found out? What would she think - how would their bond change? Willow wondered how she would feel, if she found out she was in love with her creator, and was frightened to realise that she would probably wonder if she had even had a choice in the matter. She didn't want Tara to doubt her, not like that. 'Dammit,' she silently railed, 'why does it have to be complicated?'



Artemis
 


Re: Fic: TARA (chapter 12)

Postby chilled monkey » Thu Apr 03, 2003 1:54 pm

Aww, that was so sweet, with Tara being nervous and Willow telling her she is special.



The scenes with Sark and Echelon remind me very much of Transformers the Movie (remember that?), where Unicron is torturing Galvatron for failing/disobeying him.



I'm looking forwards to seeing what this unintended Red Dwarf reference is :hmm

chilled monkey
 


Re: Fic: TARA (chapter 12)

Postby Grimlock72 » Thu Apr 03, 2003 2:25 pm

Interesting... Echolon doesn't care for Tara's code, yet it doesn't seem to be able to handle Tara at the moment. At least not very well.



Yet, it DOES want Willow's code.. which for all we know could even be unusable code. Willow wasn't programmed after all, she was transformed by some gun and inserted into the system. I wonder if Echolon could make duplicates of her for his own use, hmm...



As for the previous chapter, I figured they would be able to just walk out of the grid since Willow had knocked out some recognizers (which I thought were the lone sentries guarding the grid perimeter). Just as well, jumping onto a recognizer was a neat move. Even though it was not a very well thought-out move since Tara did require Willow to handle the pilot at least briefly. No program is perfect I suppose :)



Funny how programs view users as so good and mighty. They never thought about the fact that some user must have created Echolon in the first place ? I seem to recall Echolon rather disliking that fact btw... :)



Grimmy

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She(Tara) knew that she was Willow too. If she knew that then why hadn't Willow herself? That wasn't fair. She was Willow. she should have known that first. -- Willow in _Sidestep Chronicle_ (part 80)

Grimlock72
 


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Postby MellindraX » Thu Apr 03, 2003 5:31 pm

This just gets better and better! I can't wait to see Sark get whats coming to him, though I think more W/T cyber love could somehow tide me over :p

More please?

It is my solace, my home, the place where my walls crumble and fall away, because no one can know who I truly am. Thank goodness for the Internet, preserver of sanity! -Unknown

MellindraX
 


Re: Fic: TARA (chapter 12)

Postby TemperedCynic » Thu Apr 03, 2003 6:42 pm

Unfortunately, Echelon has reached some quick and intelligent conclusions - that Willow now has untapped potential at her command. The company isn't interested in TARA, since they believe that Willow can create more TARA's at will. But Echelon is deathly afraid of Willow. When Sark discovers Willow and TARA's relationship, he will use TARA as his control over Willow. But our girls will prove strong in their love of each other. Sark, Rain and Echelon are in for one hell of a ride!



Techno-babble conjecture alert! You've been warned.



Object-oriented design centers on the idea of an object. Every time an object is newly created (for an example, let's create a new customer, Amber), the creation is called Instantiation. Think of it as a cookie-cutter duplication of the object "customer", but each customer - like Amber - is unique. Now to my point. Willow is a user. She is all objects and can instantiate any object but still retain herself - potentially becoming anything she wants by the force of her will. Moving from yellow to green tracery is the beginning. If this is what Echelon believes, no wonder they are worried!



I've been hunkered in my work cube too long...*sigh*


More than any other time in history, mankind faces a crossroads. One path leads to despair and utter hopelessness. The other, to total extinction. Let us pray we have the wisdom to choose correctly. Woody Allen (1935 - )

TemperedCynic
 


Re: Fic: TARA (chapter 12)

Postby WebWarlock » Thu Apr 03, 2003 9:39 pm

Two updates for me.



You know, I have suspected my programs have been screwing around when I wasn't looking (how else do you explain my ever shrinking free space??) but now I know! ;)



That was nice, though I have admit that I don't think it will be hugs and DLLs when Tara finds out about Willow.



Damnit. Still seeing David Warner as Sark though. But I have no problem seeing Waren as Cycorp's CEO.



great job.



Warlock

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Web Warlock

The Other Side,
home of Liber Mysterium: The Netbook of Witches and Warlocks


"If this is all the gods can do, I'm over to the Darkside so fast." - Tom Servo Mystery Science Theater 3000, Episode 903 "Pumaman".

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Re: Fic: TARA (chapter 12)

Postby Artemis » Fri Apr 04, 2003 9:43 am

Thanks all :)



chilled monkey: I remember the existence of Transformers: the Movie, but not anything about it. What I had in mind was pretty much just Sark and the MCP. As for the Red Dwarf thing, I'll give you a tiny clue: Jazz FM :)



Grimlock72: Well, Echelon does want Tara's code, it's just not willing to jeopardise its effort to get Willow's code. It'll take both, if it can get them, but if the only way to get to Willow is to terminate Tara, it's prepared to lose its chance to get at her code. It wasn'd kidding about Willow being more valuable to it than every system in existence.



It's not possible to 'walk out' of the Game Grid - you need to be inside a program that's capable of making the transit between the Grid and the open system, which is basically recognisers, Carrier-class vessels, and hunter-killers. No program has that type of transit code within itself, and though it may be technically within Willow's capabilities to generate trasnit codes within herself, that's the equivalent of Yoda levitating the X-Wing - Willow's just not able to wrap her mind around that type of control yet.



I think, if Willow hadn't been there to help out, Tara would have been able to handle the recogniser's pilot on her own - it just would have been a bit more of a messy scramble. Willow's intervention bought Tara time to get a grip and take the pilot out cleanly.



Yep, most programs think of users as being perfect. I'm sure some of them have wondered why Echelon was created in the first place, but they probably just put it down to the users working in mysterious ways, and having some ineffable master plan that it's not a program's place to question. Echelon is, as you say, not happy with the fact that it was created by users. It puts me in mind of Manfred Powell from Tomb Raider - no matter how in-control Echelon is, you can always get it angry by pointing out that it's not the ultimate boss.



MellindraX: Sark will get what he deserves - eventually. As for the 'cyber-love', I'm not planning to have too much physical stuff going on (if you can call that physical) - mainly more PG romance, with angsty twists and turns here and there. I'm not really in my element with sex scenes, even wierdo pseudo-sex scenes. I didn't even plan this one, but Willow and Tara both insisted that that's how it happened, so I had no choice.



TemperedCynic: I wouldn't say Echelon is afraid of Willow - not yet. At the moment, it just wants what she has. While capturing and dismantling Tara would have been useful to Echelon, as Echelon would have acquired Tara's capacity to adapt and behave intuitively, getting Willow's code would make everything else irrelevant.



Your techno-babble is accurate. There is one particular thing Willow can do, that no program can, that Echelon wants.



WebWarlock: Sometimes my computer just starts 'thinking' furiously, for no apparent reason. Now I know. Tara is going to find out about Willow being a user, and it'll be interesting, I hope. Don't worry about seeing David Warner as Sark, so do I - I figure Sark started out as Warren, and became David Warner (i.e. so much cooler, though still evil) when Echelon enhanced him. Warren isn't actually Cycorp's CEO, he's a vice-president. The CEO is just a figurehead, and isn't in any way involved in what Warren's up to.

Edited by: Artemis at: 4/4/03 7:44:01 am
Artemis
 


Re: Fic: TARA (chapter 12)

Postby miss calendar » Sat Apr 05, 2003 2:24 am

Oh that was so sweet.....

I loved tentative yet bold Tara confessing 'there are parts of me that aren't part of my core code.....parts of me - feelings thought's that I don't think our user gave me.' and being brave enough to say, ' I feel as if I should be....a-as if you and I are a unity.' And actually that's so like canon Tara, taking enormous risks telling Willow how she feels.



And poor baby thinking she was in error wanting to become something she wasn't created to be. Willow needs to get her up to speed on the concepts of free will,free love and self-actualisation.



I loved your love scene. So passionate yet chaste, electronic orgasms notwithstanding. Tara feeding Willow power off her data disc was adorable and I loved her excited reaction when Willow reverted to her original green. (though now I find myself with visions of Kermit the frog singing, 'It's not easy being green...) But of course what made it special was the emotional and spiritual connection they clearly made, the intensity of what they shared as they came together.



Yes, it's going to be difficult when Tara finds out that Willow is not only a user but her own user and creator. (by the way do the programs distinguish between creator users and user users?) I was also wondering how Willow will feel about falling in love with her own program, that's got to be wierd. And if I was Willow I'd be honest with Tara becuase once Sark and Echelon catch up with them her secret's bound to be blown.

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' What we are today comes from our thoughts of yesterday,
and our present thoughts build our life of tomorrow :
our life is the creation of our mind. ' from The Dhammapada

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Re: Fic: TARA (chapter 12)

Postby Artemis » Sat Apr 05, 2003 11:31 am

miss calendar: Thanks :) I've got three main points that I'm using as the basis for my improvised forays into Tara's psyche. 1: Tara is incredibly brave. 2: Tara is incredibly sweet. 3: I'm not very objective.



Free will is a tricky subject for programs - even though users don't know that programs are self-aware, they still define their personalities in creating them. Programs are sort of 'hard-wired' to the particular set of attitudes and beliefs they are created with, and they don't change except under extraordinary circumstances. Tara really is unique in that respect among programs. Echelon has a similar sort of ability, to form new ways of thinking to accomodate new data, but the reasons for it are entirely different.



I'm glad the love scene turned out well. I was incredibly nervous planning to write it, because it's just not something I really do - despite having read so much well-written fanfic, from Xena to Willow/Tara, that I probably know more about it than Sappho, I nevertheless get sort of embarrassed at the idea of actually writing a sex scene. I've only done it twice previously, in both cases as a means of understanding the characters involved - for my own peace of mind, rather than storyline necessity - and in both cases I couldn't quite bring myself to include those scenes in their stories when I made them available. Under those conditions, this sort of pseudo-explicit scene was tailor-made for me, I suppose. Even so I was worried about it sounding a bit corny :)



Programs do make a distinction between their creators, and users in general, but not as much as we might from our point of view. To programs, all users are of the same order of beings, and the fact that some of them create programs all the time and some never do is just put down to ineffability on their part.



I've got a fairly good idea of how the whole user issue will be resolved between Willow and Tara, and I hope it'll be interesting. How Willow deals with being in love with her own creation is also something that will get dealt with along the way. It's not such a big issue for her, though - she doesn't consider Tara's personality to be something she created.



And now... well, I had planned to hold the next chapter until tomorrow, but what the heck.

Artemis
 


Fic: TARA (chapter 13)

Postby Artemis » Sat Apr 05, 2003 11:33 am

TARA



Author: Chris Cook

Rating: PG

Summary: Cycorp programmer Willow Rosenberg knows her boss is up to no good - but can she break into the impenetrable Echelon system to prove it?

Spoilers: Pretty much none.

Copyright: Based on characters from 'Buffy The Vampire Slayer', created by Joss Whedon and his talented minionators, and 'Tron' created by Steven Lisberger. All original material is copyright 2003 Chris Cook.

Feedback: Please. Here, or to alia@netspace.net.au



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Chapter Thirteen

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'Oh, by the way, I created you. Stupid. Tara, I am your user. Yeah, sound like Darth Vader, that'll help. Hey Tara? Yes Willow? I've got something to say... Nuts,' thought Willow, following Tara through a series of underground passages. Tara had guided their stolen recogniser into a dark, shadowy labyrinth of caverns and tunnels, which she said contained hidden access ports to any number of partitions on the open system. Willow was quite content to let Tara lead the way, knowing nothing of the system, and having quite enough to think about on her own.



She had been thinking, while lying in Tara's arms, about the extraordinary experience they had shared. At first she had been blissfully content, but her analytical side - damn it - had weighed in, and now Willow was very much worried. Though her exact recollections of what had happened were understandably muddled, she was certain that she and Tara had partially merged, and while that sounded wonderfully romantic, Willow wasn't entirely certain that she shouldn't be more afraid than pleased. She had become part of Tara, yet remained herself as well - whatever defences Tara had against intrusion, that had rendered Echelon unable to simply de-rez her to begin with, they had stood aside and let Willow in.



She had thought back - though the experience was incomparable in many ways - to when she had merged with the code guiding the fractal maze in the Game Grid. All she had had to do then was imagine a change, wish an effect, and it had been so. The maze had been a part of her, and she had been able to alter it as easily, once she got her mind around it, as she could move her own body. And with the same access to Tara's code, what might happen if she was careless? After all, a fractal was a simple piece of mathematics, and look at the chaos she had wrought from it, just by changing a few numbers. What damage might she unwittingly do, if she and Tara merged again, with her thoughts overwhelmed by love and passion? Had she been lucky not to harm her already? Had she - and Willow shivered when she first thought it - perhaps already changed Tara in some subtle way, without meaning to? She watched Tara very closely, her face, the patterns on her body, but she could see no change, and eventually decided that her worst fears were as yet unfounded. Nevertheless, she was not what Tara thought she was - Tara didn't know the danger Willow might pose to her. And the thought of hurting Tara was simply unacceptable to Willow. Whatever disbelief she still carried about her existence inside the system - and the voice insisting it was all a dream was still there, quiet and largely ignored - it did not apply to Tara. Tara was real.



The question in Willow's mind became not whether to tell Tara the truth, but how. Willow truly had no real understanding of how programs regarded users, much less their own users - they were some strange blend of gods and leaders, creators and commanders. And Willow knew Tara was different to other programs - Tara had said so herself. Who knew how she thought of her Willow? An all-knowing creator, praised for giving the gift of life? A careless sire who had sent her alone against a vast enemy, and then abandoned her? A god to be obeyed in all things, even if she did not want obedience? Willow prayed, to who she didn't know, that Tara would somehow be able to understand, that Tara would listen as she explained who she was, what had happened, how she had come to be here. She clung to that optimistic thought, perhaps unreasonably, as a defence against the more dismal possibilities that would otherwise have had her keep lying to Tara indefinitely. Every time Willow had found herself contemplating Tara's anger, or rejection, or zealous devotion, over the next hour while Tara piloted the recogniser and then led the way on foot, she had defended her intention to reveal the truth with a bodyguard of childish but effective scenarios in which Tara accepted her as she was, could guide Willow in merging with her without harming her, and everything turned out for the best.



Still, the exact wording was giving Willow trouble. As she always did when she knew she had to avoid babbling at all costs, she was rehearsing the conversation in her mind, trying to think of the best way to say what she had to say, and cover all the possible responses Tara might make. She knew it was foolish to think she could predict how Tara would react - that was precisely the problem - but she knew she would feel a little more confident if she had an idea of what to say, and didn't have to improvise too much. Improvising, with so much at stake, would unquestionably lead to babbling, and she would make no sense, and her chance to have Tara understand would be gone.



So it was that Willow, concentrating on the fragments of possible conversations in her head, followed Tara as they made their way deep into the uncharted depths of the open system. They had no plan to combat Echelon - Willow had no idea where to begin, and Tara had been on the Game Grid too long, she said, to know how the situation was on the outside. Willow agreed that gathering information should be their first priority - as if she would disagree with Tara on strategy. Tara knew a place, a nexus, where renegade programs could access information without being traced, and it was here that she was leading Willow.



The tunnel ended abruptly with a flat, featureless wall. Tara brushed her hand against it, seemed satisfied, and turned to Willow.



"Have you ever used one of these?" she asked. Willow frowned in confusion and shook her head. "It's a screening port," she explained, "we can pass through it, but only because we know what it is. If you weren't sure, it would just be a wall. Sark's tracker programs have trouble dealing with them, which is why renegades use them. Hold my hand." Willow did so. "You should pass through with me. If you don't, I'll count to A and come back through for you. Ready?"



Willow nodded, and Tara lay her palm flat on the wall. Patterns of circuitry faded slightly into view, and her palm seemed to flow into them, like sand vanishing through the neck of an hourglass. Willow blinked in astonishment, and turned to see Tara's entire body dissolving and flowing into the port. Her own vision blurred, she had a momentary sensation of movement, and then she was facing Tara again, hands held, just as they had been. Now, though, they were standing in a deep shadow, and instead of the tunnel behind them, there was the ante-chamber of a great cathedral-like structure, full of strange, fluid statues and slowly morphing patterns set into the walls like stained-glass windows. Aside from the various glows given off by the decorations, the whole place was layered with shadows, the natural lighting that Willow had begun to take for granted in the system world almost entirely absent.



Tara looked around warily. Willow could sense the sudden tension in her, and her breath caught as she realised Tara had assumed a combat stance, ready to defend herself. After a silent moment she gave Willow's hand a reassuring squeeze and led her quietly along the length of the cathedral.



"What's wrong?" whispered Willow into her ear. She leaned over to whisper in return to Willow, never taking her eyes off their surroundings.



"Abandoned," she explained, "perhaps they found a better nexus. We might still be able to use this one- oh no!" They had reached the centre of the building, dominated by a tall pedestal covered in faintly-glowing patterns, and as they rounded the structure Willow saw what had shocked Tara. A program lay sprawled on the ground behind it - no, half a program. His legs were missing, and his lower torso looked almost melted, ending in a trail of geometric debris that snaked away into the shadows. He had dragged himself here, Willow realised - what was left of himself. Tara quickly knelt by him, never letting go of Willow's hand. She lay a hand on his chest and closed her eyes for a moment.



"He's functioning," she whispered after a moment, "barely. I think he's... oh my user, Willow, he's been partially de-rezzed! And they left him functional..." The fallen program stirred, and opened one eye - the other seemed lifeless.



"Not... Sark?" he wheezed.



"No," said Tara, her voice as gentle as she could make it - Willow could still hear the faint trace of horror. The program's single eye focused on Tara, and he frowned.



"You're the one," he said, "you're Tara... heard about you. Heard they... took you..."



"We escaped," Tara said. "What happened here? Sark did this?" The program shook his head weakly. Willow tried to hide her horror as a part of his cheek cracked, and spilled a few tiny prisms to the ground.



"Rain," he said, taking a ragged breath. "Thought we were... safe. Too fast... terminated us all... except me... did something to me, I can't... no!" He jerked as if he'd been shocked, sending more patterns of cracks spreading across his face. He tried to raise his arm to Tara, but the moment it left the floor his hand started to dissolve. He screamed and dropped his arm, which broke when it hit the floor, shattering up to his elbow.



"Don't move!" said Tara urgently. "We'll help you, we'll..." she trailed off, glancing around desperately. Willow realised she had no idea what to do. Seeing the pain in Tara's eyes, she suddenly ached to tell her the truth, to be able to hold her and hide nothing from her, and somehow protect her from everything that hurt. She remained silent, though - this was not the time.



"Tara," gasped the dying program, "please... Rain... left me functioning... left herself in me... she knows! Get to GDI... she's coming for you... please... terminate me..." Tara drew back in shock.



"I-I-I... I c-c... no, I..."



"Please..." he whispered, "I'm sorry... to ask you... but it hurts so much... user forgive me... please take the pain away..."



Tara let out a gasp that turned into a sob, and nodded. Willow knelt behind her, one hand on her shoulder, the other around her waist. Tara half-turned, looking down at Willow's hand, and Willow saw her face streaked with tears. She took a deep, shuddering breath, put her hand over Willow's, holding tight, and turned back to the dying program. Her other hand went back to his chest, but this time she spread her fingers, each fingertip moving to a specific point on the fading tracery patterns. She hesitated.



"Make us... free..." said the program, little more than a whisper. Tara's squared her shoulders and nodded.



"I will," she said. Her arm tensed, her fingers pressed hard against the tracery, and the light there vanished. The blackness spread across what remained of the program's body, and he closed his functioning eye and smiled slightly. Then it was over, and he disintegrated. Tara was still for a moment, her hand still held where his chest had been, then in a single, fluid motion she stood, drawing Willow up with her, turned in her half-embrace, and hugged her with all her strength, her body shaking as she cried. Willow held her tight, stroking her back and the back of her neck, murmuring quietly into her ear, all the motions that came to her by instinct when she had no idea what to do. Tara calmed quickly, her breathing levelling out. She drew back slightly from Willow and slowly raised her downcast eyes. Seeing the glistening tears on her face, Willow tried her best to look comforting, but she was unprepared for Tara's eyes. What she saw there was infinite, and almost indescribable - sadness, hope, love, a quiet sort of strength, compassion so deep it hurt. It was the perfect opposite of Rain's burning gaze - equal but diametrically opposed. Willow saw it only for a second, then Tara pulled her into the most intense kiss of her life, fierce, possessive, knowing there would be no resistance, and thus taking everything Willow gave her without hesitation. She could taste Tara's tears on her lips.



When Tara finally drew back, released Willow from her embrace and took her hand, Willow still just stood there for a moment, eyes closed, lips parted, not even breathing.



"Come on," said Tara firmly, but gently, "we have to go." Willow blinked, let out the breath she hadn't realised she was holding, and looked at Tara. She was smiling, sadly but not in despair, all compassion and tenderness. As she led Willow further into the depths of the dark cathedral, Willow tried to reconcile the two sides of her, the almost angelic love and the wild, untamed passion, that she had seen within seconds of each other, and found she couldn't quite wrap her mind around it. 'I am not letting this one get away,' Willow promised herself, 'I don't care if I never go home, if I have to give up being a user and spend the rest of my life as a program, delivering email or something, I am *not* letting her go!'



Artemis
 


Re: Fic: TARA (chapter 13)

Postby chilled monkey » Sat Apr 05, 2003 11:58 am

Brilliant! :applause



I especially liked the start, with Willow wondering how to tell Tara what she is, and how does Tara view her creator. Very good.



I've also had a thought about one possible way to beat Rain. If she's a computer virus, there should be an anti-virus somewhere (one created specifically for her). Trouble is, if it exists, it probably isn't in the system yet. It's probably locked away on disc somewhere.



Looking forwards to Willow telling the truth to Tara. Hope she takes it well.

chilled monkey
 


Re: Fic: TARA (chapter 13)

Postby justin » Sat Apr 05, 2003 12:06 pm

There were a lot of things to like about that update. :party



Like Willow trying to figure out to Tell Tara she's her user. Perhaps it'd be best to just tell Tara that she's a user to start of with before saying that she's her creator.



Once again we see Tara's compassion when it comes to other programs with how she treats the semi derezzed program. Somehow I don't think that this compassion is going to extend to Rain :evil



I liked Willow being so much in love with Tara that she'd be willing to spend her life as an MTA (Mail Transport Application - wow, look at me making with the jargon :wink ) in order to be with her.



I understand, you should be with the person you l-love


I am


justin
 


Re: Fic: TARA (chapter 13)

Postby TemperedCynic » Sat Apr 05, 2003 2:26 pm

Poor Willow. Knowing that she created TARA and unable to find a way to tell her. She cares deeply for TARA, and the "L"-word is not far away because she can't see hurting TARA. Willow would willingly leave TARA before she would hurt her.



When we see TARA deactivate the suffering program, Willow sees more of the hidden TARA than ever before. She doesn't know it yet, but Willow's hooked. All of Willow's actions going forward will reflect what she learned at this moment. She will never hurt TARA, she will protect TARA with everything see has.



Rain is a tough cookie. She takes what will assist in her all-out quest for destruction. I can't think of a better candidate for the three-fold law. Now, if someone were to give those stolen code pieces inside Rain self-realization. Hmm.


More than any other time in history, mankind faces a crossroads. One path leads to despair and utter hopelessness. The other, to total extinction. Let us pray we have the wisdom to choose correctly. Woody Allen (1935 - )

TemperedCynic
 


Re: Fic: TARA (chapter 13)

Postby sheila wt » Sat Apr 05, 2003 2:37 pm

I started reading this fic at the willtara list and was very happy to see it here also. Chris' talent should be known by every W/T fan. I've been completely hooked since "Shadow"... :grin



I'm loving this fic too. It's just brilliant how you mix complex and simple things, feelings and such cool action scenes.



Now, when I think of W/T AU fics, I think of you. :bow :bow :bow

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"She had tasted Willow on her tongue, and she had worn Willow on her skin. There wasn't a shower in the world that could have washed that away." (Terra Firma, by Tulipp)

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...

Postby MellindraX » Sat Apr 05, 2003 4:42 pm

I loved this update! Willow stressing over how to tell Tara the truth behind her creation, the poor half-rezzed program, and then Willow's decision to never lose Tara! So cute...

Oh, and in my previous post, I had meant cyber-love less in the sexual content (though that was very well handled given the difficulties placed before you) and more in the cute fuzziness and indesicion (sp?) between them...

In any case, waiting with bated breath for the next update!

It is my solace, my home, the place where my walls crumble and fall away, because no one can know who I truly am. Thank goodness for the Internet, preserver of sanity! -Unknown

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Re: ...

Postby xita » Sat Apr 05, 2003 8:36 pm

I hadn't replied to this fic yet but I've been keeping up with it. It's such a refreshing AU in fic, fantastic. You write action very well and of course romance. Sensual electronic love ;) And Willow has some very interesting questions there at end. in the end she has to be convinced that she is thinking for herself, but yes I myself wonder if the connection is not in fact because Willow is the user that created her in the first place. Look forward to more!

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xita
 


Re: ...

Postby WebWarlock » Sat Apr 05, 2003 10:36 pm

Excellent.



I'll add more later, but the "count to A" cracked me up.



Warlock

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The Other Side,
home of Liber Mysterium: The Netbook of Witches and Warlocks


"If this is all the gods can do, I'm over to the Darkside so fast." - Tom Servo Mystery Science Theater 3000, Episode 903 "Pumaman".

WebWarlock
 


Re: ...

Postby Cindy Lou Who » Sat Apr 05, 2003 11:44 pm

Chris:



Look away for a moment and what do I get?

Another day older and...lots more updates!:clap



Action packed...and Willow giving a lot of thought to her relationship to "Tara/TARA.":hmm



I'll own that it's sometimes been tough for me to get past the idea of a "creator" being romantically involved with their "creation." It can be really itchy. Apart from other considerations the imbalance in the "power" equation makes it feel squirmy. Tara has self-admitedly "evolved" to have apparently independent logic and emotions. She is strong and certainly an initiator. And she may have saved Willow's life several times over...but TARA seemingly wouldn't have existence to do so without "User" Willow's prior governing hand. Where does one stop and the other begin? In any event I don't envy Willow's explanation.:eek



I'm going to mull it over...you often and most *certainly* make me think Chris!;)



~Suse

~Dorothy Parker (on her writing)~:



"I can't write five words but that I change seven."



"My verses, I cannot say poems...I was following in the exquisite footsteps of Miss Millay, unhappily in my own horrible sneakers."

Edited by: Cindy Lou Who at: 4/5/03 9:48:00 pm
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Re: ...

Postby Grimlock72 » Sun Apr 06, 2003 4:57 am

They best get out of that Nexus fast, assuming I heard the half-dead program correctly about Rain leaving part of her in him.



Willow should Tara at the very least that she's a user, eventually that will become obvious anyway so best do it yourself. Don't know exactly how she should handle the fact that she's the user who created Tara though. Kinda tough one that.



Makes me wonder, are there any programs around created by Willow ? Surely she made more than one program to earn her paycheck ? :)



Tara is very compassionate, got to wonder where that came from. She must have picked that up somehow/somewhere.



Grimmy

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She(Tara) knew that she was Willow too. If she knew that then why hadn't Willow herself? That wasn't fair. She was Willow. she should have known that first. -- Willow in _Sidestep Chronicle_ (part 80)

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Re: ...

Postby Artemis » Sun Apr 06, 2003 8:54 am

Thanks all :) Wow that's a lot of feedback in one day!



chilled monkey: Rain isn't exactly a virus - she has a lot of the characteristics of one, but there's something more 'military' in her. I'm not qutie sure how to explain it - in our (user) terms I suppose there isn't much difference, but in the system world, a virus would be considered insane, whereas Rain is sane. For a given value of 'sane'. She's more like a very, very homidical mercenary. There is a shut-down command for her, but it has to be delivered directly into her, which can only be done by a user (from outside the system, or by cotact the way Willow can touch programs), and the only entity that knows what her shut-down password is, is Echelon. Warren, outside, used to know the password, but Echelon changed it as soon as Warren gave it Rain.



Not that it's going to be useful - after all, if Willow and Tara can dismantle Echelon, that's the end of their problems anyway - but Rain's shut-down password is 'Archangel'.



I've written the chapters where Willow tells Tara the truth about herself. She takes it... interestingly.



justin: Willow doesn't really have the option of leading Tara gently through the process. Tara knows her user is called Willow, so once Willow says she's a user, two and two get put together.



Tara's compassion certainly does not extend to Rain. She's not incapable of terminating other programs, as she showed in this last chapter - she just won't do it without a very, very good reason. The fact that Rain is a psychotic hell-bitch who enjoys inflicting as much suffering as she possibly can on everything around her constitutes such a reason. Most programs, given the means, would terminate her on sight - and even Tara can recognise that there's really no scenario where the entire system wouldn't be better off with Rain scrapped.



TemperedCynic: Yep, Willow is absolutely hooked. Not that that was ever in doubt, between being Willow, and being written by me, who is completely smitten by Tara as well.



What's the three-fold law?



The code inside Rain isn't self-aware - programs are, but once they're de-rezzed and their code is extracted, the code itself is just packages of data. There's sadly no way to bring them back.



sheila wt: Good to see you here :) The action scenes always seem to form pretty easily, I have more trouble describing them than imagining them. Comes from watching a lot of action TV and movies, I guess. The emotions side of things... I'm just making it up as I go. This story has already gotten more emotionally complex than I'd intended, so I feel a bit like I've been thrown more than I expected and have to juggle them. I think I've got it all under control, more or less.



MellindraX: The cute fuzziness will continue, wherever appropriate (not in the middle of a pitched battle, for instance).



xita: Thanks :) I spent a lot of today wondering the same thing, what it means that Willow is Tara's user. I think I've managed to satisfy myself that it hasn't compromised the romance, and I've written the chapters that will, if not 100% resolve it, at least lay the foundations for it not being a problem. But yeah, it's tricky, and strange. Then again, when isn't love?



WebWarlock: I've been waiting for several chapters to have a program count in hex again. One of Sark's menials did it earlier, but it wasn't obvious.



Suse: It has been (past tense, given that I've written most of the relevant chapters) tricky having Tara as Willow's creation - I didn't realise what I was getting into there, and how much work it would be to get out of it. At least, I hope I got out of it. I share your itchiness at the idea of the creator falling for her creation and vice versa - well, it happens to me all the time when I use original characters, but seeing as they're fictional it doesn't tend to lead to embarrassing situations. I suppose, in the end, it comes down to: I have an explanation that makes me okay with it, and doesn't make me question the truth of the romance. Now I just have to hope like hell I can convey it properly in the upcoming chapters :)



Grimlock72: Leaving the nexus is top of their priorities. There were other programs created by Willow, but they're all out of the picture for various reasons. TAR versions 1-12 were all either de-rezzed or terminated before they could penetrate Echelon's defences. The various benign programs that Willow created for Cycorp have (seeing as they're really good quality stuff) all been absorbed by Echelon. Those were all standard programs, which would have looked identical to Willow, with yellow colouring for the Cycorp programs, or blue for the independent TAR programs.



Tara's compassion is pretty much just the way she is. The fact that she's nigh-invincible makes it easier for her to be compassionate sometimes - it's not often you face kill-or-be-killed situations when there's so few programs capable of killing you. But even when it doesn't help at all, as in the most recent chapter... she just is. I can't really explain it, without trying to figure out where programs get their personalities, which I don't properly know. They get their abilities and purposes from their users, and tend to be moulded to suit that - Sark, for example, was created by Warren to be a security overseer, so that's what his personality was tailored to (he was partially altered with the influx of power and authority from Echelon, hence the David Warner-ness). Tara was created with a single function: break open Echelon. So the only element of her personality that was 'hard-wired', really, was the belief that Echelon is bad. The rest of her personality was pretty much carte blanche when she first came into being, and formed since then from her experienced and observations of the world around her. Which, incidentally, supported the Echelon-is-bad conclusion. My personal feeling, not that this was ever put to the test, is that if she had been programmed with any 'opinions' that weren't fundamentally true, she would have been able to overcome them and, after a fair bit of introspection, changed her mind.

Artemis
 


Fic: TARA (chapter 14)

Postby Artemis » Sun Apr 06, 2003 8:57 am

TARA



Author: Chris Cook

Rating: PG

Summary: Cycorp programmer Willow Rosenberg knows her boss is up to no good - but can she break into the impenetrable Echelon system to prove it?

Spoilers: Pretty much none.

Copyright: Based on characters from 'Buffy The Vampire Slayer', created by Joss Whedon and his talented minionators, and 'Tron' created by Steven Lisberger. All original material is copyright 2003 Chris Cook.

Feedback: Please. Here, or to alia@netspace.net.au



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Chapter Fourteen

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"What are you looking for?" asked Willow, as Tara moved from alcove to alcove in the dimly-lit walls of the cathedral, checking each one. She had picked up her disc-gun from where she dropped it to attend to the dying program, and looked like she expected to have to use it.



"I knew some of the programs who built this nexus," she explained, continuing her search, "they had a simulation prepared in case they were attacked. If they didn't have time to get to it before Rain terminated them, it should still be here. I just hope they didn't change the password- here!" The back of an alcove slid silently aside, leaving a space just big enough for Tara and Willow to squeeze into. Willow looked up, trying to see where the top of the cramped chamber was, but the cylindrical walls stretched upward until they were completely lost in the gloom. Tara placed her palm against the wall, revealing a circuitry pattern.



"Transit two," she said to the wall, "command identity Tara, password Winterblue. Hold on," she added to Willow, "this might be disorienting." Willow gladly held Tara's waist, and Tara did likewise to Willow with her free hand. The pattern on the wall, rather than fading when Tara withdrew her hand, glowed brighter and spread, surrounding them. Suddenly they were hurtling upwards, the floor vanishing in an instant beneath them. Willow held on tight - she didn't feel as if she would fall, some force was propelling her and Tara together up the long tunnel, but the experience was worse than disorienting.



After a few more seconds Willow was finally getting used the notion that she wasn't about to fall off the rollercoaster, when a flash of light from beneath them startled her. Tara reacted as well, clutching Willow tightly, glancing down over her shoulder. Something was beneath them, and accelerating - the tunnel's walls, visible for a dozen metres or so beneath them as they rushed past, were cracking and warping, breaking up like concrete in an earthquake.



"Hell and erasure," swore Tara to herself.



"What's happening?" asked Willow, frightened.



"Sark's programs must have implanted a virus in the transit routine," said Tara - Willow could hear the tension in her voice, though she was doing her best to sound calm. "I thought if they found it they'd have deactivated it. It must have been Rain, this is the kind of twisted thing she'd do."



"What can we do?"



"Hope we complete the transit before the routine collapses around us," said Tara grimly.



"What happens if we don't?" asked Willow, doing her best not to panic. The disintegration of the tunnel was slowly catching up to them.



"We hope there's a user watching over us," Tara answered, shifting her grip on Willow to press their bodies together.



Willow's head came to be on Tara's shoulder, where she stared blankly at the circuitry patterns travelling with them, flowing over the slight imperfections in the walls as they passed. She tentatively let go of Tara's waist with one hand, and reached out the short distance to the wall. It was moving too fast to touch, but surely, so close, she could access the routine. She glanced down - the cracks in the tunnel were almost level with their feet.



'Come on,' she willed herself, 'this isn't difficult. It's only a few millimetres, and they're not even real space, it's all just power in a processor. You don't have to touch it to feel it, that's just your brain insisting that you behave like you're in the real world, but you're not!' Willow's vision blurred, but she could still see clearly enough to see strands of her tracery flowing from her wrist over her hand, and then, millimetre by millimetre, stretching out into space, reaching for the energy on the wall. A headache formed and grew behind her eyes until she felt like her head was about to burst, but still she pushed herself forward.



And then - in an instant - the tracery caught the energy, Willow's vision cleared and the pain vanished. She moved her hand a little, watching in vague astonishment as light flowed out of her fingertips and into the patterns on the wall, then she mentally shook herself and set to work. With a moment's concentration she could see the vague shape of the transit routine - not the details, but enough to have an understanding of how it was working. A long, elegant strand of energy, woven like a rope - one end secured, the other whipping around, unravelling as a malevolent-looking black virus-shape crawled along it, biting and tearing at it. Willow tried to get at the attacking routine, but it dodged her attempts to touch it, and she saw hints of claws and fangs snarling at her from within its smoky, clouded form. Then inspiration struck, and Willow smiled to herself.



"We're going to be alright," she whispered to Tara, without really meaning to, but flushed with relief at knowing what to do. She turned her mind to the memory of the fractal maze, and watched as the patterns extending from her fingers twisted slightly as tiny, blossoming fractals flowed along them. In her mind's eye she saw the new code flowing into the transit routine, coating it like a layer of gloss, leaving it to function normally inside its new protective sheath. But when the virus encountered it, tried to rip into the fractal, every puncture it made bloomed with new curls of code, every attempt it made to damage the fractal merely gave it more space to expand into. She had a momentary glimpse of the virus toppling down, wreathed in fern-like fractal strands, twisting and biting as it fell. Then a tightness in her chest began to make it difficult to breathe, and she let go of her hold on the transit routine. She just had time to see her tracery snap back into her wrist like a rubber band, before her suddenly heavy eyelids closed, and she slumped in Tara's hold.



"Willow," she heard Tara say, as if from a distance, "Willow? Are you functioning properly?" Her lethargy passed, and after a moment she had the strength to return Tara's embrace and lift her head to look at her.



"I'm fine," she murmured, still feeling somehow fragile, as if raising her voice would make her lose her balance.



"Hold on," said Tara, lowering her voice as if sensing Willow's loss of equilibrium, "we're almost through."



A few seconds later their headlong rush ceased, and Willow blinked in the sudden brightness of a large, clear space. She looked around, as Tara supported her and helped her move. They were in a wide, tall chamber that put Willow in mind of an aircraft hangar. Fittingly, there was a vehicle of some sort resting in it, but Willow had never seen anything like it. It most resembled a giant steel dragonfly, with a smooth, tapering body thirty metres from end to end, and a set of thin, translucent wings sprouting from just behind its forward tip.



"A Solar Sailer," explained Tara, "stolen from the Game Grid. It's the fastest transit simulation there is." Willow's strength was returning, and she found she didn't need to rely on Tara to hold her up anymore as they reached the back end of the Sailer. Tara nevertheless kept hold of Willow's hand as she swung her leg over the side and pulled herself into the control bay, recessed into the hull of the vehicle like a yacht's deck.



"Stay there," said Tara, "I'll go and initialise the simulation, it won't take a nanocycle." She gave Willow's hand a comforting squeeze and then turned and ran across the hangar, towards a series of glass-fronted chambers set into the far wall. Willow watched her go, slightly apprehensive to be parted from her, even a little way. The soft, bright light of the hangar was reassuring though, after the threatening gloom of the nexus cathedral.



Willow allowed herself to relax, and tentatively lay a hand on the smooth inner surface of the Sailer's side. She let out a sigh of relief as she felt the simulation's code - very complex code - flowing beneath her fingertips, without any pain or disorientation. 'Must just have been the distance,' she concluded. Careful not to interact with it, she studied the Sailer's workings, impressed at the artistic fluidity of its form and function. 'Stolen from a game,' she mused, 'that'd be right. You don't get this kind of craftsmanship out of multinational corporations. Not cost-efficient.' The Sailer began to hum with power, softly at first, gradually building. Willow glanced over at Tara, inside one of the control chambers, and could just make out her smile as she looked up.



Willow jumped in alarm as her view was blocked by a shimmering column of light. A transport beam - but much bigger than any she had so far seen. She looked around, scared, seeing more beams forming all over the hangar. When they cleared, they left half a dozen hulking, threatening forms in their place. Each one was four metres tall, supported by thick, powerful legs, hunched over as if it were going to walk on all fours, though the front limbs swayed off the ground, scanning left and right. Each was outlined with red energy, and Willow saw soldier programs built into their armoured hulls, their backs disappearing beneath the machines' carapaces, their arms merging with the forward limbs. As one they turned towards Tara's control chamber, raising their fore-limbs like weapons. Willow wished, for the first time, that she hadn't left her disc-gun on the recogniser.



"Hey, over here!" she yelled, jumping out of the Sailer and running around behind it, hoping whatever weapons the attackers had wouldn't damage it if she had to take cover behind it. Her heart leapt into her throat as three of the six machines opened fire on the control chamber, their limbs disgorging a hail of discs, and she heard a crash as they broke through the transparent wall separating them from Tara. But in the next instant half the discs were ricocheting back at them, one taking a chunk out an attacker's leg, another losing a fore-limb as its own disc sliced through it in a shower of sparks. Between the tree-trunk legs, Willow saw a flash of green light moving fast, and the three programs that had attacked were turning to track their target. She relaxed for a second, then her breath caught as she realised the other three monsters were turning towards her.



"Um, you know," she called out to them, ready to duck behind the Sailer at the first sign of fire, "you should all just leave now. Believe me, I can really mess you up! Don't make me re-write your code or something!" She flung out a hand theatrically, like a wizard in a children's cartoon, and tried to look defiant. If absolutely necessary she was prepared to risk the pain of trying to alter their code - though, judging by how far away they were, and how menacing they looked, she would probably collapse before she had managed to merge, let alone figure out a way to damage them - but for the moment she just hoped to buy Tara some time.



But the three massive programs paused, weapons raised but silent. Willow saw the soldiers within them look confused for a moment. Then - as if snapped back to action by the collapse of one of their fellow programs, sparks cascading from a dozen jagged holes in its legs, the three turned as one back towards Tara.



"Hey!" shouted Willow, feeling indignant for a moment before her sense of perspective kicked in. She tried to see how Tara was doing, but couldn't make out much through the deluge of debris and power being smashed out of the hangar's far wall by discs missing their targets. She was relieved, though, to still be able to hear the strange chord-like sound of discs being deflected, and every couple of seconds to see one come flying out of the maelstrom of destruction, taking a chunk out of the attackers.



Wasting no more time, Willow left her cover behind the Sailer and strode towards the nearer trio of programs. She couldn't quite believe what she was planning to do, and the coiled tension in her legs made her feel like she was walking on a trampoline, but she remained set on her course of action.



"Hello?" she called, barely five metres from the backs of the huge programs. "Attack me? Anyone? Good," she finished to herself, concluding that, for whatever reason, they were ignoring her as a target. 'Oh I hope I'm right,' she thought to herself as she jogged swiftly up to the legs of the nearest, and put her hand against it.



She almost jerked her hand back at the pain - like an electric shock, magnified a hundred times. But she pressed her palm flat, gritting her teeth against the pain. She saw tiny strands of red energy slowly worming out of the smooth steel and onto her hand, but her anger at this gave her the boost she needed to fight off the intrusion. Slowly, ignoring the edges of her vision tunnelling, Willow pushed her tracery across her hand and into the surface beneath her fingers.



It was equally massive in her mind's eye, a huge cloud of darkness, with shapes moving inside it, hulking and powerful, like pistons and gears in an old steam engine. At the centre of it all she could just make out the glimmer of a real program - like Tara, but not, lacking the beauty of something more than calculation and logic. Willow ignored that, not wanting to find out if she really could reach inside a living program and alter it, not wanting to know what might happen if she did. Instead she turned her attention to the massive mechanical forms wrapped around it - huge and powerful, but still simple. She studied it as quickly as she could, hoping that she wasn't wasting time. Her senses of what was happening in the physical reality around her were increasingly dim, just vague shapes and muffled sounds as she concentrated all her willpower on breaking through the pain battering at her mind.



Slowly, adding to Willow's impatience, details began to emerge. First the thing's legs snapped into focus, mere assemblies of power and motion, simple machines. Then the fore-limbs, pumping like pistons, generating and hurling discs as fast as they could - Willow recognised the feel of the disc-gun, modified to fit a different environment, but still basically the same. She imagined herself wrapping her hands around the guns and squeezing them, and saw with some relief that the mechanism stopped working, as parts bent out of shape, no longer making proper contact with the rest of it. Keeping a part of herself concentrating on holding the guns silent, she explored further. The machine's armoured carapace resolved next, and Willow realised that a part of that code was responsible for the pain assailing her - she found it easier to resist, understanding where it was coming from. With the lessening of the pain the whole machine came sharply into view, and Willow saw what she had been hoping for: sets of instructions, constantly being accessed by the program within the machine and compared to the sensory input flowing through him as his eyes fed data into his consciousness. Target profiles.



With a triumphant, determined grin, Willow wiped the profiles clean, and in their place constructed an image of the attacking machines themselves, as best she could from what she could see of the one she was merged with. The soldier program shuddered in confusion as his connection to the profiles fell away for a moment, but then he connected with the new profile and his concentration snapped back to the task at hand. Willow released her grip on the machine's guns and pulled herself out of the merging, falling backwards as her legs suddenly refused to support her any longer.



She struggled to her hands and knees as the hulking creature towering over her stomped around, facing its nearest neighbour, and opened fire. A spectacular explosion ripped open the back half of the thing's carapace, tossing the piloting program clear of the machine. He landed metres away, collapsing wreathed in electricity, as Willow's new ally fired again, blasting its target to scrap. The others turned but seemed unable to locate the new danger, as the rogue program targeted another of them and blasted its left leg off. Willow finally saw Tara, disc-gun in one hand, data disc in the other, duck underneath one of the intact machines and run towards her.



Tara scooped Willow up in her arms and carried her to the Sailer, lowering her into the vehicle before leaping over the side herself and activating the softly-glowing controls. Willow heard another explosion, but was still having trouble making her limbs do exactly what she wanted. She felt the beginning of another headache as well as she watched Tara dexterously manipulate the controls, and felt power shudder through the deck beneath her.



Willow's pain and weakness ebbed away enough for her to stand at Tara's side as the Solar Sailer rose off the hangar floor. A handful of discs ricocheted off the smooth hull, halfway along the thin neck connecting the control deck with the wings at the front, but they seemed to do no damage. Glancing over the side, Willow saw only two of the monster programs still standing, one aiming for another shot at the Sailer, the other her rogue, stomping towards its fellow. At the same moment it fired, tearing through the carapace of its target, Willow's attention was diverted by a brilliant flash of light from the front of the Sailer. A stream of energy had burst from its prow, passing straight through the hangar's front wall, which now was smoothly opening, splitting along an X-shaped groove into four sections which melted into the edges of the wall. Beyond, Willow saw the vast expanse of the open system, with their energy stream stretching across the horizon.



"Hold on," warned Tara, "we're about to transit." Willow put one hand around Tara and the other on the control console, steadying herself as best she could without losing the spectacular view. Tara tapped a control, and the light from the stream flowed out along the Sailer's wings, which spread and stretched, from thin, tapering dragonfly wings to huge sails fifty metres across, flickering into full solidity as the energy flowed through them. It finally reached the tips of the sails and shot back from there, past Willow and Tara on the control deck, meeting far behind them. Willow turned to see a new part of the simulation appear, first as lines of energy, then fading into being as solid matter, collecting the four beams from the sail-tips and releasing them behind them, continuing the original energy stream. Thus merged with the stream, the Sailer shot forward, leaving the hangar behind them in seconds, the geography of the system a blur beneath them.



Willow felt Tara relax, and they both sat at the rear of the control deck, leaning against the hull behind them, Tara helping Willow, though her strength was returning.



"Where are we going?" asked Willow.



"GDI, eventually," said Tara thoughtfully, "but first we're going to an I/O tower. When I was last captured, it was still a long way out of Sark's control. We should be safe there."



"What were those things?"



"Hunter-killers," answered Tara. "Sark uses them to hunt down renegade programs and terminate them. What did you do to that one?"



"Oh, I..." Willow hesitated. "I guess I confused it. Made it think the others were targets. They didn't attack me, so I could get up close to them."



"Sark must have decided not to try to recapture me," said Tara, seeming remarkably unconcerned. "But he's not willing to risk terminating you. That gives you an advantage," she finished, offering Willow a grin. Willow grinned back, then her expression clouded as she realised the opportunity she had. 'No turning back now. Do it and deal with the consequences.'



"Tara," she began, fighting off the urge to shut up, "I know why. I... I have to tell you something, about me. I don't know what you'll think, but I'd like you to- just listen to what I have to say. Will you?"



"Of course," said Tara. She was staring at Willow intently, as if she sensed the seriousness of the moment. Willow met her gaze, and had a sudden urge to reach out to her - the intensity in her eyes was magnetic. She made herself remain still.



"Tara, I'm," she began, stopped, and started again. "When I said Willow was my user, I was... well, I was afraid of what you might think. I lied. I'm so sorry..." She stopped herself. She needed to explain, quickly and properly, not get caught up trying to apologise all at once. "I am Willow," she said quietly, and she couldn't bring herself to meet Tara's gaze anymore. She looked down at her hands instead, bunched tightly together. "I'm a user. Your user. I'm Willow." She wanted, desperately, to look at Tara, to see if by some miracle there wasn't anger or betrayal in her face. But she couldn't, so she sat still, wringing her hands together.



"I know," she heard Tara say.



Edited by: Artemis at: 4/6/03 6:58:57 am
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Re: Fic: TARA (chapter 14)

Postby chilled monkey » Sun Apr 06, 2003 12:38 pm

Okay, I wasn't expecting that. Interesting indeed, I can't wait to see Willow's response.



I had wondered about what happened to Willow's other programs, thanks for clearing that up.

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Re: Fic: TARA (chapter 14)

Postby justin » Sun Apr 06, 2003 12:51 pm

What a place to end :thud



I suppose it's not surprising that Tara knows. After all she's a clever program and Willow hasn't exactly been hiding the fact that she can do almost anything.



The question is what is Tara going to do now :confused



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Re: Fic: TARA (chapter 14)

Postby Grimlock72 » Sun Apr 06, 2003 1:42 pm

Sombody is loving fractals a bit too much I think :) Though I'll glady install Willow Anti Virus, seems like a smart program, heh.



Those Hunter-Killers are pretty much the opposite of Tara aren't they ? They don't seem to adapt ever to changing circumstances. Which is what killed them eventually.



Tara is either good at figuring out things on her own (for which she was more or less designed) or she got some info from Willow when they kissed. I remember thinking that if such a link shared all memories, Tara might look at Willow a whole lot different afterwards. But she didn't.



Maybe both of them are shy to discuss that particulair topic ?



That sailing-ship reminds me of a solar-sailorship in _Star Trek: Deep Space Nine_, the one where Sisko and annoying Jake take a bonding trip on.



Interesting to read not all objects in the system are under Sarks control (yet). I do wonder how they managed to steal such a huge object like a ship off the game-grid though, someone HAS to notice that :)



P.S. You're a mighty productive writer, one chapter per day or so ? You DO sleep in between those don't you ??



Grimmy

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She(Tara) knew that she was Willow too. If she knew that then why hadn't Willow herself? That wasn't fair. She was Willow. she should have known that first. -- Willow in _Sidestep Chronicle_ (part 80)

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Re: Fic: TARA (chapter 14)

Postby sheila wt » Sun Apr 06, 2003 3:58 pm

Wow. That was a surprise! I wonder how Tara found out...



Last night, I was channel surfing and guess what? "Tron" had just started. I can't remember when I last watched it, but it has to be more than 10 years. I really didn't remember much, only the things that I read in this fic. I watched the whole thing and now it's so nice to picture and understand everything. I'm even more in awe of your work. :applause



Wonderful update, thank you!

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"She had tasted Willow on her tongue, and she had worn Willow on her skin. There wasn't a shower in the world that could have washed that away." (Terra Firma, by Tulipp)

Edited by: sheila wt at: 4/6/03 1:59:07 pm
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Re: Fic: TARA (chapter 14)

Postby WebWarlock » Sun Apr 06, 2003 4:50 pm

Actually I have been thinking this is better than "Tron". Keep in mind I loved Tron, when I was 12. This story "rings" truer.



Since Tron we have gotten the idea of a William Gibson style cyberspace, Matrix style battles, and some of us are using computers to read this that are more powerful than the ones used to make Tron! ;)



But the idea is still a compelling one.



I place this fic in league with Capt. Murdock's Equilibration. Like the Captain, Chris has taken the precious lives of Willow and Tara and transferred them to more fertile grounds. And that despite the various differences between Tara and TARA, it is wonderful to see the similarities and what is essentially their cores still come together.

More evidence for the "I will always find you" camp.



Also, like Equilibration, this fic is full of many wonderful geeky moments for me. 20 years ago I was at the local roller-rink, playing the Tron video game. I was pretty good on the light cycles, imagine my thoughts then if you had told me that the pilot of one of those cycles was woman and with her was the woman she loved.



This has been a lot of fun and I have really been enjoying this.



For the record I DID see that ending coming! But that is a good thing. You are being true to TARA. She is a damn smart program, she would have known.



Though I do have a question.



What is it with Pens' writers that always have to end in cliffhangers?

I try to work my "The Dragon and the Phoenix" episodes so that if I got hit by a truck tomorrow I wouldn't leave anyone hanging. ;)



So Chris, for all that is sacred to the users, dev/home and the all-mighty root, don't get by a truck!



Warlock

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"If this is all the gods can do, I'm over to the Darkside so fast." - Tom Servo Mystery Science Theater 3000, Episode 903 "Pumaman".

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Re: Fic: TARA (chapter 14)

Postby TemperedCynic » Sun Apr 06, 2003 5:14 pm

TARA knew. That should have occurred to me, since TARA has been calling the redhead "Willow" since they met. Not "Willow's program" but Willow. Smart, resourceful girl.



Hunter-killers are efficient, but dim. Not much of a challenge for our user. But Willow had better be careful - those headaches prove that she's overextending.



As for the "three-fold law of return", this is the Wiccan belief of cause and effect. It states that "for good or for ill, shall be returned to us threefold." Thus, Rain would think de-rezzing was a walk in the park compared to being the recipient of the three-fold law. Serves her right, grumble. As for Sark, Warren and Echelon receiving the same - *grin*.


More than any other time in history, mankind faces a crossroads. One path leads to despair and utter hopelessness. The other, to total extinction. Let us pray we have the wisdom to choose correctly. Woody Allen (1935 - )

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Re: Fic: TARA (chapter 14)

Postby Artemis » Sun Apr 06, 2003 10:44 pm

Thanks all :)



chilled monkey: I like coming up with unexpected answers. So long as I think I can justify them, of course - I'm not about to collapse the universe just because no-one would see it coming :)



justin: Well, Tara's evidently not going to up and panic - so the question is, what is Willow going to do now? I was kind of pleased when I got to writing this part and Tara turned to me and said 'duh, I *know*!' - after two chapters of 'how will Tara react?' I was sort of looking for a way to turn the eventual revelation scene into something I wasn't expecting.



Grimlock72: Hunter-Killers are big, dumb, and hideously lethal to anyone who can't dodge or deflect five incoming discs per second (which is anyone but Tara or Rain). You're right, though, they don't deal well with surprises. Incidentally - not that it's got any relevance, really - their appearance is based on something called an X-1 Viper Automadon from Star Wars. I have no idea what they are, but they look big and powerful.



The Solar Sailer is just from Tron, though I changed the look of the sails unfurling a bit, when I realised I liked describing the thing as a dragonfly. The Bajoran solar ship in DS9 does look very similar to it, but from all I've read about the design process behind that, it was just a case of both craft being based on a similar idea - at least, I've never heard the DS9 people refer to Tron when they've talked about designing the Bajoran ship, and they don't tend to hide their sources. I've never been able to work out *why* Tron has a vehicle designed to sail on solar winds that don't exist within the system, but it looks damned cool so who cares. I always thought the hero/villain aspect of Tron was reflected very effectively by their ships - Tron's sleek, elegant, artistic Solar Sailer, and Sark's huge, industrial-style, over-powered Command Carrier.



The 'open system' represents all computer systems in the world (all those that are connected to each other, anyway). Echelon controls everything within the Cycorp network, and a great deal else - the Game Grid isn't in Cycorp, for example, it's spread across a whole bunch of networks that run games. Warren really has no idea how far Echelon has spread. I imagine the Solar Sailer was stolen before Echelon and Sark secured every game network in sight and consolidated them all inside the Game Grid.



I do sleep occasionally, but I've got a lot of free time. Benefit of being a freelance writer: when I just need to write a story, I don't have to wait until the end of the working day to do it. The drawback is I never have any money, but nothing's perfect :)



sheila wt: You're lucky, it's been years since Tron got aired on TV here, and I doubt it's ever going to be again (unless a sequel comes out and they want a bit of cross-promotion). The new Tron DVD is the main reason I'm annoyed that my TV doesn't have the ability to hook up to a DVD player. Well, that and the Farscape sets.



WekWarlock: Well I'm very much in awe of Equilibration (being a qualified Trekkie, I even get the obscure trivia references), so I'm overjoyed to have TARA compared to it :)



I promise not to get hit by a truck. I do have to go out today (a local store is running a Star Trek trivia night, so naturally I'm going to take a shot at winning all their shiney prizes), but I assure you I'm good at avoiding traffic.



I decided to end this chapter there mainly because it had run about six pages already, and I tend to set chapters at about four and a half. I didn't want to end it on Willow saying 'I'm a user' because that's kind of cliche'd, but I did want to show where the next chapter was going - the explanations - so I couldn't end it before that was evident. I enjoy coming up with not-quite-cliffhangers.



(Just between you and me, I haven't trusted standard cliffhangers - which ending on Willow's line would have been - since the season 5-6 Star Trek Voyager double episode. The finished the season with Voyager under attack by pissed-off aliens, their shields collapsed, and one of them materialised on the bridge and flew straight at Janeway's head - basically, worst scenario possible, ship and captain about to get killed. Beginning of the next episode: Janeway ducks and raises the shields. Not a satisfying cliff-hanger resolution.)



TemperedCynic: Well, Willow said in the maze that she was named after User Willow, so she didn't quite give it away (but yeah, if she'd been intent on concealing her identity, she could have done a better job). And yeah, Willow is pushing herself - out of necessity, but that doesn't mean it's not a problem.



Oh, okay - I know about the three-fold law, I just didn't remember that's what its name was. I've got something like that in store for our villains - their fates are tailored to suit their personalities. I'm still working on the exact details of Rain; Sark and Warren are taken care of.

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