The Crappy Feelings Thread (HOTLINES in first post)

[summer fairy]

It sounds so awful, I'd hate to feel like that! I hate the idea of feeling sick at anytime, never mind constantly! I bet you are frusterated, I would be! Is there no tabs that the docs can give you, there are these tabs over here that can actually stop people being sick.

[river]

i take tabs but they are not helping. thats why i need this tube examination.
and yeah its frustrating... i cant do anything. just being at home.

[littlewicca]

oh poor river! bad bad stomach! let river get something to eat! i dont understand what summer fairy said what tabs here?

[summer fairy]

Um... it is hard to help you really, all we can do on the kitten board is offer emotional support, so if you ever need to talk feel free to pm me.

[littlewicca]

Of course! at least to make you be less bored? you can om me too. you know!

[river]

you have msn right? maybe we can chat there!
feel free to add me

schmankygirl@web.de

[summer fairy]

I've added you

[littlewicca]

yes i have, i will add you then

[river]

thats cool. thanks for your support!!

[littlewicca]

you dont need to thanks

[summer fairy]

I'm so not tht happy right now, I have a lot of cleaning to do...

[dlline]

The graduate program I applied to turned me down because one of my references decided to take the semester off and go to Vienna rather than write the reference he promised me. Even if he writes it today, it's too late.

Whatever

[Numen]

Ugh. Don't ever drinkfive canns of Red Bull and eat to much candy. I did, and I feel like I could puke, hyper-energic, but still sleepy.

[Bound2Her]

I have to spend all afternoon and night being at my sister's friends house watching her kids while she sleeps and goes to work later. It's not MY fault they've spent the morning NOT being at home asleep when they should be. I don't want to go over there. The house is abosulotely disgusting and it make's me want to clean and sanitize everything. Ugh.

[JustSkipIt]

The graduate program I applied to turned me down because one of my references decided to take the semester off and go to Vienna rather than write the reference he promised me. Even if he writes it today, it's too late.

Whatever

That happened to me when I was applying to grad schools the first time. He said he would do it then forgot and I didn't get in because I only had 2 letters. Sorry though.

[Saena]

The only really unfortunate consequence of spring starting (esp. the appearance of beautiful spring weather) is that mental state known as Spring Fever. It doesn't really just extend to schoolwork for me at the moment, though. Sure, I don't want to do my schoolwork- and procrastinated on it all day, in fact. But I really kind of don't want to do anything. I started out the morning good, but by lunchtime I was really lethargic and antisocial. I don't really want to go to my education tutoring placement tonight (usually I don't really get excited about it anyway, because it's been giving me so much trouble, but there was more than one reason this time). I don't even really want to go to dance rehearsal tonight. I only kind of want to go to the Coffeehouse performance of one of my friends. I can't think of anyone I particularly want to see, or talk to, or anything I want to do.

And that's the only reason Spring has caused me to have crappy feelings!

(Guess I gotta go; I have that education thing in about ten minutes and I should try to perk up before then...)

Saena

[Bound2Her]

I hate it when people have a life. It so completely conflicts with my lack of life. *angry sarcasm*

[littlewicca]

Well how do I start?

Kind of bad day today, very anoying people calling to my work, (for who dont know i work at a callcenter for a bank)
Why people dont read the papers before they call? so annoying!!

and then to travel home i have to take a train, my grandfa and father travel with me coz they work at the city too, the trains let say they never work very good, and as it wasnt anything stupid people like to stop the doors when the train is going to leave!

my grandfa started to yell at them and i get scared coz they started to say stuff, but my grandfa didnt replied so fiuuu but i was scared i dont like fights! and is a bit dangerous the whole train thing!

[mangled_monkey]

I was reminded tonight, AGAIN, what a total loser I was in high school. And how I alienated myself from everyone because I was stupid. And that I'm not and never have been one of those seemingly perfect girls. I know those girls aren't perfect, but they're better at hiding the flaws.

Tonight I went to my old high school's production of Hello Dolly. The play was amazing (for a high school performance) and watching the play itself made me really happy. But it made me realize how much I missed out on back then, and how much people still hate me for things I did 4 years ago. It's always depressing to get dirty glares for things you've apologized for a million times over, and that you would never do again if your life depended on it. It makes me sad that, for some people, genuine remorse and repentance don't matter. I can never do enough to live down what I did that year. That terrifies me. Because I know I'll probably f**k up just as bad down the line, and lose other wonderful people because of it. After all, that's what I'm best at.

So I'm left in a state of having no clue what to do, and knowing that I have no one left to talk to about it. I also realized on my drive home that there are exactly TWO people that I have never lied to the way I did when I was in high school, and I'm sure the lies I've told the rest of them will come back and bite me in the ass, probably sometime soon.

I am now going to go and eat ice cream and watch JAG, hopefully that'll lift my spirits some. Tracey Needham is awesome.

[gabbles]

wow, its been forever since Ive been aboe to post on the Kitten. Much stuff happened. First off, BIIIIG HUG to all the kittens that need it.

I just needed to have a bit of a whinge, cause im really hurting right now. My girl cheated on me. I left my home town for Uni, and I was going to leave the relationship thing alone, cause distance is tough n I didnt know if we should put that on ourselves...but then she told me she wanted to be with me n only me, she wanted us to be 'together' and she told me she was falling for me. She also told me she was going to move here.

Then she cheated on me with her ex boyfriend.

Can we all say ouch?

Im feeling very dumb, as I finally believed someone when they said they wouldnt hurt me and I almost thought myself worthy of everything she was telling me...

Now shes pleading with me, telling me it was a drunken mistake and that she n him are only friends and she doesnt know WHY she did it but she wishes more then anything she can take it back.

And im in so SO many minds about what I should do it isnt funny.

And Ive been in a bubble becuase of this the last week and am falling waaaaay too far behind in uni.

Im a sad kitten at the moment :(

Sorry this was so long, I needed to vent.

Hugs to everyone
~Gabs

[Willowtree252]

I am so sorry for your pain. There is nothing I can say but we will be here if you need us As for her well cause you deserve only the best

[littlewicca]

Im with dianne! what a bad thing, i dont know how is it really, im not dating anyone, but i can imagine, I send you and hope you get feelling better soon, all of you

[Boschi]

Digest version:

After months of thinking that buying a house and land wasn't feasible I was told it was. I questioned this, but was reassured that funds were available. Said provider of funds sent me many listings of houses in a particular price range.

So I just found a house and land at an excellently low price. Definitely a place that I want to call home, at a price that is substantially lower than every comparable listing I've seen.

Further discussions, in the two hours after finding such a deal (after looking at many others in the past months), now lead me to believe that it is not feasible.

Ok. Well, that was just a tremendous waste of time, energy and hope.

[river]

life sucks....they kicked me out of my job today...

[summer fairy]

oh no!! Thats terrible!

[river]

yeah... i am ill and now i lost my job. life is horrible

[summer fairy]

Well hopefully it will get better, I mean it just has to surely? I wish you were better hun! *hugs*

[littlewicca]

I send you hugs*

hope you all get better soon,

i know what you feel** (that sound like buffy lol)

[writerfreak]

I feel crappy, well for so many reasons. First, I let my daughter down, in a huge way, months ago. Well I was wrong in what I did, and didn't realize it until like 3 weeks ago. Second, I let my girlfriend down, I went too fast for her, and now I have moved back to Alexandria because she needs space, time, and a whole bunch of other things. If I believed in god I would pray right now, I really would. Why does it feel like we are breaking up?

writerfreak

[Willowtree252]

Kindred please just hold on and give it time I pray it will be ok my friend