TITLE: Shadows of the Past
AUTHOR: Kirk Baldridge
E-MAIL: KirkBwriter@juno.com
FEEDBACK: Yes, please. The more the better.
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SPOILERS: Everything up to and including the 5th season finale, THE GIFT.
CONTENT: W/T X/A
RATING: R (for violence and potentially disturbing imagery)
DISCLAIMER: I do not own Buffy, Willow, etc..., that's Whedon's dumb luck.
SUMMARY: Willow and Tara confront a dark threat to the very essence of their powers.
NOTE: This story takes place approximately two months after the events In THE GIFT, but a month or so before the events in BARGAINING. After all, there is a three month period in the lives of Buffy's friends, during which almost anything could have happened. This is one of those things.
She struggled against the coarse ropes binding her wrists, but all she had gotten for her efforts were patches of skin rubbed raw. With her hands tied behind her back on either side of a large wooden pole, she couldn't have gotten herself loose even if she did have the strength. It was a helpless feeling, and she absolutely hated feeling helpless.
She had all the power in the world, and yet there was no way she could use it to save herself. A dirty rag had been stuffed into her mouth, and without the ability to speak or move her hands the magick was useless. The crowd that had begun gathering to witness her execution was growing restless. They continued to talk amongst themselves, pointing and whispering, and occasionally laughing. They knew what she was and they were just glad she was finally going to get what she deserved. None of them would meet her gaze, but if they had they would not have been particularly moved by her tears.
Movement near the back had an immediate effect on the crowd. One by one they parted, making a path for the robed figure brandishing a lit torch.
It was obviously intended for the wood and kindling arranged under her feet. All the voices and snickering grew silent then. It was time.
When she saw the torch her panic grew to the point where she began to writhe hard enough to draw blood. Her face was soaked with tears. As the robed figure crouched in front of her she begged for mercy, but the gag muffled any desperate sounds she might have made.
It didn't take long for the kindling to catch fire, and as the flames rose the robed figure backed off. Cries of "witch" and "send her back to hell" rang out.
She could feel the flames licking at her feet. It seared her flesh, and she screamed.
*****
Tara woke up screaming.
But in her case it was a silent terror. She sat bolt upright, a sudden tightness in her chest making it hard for her to breath. This unexpected movement was enough to rouse the redhead spooned up beside her, and as she was regaining her composure Willow sat up.
"Tara? Goddess, what is it?"
It took a minute or two for the blonde to find her voice again. She was trembling.
"Bad dream?" Willow asked.
"More like a nightmare," Tara replied. "I was...being burned at the stake." She shook her head. "I-I felt it. The flames. My skin, burning. It was so real."
Willow put a hand on her lover's shoulder. "It's okay. You're safe now."
She gently stroked the blonde's hair. "Where did this come from?" Her eyes narrowed. "Hey, you haven't been watching the History Channel behind my back have you?"
"No." Tara couldn't help but smile. Willow had been boycotting the History Channel ever since they did what she considered a very biased story about the Salem witch trials. "Of course not."
"Well, like I told you before, it's just a dream." Though in a way this was just as bad, Willow was happy Tara had stopped having the nightmares about Glory, and what the hell-goddess had done to her. Her own dreams, when she remembered them, were as much about that as about Buffy.
"But that's just it," said Tara. "I'm not sure it was just a dream. It was so...vivid. It seemed almost like it was a memory or something. I could swear I was right there."
Willow glanced at the clock on the nightstand. It said 3:15, AM. "It's too late to do anything about this right now. After we get Dawn off to school tommo...I mean, today, we'll swing by the Magic Box and see if there's anything supernatural going on. Okay?"
Tara nodded. "Okay."
*****
"How about this one?"
Tara looked up from the book she was reading to see the one Willow was holding out to her. She quickly scanned the page, and shook her head.
"I didn't see anything demonic," said the blonde. "Just people."
Willow sighed. They had been at it for several hours, searching through every relevant book they could find at the Magic Box. For one they were actually swamped with too much information. Almost every text had information relating to dreams in one way or another. They would need something more to go on before they could positively identify what had happened.
"Maybe it was just a really vivid dream," the redhead suggested. "You do have quite an imagination. For example, what you suggested we do with the whipped..."
Tara lunged forward and clamped a hand over the redhead's mouth, her cheeks reddening, but it was too late. Anya had already heard, and came out from behind the counter.
"What? Don't be afraid to discuss sex in front of me," said the ex-demon."Xander and I are always on the look-out for new things to do in bed. And new positions too." She smiled. "Like just the other night, I stood on my head while Xander..."
Now it was Willow's turn to use her hands, this time over her own ears. She closed her eyes and began muttering over and over to herself until even Anya got the point.
"Fine." The ex-demon frowned. "But don't come running to me if you can'tget her to scream anymore." She went to help a customer at the counter.
"That was fun," said Tara. "Not to mention..."
"...bone-chillingly disturbing?" Willow offered.
The blonde nodded. "Still, maybe you're right. I may be making something out of nothing. I've just never had a dream that was so real before."
Anya and the witches turned as the workout room door opened, and Giles stuck his head out. "Oh Willow, could you come in here for a moment?"
The redhead nodded and got up with Tara and Anya right behind her. A blonde-haired figured was repeatedly running into the wall on the other side of the workout room. Every so often she would take a step back, cock her head as if considering another approach and then do the same thing all over again. Yet she never made a sound. She also didn't seem to notice their watching.
"What happened?" Willow asked.
Giles shrugged his shoulders. "I'm not certain. We were sparring. Nothing too intense. She ducked, I hit her in the head with my staff, and there was a loud pop."
"Sounds like one of the circuits in her neural cluster shorted out again," said Willow. "I was afraid that might happen. I'll fix it." She stepped forward. "Buffy?"
The blonde stopped, her limbs twitching as she turned to face the redhead. Her eyes widened. "Willow! I seem to be..." One of her knees gave out and she started to fall, but she just as quickly caught herself on the vaulting horse. "...having a problem. I need service."
"I'll take care of you," said Willow. "I promise." She bit her lip. It had been a couple of months, but it still hurt that she hadn't been able to save the real Buffy. The robot was a poor substitute, especially since they would need her to be represent Buffy to social workers and at Dawn's school, as well as to vampires and other creatures of the night, and at the moment she couldn't even walk straight. It had been her idea to use the robot, now she just had to convince the others she was right.
Tara put an arm around the redhead. "Don't worry. You're in good hands."
*****
Tara didn't see much of Willow for a while after that.
The redhead was so wrapped up in working on the robot that she had to be dragged out of the back room for lunch.
Once at the restaurant, however, she spent most of the time staring at Tara.
"Hey." The blonde snapped her fingers to get Willow's attention. "Earth to Willow." She smiled. "You okay in there?"
Willow dropped her hands on the table and shook her head. "I'm sorry. I was just thinking, and I guess I let my mind wander a little too much."
"What were you thinking about?"
"You. Us." Willow took Tara's hand. "Goddess, I love you so much. I think about what Glory did to you, and how close I came to losing you..." She sighed. "I swear, Tara, from now on I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure no one ever hurts you like that again."
Tara nodded. "I believe you. And I love you too, Will."
Smiling, the two of them leaned across the table to kiss one another.
*****
That evening Dawn went to bed a little earlier than usual, leaving Willow and Tara watching television on the couch. A particularly romantic movie came on, and before too long the couple lost interest in the program and instead focused on one another.
Willow pushed Tara back onto the couch, undid the top few buttons of her blouse, and began to nuzzle the sensitive flesh between her breasts.
Tara arched her back and moaned. "Willow! We should go... mm...upstairs..."
Willow lifted her head, her green eyes sparkling. "Why?"
"Dawn could..." Tara began to tremble. "...come do-ooh goddess!"
As the redhead kissed her way up the slope of one of Tara's breasts, the blonde forgot all about what she was saying and just gave into the pleasure.
*****
By the time they made it up to their bed the witches were almost too worn out to move. They decided to forego their usual nightly ritual of taking a shower together, and instead just snuggled until Willow drifted off to sleep with her head on Tara's shoulder.
The blonde lay there and gazed at her lover until she realized she had to go to the bathroom. She kissed the redhead on the cheek then slid out of bed. A short time later, as she was washing her hands, she bent down to splash some water on her face. As she stood up she happened to glance into the mirror, and what she saw there made her jaw drop.
A woman, not much older than she was, appeared to be standing right behind her. She had stringy black hair, sad blue eyes, and wore a dress that looked like something out of an old movie. She also had her hands tied behind her back on either side of a large wooden pole, and Tara could see flames rising around the lower part of her body. Even so, she wasn't making a sound.
Stunned, the blonde spun around. Not so surprisingly there was no one and nothing there. The bathroom was as quiet and as normal as it had ever been. Tara put a hand to her head. It was just like in her dream, except that she wasn't the one being burned at the stake. She was hallucinating, and it was beginning to make her wonder if she was going crazy.
Emptying the sink, she walked back to the bedroom. Once the door was closed behind her, Tara felt a little better. Safer. Willow was still asleep, and she took a moment to watch the redhead. As long as her lover was with her, she felt like she could handle anything the world might throw at her.
Because of that, Tara debated whether or not to wake Willow and tell her what she had seen. In the end she decided to let her sleep, since it wasn't likely there was anything the redhead could have done even if she had been awake. She lay down beside Willow, closed her eyes, and took a deep breath. She was more than a little afraid to actually go to sleep.
It was going to be a long night.
*****
When Tara woke up she was alone, and disappointed at the lack of early morning snuggles.
Then she looked at the bedside clock and realized it wasn't early at all. It was almost noon. She slid out of bed, got dressed, and went downstairs.
Willow was in the living room, ironing clothes in front of the television, and when Tara came down the stairs she smiled. "Morning, sleepyhead."
"Good morning to you too." Tara leaned over the ironing board and kissed Willow. "I never expected to sleep so late." She glanced around. "Where's Dawn?"
"Over at her friend's house. I told her to be home before dinner." Willow set the iron down. "Oh, Xander called. He's bringing the Buffybot by after work. I figured, since she's almost ready to go, we need her to be seen around the house more."
Tara nodded. "That's a good idea."
"How are you feeling?" Willow asked. "You were tossing and turning all night."
"I'm sorry about that. I just, I had a lot on my mind. You know?"
Willow nodded. "Anything you want to talk about?"
"I had another, I guess you could call it a dream-experience. In the bathroom, last night." They sat down on the couch together, and Tara proceeded to tell Willow everything that had happened. What she saw, as well as what she felt. "Something's going on, Will. I just don't know what."
*****
The Magic Box wasn't the only place in Sunnydale for witches to gather.
Madame Occul was purported to be a very powerful spellcaster, though no one who knew her had ever actually seen her do any magick. She did, however, like to surround herself with other witches, especially young and impressionable ones. Regular Wicca meetings were held at her home. That very evening, a half-dozen women of various ages sat in folding chairs.
All eyes turned toward the back of the shop as a curtain door swept open. They expected to see Madame Occul, in her multi-colored robes and clanking golden jewelry. Instead, something fast and dark darted into the room. The girls had barely enough time to scream before it was upon them.
Very soon, the screaming stopped.
*****
Tara's dreams were frighteningly different this time.
She wasn't the one being burned at the stake--Willow was. The redhead struggled and screamed against her gag, but could not get free. As she continued to struggle, something happened. Her eyes turned solid black, as did her hair. The flames around her feet increased in intensity.
Tara was startled to feel a hand on her shoulder. She spun around, to find herself facing the dark-haired woman she had seen in the mirror. Her face was more worn than before, her eyes tired, and though she was moving her mouth no words were coming out.
"I-I can't hear you," said Tara. "Don't you understand? I can't hear you!"
The woman's face fell. She clearly wasn't getting through.
"Wait," Tara shook her head as the woman continued to back away. "Don't go. I want to help you, I do. I just..." She heard a shrill scream behind her. Willow was on fire. She was in agony. All the blood drained from the blonde's face. "No! Willow! NO!"
Tara was wrenched back to consciousness by the sound of her own voice. She sat up and turned her head to look at Willow. The redhead was still asleep but she was violently thrashing and moaning, her pajamas soaked through with sweat. "Goddess!" She put a hand on her lover's shoulder. "Will?" She gently shook the redhead. "Sweety, wake up." No reaction. "Willow?"
All of the sudden Willow's eyes shot open, but they were not the vibrant green Tara was expecting. They were solid black. As she sat up the first thing she saw, a vase full of flowers on the other side of the room, erupted into flames. The redhead didn't even flinch.
"Willow! Stop it!" Tara shook her, more forcefully this time. "Snap out of it! Willow!"
After a moment, something changed in the redhead's face. "T-Tara?"
"Yes, baby." Tara sighed. "I'm right here. I'm right here. Everything's okay."
"The darkness...it came after me...it tried to...goddess!" Willow closed her eyes, and a shudder passed through her. When she opened them again they were back to normal. "W-What happened?"
"I'm not sure." Tara put her arms around her lover. "But we'll figure it out. Together."
*****
Needless to say the two of them knew they weren't going to get any more sleep after that, so they didn't even bother to try. Instead, they opened some of the books they had brought home from the Magic Box and tried to find more information on dream communications, without success.
Later that morning they came downstairs, to find Buffy sitting on the couch reading a newspaper. Even though they both understood it was really just the robot it was still sort of a shock to see her. Every time they looked at the Buffybot they couldn't help but remember two months prior, watching helplessly as Buffy plummeted to the ground from the top of Glory's tower. That memory chilled them to the bone.
The Buffybot raised her head and smiled. "Hello, my friends. According to my calculations, breakfast will be ready in approximately eight point four minutes. In the meantime..." She held out the newspaper. "...would either of you care to peruse this daily periodical?"
Tara glanced at Willow. "What's going on? She's talking like..."
"...a robot," said the redhead. "I know. I'm still having problems with her neural net. I go too much one way and she acts like an infant. The other way, and she turns into Robbie the robot."
When neither witch moved to take the paper from her, the Buffybot say back down on the couch and returned to reading. As she opened it again, Tara noticed the front page.
"Oh no!" The Buffybot frowned when Tara yanked the paper out of her hands. "Willow..."
"What is it?"
Tara held up the paper. SEVEN KILLED OVERNIGHT AT LOCAL MAGIC SHOP was emblazoned across the top. "I recognize this address. It's Madame Occul's place. I used to go there all the time before I found the Magic Box." She shook her head. "Goddess, this is terrible."
"We'll go check it out if you want," said Willow. "But after breakfast, okay? I'm starving."
*****
They took Giles with them, because the Watcher had an air of adult professionalism that would be able to open more bureaucratic doors for them than they could have accessed on their own. The Buffybot stayed behind at the Summer's home with Dawn, just in case someone came by.
While Giles spoke to the officer at the front door to distract him, Willow and Tara snuck in the back door with the help of a little magick. Inside, the smell of death filled the air.
That was because the bodies of the victims were still there, covered in tarps. Sunnydale's morgues were almost perpetually busy, so it often took hours or even a day or so for the coroner to make a pickup. That was why there was no one standing guard inside the shop; the smell was overpowering.
They set out to examine the bodies, and one thing caught their attention almost immediately.
"It wasn't a vampire," said Willow. "See? No bite marks."
Tara pulled the tarp back over Madame Occul, her face ashen. "No. But whatever did this was vicious. Goddess, they've been torn to pieces."
Willow, who was more accustomed to such gore, nodded. "And look at their chests. Whatever did this, it looks like they were trying to get to their hearts."
"Will?" Tara, who was feeling nauseous, stood up. "Can we go, please? I think I'm going to be sick."
The redhead nodded. "I think we're done anyway. We'll get Giles and head back to the Magic Box. This kind of demon MO shouldn't be too hard to identify."
On the way out the back door a colored flyer caught Tara's eye. She picked it up without a second thought, but it wasn't until they got out into the alley she actually read it.
"Hey, Will! Look at this!" As Tara was lifting her head she realized she was no longer in the alley. She was in a clearing somewhere, it was the middle of the night, and there was a full moon overhead. More to the point, she was alone. "Willow?" The redhead was nowhere in sight. "Willow, where are you?"
Someone moved behind Tara, and the blonde turned. It was the woman from her dream again, the one who had been trying to tell her something. She still was, apparently. She pointed.
Tara followed her lead. Willow was on the other side of the clearing, the shadows swirling and dancing around her. The redhead spread her arms, and seemed to embrace it.
"Will, no!" Tara started toward her lover, but the strange woman grabbed her arm to stop her. "What? What is it you want from me? What are you trying to tell me?"
The woman pointed to the flyer in Tara's hand. The blonde glanced down at it, but when she looked up again she was with Willow in the alley again. The redhead was clearly worried.
"Are you okay?"
"W-What?"
"I asked if you were ready to go, but you acted like you were in a trance or something."
After a moment, Tara nodded. "I-I think I was. Will, I think I understand. I know what she wants me to do." She showed the redhead the flyer, which said SALEM EXHIBIT--SUNNYDALE HISTORY MUSEUM. "Whatever is going on, I think we'll be able to find the answers here."
*****