by CrazyTaraWitch » Tue Sep 03, 2013 8:10 pm
I'm not loving my life right now, and I've had a lot of bad moments lately--awful moods, anxiety, depression, feeling worthless... Today I had more crap come up.
And then I got a care package from home--not from my parents, but my old roommate. There was nothing terrible special (except a miniature sonic screwdriver she'd offered to send me as she had a spare), mostly snacks and random office things, but it meant so much, especially with the letter explaining that the things she sent were picked by family tradition. She and her girlfriend are like family to me (I doubt they see me the same way, but it doesn't matter really), and it meant a lot, and it felt good to be reminded there are people that care. Then tonight I got to talked to my best friend, which is rare right now as she's on a 550 mile hiking trip, and it was nice to actually have a friend for half an hour. I mean, I have two great friends online that I talked to almost every day, but... I'm still lonely as hell. For a little while today I didn't feel quite so lonely, or quite so miserable, and it was nice.
"To days to come."
"All my love to long ago.
I hope, we'll have more happy ever after
I hope, we can all live more fearlessly...
~Jas