What Hurts The Most (updated 03/27)

[cantbefredless]

Title: What Hurts the Most

Author: Stef

Disclaimer: I own none of these characters. Joss Whedon owns them all.

Summary: Willow tells Tara how she feels about her but Tara doesnt and never gets the chance but she is given a second chance somehow to tell willow how she feels and maybe to change everything else too

Feedback: Sure people always like feedback.

E-mail: Cantbefredless@yahoo.com

Spoilers: Nope at all.

Distribution: Sure just don’t say steal it and say your wrote it.

Rating: I’m going to go with PG-13 to R. ( mainly cause of the Angst.)

Pairing: Well lets see Willow and Tara eventually. I promise willow and tara will be together

Author's Note: This story came to me while watching the video of “what hurts the most” by rascal flatts and other songs to. Therefore, there is going to be Angst.
Note 2: The Lyrics are the song “what’s hurts the most” By Rascal Flatts, and “bring on the rain” by Jo Dee Messina
Thoughts are in <>
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It was the Perfect day for Tara and Willow, the sun was shiny and it wasn’t to hot. Tara was in light blue jeans and a Blue tank top, while Willow was wearing dark blue jeans and a light pink t-shirt. They were at their favorite spot to hangout together, an empty flied with an abounded barn where the girls will hang out and talk about anything that was on their minds.

“So what are you thinking about?” Willow asked sitting on a beam in the barn.

“Well if I told you I would have to kill you now” Tara laughed

“Oh come on you tell me everything,” The redhead pouted

“Well since your pouting, the future, you know when were don’t with high school since this are last year and where will we be? You know stuff like that’ Blonde answer as she lowered her head and found a piece of straw that looks fun to play with.

“I wasn’t pouting, but I know what you mean I wonder to would we be together or would you go to a different college then me which I doubt will happen cause where ever you go ill go no matter what.” Jumping off the beam and taking a sit in front of Tara. “So you’re stuck with me cause we promised each other to be together, best friends always stick together but you know now stick together like joined at the hip but I go where you go unless if your going to the bathroom or taking a shower or the doctors office but now you got me babbly like some idiot” Taking a deep breath she look over at Tara who’s head was still down. < well one day hopefully more then just friends >

Lifting her head she look into the green eyes she fallen in love with < I need to ask her > “Will? If you could be with anybody at all for the rest of your life, who would it be? And be honest please”

“Anybody now? Well let’s see there is that well.. Jessica Alba” she joked and starting laughing in till she say the serious look on Tara’s face “Ok one person I will want to be with till the end of time is.. You and no jokes” looking down at her watch she notice it was time to go home “ok well we have to start going before it gets dark you ready?”

Tara only nodded and they started walking to Willows little blue car. Ten minutes later Willow pulled into a driveway of a two-story house that had light yellow painting around and a small porch going around the house.

Tara started to open the door when willow stopped

“Oh not so fast Tara you got to answer me one question ok?” Tara only nodded “What do you see?”

Knowing what she meant Tara learned over, placed a small kiss on willows lips, walked out of the car, and went into the house leaving a surprise Willow in the driveway.

Slowly pulling out of the driveway Willow was still surprised over the kiss. < wow she kissed me, but she didn’t answer my question, maybe she’s scared or she doesn’t want to hurt me hmm I don’t know> Willow kept driving and didn’t notice the light changed red and the next thing she knew her world turned black and her lost thoughts were of Tara. Meanwhile Tara was in here bedroom laying on her bed just thinking about the day. < why could I just say I say you and that I love you I know she feels the same ok ill tell her tomorrow at school yup tomorrow at school >

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1 Week Later

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go
But

The Radio went flying across the room hitting the wall and smashing the little radio into a nothing.

“What happen I heard a something breaking” An older blonde woman came running into the room seeing her daughter on the bed almost in tears.

“Nothing I just didn’t like the song that’s all.” trying to make her mom believe she was alright

“Tara do you want to talk about cause no one just throws a radio at the wall while almost in tears for no reason.” Miss Maclay said while taking a sit at the end of her daughters bed.

“NO I don’t ok can you just leave me alone about it” Tara said while getting off the bed and walking toward her bedroom door.

“Where are you going?”

“Just out for a walk to clear my head” With that Tara walked out of her room and out of the house slamming the font door as she did so.

“What was that about?” Mrs. Maclay said while looking at his wife still sitting on her daughter’s bed.

“I don’t know, I asked her if she wanted to talk about it and she just got angry and left.” Getting up she sighed. < Goddess if someone can just get her to open up and talk about it > “I just think…”

“Think what?”

“that they were closing then we think they were like they were you know in a relationship” Picking up a Picture of a 16 year old Tara in light blue jeans and a blue tank top standing next to a 16 year old Redhead wearing Dark blue jeans and a light pink t-shirt. “I don’t know. They where just so close.” Putting the picture down, she walked out of the room and shut the door.

“hmm I don’t know either all I know is she is taking it pretty heard.” Walking with his wife into the kitchen “ Well I’m going to go to the store and see if I can find Tara walking and try to talk to her” With that he started to walk to the front door but kissed his wife on the cheek before completely leaving.

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Tara Didn’t even notice it was raining because her mind was on one thing only. < I love you and I wish I could say it to you. I am such a coward why could not I say them to you and now I will never be able to say them to you at all. > She did not even hear a truck pull up beside her and her dad calling her.

“TARA!” he yelled trying to get his daughters attention.

“Huh? What?” Tara finally snapping out of her thoughts looking around to see who called her. Seeing her dad, she walked over to the truck.

“Get in the truck tare your soaking wet; I don’t want you to catch a cold”
Tara only nodded and walked over to the passenger side and got into the truck.

Silences surround them for a few minutes

Pulling into a parking spot, Mrs. Maclay turn to his daughter “I’ll just be a minute unless you want to come in with me?”

“No its ok ill be here” was all she said as he exited his truck and walked in the store. Trying to find something to keep her minds off of things. Turning the radio all she heard was.

It’s almost like the hard times circle ‘round
A couple drops and they all start coming down
Yeah, I might feel defeated,
I might hang my head
I might be barely breathing - but I’m not dead
Tomorrow’s another day
And I’m thirsty anyway
So bring on the ra-

Changing the dial to at least find some music that inst depressing. < Stupid country music always trying to make cry always these sad songs on > she thought as she just turn off the radio knowing only country stations came in clear.

“Ok ready to go home and eat some of your mom delicious cooking? He said while getting into the truck and putting it into drive. Tara only nodded her head and just went back staring out the window.

The drive home was very quite, both of their mind were on other things and didn’t he didn’t know what to say to his daughter and she didn’t want to talk at all. When the finally got home Tara went straight to her room, John went to the kitchen.

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TBC.........

[viximon]

What a start, buddy. Now that both of them were about to do something about their relationship you blew the oportunity away... Poor Tara, being angry because sad hurts too much.
What about Willow ?

Update soon to see what's now.

[Willowtree252]

I can tell this is going to be a good one.

[AlysonGoddess]

i know the song.. dang this is gunna be depressing..

erin

[cantbefredless]

Ok i am in the middle of writing the update right now.. so i promise there's going to be an update before Tuesday i wanted to put an update on friday but sadly after i posted the first part i got really busy planing a party and everything got off track but now i am on track and want to thank everybody who is liking this story. also here is my feedback to the people who feedback.

viximon ~ Dont worry about willow she'll be back somehow.. someway!

Dianneswillowtree~ thanx all i can hope that it will be a good one

AlysonGoddess ~ yeah but i promise things wont be depressing for long tho..

Well im going back to work...Laters Kittens

[Guppy]

Great start. I like Tara's home life and that they want to help her. I definately understand Tara's response.

[cantbefredless]

Ok here is the update. Most of this is a flashback. Hope you will enjoy it.

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The next morning Theresa went into Tara’s room to wake her daughter for school. Walking over to the bed Theresa sat down putting her hand on Tara’s shoulder.

“Tara its time to get up” Theresa said while gently shaking her daughter out of sleep.

An Urgh, rolling over and the blanket going over her daughters head, was the only response she got. “Come on sweetie I made breakfast and you have to eat since you didn’t last night” getting up and opening the window to let the light in she heard Tara groan, Oh come on sweetie, I’ll have dad give you a ride today”

Tara finally sat up in bed and looking at her mother, her eyes were red and bloodshot from crying all night and not sleeping. Finally standing up, Tara stretched and head to the bathroom to take a shower without saying anything to her mom.

Theresa walked back into the kitchen where John was sitting at the island drinking coffee and reading the newspaper.

“How is she this morning?” John asked without looking away from the newspaper.

“She’s up and taking a shower and wasn’t crying like last time but I doubt she got sleep her eyes were bloodshot, Puffy and red so she was probably crying before I came in. I told her that you are going to drive her today. It kind of reminds me of her first day of school here”

*Flashback*

9 years earlier.

“B-but mama I d-don’t want to g-go” A six year old Tara begged her mom while never letting go off her mom leg as the walked.

“Sweetie its okay nothing bad is going to happen to you and were already here, Tara can you please let go of my leg so I won’t fall.” Tara just tightened her grip as Theresa opened the door to the 1st grade class. “I promise you will love school sweetie.” Walking in a bit they were both greeted by a young dark haired woman that looked to be in her older 20’s.

“Hello there you must be Ms. Maclay right?” extending her hand “I’m Miss Calendar”

Taking the hand and shaking it Theresa answered “Yes and this is Tara, Tara say hello to Miss Calendar.” Letting go of her mom’s leg she then hide behind her mom.

“She’s shy, we just moved here and everything so is a little scared” Addressing Miss. Calendar.

“its ok must kids are scared of there first day of 1st grade” Kneeling down to meet the little blonde. “hey there its okay Tara no one is going to hurt you.” finding some comfort in the young ladies voice Tara walked out behind her mother and extended her hand which Miss. Calendar took. “I-I’m T-Tara”

Shaking her hand “I’m Miss Calendar” letting go of the little hand she stood back up.

“Sweetie I need to get going” Kneeling down and give Tara a hug “be a good girl now.” Pulling back, she kissed Tara’s Forehead. I love you sweetie” Standing up and looking at Miss Calendar “its was nice to meet you”

“Nice to meet you to” Miss Calendar replied.

Watching her mom leave, she felt a hand suddenly on hers.

“Ok let me show you where your desk is Tara” Leading Tara to the back of the room where there was a Dark haired boy sitting on a redheads desk “Mrs. Harris shouldn’t you be in you sit and not sitting on Ms. Rosenberg’s desk?” Watching the young boy jump off the desk and run to the desk in front of the redhead, and sitting in it. Looking down at Tara “here is you desk, if you need anything raise you hand or come up and ask me ok?” Tara only nodded and sat down, watching the teacher go about showing kids where they sit and talking to their parents.

“Hi I’m Willow” turning to face the redhead Tara only smiled as willow continued to talk. “And that’s-“

“I’m Xander and you are cute” Xander Jumped in cutting Willow off and making Tara blush.

“Xander don’t emb- emb-, um make her blush” Willow said while blushing a little.

“to big of a word for the wilster?” Xander said while trying to stif a giggle.

“Why don’t you say it then xan?” Trying to defend herself

“I will, let the man do it” Both girls giggled at xander “ ya ya giggle all you want, here it goes, Embe- ambes- Fine it’s a hard word to say, but you still don’t win”

“Y-you m-mean E-embarrassed?” Both Willow and Xander look at Tara shocked.

“Ok she wins” Xander admitted.

“Is it ok that we be your friends, if you want to, but its ok if you don’t cause you just met us but it will be cool to have you as a friend not just cause your smart or that your cute and.” stopping herself willow took a deep breathe and blushed redder then her hair. Hearing the blonde giggled made Willow go even redder. “What?” Wonder what caused the blonde to giggled.

“Y-you, your f-funny, a-and I w-would l-love to b-be your g-guys f-friend. I-I’m T-Tara, A-also y-your c-cute too” Tara said while blushing and making Willow blushing even more.

Unknown to them Theresa was at the door watching her daughter. Now walking away with a huge smile on her face.

*end flashback*

“After that day those three couldn’t be separated” Showing a sad smile, She turned to her husband, who was still reading the newspaper. “Do you want eggs or anything honey?”

“No thanks darling.” Never taking his eyes off the newspaper.

Seeing Tara walking into the kitchen. “Hi Tara, what do you want for breakfast, eggs, pancakes or cereal?” Hoping she will eat something at least.

“Cereal is fine. Hi daddy” Trying to put on a happy face.

Five minutes later Tara was done eating, if you can even call that eating, it was just five minutes pushy the soggy cereal with the spoon and taking only a couple of bites.

“Tara we better get going are you going to be late for school” John told his daughter, turning to face his Wife “Bye darling love you” taking the keys off the holder and walking out the front door to his truck.

With her books in her hand, she started to walk to the front door when her mom stopped her and gave her a hug. “Bye sweetie. Have some fun ok?” pulling back she kissed Tara’s forehead. “I love you”

“I love you too mom” Tara said before walking out the door and into the truck.

“Ok let’s go” John said while pulling out of the driveway.

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TBC.......

[BigBlueEyes]

YAY! I love it! It's great, I can't wait for the next update. You do a great job!

[BigBlueEyes]

YAY! I love it! It's great, I can't wait for the next update. You do a great job!

[tarawillowfan562]

great update loving the story so far cant wait till next update

[viximon]

AWWWWWWWWW How cute. That flashback about first day at school was adorable. Kids can be so cutes. So Xanders enter the story, good way to put him.
Hope you update soon to read how Tara move on ect. Keep the story up!

[cantbefredless]

Guppy~ Thanks i always read stories where Tara's home life is unpleasant and i didnt want that in this one..

BigBlueEyes~ Thanks and welcome to the board too and im glad you love it..

tarawillowfan562~ all i can say is Thank you, hopefully i can make you love the rest of the story too

viximon~ i couldnt help myself with this flashback, Tara moving on over willow... haha if only you knew what is going to happen in the next part!!! opps i said to much

Thanks you for you feedback, it made me hehe update will be later on tonight or earlier tomorrow morning im working on it and it almost finish.

[cantbefredless]

I wanted to keep a part of the song in each story like lryics which you see in the first part but not the second cause it was all a flash back, so the lryics at the begin is "what hurts the most" by Rascal Flatts. Hope you will enjoy!

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i'm doin it
It's hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and i'm alone
Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, livin with this regret
But i know if i could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that i saved in my heart that i left unspoken

Waving good bye to her dad, Tara made her way to the doors of Sunndale High. After inside the school, Tara walked straight to her English class, hoping no one would stop and talk to her, but her hopes were lost when Buffy and Xander ran up to her.

“Hey Tare you came today” Xander trying to make small talk, hoping that it will go somewhere.

Tara just shrugged her shoulders and kept walking.

“Well were glad to see you,” Buffy said right before the bell rang.

It only took a couple of steps to get to class, but unfortunate everybody she knew shared this class with her even willow. Walking into the class, she sat in near the back of the class with Xander behind her and Buffy in front of her. After the late bell rang, the teacher took attendance but Tara’s mind was already somewhere else. Looking over at an empty desk right next to her < and it will always be empty. > Tara thought. She sat there starting at the empty desk what seemed like forever. She didn’t even notice she was crying, but Xander saw her crying and decided to comfort her, reached out his arm, once it made contact to Tara’s back, Tara got up out of her seat and took off out the class room. Everybody watched Tara take off, Then Buffy got up and took Tara’s stuff she felt and walked out of the class hearing the teacher yell

“Miss Summers Get back into class now”

“Shut up”

Everybody in class looked at Xander with their mouth hanging open.

“What did you say Harris?” The Shocked English Teacher replied.

“I think he said Shut up” A brunette girl piped up.

“Miss Chase would you like to go to the principals office with the others” he asked

“Would you like to lose you job” Xanders was getting ever more anger.

“Students aren’t allowed to leave class without a good excuse and they aren’t allowed to talk back to the teacher either” The teacher getting even anger.

“I got a good excuse my good friend and she use to be in this class so I think that’s a good excuse” Cordelia replied.

“I Look I know the lost of Miss Rosenberg is hard but it doesn-“

“You don’t get to say that like you were her friend you didn’t even know her so Shut up, were leaving class” Walking to the door, Cordelia look at Xander who was looking at the empty desk. Xander look up at the teacher, stood, and walked straight to the teacher.

“You didn’t know willow like we did and if we want to leave class cause we cant stand to see that empty desk, then we will leave! We loved Willow, NO We love Willow and always will so if you don’t mind I’ll be Leaving” With that Xander walked over to Corderlia. Both of them walked out of class with tears falling down freely.

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Walking into the bathroom Buffy could hear someone crying in one of the stalls. Looking under the stalls, she found Tara kneeling down on the ground. Opening the stall door just in time to see Tara puke. Pulling back Tara’s hair, Buffy started to rub Tara’s back. After a few minutes Tara Had nothing left she sat on the floor and pulled her knees to her chest. Sitting next to Tara on the floor Buffy pulled Tara so her head can lay in her lap. Rubbing Tara’s back to comfort her, Tara finally spoke.

“I miss H-her so m-much Buffy it hurts s-so b-badly” Tara broke down even more in Buffy’s lap.


“I know and we all do, and we all know she should still be here and its hurts knowing that she isn’t here with us anymore, but we still have each other” Buffy choked out and joined Tara in the sobs.

After a Few minutes passed they heard the bathroom door open and Cordelia walk in a bit then back to the door.

“Yeah Xander their in here” Cordelia half yelled, then walked back into the bathroom.

“Hey you two ready to get yelled at by the principal, and then we can all hangout in the library with Giles.” Trying to bring some cheer into what she said but it came out more depressed and sad then she wanted it to.

Getting up off the floor, Buffy looked at Cordelia, “Why are we getting yelled at?”

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A hour later everybody found themselves in the library, just starting off in the distance. Everybody lost in their own thoughts. Finding the Silence uncomfortable Xander spoke up.

“Hey anybody hungry cause I could go get some doughnuts or something?” Looking around the room everybody nodded beside Tara.

“I’ll go with you Xan, This whole no one talking thing is creeping me out anyway, anyway I got a car too” Cordelia pointed out.

“Ok Then we will be back in about oh I saw twenty minutes” Both of them walked out of the library.

“I t-think am g-going t-to go to t-the b-bathroom” Standing up Buffy looked up at Tara.

“Do you want me to go with you?” Buffy started to stand up before Tara Cut her off.

“No its ok you stay h-here” Tara Walked out of the Library.

Once out of the library Tara took off running to where she had no ideal, all she knew is that she needed to run. After a few Minutes Tara found herself running down the same street Willow was last one but she kept running. Unknown to Tara a Semi Driver wasn’t paying attention to the road but instead to a candy bar he dropped on the floor and trying to find it.

Still Running, Tara Ran straight into a intersection, and at that same time the Semi was going through the Intersection. Before Tara could do anything at all a Bright like surrounded her and blinded her, then darkness took its place. < Ok what the frilly heck is going on here? > Tara thought trying to explain if she was died or alive. < Well the last thing I remember is an almost being hit by a semi. Maybe I died, if I’m died then why am I sitting and why is it cold, Maybe I’m not died and just-> Tara was brought out of her thoughts when she heard the strangest, yet the most peaceful voice she ever heard.

“So what are you thinking about?”

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TBC.........

[writerfreak]

heartwrenching, but very intriguing, i cant wait to see where youll go with this next.



writerfreak

[viximon]

that was so..so sad
It's hard to see how Willow friends (specially Tara but hey she's more than friend I think he he) go on missing the redhead and stuff.
And then Tara go all crazy with pain running blinding aroung and got herself killed...or hit...or something ¿What exactly had happen?
I love your fic, keep it up I want to read more and see how it go.
Besides, Either Tara no Willow did get the chance to say to each other her feelings (though both of them knew in a unconscient way). You have to give them that much.
Update soon
See you next chap

[Willowlover]

omg. This story is so sad. It's nice to see how Wills friends reacted. they really loved her. It shows in how they acted in your last update (well it showed with Tara pretty much right away).

cant wait for more.

[AlysonGoddess]

hmmm interesting sry dont have much to say other than that but great update and update soon plz!
Erin

[cantbefredless]

Thank you for the lovely feedback and here is my Replies.. Aslo The next part is going to long and be up tomorrow for sure! Now to the Replies!

writerfreak~ Im glad your intriged by this... and your see where i go with this.. hopefully this next chapter is going to be a shock.. all i can do is

viximon~ I knew i wanted to see everybody else deal with the death of Willow so it didnt seem that willow and tara were only friends but what happen to tara, your have to wait and read it, and i love that fact that you love me fic it makes me do a happy

Willowlover ~ Well hopefully the next part wont be as sad... i know i had to let everybody else know that willow was loved not only by tara but her friends at school.

AlysonGoddess~ its ok i love feedback of any types... and i am trying to do an update every three days but the next part is longer then the others!

Thanx Kitten for reading and for the Feedback.. im going to go finish the next chapter!

[cantbefredless]

just to be safe this has a Nc-17 rating,, also please tell me if i did anything wrong cause this would be my first sex sence i wrote and i dont have a lot of knownledge in that area but hpefully your enjoy this update!

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Previously…..
Still Running, Tara Ran straight into a intersection, and at that same time the Semi was going through the Intersection. Before Tara could do anything at all a Bright like surrounded her and blinded her, then darkness took its place. < Ok what the frilly heck is going on here? > Tara thought trying to explain if she was died or alive. < Well the last thing I remember is an almost being hit by a semi. Maybe I died, if I’m died then why am I sitting and why is it cold, Maybe I’m not died and just-> Tara was brought out of her thoughts when she heard the strangest, yet the most peaceful voice she ever heard.

“So what are you thinking about?”
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What hurts the most, is being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
And never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do

not seein that lovin you
that’s what I was tryin to do…

“So what are you thinking about?” a familiar voice asked

< No, it’s a dream she isn’t here > Tara thought

“Tara? Are you okay?”

“It’s a dream. It’s a dream.” Tara chanted over and over.

“What’s a dream? Tara you’re scaring me” The voice getting closer to Tara.

“You not here, you can’t be here” Tara pulling her knees to her chest, rocking back and forth, while tears streamed down her face.

“Tara baby what’s wrong?” Finally reaching Tara, A hand landed on Tara’s shoulder.

< It’s a dream, but it feels so real > looking up Tara found herself looking into those familiar green eyes she fall in love with < please let it be real please tell me that is really willow and she is really here. > “A-am I d-died?” Tara’s voice was tiny and unsure.

“Umm no, Tara please tell me what’s wrong?” Willow ask, kneeling down in front of Tara.

Tara Lugged into Willow, knocking them both to the ground. Holding willow as tight as she could, thinking if she let go willow would just disappear.

“Oxygen becoming an issues” Willow gasped out.

Loosening her grip only a little. Tara started to sob into Willow’s shoulder. The only thing Willow knew what to do was run her hands through Tara’s ear and whisper words of love into Tara’s ear.

After a few minutes pass Tara stopped sobbing. Lifting her head from Willow’s shoulder, she saw will laying there staring back at her. Leaning in she kissed kiss Willow on her lips. Willow was a little shocked but soon relaxed into the kiss. Wanting more, Tara opened her mouth a little and licked willows bottom lip. Accepting willow opened her mouth and deepened the kiss. After a few moments of exploring each other mouths, they parted for air.

“Y-your r-real and Alive” Tara spoke.

“Aren’t I usually?” Willow asked.

“I don’t k-know h-how but I g-got a s-second c-chance w-with y-you” Moving to sit up she was held back down by willow.

“No moving, I want snuggles here, and second chance when did we go out before?” Willow still confused on what is going on.

“I, I” tears started to fall again

“Shh its okay we don’t have to talk about, anyway I think we should start going” Willow started to get up pulling Tara with her but was pushed back down by Tara.

“No, I let you go once, I’m not letting you go again, I don’t know how, but I was given a second chance to change things” Tara learned in a kissed Willow before she could reply.

They didn’t know who deepened the kiss but it didn’t matter. Pulling away from Willow’s lips, Tara kissed her way to the pulse point, hearing willow moan when Tara sucked at her pulse point. Knowing that there will be a nice mark there Tara blew on it making willow shiver. Moving back to Willows lips, the kiss was urgent and soon their hands were lifting each others t-shirts off. Breaking the kiss to pull off the t-shirts, their lips met back together before their tops even hit the ground. Moving her hand to Tara’s back, she unclasped Tara’s bra, letting it fall slowly down Tara’s arms. Pulling away from Tara’s lips, willow made her way to Tara’s ear, whispering “I love you Tara” before biting on Tara’s earlobe.

Moaning she answered back “I love you too willow.” Moving her hands behind willows back Tara pulled willow to make the red head learn forward, unclasping the bra Tara threw it off.

Laying back down Willow rolled Tara on to her back. Looking into each other’s half naked self’s, they both whispered “Beautiful” at the same time. With both hands on each side of Tara, Willow placed a soft kissed on Tara’s lips before moving across her jaw line, down her collarbone. Reaching the beginning of Tara’s left breast, willow kissed around Tara’s nipple before taking the nipple into her mouth. Hearing moans from Tara willow knew she was doing something right. Letting go of Tara’s breast she kissed her way to the right breast. Taking her left hand she teased Tara’s wet nipple while sucking on the other one. Slowly starting a rocking motion with their hips. Willow kissed her way lower. Reaching the hem of Tara’s jean, willow stood up on her knees. Placing her left hand on the button of Tara’s jean, look at Tara for permission. Once she found it she slowly unbutton Tara’s jean and pulled the zipper down. Slowly removing Tara’s jean with her underwear, once completely off willow lay back down coving Tara completely with her body. Kissing Tara’s neck, willow’s hand made its way between their bodies. Reaching Tara’s fine hairs, she slowly dipped into Tara’s sex. Hearing Tara’s moan when she found her clit, willow moved it between two of her fingers.

“Willow… I want you inside” Tara said breathless.

Lifting her hand to look at Tara, willow slowly moved her hand lower. Finding Tara’s opening she slowly dipped her middle finger in but Tara bucked her hips taking Willow finger all the way in. Hearing Tara Gasped and Wince, She stopped all movements.

“Are you ok? I hurt you didn’t I?” Willow slowly started to pull ok.

“No, I’m fine p-please don’t s-stop.” Tara breathed out.

Willow slowly moved inside Tara trying as hard as she could to not hurt Tara. Putting both of her hands on Willows Cheeks, she pulled willow down to her lips. Feeling Tara’s muscle tighten around her finger willow pulled away from the Tara’s lips and started into Tara’s eyes.

“WILLOOOW” Tara screamed as her orgasm ripped through her body.

Ridding out the rest of Tara’s orgasm, she pulled out slowly earning a whimper and a wince from Tara.

Once her breathing was normal she whispered “I love you willow” Pulling willow into a soft kiss.

“I love you too,” Willow said as she pulled away from the kiss and rested her head on Tara’s shoulder. Silences surround them for a few moments. Smiling Tara rolled willow on to her back and simply said “your turn” then kissed willow.

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An hour later Tara found herself in willow car pulling into her driveway. Stopping the car willow learned over to Tara who didn’t the same thing.

“Drive careful and pay attention, just drive safely please” Tara placed a soft kissed on willow’s lips.

“I promise. And ill call once I get home, I love you” Willow kissed Tara’s forehead.
“I love you too wil” Getting out of the vehicle, Tara watched willow pull out of her driveway and down the street. Walking inside her house, she heard her mom in the kitchen.

“Hey sweetie, your home” Theresa half yelled.

“hey, yeah I’m sorry about being home late, is dad still at works” Tara said while walking into the kitchen.

“No, but he should be home soon.” Theresa said with out looking up from cooking.

Moving over to the counter Tara pulled her self up and sat down. “Mom can I have something to tell you.”

“Sweetie you can tell me anything” Theresa stopping everything to give her daughter her full attention.

“I don’t want you or dad to hate me, but I’m in love with willow” Tara watched her mothers face planning on seeing a bad reaction but only get a smile.

“I know sweetie”

“No, I mean like she is my girlfriend way, the love of myself way.” Tara explained and only got a britghter smile from her mom.

“I know”

“You know. does dad know?” Tara getting a little worried.

“I don’t know if he knows about you and willow, but he knows you aren’t boy crazy” Theresa said while she went back to cooking.

“And you guys are ok with it? Not really believing what was going on.

“Yes we are, Tara your are daughter and we love you no matter what” Theresa said

Jumping down from the counter Tara gave her mom a huge hug. “I love you “

“I love you too,, now go take a shower so you clean for dinner, you look like you been playing around in the mud.” Theresa didn’t see her daughter blush only heard her run off to the bathroom.

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Walking into her room with only a towel on, Tara looked at the clock and notice its been almost an hour since willow left and she still haven’t called. She heard the front door open and her dad calling her mom. Tara right then and there got sick to her stomach and the world started to get dizzy. Sitting down at the end of the bed. She remembered this all this happening before.

*Flashback*

Tara sat at the end of her bed waiting for tomorrow to come so she can see willow. Hearing the front door open and her dad calling her mom. She couldn’t really here them but she could tell something was wrong, her parents didn’t fight unless something really bad happened. Feeling sick to her stomach Tara just sat there. Hearing footsteps coming toward her door, everything went into slow motion. The doorknob turning, and its opening to two very teary eyed parents.

“Tara there was an accident, I’m so sorry” Theresa said before breaking down.

“Mom? Dad? What happen who was in the accident?” getting up Tara looked into her moms eyes and knew. “Willow” Tara whispered whishing is was not her.

“I’m sorry sweetie, god I’m so sorry,” John said while taking a step to Tara who only back away.

“s-she’s g-going to b-be a-alright?” Tara asked in a small child like voice.

“I’m so sorry sweetie, she didn’t make it,” John said taking another step to his daughter who only back away again.

“No” Tara yelled

Taking another step to his daughter, Tara started throwing her fist into his chest will screaming. Wrapping his arms around Tara to clam her down, Tara grabbed her t-shirt and broke down into his arms, her knees Buckled, John led his daughter to the floor and rocked her back and forth as she sobbed.

*flashback*

< no this isn’t happening again, Willow is fine> Tears falling down her face as she watched the doorknob turn and open.
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TBC.........

[tarebear]

hi stef! i have just read through what you've got posted so far and i must say you got me real intrigued here... especially the last two updates with those cliffhangery-type endings... really heart-wrenching to see tara so miserable after willow's death and not being able to tell her how she felt before she died... but it seems, she has been given a second chance with her and tara didn't wait another second to tell her about her feelings for the redhead... but with everything happening the same for tara the night she got the terrible news... with her in her room, hearing the front door close and her parents downstairs talking about something even down to the footsteps and her door slowly opening, i'm sure tara just can't stop herself from thinking about that fateful night when her life turned upside down.

can't wait for the next update... i echo tara's thoughts:

no this isn’t happening again, Willow is fine

[Amberslover]

WOW Stef! This is great! I love the Rascal Flatts song and how you built the story around it. So suspenseful! The JoDee Messina song was a nice touch too. Keep up the good work and I look forward wholeheartedly to the next update!




Amberslover

[Willowtree252]

you are so wrong to give us alittile and then leave us hanging wrong I say but you do it so well.

[Willowlover]

Holy Crap. Wow. okay breathing now. This update was beyond to good for words. A nice little twist. I'm almost afraid to see the next update. Pease don't let willow be dead.

[viximon]

Gaa!! If this was really a second chance, Willow has to be allright.
It is'n fair to just get to say goodbye and I love you
That was a pretty intense chapter. I want to read next so bad. You just are a cliffhanger to torture us or something.

Update soon, see you around

[eirnlove]

eaay <))) awesome.

give us something gooooooood.

[cantbefredless]

I Promise with an update in a couple of hours... Also This Chapter will be the last for this story.. its going to tie up everything...also it will give me time to write another story i been working on for the last week. Well here is my feedback to all of the kittens lovely feedback i got!

tarebear~ ok im sitting here blank out of my head... trying to reply to feedbacks special yours.. and i dont know why, but im really happy you are intrigrued, see now im all blank again,,, but thank you for the feedback it makes me all smiley!!

Amberslover~ The JoDee Messina was only added cause i was listening to it at that moment and im glad you thougt it was a nice touch.. Well thank you for loving how i bluit a story around it... well i took must sence from the video and put it in here, cause it would be just wrong to take the ideal from the video adn song and not add that in here!! and hopefully this last chapter will be a good ending all i can do is ary

Dianneswillowtree~ i know im a evil... but yay im doing it right.. but wont be to evil in the next part!

Willowlover~ Dont be afraid to read the next update, and Wow to good for words that made me all happy and doing a happy dance

viximon~ how did you find out i was torturing you guys with cliffhangers. that would be really evil of me to go kill willow again i tryed to make it intense!

eirnlove~ glad you think its awesome and to you something good lets see Peanut butter and strawberry jelly go good on bread... thats something good...

Ok See ya a few hours with the last part of this story.. and sorry that its a short story too!

[cantbefredless]

Ok here is the last chapter, I love all of your feedback and thank you Kittens for reading this!!!!! also i have another story in the works, but it will be a longer story then this... well here is the update!


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Previously…..
< no this isn’t happening again, Willow is fine> Tears falling down her face as she watched the doorknob turn and open.
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1 Week Later


I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go
But-

*click*

“That song is to depressing, I mean who wants to hear a sad song first thing when your getting up I for one don’t want to its like waking up to frogs wait no frogs are scary not –“ laughing stopped willow’s babble “What?”

“You and your morning willow babble.” Tara laughed, then pulled willow closer to snuggle with her.

*flashback*

Walking in through the front door, willow was greeted by to angry parents.

“Where have you been? You were supposed to be home over an hour ago.” Shelia half yelled.

“I was with Tara, Sorry I should have called” Willow said softly.

“Some how I don’t believe that” Ira spoke up then pointed at willow’s neck “Who gave you that? Was it that boy xander? You are grounded young lady” Ira said with angry.

“No it wasn’t Xander, Tara gave that to me” Willow almost yelled it out. “Tara and me are in love with each other” Willow’s face a grew a huge smile on her face, but it soon faded.

“Willow you are not in love with that girl” Sheila told her daughter.

“Yes I am, I’m deeply, madly, hopelessly in love with Tara, and she isn’t a girl she’s a goddess” Willow half yelled.

“We will not accept this lifestyle in my house” Ira yelled.

“What lifestyle, I’m still willow, I just happen to love a woman, a beautiful goddess, who makes me happy” Willow yelled.

“Willow you are not allowed in this house anymore, in till you change you ways” Ira yelled back.

“What? You’re kicking me out for living Tara?” willow couldn’t believe it.

“Goodbye willow” Ira walked out of the room.

“Mom you guys cant be serious, I’m your daughter” Willow pleaded.

“Goodbye Willow” Sheila said with tears in her eyes.

“Fine, its doesn’t matter, you were never their for me when I was younger, why would I think you would be here for me now” Walking toward the front door willow reached into her pocket. “You guys can have all of my stuff and even this, I don’t want anything that reminds me of you” Willow dropped her keys on the ground. Slamming the door when she walked out of her house. Willow headed off in the direction of Tara’s house. After ten minutes of walking, a truck pulled next to willow.

“Hey Willow, get in here your soaking” The man yelled out.

“Thanks Mrs. Maclay.” Willow said getting into the truck.

“How many times do I have to tell you to call me John. Where are you heading Willow?” John asked driving away from where he picked up the red head.

“To your house actually” Willow said staring out the Window.

“What happen to your car?”

“I don’t have it anymore, actually I don’t own anything anymore” Tears started to fall.

Pulling into his drive way, John looked over at Willow. “What happen?”

“I got kicked out for-“ Stopping in mind sentence not knowing if she should tell him why.

“Got kicked out for what?, It wasn’t drugs was it?” John asked.

“No not drugs but for beinginlovewithyourdaughter” Willow rushed the ending of it so he would getting it.

“Oh I see” John said with a smile on his face. “A few rules you got to know about living here, and dating my daughter, One No sex, Two No sex, Three you guy may share a room but No Sex” John said seriously though he had a smile on his face.

“What?” Being completely confused.

Getting out of his truck. “Well you going to need a place to live and I will not have you living on the streets.”

“Huh? You accept Tara for being gay and your letting me live with you?” Making sure she her ears weren’t playing tricks on her.

“Not all people are like your parents, We accept Tara, Also Theresa thinks of you as a daughter so she wouldn’t want you to be homeless, now lets get inside” Walking into the house john called for his wife to join them in the living room.

“Sweetie what is it?” Theresa said walking into the living room.

“Willow will be living with us for a while” John told his wife like it was anything new.

“Oh what happen?” Theresa looked over at willow and saw she was soaking wet. “Willow why don’t you go change, I’m sure Tara has some clothes that will fit you”

Walking off to leave Tara parents to talk, Willow walked toward Tara’s bedroom. Opening the door, Willow saw Tara sitting on the end of the bed crying. Running toward Tara, Willow pulled Tara into a hug.

“What’s wrong?” Rubbing Tara’s back trying to comfort her.

“W-willow? Y-you a-alright?” Tara said between sobs.

“Well if you considered getting kicked out and moving in with my girlfriend alright, but I would say pretty damn good.” Willow smiled and pulled back from the embrace, only to kiss Tara softly.

*flashback*

“Tara, Willow, breakfast is ready,” Theresa yelled from the kitchen.

“I guess we have to get up, special before the frog attack the penguins” Tara laughed as she got out of the bed.

“What?” Willow sat straight up in bed and looked at Tara who was holding back a giggle.

“Well you’re the one who said ‘we need to protect the penguins from the frogs’ this morning while you were sleeping” Walking out of the bedroom Tara burst into giggles.

“Tara I did not” Willow half yelled, but Tara just burst into another round of giggles.

THE END

[viximon]

how did you find out i was torturing you guys with cliffhangers. that would be really evil of me to go kill willow again i tryed to make it intense!

You're mean!

Anyway, that was a good ending. though it was so short.
Ha haha. Poor girls "no sex" Mr.Maclay say.
Ok, now waiting for your next work. See you then

[BigBlueEyes]

That was so cute, I loved it. You did a great job.

[Willowlover]

That was an awsome ending I'm setting at a school computer with the stupidest grin on my face.
A couple of people are starring at me funny. But that's okay this story was awsome.
Although Willow's parents kinda need a kick in the head (Not Litteraly, okay maybe a little bit.) I guess I did the same thing in my story but it's still sad. A
I can't wait to read your next story.