Disclaimer: The characters used in this piece of writing stem from the brain and brilliance of joss whedon. I've just borrowed them on the hope that no-one will notice. Please don't sue me, I am a poor student and have no money.
Rating - well - there won't be too much violence and its going to have a happy ending but let's face it, Willow and Tara have fabulous, electric chemistry and they're madly in love, so there will be at least one racy scene in there somewhere. So if that's going to offend you, maybe this isn't the right fic for you
Forgiveness - Part 1
Willow sat in shock on the bathroom floor. She knew that Tara was packing and getting ready to walk out of her life and she couldn't bear the pain. She had never felt hurt on this scale and there was nothing she could do to stop it.
Everything had been so great with Tara - before she started getting into the dark magics against Tara's warnings. When she'd first met Tara, she'd felt an instant connection, like she'd found a missing piece of herself. The first time they'd touched, they'd created enough energy to move objects across a rooom. The first time they'd kissed, it had been like nothing Willow could have imagined - the electricity, the passion and the tenderness. The first time they'd made love had been beyond amazing - it was passionate, gentle and perfect. Willow's mind was always working but Tara made everything stop and when Willow fell asleep afterwards with Tara curled up next to her, she felt it was the happiest moment of her life.
But how things had changed. Tara was beyond furious with Willow. Willow knew what she'd done was wrong. When they'd had that fight on Halloween over Willow using magic too freely, things had gotten pretty tense between them. Willow couldn't stand the tension and the disapointed look in Tara's eyes. She'd used a forgetting spell on Tara so that things could get back to normal between them but nothing had turned out like she planned. She thought magic would make things better but it had ripped them apart.
Tara had found out about it - she'd been understandably devastated. Willow had never seen Tara like that before. After Willow's pleading, Tara had said she'd think about staying with Willow if gave up magic for a week. But Willow knew Tara had already left her the minute she found out about the forgetting spell.
Crying in the bathrooom, Willow reflected on her decision to cast the last spell. The spell that had caused Tara to look at her with such a look of devastation. It had broken Willow's heart.
Willow had known Tara was angry about the first forget spell and she knew Buffy was deeply unhappy about being pulled from heaven. The second spell had seemed like a way to fix all the earlier problems. She'd just wanted everything to be good between them and magic seemed like a way of making things easy.
And the spell had worked - sort of. Everyone had forgotten who they were but Tara and her had still found each other. The connection between them was as powerful and electric as it had ever been, even when they didn't know who they were. Even when Willow knew very little about anything else, lying on top of Tara in that pipe - she'd felt like she was in the exact right spot. And the way Tara had touched her hair, stared into her eyes... it had made Willow's heart go into overdrive.
And then the spell had been broken and now Tara was leaving. And all Willow could do was cry.
Part 2 (it gets happier, i promise) to follow if anyone's interested
[This message has been edited by miss_spangles (edited November 18, 2001).]