First Crush Wednesday MKF 5/7/03

[xita]

So me being nosey, who was your crush, how old are you, all that exciting stuff. And most importantly , are you over it?



My first crush happened when I was 12 nearly 13. She was a classmate of mine and I developed very intense feelings for her as I went into 7th grade and she went into 9th, even though we were very close in age. She had these shirley temple type curls and god I just adored her. All my friends thought I was crushing on her brother because I would act so strange around her. She was my best friend in sixth grade but after she went to high school, she moved to another state. We wrote each other , but it was never enough for me. Eventually she came back to LA but we just didn't have that friendship anymore. I would love to bump into her now and tell her that someone reallly really cared for her once. It was very sweet feeling the way I did then, I'll never forget her.

[Zippy]

It may come as surprise to some of you but my first crush was on Kylie. It was very strange as I had no idea at the time. I was about 12 me thinks, as for being over her, there will always be a special place in my heart for Kylie

I really thought that I could take you there
but my experiment is not getting us anywhere
I had a vision I could turn you right
a stupid mission and a lethal fight
I should have seen it when my hope was new
my heart is black and my body is blue
And I'm losing my favourite game

[mscheckmate]

I had my first two crushes when I was about three years old. One crush, probably the earlier of the two, was on my ballet teacher, Sue. Around that time, I was also hung up on my twenty-something, second-cousin-by-remarriage, Wilma. I wonder if these crushes on massively older women were an indication of the romantic life I would have as an adult.



After all this time, I'm over Sue and Wilma. I think.

It'll be the train, Walter, just the way you want it. Straight down the line.

[Ginner WTluv]

Ah, first crushes. *sighs* I think my first real crush i ever got was on my best friend.... yeah, i know. I really couldn't help it though. I was going through a lot at the time and she was always there for me. Of course, there were the times when i thought there was the tiny chance she felt the same way i did..... then again, i was about 12 . Needless to say, she never did feel the same, but we're still best friends. I never told her though.

And then there was the crush i got on my English teacher when i was about 11, but didn't really realise it was a crush at the time.

Am i over them? In all honesty, it took a while for me to get over my best friend.... but i did and i'm glad, because i got to fall completely head over heels in love with my girlfriend



~ Jen

I'd like to take a moment to talk about something that's happened lately. I'm also in love. It's a very special thing and I'm really rather proud of it. Yes, I'm in love with my own breasts. I feel no personal shame about this; in fact, I think this is the one. It's going to last. ~ Ruth

Edited by: Ginner WTluv at: 5/7/03 3:09:52 pm

[Puff]

My first crush would be my horse riding teacher when I was 12. Her name was Alex, she had long red hair and I used to try and impress her by being fearless on horseback. It didn't work, I broke an ankle. I'm well over my crush. Although, still somewhat partial to redheads

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Cheese. It's milk that you chew.

[VampNo12]

Ah crushes... my first crush was on my camp counselor Sue when I was 12. She had long wavy blond hair, I still remember the most dazzling blue eyes (where you could just get lost in), and the most amazing laugh. God I remember literally following her around everywhere... always wanting to sit next to her when we ate, and simply hanging on to every word she said (just a mention I was pretty clueless until my 20's that I was gay)... although, I just knew I wanted to know/be near this person. Sigh, Sue left the following year, but till this day when I think back to my camp experience (or someone mentions their own camp time) one of the first things that comes to my mind is her.

Edited by: VampNo12  at: 5/7/03 5:10:14 pm

[Willowlicious]

My first crush actually happened when I was about 4 years old. Some friends of my parents came to stay at our house for a weekend after living in South Africa for several years. They brought along their son who was probably around 20. His name was Alan and he had beautiful curly blonde hair and was very tall. I don't remember a lot about the visit except I loved him at first sight and he talked to me a lot and was just sooooooo nice. I remember getting that little flutter in my tummy when I saw him. It was literally my first love pang, though, of course, it was as innocent as it gets. Anyway, I ran down the driveway following their car when they left and I cried for about three days, I missed him so. My family thought it was adorable and teased me about it for YEARS!



I found out a few years ago that he killed himself sometime in his 30's. It was wierd, because I never really knew him, but that news just crushed me. It's just sad to think that someone I instantly thought was wonderful (and I just didn't easily take to new people as a child) was later so distraught due to either circumstance or mental state that he took his own life. I thought he was lovely.



Strangely, the only other boy I ever had a crush on also died young. His name was Kenny and he was a Senior in academy when I was a Junior. His father died the year before and he was really never able to cope with it. He drank excessively for a few months then sobered up, but was always sad. Anyway, he was sweet, but troubled and I knew better than to go there, but he had a good heart and he's about the only boy I ever even considered "going there" with (for more than pure experimentation, that is).



He moved to Arizona after graduation and at the age of 27 suffered a brain injury in a terrible car accident. He was moved to a rehab facility back in Michigan, but he was never able to regain full use of his body. To make a long story short, he choked to death on the first night he was allowed to spend alone without a full-time nurse. He was 29.



As a side note, his mother was the dean of the girl's dorm at my academy. My senior year, I had my first lesbian relationship and when people found out about it and started threatening me and my then-gf (ya know, like good Christians do), she was the only faculty member to stand up for us. She almost single-handedly kept us from being expelled.



Anyway, sorry if that was depressing. Didn't mean for it to be. All my other crushes (and much more) have been on girls and far less tragic.



Amy

[Tiggrscorpio]

My first crush was my third grade teacher, Mrs. Koch. I was seven. She had the classic early 70's look. Long, straight brown hair, down to the middle of her back. She was tall and wore those short skirts. Yum! My friend, Sally and I were her favorites. One day she let us move our desks up to the front side of the class away from everyone else. We thought we were just all that. And, when she'd ask me to bang the erasers, I would get so excited.



The best part, though, was that she lived in my neighborhood. One day, while I was riding my bike, she was out working in her garden. She asked me if I wanted to help. Duh! It was the best afternoon of my young childhood. I think I rode my bike by her house, every day after that, for a year.

*****



She's my everything!

[lauriebear]

My first crush was sixth grade. THere was this girl in my class that was just so pretty. Of course she was one of the cool/preppy kids and I was a nerd so we never hung out. But anytime she would talk to me....like asking me about a homework assignment.... my stomach would go nuts. I had no idea what I was feeling until much, much later in my life....liike college



This lasted through out middle school until she moved away at the start of high school.



The funny part is, 9 years later we are working together as colleagues at the same school. Of course I still don't have a crush on her, but it's funny how life works out that way. It's like looking back that was such a confusing time, and now I'm finally comfortable with myself and my sexuality. It just came full circle.

[Vampivy]

Aww. It’s really nice to think happy thoughts today of all days. Thanks Xita for asking such a happy thought provoking question.



Hmm… First crush definitely had to be when I was six. My first grade teacher, she was this tall, beautiful blonde goddess, Mrs. leaf. She had the most amazing blue eyes, long wavy blonde hair and a smile that was so incredibly heartwarming. It was then that I realized there was definitely something a little different about me .

I will be making a trip to northern California this June for gay pride in San Francisco and I was kinda thinking maybe it’s time to visit my hometown which is not to far from SF and perhaps swing by my old elementary school and maybe see if she still teaches there and say hi. She was a great teacher and not just a pretty face. I wish her well wherever she is.



Funny thing is , its been older woman ever since .



Happy thoughts indeed,

Patty

[Gatito Grande]

Ah, crushes: an interesting, but for me, confusing topic. (Then again, most things confuse me, so why should this be any different? )



Confusing, because all the crushes that I had when I was young, and *knew* I was having a crush, were on boys. My first was probably on my cousin Scottie: he was 18, and I was 6, but I think it was mainly on his super-bitchin' GTO! Man was that car cool (this was the 60's).



Then there was the realm of the "celebrity crush": I may have been love's bitch for David Cassidy, but at least I'm dork enough to admit it!



The thing is, all my intense "like/dislike" relationships, all the way through high school, were w/ girls. I remember wanting a certain girl, Lisa, to be my "best friend" (how very Xena-like!), and being jealous of this other girl, MaryAnne, who was in my way (This was about 5th grade). When I was a freshman in high school, I grew very close to this girl, Mary, who was older (a junior, woo-hoo!) and like, everything I wanted to be (she was even my section leader in band: she was lead alto sax, and I was second alto). As I recall, we had made some plans to travel together on a band trip, but then she decided to go with . . . you guessed it, her new boyfriend. I remember feeling devastated because she hadn't told me about the boyfriend, but in hindsight it's perfectly clear I had a crush on her.



Off to college: dammit, why didn't I do the lesbian experimentation thang?! I woulda clue'd in on myself a *lot* sooner! At 19, I was just working out that maybe it would be OK---for someone else---to be gay (I'm not proud of my slowness on this, but it was the early 80s, kids), when I fell head over heels for Jim. Man, that guy messed me up 30 different ways for a year and a half! (I still remember the -inducing "Dear Gatito" letter he wrote me---yikes!).



As I've written elsewhere, I was 24 before I figured out I was bi. A year later brought me my first great female crush, Gina. Ah, I still can't go into that---too personal. Not that I'm not over her, understand, but I would have done things differently then, and . . . well, we still wouldn't have worked out (she had a slight problem w/ the pathological lying which always would have got in the way!).



Well, that's all the trauma I care to dig up right now . . .



GG Road kill on love's highway: that's me, baby! Out

[SlayerSydney]

As usual, I'm a little late for a thread. But only by a day this time!



My first great crush on a woman was the fabulous, the marvellous, most extraordinary female of my young life, the one and only: Olivia Netwon-John.

I guess I still have issues with her. Anyway, I must have been about 8 or 9. Her pictures were hanging up all over my walls, she was my first concert, I thought she was absolutely beautiful.



My first crush in school was on a girl named Bobbi. She was athletic and blonde and had a great sense of humor. I met her in the 7th grade when I was about 12 or 13. I didn't realize I had a crush on her and I had no idea what I was doing to give off that "crushin' on you vibe". But, she told my best friend that she thought I was gay because she got a funny feeling around me. And then she stopped talking to me altogether. I was crushed. I was also really disturbed that she called me gay. I wasn't quite sure how to sort out the feelings I had started to have, so I pushed them away until college. It was then that I realized, "I guess Bobbi was right, I am gay."

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"I want to rock your gypsy soul."~~~Van Morrison

[Tsia]

First crush? I still have mine. That's right, I'm infatuated! I suppose I can be excused though, seeing as I am 14



It started almost 3 years ago I think, we used to sit next to each other in French. I was always too shy to talk to her though. I followed her around and always tried to find her during lunch times and lessons. We became more friendly since then, and we are friends now, but the crush still remains. I've had others since, but I suppose this is the long-term one. I still always try to sit next to her, and talk to her

> From the mouth of Buffy...."They go together like chicken and....another chicken!!"

Edited by: Tsia at: 5/8/03 8:33:28 am

[Bookcat]

my very first crush ever was on this boy that I made out with during preschool.

My very first crush that I actually remember was on my best friend in third grade, who was in hindsight such a gayboy.

My very first crush on a girl was on the girl who played Mimi in Rent the first time I saw it. I was sort of questioning myself because I had been reading about stuff online, and when she sung "Out Tonight" (which includes a sort of pole dance), I specifically remember saying to myself "Oh yeah, you're definitely gay."

[hellmouthhottie20]

Oh lord, my first crush was Whitney Huston

It was cos of the bodyguard, she does nothing for me now though, so i guess iam over it, lol



My first crush on a non famous person was on my sciance teacher...it was returned though. we had a bit of a "thing" never really going to be over her,



Caz

However long the night....dawn will break

[Mrs Vertigo]

My first crush… was when I was in 8th grade and lasted for about a year and a half, two years tops. She was this beautiful girl in my class, the kind of person people either hate with a passion or love with a passion. She had long flowy, dark hair she never brushed but always smelled of shampoo, and she danced – Belly dancing, Jezz, Steps, everything. She was this impressive, confidant, competitive type. Y'know, what they call a 'presence'. I was obsessed with her; everything she said, or did or wore. I would actually sniff my hands after she touched them, because, god, she smelled GOOD.



At first I was completely ignorant of what it meant, of course. But then the revelation came (in the shower, no less… ), and I freaked. I think by then we were pretty close friends already. That is to say, I was her utterly content whipping boy . Anyway, it was quite clear she didn't reciprocate my feelings, so I hooked her up with my other best friend, who was a (fairly gorgeous) guy. They were a wonderful couple for about a year and then they broke up over a huge fight that really shouldn't have never involved me but did. Pure melodrama. *sighs*



It did take me a while, but I'm quite over her. We're friends again, though not very close. She knows how I felt for her (and did at the time) cause I never could keep my mouth shut . I still *love* her, in a platonic sisterly way, but I've sobered up enough to admit the girl is WIERD.

My 2 cents: keep a dream-diary. Your brain is best uncensored.

Edited by: Mrs Vertigo at: 5/10/03 3:53:41 am

[Paigeosity]

I had a bunch of crushes but the most important life changing one took place about 2 years ago.



My family had just moved to a larger city and I had to go to a new high school. The first day I met HER. She wrecked all my previos assumtions that I was just not into boys yet. I had had crushes on guys but never as bad as any of my friends seemed to. It took me a few days to figure out that butterfly feeling in the pit of my stomach and when I did I freaked out. I had two classes with her and got to sit by her almost everyday on the bus for 12 weeks. It was a great 12 weeks and then summer came and I never talked to her.



The next year I hardly talked to her at all but then I had one class whith her and found out that she was going to graduate a year early. That was almost a year ago and I think I'm pretty much over it but I think I will always care about her.



Paige

[La]

Okay, I've actually been thinking about this for awhile now, since I saw this thread. When I was younger, I always had a crush on some guy, because my friends had crushes on guys so I would pick one to have a crush on too, so I'd be like all my other friends. I often would get crushes on my friends' boyfriends because I figured since they seemed to like them, I should like them too. I had lots of little crushes on women, but the one that I'm still not over was on one of my friends at college. We finally kissed the night before I left to go to Korea for 13 months and I never heard from her again. I guess I scared her or something since I think she was sort of struggling with her sexual orientation. Oh well.

~La



-But they are-are naked! -Naturally! It's much too dangerous to jump through fire with your clothes on!"

~Lord Summerisle to Sergeant Howie in The Wicker Man, in regards to women jumping over a bonfire during a May Day celebration.

[maudmac]

I think my first crush might've been on Olivia Newton-John. I was probably five or six and I honestly thought she was a magical being. I begged my mother, just tortured and badgered her, to let me see Grease because "But, Mom, Olivia Newton-John is in it!!!!" That was my mantra.



My first crush on someone I knew personally was probably when I was a Brownie (I was seven or so). I had such a huge crush on our assistant troop leader. She was 17, I think. A real Girl Scout. Wow. *sigh*

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I had a Boddingtons and now I can see again! - The Beast

[ghostinthesnow]

My first girl crush was the beginning of my sophmore year in high school and it's the end of my junior year now, and guess what? I still have a crush on her, despite the fact that she has a boyfriend. She's just soo perfect. I'm know I'm pathetic

Baby today, today we die

Forgive us and take away the cries

Baby today we'll die

[TaraManiac]

Hell... first crushes, I think i was even dangerous when i had my first, i was a stalker and all... Lol nah really, i had my really first crush when i was in high school, gosh did i Like that girL, i didn't even talk to her in my first semester, but all came better when i was at 5th... we became like the best friends, i liked hanging out with her and her friends, i felt like it was the best ever, i mean i spent years after her, and then when we ended high school it just changed. Her name is Karina and she's a model, I certainly thought that she was the prettiest girl in the world, and gosh is she beatiful... Time has passed and i got over it, but it was good while it lasted, I enjoyed every second i passed by her side, she really made me feel Special at the moment, but now We're just good friends, years have passed, and she's like engaged with this rocker... It's ok, We're still friends and we use to remember old times... I will never forget that either...



*sigh* Crushes...



-Lila-

She's My Everything... -Willow (Tough Love)

[the big pineapple]

oohh first crushes fun!



first crush:i was in the going into the seventh grade and there was this really cool girl who did the ARPD thing at my old school.her name was alex and she's got the california look down e was sort of a surfer chick.alex is was down to earth,easy to relate to,had a weird sense of humor,etc.

she was my dream girl really, not because of her looks but her attitude and who she was.she had a tongue peircing which wouldn't really be all that important were it not for my thing for tongue peircings.



yep so here's the start of my leather thing also she looked so good in those pants OMG!!! go alex the uber babe go

[MadeinNZ]

Well - there was this nasty incident early in my life with a plate of custard pies ... oh wait ... different crush.



I remember when I was about 7 that the girl down the road looked kinda fine. Then, to my shame, I become one of those 'follow her around like a puppy dog' kids. I'd like to say that I'm too old for all that stuff now ... but that would be a gross untruth.

[Mrs Vertigo]

Oh Gosh, how could I forget? First celebrity crush – Winona Ryder (Joe) in Little Women. I was about 6 or 7. And it was like my mom's favorite movie! Whenever she wanted to have a feminist-coddling/bonding-evening with her kids she'd rent it out.

My 2 cents: keep a dream-diary. Your brain is best uncensored.

[WiccansIllusion]

Well, my first actual famous person crush was Sela Ward as "Teddy" In Sisters.



uhm, my first real person crush was my best friend. It's still pretty bad but I have a year to get over it since she's getting married next summer..so...but this has been 7 years so I doubt it..

"love is touching souls" surely you touched mine 'cause part of you pours out of me in these lines from time to time-Joni Mitchell 'A case of You'

“Oh yeah,” Tara sighed in Willow’s ear. “I’m your bitch. I’m your girl. I’m your everything,” she panted. “Don’t you ever fucking forget it."- CN Winters

[Gatito Grande]

Mrs V, right around the time I moved away from the city where I met my first female crush, Gina, I first saw Winona Ryder---the resemblance between them was absolutely uncanny! All the years since, whenever I see "Noni", I think of Gina . . .



GG In light of WR's recent legal ("klepto" ) problems, and Gina's "truth-challenged" communications style, maybe they had more in common than looks! (Undeniably *HOT* though) Out

[mollyig]

My first crush that I actually knew was a crush was my science teacher and basketball coach, Ms McCutcheon, when I was 11.



Of course before that there had been tv stars etc. that I was totally in awe of, such as The Bionic Woman and Sabrina from Charlie's Angels, which I think were teensy crushes too.

I love my Love, and well she knows
I love the ground whereon she goes

[Cicca]

I don't really remember a "first" crush. I'm convinced now that I must've had crushes on friends left, right, and center.

Yikes!

I do remember crushing on my lab partner in chemistry. At that time he likely looked like a "geek", but oh I bet he's hot now! Those brown brown brown eyes.... Yum.



Oh god. I just realized that I probably had crushes on the women who guest starred on The Love Boat. *curling up in the fetal position*



Olivia Newton John? If you haven't seen Xanadu, you haven't lived!

invite someone dangerous to tea * look forward to dreams * imagine yourself magic

[Mrs Vertigo]

*grins stupidly at GG* you don't know how idiotically happy that makes me feel that you said that. Actually, I've been wandering about that – what is it about crushes that make you feel like the most pathetic pup in the world?



And btw celebrity crushes – I used to be a hard core Alanis Morissette fan, and I distinctly remember reading somewhere about her saying that when she was young she had a crush on Olivia Newton John.

My 2 cents: keep a dream-diary. Your brain is best uncensored.

Edited by: Mrs Vertigo at: 5/15/03 10:57:15 am

[xita]

As far as celebs go, my first "boy" crush was Boy George lol. And my first girl crush was Gabriela Sabatini, I am still not over that one.. swoon.