The What I Really Meant To Say Thread

[writerfreak]

What I Said: I know you're close to your family, I'm glad you are. We'll grab some actual time together this Wednesday, I'll take an evening off...

WIRMTS: I miss the hell out of you. I don't get to talk to you like I want to and we don't get to see each other....stay for me....I understand the need to see your family...but I can't help but wish you would stay for me...

writerfreak

[willntarra4eva]

Its not your fault it ended and Im sorry it did

[writerfreak]

What I said: Yeah, I wrote a random song today.

WIRMTS: I wrote it for you. Kinda. I wrote it about how I feel and how you make me see myself for what seems like the first time.

writerfreak

[Willowtree252]

I wish I could take my gloves and slap you across the face and challenge you to a duel...but I won't because I'm better than that...plus it would be aggressive and naughty and probably against the rules

[CrazyTaraWitch]

Isn't it hard pretending to be something you're not? Don't you get tired of living behind a mask? Learn to be the real you, cause she's amazing.

[Dorothy]

what I said: ow that's so stupid that your dad won't drive you to work tomorow. Can you take a bus or one of those cheap shared taxi's? no money, ow sorry, I realy wish I could help you.

what I should have said: damn your petty problems, take the damn bicycle or your scooter. I always cycle everywhere you don't hear me moan...
and now lissthen to me because I've got real problems and my daddy ain't ever gonna solve any of them and neither is my mom. In fact, no one is even concerned enough to even LISTEN to what I go through and it's damn well more than having to ride a few miles to work.

(But I guess I'm just not one to shove my problems up someone elses ass, not even while talking to one of my best friends.)

[writerfreak]

What I said: Okay, let me get the link....

WIRMTS: I think that I might have an anxiety attack because you're going to read my story and it's making me queasy and sick and I'm going to throw up and cry now.

writerfreak

[JujuDeRoussie]

You are a fucking alcoholic, you're grumpy, and right now I really don't want to be in the same room because it makes me so mad. So just shut up, keep drinking your fucking poison without caring if it goes or not with your fucking treatment, and mop alone.

what I said? "I'm going to take a shower".

[Dorothy]

what I said; if I lived closer you could break me : )

WIRMTS; I wish I could do anything to help and that includes being a punchbag if needed.

[LesbianJedi87]

your hair looks like shit and it's made you so unattractive to me now but I'm pretty happy about it. stop wearing my necklace too, you should have thrown that away. wearing tokens of my affections makes me assume that you still care when you don't cause you haven't said anything to me since december.

[Zooeys_Bridge]

pretty much most things said over here

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I have a few things, to a few different people...

It's hard to think of someone else getting the things I wanted, the things I still want. I happy for you, but it still hurts.

It sucks that it took you years to realize you could love a girl, and when you did fall in love with your best friend it wasn't me. I wish you could have realized you were bi, or whatever you identify as now, sometime during the 3 years I was so hopelessly in love with you, and that it could've given me a chance, cause you were my first love and you are still my best friend and I think a part of me will always wish it could have been different.

It hurts that you still won't accept him as a part of your life. I understand why you don't and probably never will, but if you can't accept that he's your stepfather how can you possibly accept me as your sister? I wish that having me in your life made having him worth it. I know he's a jackass, but he's my father and the only reason you became my family, and I wish you could be glad for that...I wish you could be glad to have me in your life...

I miss you sometimes. Not often, and it's as much the idea of you, the idea of something to hope for, that I miss as it is actually missing the person you are, or were before you changed. I miss feeling like I could have a future, and though I no longer blame you I'm still sad you took it away.

There's a lot you don't know about my past 'relationships', and if you knew you'd understan why I find myself so pathetic. You have all this experience and I have nothing, and I just can't bring myself to admit that to you because I know you wouldn't believe I'd ever really been in love if you understood...and I value talking to you about relationships and love too much to give it up, even if it means skirting around the truth.

[riotgrrrljaz]

babe, i'm crazy for you! and it's so frustrating that i'm not there with you. there's nothing i want more than to simply kiss you. all of this happened so fast and i'm so overwhelmed about all our planning to be together and there's nothing i want more than to be with you, but like i said this happened so fast between us and you just seem so perfect to be true, and so what would happen if we go along with our plan and it turns out to be a mistake? this is a huge decision for the both of us and there's going to be so much obstacles we're going to have to face if this is what we really want. i don't know what to do sweety, i'm scared, nervous, excited, happy, torn.

[Kessari]

It's more my friend wanted to say, but still it just needs to be posted.

He texted me: I'm really looking forward to spending the night with you....
What he meant: I'm really looking forward to watch DVDs with you all night...

I thought it was hilarious and you should have seen my face, when I read it first, considering, that he was crushing on me for over a year Love ya, buddy!

[writerfreak]

What I said: Nothing

WIRMTS: If you're gonna walk, then walk, cause this not talking bullshit means you might as well have left anyway, you really don't even care anymore.

writerfreak

[Boschi]

What I said: Uh-huh. polite, tight lipped smile.

What I Shoulda Said: Take your neurotic insecurity and belittling remarks and shove them up your ass. Add the damn metal brush and see how it cleans you out. After all, you to are a tool.

[fhiwda]

What I said: I'm just busy that's why I don't talk that much.

Should have said: I'm terrified of falling in love and breaking your heart along with mine so I'm putting distance between us to avoid the heart ache and save a friendship.

[writerfreak]

What I Said: If you want me to disappear I will go, for you I will go.

WIRMTS: I feel like my insides are being torn out, ripped to shreds. Sometimes you have to take a chance, and you're terrified of taking it. I was too, but I took one with you. What you're doing now is tearing me apart.

writerfreak

[Kessari]

What I said: *looks down* I'm sorry...

WIRMTS: FU** YOU! If I don't feel well, I'll see a doc. Why the fu** am I apologizing for not feeling well?

[MelCar19]

What I said: Fine, goodnight...

WIRMTS: God, I don't know why I put up with you still, you never do things for me unless it benefits you! I can't be the only one to give in this friendship... I wish you would grow up

[Dorothy]

what I said; "I don't know, I'm really too depressed to come up with all sorts of ways to fix my life now, so I'm gonna hang up on you now, ok?" *hangs up phone*

wirmts; Fuck off you've been anoying and pushing me with this question for weeks now and you're very extremely successfull in making me want to die and that has more to do with your attitude towards me than with me being down. Like I said a hundred times before; I really don't know what to do anymore and you might also wanna try some compassion instead of saying "but why don't you just do/fix/change it?" I can't always f***ing fix everything all by myself gdmnt. You're being payed to deal with my problems and all you do is moan about me not "just fixing them" It DOESN'T WORK THAT WAY! especially not with shit that has been built up over decades, arsehole, you should know that, you went to freaking school for it!
*bashes his head in and kicks him in the nuts*

[writerfreak]

What I Said: I wish you didn't feel like a stranger to me, and I could talk to you again.

WIRMTS: When I needed you you were nowhere to be found and you still won't talk to me. How are we friends when you don't seem to give a damn at all about what's going on in my life or how much pain I'm in over other things. You're slowly disappearing out of my life and yet you say you aren't and that we are friends. Friendship means actually speaking to someone on a semi regular basis, asking them how they are and what's going on. I can barely get you to respond to me at all. This isn't friendship, this is you walking away from me.

writerfreak

[Kessari]

What I said: Yes, I did pack everything, mum.

WIRMTS: For fucks sake mother! Can't you trust me for once?! I know you can't and I wonder why? I'm so freaking glad I moved out 4 years ago. I couldn't deal with you on a daily basis and somehow it's making me sad, but it should make you even sadder, since it's you fucking this family up! I DO NOT NEED YOU TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO!!!

[Dorothy]

what I said;
"I'm gonna go to the restroom" (concerned reply; "are you sick?") "No"

WIRMTS:
"That song (Because of you - Kelly Clarkson) just made me fucking cry and I need to whipe the tears away without you noticing it, also I need a break to not turn into a sobbing puddle and be totally emberased, ok?"

[Kessari]

What I said: I'm okay, don't worry.

WIRMTS: I'm NOT okay and I won't be okay! I don't want this shit happening to me anymore. I'm sick of this. What did I do so terribly to deserve this???

[MelCar19]

What I said: Yeah, it's alright. I understand completely.

WIRMTS: No, it's not okay... I'm scared to death to move out and live on my own... I know I can't make it, you know it as well and you still are doing this to me... I know this is fun to you but to me it's all or nothing and I'm scared to think it may be the nothing that I get.

[writerfreak]

I didn't say anything.

WIRMTS: You're right its not. But I love you so it was forgiven before it even happened.

writerfreak

[Yours]

What I said: Yeah sure, I'll come meet you for 2 days.

WIRMTS: For goodness sake, I love you Mum but can't you go for a month without seeing me? Stop interupting my life.

[writerfreak]

What I Said: Okay.

WIRMTS: Well, we've taken the pleasantries as far as we can without resorting to the subject of weather. Are you ever going to explain anything to me, are we ever going to talk about this?

writerfreak

[Kessari]

It was 5:40 this morning on a vacation day, when my phone rang...

What I said: No, I'm not up yet, mother.

WIRMTS: Fu** off and let me sleep for gods sake. I'm not coming over today. I won't sit on a freaking train for almost 4 hours to get to you, because I DO NOT want to see you today! Gawd!