intricatemirage's Poetry

[Washi]

Great stuff Cass. Really. I love the second verse. Keep on writing, we'll keep on cheering.

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"See? I've mastered this tact crap." Anya in Tears Of The Goddess by Lisa



The course of love doesn’t always run smooth, especially for the neurotic and accident-prone. ~ LadyB



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[willowsgirl]

Wow...Cass...thats just...wow

I think this might be the nicest thing anyone's done for me, i love you sweetie

Im kind of...speechless..but I want you to know that the time we've been together has been just as amazing for me, and Im really so happy that I have you in my life, and in awe that you wrote this for me. Thank you



Stacey xxxxxxx

Tara ignored him. "Your interruption has left me high and, well... I hardly think dry is the word." Returning home by tempest duer

Edited by: willowsgirl at: 1/13/04 6:05 pm

[sam darls]

Cassie..that was soo amazing. You and Stace are soo adorable together . love sammi xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

[YMKA]

Dude!

Awww....that was so sweet....

Well....I mean..you know....



I loved it dude it was intresting to read

As Washi said....keep on writing



Love ya!



M.

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"..I feel you, I taste you, I cannot forget, everytime it rains I get wet..." (c) Ace of Base

"I want to go back to...Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all.."(c) Evanescence

"I'm sorry..."- Me " You are NOT sorry" -Holly

[SJ]

Cassie,great poem,very sweet

[pacou]

Awww Cas, sooooooooo sweet!!!



It's great to see you so much in love!



And the poem rocked, as usual, gosh Cas, you're so much better than I am!!!



Thanks for sharing though



-Viv-

"Love is an irresistable desire to be irresistably desired."
Robert Frost

[TaraBaby77]

HOLY MOLY CASS !!!! That was AWESOME !!! You got me here, getting a little watery eyed . Talk about beautiful. Here is a whole bunch of WOO and a ton of HOO !!!! I am so so so sooooooooooooo happy for you both, REALLY!!!! And extra WAHOO to you Cass for leaving Stace speechless, heehee . Anyhoo, definitely written in love . I like it, love it, wants some more of it.... So, if you two can bottle that love stuff up and sell it, it would be appreciated by all, LOL. Great work , great writting , great stuff ... Keep them comin', kay??? Take care. =)

Aaron

'TaraBaby77'

[intricate mirage]

Hey y'all! Almost been three months since I last posted, but here's a new short story But before that, here are a couple of very delayed replies



JustNicks - Thanks mate



Washi - Yo dude!

Quote:

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Keep on writing, we'll keep on cheering.

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Thanks Washi!



willowsgirl - Hey you I meant every single word I wrote baby and I'm glad you liked it *smiles* It's coming close to four months now baby and those words hold more true than ever, I love you Stace



sam darls - Thanks Sammi, and thank you for reading



YMKA - Dude! Thanks for reading Glad it was interesting to read Love ya too dude!



SJ - As always, thank you for reading Sam!



pacou - Hellooooo! Thank you dude And don't be a doofus, I'm in no way better than you You have awesome poetry too Thanks for reading once again



TaraBaby77 - Yo Aaron! Thanks for being such a sweetie Aaron and much thanks for reading too!



Yep That pretty much does it for replies, and thanks to all who read too So here's the short story coming up in the next post, hope y'all will enjoy it muchly



Cass xx

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My whole life I've loved only one person, that person was you

[intricate mirage]

Title: Sanctuary

Author: Cassie (intricatemirage@yahoo.com)



Amidst the cloak of lies and deceit that surround this dark world, every one person has a true story to tell. Yet sad is the fact when a true story is told, rarely is it ever heard. A voice that passes by unheard, a tear that falls unnoticed, all that is left is a silence that kills, a world left unseen.



Girl in the corner, there she sat day after day. Willing herself to get up, pull herself together, telling herself that she is not alone. Taking in the deep cuts on her arms, she watches as each drop surfaces, flows down the skin and drips down from the very tip of her fingers. Time seems to suspend as each drop passes through space. Time fades away as it hits rock bottom. Time was lost. With every drop she bleeds, just like time, her soul fades away.



Standing up, she walks around, trailing her fingers along the dark grey walls. Broken mirror shards lay in a corner of the room, a mirror broken such a long time ago. Picking up a broken piece, she stares at a tear stained face. Tracing the contours of her cheek, nothing but an ordinary face, just another nobody along the common streets. Closing her eyes, she breathes in the musky dust filled air. Tracing the contours of her heart, nothing but a cut up, bleeding heart. A tear flows from her closed eyes. Closing her grip tight onto the broken mirror piece, it slices and cuts into her palm. As the tears dry up, a bloody river flows. As the broken shard falls to the ground with a resounding echo, slick with blood, her eyes open to reveal a certain hardness in them. Deathly cold.



Clench of her fists, advancing slowly towards the door, her feet leaving a bloodied mess in her wake as she makes her way across a series of broken beer bottles. Striking up a match, she lowers her head momentarily as her lips clamp down firmly on a stale cigarette stick, taking in a deep breath as the stick lights up and a pale glow is seen in the room. Smoke glides timidly across the room, searching out every corner, filled with darkness and pain, as though it was afraid. Reaching out her hand, fingers closing around the door knob. A girl clad loosely in casual shirt and jeans. A girl who could have been easily mistaken for just another ordinary normal girl along the street. Closes her eyes, breathing in deep the sweet taste of nicotine smoke that burns her throat. Searches for her soul. Finding none. Opens the door. Taking her first step out in the cold harsh light. Flinging the cigarette stick behind her, the amber glow burning out as the room consumed it, the way it consumed her soul. Silently, quietly. As though it never existed.



A hot shower is started up, biting down on her bottom lip, willing herself not to cringe as the warm water hits her bleeding wounds, stinging her body numb. Clear water turns into a sea of red as it flows from her body. A body turning cold as the hot steam warmed up the entire bathroom. The sea of red gradually regains back its initial state of being. Pulling on a fresh change of clothes, covering up the harsh lines that are drawn across her arms. Silence fills the entire room. A room with sunlight streaming in through its glass window panes. An entirely different room. A seemingly different girl stands in the middle of it. All covered up, with the very face that resembled one of an ordinary face, just another nobody along the common streets. Tracing the contours of her cheek in the mirror, listen. Can you still hear the faint beating of her heart?



Sunlight beats down on her body as she advances out of the place that has kept her safe. Nothing has changed since she had made her departure into her dark sanctuary. The birds are still chirping, the world is still spinning, the people around her are still living. Not a care in the world. Not a single worry about where she has been. She walks up to the group she used to call friends, they watch her advance, uncertainty written all over their faces. She smiles, only then do they welcome her with open arms. Never once asking what went wrong, they revert back to their original conversation topic. Talking. Talking. That's all they ever do. Hardly ever do they pause for a minute, to listen. She watches on, a smile across her face, a grey veil hiding her eyes away from the entire world. This was seemingly no different from the confines of her dark sanctuary.



If only someone had looked harder, observed her a little closer. They would notice the small movement of the unclenching of her fist. They would notice the drop of blood dripping down to the ground from a fresh wound. Nobody listens. Nobody watches. This world is no different from the world she had pulled away from. The long day wears on, the faint beating of her heart fades away. Walking with her head held high, back to her quiet space, nobody noticed the blood stains seeping out gradually onto her shirt sleeves. Nobody noticed the dragging of her feet.



She told me she had a dream once. It was a simple dream. Never one desiring for greatness. It was one that could be quite easily done. She never dreamt for the world to stop spinning, nor for time to wait for her. All she dreamt of as she watched her reflection in the mirror day after day, was for one person to notice her pain, to lay down a hand on her bleeding wounds without fear, to just simply tell her 'I am here'.



They found her the next day. Same girl as she had always been, sitting in the corner of her room. Blood flowing down her pale skin, dripping from the very tip of her loosely hung fingers. Bleeding herself dry. Someone said they heard an anguish cry in the middle of the night. She was praying for someone to have heard her. Yet it was merely dismissed as just another insignificant cry in the night. The girl had bled herself dry.



Listen. You can no longer hear the faint beating of her heart.



Amidst the cloak of lies and deceit that surround this dark world, every one person has a true story to tell. What was hers? Nobody will ever know. It doesn't matter anymore as I stand here, staring blankly at a grey tombstone. As the heavens open and rain comes pouring down, I lay my hand down on the coldness that was her resting place. She has finally found her quiet sanctuary.



The End



Cass xx

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My whole life I've loved only one person, that person was you

Edited by: intricate mirage at: 3/25/05 9:25 pm

[willowsgirl]

Hey baby *grins*

Firstly, your reply..back then we'd only been together a month, but i was so sure that this was going to last for a long time..and i was right Four months now baby, and im more in love with you than ever I can't wait to make all our plans come true

Now the update

Wow..thats all I can say..your writing is amazing baby, and no, im not just saying that cos im biased

The first time I read this short story, a little while ago now, I just couldnt believe how great it was, its so real, and i have no shame in admitting here that i told you it was scary

Even now, reading it here, I cant put into words how much you can affect the reader with a piece thats so short, and yet so...wow!

I cant wait to read more of your writing cass,

i love you

Stacey xxxxxx

Tara ignored him. "Your interruption has left me high and, well... I hardly think dry is the word." Returning home by tempest duer

Edited by: willowsgirl at: 3/28/04 2:51 pm

[SJ]

Great writing

[sam darls]

Wow Cass..that was so amazing . Hope everything is going wonderful.. Love sam xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

[onyxsundrops]

Sad, yet very intense, and well written. Great short story, thanks.



Yvonne

[pacou]

Only for you a reply Cas



Well, I told you before, so you're not gonna get to hear anything new now.... LOVE it!!!



Amazing writing, angsty, great description, thoughtful, everything!!!



I really enjoyed reading it Cas, well... almost a little bit too angsty (you know I'm not one of the angst-likers ) But it was amazing, thanks for sharing and telling me



Hehe and that guy doesn't fit in at all now... but for me he's new Isn't he great?



-Viv-

"Love is an irresistable desire to be irresistably desired."
Robert Frost

[TaraBaby77]

My goodness Cass, that was frilly hecking moving!!! Okay, gonna go and read that again. Fantastic work. =)

Aaron

'Tarababy77'

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"Don't buy into all the media crap. Love yourself for who you are, not what others THINK you should look like. It's DEFINITELY more important in this life to love each other despite our imperfections." - Amber Benson

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[intricate mirage]

Heya!



Long time since I last posted, work has just been... and and 'Nuff said Anyhow, here's a couple of replies first, thanks to all who read



willowsgirl - Hey baby I can't wait to make all our plans come true either love Everything's just going to be so perfect and amazing



I still think you're biased *cheeky grin* But I'm glad you like my writing baby It really means alot to me, especially when it's coming from you *shy smile*



I love you too Stace, my 'whatever's in the middle' baby



SJ - Heya Sam! As always, a big thank you going out to you for always reading



sam darls - Hey Sammi *waves* Thanks girl Hope everything's going wonderful for you and your baby too Much love and hugs going out to the both of you



onyxsundrops - Heya Yvonne! Thanks for reading



pacou - Awww, such a sweetie you are Replying just for me Glad you liked it girl and yep, I know you're not a fan of angst Forgive me won't you, for being such an angst filled person? And oh yeah! That chap *points a little to the left* He's rockin' awesome! Love ya girl!



TaraBaby77 - Hey hey soldier boy! Thanks for always being so encouraging Aaron You rock!



Yep, that about does it for replies, so here are two new poems. Hope y'all will enjoy them Once again, thanks to all who read



untitled

hit me, stab me, hurt me

give me some shred of pain

bleeding wounds that will never heal

scars that are impossible to ignore

can someone hold me for a while

and let me feel my tears rolling down

consumed by a desire to have the

taste of salt on my lips

the warm droplets of water on my cheeks

hurt me, break me, please bleed me dry

protect me, shield me, let me heal

warm me up, take away the deathly cold

commanding my soul to hide away

a heart that can't help pushing away

split moment of insanity

screaming, yelling, a continuous crying

a bloody pool threatening to spill

cries of a homeless child

screams of a tormented soul

it was a mistake

there should have been the shatter of glass

the cry of release should have filled the air

the red river should have flowed steadily

there should have been an overwhelming darkness



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Beautiful



You are beautiful, it's unfortunate we live in a world where only one definition of beauty exists.



Trail your fingers along the surface of the mirror

Trace the contours of the reflection of your cheek

Shameful eyes taking in the appearance that is you

A soft echo reprimanding you beauty is not skin deep



What would happen if I was scarred, never meant to be fixed?

Could you still be loving me, if I stopped being all you ever wanted me to be?



Lost is a heart shattered by a broken and cruel world

Safe is a surreal dream and fantasy once longed for

Futile are the quiet knockings on a soul that died

All that is left is a hollow eerie emptiness deep inside



What would happen if I was scarred, never meant to be fixed?

Could you still be loving me, if I stopped being all you ever wanted me to be?



Emerging slowly the lifeless eyes and sunken cheeks

A sadistic satisfaction consuming the body and mind



What would happen if I was scarred, never meant to be fixed?

Could you still be loving me, if I stopped being all you ever wanted me to be?



I am finally all you ever wanted me to be

I am finally beautiful





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Cass xx

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My whole life I've loved only one person, that person was you

[sam darls]

Cass hun, they were both incredibly beautiful . I especially loved 'Beautiful'. Much love and hugs going out to you and Stace too . Love sam xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

Edited by: sam darls at: 7/2/04 11:26 am

[SJ]

Great poems

[intricate mirage]

sam darls - as always, thank you so much for reading and your sweet comments sammi much love and hugs going out to both you and october



SJ - thanks Sam!

Don't ever force your views upon me cos all you'll get is two middle fingers and a resounding 'fuck you'.

[TaraBaby77]

Awww, Casss.... those were great!!! Sorry it took me so long to leave you feedback. I'm trying to get caught up on this board. Anyhoo, you two take care and hope to hear from you soon. =)

Aaron

'Tarababy77'

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"Don't buy into all the media crap. Love yourself for who you are, not what others THINK you should look like. It's DEFINITELY more important in this life to love each other despite our imperfections." - Amber Benson

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[barnabasvamp]

Nice work, and "Beautiful"...so touching.



BV

It's the passion in a kiss that gives to it its sweetness; it is the affection in a kiss that sanctifies it.

[intricate mirage]

barnabasvamp - Thank you so much for reading



Cass x

"I believe that women were born to be admired, adored and worshipped. No, they aren't as godly as Andy Roddick. They are better." - Yours truly.

"I see my breath in the cold of the air that I breathe and I'm wondering if it's you that I feel here haunting me forever." - GC