Poems all kinds mixed up

[shadowygirl]

Goodbye



It seems its been forever now

Since you went away

Stolen from this place



There’s something’s I won't forget

Like the way you joked or

the gentle way you're love showed

how much you really cared



And I close my eyes

I’ll close my mind

And I remember your sweet face

Those soulful eye

And the laugh that made me smile for days



And you know I haven’t said goodbye

I’m not sure I know how

I never thought of the day

I’d have to let you go

I’d really have to let you go away



So I'm writing this to let you go

To finally say goodbye

Just know I love you

from now and for all time

Goodbye



That was for my Uncle Neil , Hope ya'll like



Luv April

[shadowygirl]

Ok this poem sounds way angry

and I really have no Idea where it came from but I was typing and typing and laughing and this is what came out of it , I think I'm just way odd tonight.......



Make you crazy



I can’t take the rambled thoughts of you

Mixed up

Good and bad

Here and there

Why don’t you just tell me

Tell me what’s on your mind

Tell me that you hate me

Yell at me

Scream at me

Break me

Again

You know you've made a mess

I’m not going away

You can crush me

Shatter me

Smash me

I’m gonna stick around

And watch your life crash down

I’m gonna watch your world fall away

And with this sarcastic smile

I’m gonna mock you

Laugh at you

Tell you you’re nothing

Just like all those times you told me

All those times you hated me

I was just your bitch until you broke me

Now I’m gonna watch you’re life crash down

And I’m gonna laugh

I’m gonna mock you

Till you loose you’re mind

Till I make you crazy







Luv April and no worries this wasn't towards anyone



Love you babe

[sam darls]

April..these past few poems were amazing..and so heart felt. I loved them. Love sammi xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

[shadowygirl]

OK ya'll I wrote these and I wasn't gonna post them here cause I have alot of friends on here and didn't want them thinking I'm going crazy lol Cause I'm not going crazy I just needed to get this out and I did and well here they are ...

The first one (Mess you've made) was about things something on TV things in life just everything and I thought it came out alright VERY DARK

the second one(Me In the mirror) is also DARK if you dont like Dark poetry dont read these ....



so here they are Tell me what ya think please ....



Mess you’ve made



Look at the mess you’ve made

Are you laughing as you watch my life stream flow from my wrists

The red heat that’s keeping me alive pour from my body

Are you going to smile as you watch my soul leave my eyes

As I fall limp to the floor

Staining the ceramic tile

Don’t you think its funny

How one moment I’m yelling

Then crying

And now I’m dieing

I see you’re smirk

The one you used to use whenever I’d loose my mind

All this mess is because of you

When you wipe it up

Use the mop

You’ll pretend to cry

I would have done this in the tub

So you could just wash away this mess you’ve made

But I figured I’d give you something to do

While my body cooled

I bet you hate that I’ve done this

Not because you’ve lost me

But because you have to clean this

All cause I couldn’t take your sarcastic love

Once I was you’re everything

Now I’m just this mess you’ve made







~~~~~~~





Me in the mirror



I see you sitting there staring back at me

Mocking me

If you could you would laugh at me

What a fool

you would say if you could speak

What a stupid little fool

You care to much about what they say

You care to much about what they do

And do they care about you ?

NO

Why would they when your just a little mess up

Screw up

A waste of their time

A mistake at best

God I wanna beat you down

Make you stop staring at me

There’s nothing I can do

This is who I am

I care to much

But you

YOU GET TO ME

Try to tell me what to do

Tell me “Don’t let them hunt you down”

And they hurt me with the way they care

But there’s nothing I can do

They have this power over me

AND I HATE YOU

I look at you again

Still you’re staring at me

I punch you finally

Then I fall with pain

Sharp pain in my hand

Blood pouring from my knuckles

But finally you’re not there

staring back at me

You’re smashed in pieces on the floor

And I won’t have to answer to you

Till they fix that mirror again

Then you’ll be back haunting me

With your cruel , harsh

Hateful looks

And the ways you wreck my mind



Luv April

[SJ]

Liked all your poems,yeah those are pretty dark,great writing

[sam darls]

Wow..they were very impressive. I liked them Love sammi xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

[onyxsundrops]

I like dark poetry, so that was great! I really enjoyed the 'mess' poem.



Yvonne

[Spikeizmine87]

hey! Ive read all of your latest poems and i just gotta say, well don! Bravo! hip hip and all that! I loved all of them!! Thanks for sharing! Write on!

-Rose

The only thing I hate in the world, is people who are dishonest with themselves. And people who smell.

[shadowygirl]

Ok Ya'll thanks for your lovely feedback I'm glad ya enjoyed , but here is something a lil bit lighter , I've been having bad nights and there is one person that makes everything alright , Arron , I love you babe so much .....









Not gonna make it



Am I gonna make it out of this alive

Living every day as much as I can

Breathing , sleeping , walking ,

Talking only when I have to

Eating only when I’m told to

Am I gonna make it through tonight

This pain that’s ripping me apart inside

This darkness taking over

I hope I can make it till the light

Everything will be ok again

Once the sun is shining

I see the first rays and pray

I see the street lights go out and hope

The sun is almost here

I don’t think I can hold on

Hold out

I’m not gonna make it

Then there you are

Coming in to save the day

Making my life

And this darkness ok

Stopping the wrenching pain

That was tearing me apart

You’re there

My light

My shining star

In the blackest night sky







Luv April

[SJ]

Liked that poem,great expressive writing

[shadowygirl]

Ok SJ thanks for reading heh ... now onto another poem My Coz needed something for a paper something sad and heart breaking and something about Abuse and why people put up with it .... this is all I could come up with hope ya like ....





For All Time



Damned to love you for eternity

Tattered and torn

Ripped apart by the love you give

I’ll stand here and take your harsh words

As they slap me in the face

Knock me down and kick me

And the clock strikes a thousand years

Till you’ll let me go

Yet I can’t walk away

I can’t even move

A life time of bitter sweet tears roll down my face

As you say you love me

Then hurt me all over again

And like a falling snowflake

cold and alone

I fall to your feet

And beg you not to leave me

Why do I stay

Why do I listen to the hateful words that break me

Because I love you

Because you hold my heart

And without you I am nothing

[SJ]

Great poem,powerful writing

[shadowygirl]

Thanks again SJ here are some more ya'll





Truth …..



The more of this life I see

The less of this world I know

The more truth people forge

The more I see their lies

Everything I had known

isn’t what it seems to be

I had thought there was a Santa ,

He wasn’t who I was told he was

I thought there was an Easter bunny ,

he wasn’t who I thought he was

My parents taught me what was right

Or what they thought was right

But all it is, is lies

I learn more and more everyday

The more I run and scream

The more I fight with this world,

the more I know there’s nothing to be done

And here I sit and watch it pass me by

And wonder when the truth will come along

If It’ll knock me off my feet

Is there even one out there

A truth to be found

And will I ever find it







Uneasy Feelings .



Uneasy feelings at night

And I wake to the harsh reality that your not here

I walk around restless for hours

Trying to find ways to pass the time

Its amazing how boring the sweetest things seem

when you can’t ease your mind

I call to hear your phone ring

Then the tired sound of your voice asks if I’m alright

I say yeah to set your mind at ease

Then tell you to go back to sleep

You agree and say I love you then I hear the dial tone

I hate that dial tone

I hate the words goodnight

I hate waking up reaching out for you in the middle of the night

The cold harsh dark times when the moments turn to hours

I don’t like when I’m tired and just wanna be held

I never used to be this way

My room was my safe place

The place I never felt alone

Now it’s the loneliest place I know

Time will bring you to me

soon I know

But I don’t wanna wait no more

I can love you any way you want me to

Just please don’t make me wake again without you







Hand in Hand



Can you hold on

For the both of us

can you stay strong

Here comes the crash

Hold on

don’t loose me

don’t let go

Give me your hand

Link you’re fingers through mine

And I promise not to loose you

We are all we have

in this bitter cruel world

Here comes the breaking point

Can you forget about the past

Forget about the pain in your life

don’t mention it again

And walk into the next life

With me

Hand in hand .







Mystery



You’re this mystery that’s taken over me

Slowly crept into my soul

Swept away my heart

You’ve made a home for me

So here I am in the pouring rain

Finally taking back my heart

Look what you’ve done to me

You love me

You broke me

You made this mess of me

And I can’t get enough

You’re a puzzle missing pieces

And I get forever to find you

Here we are at the start of our life

I can feel forever in this moment

My everything is what I see

This is the starting point

Here we go

[shadowygirl]

This one is a lil hmmm Spicey ? lol I have no idea its just as some would say Smutty ! heh hope ya like







The way you move



Oh the way you move

The tiny sway in your hips

The curve in your waist

The way your hands glide along your skin

Without even thinking

Oh the smoothness of your body

The way your fingers tickle you

Sending chills up and down my spine

every time I see you I wanna touch you

I wanna taste you

Starting at your lips , jaw , neck , shoulders , chest , stomach ,

Moving farther down

God I wanna taste you

But first I wanna tease you

I know you want me to

Want me to run my hands all over you

I can see it in your eyes

Feel it in the way you move

And I’m gonna wait until your breathing shallows

Almost until your gasping

Silently begging me to touch you more

Begging me to take you there

Then I will

I’ll take you there

I’ll make you scream







Love April

[SJ]

Great poems,I like the contrast in your writing

[sam darls]

That was so good I loved it.Love sammi xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

[shadowygirl]

SJ and SAM thanks for reading glad you liked



so here are a few more

the first one is a contest poem they needed something darker and deep so I wrote that

Second one is of course for Arron I love you baby

and the third one is just thoughts of a dream I had

hope ya'll enjoy



chow for now be good lil kittens







My life and me



Slowly crushing me

Breaking me

Shattering my soul

Fighting with this life

To be the girl I used to be

Kicking, screaming , begging

Not to go

Let me stay I won’t hurt you

But you will

My inner thoughts are making me

Crazier then I thought I’d be

I’ll fall upon my weakened knees

And pray for a stop to this

An end to this

Love me

Hate me

Do what you will

Sitting here pleading for life to go

To stop

For it to turn round

I don’t really know

No more of this

Please

And that pesky person in my head

Tells me that you hate me

When you love me

Tells me not to break me

Break you

But you’re me

What do I do

In this darkest moment of my life

When your there fighting me

Trying to make me

Someone I don’t wanna be







~~~~~~





Bliss



I’ll delicately touch you

Run my hands over your flushed skin

Then I’ll kiss you

I wanna taste you on my lips forever

Take a shaky breath

My god your beautiful

Angelic tonight

I wanna gently move with you

Scared that I might hurt you

Your skin glistens with soft beads of sweat

Tears shine in my eyes

I wanna watch you

As you quietly tremble

My fingers run across you

Over you

Then in you

Soft silent gasps

As I tumble with you

Into amazing moments of bliss



~~~~~



Wrecked



The sounds

The whispers

Shadows on the wall

Of those haunting things

from my dreams

Moments of my past

Seconds changed my life

Please can you stop this

Before it wrecks me

Wicked storms in my head

Making a mess out of this

This life that’s supposed to mean something

And its not

Its added up to nothing

I’ll stand here and wait for the end

Wrecked and damaged

Unless you save me



~~~~~~



LOVE APRIL !!!!!!!!!!

[TemperedCynic]

Arron is a veeeery lucky woman.

---

More than any other time in history, mankind faces a crossroads. One path leads to despair and utter hopelessness. The other, to total extinction. Let us pray we have the wisdom to choose correctly. Woody Allen (1935 - )

[Taras Shadow]

Wow April!



All of these are so powerful. Bliss is just

and Wrecked blew me away.



I love your poetry. Thank you for sharing them.



CCR!!



~Holly~

Baby, baby, baby when all you're love is gone, who will save me from all I'm up against out in this world

- Bright Lights - Matchbox Twenty

[shadowygirl]

Mike heh I still say I'm the lucky one heh .thanks for reading ....



Holly Thanks for reading means a bunch , glad you liked them ...CCR!!!!!! :P





more soon ya'll

Luv April

[SJ]

Those three poems are great

[shadowygirl]

Thanks again SJ



More now



To Arron my love ......

I love you even though I might get snippy or distant I love you hunny .....



I love you



Those times when I’m not sure

Even if I’m insecure

And when my eyes are closed

Or I’m having bad nightmares

I love you



I won’t run from you

Don’t worry I’ll be here

I’ll take your hand

And catch you if you fall

Even when I’m scared

Or wanting to hide away

don’t worry

Because I love you



If you wanna run go right ahead

I’ll be here when your done

Just remember

When times are hard

Life is rough

And you don’t think you’ll make it through

I love you









Luv April

[SJ]

Lovely poem

[shadowygirl]

Thanks for reading SJ



Ok I know I should post happy sappy stuff since I'm happy at the moment but it seems easier to write about the horrible things in peoples lives or feelings, fears , doubts .... So thats what I write about heh hope ya'll like em



~~~~~~



*trip to nowhere*



Close your eyes ,

Make sure they don’t see you cry

Change your mind

don’t look back now

Keep on walking

A few more feet

Time will go by quickly

And you’re car is missing

Its gonna take longer

to get to nowhere

A trip to nowhere

And why the rush?

Your in a hurry to live your life

don’t stop now

You’ll get there soon enough

You’ll get there if you try

Hide your fake smile

Make sure your tears don’t show

Make sure they don’t see you cry

On your lonely trip to nowhere



~~~~~~~

~ dreaming ~



Tell me I’m dreaming

And I’ll never be awake

I’ll sleep this life away

If it means you’ll stay the night

Tell me anything you can

Tell me lies

you have to

you have to

Just tell me that I’m dreaming

Its so cold to be awake

In this thunder storm

Day time

nightmare

So tell me that I’m dreaming

And I’ll sleep my life away

There

Its your face

Again

Haunting me

And your gentle touch is just to far away

Even in my dreams

its just to far away

Emptiness

And I’ve lost it

Totally

Lost my mind

Knowing I’m not dreaming

Wishing you’d come back

And the only comfort

The hellish night mares

that bring you next to me

Bring you here

So tell me that I’m dreaming

And I’ll sleep this life away

~~~~~~~~~



~ Forgive me ~



Forgive me for my fear of loosing

My twisted thoughts

Trying to watch you

Watch you as you walk away

Frightening fights

And fears

Painful moments and memories

I would give anything

again

Meaning you were here

Now I see your back

Forgive me for the trembling thoughts

I shared with you

The nights before you left

Forgive me for the harsh words

That I threw at you

Thinking you could take it

Thinking you would laugh it off

Forgive me for the hate

That you shared

That you showed

For the hate that you feel

For me

Forgive me

[shadowygirl]

OK this one I just wrote and its a lil long but I really liked it for some reason heh its how I used to be and its what I see when I look at some people just thought I would share ....





~ Never be seen ~





I’m hiding in a corner

With my arms crossed

Head down

Head phones on

I don’t need these people to see



Its not so bad being alone

This way no one gets hurt

I’m just a shadow anyhow

To those that matter



Might be lonely in my little world

But I have things to keep me company



And I’m the girl you see

But walk through

And I’m the girl you like

But hate

The one you talk at

Instead of to

And I’m that girl who speaks

But is never heard

I am that girl



The one on every corner

In every mall

The one that catches your eye

But you keep on walking

I’m the one with the sad smile

And the bitter eyes

Maybe the girl you grew up with

I’ll keep my head down

And stay out of your way

You’ll bump into me

Say your sorry

Keep on walking

Never really noticed me

Just an object in your way





I am the girl that will never be seen





~~~~~~



Hope ya'l like tell me what ya think



Luv April

[Oracle Of Magic]

Oh my god, that is amazing. The feelings, the intensity was almost more than I could bear. "Dreamin" put to paper just how i feel sometimes. You are amazing, please, write more. Thank you for sharing these great poems with us.



Blessed Be,

Sarah

[Spikeizmine87]

APRIL!!

HEY! I know ive been reading your poems forever and never knew who you were and now that i know who you are i like the poems even more! I love the way you write and I cant get enough! Thanks for sharing! Write on!

-Rose

Please dont let my name fool you, I really am a lesbian! willowntara247@yahoo.com (my email addy!)

[SJ]

I liked all those poems,great writing

[WhiteSkyFire]

Hey April.. really like your writing girl.



Sky

[sam darls]

That was so good april..I love it Love sammi xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)