Letters to the Universe

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I have two entirely separate letters to write today, but I'll start with the most important first.

Dear Universe,
Please help me be good to my family, be a good aunt and a good sister most of all. My nephew is expected to enter the world any day now, and I'm so excited and so nervous at the same time. I've only met him as the gigantic lump in my sister's belly, I've never even felt him turn or kick, but I already love that little boy so much. It's probably silly to love someone I've never met, someone who I can't know the personality or character of, but how could I not love my nephew? I want him to be safe and healthy and most of all happy, and I want him to grow up strong and loved. I want to be part of that, so please Universe, help me to figure out how to really be part of his life, how to help him be the best little person he can. I've never done this before and I'm nervous as hell that he won't like me or, much more likely, that he'll never feel like he really knows me, as I've never felt that I really know my aunts and uncles. I want to do right by him.
Though I've had a lot more experience at it, I'm still figuring out how to be a good sister too. It's hard sometimes not to let certain hurts get in the way, and I would like help with that, help to find the strength inside me to be the best sister I can yet accept that my brother and I may never be close and my sisters may never view me fully as their sister. It's not always easy, and I don't always know when to push for the closeness I want and the times when pushing would lead to pushing them away.
I'm still figuring it out, but my family means more to me than anything, so please universe, help me to be the best I can, for them and for myself.
Thanks for any help you can give, and just for listening,
~Jas


Dear Universe,
Please help me to regain my motivation and focus. I find myself struggling again, putting everything off till the last minute and beyond, and I don't want to be this way. I want to keep up with running, and I want to make A's in my classes, and I want to write again, but I'm back to having little energy again, and almost 0 self-discipline. Even right now I have a huge assignment due in 4 hours and a smaller assignment that's two days overdue, but instead of working on them I'm here, writing this letter, because right now it's hard for me to care. I want to care. My head tells me that I want these things, being productive and making good grades and achieving goals, but I just can't seem to care, about any of it.
Please, Universe, Goddess, Powers That Be, whatever's out there, just help me find the strength and energy to give a shit.
Thanks,
~Jas

[JustSkipIt]

Dear Universe,
Thank you for the blessings in my magical life.

Debra

[CrazyTaraWitch]

Dear Universe,
I've been a good friend to her, and we've known each other for over a decade. I've been there for her when she's needed it, and she's been there for me. We have fun together. Please don't let her forget all that. We may not be that close, but she's the only best friend I have, and I need her. And I think maybe, just maybe, she needs me. So please let us just be okay, help us stay friends, help me not to feel paranoid and help her remember why she's put up with me for nearly 11 years.
Thanks,
~Jas

[JustSkipIt]

Dear universe,
Please help me to be more loving, more compassionate, more empathetic. Please help me not interrupt or repeat myself. Please help me help. Please help me be strong.

Thank you.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

Dear Universe,
Thank you for giving me that part of my life. Even as short as it was, and as painfully as it ended, I will be forever grateful. If love never comes my way again, I will still feel blessed to have known it once.
Thank you for the memories.
~Jas

[little.hesperides]

Dear Universe,

Why, in your infinite wisdom and pure awesomeness, did you make me such a complete spaz? For the first time in 5 years I'm dating again. I've been looking forward to that moment when I actually get to kiss someone again, and the first time someone actually shows any intent of doing just that (albeit somewhat unexpectedly), I practically run away? What the hell? Fail! It makes me look flakey and neurotic and makes the other person feel like a complete ass. Complete awkwardness ensues. This is not good. Please take away my spazziness long enough for me to fix this.

Thanks. (and make it snappy)

[LestatDraconus]

Dear kinda awesome band:

You make a bunch of great, revolutionary records and then release whatever this is? How dare you have an independant thought! Go back and make more songs in the vein of the last album so I can continue to be musically complete.


Dear Upstairs Management

How dare you make my biochemistry so bad that I can't take anti-depressants to cure suicidal thoughts because they make me more suicidal? I want pills, damnit!


Dear Sex Drive

Go away. I have things to do. Like sitting. And lying. And more anti-social stuff.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

Dear girl from the internet,
We've never talked properly, but I think about you a lot. To me, you are magnificent. I will probably never say this to you, for many reasons; I'm gay, you're "questioning", I'm 21 and you're just 17, and most of all I don't really know you. ...And yet I feel like I do. I've always said I could fall in love with someone based on their quotes alone, and pathetic though it may be I think I nearly have. Silly, huh? But you read and you're an obsessive Whovian and you love Grey's Anatomy and Gilmore Girls and you love surgery and volunteer at a hospital and are as quote-obsessed as I am with perfect taste in the dialogue you love. How could I not be in awe of you?
I wish I knew how to talk to you and how to become friends. I doubt I'd need more than that, as these crushes of mine usually fade, but I wish so very much I could know you. Until I figure out a way to say hello, I'll just keep you in my thoughts, and send good will your way because you seem to have an amazing heart and I believe you deserve good things.
Keep being amazing.
~Jas

[sweet satin lover]

Samhain feels like the perfect time to say a big thank you to the universe. I have been through my fair share of crap but as a whole I am proud to be the woman I am today and I am proud of all of those in my life. I am so grateful and thankful to my mother who's strength and fighting spirit have helped me in so many ways, I am grateful to my family and appreciate my sisters Gemma and Jane even if they dont understand me or even if we arent that close but I will forever grateful to my sister Lisa, as reserved as she is she knows me 100% and is proud to call me her sister and her best friend. Im grateful for my brother Tim, he can truly be an idiot at times but I love him anyway and the childhood memories he helped to create with me. I am grateful for my friends I love them all very much I may not see them often as they have busy lives and many have families but when I do it just makes it all that more special. I am grateful for my niece and nephew, Poppy is a little firework and I love her to bits and I am so happy that I can talk to Lucas so well and I get to see the world from his view for a while. I am proud of the way those kids are growing up. I am grateful to my beloved familiar and companion Lilly who frequently crawls across the computer or sits by my feet or on my hip. I am grateful to be alive, I have escaped death twice and I am so glad because I love this world, it has its fair share of crap too but the world often has small but significant pieces of beauty which when looked upon can really make you say wow and be so blessed to be here. I am grateful to have a mind of my own, I am grateful to have legs which do what I tell them to- most of the time. I get tired but my legs and my body is my own and I love that. Also I love you and I am so grateful for you, it flows. I love talking to you and being around you for its in those moments that I know what love grace and beauty really are. I am grateful to the universe for all these things and I am proud to be me.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

Dear Universe,
It's now the day after my birthday, my first full day to be 22 and the start of a new year, so taking the cue from my lovely brit pea I think it's a good time to say thanks. Thank you for my family, for 3 parents who in all their flaws love me and want to be good people, for my brother who cares and with whom I'm finally learning to build a friendship, for my sisters who may never be as close as I'd like but will always make me feel warm and safe when we're together, and for my beautiful baby nephew who I look forward to watching grow. Thank you for my friends, who no matter how distance still mean so much to me, and especially for my best friend who's been with me through the last 11 years and still *gets me*, my brit pea who is always there when I need her and makes my life better just by being in it, and my honorary little sister who may rarely grace my life with her presence but will never stray far from my heart and has been a beautiful piece of my universe for 13 years. Thank you for the all the children I have had the wonderful opportunity to love and care for. Thank you for the world around me, the moon and stars and trees and birds and cats and dogs and squirrels and grass and leaves and pumpkins and moss balls and acorns and clouds and rain and storms and wind and cacti and the million other little things that make up my universe. Thank you for the challenges that have made me who I am, the strength to face them, and the people to help me when I can't do it on my own. Most of all, thank you for making me a caring being; thank you for all my emotions, good and bad, for I wouldn't trade a single one of them. Thank you for giving me a heart that loves too much instead of too little.
Thank you for making me me, and for helping me to finally appreciate how awesome it is to just be who I am.

Oh, and thanks for making my birthday Halloween.
~Jas

[Babbles4Twillow]

Dear Universe,
I wanted to thank you for all the blessings I have received in the past months. My whole life has changed remarkably. I will never again take for granted just simply walking down the street, or saying hello to a loved one, opening my door without fear, talking to a complete stranger, going through my days with a clear head and heart. Thank you for all the lovely friends you've given me, and this gift of healing. I can finally let her go in peace and live my life, free.

Thank you.

[sweet satin lover]

Dear Universe,
It's now the day after my birthday, my first full day to be 22 and the start of a new year, so taking the cue from my lovely brit pea I think it's a good time to say thanks. Thank you for my family, for 3 parents who in all their flaws love me and want to be good people, for my brother who cares and with whom I'm finally learning to build a friendship, for my sisters who may never be as close as I'd like but will always make me feel warm and safe when we're together, and for my beautiful baby nephew who I look forward to watching grow. Thank you for my friends, who no matter how distance still mean so much to me, and especially for my best friend who's been with me through the last 11 years and still *gets me*, my brit pea who is always there when I need her and makes my life better just by being in it, and my honorary little sister who may rarely grace my life with her presence but will never stray far from my heart and has been a beautiful piece of my universe for 13 years. Thank you for the all the children I have had the wonderful opportunity to love and care for. Thank you for the world around me, the moon and stars and trees and birds and cats and dogs and squirrels and grass and leaves and pumpkins and moss balls and acorns and clouds and rain and storms and wind and cacti and the million other little things that make up my universe. Thank you for the challenges that have made me who I am, the strength to face them, and the people to help me when I can't do it on my own. Most of all, thank you for making me a caring being; thank you for all my emotions, good and bad, for I wouldn't trade a single one of them. Thank you for giving me a heart that loves too much instead of too little.
Thank you for making me me, and for helping me to finally appreciate how awesome it is to just be who I am.

Oh, and thanks for making my birthday Halloween.
~Jas

I loved this! I am so with you on the whole nature thing too and the weather even if in England its crummy most of the time thank you for the mention to I thank the universe for our friendship every day

[SickSadGirl]

Dear Universe,

Thanks for helping me so much. I really appreciate all of the wonderful people you've sent my way. I know I suck, and I'm a bit useless, but I am trying. Mostly, I want to say thanks for my family (even when we're not getting along) and my best friends (even when they hate me). Thanks for allowing me to be happy, and giving me a crazy cool memory so I won't forget these fantastic moments.

[BeneathMyWillowTree]

Dear Universe,

I am grateful to be here and to do what I do. Just when I think I can't possibly become a stronger and better person some how I manage to. I can't take full credit for that now can I. All I know is that it is my will and focus that gets me through certain things. I can feel so alone sometimes by not having any family, but having many good friends in my life makes up for it. It is those same people that love me unconditonally. They show me every chance they get. So I know I must be doing something right to deserve such things. To deserve such people. I geniunally love all those in my life. I love my life. I can honestly say I wouldn't change one thing. What happens from here on out I don't know. What I do know is that love will always be there some way some how. Thank you for allowing me to see, feel and know it's true meaning.

De todo corazon,
Jenny B

[CrazyTaraWitch]

Dear crush,
Do you have any idea what it does to me every time I see your name pop up? How much elation, excitement, and warm-fuzzies I get when you even just press the like button on one of my comments? Tonight you talked about wanting to meet me, and I felt like I could burst. Sometimes I wonder if you have a clue; logically I doubt it, but I like to think you do. I think about you all the time, and I know it's probably not the same for you, but I hope I at least make you smile now and then. I really hope we become real friends, even if we don't ever meet though I really would love that. I know it's not fair to want anything romantic, but honestly I'd be happy if I could just know you because I think you're amazing. Thank you for being in my life, in however small a way. Thank you for brightening my days. Thank you for wanting to know me. Thank you for being you.
I wish I were brave enough to say all this to you. Maybe I will be someday. For now I'll just be glad for talking about our favourite TV shows and our fake accents, and maybe music or gay rights or Jane Austen now and then. I'll be glad for whatever glimpse into your life I can get, and for every time you look to see what I say and take the time to respond. Most of all I'll be glad for every time I think I maybe just maybe make your day a little better like you almost always improve mine.

Yours truly, whether you know it or not,
Jas

[fhiwda]

To the person who is my world:

I have not met you yet. I don't know who you will be made with, but that really doesn't matter. One day you will be growing inside of me. Before we know it, you will be in my arms. The most beautiful baby anyone could ask for. I will spoil you rotten while attempting to instill some life lessons. I want you to have the happiest life. My heart swells with the love I have for you even though you haven't been created yet. Some day soon, you and I will be a family. Just give me a few more months and everything will paid off so I know that I can provide an amazing life for you. Then I can go to the doctor and work on making you exist. I cannot wait to have you in my arms.

Love always and forever,

Your future mommy.

[Ariel]

Dear Universe,

Thank you for giving us a wonderful baby boy and the miracle of donor insemination and a friend who helped us have our child.

Please bless ALL PARENTS and all who WANT TO BE PARENTS. Give us love, wisdom, strength, patience and above all, understanding then wrap that up in a big laugh because parents need to laugh!

Ariel
How I Met Your Mother

[JustSkipIt]

Dear Universe,
We are about 30 hours from a new year. Next year please...

help me be more loving
help me be more compassionate
help me be more patient
help me be more patient some more
help me listen better
help me be healthy
help my family be healthy
help my family have joy
help me run faster
help me give more
help me help

Thank you,
Debra

[BeMyDeputy]

Dear universe,
Thank you for anothher Christmas and another New Years with Nana. Thank you for dropping a smart phone in my lap, so I could listen to Nana talk about England, do a google image search, and show her pictures of places she hadn't been in years, if not decades.

But universe, I am greedy. Please don't let this time be our last.

[Ariel]

Dear Universe,

Help me be the best person I can be. Help me work on my own faults and spend less time judging others. Help me keep a loving heart and laughter, always, in my heart.

I have so many blessings.

Thank you.

Ariel
How I Met Your Mother

[CrazyTaraWitch]

Dear someone from the past,
Congratulations and good luck. I've always believed in you, even when you couldn't see it; I hope you believe in yourself now. I hope you have a wonderful life, because you deserve all the best. It's okay that we're not in each others lives, but I'll always care and I'll always wish you well.

[fhiwda]

Dear Universe,

FUCK OFF!

Love,
Erika

[JustSkipIt]

Dear Universe,
Thank you, thank you, thank you for all the joy and wonder and beauty you hold. I feel completely filled with gratitude and love for all the gifts in my life. It is just a normal day. Nothing striking happened yet I feel just overwhelming joy and gratitude.

Thank you.
Debra

[JustSkipIt]

Dear Universe,
Thank you for the referral and potential new client for my wife. Please bring her another new client every few weeks until her schedule is more full. She would like to be of service to more people and we would really like the money.

Thank you for our blessings.
Debra

[JustSkipIt]

Dear Universe,
Tomorrow about 18,000 - 20,000 people will be running the Austin Marathon/Half-Marathon including me. Please help everyone to run to the best of their ability. Keep the runners, spectators, and volunteers safe.

Thank you,
Debra

[Gaga01]

Dear universe;

Thank you for helping me see there are good things in life, especially in moments when it feels like there are none. Thank you for putting certain people across my path, and thank you to those people for "forcing" other things into my life as well.

Please, help me be strong every day that goes by, so I can continue believing that behind this freakishly fat wall, good things are waiting for me. Help me tore through that wall and please, please let it really be good things on the other side. There are just so much someone can take before it gets too much. I am going to California for a well deserved vacation in a couple of weeks, and if I'm going there to enjoy my vacation, please, please help me making something good happen over there. I want to be strong, and I think I am because I'm still here, after all, and I am working and trying to be what I want to be, but sometimes, sometimes help and sheer dumb luck is great too. You know what I want, what I need. Please help me find the strength to achieve that. Just...help me? Thanks.

[Finey_McFine]

Dear Universe,

I started to type this letter to you last Tuesday, but I never got a chance to post it. So, here you go…

As I type this letter I am sitting next to my Mother. She is dying and soon she will take her last breath on this earth. I feel helpless as there is nothing I, nor anyone else can do for her. So I ask that you hold her close and help her find peace. It’s an odd feeling knowing that she will be gone soon and we will be facing a world without the center of our universe. We won’t be children anymore. We are all hurting, but I am especially worried for my brother; he is not handling things well and my heart aches for him. I wish more than anything that I could do something to ease his pain. So I ask that you please keep him safe. I also wanted to thank you for letting us see her when she was still able to recognize us. Her biggest fear was dying alone, at least now she knows that we are all here by her side. Thank you universe for my brother and sisters. We have never needed each other more than we do right now, because I for one, know that I wouldn’t be able to make it through this without them.

[fhiwda]

Dear Universe,

Thank you so much for my life! It is amazing!

Also...Thank you for bringing her back into my life. We went far too long without being able to really communicate. It's nice to have this friend back. Please don't be cruel and take her away again.

Love always,
Your Erika

[CrazyTaraWitch]

Dear Universe,

I'm feeling lost again, more so than I have in quite awhile. Please help me find my way. Maybe it's selfish to ask, but right now I don't care; please just help me feel a little more okay.

~Jas

[fhiwda]

Dear Universe,

Could you please help me out here? All I want is to find a way out of this crappy job. I am so tired... all the time. Between classes and work, I am unable to get much sleep. Just please point me in the right direction. Do I stay here close to the family, or do I widen my job search and go farther away? Do I search for a more gay friendly environment... or do I deal with it to stay close to my loved ones? Should I quit the full time job and go with part time until I get my degree, then start looking for a more permanent position somewhere? So many major decisions to make and all I can think about is sleep.

Any help you could offer will be greatly appreciated!

Love,

Erika