The Crappy Feelings Thread (HOTLINES in first post)

[DameSansMerci]

Boschi--I know you don't know me, but *hugs*. I'm sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself.

[a.renegade.dream]

I got off the phone with my girlfriend at 9, she a a few of our friends were on their way to pick me up. Then she sends me a text message at quarter past saying she was in a car accident. This is where I start to panic, a wicked lot.
I guess two of our male friends were 'racing' on the highway on the way to my house and one of them crashed into another car, causing that car to spin out. The car my girlfriend was in skidded between the one that spun out and the guard rail.
Everyone is ok, but our friends car is probably totaled, it had to be towed. Our other friend is gonna get in some serious trouble with his parents but his car took the least damage.
I just hate that there isn't anything that I can do, that really bothers me.

[thebardgirl]

Fanfic. It's either never updated or I hate the fact that I'm reading it instead of having a love life.

-elizabeth

[idontlikejam]

mah. my girlfriend broke up with me. it sucks.

[JustSkipIt]

I feel sad that spam is showing up on the DCP.

[JustSkipIt]

I knocked over a bottle of amonia in the laundry room and spilled half of it. And I was naked at the time so I had to run, put on clothes, and clean it up while shivering.

[Boschi]

I feel crappy for two reasons.

1) That it is grossly inappropriate to laugh at the misfortunes of others as posted in this thread, leaving me completely straight faced and sincerely sympathetic to JustSkipIts laundry room exploits.

2) That I agreed to work with somebody this coming season and I'm already getting the sensation that it will be working for them instead and that they are going to be an incredibly annoying, disorganized boss with unclear expectations. Bugger.

[Bound2Her]

Weekends are girlfriend time!! We love weekends on this sole purpose alone! Now she's going off to a party for a friend she doesnt even like on the grounds that she's just trying to be nice, even if that friend is a total bitch to her and never did anything for her birthday. So my girlfriend is just sitting here complaining about how much she doesnt wanna go. And really? If you're friend treat's you so bad, why bother putting up with her? Why go at all? Why go when she's probably not gonna say more then 2 word's to you? Why dont you spend your night with ME your girlfriend, rather then with someone you really dont like?

So now I have nothing to look forward to. Or perhaps Im just selfish and want too much of my girlfriends time.....

[summer fairy]

Or maybe your g/f see's the better in ppl and gives them more chances than you do. I mean to me it sounds as if your g/f puts up with a lot but really all she is doing is trying to do right by her friend, it's only one party then every other weekend you will have your g/f all to yourself! I mean this friend of your g/f sounds like she's hurting, try to think about that, maybe your g/f is and thats why she's going to this party, no matter how much she complains to you.

[kisstheviolets]

we have these written assignments that we have to submit weekly for my bar prep course. you basically write a response to a bar question in 36 minutes (the time you have for each essay during the exam) and the question relates to an area of the law you've been studying that week. so i've been keeping up with my studying, i really thought i was getting criminal law but i totally blew the assignment tonight. i looked at the model answer after i submitted mine and it was just horrifying how much i missed. i know you only need a 60% to pass the bloody bar, but c'mon - i totally blew this question. there is no way i'm going to get even a 6/10 on it (i got a 7/10 on last week's first assignment). i'm just really frustrated and disappointed right now. and more than a little worried.

ETA: i just got the assignment back and did not do as poorly as i thought. this attorney grades on the traditional 7 point scale that the bar graders do (and they rarely give out 7s) and i got a 5. that's sort of equivalent to the 7/10 i got last time and above the 4 you need to pass. sweet!

[Bound2Her]

last night=worst night Ive had in a while.

[Boschi]

I'm in this small window where I can back out of partnering with someone for the coming growing season and I am having massive second thoughts.

What's getting to me is that I can't tell how reasonable they are. I keep talking about them, thinking about them, etc. But when it comes down to it my enthusiasm just bottoms out when I think about working with this guy. And I don't know why. So I have no idea if I'm being a sulky nitwit or having good instincts.

Hmmmph.

Apparently 2007 is a whiny year for me.

[mangled_monkey]

I've had one of those really horrible days that disguises itself as a good day, to people that can't see what's really happening.

[writerfreak]

I feel CRAPPY cause the Bears FUCKIN LOST!!!!! Grrrrr.

writerfreak

[Floyd]

I think I messed up my Chemistry exam today. Well I lost at least 4 marks because I didn't finished the paper. I got confused. :(

So.. If I don't do okay I'll be really, really pissed off. Mmhmm.

[Kerrison20]

Is there a worse that crappy feelings thread?

warning: angst level high

My younger sister who is 27, had a beautiful baby girl about a year ago. Her name was Carson. She passed away at a mere 2 hours old.

Just a few short weeks ago, my sister found out that she was pregnant again. About 6 weeks along. She went in for her follow up today, and found out 2 things. 1. she was carrying twins. and 2. both of their little hearts had stopped beating.

I just feel so lost.

Lisa

[Krazy Dreamer]

Things no one will ever understand about me

Why or how I can care so much.
Why things that others put the most emphasis on mean absolutely nothing to me.
Why I even bother to keep trying.
The real me.
Why I like and need to spend so much time alone.
Why I have stayed away from the Kitten Board for so long.
Why every once in a while I have a need to wallow in self-pity.
Why I have such a strong need to reveal my true inner nature.

Things I will never understand

Why I am never allowed to be anything but strong.
Why I am always attracted to the wrong women.
Why so often when I am trying to explain something to somebody, they hear the exact opposite of what I mean.
How love can feel so good yet hurt so bad at the same time.
Why I am still awake at 3:00 in the morning.
Why I am currently feeling melancholy.
Why I felt the need to post this.

[Saena]

When are these spontaneous upset moments going to finally pass? I've been having such good days, and I shouldn't keep getting sucked into this frame of mind. Especially since I know the warning signs by now. Too late to get out now though, just gotta wait it out until it's over.

Saena

[kisstheviolets]

i just got a form letter from the board of bar examiner's that they haven't received certification from my school that i graduated in may. now, that's kind of strange because i got the certification form completed by my school in november and submitted it with my bar application in DECEMBER. and i'm just hearing that they don't have it NOW??? WTF??

i can assume one of three things. 1) they lost it, 2) they received it and someone just sent me the form letter by mistake, or 3) my school completed it incorrectly (though i saw it before submitting it and it looked fine and why wouldn't they have told me about it when i submitted it in december?).

the letter says i have to have the form in to them by monday or i can't sit for the bar on the 28th. what is the freakin' likelihood that i'm going to be able to get the people at my school to act that quickly and get that form in for me? i can't do it myself since i'm 3,000 miles away.

i just can't believe this. i am so sick of all of my plans always going horribly wrong (even if they do eventually work out). my nerves just can't take anymore. nor am i interested in paying another $815 (because you know they'll be assholes and make me forfeit the exam fee).

sorry for the rant. i'm just feeling ridiculously craptastic.

[littlewicca]

Why so often when I am trying to explain something to somebody, they hear the exact opposite of what I mean.

this happen to me too, a lot

[Boschi]

First off: ktv: that majorly, majorly sucks. Bureacratic academic bullshit (was that an oxymoron in triplicate??) is the bane of all that is good in this world.

Second: Holy shit. I feel completely behind and not nearly enough in charge of what's happening with this new business/farm thing. My partner always seems so reasonable but for some reason the way he goes through the world and the way I go through the world don't seem to mesh well. I never feel like I handle on the direction he feels things are or should be heading.

So for example: early in this he said I should do the field planning and just factor in the crops he needs for his CSA. OK, sez me, and puts a lot of frigging time in to doing this, and then based my seed ordering on that. Now he suddenly is all gung ho to start planning things - which, I must emphasize, really needed to be done like 2 months ago. So now my field plan is up for review.

In the beginning he said he wanted to do seed orders in smaller chunks, even though I pointed out that a single order, when possible, would save us on shipping. Now he's commenting on how odd he finds it that I didn't order everything to begin with.

Let's not mention the greenhouse structure he was sure he could put up in no time.... we're into quite a bit of time now.

And on the totally my fault front: holy shit I am just in high stupid drive for the past week. I can't think, I can't get organized, I feel completely foggy. And so I feel even less on top of things. It's taking me hours to do something that I should be able to do in half an hour.

So all these things that I should've gotten done have just built up until I.... feel completely out of control again. The to do list is long and ugly.

Also, I'm getting the distinct sensation that I'm pretty much going to break even this year. To be expected early on in a business, but the reason I partnered with this guy was because the preliminary numbers looked decidedly better than working on my own.

Ugh. If I wasn't worried about my brain cells already, I'd go beat my head on a hard, bumpy surface.....

[Willowtree252]

I had a crappy day because a kid on the bus told me to shut the fuck up he is only 8 whats up with that dosen't parent,s teach there kid respect for there elders anymore ps I still love being a bus driver

[writerfreak]

My shoulders hurt because I've been tense all day.

writerfreak

[Bound2Her]

I feel like hell. My head and ears have been killing me all day and I think Im getting sick. Sodding germ infested children!

[writerfreak]

I hate being ignored.

writerfreak

[Willowtree252]

Just got off the phone with my dad and my mother is to ill to come to my daughters wedding In march

[Second Fig]

Today has sucked ass, it all started at 1 this morning and has progressively gotten worse, my friends b-day party was horrible and I have a mind-numbing hangover, I got pulled over by an asshole cop, I went to the doctors office to get shots that I have to get to volunteer and they messed up my appointment so that I have to go in Monday and Wednesday to get every thing I need, I was at Publix after the doctors and someone hit my car while I was in the store and now I have a huge dent and no one to blame. I am done with today, I think I’ll go to bed and wake-up tomorrow and hope that it turns out better. No wait, I have to go into work tonight. Damn it.

[Sandman78]

Just got back from the doctors office, my gf has the flu ...now there goes our three day weekend. We were going out of town to visit family. Now all our plans are on hold until she feels better. I'm gonna take care of her and tend to whatever she needs. Hopefully I don't get sick in the process.
Stupid flu.

[writerfreak]

My whole body aches, and has for like 3 days, and I don't know why.

writerfreak

[Willowtree252]

I still have this cold