Rating: 12 / PG13 … at the moment but I have some 18 / NC17 plans later … all woo and hoo!!!
Disclaimer: It’s a story and nothing else. I don’t own the characters, blah, blah … Hail Joss & ME …
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Story: Ultimate Wil & Tara reunion … some major smoochies of course!! Naked love scene? Well, you’ll have to wait and see if I’m a Tease or not!!! (I’m sooooooooooo NOT!! Nay, she doth protest too much my Lord!!)
Part 1
“So, we had fun today, right?” Tara was nervous, she and Dawn had been shopping for the day and now outside Buffy’s house, she was so near to Willow … it hurt. God she missed her, even though they were friends now and things were good, I need them to be better, she thought because we’re … only friends, and I want so much more!! Tara wondered if Wil still wanted more, still loved her, desired her. Every night without her lover was empty and lonely, and as soon as the morning came Tara spent every moment longing to see Willow again, waiting to accidentally bump into her in classes, or at the coffee shop, even at the Magic Box, though she was glad that Willow was never there these days, and of course … taking Dawn home. Please invite me in; I just really need to see her, if only for a minute.
Dawn was excited, she had her first real date in less than a week with Michael, he was so cute, but first and foremost she wanted things to be right at home. She couldn’t let Tara leave. She remembered how disappointed Wil had been that morning when Tara had arranged to meet Dawn at the Magic Box instead of coming to the house.
“Of course we had fun, we always have fun. Hey, look at all my stuff, I can’t wait to show Buffy and Willow the dress, it’s so hot … you are coming in, aren’t you? I need a panel for the final decision” Dawn pulled her best ‘Come on, you can’t let me down’ face.
“Sure, of course!” Tara smiled weakly and hoped she didn’t seem too desperate, she wanted things to work out between her and Willow but wasn’t sure how Willow felt, it was nearly four months now, and the last thing she wanted to do was to raise Dawn’s hopes. Four months! It felt like an eternity away from the love of her life, her honey.
At first she‘d been angry, confused, betrayed
and then there was the hurting, not being able to sleep, eat, the crying and not being able to concentrate in classes or on assignments. Then, Willow was making progress, more than that she was clean and was staying clean, no more magicks and Tara had to struggle with the impulse to forgive and forget everything immediately. We need time she told herself Time to Heal but How much time? She knew she was becoming restless with the whole idea of time or waiting for the right time, I can’t wait anymore, and I don’t want to, I’m tired of fighting it!
“Hey Dawn, Tara, you guys have a good shop? Whoa, guess you did lots of bags!! Anything left in the Mall?” Buffy turned her attention to Dawn and her new purchases. Tara came in after Dawn and immediately locked eyes with Willow, who was working at the table on her laptop. She looked busy and Tara wondered what she was up to. It was the hardest thing, being a part of her lover’s life completely and then knowing hardly anything about her day or how Wil was feeling! Is she coping with no magick? Does she feel tempted? Does she miss me?? The way I miss her???
“Hey”
“Hey” Willow smiled and felt like she wanted to frown at the same time, ‘Hey’ was so cold with no touching and no hello kisses.
“Nice day shopping?”
“Yeah, it was good”
God, why is always so awkward between us, thought Willow, hello Spaz? Say something before she walks back out the door again, she looks great, and …
“Good? It was way cool” Dawn interjected, “You’ll have to come next time. I got this dress, very hot or I could play it cool with pants and a very trendy top. I need a panel opinion, Tara and Buffy are already secured, wanna be part of my panel too?”
“Sure Dawnie, sounds very cool, look I’m feeling all panelly already” Willow smiled at Dawn for giving Tara a reason to stay. Dawn smiled back and then headed upstairs to change, noting to herself that she would take her time.
“How’s it going Wil?” Buffy walked over staring at Willow’s screen, “Any info yet?” Willow turned her attention back to her laptop and Tara immediately felt disappointed, but she moved closer to the table and to her ex-lover who wasn’t so ex in her dream last night when they had made love on a beach with the sunrising across the Ocean.
“Not yet, I’m having trouble hacking the firewall, it’s … well, fiery and ironically it keeps freezing me out!” Willow sighed, now Tara was here this was the last thing that she wanted to be doing, but locating the new safe house of the Troika was too important to stop. Willow could tell Buffy was worried, God knows what they would try next, and with another artefact being stolen from the museum it was essential to access the Police reports, but without using magick and the new security system, it was time staking!
“Need any help?” Tara offered, feeling useless again, but strangely comfortable at just being around Wil, especially watching her hacking as it reminded her of when they first got together and Wil spent hours trying to crack a disc from Spike to infiltrate the Initiative … while Tara played with her hair and massaged her neck.
Willow looked up, emerald eyes automatically drawn to the blonde witch. Tara felt herself blushing, but didn’t look away. “Nice to know that someone wants to help me out” said Willow flashing a mock look of disappointment at Buffy, then back to those deep blue topaz eyes.
“Hey, computers just aren’t my thing okay? I do slayery stuff, I don’t even know what a firewall is … can I, jump it?” Buffy shrugged as Willow shook her head in disbelief, "Okay, I’ll just leave you to it and go and intercept Dawn, I can be her panel of one while you two work it out … the wall thing that is.”
Tara immediately felt awkward, her and Willow alone and Willow looked like she wanted to be on her own to concentrate. “Uh, maybe I should l-leave too? I don’t want to get in the way…”
“Thought you wanted to help?” Willow begged scrunching her face in the cutest possible way that she knew Tara adored.
“I, I do, but I don’t know anything about firewalls either, I don’t think I can help”
“You can, you can sit here, next to me” Willow offered a chair “It helps if you just sit near” Willow felt the air magnetise, what am I saying? That wasn’t very friendly, that was more like I want to jump you and have a grope! Duh, don’t push her!
“What I mean is if you sit close enough to see the, um, screen maybe you’ll see a pattern in this code that I’m missing!” What a lame excuse to have her close Willow thought.
“I miss things too” said the blonde, feeling a little flushed. Willow spun around eagerly wanting to make eye contact but she hadn’t realised that Tara was sat so close and they were now very close face-to-face, just within kissing distance!
“Me too, uh, um, I was hoping we could talk, so I’m thinking if you’re not doing anything later we could, maybe go for a drink at the Bronze … or we could study together, studying is good!” Wil was very nervous and couldn’t believe she had finally suggested that they do something together alone, although prompted by “I miss things too”, the redhead hoped she hadn’t read it wrong.
“Yes, I mean No, I’m not doing anything and the Bronze later sounds good!” accepted Tara.
A date, at last!!! They smiled at each other, both excited at the prospect of spending time together.
“Okay then, guess I’d better crack this thing for Buffy!”
Willow started hacking again, typing at the speed of light with a renewed vigour. It had always impressed Tara that Willow knew so much about computers, and now she hadn’t used magick in over three months Tara couldn’t have been more proud of her. The blonde leaned in closer, almost resting her head on Willow’s left shoulder. She knew her breath was reaching Willow’s neck, as the computer-gal started to blush.
It reminded Tara of how they would tease each other in bed. Tara would exhale long, hot breaths on her partner’s neck while Willow would trace a semi-circle from hip to hip around her lower back with her fingertips. It was kind of a game they played, to see who would crack first and start the kissing and love-making.
At their most competitive, they would both change tactics and incorporate other erogenous zones. Wil would begin to trace her fingertips up and down the back of her lover’s thigh moving across her hip and up to her mid-drift just under her right breast, while the other hand would concentrate on gently massaging her left breast. In response, Tara would rub the redhead’s belly with affection, letting her fingers flirt with the intention of moving lower down and then start at Willow’s bellybutton again, which made her shiver. The blonde would then strategically alternate between Willow’s neck and her right ear, which was especially sensitive as she breathed heat and then blew cold air.
Tara had sucked her lover’s earlobe once and lost for ‘cheating’ as Wil called it, ‘no use of lips or tongues, that’s kissing’ … not that Tara had minded losing of course, as it meant no holes barred love-making! They usually gave into desire at more or less the same time, though Tara thought she had maybe two or three wins more than Wil … but the winning wasn’t important. The special thing about making love with Willow was that it always felt right, it was perfect and thinking about it made Tara feel very uncomfortable … and very turned-on …
“Tara? Are you okay?” Buffy asked.
“Uh, I …” Tara mumbled.
“Didn’t hear a word I said?” Buffy continued, Tara shook her head, “Dawnie’s going with the dress and she’s now ringing every girl friend she has to tell them about it, nice choice by the way, although I’m not sure I should be thanking you for guaranteeing that her date is going to want to …have sex with her” Buffy smiled, as Tara laughed and apologised.
Buffy had come downstairs to find Wil and Tara almost snuggled together. Wil looked extremely distracted and Tara kept staring at Willow’s neck with clear longing, both looking sexually charged! I should be mad, with the lack of research going on, if they weren’t just so cute together Buffy sighed, If only they could work it out, if only Tara could feel confident that Willow had given up magick for good, if only I could have what they have –
“Got it! Yay!!” the hacker screamed “Here we go, Police report, radhar artefact stolen, it’s kinda funny looking like a Christmas bauble or something, it came from the London museum on special loan at request of the curator. The report doesn’t say what the artefact is, don’t know if this helps us. Wait there, report says there was an eyewitness to the robbery, a Mr Jonathan Skywalker ... oh my God Buffy, it has to be Jonathan!” exclaimed the hacker.
“What? Jonathan, our Jonathan? That doesn’t make sense Wil, they steal the radhar and then one of them acts as an eyewitness? I thought they were at least smart!” Buffy shook her head, things just didn’t add up.
“Whoa, wait!” Willow smiled, “It’s not that stupid and yet it’s so stupid!” Willow laughed as she flicked through the report pages on her screen, ignoring Buffy and Tara.
“You gonna explain that to us sometime Wil?” Buffy questioned.
“Jonathan’s given the Police a description of you as the suspect, look, stealthy blonde girl running from the Museum, she was short, shorter than me, well maybe the same height …” the hacker read from the report, pausing and chuckling at Jonathan's obvious height insecurities.
“Well, that is stupid, no-one’s that short! And certainly not me!” Buffy joked.
“No, the stupid part is that being an eye witness he had to give the Police a contact address for an identity parade for a suspect, and even if it’s bogus, it gives us a lead at least!” Tara could tell Willow was excited as she printed off the report and gave it to Buffy with the address, she couldn’t suppress a smile, Willow was being Willow again and it was like coming home out of the rain. That’s my girl! Tara beamed.
“Good work Wil, but I still don’t get why they would go to the trouble of stealing an artefact only to set me up!” Buffy sighed.
Tara stood up and speculated, “Maybe, they want the radhar too, we still don’t know what it does. But if they're trying to set you up Buffy then surely they would have to plant it here at the house or on you somehow. Either way, I think we need to find out what the radhar is and what it does.” Willow smiled as Tara offered her viewpoint and became involved, Tara was a Scooby and it felt right having her input again.
“What if they just wanted you out of the way for a while? They could plant it here, make an anonymous phone call, the Police arrest you, Jonathan ids you, you spend the night in jail and the slayer’s busy being questioned while they implement their master plan or whatever!” the redhead looked worried, “Buffy, I don’t think we should underestimate them.” Tara marvelled at how fast Willow stringed things together, it was attractive, sexy even!
“I know Wil, but we have a lead and maybe I’ll be able to stay one step ahead of them now. Tara’s right we need to find out what the radhar is exactly, it has to figure somewhere!” Buffy said pacing.
“So what do we do now?” The hacker was suddenly aware that her plans with Tara were in jeopardy, Great! Willow thought sarcastically.
Buffy looked at the two witches, it was obvious that they needed some time alone and besides if Research didn’t go well tonight they could always help out in the morning, “Uh, Well, I was thinking of going to see Xander, he’s still down about Anya and I thought a little research mode could take his mind off things, make him feel useful.”
“Um, sure, want us to come too?” Please say no!! Willow thought.
“Nah, I don’t think we should overcrowd him and you guys talked this afternoon, no it’s time for some Buffy alone effort! Besides, we may have to break into the Magic Shop to get access to the books, no use in risking everyone getting arrested! Oh, but I’m going to take Dawn before she runs the phone bill sky high!!(Shouts up the stairs) Dawn get off the phone!!”
“Actually Buffy, I think Xander has spare keys!” Tara offered reluctantly knowing that she was risking some alone time with Willow, but working on the latest threat to the Scooby’s was more important than talking, dancing, laughing and kissing the woman she loved, wasn’t it? She guessed it was when Willow could be in danger!
“Hey, well it’ll be easy then. Tell you what, if Xander, Dawnie and me don’t come up with anything tonight then you guys can do some serious power research stuff tomorrow, okay?” Buffy felt exasperated, Hey guys, doing you a favour here? Want to shut up and take it?
“Okay Buff, but if you find anything out and it’s important-” Willow was interrupted by Buffy.
“I’ll come and find you, now why don’t you guys do something fun tonight and relax?” Buffy thought it couldn’t hurt to play matchmaker, they so obviously wanted to get back together.
“Yeah, well we were maybe thinking of going to the Bronze, so that’s where we’ll be if you need us, right?” Willow said nervously.
“Sure Wil” Buffy nodded and called Dawn.
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Buffy and Dawn had just left, leaving her alone with her baby blonde … friend, that just didn’t seem right, surely Tara and her could never just be friends, could they? The hour they had spent at the computer together had been electrifying, no need for words. Her breath on my neck was excruciating and delicious all at the same time!! Wil wondered if it was deliberate, and then doubted it straight away, only to let the maybes fill her mind again.
“So, you still want that drink?” Willow felt intoxicated already.
“Absolutely!” said Tara smiling.
“Cool, just checking, so are we ready then?”
“Ready when you are” Blue eyes fixed on green.
“Well, I’m, uh very ready so-”
“-Let’s go then” Tara finished.
“Oakey-dokey!”
Tara was so beautiful, and she didn’t even see it, and Willow wanted to kiss her, take her to bed and make love, make love all night until they had proved their love was true and every desire was filled and all the doubts had vanished, but it wasn’t that easy, there wasn’t an immediate fix and Wil knew it couldn’t be solved overnight. They needed to talk things through, it was going to be hard, she still had her addiction to overcome and Tara had to learn to trust her again, and forgive her. Are we strong enough baby? Can you really forgive me? Can I forgive myself?
Edited several times to correct bold/italics prob and to rectify plot implications as I didn't realize that Willow kept the invisible raygun until I just watched the ep, that's what you get for being british - sorry kittens, it's been ages ... in my defence, I've been majorly busy!!!!!
Thanks Pixie!!!
[This message has been edited by Blue77 (edited March 23, 2002).]
~Piper~