RANT MODE ON. The History of the W/T Shippers.
Admittedly, this is a bit off topic, but I wanted to explain WHY people get so emotional about Spoilers regarding Willow and Tara.
During Season 4 (on the phone with a friend)
Me: Did you see the thing with Willow and that new girl last night?
Friend: That was weird.
Me: (my spidey senses tingling) It was interesting.
Friend: Not sure where they are going with that.
Me: Yeah. It was interesting. There seemed to be...an interesting dynamic.
Friend: Like I said..It was weird.
Me: I wouldn't say weird.
(In the beginning, I felt like I was the only one that got the undercurrent of things that were going on)
Reading the message boards trying to read what the writers are doing with the Willow and Tara friendship.
Messageboard: Don't get too used to this Tara person, she is going to die soon.
Me: Well...hell.
So I kept watching and I kept seeing sparks between Willow and Tara. It glued me to the t.v. whenever they were on.
Me: I think there's something going on there.
Friend: I don't see it.
Me: No, really. There is. Look at the way they are together.
Friend: I think you are kind of seeing what you want to see there.
Me: But!
Friend: Willow loves Oz.
Messageboard 1 Don't even think about getting used to Tara. She's dying this season
Messageboard 2 Tara is so frumpy. She has NO character. BOOORRRINNNG.
Me: Sigh.
And then one day the subtext became maintext. "I am you know. Yours."
I realized that I had watched these two characters fall in love in a very quiet, tender way and that it hadn't been a ratings stunt. It hadn't been just 'subtext' that was never going anywhere. These two beautiful, compassionate intelligent women had simply been draw to one another, become friends and then fallen in love. It gave me a tremendous amount of hope and it's hard to put my finger on why. It was just so quiet.
I don't go in for a lot of politics and I know that Joss and the writers were not necessarily trying to make a statement for the gay community. I don't know that a planned statement could have effected me as deeply. It wasn't this flashy subplot about two lesbians, the fact that they were both the same sex was ignored and irrelevant. What mattered was that two wonderful people were offering their hearts to one another, unconditionally. Something inside me felt irrevocably grateful and was deeply touched.
Just as Willow and Tara had fallen in love with one another, I had fallen in love with them
Messageboard 1 Tara will dead by the end of the season. Amber's contract isn't being renewed.
Messageboard 1 How dare they make Willow a lesbian. What kind of cheap crap is this?
Messageboard 3 Amber can't even act. Get rid of Amber and bring back Oz.
Half the Buffy audience - or so it seemed - hated...and I mean HATED this couple that I was deeply smitten by. The cruel, thoughtless statements that were made during this time about Amber, especially seemed endless. So much so that the actress herself once responded to the taunts. People critized the sudden 'swerve' for Willow. They called Amber fat. They made fun of her and said the Tara had no characterization and that the actresses had no chemistry together. Well this kind of relationship had never been potrayed on television, so I didn't dare hope that it would last. A part of me was sure that ME would cave in, or that they had never planned for Tara to be around for very long in the first place.
But Low and Behold, Tara WAS back for fifth season. She and Willow seemed stronger than ever. 'Family' aired and my heart didn't lift, it soared. After all of the times I had defended Willow and Tara, and all of the moments between them that had made my stomach do happily little flips - I sort adopted them. Okay, I HAD adopted them.
In 'Family' they began to really develop Tara and the relationship seemed cemented. I felt that finally, FINALLY maybe I would see some circumspect from some of the boards.
Messageboard 1: Don't get too used to Tara. She is going to be killed by Glory in about episode 17 or 18.
Messageboard 2: That plot is sooo lame. So she was just 'told' she was a demon. STUPID.
Me: ARGH! What the hell do the writers have to do??
[i] And then there was great rejoicing from the heavens, as I found the Kitten Board. Angels sang. Poets Wept. Or something like that. I finally found a group of people that
seemed to get it. They were/are as deeply smitten as I am.
And STILL we heard the Tara is going to die rumors. But we ignored it. We delighted in snuggles between our leading ladies and rejoiced in the first onscreen kiss (that didn't require a death taking place)
And then...the rumors came here. Thud. Right into our laps. These spoilers weren't based on scripts or sides or anything that had been seen. They were based on 'sources.' I think on some level we all at least half way trusted the people posting who were telling us about these sources. Herc, Wendy...even Sweetie, I think. There was so many of them - it seemed. But we wanted to keep hoping, so we made some logical arguments. The people posting just got LOUDER and even GLEEFUL.
Me: Gleeful? WTF, these are my FRIENDS, Willow and Tara you are talking about.
And yes, I realize that's a bit insane. And no, I have yet to write either of the actresses long letters that contain marriage proposals and/or sexual overtures. I KNOW it's a t.v. show. But that doesn't change the fact that these two characters have snuck into my heart and that I delight in watching them. Much like I delight in sunsets or perfect springs days or choclate. They make me feel that same sense of giddy awe.
So when the "Tara WILL die" spoilers became gleeful, I got defensive and angry. It was, after all, the third season in a row that I was dealing with it.
Tara and Willow broke up. I couldn't help but think then that the rumors might hold a speck of truth. I refused to read the other messageboards - because I knew damm well that all of the people that had disliked the Willow and Tara relationship for so long would be rejoicing. Surprisingly, while some did react this way, many more began to look at Tara with a kind of respect. It was gratifying, but it didn't make me feel any better. And STILL...the 'Tara dies' rumors only got louder.
Somewhere in all this, Angel X stated ' Umm, I haven't heard anything like that.' And Bob and others started digging. It came to light that a good deal of these news flashes on Tara had come from ONE source.
Wendy states that she had two seperate sources, I believe - but this was at the beginning of the season - and it was mostly those sources saying they hadn't seen Amber around and her extrapolating on what that meant. That was NOT how she stated her beliefs on this board, or at least not how *I* read them. The way I read them was not that she was making educated guesses but that she had heard the rumour directly from multiple placed. And still to this DAY, the Tara dies rumors are being shouted from the rooftops, and while the glee may have been cranked down - no one has come forward and said they were wrong. Instead they change the story slightly. Oh Tara didn't die in episode 15? Then it must be episode 17. Oh, she's still alive at the end of sweeps? It'll be in the last episode then.
It is true that none of use knows what Joss will do. It is not impossible that he may chose to kill off one of his main characters. and yes, I would prefer to know about it ahead of time. Just realize that these are my friends, you are talking about. Don't come to me with vague sources, come to me with facts.
Being a Willow and Tara fan in the Buffy universe hasn't been easy. It would be nice, if at least on THIS board, that journey was treated with respect and compassion.
Frankly, I think that's the whole point.
RANT MODE off.
I know this was long, gang, just HAD to get some things off my chest.
[This message has been edited by mariacomet (edited February 14, 2002).]