Niobe's Silence (updated 7/16/05)

[Irishgrl3]

Great chapter! Both girls thoughts and feelings are so intense. Willow self seems to slowly be coming out of her fog. Her not taking her medicine seems to be helping. This is such an interesting fic Emms, can't wait to see what's next.

-anna

[TaraBaby77]

WOOHOO ... The easiest way for me to explain my liking of this story is BOOKMARKED, heehee !!! Talk about glued to each and every update. I just can't seem to get enough of it. So with all that said, what a great story . Hope to see more soon . Take care. =)

Aaron

'Tarababy77'

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"Don't buy into all the media crap. Love yourself for who you are, not what others THINK you should look like. It's DEFINITELY more important in this life to love each other despite our imperfections." - Amber Benson

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Edited by: TaraBaby77 at: 4/18/05 11:56 am

[GayNow]

I'm still fascinated by this story, by the points of view, by everything you've put into this bit of magic. And, right now, that's all I can say. The words simply escape me. And that is a rarity for me.



Thank you, Emms. Looking forward to more updates...for all of your fics. Any update from you calms the twitches of withdrawal.



Carleen

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‘Well hello you big old monster you, I fart in your general direction!’ --Willow "WtVS: Episode One: Hellmouth High



"I support your lifestyle choice. You go gay girl." -- Anya "A Hot and Heavy Halloween"

[MissKittys Ball O Yarn]

these replies are to comments left regarding the last chapter.



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Henny....you are too sweet. You know I update just for you dont you? I'm just sorry I can't seem to get around to Sunflowers like I promised I would.

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I often go to a place that is comparable to the one in your story....There is so much truth in your story that's why it means a lot to me.

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I know what it's like to be someplace that is completely uninspiring...I once took a job at a corn factory...and it was my job to break the little stems off the ears of corn...I had to do that all day...cob after cob after cob. until I was from the corn...all I could see, day after day...was corn ..it was hell. I just hope that your job is better than the corn factory job.

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I think I know who that mysterious person is....

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hehe....shh...henny...don't tell...I can answer no questions about that at this time.



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Cyd, Darn. When I read that you needed a break from writing... I got so excited that I nearly spilled my glass of water all down the front of me...but then I saw that it was not my beloved RS that you were writing and I was sad....of course I want you to do well in school, and get all your assignments/papers turned in so I was only sad for a minute.



hehe you did the dance of joy? *having flashbacks to the 1990s and a little show entitled Perfect Strangers*



lol about the glass shack. yes.... you should really think about moving out of the quary....there's much better property located a couple blocks over in the land of Update.



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Russ Hey, thanks for dropping in.



you make many good observations. the first one being:

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Tara's ethical dilemma, and that's certainly going to be a major obstacle; becoming involved with a patient is a definite no-no. Tara may find herself changing careers before this is over

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yes indeed. And, to me that's what helps to make this fic so interesting...because it's not just about what Willow is going through (which is pretty heavy) but it's also about Tara and what she's going through. There are complications on both sides which isn't going to make things easy for either of them.



when I first started writing this, I thought...well...It could be about Willow and Tara falling in love (which it is) but then there are all these other little obstacles that they have to overcome in order to get to the place where they can actually have their 'happily ever after'...



I hope I didn't over explain...



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Safuega hey! Woo Hoo! hello there! Welcome. I'm glad you have come to join us. Pull up a seat and help yourself to the snacks. thank you for the feedback.



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robotguru



you have some interesting Ideas...all to which I say... and nothing more....for the moment.



right...cuing TV lady...she's pretty helpful...maybe she'll drop by next update.



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DarkWiccan! Hi! yay! Im glad that you love my concept enough to drop in and leave feedback! hehe (now I'm giddy)



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watson

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Did she need Tara's touch to reassure her of T's presence or is it to help with the pain

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Actually, I think it's more of Willow needing Tara's hand to guide her forward because she cant get her brain to make her feet work on it's own. but....I think that's going to change soon...

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how can Tara start a relationship with Willow in her position? How will Willow respond, if she does even?

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Thats a hard question to answer...Obviously if I'm going by current rules and regulations concerning doctor/patient fraternizing (which I am) then it's clear that there is no ethical way for Tara to peruse Willow while she's her doctor...but sometimes the heart over-rules the mind in these matters (and I'm not saying that it will work out that way ) I think the interesting part will be to see how They respond to eachother once that line is crossed (and i'm not saying it will be) hehe



Thank you for leaving feedback watson...I always value and appreciate your opinion.



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onelesstraveled Please no apologies needed. As I've said before...feedback is an elective not a required course. I'm just glad that you like my little story enough to leave feedback when you did. So, welcome.



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Jeanne

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I don't know how you do it, but somehow, you manage to weave magic into every word you write

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It's a gift sweetie... hehe I was born that way? Okay, Okay... *hands in the air* I paid a guy...but that's all I'm saying about that.



I know, I know....mystery voice is no good... but maybe it will get better...and the mystery voice will turn into a thousand flying doves...or the opera woman with the pointy-horned cap....

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my niece is currently sat on my knee pointing at all the emoticons and asking "what's that one doing?"

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lol I so know how distracting that can be. ( you have no Idea how well I know that...) *hehe, that was supposed to be dramatic* Did it work?



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End of part one replies....more in a moment.



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okay....i'm back...and here's the replies to the feedback from the last update



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Jeanne. Well, hello again! hehe. welcome back...and I can see from the good bit of feedback you were able to leave, that your niece is no longer attached to your knee? But don't stop babbling on my account. You know I always love to read a good babble.



hehe, I'm glad you liked Willow's conversation....they are kinda funny aren't they? I mean, in a slightly disturbing way. and I'm glad it got you thinking...cause that's exactly what I was hoping would happen. There's really a lot of new information being provided through these little 'talks" that Willow is having with herself... I mean, some of the stuff is pretty subtle, but it will all tie together eventually.



And, Miss Kitty is such a naughty kitten isn't she? But cute...so that must make up for the naughtiness.



It doesn't matter which story I update? Well...do you have any requests? I'm happy to take requests...though....I think I owe henny an update to Sunflowers. I should do that before she punishes me with a blunt instrument.



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Henny hehe. I'm glad to see you are so enthusiastic. And wow with all the jumping bananas (now I feel special)



I know the update was short...but I'm having problems with my computer...it's acting like it wants to crash...I'm probably going to have to spend some of my hard earned cash to buy a new one. I hate spending my hard earned cash! hehe.



I'm glad you liked the update. ....oh and I'm sure that if Tara decided to give Miss Kitty away to a good home, she'd choose yours.



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Anna Thank you for stopping by. it is getting kinda intense huh? I'm glad you're interested. Thank you for the feedback and take care.



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TaraBaby hehe Hi Aaron! Bookmarked huh? Well, I'm flattered. thank you so much for your kind words...kinda makes me want to get to work on the next update.



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Carleen. you are always are so sweet and I am honored to help calm your twitches... hehe that sounded funny.



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xoxo

Emms

To the smut! ~ Me

Edited by: MissKittys Ball O Yarn  at: 4/18/05 5:01 pm

[hermitfish]

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I nearly spilled my glass of water all down the front of me

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Sorry about the 'almost' water accident Emms...unless, you know, you were wearing a white t-shirt because then that would've been good times for everybody.



Now, where was I...oh yes. What I love about this fic is how it continues to have so many intriguing facets that make me stop and ponder. Really, though, the best thing for me to do is just sit back and let the show unfold in your most capable hands.



~Cyd (also a non-stalkery fan)

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Where I go, you go with me

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Altered Shadows

[Safuega]

Thanks for the warm welcome. More importantly, thanks for this update. I was sitting in my Islamic Jurisprudence class and I was feeling like I was losing my will to live when your update popped up. Oh, what I sight for sore eyes!



Anyway, after being initially happy that you had updated I was then a bit sad for Willow. The poor thing has to go through withdrawals alone again. Is there no escaping that fate? I also felt bad for Tara, who now seems to be connected to Willow and feels Willow's pain, but interprets what she feels as punishment from the Goddess for thinking about Willow in a romantic way. It's a quandary, I'll grant you that, but what kind of Goddess is this that would dish out the feeling of being paralyzed for what right now may just be an unethical thought on Tara's part? I'm no religious expert but that seems a tad harsh to me.



Thanks for the update. Thanks for sharing this cool story with us.



Safuega

[AlysonGoddess]

YAY great update!! im new here i just have to say I love your story!!.... i wonder who Willow is talking to??

-Erin



I had to pretend she was johnny depp... and i think he tried to slip me some tongue once -Amber at houstoncon

[JustSkipIt]

Hey there. And suddenly there are two updates? How cool. I like both very much. Nice touch of shifting povs between both girls and feeling their connection and then the roommate and the connection. How awesome. Willow is fighting so hard and now Tara is channeling it. Very cool. Well done.

"It is better to waste one's youth than to do nothing with it at all- Georges Courteline

"Censorship, like charity, should begin at home; but unlike charity, it should end there." - Chare Booth Luce

My latest story: Survivor - Ash Island

[Rhiannon9891]

Hi ya Emms,



When I heard there was an update to this wonderful story (thanks Henny)…I came a – running as fast as I could. I know that I have not replied to the past couple of updates (please forgive me)... …but I want you to know that this story has me intrigued.

I love the way you are able to capture the inner thoughts of both Willow and Tara…such amazing writing.

I am also concerned about the possible relationship between Willow and Tara…this is an ethical dilemma for Tara. Now I, as well as everyone else here have questions as to whom the mysterious “scientist” is and the reasons behind this “set-up”….I do love a good mystery and this is most definitely a good one.

I can’t wait to read more of this story or more of any of your remarkable stories or poems. Thanks for writing Emms.



OK Emms,



No fair you posted another update before I could post my reply above….(thanks for the heads up again, Henny)



Now my reply to this latest update.



First off…”Alice in Wonderland” is my all time favorite story…and the song ain’t bad either…

But the astounding reality of the inner conversations between the characters and their consciousness is amazing writing ability on your part. You make me (the reader) feel as if I am actually attending these inner thoughts as they occur.



PS. I also have a cat that may join Miss Kitty in the box on the front porch…ha..ha..ha…

That was a great update…I can’t wait for more….pheww…now I’m tired from all this running between “The Inward Eye” and “Pens”…but I don’t mind…keep up all the good writing.



Rhiannon your real #1 fan

She is like a cat in the dark

And then she is the darkness

[onelesstraveled]

Hmm.. I wonder whether what Tara felt was due to her connection with Willow or other magical reasons. It was interesting to read about the opposing thoughts inside Willow's psyche. What's keeping Willow from breaking out of her own prison?



Love the way that we see the situation through both Willow and Tara's POV, and I have a feeling that there's going to be major confusion ahead for our girls. Lovely update, looking forward to more!

[DreamLover]

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I'm her number one fan!!



Thank you Emms for posting that lovely update for me.... RHI nananana



Take care you all.

Henny

[hidden watson]

Willow talking to the voice in her head, interesting but sad.

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when I stop taking the pills and start to get better, you tell me that I need to take the very thing that was holding me back in the first place

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could it be the very thing that is holding her back is her own doubts and fears? Even subconsiously, or somehow planted in her mind by uncaring doctors? Please Willow, fight it!



Tara's dilemma becomes more and more significant.

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I can't get her out of my head, thinking about her is like a drug

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how can she resist this drug?



Nice conundrum you've posed.

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I think the interesting part will be to see how They respond to eachother once that line is crossed (and i'm not saying it will be)

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Well you've mentioned it, so I'm holding you to it, even though you put a honking big disclaimer immediately afterwards, I.don't.care. The line must be crossed, we must have smoochies



Plus 2 things I haven't mentioned but still picked up. The mysterious person at the end of the last chapter, surely s/he has something to do with the connection between the two ladies. Otherwise why would Tara be sharing feelings and physical paralysis with Willow? Someone wants something from the doctor and the patient and it smells fishy

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[ringwaldoeuvre]

Hey-



I haven't left you feedback before, since I recently delurked, but I wanted to say how much I enjoy your stories. Your pacing is excellent, and you do a great job putting the reader in the mind of the characters. Well done.



I especially like the title of this fic, I assume you're referencing the Greek myth? I'm just wondering if there will be lots of dead children by the end. Color me curious.



~ringwaldoeuvre

[Irene73]

Hola



Let me start off by saying that I am joining in with the MILLIONS...AND MILLIONS of your fans (readers) to say that I am ABSOLUTLEY enjoying this fic...BRAVO AND KUDDOS



I have a theory about what might be happening:

I believe that someone or something has and is purposly keeping Willow in the state that she is in...and I believe they're doing it through a spell. I believe that Willow and Tara are a threat to them, in some way. That person spying on them referring to the fact that Willow and Tara always find that "connection" between them and that there are "other ways/methods" of breaking that.



That other voice in Willow's head, I really don't believe it is hers. What if someone is making it seem to Willow that she's talking to herself...Again through a spell or telepathy. Willow seems confident, and often defies the "other" voice.



And talking about the "other ways/methods" that person spying on them was referring to, why is it that all of sudden when Tara is making progress with Willow, that same night Willow feels like she can't breath, the "voice" in her head is trying to discourage her progress and make her believe that the pills aren't the problem, and now Tara is suddenly and temporarily paralized and feels heat/fire coursing through her body? Coincidence...or just other "ways/methods"?



Could it be that this unidentified person spying on them has in some time tried to break them apart, make sure they never get together? And has failed before...so now it has traveled through another timelime, AU, dimension to break up that Willow or Tara? Or am I reading to much into this and need to get a life?



But all in all Willow and Tara always persevere...annnnnnnd...they will figure out what is going on and will destroy the big bad that has tried in vain to keep them apart. And the scoobies will be right there with them.



Updatey Goodness Soonish?



Saluting you while grooving to the tunes of "Oingo Boingo"..."don't, don't you go...won't you stay with me one more day...if we get the room, one more night...if we get the room, one more night.",

Irene

[Grimlock72]

I would recommend Tara read Willow's entire file first. She would have know Willow legs are kept in shape by regular excersive from a therapist. Even when Willow's problems mostly were phycoligical at the start... due to time some definite physical problems are to be expected. It just wouldn't do to have Willow collaps when they're walking outside..



Obviously I'm not trusting the shadowy speaker person who appearantly see W/T's relationship as some sort of experiment. If all he/she wanted was to keep them apart there MUCH easier ways to accomplish that. Feels a bit like lab-rat setup, not of the good kind either.



Once Tara is done reading Willow's file, she could also carefully review all medication Willow is prescribed. Doubtlessly a lot of it won't be needed, esp. not with a dedicated caregiver around.



I loved the Willow's talking to each other inside her brain. Nifty short-line jokes and such. It's one way to keep your brain busy, such inner discussion don't worry me that much really. If all her other problems go away she can live perfectly happy with some inside discussions .



I'm not sure what happened to Tara at the end there. It's easy to see why she would feel guilty about falling in love with her patient, that's simple 'not done' and would appear to be a mayor party-stopper here. I'm curious how that problem will be resolved.



Why did Willow stay in the hospital for seven years and just not has decided she wants to leave? As long as she's under Tara's care and she avoids sleeper meds she'll be fine inside the hospital. Where is she going to live outside the hospital anway ?? ('with Tara' would be a bit to quick don't you think )



Thanks for the TWO updates so nicely fast, I like the new schedule...heh



Grimmy

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[MissKittys Ball O Yarn]

hello kittens! I just wanted to let you all know that I will be posting replies and the next update shortly.



There's one other thing before I sign off for the evening...Irene Dang girl....am I really that predictable?



xoxo

Emms

To the smut! ~ Me

[watersong84]

That was a great update!

I am really enjoying the development of Willow's character and the fact that she finally can find the strength to refuse the medication. The image of her moving her pinky finger just because she can is just wonderful .

And Tara. I must say, her little infactuation could have turned out a bit creepy if you didn't do such a damn good job at making it not too overbearing. For all of your worrying, you are doing a great job with this fic.

[negraoreo]

I LOVE this story! it's very different from other ones that i have read. Pleeeeaaaassseee update soon! I want to see what happens to willow. Hopefully there'll be some smoochies soon.
Keep it up!

**NEGRAOREO**

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"Fuck it, I'm Thirsty!" -- Taboo

[Emms]

Hello everyone... I want to thank everyone for the lovely feedback and also let you all know that there might not be any new updates to any of my fics for the next couple weeks. My computer has and it's going away to a boarding school for computers for two weeks where it will learn to be a good computer and to obey it's masters. (I hope)

I love ya'll

xoxo
Emms

[willowfan7]

Just dropped in to let you know how much I enjoy your fic. Willow's conversations with herself are absolutely hilarious, and so like her. And Tara, *sighs*, my heart just breaks for her.

Rest assured that we readers will still be here waiting for you. Hopefully when you get your computer back, it's all nice and trained...and ready to post updates!

[kindagay]

Hey

2 weeks with no wonderful Emms updates? Uhm, that is to say... uhm, okay.... I can wait 2 weeks... No really, I can



We'll miss you sweetie, I hope your computer learns to behave itself quickly & I'll be right here (or, actually, flitting between all of your wonderful fics & the Lounge) waiting for you to get back.

Take care sweetie

Hugs
Jeanne

[vix84]

I just read this all at once, and to my horror it ended. Argh!

I read Irene's prediction of what will happen and I'm fascinated. You confirmed that she was right but I still want to read it in your brilliant words. Please?

[sam]

Hii Emms..I've just recently caught up..wow. I love it!! Love sam xx

[terra21]

Can I just say...I miss this fic? I know good things come to those who wait...so they say. I just wanted you to know that I haven't forgotten about this one Emms.

[kindagay]

*Jeanne sees that this wonderful fic is on the first page of Pens & runs excitedly into the thread*

"Is there an update? Did you update sweetie?"

*Jeanne looks around, frantically searching for the update*

"There's no update"

*Jeanne sits down legs crossed, arms folded in front of me and pouts*

"I miss this fic too Emms, & I love it lots, don't tell your other fics but, this one's my favourite. Please can we have an update soon? Pretty please?"
"I'm not too proud to beg."

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I'm sorry anyone who, like me, thought that there was an update - it was just me, being all silly.
Sorry

Hugs
Jeanne

[Emms]

Hi Kittens! Wow hehe, it's been a long time since I've seen this story on the first page (all my fault of course) awhile ago, I said to myself, self, I said....I'm just going to concentrate on one fic at a time......and I did.....for awhile.... but now that I'm back in writing mode, I guess I could throw you all a crumb and update this story.

I would like to send everyone that has left feedback a big, huge smooch and a thank you. Sorry it's taken me so long to get replies posted...I promise to soon though.

and I'd like to send an extra special smooch to terra and Jeanne for bringing this little number back to my attention.

xoxo
Emms

[sadie]

Update? Really??

[GayNow]

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ETA: I'm Sassy Eggs now!!!!!

[Sahugani]

"waves his hand like he just don't care" very good story!

[AlysonGoddess]

mmk i dont wanna make u have to feel like u have to continue this story but *pouts gets on knees* pleeeeeeeeeeease I need to know what happens to willow!!! ill give u 5 dollars to continue if i had that kinda money Uve updated a lot of your other stories im dying for an update on this one.. ok i know im impatient but im begging you!!! Please continue!!! pretty please? otherwise ill have to take drastc measures.. it doesnt even have to be that long of an update just a short little one please this is my fav fic THANKS!!!! SORRY FOR BUGGIN YA but i need to get your attention!!

Also I wanted to say that you're a great writer and i love all of your stories

ERIN