The Crappy Feelings Thread (HOTLINES in first post)

[Rhiannon9891]

Rosella,

My condolences on your loss, may you find the strength and wisdom to

go foward and relish in the love of your mother.

Rhi

[DreamLover]

Rosella,

My condolences, I'm lost with words but what I do know is that I won't forget her. She was and she still will be a special woman because she is your mother.

[Taralover]

Rosella, I'm sorry. :(

Today I was scared about my computer-can't I have one day of Advent without something going wrong? Three days, and three bad things happening. What next?

[Nue]

Rosella, I´m so sorry for you loss.. but I believe she´s in a better place now.

[Nue]

when I lost my voice, 3 months ago, I was able to do a few sounds, and I could speak, with a little effort...

but since yesterday, I can´t speak anything at all... hurts too much to do a damn little sound!!! I just hate go to doctor again, I hate this treatment and I hate feeling pain!

[Taralover]

Poor you, you've been effectivly gagged.

I think my fungus is slowly growing back again *scratch scratch*

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I really screwed up. So mad at myself now...

[love_2003]

So Dec. 5th was my 25th birthday and I told my mom and sisters what I wanted was what I do every year for my birthday. I wanted to spend it at home where all the other close family members would come over; my mom would bake me a cake like she does every year and I would have a great time. Since I am writing in this thread you can guess my day didn't go as planned.

A couple of weeks ago my sister got free tickets to go see Bob Saget in concert and it just happened to fall on my birthday. From the first day she got the tickets she asked if I wanted to go see him for my birthday and my reaction was always no. Even though it may seem lame I wanted to spend my birthday with my family at home. That is what I look forward to on my birthday every year. So instead of giving the tickets to somebody else my mom and younger sister went to the concert while I stayed home and slept.

Maybe I'm over-reacting to the situation but I figured since it was my birthday and the one thing I wanted was to spend it with my family that my family would do that. I'm just feeling crappy because this was supposed to be a happy milestone birthday but it didn't turn out that way.

[SJ]

Sending condolences to you Rosella.

[petal of roses]

Rosella I want to express my and Sandi deepest Condolences for you loss.

Thank you very much Dia and Sandi.

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Rosella,

My condolences on your loss, may you find the strength and wisdom to

go foward and relish in the love of your mother.

Rhi

Thank you very much Rhi, it won't be easy but I'll find the strength and wisdom to go forward.

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Rosella,

My condolences, I'm lost with words but what I do know is that I won't forget her. She was and she still will be a special woman because she is your mother.

Thank you dear Henny, and much thanks to you and your mom for being there yesterday at the wake.

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Rosella, I'm sorry. :(

Much thanks Taralover and all the best to you as well.

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Rosella, I´m so sorry for you loss.. but I believe she´s in a better place now.

Thank you. Yeah she's in a better place now but I hoped she would have stayed a bit longer here on earth but that wasn't meant to be.

Hope you'll get your voice back soon, all the best!!!

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Sending condolences to you Rosella.

Thank you very much Sam.

[DaddyCatALSO]

Held up at gunpoint last night. At a little after 7PM, on my own street which is clsoe to the abd areas but a fiarly nice street in itself. Got everyhting I'd saved for 6 months, almost every dime I have to get thru the week (I still have a little over $20 in ones and fives & such) plus all my ID so how do I get my next check cahsed with no bank account? (and the driver's license I sue was expired so I can't just get a "replacement" without spending $ I don';t have anymore.) And the wallet pics of my duaghter which are all I had.

[Taralover]

*hugs you* Dammed criminals. At least you didn't get murdered as well.

[Nue]

this really sucks... But you´re ok, right?

[Taralover]

Some bleeping bleep on the Downs started ordering me about,I just walked away from him.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I had a big dinner an hour ago but I'm really hungry, even to the point of having a headache because of it, and there's nothing here I want to eat. Sometimes I kind of hate my body for being hungry when it shouldn't.
My internet's still not working right, and there's not much I can do to fix it right now.
I'm struggling to keep out bad thoughts that started coming yesterday and had me really upset for a while.

All in all, I'm in a pretty bad mood.

[Taralover]

Tomorrow is my work day. :(

[CrazyTaraWitch]

Annoyed at my mother, annoyed at my hands, annoyed at my living situation, annoyed at myself, and all together grumpy.

[Taralover]

I almost certainly need a filling. :( And my friend Adam is sick.

[sweet satin lover]

I am in such a crappy place right now and I dont know where else to write this but the whole crush/love/relationship thing I can't do it. I want to but I just can't its too much, I want to put the work in but I just dont feel sppreciated or special at all I feell like ---------- donest want to talk to me anymore or anything and I just feel like shit and I can see myself ending up in my mother shoes and I don't want that. I cried tonight. Its just not worthit, ---------- can go and sod off because my heart is closed and thats that. I cant help it if I care and am too nice thats just how I am well its time to change because clearly its getting me nowhere. Up goes the wall again see if I care. This sucks,.

[tetyline]

I thought she understood, I was wrong

[Nue]

I´m crying like a baby watching my favorite band new video... they lost one of their members due a long disease last september and this song is so sad...

[CrazyTaraWitch]

Yesterday pretty much sucked moldy dead bears. I spent a long time worrying like crazy and having some trouble focusing on work because of it, and even though I found out things are more-or-less okay I'm still a little scared. Then we had a party at work and those always make me feel really awkward, cause I don't socialize well and I never know what to do with myself. On the way home from work I very nearly got hit by a car, which was scary. Then last night my best friend got bad news, and I'm fairly sure I only made things worse and I think she might be mad at me, and I know she's probably in a terrible place and I'm a little worried for her.
So all in all, yesterday was probably the worst day I've had in a while.

[FenwayFaithful]

I got dumped 3 weeks ago. Invested over 3 and a half years...it always feels like a waste of time when it doesn't work out. I gave everything I could, and now I'm left holding the bag. I'm a giver, very willing to do whatever to make the other person happy, and she took a lot. The worst part about dealing with a break-up is it brings up all the other break-ups of the past as well. I know I'll be ok, but it's hard to say good-bye to someone who was there for so long. I think this was it for me, in terms of committed relationships. It hurts too much and I think I wasn't over being hurt the last time either. At the least I need to embrace my single status for a long time.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I had a melt down tonight, the first time I fell apart in weeks, and it was so completely sudden it scares me a little... It reminds me that I'm still not as okay as I like to think.

[Nue]

my head is killing me ¬¬

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I have a real talent for making things worse.

[Nue]

ok, I can´t sleep anymore... my nights SUCKS since last friday ¬¬

[Nue]

I just got my wisdom tooth extracted... oh god, this hurts SO MUCH!!!!

[CrazyTaraWitch]

She was upset and scared and I had to leave

[FenwayFaithful]

Nue...did you get just one tooth out? I can sympathize though. I had my wisdom teeth out. The procedure felt like it took 5 minutes with the drugs they gave me. I told them I was cool to leave but when I tried to stand up I fell over *smile*. Then at home when my mouth started to throb I tried to eat something so I could take my pain meds...the frappe dribbled down my chest because my lips were still numb. Somehow I felt the pain from the extraction but my mouth was still numb, go figure *grin*

CrazyTaraWitch...I feel like I'm arriving in the middle of a conversation. What's going on? I'm going through relationship issues right now so if you need to talk let me know *smile*