Poems all kinds mixed up

[SJ]

Good to see more of your poetry,great writing.

[Shadowygirl]

well everyone who left a reply already thank you so much I wasn't even sure if people would remember me or not lol ... anyhow I guess I'm not too forgettible , but ya know here is another one ...


No sense

Whatever you want
If you think going away would make you happy
Then who am I to hold you back
I can’t beg you to stay
I just want what is best for you
Even if you don’t believe me
It feels as if we aren’t really here
Aren’t really together
Am I just the person you go to sleep beside
The person you wake up
So I’m not late to run some earns
I feel alone in this world
And you say its my fault
Everything has always been my fault
And some ask why I put up with this
Fighting all the time
Never getting along
Maybe because I think its better then being alone
Maybe because I love you
Sometimes I don’t even understand
Why I do the things I do
Why I say the things I say
Why I never give you a chance
And when you quit I beg you not to go
Sometimes I don’t understand it
Maybe because I chose not to
Maybe because I just don’t care
I don’t even know why I’m writing this
I don’t know why I have these thoughts
And I know this makes no sense
But maybe I just don’t want to make any fucking sense this time


I'm not really sure what the hell it is , I was having a really bad night tonight again and this is what came out of me ... tell me what you think and if I can fix it in any way ...

Lots of love everyone

Love April

"" when my heart is your note book will you write the story of your life on my weeping soul ""poem paper love by ACMK

[Emms]

That was very powerful. I've been there...every line of it. Thank you so much for sharing that with us. I hope things are a little brighter this morning.

xoxo
Emms

[SJ]

Great poem.

[Shadowygirl]

Well it's been a long friggin time since I've been around hasn't it ? hopefully people here still know me ......

Anyhow I thought I would just post a poem its about a girl who tore my heart out and flipped my world upside down .... hopefully yous like it


21

Remember those nights

when hand wove through
hand

and we laughed
I found joy

in the way your eyes

Shined
And smiled

loved the way
I was lost
by the tremble of your lips

and when I couldn't seem to
catch myself

you took me in

take me away
in the waves of your scent

Just like you always seem to do

Remember those times
When I found joy in your smile

It always reached to heaven

I watched you while you slept
And when I couldn’t seem to sleep
You let me hold you

I’ll never forget those nights

Few moments

Remember what it felt like

Hand wove through hand

[Shadowygirl]

Reminding


All these years of misery and anger
There’s been to much of this
Clenched fists
Screaming words
And we aren’t going to make it anywhere
where’s the faith
I’m soaking in a pool of infected love
And it burns my eyes
But I can’t close them
And how the hell did I end up
In this place
I’ve pulled myself from your heart
And crawled inside my own mind
Of torrent thoughts
And torture
To burn in this bitter episode
Of never ending angry love
Can you taste the bitterness of my last kiss
And the tanginess of my eternal blood burning down your throat
Keep on turning away
I wouldn’t blame you
I’ve dismissed myself
Unknowingly
Have my saddened features
Made you feel some sympathy
For me
I hear your eloquence
Screaming into me
Crude insults
That burn everything I once was
And it’s all me
All on me
This shame I’ve felt for myself for so long now
And I’ve wondered what it would be like
To just disappear
Would you notice
Or would you be to busy with your own disturbing thoughts
Astonished that I can be this way
Amazed that I can hate so much
Of myself
But pretend to be okay
Smile fake
Pretty eyes
And I will never know what self control means
Not until these wounds heal
And I look in the mirror
And all I see is a transparent version of what I once was

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[Shadowygirl]

To Far



She's the stain on my eyes
that I can't push away
that slowly seeps deeper and deeper into my cornea
once black dotted stories molding into thoughts and memories
now blotted with cruelty
and an ambition to taste your blood
it's fear and it's pain
that drives me this far into the middle of my hell
but a smile from ear to ear and stitched shut is my only way to tell you
"Little birds can only fly so far, so far until they loose their mind"
it seems this little bird has gone over the edge
but you were never to keen on the idea of "love" now were you
maybe love isn't spelled the same in your dictionary but i sure as hell know what it means to me
and it grows
my fears seem to be substantial compared to last years musical taste
and last years eve was so much warmer and settling
unlike tonight's sunset which seems to be screaming into my heart
my ears
my eyes have been chilled with the freezing dew on this golden crisp grass
i can't even remember much of this sight
being that the stain still grows
and now, a small remain of the whites of my eyes are all i have left
and still ,she's so close to me
but i can still hear you
and i can still cut you deeper than any blade ever could

[Shadowygirl]

Close to love

I think I'm close to love
or an utter liking to you
maybe too close, I can taste it's sweet slow kiss
but so close, it's intangible
as the crisp apple high in the tree tops
this is untouchable as well
I'll wish to reach out for you
I'll hope to catch you
and the knowledge holding me by the cuffs of my sleeve
is that of love
she's already a dreamer in the realm, the haven, of perfection
with perfect hands holding perfect bodies
and perfect minds looking in perfect eyes
leading them into the perfect kiss
another hand, which isn't of my wrist, is so close to my heart
I know not of why this beautiful flower with the sweetest sent of honey
and the brightest petals grows in my garden
but only for another's soil
it's that hurting of eyes watering in such a glossy manner which my situation causes
and it's not just a repetitious cycle of instability
but my method of living
and it's the only thing I know

[Shadowygirl]

Without


This place, too well known.
I’ll never leave here.
I’d be lost without this-

depression.

tears
I’d rather feel this than nothing;
this blade against my…..

how strange.
trapped in a haze,
my day goes by….

Underwater.

Dripping wet and
Blurred,

floating past shadows of
People I once knew.

(They dare not glance.)

I hold my breath.
Disoriented, Insane,

and

Mumbling [without]
air

Chaotic…

Chaos in my mind

Mumbling [without]

Air

[Shadowygirl]

And my fav one very personal

You

~ Silence grips my sanity,
memories take me over
and all I can feel is you,
your flesh surging against mine.

You overcome my senses,
and I am lost in my own daydreams of you.

Again.

How could something so crazy,
so unexpected,
feel so right
and so strong'
in so swift a sudden?

Rewind the clocks--
take me back inside your home,
inside your room,
inside your bed.

inside your heart.

Closing my eyes,
I hear music,
over and over,
the music that
we succumbed to

as I bite my own hand in frustration,
wishing it was you
here beside me

Damn it,
why?

Why couldn't we just stay there longer?
Why couldn't we just make the moment last?

This moment, by right, was ours, after all.

You’re hiding in your room,
you’re fingers trembling as you’re hands search through
that small, pale, sacred
frame that is your body,
memories of me holding you tightly
closely to my body
my mouth tearing along your neck,
arms,
sides,
heart.

My love what have you done to me?

The taste of your skin,
stinging sweetly on my tongue,
my God, I'm drowning in you again--

and all I have to do is think of you,
of us,
of that night.
When you let me make love to you,
my heart was shot through
with Cupid's arrow,
and I knew, as I had you at my mercy,
And I at yours

you were the one to numb my senses,
you were the one I wanted to surrender myself to,
you were the one I wanted to be at the tender mercies of,

and so I fulfilled that request,
in turn having my own desires,
my own longings,
my own wishes fulfilled in you.

I'm tormenting myself with thoughts of you.
My insides,
The innermost part of me,
surging again.
I'm haunted by you,
so swiftly, so suddenly, so amazingly.

You
your secret vulnerability
I feel your fertile form, softly spreading, pouring
Drinking your lips like you were the first woman
My smoothly liquid fingers awaken you to love

Stuttering fitfully, rising and falling
You struggle, penetrated with slow writhing rhythm
And I
I try to breathe
Everything that is you
In these few moments
I know I will
Never
Be the same

[Shadowygirl]

Invisible sacrifice

I stood on ice
My heart wide open
Emotional slice
Broke it
Bloody tears
Frozen
Enticed by the water
Invisible sacrifice
Rising out of me
Hollow
Up into the sky
Hope of tomorrow
Heaven now cries
Saw the beauty of my sorrow
Right through my eyes
Eternal love
Filled my eyes
Made me cry
Released my pain
I couldn't hide
It's all over
Sacred strive
Carved forever and ever
In the mystery of life
Invisible sacrifice

[Shadowygirl]

Also an extreamly personal poem , umm the girl this was written for doesn't come to this site so its okay to post and she's never seen it ...
anyhow

here it is




sense it

I’m watching you
you sense it
you sense my presence



Fan on
Cool air
Washing
Over our flesh
Like a wave


I feel vulnerable
Comfortably vulnerable
Anticipation seeps
From my body


In my darkness
I hear your heart pounding
your breath
Rasping against
my neck
As I writhe in expectation
Desire now drowning me


my tongue explores
your shoulders
Slowly
Deliciously
Lingering
sweeping licks


I feel your movement above me
Moving me


The weight of your body against mine
Across my shoulders
Against my hips
A welcome burden

Your heart pounding
just as hard as mine
I can feel you
Touching me

Your body whispering to me
Without words
To touch you

I’m watching you
Wanting you
You can sense it

[SJ]

Great poems.

[Shadowygirl]

This poem I just wrote ... less then 20 mins ago , it has alot of meaning






Insomnia


Well I don't think that I can go to sleep
So I'll just sit here and watch
Shadows flirt against a dark wall and
The little stars peel off a little bit-
And just enough moonlight comes through
The sheer curtains against the window
So you can see your hand if you hold it up.
But it's cold, and I don't care what you say,
You can't make me go to sleep tonight
Not if I don't feel like it anymore.
I'd rather just watch the shadows
And wonder when the stars will fall off
And clouds will cover the moon
And I'll be left in darkness again,
Without you to keep me warm.
No, I'm not going to sleep anymore.
You’re gone ,
I never liked to sleep when I was with you
And you never liked to wake me when I did
I never knew that shadows could be so haunting
So distant even though they are in my room
In my bed
Floating around in my head
Sleeping seems so pointless
I was never one for the dark
To sleep alone in the dark
To feel no warmth beside me
I don’t think I can go to sleep anymore
So I’ll just sit here and watch the sun rise above the houses across the street

[SJ]

Great visualisation in your poetry.