Stace's Poem Thread.

[StaceAngel]

I tore down my other thread cos it got kinda big So! Here i start again, second thread with all new stuff!!

Author for all: StaceAngel formerly known as Wired Vixen

LETS GO!


OPPOSITION

I hope to be your biggest flaw
These stretched out veins carry remorse
My emotions have curled into fists
Sitting in your back pocket
See i could be your amateur
Discorded against the screams of silence
That leak from your mouth and stain the walls
"Don't try to be me and fail"
Maybe i could try to be a page of regret in your journal
The uncut version of your safety guide
Paper cuts against the carved patterns in your fingers
As they drip
Drip
Drip
With knowledge of how to make me disappear
Sometimes i'm your everything
That doesn’t exist after you've flushed it away
Just like this debacle that has become a fairytale
Except the good guy always seems to win.





BREAKUP

Break my mind in two
Show me how heartless you really are
Take all of your frustrations out
On me.
One more night without you
I just don’t see what you see in this...
Raise my hands baby and I’ll scream
If you take my will that surrounds us
I just don't understand what you see in this.
Takes more effort to smile than to cry
Masked by silent screams you can always feel
My name shatters glass and i feel it pierce
My skin, my thoughts, my heart
I just don’t understand what you see in this.
I've had a taste of so many outdated cries
More than enough sunrises I’ve seen from the wrong side
Just take my sun away with you
Just like when you break my mind in two.





OLD BIKE

Meet me at that special place
I'll continue to lock up my bike there
Broken down rusty frame with 2 inch thick wheels
I could carry you around all day
We'll sing with the whistle of the burning tyres
As this forever growing hill courses us toward the distance
Perhaps we'll stop and peel shards of youth from our clothes
Pick up the dragging bloody pieces of our hearts
We accumulated along the way and not questioned why
As our eyelids flutter
Against the wind
That pushes us backward and under
The current that keep our old bike rolling
Until finally all
Stands
Still...



Thank you for reading!


Stace xXx

[Belli Bear]

WHY IT'S THE STACENESS!!!!

*christens ur new thread*

*GRINS* HA! OH YES! I HAVE CLAIMED THE HONOUR OF BEING FIRST FEEDBACKER! MWHAHAHA!

oh how i love these baby Old Bike has to be my aaaalll time favourite but all three are just so unique.. they're brilliant..

I really love the way Opposition opens.. 'i hope to be your biggest flaw'. It's quite a powerful statement.. to want to be someones biggest flaw.. to aspire to be something that brings a person a step further away from perfection.. i really love it.. oh! i can't quite put my finger on why.. but this bit sticks in my mind for ages:

Paper cuts against the carved patterns in your fingers
As they drip
Drip
Drip
With knowledge of how to make me disappear

carved patterns.. i really love that, its such an interesting way to describe fingerprints.. carved.. *smiles* mmm

Breakup is a really ..wow.. kind of poem.. you know? Those ones that you read and immediately go WOW after.. well uh.. i do.. i love this bit:

My name shatters glass and i feel it pierce
My skin, my thoughts, my heart
I just don’t understand what you see in this.

I know you explained them all to me when you first wrote them.. atleast i think you did.. we both know my memory is kinda uh.. broken but reading them again so long afterwards.. they're so fresh and foreign to me again.. *smiles* i really love how your poetry does that.. it's really open to person interpretation.. my thoughts change on ur poems all the time really..

Just take my sun away with you
Just like when you break my mind in two.

they're really *blushes* wow... sentences.. *reads them over and over* i think just the words 'break my mind in two' are what get to me.. it's a really simple way of describing what's going on but they're so.. i don't know.. painful i guess.. i really like this one baby..


and now YAAAAAY! Old Bike this is one of my favourites of your recent poems without a doubt! im uh.. reading through it to try and pick out my favourite part and it's just not working the whole thing is just.. there's so many good parts.. hmm *picks them out*

I could carry you around all day
We'll sing with the whistle of the burning tyres

Perhaps we'll stop and peel shards of youth from our clothes
Pick up the dragging bloody pieces of our hearts
We accumulated along the way and not questioned why

Until finally all
Stands
Still...

the way in which it's written.. its a very classic style of poetry mixed in with obvious contemporary aspects.. i love the idea of peeling shards of youth from our clothing.. i just.. i really just love it all honey you're an amazing talent.. i'm going to make sure that you never stop writing for good.. I'd be so sad if you did..

i tried to make this quick so i could ensure my first feedbackness i hope i've succeeded heeeh..

i love you baby *grins* i get to talk to you in 2hrs, weeeeee

now.. traditionally..

[center]UPDATE! UPDATE! UPDATE! UPDATE! UPDATE![/center]

heeeeh.. i miss you.. *smiles* love you aalways..

- Belli XxX

[SJ]

Great poems.

[StaceAngel]

Okay, its been a while! But here is more poooemness.


Be gentle.






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[center]As you sleep you dream
Every motion played out
Against the crease of your brow
I trace every thought tenderly
Taking into consideration
You’re opaque in mind and soul
You see one thing I’ve learned to respect
Is a closed pair of eyes, but an open heart
Exposed; your chest lies open and I try
With every ounce of courage to climb in
Merge my hopes and fears with streams of sighs
Penetrated by the seedy air as you lay there
Beautiful and engorged in stone
It’s around this time that I realize
Only I have access to the threads of a dream world
And your lips I kiss
As you turn over and smile serenely, completely
Involved in the creases of our bed
The centerfold.[/center]









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[center]This is my time
To reflect back on this life
And write.

A year and a half ago
I had a completely different outlook
On relationships, love; her.
Empty shell of love and appraisal
She stood over me and took my hands
Loved me with what she thought was everything.

Funny that.

Four solid months of life changing tears
Laughter
Fights
Frustration
And lest we forget… her accent.

But see then… she lost her footing and I gained a step
Took in the scenery and found you amongst the people.
Our idols took us to the side and enlightened
Every aspect of our friendship.
Slowly I melted into you mercilessly
My heart on a hook and you held the rod so tightly
All I heard echoing through my mind was a piano
With one touch you shook my world

I became alight.

Never once did I kiss you.
Touch you
Or put one foot wrong.

I may not have truly loved her but I was never out to hurt her so badly.

Hurt wasn’t on the cards
But I wasn’t prepared…

I dealt with my stresses wrong and emphasized the smaller parts.

She took my hands and tore them from her chest
Looked once at me and cried a stream
I was to blame.

But I didn’t feel that much guilt.

But you my love…
Stop the world from moving
I cry happily at random times in bed
All because I turn to the right and feel you
I need you.

Kissing you,
Is the soul reason
The bare existence
The never ending ache
I suffer
Because in a world of poverty and destruction
You’re my safe house
And for the rest of my life
You’ll keep me sheltered and I…

I love you.

I broke a heart and mended another

I’m harsh and I feel that reality…
Has now blessed me,

You are mine.
That is all that counts.[/center]


The last one isn't really a poem but a collection of thoughts.


Give me some feedback and i'll send you a free pencil


Stace xXx






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[Thianne]

Your poems are beautiful. I especially liked Old bike and Opposition. I'd love to read more, you're really talented

[SJ]

Powerful words,great poetry.

[StaceAngel]

Hey guys! Okay so i have more, i'm writing like a crazy fool...being..somewhat crazy... uh...

Thianne: Hello Thank you so much for the fb! and for the lil kiss *blushes a lil* heeeh! I'm really glad you liked them! Here's summore!

SJ: I love your fb ... every time i post i just know you'll be there with your precise words! Thank you so much ..



JEALOUSY!


I stand hand in hand
With jealousy
But i trust her more
Than she trusts me
She has so many reasons
To keep me on a leash
When i'm down she helps
To keep my ego at peace
Selfish and indignant
The words I bounce off the floor
Polished by the stains
Of my ever resonating flaw
She thinks she stands
Hand in hand with me
Calling the shots
Crescending jealousy
Little does she know
I change with the scene
So many emotions
Have place over green
She really likes me
Obsesses over my lover
Needs me between the sheets
She resides under the covers
Clear minds find time
To create her vendetta
Machiavellian villian
My newest trend setter
She fakes honesty
Claims to know how to love
So naive to the truth
Jealousy makes my heart rust.




SHDFJ! My cat just jumped at me i apologise...




Father.

I think my eyes are open
And im pretty sure im tired
We've been sitting here for 18 years
You act condescending
You're fucking God Almighty
Telling her how she's nothing and a waste at that

Yet every single day is the same
A smile is only temporary
Until she speaks to me
She'll sit there once again
Silently she kills you with every stare

My world sits on the tip of a knife.
I swear its easier to rhyme
Than to face the stairs which lead me
To your depression and solitude

She is my mother and don't you forget.
To you she's just this bitch that nags
In fact she tells it like it is
Of course another night and still
A plate will not go unsmashed.

Just the other day we played a game
Scrabble...simple as..
You threw the board because you lost
What kind of father figure does that?

Yet every single day is the same
A smile is only temporary
Until she speaks to me
She'll sit there once again
Silently she kills you with every stare

You never see her tears do you?
She's my mother, my father
You...i have your nose they say.
And even possibly your brain.

I'm pretty sure she cries herself
To sleep sometimes.
I don't know how to help because i'm scared
Of that underlying hand i know would involuntarily
Strike.

Her sorrow leaves a bitter taste
Father a bitter taste
Its not our faults you're a waste
A waste of space
A waste of oxygen and flesh
A waste of a figure

You're supposed to be a father

And you are.

But you are not my dad.












*sighs*



Thank you for reading. :X



Stace xXx

[Bound2Her]

great poetry!

[Belli Bear]

wow.. that last one was so sad.. he threw the board? god. *doesnt get into this here* whaaaatever.

i'm really glad you posted jealousy *grins* as it remains on the wall of ur poemness i have in my room where all my favourite ones sit for me to read whenever im cleanin my room and such and woooow that was a long and weird sentence... i need to shower wake myself up even though i've been awake for like.. 7hrs IN ANY CASE! expect proper feedback next time promise

i love you...

-yoursXxX

[SJ]

Great poems,great expressive writing.

[StaceAngel]

Hey all, thank you for your comments!

Bound2her: I'm real glad you enjoyed them and thank you for reading!

Bear: Honey you know my dad he hasnt changed since you last saw him meh! Sokay, i get private fb from you and i love you *sighs*

SJ: Thank you for your fb! I really appreciate it!




So, more?



Distance melts
When you and i grasp
With both hands.
Slowly, lowered into cotton sheets
Every prayer answered
We are raw.
Theres too much heat and desire
Flecked with pain
Just behind the eyes
We both suffer.
Moulds become wax that shift
Stutter and unshape
Moans, roars and grunts of nature
Splay fingers around our hearts
Enraptured; Euthoria.
Successively we press boundaries
One movement, one moment
One push
Thrust
Feeling

Gone...

Covers wrecked
Bodies wracked
Shivering and stalling
Fluid sexual need composed
By sweltering tears.
We huddle and keep warm
But somehow i can never stop myself
From being human
Breaking, broken and useless.

You a brave warrior to my heart
Myself
Feeble and disgraced

Your heart in a bubble
My heart on my sleeve

Weighed stability.






Just the one... i hope you like it..


Stace xXx

[SJ]

Great poems.

[Belli Bear]

like i told you on the phone..

all mixed up into one big ball of memories and emotion...

*sighs*

atleast its almost 2007 *smiles softly to herself* that will be a very very good beginning for us...

i love you starfish lady

-yours

[StaceAngel]

Hey all,

SJ, Belli, thank you for your comments.

Here's some more:



Soft, alluring
Obsequious in all forms
Friendship at its best
Gently drawn from the pickings
Slap dash against a heart

(but i've seen the enemy)

You need friends.
They keep you from falling
Into places you don't want to
Touch
Or even acknowledge.

Alone.

(but i've seen the enemy)

So why is it
You will always find
A bad apple amongst the tree?

(but i've met a friend)

Somehow i never doubted
The one thing in life
We can never have enough of
Or perhaps not want during a lifetime
Either way


Set aside from love



Would ever hurt me beyond trace.


Here i am
Splintered along the centre
Cracking skin and sore lips

I've seen the enemy.

I've pressed bodies with the rival.
I've sworn and laughed and cried
With the hated



My friend,

The enemy.





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Look at yourself
What have you done?
What have you become?

I see now, the appeal and the fixture
A cry for attention? a cry in itself
Metallic, shining and placid
Just enough time to find a reflection

Look at yourself
What have you done?
What have you become?

Funny thing life
What happens when it dies?
You're moving through motions
While your heart weeps alone.

Yes it weeps alone.

Smile, laugh
For God's sake bear your teeth!
They wont know i promise
I promise they wont
Just stay alive a little longer for me

Can you see me?
I cant see myself.
Can you feel me?
I can't feel myself.

Yet the cold shiver of the lino
Makes a piercing realisation
Its the dark isnt it?
The darkness you crave
Where you lose track of the days
Your friends and family oblivious
To a shell.

Look at yourself
What have you done?
What have you become?








Thanks for reading.


Stace xXx

[SJ]

Great poetry.

[StaceAngel]

Hey, thank you SJ for reading!

Okay this hasnt been edited or anything, its just.. thoughts..






[center]She doesnt bear comparison.
Truth is, nothing actually compares
To the one you love
Does it?
She has the lightest of blue eyes
They cry for attention when she smiles
They make you feel at home
Inside their look of excitement and wonder.

She's fresh off the cute band wagon although she'll never admit
Her hair flicks the way you like it
Red and dead straight
But it hides her face some days
The light can never capture how beautiful she really is

Everybody is just a stranger
But not her...

She'll smile and suddenly you feel like
you've known her all your life.

She'll sit with you and study your posture
Cracking jokes that make you smile
Just because its her.
Fries to her are objects of opportunity
Too bad theres so many
Impossible to take them away
She bites her lip and the game is on
Time just...stops.

How can you forget how wonderful she is
When every day she gives you new reasons to smile.

Her sleepy smile would slay the toughest crowd
Don't you dare move, she'll get you
Tight in her grip with yummy noises
They'll make you melt you'll forget your responsibilities
Stay in bed another five minutes...
How could you refuse?

A girl like her doesnt go ignored
She's a goddess.
Don't move.

She'll break your heart though
Don't you ever forget it.
Don't let her bite her lip
Or allow her eyes to sink
Her pout is so pittiful your swooning heart
Will go crack...boom... split.

Guard hers with your life
Hold it with your hands
Place it close in your chest
Never let her go.

Do you understand?

Oh...then theres the hour
Ungodly.. sinful hour
She'll shine her true light and growl
Such the seductress at five foot four
And a half.. the half makes it five you know.

When she's in the mood she is as sleek as silk
Pressing her way over your body and finding the bed
And you'll find when she touches you
You end up in flames
She'll lick them out and hold you
As you fall back down to her plane.


Always, you'll feel
No comparison will do
but then again-


Everybody is just a stranger

Not her...

She'll smile and suddenly you feel like
you've known her all your life.[/center]





*smiles*



Stace xXx

[Belli Bear]

wooooah *looks down and goes 'heh'*

heh... i love you so much

*runs away blushing* god that was so sweet and perfect aaaaaaah im gonna diiieee im gonna diiieee i cant stop!!! im seriously all red! baby! *pouts* u made me red! but i love you anyway

*goes back to read it over and over again* heh..

[SJ]

Great poem.

[StaceAngel]

Hey guys, thanks for the feedback.

Here some more stuff, i needed to just.. release this all...




There were days we saw the sun set and rise
From the foot of your bed as we laughed about life
And spilled out our inner thoughts.
Now I sit alone in my purest hour
Writing like we used to
Wishing you were here with me.

Nobody ever understood why I did those things
Or why we spoke in secret giggles
Our obsession with the magicks and fairytales
Or why the roses climbed your bedroom door.
All I know, is that those nights that stood sacred
Between the park bench and swings
Where we used to drink and play devil’s advocate
With the police and the grey concrete
Have all been washed away with our distance
Both emotionally, physically… painfully.

You were my sister, my family and soul mate
Inseperable by nature, connected by our hands
In sync with our knowledge and teachings
And most of all, when you cried, I’d die a little inside.

Now all I had has gone.
All I have is none.

Dear friend, what have we become?



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When I pushed our boundaries
You stepped aside and laid down your form
I walked all over you with muddy footprints
What I didn’t see was the stain I left on your heart
And now I hate me.
If I told you it wasn’t really me
It wasn’t how I felt or wanted it to be
I never meant to say those things or tease
Or lose the right to play a part in our friendship
Would you believe me?
I’ve cried, so much
The pain I felt
- never comparable-
…Took a lot out of me.

I can’t sleep properly
Nor can I forget how much I hurt you
And I’m not asking for forgiveness
Just that you hear me
Just hear me, please.


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Stop, I fell in again
Immersed myself in black waters
Soaking me like downpour
I am a brick, sinking
Releasing one finger at a time

I am me
Alone, just a person
Swimming in the wide open
Help, I can’t find my truth
Blurry eyes search for you

Wait, one moment for me
I can only gather myself
One piece at a time
I am broken
Succinct with flowing waters

Hold, my heart to the sun
Let it guide your way to me
I am drowning silently

So stop.

I fell again,

Immersed myself in me.





Thanks.

Stace xXx

[SJ]

Great poems.

[StaceAngel]

Hey guys

Its been a while. I haven't really been able to write anything for a long while, but this piece just wrote itself, so... in a bid to get the muse in action again, i'm going to put this out here and see how it all goes!



[center]This may be the most important moment of my life
I must commit.

At the end of my thoughts I feel you
This wave of utter bliss and chalky residue
This may be the smallest change with the biggest difference
I must adhere.

Every night I’m swarmed with a desperate heat
Pulls me along the ceilings as you sleep
This may be the bluntest struggle my soul will make to stay
I must breathe.

In all ways, I always destroy myself in your memory
If I would let myself be, I may allow myself to be free
This may be the sharpest tug of the knife against my darkened skies
I must obscure.

I felt your hands rummage through my shame, moving things around
Breaking the back of my resolve and its barriers down
This may be the hardest way to fill the easiest hole in our damaged connection

But we will survive.[/center]






Thanks for reading.

Stace xXx

[SJ]

Great poem.