Creation Myth

[AlysonGoddess]

Woot! I was happy to see this one with an update! Im glad things are going a little better between willow and tara though willow still seems uncertain about it but that makes it good! Im really liking the pace of this story there not getting together to fast and taking thier time. but yeah super super update i love it please update soon!!!
Erin

[YMKA]

Hey there!

You know, today in the morning when I saw the update...I was like "YAY!!!! it was updated!!!", I did allmy morning routine quickly so I had time to read this before I went to work.....that was sooooo freaking awesome!!!! I just love it when they don't have smooth, perfect relationship... and they have to work on it....or friendship at this point. But all the small touches.....gestures....notes! it's so cute!!! I'm just a sucker for small things:) Tara's and Willow's thought process....I especially loved it that Willow freaked out, and how she worked on it. This last update was great, I was smiling when I read "Father: Rosenberg, Will", it's just too cute for words!

Thanks!
Marina

[dorksrcool]

Yay an update! I really missed this story.

Tara took a quick peek in the mirror; she felt rather drab in her baggy sweat pants and UCS jersey.

Uh, "drab" would not be the word I would use for that image. Yum.

Tara saw the corners of Willow’s mouth curl into a small grin. Hmm? She’s happy about this? Then she saw Willow furrow her brow. Willow confused her on many levels. Now she’s not happy?

That part seriously cracked me up. Poor Tara!

“Good ‘cause, you know, um, babies take time to grow up… so I might need to be around for awhile.”

Aw, that is so sweet. I really love the way you write these two. I pretty much love the way you write everything and I look forward to the next update.

[JustSkipIt]

Well it's awesome that Willow went with and was so excited even if she did get sick again. But they got to see the sonogram together. I can tell you that the amount of water you have to drink for a sonogram is pretty ridiculous and makes it somewhat agonizing to wait to get to pee. I can sympathise with Tara right off.

But...

The nurse calling Willow Tara's partner is completely out of line. That's 100% inappropriate. Having a friend come with you is important and that friend might even want to hold you hand since she's getting to share something as monumental as seeing the picture of your baby. But concluding that that friend is a partner and saying so is stupid and inappropriate. Unless the patient says, "this is my partner, Willow Rosenberg," she should have just called Willow a friend.

Great update.

[FineyMcFine]

Hey TuesBlu, I feel like I'm holding my breath during these updates waiting for Willow to stumble or say the wrong thing or get freaked out. Luckily the worst thing that happened was her throwing up, which Tara understood and didn't get offended or hurt by. I'm so glad that Willow went with her. It's also striking, still, that their communication is such that they can't tell what each other is thinking - the rift hasn't healed yet, obviously.

Willow's still communicating via actions, it seems to me, going with Tara to her sonogram, seeing her and bringing her food, which is good - actions do speak louder than words, after all, and it seemed like for a while any words that Willow spoke were the wrong ones. I think that at some point a talk will be in order. And you're just drawing it out, eh? Delaying that conversation? Or maybe not - this actually seems like a pretty natural progression of events. But I'll bet it's soon.

Willow also seems to be continuing to catch on to her growing attraction to Tara. And yay for that. And yay for the next update, which will hopefully be soon!

[ShallowLikeUs]

Stunning. Wonderful, simply...fantabulous!

I'm so glad the girls are finally seeming to cement their relationship together again.. though... I feel like Willow might give herself a heart attack... as she's so prone to panicking. and the fact that she used her name as the father, it really does say something. at least and especially to Tara. it's so great. Willow is slowly falling in love, at least i think so. and Tara already is in love. For Willow it took more time i think because she had other issues to work out, and she was a little removed from it.. but it's cute.

Buffy and Xander are making me nervous actually. they mean well sure... but, for some reason I feel that there is something impending. and the butt pocket paper? did i miss what it was? mayeb i did, i'm not reading at 100% currently, my glasses are AWOL. well, I loved the update, and I hope that there isn't too much more angst in store for Willow and Tara, and if there is I hope it's the agnst of the kind, where they can still be there to help each other out.

and off to laze about some more.
-Dani

[DarkWiccan]

Hi. I'm back

I just wanted to address something I've noticed popping up in some of the comments to this last update... and that is Dr. Pfeiffer's use of the word "partner".

We as gays or lesbians (or even just gay-friendly-type-people) seem to be hyper-sensitive to this word. Indeed, Tara's strong internal reaction to the term is a good example of this.

But we need to remind ourselves that just because someone uses the term "partner", doesn't mean they are referring to a sexual or love-type relationship...or that they are making assumptions about the nature of a relationship between two people.

I know I have had to catch myself from knee-jerk reactions when I hear a female co-worker of mine refer to her "girlfriend". She's not gay... she just means her "friend that is a girl"... and I have to remind myself that when my friend Jon is talking about his "partner" ... he means his business partner and not a boyfriend.

I don't think it's fair of us to assume that Dr. Pfeiffer assumed Willow and Tara are SO's. Maybe she does think that... or maybe she was just referring to Willow as Tara's "birthing partner"... a term Willow had happily agreed was accurate not moments before. Ok, so Tara wasn't in the room at the time... but still, you get what I mean. Right?

This whole story is about hyper-active emotions and how these can breed miscommunication and misunderstanding between people. Dare we too fall into the trap while merely observing?

Just a few thoughts.

Cheers
DW

[Tiggrscorpio]

TuesBlu,

You can count me in the group of people who had no problem with the doctor using the term "partner". I read it as the doctor meaning that Willow was Tara's birth partner. I also saw it as a nice hint to all of us Kittens who know by the end of this story that Willow and Tara will be partner's in every sense of the word.

I, too, was biting my fingernails wondering how Tara was going to react to Willow's sudden queasy tummy. I'm was relieved that Tara was so understanding. I also had an inkling about what made Tara smile on the medical form. Even though I guessed right, it still brought a great big goofy grin to my face.

Thank you for pointing out what bad friends Buffy and Xander have been. It always bugged me how self absorbed they were, while Willow was hurting. Having said that, would you please make sure they mind their own business for a little while and leave Willow and Tara alone? Pretty please!!

This continues to be a highly enjoyable story. I'm very much looking forward to the next update.

[JustSkipIt]

Ok, I don't think I'm having a knee-jerk reaction. I think that ob doctors and ob nurses know damn well the difference between a partner and a birth partner and the difference between the two terms. I don't think that it was a harmless substitution of the term. I've NEVER known anyone who's doctor accidently substituted the term birth partner for partner or vice versa. I think it was a screwup. (by the doctor).

[willowbaby05]

YES!!!! Thank You God!!! This is what I'm talkin about. Finally Tara's trusting Willow to be in her's and the baby's life. I wonder what's gonna happen now. Pleaseee dont let it be augsty because I have my hopes up... Update soon!! (I wonder when Tara's hormones are gonna kick in. That's gonna be funny. ) Í'll definally be waiting for the next update.

[AlysonGoddess]

update?

[Tues]

Don't ask... weird things happening with my first attempt to post replies?

[Tues]

[center]“A difference of opinion is what makes horse racing and missionaries.” - Will Rogers



“HEEEELLLLOOOOO?!” [/center]

It’s been much too long, my apologies to anyone reading this. The Real World is a task-master and I have been a mere slave! What can I say, amongst many things, I am in my busy season and barely have time for the basics. Sleeping and eating are less than slight, even for me (no smart-@ss comments from those who know!). Unfortunately, that’s put much of my own KB amusements on the backburner, including “Creation Myth”. Fear not dear friends for I haven’t lost heart! Ok, enough dramatics, things are in the works!!

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Greetings normal_weirdo -

yay! this is my first post ever! (i'm prone to lurking!)

Well, YAY for me! It’s quite an honor that you’ve de-lurked here first. But, hey, I get the ‘lurk’. Ok, although I do really appreciate an enthusiastic reply, a hardy ‘good job’, or constructive criticism… I hope no one feels obligated to leave feedback. I mean, it’s great and I really appreciate it! It keeps my fic around and helps keep me motivated, but you know - it’s about the writing first and foremost. I may have just shot myself in the foot… heck, whadda I know!!!!

Sincerely, thank you. I’m glad I have, at least, opened your mind to the possibility of W/T pregnancy storylines.

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shane!

Awww. You’re enthusiasm for my fic is wonderous. Really, I have a certified ‘fan’!

btw, good work tuesblu!

BTW, Thanks!

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Willohand –

All I can say is awwwwww.....

Yea, about time huh?

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Boadecia –

…raise "finally!! some happy interaction!"

Folds, I couldn’t keep stringing you out… well… for now.

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Grayson –

How are you? Still with me, thanks for that!

At first I was concerned…. They were both being so careful about everything they said and did around each other, with an eye toward how it would affect their tenuous relationship. But at the clinic visit they were finally able shut off their brains and have some genuine interactions with no agenda. Hopefully this is the start of a return to their former state of closeness. Which will lead to a different kind of closeness….

Yea, pretty much – yea.

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caz –

Thank God - it's about time!

A big old ‘whew’ on your part huh?

Something needs to be done about Buffy and Xander, just in case they put 2+2 together and make a big fat 5.

5? Now there’s a number!

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Puff –

I loved how Willow edged closer to Tara during the sonogram.... I am proud of both of them because it takes a lot to follow through with things, but it also takes a lot to let go of some of your hurt and trust again. However sometimes I wish that they could just skip it and be kissing each other….

Well shoot, that’d be the end of my whole tale! But, I understand, I do.

I worry that Buffy and Xander….

Sometimes less is more and sometimes… more is definitely too much.

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Justin, my pal!

It seems that Tara's realizing that Willow's sincere, even with the slight panic attack.

Willow also seems to be figuring some things out. What with her feeling jealous over the doctor getting to touch Tara. Hey she's a genius, I'm sure it won't take long for her to put two and two together.

She is a genius… but have you ever have that head and heart disconnect? Especially, when you don’t really know what it is your feeling?

The only cloud on the horizon….

Well, it is raining where I am, seriously, too much rain! And, it really affects my serotonin levels, maybe I shouldn’t write when I’m feeling sun-deprived?

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WillowRulez –

Nice idea that Willow shares the symptons!

She’s been on a rollercoaster since the beginning.

…totally in love with this story!

Thanks for the love!

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My Dearest DarkWiccan –

Why hello. Feeling a bit ‘off’ are you?

I am trying to formulate an at least semi-coherent reply as I am just waking up from a Daylight Saving fatigue nap... stupid DST... it's killer on those of us who have to be at work at 4am.

4am? Just what kind of work do you do?

Anyway... your update… which is far more important than my sleepiness. WOOOOOO-HOOOOOO! Awesome, awesome, beautifully written, wonderfully emotional update!!

Stupid Buffy… I totally thought she was going to keep Willow from making the appointment!! Thank GODDESS she didn't. Talk about being a bad friend. I would have some how managed to phase my self into the reality of your story and given Buffy SUCH A PINCH if she had hindered your Willow from meeting up with Tara.

And yes.. Buffy, Xander... you DO suck as friends. And NOW, you are going to suck even more by kidnapping Willow…. I bet. So... prove me wrong, will you, Tues, darling?

Well Doll, where’s the trust? But, I adored your comments, “such a pinch”.

The appointment. HU--freaking--ZZAH! Finally, yes, yes, yes... Tara and Willow on the same wave-length!! Willow starting to recognize those deeply-seated warm fuzzy feelings she has for Tara. Tara recognizing that this situation is just as stressful on Willow and actually --GASP-- cutting her a break.

They are inching ever so much closer... ever so slowly.

And I LOVE. EVERY. MINUTE!!!!! Wunderbar, darling!! Keep it up!!!!!!

ETA: About the note in Xander's back pocket. Was this the 1+1=? and W+T = _ _ _ _ note?? Or was there another green note I missed?

For once I’ll ‘give’ - yes, that’s the green note. See, I can be nice. (Also see Dulce Irene’s comments).

I don’t know… that was all pretty coherent despite DST. Ahh, my Dear DW, you’re the best! What can I say?

Oh, and thank you for the Fraggle Flowers! Here’s a little something for now, I wish I were witty enough to have truly penned this but I do adore Mr. Porter.

But if this ditty is not so pretty....

Yes, you are diveen, I tell you!

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Mi Dulce Irene -

Wonderful update Tues!

Tara and Willow are finally connecting...yay! You're tortuing us with their slow progress. But alas, that's the beauty of this fic.

Shucks… not so much.

What stood out the most for me was the small, insignificant moments that have made a huge impact….

Yea. I really like those kinds of things.

Willow is going to have to one day tell her friends about this pregnancy...true. I respect her for thinking about Tara and getting her consent before she announces anything. This is going to be tough for her.

(Xander) He found the note, but does he know what it means? ...ughh Tues...your killing us softly with these updates...thanks.

Very, true, that was to your comments about her friends and the note. Well, yea, ok to the torture too. Just a little.

To imagine Willow going out of her way to get a slice of watermelon and a scoop of 'room-temp' ice cream, puts a silly grin on my face…. I'm glad Tara is finally giving Willow that small opening back into her life...baby steps... pun intended.

I’m ok with puns.

I know Tara is in protective mommy mode and I admire her for not allowing Willow's initial reactions to this pregnancy to deter her from what was most important, her baby's well being. But I have to admit, when she intertwined her fingers with Willow's, I hoot and hollered...

I have a feeling everyone else out there did a bit of hooting and hollering too.

Lyrical, emotional, moving - this update was that and so much more….

I not sure I warrant all those lovely words, but thank you.

Siempre,
perriquita

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AlysonGoddess –

Woot!

I’m really liking the pace of this story there not getting together too fast and taking their time. But yeah super super update…

A double ‘super’ from Erin? Well, that’s big ‘woot’ for me!

Update?

Oh, and a big old ‘sorry’ for the lack of update-age, big puppy eyes and single word… ...got it!

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Hey there yourself, YMKA –

…I did all my morning routine quickly so I had time to read this before I went to work.....that was sooooo freaking awesome!!!! I just love it when they don't have smooth, perfect relationship... But all the small touches..... gestures....notes! it's so cute!!! I'm just a sucker for small things:) … I was smiling when I read "Father: Rosenberg, Will"

Wow, doing all that in the morning… just to read my chapter?! Well, that’s some praise you’ve given me. And, yeah I like the little things too. So, no, you’re ‘awesome’.

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dorksrcool –

Yay an update! I really missed this story.

Sorry you missed me… us… the story… right!

From story:
Tara saw the corners of Willow’s mouth curl into a small grin. Hmm? She’s happy about this? Then she saw Willow furrow her brow. Willow confused her on many levels. Now she’s not happy?

That part seriously cracked me up. Poor Tara!

I know. But, they are gonna get ‘there’ at some point… but it’s somewhere off in the horizon.

I really love the way you write these two. I pretty much love the way you write everything and I look forward to the next update.

I appreciate your heartfelt words; really, that’s very kind of you.

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Aww, my pal, SallyMcFine –

Hey TuesBlu, I feel like I'm holding my breath during these updates waiting for Willow to stumble or say the wrong thing or get freaked out.

It's also striking, still, that their communication is such that they can't tell what each other is thinking - the rift hasn't healed yet, obviously.

Breathe Sally, breathe… but I’m rather taken that my story has elicited such strong reactions. Wow. And, the ‘rift’, yeah - still there.

Willow's still communicating via actions…. I think that at some point a talk will be in order. And you're just drawing it out, eh? Delaying that conversation? Or maybe not - this actually seems like a pretty natural progression of events. But I'll bet it's soon.

Bets noted and taken! Seriously, yes, Willow’s ‘acting’, unsure of how to further progress with Tara, while Tara’s still reticent, not sure how Willow will react. As complex creatures that interact with each other, aren’t we all prone to action and reaction? Interpreting and misinterpreting everything, including ourselves according to our presumptions, ego, and self-doubts. Ah, heck… what do I know? Do I 'delay' as I draw things out? Well, the doctor visit did go well, it could have easily spun out of control. But, I do want it to feel like a small step in the ‘natural progression’ of things.

Willow also seems to be continuing to catch on to her growing attraction to Tara. And yay for the next update, which will hopefully be soon!

I do love your exuberance! And a big “boo-hiss” to me for being way off my personal update schedule which is securely tacked to some part of my brain. Ask Starcomed, really.

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ShallowLikeUs –

Stunning. Wonderful, simply...fantabulous!

“Fantabulous”, I love that word! Dani, very nice of you to bestow it upon me.

I'm so glad the girls are finally seeming to cement their relationship together again... though... I feel like Willow might give herself a heart attack... as she's so prone to panicking.... Willow is slowly falling in love, at least i think so. and Tara already is in love…but it's cute.

A Willow heart attack! .

Yea, the ‘falling’ parts are always the best.

Buffy and Xander are making me nervous actually…. and the butt pocket paper? did i miss what it was? maybe i did, i'm not reading at 100% currently, my glasses are AWOL.

That’s bad! Go find them glasses! The note, see my comments to my Dear DarkWiccan and Mi Dulce Irene!

…I hope that there isn't too much more angst in store for Willow and Tara….

I can’t make any promises.

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willowbaby05 -

YES!!!! Thank You God!!! This is what I'm talkin about. Finally Tara's trusting Willow to be in her's and the baby's life. I wonder what's gonna happen now. Pleaseee dont let it be angsty because I have my hopes up... Update soon!! (I wonder when Tara's hormones are gonna kick in. That's gonna be funny.) I’ll definitely be waiting for the next update.

Your expressive f/b has me in stitches and ‘yes’ finally something…

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JustSkipIt –

Hi, have a seat and let’s try to clear the air.

Well it's awesome that Willow went with and was so excited even if she did get sick again…. I can sympathise with Tara right off.

…Ok, that went well enough.

But...

A big ‘but’ huh?

The nurse calling Willow Tara's partner is completely out of line. That's 100% inappropriate.

I believe you meant ‘the doctor’ here, not the nurse? The nurse correctly called Willow ‘birth partner’, that was prefaced by Willow saying ‘she was helping with the baby’. Therefore, it was not inappropriate for the nurse to ‘offer’ the term that Willow did accept. It is a neutral term and is applicable to anyone assisting the mother.

From story:
“Yes, I’m sure she did,” the doctor replied knowingly. “I am Tara’s doctor, Doctor Pfeiffer.” The doctor held out her hand.

“Willow.” Willow shook the doctor’s hand. “Um, Tara’s, ah, um… friend, I’m helping with the baby.”

“Birth partner,” Lee offered, as she pushed the sonogram monitor out of the way and cleaned up. She and the doctor spoke briefly before she left the room.

Birth partner. Willow nodded beaming. “Yeah.”

It was the doctor that used the foreshortened term ‘partner’ ONLY AFTER Willow did acknowledge that she was indeed the ‘birth partner’ with a simple nod and auditory ‘yeah’.

Having a friend come with you is important…. But concluding that that friend is a partner and saying so is stupid and inappropriate. Unless the patient says, "this is my partner, Willow Rosenberg," she should have just called Willow a friend.

From story:
“Tara, I’ll see you next month. Don’t worry about your partner; it’s normal. Just a little ‘compassionate pregnancy malady’.” Dr. Pfeiffer smiled, handing Lee the patient file, then left.

There was no conclusion on the doctor’s part. As I stated above, it was merely shortened for convenience and Willow had acknowledged her status as the birth partner. Although I did use the word in a nebulous way for the audience and storyline, on the doctor’s part alone, it’s neutral.

As far as friends going with you, I did accompany a girl friend (but NOT a ‘girlfriend’) to a Lamaze class. And, ‘heee-lllooo’ no one mentioned a birth video – I N T E N S E. Phew! Anyway, the instructor did refer to everyone that was obviously not the birth mother as ‘partner’. Despite my friend’s jokes that I was now her ‘partner-partner’ (since her boyfriend was working), it was obvious that the term in class was used for everyone accompanying the mother-to-be, from significant others to siblings to birth partners to friends suckered in and curious.

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GGreetings again my ggood DarkWiccan! and welcome back.

Dr. Pfeiffer's use of the word "partner".

We as gays or lesbians (or even just gay-friendly-type-people) seem to be hyper-sensitive to this word. Indeed, Tara's strong internal reaction to the term is a good example of this.

But we need to remind ourselves that just because someone uses the term "partner", doesn't mean they are referring to a sexual or love-type relationship...or that they are making assumptions about the nature of a relationship between two people.

I agree.

Plus, definitions change over time via associations, cultural use, heck, even geographically.

For instance, the word, eh hem, ‘fanny’ between continents. And, I learned that the hard way!!!

My point? Currently, the word ‘partner’ is still basically defined as “One that is united or associated with another or others in an activity or a sphere of common interest….” There isn’t necessarily a sexual connotation or assumption always there – ‘business partner, tennis partner, birth partner…partner-partner’?

I know I have had to catch myself from knee-jerk reactions when I hear a female co-worker of mine refer to her "girlfriend". She's not gay... she just means her "friend that is a girl"... and I have to remind myself that when my friend Jon is talking about his "partner" ... he means his business partner and not a boyfriend.

Another good point and on the opposite side of the net.

Yes, my beta pointed this out too. Well… a bit differently. Now, where is… ah Starcomed! There you are.

As Starcomed noted offline in our discussions, we do struggle with meaning along the gay/straight divide. We debate the word ‘partner’, but just as DW said, what of ‘friend’? And how does it feel when someone refers to your significant other as merely your ‘friend’ instead of ‘girlfriend’, ‘boyfriend’, ‘wife’, ‘husband’, ‘lover’, ‘spouse’… ‘partner’? And, sometimes isn’t just easier to go with the flow of it? Do I long for a world where we don’t have to ‘explain’ ourselves, we just ‘are’, and there is no division between gay, bi, trans, and straight? Yea, I do.

I don't think it's fair of us to assume that Dr. Pfeiffer assumed Willow and Tara are SO's. Maybe she does think that... or maybe she was just referring to Willow as Tara's "birthing partner"... a term Willow had happily agreed was accurate not moments before. Ok, so Tara wasn't in the room at the time... but still, you get what I mean. Right?

Right and right! As I stated and you pointed out, the term was only used after the Willow explained she was indeed there to ‘help with the baby’, the nurse offered her the term ‘birth partner’ that Willow did accept. Then, the doctor simply shortened it. Ok, I’ve beat this with a hammer enough I’m sure… forgive me….

This whole story is about hyper-active emotions and how these can breed miscommunication and misunderstanding between people. Dare we too fall into the trap while merely observing?

DW, darling, you have in a few short sentences explained the several chapters and accompanying notes I have fashioned together into some kind of narrative.

Just a few thoughts.

You have lovely thoughts.

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Mi Dulce Irene-

I hope that from my fb you didn't misconstrue what I was trying to point out. When the nurse used the term 'birthing partner' I understood what she meant: A person who is there to help out the mother during her entire pregnancy up until the time she gives birth and during the birthing process.

Nope, no ‘misconstu-tion’ here. Ok, that was NOT a word. You understood correctly, ‘birth partner’. I say no more.

Gracias, Mi Señora Encantadora.

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My friend! Tiggrscorpio –

You can count me in the group of people who had no problem with the doctor using the term "partner". I read it as the doctor meaning that Willow was Tara's birth partner. I also saw it as a nice hint to all of us Kittens....

Tis true, you’re on the money. It is an offering to the readers of what’s to come, and a small hint for Tara who only thinks of Willow as her straight friend. Basically, just a little foreshadowing to instill a bit of hope amongst the angst.

I also had an inkling about what made Tara smile on the medical form. Even though I guessed right, it still brought a great big goofy grin to my face.

Ahh, inklings are fine and Goofy’s good… Tigger too! Now I’m being silly.

Thank you for pointing out what bad friends Buffy and Xander have been…. Having said that, would you please make sure they mind their own business…? Pretty please!!

“Pretty please”? That’s hard to resist… but I’m resisting.

This continues to be a highly enjoyable story.

I’m trying… sincerely, thank you for all the support. I think you’re, well, toy prize good… ‘Cracker Jack’, in fact! Which is saying a whole lot, ‘cause those boxed crunchy sweet popcorny nutty treats don’t come with real toy prizes anymore.

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Which leads me back around the table. Hi JustSkipIt!

Ok, I don't think I'm having a knee-jerk reaction. I think that ob doctors and ob nurses know damn well the difference between a partner and a birth partner and the difference between the two terms. I don't think that it was a harmless substitution of the term. I've NEVER known anyone who's doctor accidently substituted the term birth partner for partner or vice versa. I think it was a screwup.

From story:
Partner? Tara turned back around in surprise.

Actually, I did ask my doctor if that could happen, the use of term ‘partner’. She said ‘yes’ given the acceptance of the individual helping the mother as a ‘birth partner’, that ‘partner’ might be used in the short, and certainly without any assumption or any other connotations attached. Now, of course, Tara interprets something different when she hears it… and back we go to the earlier discussion on assumptions and miscommunications.

Hmmm. Speaking of which…. If I were simply drawing conclusions? If I squint my eyes and read just certain parts of your feedback… I’d say you weren’t throwing mere raisins, or even prunes at me. No, I’d say you had something heavy and solid aimed right at my noggin. And, that “I think it was a screwup” actually, says “you fu(ked up Tues”.

Well, before we go to fisticuffs, throw bats and batons… if you felt that way, which of course, you are absolutely welcome to feel, I would have appreciated a gracious PM. Friendly banter, witty remarks, and varying opinions accepted… still, I like to keep it chummy. But, that’s me, and you are well, you. So, if I’ve over-stepped some line or offended you, I certainly didn’t mean to. And, if this is just a matter of opinions, well, ok then.

Anyway, this is an open forum, so I respect everyone’s right to voice their own thoughts and beliefs. So, if your comments are simply your opinion, that’s cool - I get that. But, for the purposes of my story I’ll stick with what I’ve got. The beauty of art, music, literature, movies, or anything we experience individually… is that it is all very subjective. It’s a singular experience and valid for each one of us with our own interpretations, dissenting views included. I don’t claim to know everything, but I like to allow a writer a chance to tell their story, their way. As long as we all follow the basic guidelines, this is supposed to be a non-exclusive supportive place, and I hope there’s room for all of us to play.

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Wow, now that I’ve really over-thought all this and rambled on… SORRY FOLKS for all the 'blah, blah, blah'. I’m going for a long bicycle ride to clear my head!

[center]Cheers all, but check back, more story soon – promise! OHHH, and thanks to everyone for reading.[/center]

[sinkinghearts]

woooohooooooooo update soon!! can't wait, can't wait

[simplyblue]

Umm, how 'bout them Mets?

I've been away from the Board for several weeks dealing with RL, so I've just now gotten to this last update. I thought it was really lovely. I sympathized with Willow so much when she wanted to grab the wand away from the tech, sure that she could do the job better, and also when she was pissed that the tech was touching Tara. And while Willow's reactions should be sending her signals that her emotional connection to Tara is more than just friendly (with a soupçon of guilt), it also strikes me that Willow, as you've written her, is still a ways from putting it all together. (As someone who lives in her own head, I get it. It took me what in retrospect seems like forever and a day to realize that I was attracted to a woman.) Add to Willow's natural tendency to process events in her head both her emotional upheaval over the pregnancy and her desperation to do things right, and I think you've written a formula for seriously delayed realization on her part.

As for Tara, I think she got some much needed emotional reassurance in this update. Willow came with her. Willow listed herself as the father. And Willow is experiencing sympathetic pregnancy pains. Each of these items, particularly the last, has to tell Tara that Willow is emotionally involved with her and with the baby-in-progress. It seems clear by the end of the update that Tara is opening her heart (again) to Willow.

A really lovely update.

--blue

[rezeaka]

What a TEASE it is for this fic to be up near the top of Pens and not have it be for a full fledged update......eeerrrahhhh!

Oh the TORTURE you're putting us through TuesBlu!!!! ....In the words of my niece, "I just teasin'"!

In all seriousness though, I am terribly sorry it has taken me this long to leave even a tiny bit 'o feedback for your amazing story! (I definitely lean toward the realm of "lurkdom" for the most part) But, as pathetic as I have been with leaving feedback, I am quite proud to say that I can be listed as one of the Kittens who checks the Pens board several times a day (and night), every day (and night), always hoping to see "Creation Myth" somewhere in the top of the page!

You've got yourself quite the gem of a fic going here -- I can't tell you how thankful I am to you for sharing it!

Anxiously waiting for the next part...whenever time and life permits you the opportunity to share it!

-annie

[Tues]

AlysonGoddess – Hi again, just a little something to hold you over….

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shane – Soon-ish I swear!

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Simplyblue –

Or shall I just call you you ‘blue’, you can call me ‘Tues’. Hmm, that didn’t sound quite right?

I've been away from the Board for several weeks dealing with RL….

C’mon on in, the more the merrier and late’s ok. Plus, hey the RL, I’m right there with you! I just hope RL hasn’t been too rough on you.

…it also strikes me that Willow, as you've written her, is still a ways from putting it all together. (As someone who lives in her own head, I get it. It took me what in retrospect seems like forever and a day to realize that I was attracted to a woman.) Add to Willow's natural tendency to process events in her head both her emotional upheaval over the pregnancy and her desperation to do things right, and I think you've written a formula for seriously delayed realization on her part.

I think you’ve done a great job of describing my story’s version of Willow.

As for Tara, I think she got some much-needed emotional reassurance in this update.

As well as the readers, I hope….

A really lovely update.

And, it’s always lovely to hear from you.

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rezeaka -

Oh the TORTURE you're putting us through TuesBlu!!!! ....In the words of my niece, "I just teasin'"!

I like your niece.

…I am terribly sorry it has taken me this long to leave even a tiny bit 'o feedback for your amazing story! (I definitely lean toward the realm of "lurkdom" for the most part) But, as pathetic as I have been with leaving feedback, I am quite proud to say that I can be listed as one of the Kittens who checks the Pens board several times a day (and night), every day (and night)…

No “sorry” necessary, but I love when lurkers chime in even once for a ‘thumbs up’. Truthfully, I prefer the realm of the edges myself, so I understand. And, for you to come out just to say you proudly check in “several times a day”? Wow, that means a lot… more than I can even say....

… gem of a fic going here -- I can't tell you how thankful I am to you for sharing it!

Anxiously waiting for the next part...whenever time and life permits…

Annie, you’re a gem! My tale’s a decent little thing. A rough cut, a few flaws, but my bitty prize and I’m glad it’s appreciated nonetheless. Hey, guess what? You won’t have to wait long!

[Tues]

[center]So here we go counting down in days….

The cardinal directions, Buddhist’s Noble Truths, the Seasons, the suits of a deck of cards…[/center]

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[center]My beta of the story-age, my co-conspirator of the note-age: Starcomed, dear Rachel, what would I do without you? Nevermind, don't answer that![/center]

[DarkWiccan]

Ooh my, my, my. Well, I know I said that the *last* handwritten note was my favorite so far... but it's just been replaced. Oh dear, oh dear, oh dear... poor Willow. I can feel the tugging on her heart strings.. and dare I say, her throat muscles... a familiar knot has duly formed its place mid-way down the old esophagus.

Poor thing. Poor Tara... Poor everybody.



I'm counting back from 4, Tues, Darling... you can bet that my calendar is marked!

Cheers
DW

[FineyMcFine]

I'm starting to really think that Willow is writing these notes but not giving them to Tara. Sort of a wishful kind of thing. Can't wait for 4 days from now!

[AlysonGoddess]

awww thats just cute Im glad an update is on its way!!!
Erin

[rezeaka]

TuesBlu

I like your niece.

I always said if my brother and his wife had a child the kid would be hilarious -- so far she's all the silliness I could have imagined and then some. I would even go so far as to predict she will one day be posting her own fan fiction, or some form of literature somewhere down the road in her life. She constantly makes up stories -- the other night's tale was something about "fluffy brown dog-kitties...going on a train ride...a big commotion...getting off the train....and then they were at the Gap!"

No “sorry” necessary,

Thanks for your lenience -- as for the several times a day...it certainly helps my cause in that I work from home (for a large IT consulting firm) and have nary a soul (other than the cats) to worry about looking over my shoulder at my monitors....

Great note...yet another perk to this story! LET THE COUNT DOWN TO THE UPDATE begin!!

-annie

[Thianne]

What a TEASE it is for this fic to be up near the top of Pens and not have it be for a full fledged update......eeerrrahhhh!

oh god, that is SO true!!!! and can i add an "AAAAAARGGHHHHHH!!!!!" too?
the note is just so sweet, i find it touching that willow wants some time just for them....please, update soon......

[DarkWiccan]

Okay, everyone sing together now!!

Tomorrow we'll discover
What our TuesBlue has in store!
One more dawn
One more day
One day more!





Cheers
DW

[will]

The note is just too cute.
I can't wait for the update.

Tomorrow we'll discover
What our TuesBlue has in store!
One more dawn
One more day
One day more!

[JustSkipIt]

Cute Note.

[Tues]

Just a bit more formatting and Chapter Nine to follow!

Mi Dulce Irene - 4...3...2... WHOO-HOO - IT’S TIME!

My Diveen DarkWiccan – Dah-ling, how are those heart strings? And that flag waving. Loved the tune... are you the Noel to my Cole?

Sweet SallyMcFine – Over… 4 days… over….

AlysonGoddess - Updated my friend!

Rezeaka – Annie, I love the “kid” picture & yours too! I just had to peek, you wacky F.B.G.!

Thianne - No more teasing.

Will – Hope the wait wasn’t too bad!

JustSkipIt – Yea…

[Tues]

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[center]See Chapter One for disclaimers. Thanks again to Starcomed for all the help - now just get me off of Aussie time![/center]

Chapter Nine - Tingling Symptoms

Willow felt elated. The next few days with Tara went so well; better than well. She felt like their friendship was finally really on the mend. “Yea… us!”

She opened up her bag and pulled out something both of them had a copy of. A newly acquired prize she now kept with her and was reluctant to relinquish - the sonogram picture. Grinning, she held the image out in front of her. Then she slid it back into her bag, packing up her laptop as well. She was headed over to Tara’s.

“Good timing.” Buffy walked in, and she wasn’t alone.

“Wills!” Xander strolled in, with a wide smile on his face.

“Hey, guys.” Not bothering to look up, Willow continued packing up her stuff.

Buffy and Xander looked at each other; they had plans.

Willow turned around. She was about to slide her bag over her shoulder when Buffy walked over.

“I don’t think so Rosenberg.” Buffy grabbed the strap of Willow’s bag.

“Wha?” Willow gave her a look of surprise, and she tugged on the bag to no avail. Stupid Slayer strength.

“Not happening Will.” Xander dropped an affable arm around her shoulders as Buffy took Willow’s bag and stowed it away. He steered her over to her bed as she swiveled her head around, keeping track of where Buffy was putting her things.

Willow sputtered in disbelief. “Ah, guys… um, what’s going on?” She knew full well what was going on, but she couldn’t help asking. Xander sat her down on her bed and took a seat next to her.

“Scooby Intervention.” Buffy and Xander simultaneously chorused. Buffy took a seat on her bed; opposite her two best friends.

“Listen, I’m fine. In fact, I’m fine-fine, super-fine, ultra-fine… and Tara’s expecting me. We were going to do the dinner-hang out thing.” Willow glanced at the clock. “And I’m gonna be late!”

“Look, I know we….” Buffy flashed her eyes at Xander. “…Haven’t exactly been the best of best friends, but we’re trying… more lately even though you appear to be trying less.” Buffy frowned a bit. “So, c’mon Will, what’s going on?”

“‘On’? Nothing, nada, nothing’s going on!” Willow gulped nervously. What can I say? Hey guys, I gotta go take care of Tara because I got her pregnant? Uh-un, nooooo way. Tara doesn’t want me to just announce it? We haven’t even got that far. And, ok, having to admit to another embarrassing magick Willow-screw up….

Buffy shook her head. “Ok, you don’t have to tell us. But we are having a Scooby night…of the non-patrol variety.” She and Xander had decided to offer Willow their help, but if she refused, they could at least offer their company. It had been too long. And maybe, just maybe, offering to hang out would eventually lead to the revealing of some much-needed details.

“And, we’re not buying any of your excuses.” Xander squeezed her shoulders.

“Who, what?” Willow looked at her well-meaning friends.

“It’s Scooby night and we’ve got a party to go to!” Buffy smiled.

“Party?” Willow didn’t want to go and she frowned. “I’m not really in the mood.” ‘Mood’ is to see Tara.

“Yup, Lowell House party and there should be some cute boys there. When’s the last time you went out, just for fun? Maybe you’ll meet someone? You can invite Tara too!” Buffy gave her best winning smile. She and Xander wanted core Scooby night, but if Willow wanted to invite Tara, that was fine.

Willow furrowed her brow at the mention of ‘Tara’. Tara wouldn’t be interested in a party full of boys, I mean, I’m not even interested! And Tara, partying in her condition? Nah-un, no, I don’t think so. Somehow, the thought seemed to really bother her, even though she knew Tara would never do something like that.

“Well, not so much with the boy-cuteness for me.” Xander joked. “But I hope, I’m kind of a cute guy myself… for the ladies that is, but I’m Anya-free tonight!” He knew Willow would have to be pleased about that, no Anya.

Willow was actually conflicted. Part of her wanted to go. Maybe it was nostalgia; or because she was feeling extra good, or maybe because it really had been a long time. Buffy minus Riley and Xander’s going without Anya… best bud time? It has been awhile, plain old Scooby fun without others of the significant or demon variety. In Xander’s case, that’s both. A night without responsibilities sounded so appealing. Her brow creased as a feeling of guilt came over her. Then she drew a short breath. Another part of her just wanted to be with Tara. Not just because of the pregnancy, but also because she had really liked their time together, and things were finally getting back on track. She shook her head. “I shouldn’t. I have plans with Tara.”

“Consider it a kidnapping of the best friends variety,” Buffy nodded once.

“A Willow-napping.” Xander grinned like a goofball.

Knowing them well enough, Willow nervously looked her best friends. She was stuck. Either she needed to spill the truth now, or reluctantly go with them against her better judgment. Maybe, if I go along I can just get it over with, and then cut out early? And, then still have time to see Tara. “Just let me make a call, ok?”


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Tara didn’t want to, but she couldn’t help herself. She turned to look at the clock in anticipation. So far, things with Willow were even better than she expected. “Daddy” did seem to care and was being supportive. That’s all Tara was hoping for and Willow had delivered, plus much more. She should be here soon.


-- ring, ring --


Tara eyed the phone and climbed out of her chair.


-- ring, ring --


She picked up the receiver, already knowing who was on the other end.

“Hello? Tara?”

“Hi Willow.”

“Um, listen… this Scooby thing came up and I can’t stop by right away tonight. So, I have to cancel tonight’s dinner plans.” Willow winced, even as she said it. She didn’t want to tell Tara she was ditching her to go to a party, even if it was against her will. She also didn’t know how to code her words so that Tara would understand. Plus both her best friends were standing right there. But it’s not really a lie; it is a Scooby thing. How can I ask to see her later… maybe I should just ask ‘ask’? She peeked sideways at her best friends and pursed her lips, slightly annoyed. And maybe not.

“That’s fine, I understand.” Tara could hear the unease in Willow’s voice, but kept her reply upbeat and positive.

“Ok, I’ll see you maybe late…oh, well, no, you should sleep. Tomorrow, maybe? Just, uh, make sure to have a healthy dinner and get some real rest.” Willow couldn’t stop her overly concerned reply, trying to stem off some of her guilt-ridden feelings.

“Thanks. I will.” Tara paused briefly. “Mm, is there some kind of big Hellmouth thing going on?” She tilted her head slightly unable to shake the feeling that something was amiss. What’s going on? “Um, Willow, are you ok?”

“What do you mean? I’m fine, good.” Willow felt ashamed of herself when Tara inquired about her wellbeing. I should just tell her, I mean I can’t help this… whatever this thing Buffy and Xander have planned. She was about to explain her predicament to Tara when Buffy came up, holding out an outfit. “Listen, Buffy and Xander are here, I gotta go.” It was out of her mouth before she could even register her clipped reply.

“Oh-kay. Say ‘hi’ to everyone for me. Um, bye.” Tara was slightly shocked by Willow’s abrupt change in demeanor.

“Bye.” Willow hung up and stared at the phone intensely. What did I just do? That was bad. She picked it up again.

“If you don’t get a move on, I’ll dress you myself. I’ve got this hot little number….” Buffy had the feeling Willow was trying to ditch them.

Willow looked at the outfit with large eyes and put the phone back down quickly.


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So, she’s not coming over, but that’s ok. It’s not like I’m expecting her life to stop because of this. She’s been wonderful lately, spending all her free time with me. I shouldn’t be so… needy.

Her stomach suddenly rumbled. Ok, well, I’m hungry I should go get something to eat then. Right you? She ran a hand over the belly.

Tara put on her coat and, as a precautionary measure, took a stake and a bottle of holy water. A prerequisite for any nightly walk in Sunnydale, even if things seemed kind of quiet. I can still have a short walk after dinner; it’s safer since the Initiative’s been around.


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One grumpy, and two grinning Scoobies, crossed the campus.

“Well, this is great… fun, so um, but how about an early night? I mean, how often does the Slayer get an early night? And, hey, who’s minding the store anyway?” Willow dragged her feet slightly, walking between her best friends.

“No worries tonight Wills.” Buffy replied confidently.

“The neutered-one’s on the payola,” Xander batted back.

After her call to Tara, Willow felt terrible and tried to get out of the Scooby outing again. But there was no use. Spike, huh? Fine, great… my friends… I really just want to see Tara. Last couple of days have been so good too, but tonight - not starting out so good.

It was about to go further downhill.


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It was unmistakable; that unexplained ‘feeling’. Tara was coming back from the dining hall, and about to turn the corner. She knew she was going to be face to face with her in a matter of minutes. Willow?

Since she had fallen pregnant something remarkable was happening. Tara seemed to know where Willow was and when Willow would call. Maybe she didn’t always know what the other woman was thinking, but she seemed to be able to ‘feel’ her. Tara always possessed good intuition, but lately it seemed to be getting stronger. She wasn’t quite sure what that meant, except that it was most certainly connected to the baby’s mystical origins. At some point, some point very soon, she was going to have to let Willow know. Then, there would most definitely need to be some kind of research. But it was difficult enough juggling everything, from the clinic, to school, to the ‘daddy-complications’. Now, with things definitely in the ‘better’ category with Willow, Tara felt like she could handle this other concern as well.

Willow became slightly agitated, spying a corner up ahead. “Guys, really, I just want a quiet kind of night. Plus, Tara….”

“You already called her, she knows you’re with us.” Buffy couldn’t figure Willow out. Why is she so antsy about Tara?

“Relax Will.” Xander swung his arms amiably at his side.

They rounded the corner. Willow’s mouth dropped slightly at the familiar figure that was coming towards them. Her stomach knotted and she closed her mouth tight swallowing nervously when Tara came into view. Her eyes flew between all the bodies now present - Buffy, Xander, and Tara. Oh no… no, no, no.

Tara looked curiously at Willow, and then at the Scoobies all dressed up. Party-patrol?

“Hi! Um, Buffy, Xander you remember Tara. Tara, you know, Buffy and Xander.” Willow took a small step forward.

Buffy shot Willow a look like she was insane. “Yeah, of course we remember, geez Will! Hey Tara, how are you?”

Tara’s chin dropped slightly and she peered upward cautiously. Willow’s… embarrassed and she’s going ‘out’ with her friends. Nothing’s really changed has it? I’m still her invisible friend, maybe even more so, now with the baby. I guess I was just hoping for too much. “Um, g-good… I’m good.” …And pregnant, which none of her friends know about, that’s obvious. But, do I want them to know? Well, everyone’s going to know soon enough.

“Hey Tara.” Xander grinned broadly and wagged his brow once at her. “You’re looking great these days! So, we’re headed to a party….”

Willow frowned at Xander. Hey! But she turned her attention quickly back to Tara. “Tara it’s not what you think… I think?” Willow carefully examined Tara, who only nodded. No, no… it’s really not… damn!

“I-I should g-go.” Tara thought it wiser, and it was getting dark anyway. “Y-you know, n-night and all. Have fun.” She took off stiffly, not bothering to look back as she swept by the Scoobies.

“She needs an escort, I’ll walk her… vamps, Hellmouth!” Willow started after Tara with Buffy and Xander on her heels.

Tara turned around quickly to show them the vampire repellants she was carrying. “R-really, I’m fine.”

Willow stopped in her tracks and glanced at her friends standing next to her. In that moment, she really hated herself, hated that she would just give in and go along with her best friends. She felt childish and completely unprepared to be a parent. Just great! Perfect! ‘Progress’ just flushed right down the toilet. “Tara?” She whispered, watching Tara’s eclipsing figure. Can this night get any worse?

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The “night of fun” went badly, turning into a bona fide Scooby disaster, and another campus shindig from hell. Willow was relieved that Tara had NOT gone to the party. It was a major catastrophe, triggering something that haunted her in her sleep that night. A nightmare: babies that became children, children that became teens. Youngsters with hallowed faces and empty eyes circling around and taunting her. Everything went wrong on the Hellmouth.

Willow awoke that morning in a cold sweat, her legs twisted up in the sheets. She couldn’t move and merely stared at the ceiling, not wanting to get out of bed. She was caught in an endless thought-cycle about the future and its prospects. Her apprehension wasn’t because of Tara’s abilities to be a good parent, but of her own. She knew Tara would make an extraordinary mother, but she had doubts about herself. Didn’t she have a propensity for messing up? Would she be more of a help or burden to Tara and the baby? And, what about all things Hellmouthy that seemed especially attracted to her and the Scoobies? Wouldn’t she be putting Tara and the baby in harm’s way? She couldn’t just quit the Scoobies; they needed her. But so did Tara. Didn’t she? She sighed heavily and kicked the tangled blankets off her. Tara is so much more ‘together’ than me.

I need to talk to her again, especially after last night. Goddess, I hope she’s not mad. Not that I would blame her if she were. So the party didn’t exactly start out as a Scooby misadventure, but it definitely ended up as one. I’ve got to see her. Explain it all to her. That was enough to motivate Willow to get up. Not only did she owe Tara an explanation, but also she felt the need to see her.


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Tara stirred under her covers. She really didn’t want to move, still clinging to a beautiful enticing dream. But, she couldn’t rest long, because of the pressure in her bladder. She got up and made a quick run for the bathroom.

On her way back, Tara pondered several things that she had stewed over through most of the night. Initially, she was put off by last night’s run-in with Willow. Angry, upset, embarrassed. But then, in retrospect, she could see that Willow was in a difficult position. The nervous phone conversation; the look in Willow’s eyes when they ran into each other and abruptly parted; Willow trying to walk her home, and calling after her. The redhead had other friends and other obligations - her life as a demon fighter, or demon fighter’s helper. She couldn’t expect Willow to turn her back on her friends, to give up her life, and her other responsibilities. That wouldn’t be fair. Again, the idea of Willow resenting her for keeping her tied down with a child plagued her. Tara would never force Willow’s hand, especially if she wasn’t ready, or completely willing.

She walked into her room. There it was again, that feeling? She looked at her phone and raised a single brow, it was Willow.


-- ring --


Tara quickly picked up the receiver dispensing with the pretense of not knowing who might be calling her. “Hi Willow.”

“Um, hi Tara.” Okay, how did she know? Willow scrunched her brow. “Last night….”

Tara paused briefly, cupping a hand over her forehead. “Why don’t you just come over and we can talk about it.”

“Okay… Now?” Willow was desperate; she had been stressing all night and morning. Willow assumed she would be making apologies with more attempts to work things out between them.

Tara let out a light chuckle. “Yes, if you want. I’ll be here.”

“I’ll be right over.” Tara’s laugh made Willow instantly relax. “Oh, with breakfast… and no coffee! Bye.”

Tara set down the phone, laughing a bit more. She shook her head slightly and then became more serious.

It was time for both of them to grow up. Time for both of them to act like adults, not only about the situation at hand, but with each other. Willow said she wanted to be present, to be a part of her life and the baby’s. If that was true, then they really needed to start figuring out how this was going to work. That meant, how did they fit as ‘just friends raising a baby… together and on a Hellmouth?’ She was already starting to ‘show’ and Willow’s friends were going to have to know.


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“Hi.” Willow arrived at Tara’s holding a large paper bag in one hand and an herbal tea in the other. After the clinic visit, and her own research, she knew what to bring. There was a strong need within her to bring something, anything, to Tara.

“Come in.” Smiling, Tara held the door open. She tilted her head at the bag in Willow’s arm, but didn’t attempt to take it. Willow was already presenting the tea to her while holding the bag aloft. “Thanks.” She graciously accepted the warm beverage.

Willow walked over to Tara’ s desk. “I, ah, brought a few things.”

“I can see that.” Tara sidled up next to Willow as she set the bag down. “Um, that’s a lot of breakfast? I know I’m eating for two, but….”

Willow turned to face Tara while rolling her eyes. Then she handed her a to-go box containing scrambled eggs with shredded cheese, a toasted whole-wheat bagel with butter and jam on the side, and some fruit salad.

“Thank you... again.” Tara took the container, while paying attention to Willow unpacking the paper bag. Whole milk, whole grain cereal, fruit, peanut butter, carrots, nuts, yogurt, cheese, pickles... and a heating pad? She couldn’t help herself; Tara chuckled. “What? No note?”

“Huh?” Willow stopped what she was doing. “Are you making fun of me?” Grinning as Tara raised an eyebrow at her. “Later… maybe,” she laughed.

Tara looked at her once, shook her head giggling lightly, and then nodded towards everything on the table.

“Oh, well you know, they say you should snack 6-8 times a day. Small snacks help with morning sickness. Which is really a misnomer, since it doesn’t just happen in the morning, it happens almost anytime during the day. I just wanted to make sure you had everything. The heating pad will be good for you lower back or your legs when you get achey.”

“You. Are. Very. Sweet.” Tara had an overwhelming urge to reach over and plant a little kiss on Willow’s adorable nose. Instead she caught herself and stood stark still holding back. Oh my goddess, what was I about to do?

That little compliment made Willow grin proudly. So far, start of ‘apology plan’, A-ok.

Tara backed away slightly to reign in her feelings and regain control. Her dream-urges were coming to the forefront. She had always had them for Willow, but now they were coming on much stronger than before. And more often.

Willow turned around when she felt Tara leave her side. Maybe not so A-ok? Watching Tara carefully, she instantly felt bad about the previous night. She bit her lip and walked over to the small fridge to put away the perishables. Setting the milk into the side door she began speaking, “Tara? Last night… it really was a Scooby thing. Well, it didn’t really start out as one, but it did turn into one.”

“But, what did it start out as?” Tara closed her eyes, then opened them and drew a long breath.

Willow cringed, shut the refrigerator door, and turned around. “A party… that I didn’t want to go. But, I was kidnapped by Buffy and Xander!”

“You should have just told me, you know?” Tara paused, taking a tiny step towards Willow. “I just need you to be honest with me, that’s all I’m asking.” Nothing more.

“I was trying to, ok, in a stupid coded-not-so-coded kind of way.” Willow waved her hands about as she spoke quickly. She just couldn’t get the words out fast enough. “I wanted to call you back, but then Buffy and Xander were just there… and this outfit! Oh my god… I was threatened by fashion, sexy slayer fashion, so NOT me… I didn’t know what to do. And… and if you’re mad at me… I understand, because last night was so….”

“Willow, I’m not angry at you.” Tara lowered her head minutely. “This is difficult for both of us and we need to communicate for this to work. I’m not….” Your girlfriend. “…your keeper. I don’t want to stop you from seeing your friends. I don’t want you give up your Scooby duties. And, I would never force you to be here with me and the baby, if you don’t want to be.” Sexy slayer fashion?

“I know, but I do want to ‘be’…I am sorry about last night.” Willow nodded firmly, and her eyes shifted to Tara’s belly. Part of the problem was that she was still trying to hide something, someone, that couldn’t stay hidden. We will need to tell people soon. And, what’s another huge Willow-mistake out in the open? Nothing compared to making things easier for Tara….

Tara watched Willow’s eyes drift downward to focus on her belly.

“If… or whenever you’re ready. Um, I, you… or we, can tell people.” Willow hesitated momentarily. “Well, you know, except Giles, ‘cause I told him… and again he’s so cool with it. Giles-British-stiff-upper-lip-cool, in fact!” Willow reached for Tara’s hands; they felt so warm in her own. Basal body temperature rises after ovulation and remains elevated throughout pregnancy.

Tara had an immense respect for Mr. Giles. Even though she knew Willow had confided in him, to publicly acknowledge everything made her flush. Embarrassed, she stepped backwards a bit. It wasn’t her present condition that caused her reaction, but thoughts of her own irresponsibility in the magickal spell that lead to the pregnancy. She could only nod, unable to say anything as she blushed for a few different reasons. Is Willow really ready for a public revelation? Am I?

As they stood there in silence, stillness settled over them while they quietly contemplated different things.

A sudden phone ring made them both jump slightly and Tara dropped Willow’s hands. She looked into Willow’s eyes briefly, then pick up the receiver. “Oh yes, hi Lee. An appointment change?” She turned towards her wall calendar.

Willow stood just behind Tara and took a deep breath. She smells good… sweet-like. Appointment change? That reminds me, I need to ask the doctor’s about that reaction Tara had at the appointment. ‘Quickening’ the first perception of fetal movement, usually occurring between 16-20 weeks. That means what Tara felt was kind of early! Every pregnancy is different, but isn’t this too early? ‘First fetal movements may feel like bubbles of gas, or butterfly wings.’ I wonder if it really feels like that? Willow grinned while bobbing her head absently.

Tara pointed at a date, peering back over her shoulder as Willow nodded. “Okay, yes that’s fine.” She turned back towards the calendar to re-address her appointment dates.

Willow looked down as Tara turned away from her. Blinking at her hands, she realized they were hovering just at Tara’s waist.

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Thanks everyone for being patient...again sorry for the wait! Enjoy.

JFD... all's good... all's well.

[DarkWiccan]

Squeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

Okay, so YAY! Tara didn't flip out about the Willow-napping.. and STUPID Buffy and Xander... all they had to do was listen to Willow.. but no, they had to be all large with the partying and the force and the obstinance.

Grumble...

Well, like I said, at least Tara was cool with it.

And one more big YAY! that Willow is inching ever so slowly toward romance with Tara... it's teeny weeny baby steps (heh, no pun intended) but it's there.

Heh, no surprise that the Lowell house party went sour.. it would be the party where the haunting madness took place, right?

Heh, your "Noel" comment couldn't help but remind me:

[center]I went to a marvelous party
With Nounou and Nada and Nell,
It was in the fresh air
And we went as we were
And we stayed as we were
Which was Hell. [/center]

Please, please, please more soon!!!!!

Cheers
DW

[Willowtree252]

yes this is geting so good more please when are thay going to know thay are falling in love and become girlfriends