by hermitfish » Fri Nov 26, 2004 10:26 am
First off...I owe an apology.Second off...I will never say something like
Quote: Give me a week at most.
again because apparently that is the international symbol for the real world to frick with me repeatedly.Thanks for your patience.
On to the show...
Relinquished Symmetry
Addt’l note:
Sections of this part resemble some of the events in the episode "Parting Gifts" (Angel S:1).For the nitpickers, I realize that post-NMR and the events from this episode really don't line up, chronologically speaking, but I'm incorporating it anyway.
PART 7
Fate had given Tara three wonderful things in her life.The first was her mother - the warmest light in the depths of her childhood.She was taken away…her light snuffed out far too soon, far too fast.Tara was left to face the shadows alone.
Only when she escaped was she rewarded with her second wonder.A fire-haired woman that gave love to a fragile, damaged little thing and made her feel like the center of existence. Willow, who had brought her out of the shadows and back into the light.The light must have been too bright…too warm…too good to be true.She ran from the light, back towards the shadows.
She had barely retreated when fate lay another person in her crossing.A man this time, just as lost and alone as she was…and it was strange.Strange in so many ways.She had never had any guy friends, any friends other than Willow and her mother at all really.Yet with him she shared common ground - the want to prove the world wrong…to show it they were not what it thought them to be.
That was true.Tara was not a demon.Wes was not a failure.
The process to get there was so much longer than the simple truth.It was a hard road.It started in Phoenix.
Tara decided that this hadn’t been the best-planned idea as she stood outside the bus terminal with her small cache of luggage.She hung up the payphone and sighed, wondering when she should try calling again.Also wondering if Linda, her mom’s old coven member, would even remember her offer after two years.
‘If you ever need a place to stay and are in Phoenix…give me a call,’ she had gently said six feet from her mother’s grave.Had she been earnest?Did it even matter now?
‘You’re a demon, Tara. Come back home…we’ve got ways of dealing with your evil,’ she could hear her father say.Except she didn’t feel evil.Scared.Lost.Aggrieved.Emotionally drained.But not evil.
“Maybe you’re wrong, sir,” she whispered.Once she would’ve never spoken those words, with or without her father in the room.These last months with Willow had changed her, made her question everything she had been taught.She had never felt closer to nature…closer to some force that couldn’t be anything
but
good.Because she was with Willow and Willow was good – undeniably, unequivocally good.
Being with Willow was…she took a shaky breath…never going to happen again.
The sound of breaking glass and a strange presence diverted her attention.A large gray demon dripping with yellow- green fluid turned the corner just as Tara dove behind the concrete divider next to the phone.
‘It must be residual Sunnydale vibes.Now I’m attracting demons everywhere,’ she thought morbidly.
“Get back here ya’ bastard,” another demon called as he came to stop huffing and puffing.“Big fellow sure can move,” he muttered.He was much smaller – short and reddish.He was carrying some sort of dagger covered in yellow-green goo.He took off again, following the slimy trail.
A motorcycle roared down the sidestreet a few seconds later.A figure covered in leather slowed the bike as it approached.The figure, easy identifiable as a man now, forgot to put his feet down once the bike completely stopped and it tipped over on its side and fell to the road with a scrape.The rider clumsily fumbled with the black helmet, pulling it off his head after a few moments.
“Did you happen upon two unusual looking lads?” the crisp English voice asked as he struggled to get out from under his transportation.She finally crept out from behind the divider and helped him struggle loose.
This was how Wesley, quite literally, fell into her life.
They solved their first case and prevented Barney, the red demon, from collecting anymore special gifts from humans or demons.She had been lucky her stomach was empty when they found his trunk of body parts…it was the only reason she didn’t vomit from the sight alone.Afterwards, she got in touch with her mother’s friend and she did have a place to stay.A plan started to form…she could get a job and save some money for a year or so.Then she could transfer to ASU and finish her college work.
It was, she realized after sleeping on it, a pipe dream.
Twenty was fast approaching and she didn’t want to kill the only vague connection she had to her mother simply because the lady was generous.
A new plan formed…she noticed how knowledgeable Wes had been when they were researching those demons…maybe he could help her?
And if there was no help to be had?He was a rogue demon hunter…he could kill her.
All it would require was something she had never done.
‘Tara…you can’t go around telling your shameful secrets,’ her father’s voice had echoed in the back of her mind.
The truth.She would have to tell him the truth if they were ever to find any answers.While she would ideally like to think it was courage that finally made her stand against her father, it was really a mix of desperation and practicality.Such things are motivators too.
Her biggest surprise came when he agreed.It was almost as if he had enjoyed her company the last couple of days.Whatever the case, she didn’t question his motives.She left most of her belongings with Linda, only packing two rucksacks of clothes and magical aids.Wes traded in his bike for a cheap but good running car.Pulling out the maps, Tara officially became the navigator that day as they headed for Colorado.
A new story began as they moved on.
She wasn’t sure how they ever made it through the first weeks…they were both pretty laughable fighters in the hand-to-hand arena.Her first vampire hunt was a comedy of errors.
Tara was lost in the cemetery.Unbeknownst to her, Wes had tripped over the raised dirt of a recently filled grave, and knocked himself unconscious on a headstone.She stood at their ‘rendezvous point’ thinking about the commando nature of that term.
When the vampire arrived to get the artifact from the crypt, Tara mistook him for Wes and called out – losing not only her miniscule amount of stealth but also any hope of running away.Frantically, she levitated a stake and sent it at the fast approaching vampire.Her terror caused a total lack of focus and her shot was off aim-it hit the vamp in the eye.The right eye…on the completely wrong side of the body in relation to the heart.It growled, much more pissed off than before, and continued its charge.She sent another stake flying, with only a scant improvement of precision.She hit the vamp in the left eye.The screaming blind monster then tripped over a small flat headstone and went top of the skull first into a large oak tree, knocking itself unconscious.
Wes woke up at some point and followed the noise to the action.He found Tara standing over the nightcrawler in a bit of a daze.He pulled the stake from its right eye and placed it in Tara’s hand.He then wrapped his hand around hers and, together, they plunged it into the heart.
“See?That wasn’t so bad,” Wes said as the dust scattered and fell.
They began focusing on their strengths - Wes showed her how to fire a crossbow…she imbued them both with protection spells and learned to levitate and move stakes fluidly.They both were voracious readers, making research and preparation a key component.Days were spent traveling and researching…nights spent hunting and protecting.Mornings were for sleep.
They never stayed one place longer than the job called for…always another day, another mission.They became strong…competent.
Bonds were built as they moved on.
He was the brother she had always wanted.She was the proud family he had always needed.Together they were more than the sum of their broken parts.
Secrets were cast aside and another piece of commonality was discovered.Sunnydale.A pain not easily removed or forgotten.He was her support when nightmares woke her with one name on her lips.She was his constant proof that he could teach, assist, and fight for the cause.They didn’t have to pretend they were anything more or less than they were.It was okay just to be.
Freedom was found as they moved on.
The day of destiny that had crippled her for nearly a lifetime came and went...a wash of lies and pain revealed and reviled.
Somehow in those scary times and scarier beasts, Tara found part of herself.Maybe not the best part…because she knew who would always have that, but a part she never dreamed she could be.When she looked in the mirror now she saw a useful, imperative, and respected woman.Not that ugly little girl that had haunted her for so long.
Tara stared out the car window and sighed.When the apocalypse was over and the day was once again saved, they would leave town.They would move on.
----------------------------------------------------
Wes drove towards the Summers’ residence glancing sideways at the woman in the seat beside him.They had long ago come to recognize the unwritten agreement of not pressing for explanations.He would wait and she would tell…when she was ready.
Tara appreciated the silence.She was working a mental problem of confusing proportions.Either that or she was looking futilely for any explanation to something that seemed almost too obvious.When he stopped the car in front of the lovely suburban two-story, she was no closer to figuring out which.
Tara felt like the center of attention when they gathered in Buffy’s living room for the prerequisite talk.Xander and Anya sat on the couch, the latter nearly in his lap, while Oz and Wes stood by the mantle and Buffy sat of the arm of the recliner.Tara situated herself on the other end of the sofa with a frown.
The blonde Wiccan took a deep breath and began.“When was the last time you saw Willow?”
“A few hours ago…you do remember, right?” Xander responded curiously.“We were there and then…snap, crackle, pop…except without those cute little spokesperson elves.”
“They’re Krispol demons,” Anya added.“Well, reformed demons at any rate.Now they just make breakfast products.They got the idea for those rice puff sounds from the ways they used to break fingers in the 1600’s.”
“Surprisingly informative…in a Kellogg’s expose kind of way,” Buffy coyly replied.“You meant me, personally?”Tara nodded.
“The autumn after you left.”
“And you haven’t been near her in any way since?”
Buffy got a defensive look.“I wanted to…I talked to her a lot, just not in person.She moved back into her parent’s house.She wasn’t exactly open for company.”
“No…I don’t mean that you didn’t want to see her,” Tara backed up.“She didn’t let you?”
“Right.”
Tara turned to the others.“She didn’t let Oz or Mr. Giles see her either?”Oz shook his head.
“G-man had moved to England and was living with Olivia by then,” Xander added.
“Tara, why would the three of us meeting her matter and not Xander or Anya?” Buffy questioned, some sort of suspicion sparking.
“Because they’re strictly human?” Wesley surmised.Anya started to interject.“Or newly human,” he amended.
“No powers,” Oz murmured, rubbing the stubble on his chin with a thumb.“But what would I sense?”
The Buffy light bulb went off and she stood sharply, feeling both shocked and dismayed.
“You think she’s a vampire don’t you?”
What is love but whatever my heart needs around
~Trespassers William