The Crappy Feelings Thread (HOTLINES in first post)

[CrazyTaraWitch]

My dad promised to call when he knew something about my sis's surgery, but didn't know when that would be. When I turned my phone on there was a text I couldn't read. I have a feeling it was from him, but I don't know what it says and I don't want to call and bug him... I dunno what to do

[Sandman78]

Lilly has been fighting fever since 3 am ...my bug has a bug.

[Silent_X]

Tried a new facewash on Saturday and had an allergic reaction to it. My face has been all red and itchy for the past 2 days.

[Boschi]

My truck is done for unless I want to spend a ridiculous amount of $ on repairs. And I know that is probably unwise.... so now I have to figure out how to come up with the cash for a replacement.

Sigh. I really like that truck.

Triple sigh. I really don't have the $ right now.

[BeneathMyWillowTree]

Today the hip hop game lost a true legend. RIP Nate Dogg. This was one cool and smooth cat that will be greatly missed. As one of his tracks say, "Nobody Does It Better". I miss him already. It sucks knowing he will no longer be adding his unique sense of style to any future songs. This cat rapped and sang at the same time. Who does that? Nobody!

[Zooeys_Bridge]

The girl I emailed on okcupid hasn't emailed me back yet, and I'm kinda losing hope it'll happen. I'm fine getting shot down, but it's kinda polite to at least say no so I'm not left hanging

[Finey_McFine]

My wife is on the phone with the accountant, she keeps scrunching her face and rubbing her temples. I hate this time of year. So much for our fun day off together with no kid. *sighs*

[Ariel]

Hey, Zooeys Bridge!

I'm with you, there, the death of hope by slow waning is a special kind of hurt.

Here's my story:

Read a Craig's List add for someone wanting a friend to hang with and do stuff with. We e-mail back and forth, fun and friendly, both having a good time. We plan to meet.

Not only did she not show but she didn't even have the decency to call my cell (which I had given her the number for) to tell me she wasn't coming or to apologize.

When I brought it up calmly in a, "Let's not go here again way" she acted like I was a jerk to object!

Anyway, so much for THAT friendship!

Wishing you MUCH better luck! Hang in there!

Ariel
How I Met Your Mother

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I miss my daycare in Kentucky. The last couple months it was the only good part of the living there; it wasn't perfect but I loved it, the longer I worked there the more I loved it. Some parts of being back at my daycare in Texas are good, some things have improved, but other parts of working there are getting worse with time, and I miss the way it was.... I miss how it was at my Texas daycare before I ever moved away, and I miss my center in Kentucky.
I miss feeling valued for my work.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

The guy next to me on the bus is REALLY smelly

[Rhiannon9891]

My friend Anne committed suicide Friday night.
Anne, my niece, nephew and friends would visit me almost every Memorial Day weekend to attend the Coca-Cola 600 race, what fun we all would have. It won’t be the same without the vibrant being that was Anne.
I'll miss you.

R.I.P. Anne

[Gaga01]

I am so sorry, Rhiannon9891...I hope that her family will survive this, and that you will be okay...all my condolences..

[CrazyTaraWitch]

It got sprung on me today that my brother and his girlfriend will be moving in at the end of the week. I knew they were coming sometime soon, but it was my impression that my brother was planning to give my mom and I (as I live there and she own it) some notice, but it was my dad who told us and he's apparently known when they're getting to town for a few days and assumed he'd told one of us. My mom's talked about getting a cheap trailer for the yard, or even cleaning up the garage for them to stay in, cause the situation's completed and she hasn't wanted them in the house, plus I've never met the girlfriend and I live there so it'll be intensely awkward to suddenly live together, but now we're out of time and there's no way any of that's going to happen. I had wanted to move out before my brother and his girlfriend arrived but my mom talked me into staying, partly through the not-quite-but-almost promise that they wouldn't be staying in the house. I've lived with my brother before and it is not a remotely good situation, and now there will be his girlfriend there as well, three of us sharing a not very big house and barely enough dishes for one, and to say I'm not looking forward to it would be a MAJOR understatement.

[Zooeys_Bridge]

I'm not actually feeling crappy, so much as actually crapping. Heh.

[Emms]

My friend Anne committed suicide Friday night.
Anne, my niece, nephew and friends would visit me almost every Memorial Day weekend to attend the Coca-Cola 600 race, what fun we all would have. It won’t be the same without the vibrant being that was Anne.
I'll miss you.

R.I.P. Anne

Rhi... I wanna hug you but I cant find a hugging emoticon... *HUG*

PM me if you want to talk....

[JustSkipIt]

Rhiannon - I am so sorry.

[Rhiannon9891]

Gaga01, Emms and Debra...
Thank you so much.

Rhi

[KiWy]

I really hate feeling so much down, in a matter of minutes, only because i started thinking about her and what happened. It's been a month and I just wish I could get over it. As the song goes "And in the end, nothing stays the same". Yes indeed. Gotta move on, and soon.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I had a big paper that was supposed to be due last Thursday but I got bogged down and didn't finish in time. My teacher is very lax about due dates so it's not like my grade on it will be affected, but it sucks to be behind. I'm supposed to be turning it in Tuesday, but I just can't seem to get motivated. I *know* I have to work on it, and a lot, to get it done, but I just can't seem to care.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I found out today that one of my coworkers also applied for the job I interviewed for last week. Being sure she wasn't applying was the only reason I felt like I had a decent chance to get the job,but it turns out she did apply and I'm almost positive they'll choose her over me cause she already works in the classroom and the lead teacher likes working with her. The most frustrating part though is that she's not even enthusiastic about the job; I know she'll take it if she's offered it, but she was saying she's not even sure she really wants it, cause she had been planning to move back to her hometown and she doesn't know if she wants to keep living here. I really really want this job and I hate that she only kind of wants it but will almost certainly get picked over me :(

[Nue]

A man went today to a school and shot 23 kids here in Rio... 10 girls and 1 boy were killed and the others are in critical condition... he commited suicide when a cop shot his leg...

I´m so sad and angry right now...

[Willowtree252]

I found out today that one of my coworkers also applied for the job I interviewed for last week. Being sure she wasn't applying was the only reason I felt like I had a decent chance to get the job,but it turns out she did apply and I'm almost positive they'll choose her over me cause she already works in the classroom and the lead teacher likes working with her. The most frustrating part though is that she's not even enthusiastic about the job; I know she'll take it if she's offered it, but she was saying she's not even sure she really wants it, cause she had been planning to move back to her hometown and she doesn't know if she wants to keep living here. I really really want this job and I hate that she only kind of wants it but will almost certainly get picked over me :(

But she did not get picked did she

[CrazyTaraWitch]

But she did not get picked did she

No she did not

[TeQuerio]

God life really sucks right now. I just found out my mom has cancer, my sister is to busy paying attention to her boyfriend and graduating to do anything and my dad is away in the military. Also the truency lady keeps jumping on my ass about missing to much school.

My best friend Tyler and i are growing apart and I can't seem to ever be around him without getting really pissed and annoyed with him and it sucks because we where really close at one point. I kinda feel like it is my fault cause I haven't tried to spend any time with him cause I am to busy with my ex-girlfriend.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I just finished re-reading my favorite novel, and though I love it, the end never fails to upset me immensely. I want the characters to live happily ever after, and yet I have a feeling the book wouldn't be nearly so wonderful if they did, cause the tragedy is a big part of its beauty. I think part of why I read this book over and over is somewhere in the back of my mind hoping that just once it will end differently; I know that sounds crazy, but everytime I read it it feels so *real*. Every thought, every movement, is recorded so meticulously and yet without ever getting bogged down by the details that the story comes alive, and then in the end it, without fail, it crushes me and breaks my heart yet again :(

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I got out of class early tonight, and thought I'd be able to catch an earlier first-bus so that I could catch an earlier second-bus and get home at 9:30 instead of 10. Since I've been up since 6:30 and gone from the house since 6:55, and worked 8-5 then had class from 6-8:15, this sounded great. Unfortunately I was hungry, cause I'd had bad bus luck on the way to school and had only had time to eat half the food I brought with me before having to throw the rest away to go to class, so thinking that I had enough time I stopped by a convenience store for a snack on the way to the bus. I couldn't have been in there more than 2 or 3 minutes, but it was enough to make me miss the earlier bus by about 30 seconds. I was bummed, but 10 was the time I'd originally expect to get home, so no huge deal. Until the next bus was late. Thanks to my first-bus being nearly 15 minutes late, I missed my second-bus, the one that should've gotten me home around 9:55 or 10, so now it's 10:03 and I'm still a good 15 minutes from home. And I have to either shower after I get home and get up at 6:20 tomorrow, or go to bed as soon as I get home and get up at 6 to shower in the morning. Basically either way I won't be getting 8 hours of sleep, much less anytime to actually be home and awake. Oh, and did I mention that I woke up 4 times last night, and am so not used to getting up before 7:15?
Grrrrr.

[JujuDeRoussie]

So I've been having yet another episode of depression lately, making the diet even harder as it is in the first place (in the short list of things I'm allowed to eat, there's only a few I actually like). I've been having flashbacks, mostly sounds, of Mom's last days, again. I've been feeling extremely empty (baby fever) and none of the food I'm allowed to eat helps me feel the abyss inside of me. And I've had those random thoughts of scratching myself like I used to do so many years ago. Oh, and I can't find a job. One that I could have gotten is kept from me because it is only for Belgian citizens. Meh.

Crappy Crap.

[JustSkipIt]

Even though I'm on a three day weekend (see happy feelings) my coworker called in sick so I wil have to be on call.

[Finey_McFine]

So, today is the anniversary of my cousin's death. Nine years ago today my cousin, Gary- best friend since birth and only 1st cousin, committed suicide, he was 36. I don't really know what else to say about it, except I miss him. Everyday that goes by, I think..."Well, it's just another day without him in my life." Even with the distance between now and that horrible day in 2002, I still feel sad and my heart aches just to hear his voice again. He left 3 small boys behind, the oldest just turned 17 a few weeks ago. They don't live here and it's been a long time since I've seen them in person. We're Facebook buddies and every time the oldest posts a pic of himself...well, I just want to cry. He looks so much like his father that I have to look away. He'll be a senior next year and recently asked me to come take his senior portraits. I promised him that I would, but I don't know how I'm going to get through it. I guess I'll deal with it when the time comes.

I decided yesterday that under no circumstances would I cry today and well, that only lasted about an hour. So, now I'm at work and have vowed to hold it together. Let's hope I make it.

[KiWy]

Well, in one word, life sucks right now. I thought it was getting better, I thought I was going back on tracks. But it doesn't take long for it all to crumble back into pieces. Guess I'll just wait.