Poetry by Pixie

[Pixie-Muso]

Thanks Lisa! Thanks 'lucy'

You're both so sweet!

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"...the hardest thing in this world is to live in it..."
~Buffy, The Gift.

[Tolley]

Pixie - you keep impressing me everytime you post something new! Very beautiful!

Tolley

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Tara: Oh my God, I'm cured! I want the boys!
"Once More, With Feeling"

[Pixie-Muso]

awww... Thanks, Tolley.

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"...the hardest thing in this world is to live in it..."
~Buffy, The Gift.

[Pixie-Muso]

This one was something I wrote earlier this week. I was pretty down. It was inspired by a few things... mainly mixed with things from Willow and Tara and my own personal experiences. All feedback will be greatly appreciated.

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Do you know what it’s like to feel the walls tear down?
To feel unsafe and scared of yourself?
Do you ever wonder what you're capable of?
To know that you’re the only one who can give you help?

Have you ever felt that you’d gone insane?
That you’d lost your better half?
Did you think you’d never be whole again?
So many questions you just have to ask.

Have you ever lost the one you loved?
Knowing that it was all your fault?
Did you fight your way to get them back?
But found your love came to a halt?

Though some may think you’re free now,
Do you feel like you’re locked in a cage?
That life just likes to torment and hurt you?
That you’re heart is filled with rage?

Have you ever felt so angry?
Like you’re the one to blame?
Were you unsure if you did something wrong?
Were you afraid of this unknown shame?

Has the earth felt like it’d break at your feet?
Or the sky would fall from above?
Had you felt that you would sink and die?
No matter how you’d push or shove?

Did you ever fall in then out of love?
Then hurt someone you knew?
Had you known that it wasn’t meant to be?
And turned right into a shrew?

Have you chased and searched for that one to hold?
The one you’d never want to leave?
To find that they had gone before you came?
They’d left your heart uneased?

Did you feel like you could win their heart?
Could you keep them safe and snug?
Would they keep you ‘till your dying days?
Would you know that you’re in love?

12th February 2002

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"...the hardest thing in this world is to live in it..."
~Buffy, The Gift.

[This message has been edited by Pixie-Muso (edited February 17, 2002).]

[emily 'first']

Pixie-Muso...Captured those thoughts and feelings so well that all I want to say is...
Been there...Don't ever want to go back.
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Well done...Choosing just the right words and phrasing to evoke the emotions...We don't have Sat.TV,so still have'n't seen any of Season6,tho' from what we've heard things are going bad...Poor Willow and Tara,all we can do is hope...

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vive,valeque.

[This message has been edited by emily 'first' (edited February 16, 2002).]

[Pixie-Muso]

Thanks Emily.

We haven't seen any of Season 6 in Australia yet. We won't get the premier 'till Feb 26. I just realised that it's only a week away now, all this waiting has sent my head spinning. I've just been gathering the badness from the board too... I just hope... pray everything will work out.

Like I said, the poem was a mixed-inspiration piece. I hate feeling this way.

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"...the hardest thing in this world is to live in it..."
~Buffy, The Gift.

[This message has been edited by Pixie-Muso (edited February 17, 2002).]

['lucy' moore]

Em was right...Pretty powerful stuff you've posted here Pixie-Muso...I hope things work out okay,on the show as well as with...
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Poetry on the board is just rockin' right now...Hope everybody keeps posting !

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fiat justitia,ruat caelum.

[Pixie-Muso]

Thanks on both accounts, Lucy. Things are still pretty shitty, but hey! That's life!

Here's another piece I just wrote. We're just about to get season6 down here (at bloody last!), and this was kinda an end-of-s5 inspired thing. It's from Tara's point of view, remembering what it was like before Willow had restored her...

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Though the darkness had encircled me
I’d yearned to see your face.
I searched to find you everywhere
But you’d left without a trace.

I felt so lost and lonely:
The most scared I’d ever been.
I was always tumbling and falling
… So surreal… a ferocious dream.

Feeling that way would’ve killed me
As I know it really could.
But I put my faith in you and our love
And you found me, as I knew you would.

23-2-02

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"...the hardest thing in this world is to live in it..."
~Buffy, The Gift.

[emily 'first']

Well,that pretty much says it all...
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It's snowing outside,but lurking on the board makes us all snuggly and warm inside...Especially when we come across something special...Beautiful !

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vive,valeque.

[Pixie-Muso]

Thanks Emily . You're always so kind.

Well, I just remembered about my first W/T poem and how it was alll on its lonesome way back in its own thread. I don't know hpw many people have seen it, so I just thought I'd repost it here. I think I wrote it about 2 months ago. This is the original message I had written before it:

I just wrote this while thinking about Tara sitting in her room at the end of "New Moon Rising". I think the courage and the selflessness she shows in this episode is so admirable and just shows how much of a wonderful person she really is.

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Deep in the night I sit and wait.
I wait for the call,
That feeling I only get from you.
Will you come? Will you be here?
How long will I wait?
Will it be forever?

Deep in the dark I feel so lonesome
Knowing that you’re out there.
Hoping that you’re happy.
Praying that you’re safe.
Wishing that my heart and presence
Will draw you near.

Deep in the shadows, alone in my thoughts
I feel you draw near.
No longer shall the moon be my only friend,
The stars no longer my light.
But you,
Only you.

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"...the hardest thing in this world is to live in it..."
~Buffy, The Gift.

[Tolley]

Hadn't read that one yet Pixie, but I think you captured Tara's feelings perfectly. Nice indeed!

Tolley

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Tara: Oh my God, I'm cured! I want the boys!
"Once More, With Feeling"

[emily 'first']

Well I went back and looked,but I see that I never replied at the time (Lucy did,but she never told me!).
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I can picture the moment...Your words just seem to conjure up the image perfectly.A rare talent! Nurture it!

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There is fresh snow on the ground
I can see where you've been walking,
and I follow in your footsteps...

vive,valeque.

[Pixie-Muso]

Thanks Tolley. Thanks Emily.

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"...the hardest thing in this world is to live in it..."
~Buffy, The Gift.

[Pixie-Muso]

It feels like forever since I've been at the Kitten board - oh..... it would seem that a week can be an eternity. Anyway, I somehow got some inspiration late last night before I fell asleep. I'm not sure what I was inspired by exactly. It's not like I've seen the W/T break-up or anything - but I think that's what inspired me. Well, that and my own. I'm not too sure. As usual, any feedback would be greatly appreciated.

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I’ve pulled out the ladder and climbed up the rungs.
You pass me the decorations to be hung.
They say it’s a party, but I’m not so sure.
They’ve put out the candy; they say it’s the cure.

The music’s put on, it’s blasting out loud.
Nothing fantastic, but it pleases the crowd.
They could dance all night; they’ve nothing to fear.
But I feel my heart sadden. Down my face, runs a tear.

There’s so much to say, but no words could express
All the feelings inside: all the heartache and stress.
My head feels so light. I don’t think I should stay.
It’ll be for the best if I just go away.

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"...the hardest thing in this world is to live in it..."
~Buffy, The Gift.

['lucy' moore]

Well...With all the 'stuff' across on the other board right now,this made me feel sad,but,what the hey!
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I think this proves that I'm still alive,and,if words still have the power to move me,you've done a great job...Well done !!!

Thanx...

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Caitlin,there are only 3 things that matter...
People you Love,
your Memories,
and Sadness.

fiat justitia,ruat caelum.