Rhiannons Fragments of Lucidity

[Rhiannon9891]

I Am Bound

You were witness to my crucifixion

Yet I live - without a soul

You were witness to my crucifixion

Will you free me from my cross



This cross weighs me down

This life without you

This cross weighs me down

This life without soul



I need to live again

To touch the sun

I need to live again

Or die I will cold



I feel this is wrong

A future of alone

I feel this is wrong

Not being with you



Will you help me in my resurrection

I do not know how

Will you help me in my resurrection

To your soul - I am bound





Rhiannon

She is like a cat in the dark

And then she is the darkness

[DreamLover]

Rhiannon,



I'm the first to post and I'm the first to say it. I'm glad you are posting your work. It's so powerful and deep. It really is wonderful



for the new writer of poetry



Can't wait for more.



Henny

[Wired vixen]

Ooooohh....that was goooood!

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I need to live again

To touch the sun

I need to live again

Or die I will cold

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I liked that part especially, the repitition really gets your point across, good stuff!



Stace xXx

I've been waiting, for things that never come.... -VD

[skittles]

Rhiannon, This is Good!!! and I agree that the repetition reinforces the feeling... emphasizes it.



Yes, we want to see more...

skittles



"The problem with political jokes is how often they get elected."



"Closed minds always seem to be connected to open mouths"

[Urn of Osiris]

I like to think that poetry is all a state of mind. I could read hope and despair in this piece each time I looked at it. It's an interesting balance of emotion and you handled it nicely. The use of repetition works in this poem. It gives it dimension. It's very sad and I actually like poetry that makes me feel that way.



This is good. I look forward to reading more.

Urn of OsirisA new idea is delicate. It can be killed by a sneer or a yawn; it can be stabbed to death by a joke or worried to death by a frown on the right person's brow. Charles Brower

[robotguru]

Wow, that is just, wow. Seems that i am reading a lot of dark poetry today (or that could just be my outlook, a lot of mine is dark also) but this poem is honest and i can feel the emotions. Please, if you have more, then post it.

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There can be no rainbow without rain, you cannot know true happiness until you know sadness first.

[nazelhuts]

i agree to the posting more! great poem.

when life boils your kettle, make tea!

[tybee317]

Well done, Rhiannon. Please post more. The themes of crucifixion and resurrection were very vivid reminders of my parochial school.

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"I'm as pure as the driven slush". Tallulah Bankhead

[Rhiannon9891]

DREAMLOVER

Henny - Yes you are the first to post...you are now officially my #1 fan.(wow, I have fans??? ).

Thank you for your kind words and encouragement and thanks for the roses,talk to ya later..



Wired vixen - Stace,thank you...I thought the repetition worked well also.



Skittles(Rhiannon runs and hugs Skittles).

Thank you - I'm so glad you liked it,as I said to Stace...I thought the repetition emphasized the feeling. Wow - a dozen and a half roses..



Urn of Osiris - Wow...what a compliment...coming from you...that's just...WOW...Thank You. (I love your work).

Yes,I think anytime a word is written it should derive from the state of mind/emotion that is driving it...otherwise it just seems false or forced.Yes, I am at a crossroads in my life...hence the hope and despair.

If you like dark/sad stuff...stick around(though it probably won't be as good as yours).



robotguru - Thank you - wow I got 2 wows from robotguru...

yes, I seem to write a lot of dark stuff too.

more coming up.



nazelhuts - (dyslexic much?)

Thank you so much..more up next.



Hi tybee317 -Thank you - Glad you liked.I was sure people would see it that way.Although it's not meant as any direct relation to religion...I just like to play on main stream themes and go some where else.

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NEVER



If I never met you

I would be ok

If I never met you

It would be just another day



I knew my life was fine

I thought my life was grand

Then I saw you

And a new life began



I needed to be near you

For my eyes to be graced

I needed just to hear you

Your voice, my ears would embrace



I hungered for your body

I needed it to hold

Then you gave me everything

Now together we are gold



Through the years

My love grew complacent

Through our tears

My love grew all too content



Though my mind had it's fears

I never thought that they'd be met

Yet in the midst of our lives endeavors

You met the face of death



Now here alone I sit

Pleading to be with you

The bullet waiting to be hit

But no, you'd want me to continue



If I never met you

I would be ok

If I never met you

It would be just another day



If I never met you

I would never know

What love has to say

But now I have been told



Rhiannon

She is like a cat in the dark

And then she is the darkness

[SJ]

Wow,great poems,thanks for sharing

[DreamLover]

Rhainnon,



Now I'm I'm your #1 fan

YES!!!!! I am your #1 fan and I'm proud of it.



You all ready know what I think of this one but still I'm going to say it. It is so deep and full of emotions. This part say's it all.

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If I never met you

I would be ok

If I never met you

It would be just another day



If I never met you

I would never know

What love has to say

But now I have been told

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For me personally it means:

If you never take the first step and you will never open up yourself. You will never know what love really is. Love can be so beautiful. (I think you know what I mean with those words, I'm trying to say.)



Keep writing you have got talent and I can't wait for more



Henny

[RoseWitch]

Ok My Rhiannon I must I'm very much impressed I will now be your #2 biggest fan I love the newest one. When did you write this? It's very good and shows how much you've grown from you love.

-Muse

[WickedReds]

Rhiannons... i see u started a thread... I would of been happy to help u with it... but i just got ur msg in my ezmail box the other day and i sorry about what happend ... i seem to be a month to late... cause thats when all the stuff happend to me... but thats in the past.. to ur stuff. it has so much emotions and i could feel it... love it all... cant wait to read more..



-reds



Meine Banane tanzt für Rußflocke 

Smutbunny Anthem: *sung to tune from Goldfinger* Smutbunnies...they'e the bunnies, the bunnies that love the smut...and Willow's butt. They surf for smut fiction...always lookin' for the next naked sweaty fix...of Tara's tits.- Written By Cameron(tarawhipped) For Us Smut Bunnies

[skittles]

Rhiannon, I love your poetry.



It is so beautifully eloquent. I stand awestruck at your words...



KEEP WRITING!!



EDITED TO ADD:

Well, hurry up!! I'm waiting!!!

skittles



"The problem with political jokes is how often they get elected."



"Closed minds always seem to be connected to open mouths"

Edited by: skittles at: 1/25/05 7:02 pm

[Rhiannon9891]

SJ - You're welcome and thank you



#1 Fan - DreamLover, Henny baby

I'm glad that you like it. You're right..if you don't take a chance you'll never know what it feels like to be in love and also you'll never know what it feels like to lose love...



#2 Fan - RoseWitch...Hey Muse...

Thank you...It was written 9/04.



WickedReds - Hey Gina, yes I finally got the nerve to post.Thanks for the offer..when I get stuck..I'll call on you.

I'm glad you like them...coming from you,that means alot,Thank you.



Skittles - Beautifully Eloquent...

Awestruck...

uummm uummm Thank You so much...

I'm glad you liked it.



One more up next:





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NOTHING SPECIAL





The alarm rings again

You leave our bed

Slip into your robe

Then a kiss with a "Good morning"

Yet here I still lie

Listening to the sounds

Your day is beginning

Muffled noises

The dogs and cats you are feeding

Silently drifting to me

The pleasant aroma of coffee

The shower turns on

And I drift off.



A gentle kiss awakes me

I slowly sit up

As the warm brew is offered

"You look nice" you smile and say "Thank you"

You ask of my plans for the day

"The usual...nothing special"

"Please be careful"

"You too, love, and have a good day"

We kiss and hug

"I wish you could stay" is whispered

"Maybe someday" is the normal reply

Yet here I still sit

I gaze out the window

As you drive away

With a somber smile

I send you my love

Now I begin

And ponder my day.



It's somewhere past noon

My cell phone alerts me

Your voice and I smile

"Hello, my love, I miss you, how is your day?"

"I miss you too, the usual...nothing special"

We discuss our day...our separate time

"I have to go now, love...I'll call you later"

"OK, I love you...bye.



The phone to my ear

It's now nearing six

"I'm on my way home, love"

"OK, I'll see you there"

We meet in the kitchen

While preparing our meal

We compare our days venture

"You think my day was better?"

"It was just the usual...nothing special".



We snuggle in bed

Kiss and say our good nights

"I love you so much, my love"

"I don't know why...I'm nothing special"

I smile and just hold her tighter

Now time has passed by

Yet here I still sit

And all that I wish

Is that I still had my

Nothing special.





Rhiannon 1/23/05

She is like a cat in the dark

And then she is the darkness

[skittles]

Rhiannon,



I can see your day, so eloquently simple, yet so clearly written ... but it's the last lines:

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Now time has passed by

Yet here I still sit

And all that I wish

Is that I still had my

Nothing special.

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I so understand the feeling in these lines... they echo times in my own. In my case, I know that I'm better off... but my situation is long past... still hurts a little bit, but I'm better as I am, than as I was.



Thank you for your poem... It is so evocative... truly.

skittles



"The problem with political jokes is how often they get elected."



"Closed minds always seem to be connected to open mouths"

[RaiStarr]

nice words



i especially like that last one





Rai

Forgive me now! Tomorrow I may no longer feel guilty...

[SJ]

Lovely poem

[DreamLover]

Rhiannon,



Every time I read one of your new poems. My mind is thanking you for posting them. I'm really glad you did it. They all are so beautiful and so full of love, emotions. I'm still speechless... I just haven't got the right words to express it all.



I really love this part that is what I call real love. It made my heart feel warm. The line I don't know why..... I'm nothing special say's so much. And the follow up line I smile and just hold her tighter That person knows the truth. I think I'm not making any sens here but.... what I feel in this part is LOVE.... REAL LOVE

Quote:

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We snuggle in bed

Kiss and say our good nights

"I love you so much, my love"

"I don't know why...I'm nothing special"

I smile and just hold her tighter

Now time has passed by

Yet here I still sit

And all that I wish

Is that I still had my

Nothing special.

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Thank you Rhiannon.



Henny

[barnabasvamp]

All of your poems are wonderful, but "Nothing Special" really touched me.



How little we desire, when what we had is gone. Thanks for sharing.



BV

It's the passion in a kiss that gives to it its sweetness; it is the affection in a kiss that sanctifies it.

[behindhereyes]

Rhi



All of your poems are wonderful !



Never - Having the dream, losing it so heartbreakingly, knowing that if you'd never met... you would never know the pain, and loss that now haunts you. When darkness beckons.... it can be nearly impossible not to answer it's call.





Nothing Special - OMG... the beauty and sadness.

The simple day to day activities of life... become monuments in our memory to the lost. No feedback I can leave will explain how this made me feel .



Kim

"To the world, you may be one person; but to one person, you may be the world"

[Renee85]

Rhiannon, I’m so glad to see a new poetry thread on the board, it’s always nice to read other people’s unique work. I have to say that like DreamLover and I’m betting everyone else here, I’m happy that you’re posting. Now, I love everything so far… ‘Never’ and ‘I Am Bound’ are both wonderful and emotive (awesome writing) but the one thing that stands out and the one that I adore the most is ‘Nothing Special’. It was moving and brought a tear to my eye, the last part is what really got to me. I agree with everyone else here, great stuff. Thanks for posting this.

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"For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul." -Judy Garland

"Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever." -Mahatma Gandhi

[WickedReds]

Rhi that brought tears to my eyes... it was so beautiful and so painful at the end....



-reds



Meine Banane tanzt für Rußflocke 

Smutbunny Anthem: *sung to tune from Goldfinger* Smutbunnies...they'e the bunnies, the bunnies that love the smut...and Willow's butt. They surf for smut fiction...always lookin' for the next naked sweaty fix...of Tara's tits.- Written By Cameron(tarawhipped) For Us Smut Bunnies

[MissKittys Ball O Yarn]

Okay, so I went in search...and here I am. Rhi, I had no idea you had a thread! You are such a naughty kitten for not saying something earlier... I guess I'll forgive you though.



Nothing special just blew me away. it has such a sense of reality woven through it. I love the way it flows... and the structure is amazing. I'm a sucker for rhythm...so for me, a really amazing poem has to have a cadence to it that is pleasing when read aloud...which this one definitely has... I can't wait for more.



xoxo

Emms

To the smut! ~ Me

Edited by: MissKittys Ball O Yarn  at: 4/5/05 12:15 am

[Rhiannon9891]

Skittles,

I am glad that you liked "Nothing Special". I am however sorry that it brought up sad memories of long past for you.Thank you for reading and your kind words.



RaiStarr,

Thank you,glad you enjoyed them,please read on and welcome to my thread.



SJ,

Thank you for you reading..that means a lot coming from you...given how many threads you reply to all of the time. How do you do it???



Henny, my # 1 Fan,,

Thank you for such an in-depth analogy and reply to "Nothing Special". You are most correct in your feeling of...

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Love...Real Love

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You are most welcome for my poems...I am so thrilled that you have enjoyed them.



barnabasvamp,

Thank you...and you are so right...how little we desire when what we had is lost...again..thank you for reading.



Kim,

Thank you so much. You have totally grasped the concept and emotions behind "Never"...thank you for understanding. "Nothing Special" was such a difficult and yet at the same time easy poem to write. I am touched that it affected you so deeply. I look forward to more of your poems. Thank you again.



Renee85,

Thank you...

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awesome writing

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"Nothing Special" was written from my heart and I truly did not expect it to have the affect that it has had on so many readers. I thank you and everyone else for all of your support and kind words.



Gina,... you little wicked bunny,

How are you? OK I hope... thank you for reading and enjoying. I love your poemness...more please.



Emms,

So you went in search did you? And you found my lowly thread. I am sorry for not mentioning it to you sooner...but it pales in the light of your poems. I am glad that you liked "Nothing Special"...that one meant a great deal to me as you can tell. Thank you Emms. More to come.



Rhiannon

She is like a cat in the dark

And then she is the darkness

[Rhiannon9891]

I would like to thank all of you for taking the time to read my futile attempt at poetry. The next three poems are a collection that I named “The Trilogy”. Each poem I hope will stand, in its own right as a separate piece, but, also collectively in sequence, they will tell a story.

I would also like to take this time to thank my beta, DreamLover, thanks Henny.

I hope you all enjoy “The Trilogy” – “Life’s-Alternative-Scenarios”.



Rhiannon

April 12, 2005



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Life’s (The Trilogy; part one)



My world has imploded

Buried me deep

within the rubble

of my desolate heart



There are days when the pain

is worse than the agony



And silently I scream

into the deafness of my heart

And only echoes return my plea



The tunnel gets darker

not even a light

The tunnel gets deeper

not even a train



Your universe engulfed me…..

Just us for all of time



Now I am lost

Your sun has died

To live in darkness

I am not capable



Life’s unreal

How do I exist?

Life’s impossible

with out you here

How insane is the alternative?







Rhiannon

April 4, 2005

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Alternative (The Trilogy; part two)



There’s a room I like to go to

In the corner of my mind

It’s my world of sanity

Invented for you and I

Behind the door

The walls I forged

Are desperately tall and strong

And they won’t falter

And nor will they ever burn

This world with you

I will not leave

This… the comfort

of what use to be

It’s all that I want

It’s all that we need



I hear the words

From distant worlds

Coaxing me to leave

Then a single voice…

…“it’s alright”

I know that it was me.

Slowly I open the door

To a world I do not want to see

Inhale a deep breath

and take a terrified step

Towards the direction of reality

Looking back into my room

I gently close and lock the door

Painfully I walk away

From those despairing walls I forged



This brave new world is hard for me

It stings and burns me to the core

There can be no other alternative

Only one scenario

And for now… that is to live

If it all becomes too much for me

And if I feel the need

I know that I still hold the key

The key to my keyless door





Rhiannon

April 6, 2005

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SCENARIOS (The Trilogy; part 3)

You know I save you.

An infinite number in time.

A promise kept

locked away

in your hearts mind.

Complicating your life

with possibilities of death.



I know I save you.

I do it all the time.

It’s just a script

in my play

rewritten in my mind.

Changing my life

altering moments of death.



You know you’re not here.

I could not hold you.

A calling so deep.

Your feeling… too primeval

Undeniable answers.

The voyage unveiled.

Enjoy the eternity that is not shared.



I know your not here.

I can not touch you.

To it I concede.

This immanent survival.

Unobtainable answers.

By the questions unveiled.

I live for our time that will one day be shared.







Rhiannon

March 11, 2005

She is like a cat in the dark

And then she is the darkness

[DreamLover]

Hey Rhi,



You all ready know what I think of your amazing The Trilogy.... I will leave you a really deep going feedback later on. I just wanted to be the first to congratulate you on your amazing masterpiece. So with this reply I did!



you didn't have to thank me silly... it was an honour to be your beta.



I will come back later with the real reply....



Thanks for sharing KZ.



Henny

[MissKittys Ball O Yarn]

Rhiannon,



As I sit here reading the poems that you've posted, I can't help but get caught up in them. They are like mini-worlds, created of thoughts and emotions that are too deep to be contained on this, 'our' plane of existence.



Each one is beautiful in different ways, yet, at the very deep down, most important core of each, is a beautifulness that seems fluid yet at the same time rooted inside something much more solid. It's that core powerfulness that flows from one poem right into the next like a smooth running river. It keeps them connected as one, yet allows them to be separate.



Reading your poetry is like opening a window of reality and being thrust through it and forced to experience the words in larger dimensions than words were meant to be experienced.



Each one is a journey, in it's own right, yet still a part of the greater whole. You are an amazing writer, and I feel honored to be here, opening the curtain to the window you've created. Thank you.



Emms....

To the smut! ~ Me

Edited by: MissKittys Ball O Yarn  at: 4/12/05 8:42 am

[SJ]

Liked your Trilogy,great poetry

[Rhiannon9891]

OK….So here’s another poem.

I will post feed back as soon as I can…Thank you…

Enjoy…



Rhi



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Disclaimer: original poems – all rights reserved.

Distribution: Please ask

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It’s Only Notes





Don’t you feel the music?

Don’t you feel the beat?

Just silently sway with me,

feel the rhythm and the heat.



Will you take my hand?

Will you dance with me?



We’ve been dancing

‘round each other.

Each afraid of a mistake.

But deep inside of us,

I know… we both feel the quake.



Isn’t it time

to take this dance.

Time to make it real.

Time to take the time,

the time to really feel.



Won’t you take my hand?

Won’t you dance with me?



Take my hand and take my heart.

Let’s take it to the next level.

Each of us wanting it more.

To prove…that we have the mettle.





Rhiannon April 19, 2005

Henny and Emms # 1 Fan

She is like a cat in the dark

And then she is the darkness