The Crappy Feelings Thread (HOTLINES in first post)

[Owl]

Today has been one of those days where you desperately try and hold it together but it really kinda sorta doesn't work. I'm fairly certain everyone I work with thinks I'm completely insane on account of the many angry rants I embarked on which were directed at people who weren't actually present. And boy am I ever sick of feeling completely alone in a room full of people. Sigh.

Maybe it'll be better tomorrow. There'll be sun, if I just stick out my chin, and grin, and say Oh...

Please don't let me down Annie.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

The lead teacher who chose not to hire me as her assistant pulled me aside today to thank me for applying and tell me it was a hard choice... Even less comforting than when the director gave me the same "talk" two days ago. Being told you almost got a job you really wanted just sucks (as does hearing everyone congratulate the woman who did get it).

[Taralover]

My antivirus breifly effed up.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

My boss unintentionally screwed me over... She agreed over a month ago to do an assessment for me that I told her I needed by June 1st. She told me a couple times since then that she hadn't forgotten but was busy and would get to it as soon as she could. Today she told me she doesn't know if she can do it in time, which complicates everything, and likely means I will have to wait 3 more months until I can submit my application to get my accredidation. I am beyond bummed, and more than a little pissed.

[ashcrash71590]

i love people call me amazing and sweet and all this stuff and than people claim to love me and wanna be with me but when im with they throw me away like i don't matter than come to me again and say they want me and love me, but than i get to the point where i just wanna stay single and have fun but than when i try to make myself happy i wind up hurting someone and i don't mean to hurt them and you wouldn't think it would matter since they threw me away but apparently it does so than im left feeling like a confused asshole =/

Ash

[Taralover]

I'm worried that my computer might be acting up AGAIN.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I knocked over my yogurt, which meant I lost half my breakfast and made a mess :(

[ScottishAsh]

Im still looking for another job... and work at the pub is becoming more tense behind the bar, why oh why must women be at each others throats all the time. Why can't they have a male mentality and throw a punch and then buy each other a pint.. ahem i realise i am female but still get over it people, you are adults, stop behaving like 5 year olds!

[tarawillow<3]

Hating being alone, bullied for being gay. All i wanted was people to accept me :I

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I just realized there were still pictures I never figured out how to get off the phone I sent back to my a couple hours ago... I was surprisingly okay sending the stuff back, but I'm bummed I lost about half the pictures from my last trip :(

[tetyline]

What happened to us? I'm scared

[JustSkipIt]

I stepped on a toy in my son's room this morning and cut my heel. It really hurts and bled quite a bit. Then I put on a bandaid and wore shoe to work and walked around at work. Ouch. Now I've come home early to soak it in epsom salts and it still really hurts and looks terrible and I'm afraid I can't run tomorrow. And we're going camping this weekend and I don't want it to be hurting while we're camping and hiking...

[Taralover]

I was playing a really good rp on Yahoo Messenger with my friend two days ago, and it got so complex that it was crushed under it's own weight like a beached whale!

[Nue]

ok, I´m hating my throat right now... and this damn flu... and my job... I wanna go home!

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I had to tell my boss today that I applied for another job, cause if I get it it may start a week from today. I was already feeling guilty about giving so little notice (and it's not even real notice cause I don't know if I got the job yet), and she made me feel way way worse :( I really want this job, but if I get it I'm gonna feel bad leaving so soon, and if I don't get it I'm going to feel pressured to not looking for anything else for a while... I can't "commit" to working all summer like my work wants, cause if I do there's a good chance I won't have any job come August, but I feel like I should at least give them a commitment couple months, cause my lead teacher could at any time have to leave for a couple weeks and I feel like I should be there to pick up the slack if that happens. At the same time, I know I'm going to worry about not having a job after summer until I actually have a job, and I don't have to put my needs first, cause I'm the only one with a lot to lose, I'm the one that's going to watch my savings dwindle away if I'm out of work...
It's just a really sucky situation, and I hate feeling guilty, especially for trying to do something that could be really good for me...

[Kessari]

I fell down the stairs today... Only broke my wrist, but damn it, this hurts. I hate being clumsy...

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I hate feeling sad. I don't want to miss her. I've been so much better, but today... I have no idea why, but I keep missing her, over and over. It sucks. I want to be okay, I want to move on. I want to be happy she's part of my past, and leave it at that. I don't want to miss her, I don't want to love her, I don't want to hurt or be sad when I think about her... I think I'm okay, I'll go for a few days feeling just fine, sometimes even happy, and then I'll have a moment like I did yesterday and it throws me, and I'm back to missing her and feeling like I'm not over it. I just want to be over it, I want to be moved on and ready for something new, but I'm not over it and that SUCKS.

[Emberclouds]

I cried at school today, twice. Needless to say,
i felt fairly embarassed. I decided that the blame rests
wholey on my damn Literature and Composition
classes, they're bustin my butt!

[Nue]

I wanted to write today... but I´m so stressed and tired that I can´t write anything...

[Yours]

I would have been at work on time today, even after trying to find my apron for a good 10 minutes before leaving the house... That is until my bus decided to be 20 minutes late!! I hate buses right now! My boss is going to kill me... I smell a disaplinary coming on... Crap... *hides*

[amazon]

I fucking hate that I live 2 hours away from my love! It's so close, but not. We don't have a driver's license and we can't take busses everyday cuz that's expensive. Plus I've got work and she's got school.
I only get to be with her in the weekend. And not even every weekend. I want to live with her. See her every day. Be there when she needs me.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I thought I could stay, but I may not be strong enough to watch it all unfold...

[Nue]

I´m tired... I´m REALLY tired... I thought I was strong, but I´m not... I´m living in a freaking hell, going every day to a job I don´t like anymore (oh, guess what? I don´t even WORK! I just sit there, playing poker ¬¬)

and because of this damn work, I can´t be at home... in her arms, where I belong... I can´t be with her, hold her when she gets scared, or when she feels sad or laugh with her when she gets happy...

life sucks sometimes...

[Owl]

I've been in a state of chaos for 5 hours and have come to the conclusion that this essay must die.

[tarawillow<3]

I am the most quiet girl you can find in my school. I went through a rebellious fase, graffiting the school walls, sneeking out after sports into town to go shopping... But why the people in my school hate me ? what is the reason they treat me like crap ? Hell, i don't know.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

My headache doesn't wanna go away :(

[tarawillow<3]

My foot is NUMB

[CrazyTaraWitch]

My best friend's trip home really isn't working out the way I'd hoped... She's been here over a week and we've only hung out once, so I asked two days ago when we could hang out again, and instead of it being the two of us or any length of time, we're just having lunch with a group of friends, one of whom I don't particularly want to see. She also cancelled our camping trip. We were originallly supposed to go last weekend but then she said she couldn't and wanted to move it to this weekend, but I suggested next weekend cause I have an extra day off, and she said that sounded awesome. Now she's leaving a week earlier than scheduled, which not only means we can't go camping, but today will quite possibly be the last time I see her until December. She promised me lots of hanging out time, and knitting lessons, and yummy alfredo pasta... seeing her twice, only knitting once, and not getting to eat her food at all wasn't what I had in mind :(

[Emms]

She dumped me again.

[Kessari]

Stupid wrist won't stop hurting...