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Rating: i guess it's PG-13
Couples: W/T
Spoilers: none, includes references from episodes up to "wrecked"
Copyright: sadly, i own nothing
Strengh
As Willow layed there in the large but somehow empty bed, she could do nothing but stare at the small digital clock that sat on the nightstand beside her. Each night she watched the minutes slowly change in the pale moon light, that seemed to give the room a dim glow. She would wrestle with the blankets that could never cooperate with her constantly changing body temperatures and getting comfortable was always an endless attempt. This is how she has spent every night since she vowed to Buffy that she was giving up magic. Each night was an endless battle and not just for the slayer anymore, Willow now had demons of her own to fight and each of them lived within her mind and body.
When sleep would finally take over, the red head would enter a world filled with the pain that she had caused. Images would play through each dream, Dawny in the car accident, Amy tempting her to do more spells, the evil warlock calling to her and promising new experiences and Tara walking out on her. That one was the most constant, it would even come to her during the day. That was all Willow could think about, her poor Tara and how she had caused so much pain toward the person she cheerished most in the world.
HOw she longed to talk to her blond beauty and apologize for all that she had done. To atleast be able to see her again would be enough to satisfy the tortured red head, to see if she was okay and possibly tell her how much she has accomplished by giving up magic. But along with these hopes came the fear of seeing the pain in Tara's eyes. How would the blue eyed girl be able to look at Willow after all she had done? The red head had messed with something that was very dear to Tara, her memory. How could she have done that to her after all Glory had done? When had she become so weak, that the magic would have taken over her so much that it blinded her judgement? And now after all that, she was left with nothing; the one she loved was gone, her friends lost the trust they had for her and without the magic, she felt useless.
Tears began to swell in her tired green eyes and soon she was unable to hold them back. She rolled onto her side and placed her head into the pillow,that she was gripping tightly. Crying this hard normally led to a craving for magic, she wanted to cast a spell to make the pain go away. As Willow's hands began to shake, she knew she had to calm herself down or the cravings would get stronger but this time seemed harder than the last time.
That was when she felt a familier sensation, the softest touch had been placed on her hip by a gentle hand, that the red head soon recognized. Slowly she felt the hand take a firmer yet comforting grip, as the warmth of the other body slid closer to her's.
"Shhhhhhh," was whispered in a soothing tone close to Willow's right ear. Another hand was placed gently upon the redh head's forehead and slowly the fingers brushed aside the hair that had fell onto Willow's face.
"My sweet girl," Tara's voice came so softly to Willow's ears that it seemed to melt her heart, "dry your beautiful green eyse. I'm here."
The red head slowly rolled onto her back and found herself staring directly into the beautiful blue eyes she had missed. Tara then wrapped the arm, that was once gripping Willow's hip, around the red head's frail frame, pulling her closer. Willow reached up and tucked the blond hair, that had fallen infront of Tara's eyes, behind the blue eyed girl's ears. She then placed her hand on Tara's cheek, cupping it gently and softly rubbing her face with her thumb.
"Oh Tara!" Willow finally spoke and then broke into tears again. She couldn't hold back her emotions from her comforting love. In that moment, Tara lowered her body closer to the red head and softly placed a kiss upon the trembling lips of the small girl. Willow responded to the gentle embrace and soon the tears disappeared as she began to forget all her troubled thoughts.
To be able to feel those compassionate lips upon her own was pure bliss. Lying there now completely wrapped in her lovers embrace, Willow could only think about how wonderful it was to finally be surrounded by the comfort and safety, that only her Tara could provide. As the gentle kisses became more passionate, Tara moved to the red head's neck and began to trace every inch with her soft kiss.
"Tara?.... wait...a-are you..."Willow struggled to speak.
"Shhhhh... Baby, I'm here to take care of you now." Tara answered. "I could feel your pain this entire time and it tortured me because I wanted to heal it. I wanted to make it go away. Buffy told me about how hard you've been trying and I'm giong to take care of you now."
"Tara, I need you so much," the red head whispered, this was all she could do through Tara's touch. "I'm so sorry for all I did to you, I love you so much."
Tara stopped and gazed into the green eyes that held so much hurt and pain, "I love you too, I never stopped and I never will."
The next kiss was filled with so much passion and love that they had to pause just to catch their breathe. Each wanting desperately to heal the others pain, they began to make soft love. Willow thought her head was going to burst as they began, she'd missed the blond so much and now to be next her, making love to her, she thought her heart would break her chest it was pounding so hard.
That was when the red head placed her hands onto the blond's back, slowly sliding each up and down the soft skin of her lover. Tara stopped with such a fierce motion that it startled Willow.
"What's wrong?" Willow asked immediately.
A look of sheer pain swept across tara's face as tears quickly began to fall from her eyes. Her mouth fell open, the expression on her face said she wanted to scream but nothing came out. Tara's eyes closed and her body fell limp on top of Willow. The red head quickly lifted her hands from the blond's back and she could see an electrical charge shooting from her finger tips. Throughtout all the passion, Willow lost control of her powers and they sent a deadly charge through Tara's body. The blond's motionless body now layed on top of Willow, the red head quickly sat up to find...
herself alone in the large bedroom. Tara was gone, it had never happened. Willow had fallen asleep and it was a nightmare.
Tears quickly rolled down the red head's hot cheeks and she placed her trembling hands upon her face. The phone that was on the nightstand rang and Willow quickly picked up the reciever. She was too breathless to reply, she just sat there tightly gripping the phone as she tried to catch her breath through the sobs.
"Willow?... Stay there, I'm on my way," the voice on the other end said rapidly. Willow hung up the phone still in a daze, unable to regain her thoughts. The red head staggered out of the bed and fumbled her way toward the bathroom. As she reached out her trembling hands to turn on the sink, her knees grew weak and she collapsed into the floor. Now too weak to stand, she layed on the floor and began to cry again uncontrolably.
A figured appeared in the doorway, Willow glanced up and knew right away who it was, it was the voice who was on the phone, it was Tara. The blond quickly rusded to Willow, who was still on the floor infornt of the sink.
"I could feel your pain," Tara began, "I'm here to help you now. I'm going to take care of you."
"NO! Get away from me!" WIllow replied with great fear in her voice. "I'm dangerous! I don't want to hurt you!"
"Willow, baby, I saw your dream.... it was in my dream," Tara said with great softness. "It was only a dream, Will. You're stronger than that. And look, I'm still here."
Willow's green eyes slowly met those of the blue eyed beauty that was knelt besider her. Tears sweeled in her eyes, "I love you so much, I would never hurt you like that. I'm so sorry."
Tara bent down ans scooped the frail red head into her arms and gently rubbed her back as she held her tightly, "I love you too. And I'm not going anywhere anymore, I'm staying right here with you. We will get you through this, your strength is greater than the magic inside you. You can do this because your my Strong-Like-An-Amazon girl."
The soothing smile on the blond's face gave Willow the strength she needed. She knew at that moment that Tara was right, she was stronger than the magic inside her because Tara gave her that strength. That was all the red head needed, the love from her beautiful girl.
ok, that's it... i hope you all liked it!
~stubs~