Fic: "Mourning My Loss" (major re-write) Completed

[hahler]

this is good sarah i agree about the pregnancy
but i will be patient and wait for your next update
please make it soon

dawn

[Naeryn]

Like DW, I'm pretty sure I know what Willow's illness is, unless it's that's one of the bits gone through an uberrewrite...

Which is quite possible, I suppose. I kind of hope not though. It made things interestingful ^^

Keep up the good work! And dammit people, post feedback! More! More! Need... more... updates...

[Oracle_Of_Magic]

Wow, thanks for the kind response and all the fb! This is great! Please keep it up!

Axel_Avalon:

:applause
This story awesome. Willow's pain is captured and expressed beautifully.




P.S.
Is that fact that Willow gets sick every morning setting off major alarms for anyone else? No? Maybe I'm just paranoid.

Thanks for your, enthusiastic feedback. I appriate your compliments, this is the first fic of this type I'd ever written. I was going for more emotion punch, looks like I did well. As for your question, just gotta wait and see.

Sam:

That was wonderful . I hope Willow is ok..Love sam xx

Again, honest and straigh to the point! You are nothing if not consistant! Please keep it up!

DW:

Hiya, hiya, hiya!!

It's been a while since I have commented on this fic. In fact, I only commented on the original version at the old board, and not this new one at the...erm...new board.

K, so... first off... it is so cool to see how wonderfully your writing has matured. Gone is the stiff, over-thought vocabulary of yore, and here-present is a wonderfully visceral and bitter narration. I can really feel Willow's emotional agony, and it is brilliantly heart-wrenching.

Unless you have made some super-duper big changes to the nature of Willow's illness in this rewrite, I'm pretty sure I remember correctly what it is... but I will keep it to myself so as not to spoil others.

Kudos!!!

Cheers
DW

DW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Good to see you!!!!!!! It's been a long time! Thank you so much for your compliments and comments. It means the world to me that you, my mentor, like my fic. I took your advice, and suggestions to heart, I hope it shows. *puffs up with pride* Please, keep posting fb. Don't be a stranger, ya hear?

Zoe:

D*mn Sarah this is sad!!!!!!! Question is Willow pregnant, because of the whole throwing up every morning...could be morning sickness...or did i just ruin the story...ooops sorry...if i did ruin it for the other. Anyways great story, and i can't wait to read the rest of it!

Thanks Zoe! Sorry if I didn't warn you it was sad, but as I explained in chat the other night, I am a total sucker for happy endings. Astute observation, but just like the others, you'll have to read and find out.

Dawn:

this is good sarah i agree about the pregnancy
but i will be patient and wait for your next update
please make it soon

dawn

Wow, I'm honored, another post Dawn! Thanks! As promised, here is the update, hope ya like it.

Meg:

Like DW, I'm pretty sure I know what Willow's illness is, unless it's that's one of the bits gone through an uberrewrite...

Which is quite possible, I suppose. I kind of hope not though. It made things interestingful ^^

Keep up the good work! And dammit people, post feedback! More! More! Need... more... updates...

Thank you for the wonderful, thoughtful fb. It's true the fic's undergone a major re-write, but I will try not to disapoint. Also, thanks for urging people to post fb, the more, the better! And the faster I post updates.

Well, all that being said, on with Chapter 7!

Mourning My Loss
By: Oracle Of Magic

Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the BTVS characters, they are the property of Joss Whedon, and Mutant Enemy productions. No copyright infringement is intended. I am writing this story purely for enjoyment.

Note: Special thanks to DW for going over and doing a final edit. You're a lifesaver, my friend.

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Part 7

Today is the same as yesterday, without the doctors appointment that is. I woke up feeling just as sick as yesterday. My muscles are aching so badly it hurts to move. I went through my morning routine.

I got up, got sick, cleaned up, ate breakfast, and now I’m sitting here on my bed. I don’t know what I’m doing, I guess I’m waiting for the doctor to call. I keep staring off into space, I can’t help it.

I close my eyes and try to clear my head, the phone picks that moment to start ringing, making me jump. Figures, bad timing, just like everything else in my life. I pick up the phone and answer. “Summers residence, Willow speaking.”

“Miss Rosenberg,” the doctor greet me. “How are you feeling this morning?”

“Still sick,” I answer.

“Well, that’s understandable, considering your condition,” he tells me. My jaw clenches. Condition? What condition?

“Condition?” I ask quietly. “Am I gonna be ok?”

“You’ll be just fine, Willow,” he answers me. "Actually, I have good news. You’re pregnant.” I swear my heart stopped. I freeze, I don’t know what to do. I must have misheard him.

“W-what did y-you say?” I ask, stuttering.

“The tests we ran came back positive for pregnancy,” he says. I remain silent, nearly dropping the phone. He said it, he actually said what I thought he said. But how? I mean, I can’t be, no possible way. “Miss Rosenberg? Are you alright?”

“What? Huh?” I reply. I forgot I was on the phone.

“Are you alright?” he repeats. “I take it this wasn’t planned.”

“No,” I answer, my voice hollow. He tells me he’s called in some prescriptions for me, they should be ready at the pharmacy. To combat the morning sickness he says. Morning sickness? He’s also prescribed some pre-natal vitamins. He gives me the number of some doctors to call, and sets up a follow-up visit.

I thank him and hang up the phone silently. This isn’t real. This can’t be happening. I quickly pinch myself. Ouch! Ok, so not a dream, an alternate reality? What’s happening?

I lean back against the headboard, resting one hand on my stomach. A baby’s growing in there? I’m trying to stay calm. What am I gonna do? Who do I tell? Should I tell anyone? God Tara, I wish you were here, you’d know what to do.

I curl up on the bed, hugging my teddy bear close. I’m moving my head in a rocking motion, it’s something I do when I’m nervous. I lay here, trying to figure out what happened, how it happened.

Magic! Suddenly it hits me, it must be magic. I jump to my feet and grab my magic books. There has to be something in here, it must be a spell of some kind. That’s it, a spell, I can deal with this.

Curses, maybe? Demons, definite possibility. Warlocks, could be. Not vampires, they couldn’t do this. Right, get into study-gal mode. I open up 5 books and start to scan all the pages, looking for anything that might help me figure this out.

I know I’ll find the answer, I have to. If not here, then I’ll go to the Magic box and read the books there. Or the internet, that’s right, I’m the hacker, I can work with a computer. Research is my thing, I can do this, I can do this.

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tbc....

I hope ya like it Kittens! Please, tell me whatcha think. I'm hoping to get 7 fbs before the next update, lol.

Blessed Be,
Sarah

[dragonfly]

Hello Sarah,

Sorry I'm late with my feedback, but it was good 'cause I found two great updates.

When I read that Buffy wanted to take Wil to the doctor I thought, well she's having morning sickness maybe she's pregnant, and it turn out yes she is. . Now, Tara has to come back, please

I wonder what the gan will say. Where are they? How is Tara coming back? Will it be before the baby is born? ok so many questions, I'll be good and wait for the answers in your updates.

Thank you for your thanking me again. I do like this story and from Willow's pov sounds better indeed.

Hope you had a wonderful weekend, and will have a nice week.

I can't wait for next update.
Thanks,
Clau

[Axel_Avalon]

I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT!



That was amazing. I can't wait for the next update.

[Naeryn]

You didn't change it! Woot! Well, I didn't think you'd change that part... but I'm all happy about it anyway!

When are you updating again? Soon? Please, goddess, let it be soon... *very very impatient*

[freakgirl105]

hahahahahahahahahahaha! I KNEW IT SARAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! Willow is pregnant with Tara's baby!!!!!!!!! I'm a little to happy about this...*calms down* Hee hee hee...i knew it! ok i'm done know. love the update...can't wait for more...

[sam]

Awww she's pregnant Wonderful update . Love sam xx

[Leafsdude]

Lovely update once more. I love the shock factor with Willow.
Don't have much more to add. Thanks for the dedication!

[AlysonHanniganIsMyIdol]

This is a really great story! Please write more.

[AlysonGoddess]

POOR WILLOW!! I hope everything turns out like its supposses to I beg you for an update

ERIN

[Oracle_Of_Magic]

Hey Kittens! Thanks for the warm response and all the kind fb to my fic! You're all wonderful! *big hugs*

Clau:

Hello Sarah,

Sorry I'm late with my feedback, but it was good 'cause I found two great updates.

When I read that Buffy wanted to take Wil to the doctor I thought, well she's having morning sickness maybe she's pregnant, and it turn out yes she is. . Now, Tara has to come back, please

I wonder what the gan will say. Where are they? How is Tara coming back? Will it be before the baby is born? ok so many questions, I'll be good and wait for the answers in your updates.

Thank you for your thanking me again. I do like this story and from Willow's pov sounds better indeed.

Hope you had a wonderful weekend, and will have a nice week.

I can't wait for next update.
Thanks,
Clau

Not a problem bout taking a little time on the fb, glad ya left some though. Your comments are always welcome. Yup! You were correct with your theory, congrats. I do promise a happy ending, eventually.... Thanks again for the compliment on the style, and my writing in general.

Axel:

I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT!



That was amazing. I can't wait for the next update.

Happy much? Seriously though, I'm glad you like it. Here's the update. Hope I didn't keep you waiting too long.

Meg:

:dance

You didn't change it! Woot! Well, I didn't think you'd change that part... but I'm all happy about it anyway!

When are you updating again? Soon? Please, goddess, let it be soon... *very very impatient*

Lol, I'm glad you like the bits that I kept. The re-write has been mostly smoothing things over, some major scene changes though. Not telling what they are though. You'll just have to read and find out. I'm also quite happy to know you remember the original fic! Here's my update, only 2 days. Please keep leaving fb, it's really great!

Zoe:

:applause hahahahahahahahahahaha! I KNEW IT SARAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! Willow is pregnant with Tara's baby!!!!!!!!! I'm a little to happy about this...*calms down* Hee hee hee...i knew it! ok i'm done know. love the update...can't wait for more...

Zoe, thanks a heap for leaving fb. Lol, yup, you were right! Glad you like it. Again I say, I'm a sucker for happy endings...

Sam:

Awww she's pregnant Wonderful update . Love sam xx

Sam, I'm really starting to depend on yourt two line fan fic. Short and sweet, I love it!

David:

Lovely update once more. I love the shock factor with Willow.
Don't have much more to add. Thanks for the dedication!

Lol David, you trying to take Sam's job? Seriously though, thanks a lot for the fb. You totally deserve the dedication, my friend.

AlysonHanniganIsMyIdol:

:bow This is a really great story! Please write more.

Thanks for the fb! Always great to know someone new likes my fics.

Erin:

:aww POOR WILLOW!! I hope everything turns out like its supposses to I beg you for an update

ERIN

Thanks for your kind fb. I'm also really glad I've managed to convey Willow's pain in a realistic way. I wanted this fic to allow her to grieve, something that was wrongly never given to her in the cannon. IMHO that is. In answer to your plea... Here's the update!!!!!


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Mourning My Loss
By: Oracle Of Magic

Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the BTVS characters, they are the property of Joss Whedon, and Mutant Enemy productions. No copyright infringement is intended. I am writing this story purely for enjoyment.


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Part 8

Two hours later I slam down the book I’m reading. Nothing! A big freaking zero. I’ve looked through most of my books, and nothing. Not a single thing. My head’s really hurting now, I’ve been reading for too long.

I quickly take 5 ibuprofen, and rub my temples. There has to be something here, I must be missing it. As I think this, I look over and see one last leather-bound book on the shelf. I almost forgot that one. Tara and I read from it the night before she was killed.

Wait a second! The book! That night! That’s it. Now where was it? I open the book and start searching. As I start to turn the pages, my eyes grow wider. This can’t be. I finish the chapter, and read it again, just to make sure.

I found it, I know how this happened. I start to think back to that wonderful night. The night it happened.

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Part 9
Two months two weeks ago


Tara and I are laying cuddled up in bed. We just finished making love for the first time since we got back together. It was slow, and perfect. Right now we’re gently tracing patterns on each others backs, whispering soft words of love. Basking in the afterglow.

“I love you so much,” I say softly.

“I love you too,” Tara says. “That was.”

“Wonderful,” I finish, hugging her close. She’s so gorgeous, the moonlight playing over her face. The contented smile of release. As beautiful as she is the rest of the time. She’s most beautiful after we make love.

“I want to stay like this forever,” she whispers.

“Me too,” I grin back.

“I-I have an idea,” she says tentatively. She’s stuttering, she only does that when she’s nervous. I pull her closer and give her a quick kiss.

“Are you ok?” I ask soothingly. She nods and smiles back at me. That smile, that perfect smile. It was one of the first things I fell in love with. “Then what is it honey?”

“I found a spell, a kind of affirmation of love. In it you ask for the Goddess’s blessing for a long relationship,” she said quietly.

“Sounds wonderful,” I grin.

“Do you want? I mean, maybe we could?” she starts. “This is a new start for us.”

“I’d love to,” I whisper, giving her a gentle kiss. “I’ll do anything you ever want. So what do we need to do?”

“Well, I read about it in a new magic book, I need to get it,” she said. She sits up and reaches for a small leather-bound book on the nightstand. She settles back into bed, and into my arms, then starts to flip through the pages. “Here it is,” she says, holding the book open for me to read.

My heart soars when I read the blessing. It’s perfect, it’s just how I feel about Tara, about our love. We quickly memorize the blessing, then set the book down.

We lay on our sides, facing each other. Our heads bent together, foreheads touching. We gently grasp the others hand. Then just take a moment to look deeply into each others eyes.

“Ready?” I ask. She nods. And so we start, the moonlight cascading over us, lighting the room with it’s soft glow. We softly start to recite the blessing to each other:

By the powers of magic
May our wish be granted.

Open mind and grant new life,
Gone from us, all stress and strife.
Open heart, gain life anew,
Accept all love that's offered you.

By earth, fire, wind and sea
Into our arms, our love will be.
Great Goddess, we ask of thee,
Life joins life and blessed it be.

We place a hand on the other’s heart, and lean in for a kiss. The kiss ignites our passion again, as we slip under the covers. We make passionate love, my body starts to tingle instantly. It’s more intense than anything I’ve ever experienced.

And that’s saying a lot. Making love with Tara is always amazing. A few minutes later we both shudder as the orgasm washes over both of us. We cry out each others names as we release. We collapse and hold each other close. “I love you so much,” I pant.

“I love you too,” Tara answers. We snuggle together and rest. Falling asleep wrapped tightly in each others arms. Wrapped in a warm, loving, cocoon.

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tbc...

So Kittens, whatcha think? I thought I'd change pace a bit, give a happy, and at the same time, sad chapter. I look forward to your comments. I'm hoping for 10 responses before I update again. I know, sneaky, dity, rotten trick. So, the faster your post your fb, the sooner you get to read the next chapter.

Blessed Be,
Sarah

[LesbianJedi87]

YAY A HAPPY UPDATE!
Lovely!
One thing though...
I swear to god I will stop reading if Tara or Willow gets pregnant because of this lol Ok thats not gonna happen I know but it always makes me nervous when a writer has then doing a spell like this...nervous indeed!
Hey I left FB!
GO ME!
Update soon!

[AlysonGoddess]

WHAT!? your leaving me like that!? I cant wait that long i need an update soon please!!!!

ERIN

[Axel_Avalon]

That was so beautiful and sad. I loved it.

[sam]

Awww, that was beautiful..and so sad . Love sam xx

[Naeryn]

That was really great. I love the spell... was that the original one? I can't remember. Either way, the wording is really nice, and loose enough to be interpereted either as a spell to grant a child *or* as just a simple blessing.

[DarkWiccan]

Good update again, Sarah. I just have one question. Would Tara really be that eager to do magick with Willow so soon after their reconciliation to a breakup that was caused by overuse of magick? I mean, obviously, your entire story sort of relies on the answer as being "yes". But I was just curious as to your thought process regarding Tara's line of thinking here.

Cheers!!
DW

[rezeaka]

I've enjoyed the last couple updates a lot too. Sorry I missed posting feedback on a couple -- been a BUSY few days!

I'll admit that after reading the last chapter I found myself wondering about the same thing DarkWiccan mentioned. I was definitely skeptical that Tara would be so quick and eager to do a spell with Willow given the grounds of their split. Granted it seems to be a white magic spell...and it did seem that it was more along the lines of a blessing than a spell per say...but none the less...Tara asking Willow if she wanted to do a spell the night they got back together definitely had me thinking about the likeliness of it.

But all "technicalities" aside...I'm still loving this re-write and continue to anxiously await the next update! You're definitely still getting me with the heart "wrench-y-ness" of Willows mourning, which in spite of the subject matter, is a very good thing!

-annie

[dragonfly]

Hey Sarah,

Here I am adding my cent to the cause. Now, you want at least 10 replies so an update is posted?! very sneaky.

I liked the spell, and didn't Tara know that they could create a new life with it? She brought it up because of the blessing she wanted for them, but Willow felt something special after they made love, didn't Tara feel anything?

This update was sad, good memories but sad. I can't wait for Tara to come back, but I get the feeling that there's a long road ahead.

Ok, I'm off to dreamland.
Clau

[SylverMaki]

Well let me just say 'sigh' and 'whew'. Ok here is my honest opinion of this story. It is friggin awesome! Really sad but cool that Willow is pregnant even if Tara isn't around right now. Buffy is being really supportive and finally back in her element after being dead and coming back.

Love how Buffy is and I love that Willow mourned because she didn't do to much of that on the show and I felt gipped.

So if I could say something profound about this story I'd say this:

The tide follows the moon but moon circles the earth. What will follow its own path, who will make a significant uncharted way for this birth?

Love the story keep it up modest woman!

[Leafsdude]

*Dances around* *said in a sing-along way* She's gonna have a baby. She's gonna have a baby!

Great update! I love the poem (for lack of a better term). A bit of a bittersweet memory, but everything that's happy, whether past or present, or future, always brings a smile to a person's face, no matter what happens afterwards.

Keep it going, Sarah! This stuff is wonderful!

[Oracle_Of_Magic]

Hey Kittens! I wanted to thank you for leaving the requested 10 fbs!!!

Rose: Thanks for leaving fb! Good to see you're following the fic.

Erin: Yup! I had to leave ya hanging like that, otherwise I wouldn't have gotten my fb to feed my muse.

Axel: Thank you for your wonderful compliment. I'm glad I managed to convey all the strong emotions well, that's what I've been trying for.

Sam: Short and sweet, as always. I look forward to your next fb.

Meg: I just wanted to thank you for your fb. Thanks for your compliment on the blessing, that is something I am most proud of.

DW: Thanks for your fb, it's always great seeing that my mentor is following my fic. I do see the point of your question. Honestly, I never thought about it that much. I always looked at it as a positive, blessing, nothing more.

Annie: No problem bout taking some time to reply. RL does get in the way sometimes, lol. I hope my earlier comment to DW explained my views on the blessing. Thanks again for the compliments. "wrench-y-ness" I like that!

Clau: Thanks for your fb! I think this next chapter should help explain what Tara was thinking a bit more clearly.

Sylver: Thanks for the lofty praise! When I wrote this fic, I was getting tired of seeing fics with everyone out of character. So I decided to put extra time and effort into the fic, to make sure everyone stays in character. I am quite happy to know I managed it.

David: The muse speaks! lol Thanks again for all your help, and wonderful fb my friend.

Now, without further delay, here is chapter 10.

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Mourning My Loss
By: Oracle Of Magic

Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the BTVS characters, they are the property of Joss Whedon, and Mutant Enemy productions. No copyright infringement is intended. I am writing this story purely for enjoyment.

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Part 10
Present Day

I look more closely at the page, wait a second. I turn to the next page and start to read, my eyes growing wide.

“A Blessing Of Love. Chant these words to each other, while in a loving embrace. If said correctly, this blessing will grant the couple happiness. If said under a full moon, and with a pure love consummates their relationship directly after. A child will be conceived from both their essence. A child created of both of them. A child born out of pure love.”


I take a deep breath and let out a scream. The pain evident in my voice. Oh Goddess, our last night together, and we, we. Tara should be here! I can’t do this alone. I start to cry, the pain is even worse. She wont be here for…

Buffy must have heard me because a moment later she raced in. “Willow are you ok?” she asks hurriedly. She sees me sitting in the middle of the floor, my books scattered all around me. She quickly picks her way through them, and kneels in front of me.

I just stare at her, I don’t know what to say. “Hi,” I finally say quietly.

“Are you ok? I heard you scream. Did the doctor call? Are you ok?” she says concerned. She takes another look around the room. “And why are all your magic books out?”

“Yeah, the doctor did call,” I answer.

“And?” she prods.

“I’m pregnant with Tara’s baby,” I state. Her look changes from concern to puzzlement. I know what she’s going through. Yep, I know just what she’s thinking, it’s what I’m thinking too. Well, mostly, but I know how this happened, at least I think I do.

“Uh, Will?” she asks quietly.

“Yeah?” I answer.

“But you and Tara are both girls,” she starts. “How could? I mean, I don’t want to pry. But how could you guys, you know.”

“Magic,” I answer. “It must have happened the night before she was shot.” My breath hitches on this sentence. Buffy gives me a hug, she doesn’t know what else to do. Neither do I really.

“Umm, do you want to talk about it?” she asks. I can tell she’s uncertain. I pick up the book and find the page again. Once I find the right page, I hand it to her. I watch as she scans the page.

“Wow,” Buffy finally says.

“I know what you mean,” I answer.

“So you and Tara, uh, made a baby,” she stutters a bit.

“Yes we did,” I say. “We made a baby. Oh god, our love created another human life. When we said the blessing, we didn’t know it was a full moon out. We didn’t know, Oh God. What do I do? How can I do this without her? She never got a chance to know…” My words are cut off by my tears.

Buffy hugs me, as she’s done so many times in the last few months. I hug her back, crying so hard I don’t know if my body can take it. Here I am with what should be a happy moment.

A happy time, Tara and I made a baby, we’re going to be moms. And she’s not here, she never even got to know. I can’t stop crying, the pain is getting worse. Why wouldn’t they let me bring her back?

Buffy just holds me and rocks me gently. “It’s gonna be ok, Will. I’m here for you, the whole gang is. We’ll help you in anyway we can. You just ask, and we’ll do it. We can get through this, I swear we can get through this,” she whispers softly.

“What am I gonna do?” I sob. “I’m having her baby, and she’s not here. She wont even know.”

“She knows, Will, trust me, she knows, she’s looking out for both of you. I know it,” she answers me. “You’re having a baby, Willow. That’s a good thing. It’s a part of you and Tara, it’s a part of her.”

“I want her back, I just want her back. I want my Tara back! She should be here for this, she should be here,” I cry. “I love her. I love her so much.”

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tbc....

I hope ya like it Kittens! Again, I'm going to request 10 fbs before I update. So, after ya read, leave a comment, please.

Blessed Be,
Sarah

[freakgirl105]

wow...i'm surprised willow didn't keep it to herself that she was pregnant...but woooooooooo for telling buffy...and doh' because willow is all sad without her tara! Great update Sarah!

[sam]

Wow...just wow...this made my heart stop..it's simply amazing..I especially love the last line, that really got to me . Love sam xx

[rezeaka]

:: raises hand ::

Uhm...I'm with the "wow club" too. (for the sake of clarity, that's wow in a good way!)

This was a great update Sarah. I can just see teary Willow sitting among all the books and Buffy kneeling in front of her, and a just about speechless Willow responding to her best friend with a quiet, "Hi."

I also especially liked (and couldn't agree more with..in both fiction and reality) this part:

“What am I gonna do?” I sob. “I’m having her baby, and she’s not here. She wont even know.”

“She knows, Will, trust me, she knows, she’s looking out for both of you. I know it,” she answers me. “You’re having a baby, Willow. That’s a good thing. It’s a part of you and Tara, it’s a part of her.”

I gotta say...I'm just DYING to read how you get Tara back into the mix....this is definitely my favorite story atm! Keep up the great work Sarah!

-annie

p.s. your response to DW did clear up your views on the blessing. thanks! My pleasure on the compliments....it's kind of an "I can't not comment/compliment" this story...so blame yourself! :: haha ::

[Leafsdude]

More update-y goodness! Woooohoooo!

Anyhoo, great update, as always! Leaving us hanging again, though.
Ah, who am I kidding, I already know how this goes! Still, I must be pissed for the rest of the kittens.

I absolutely love the emotion in this fic. Very angsty, yet remaining realistic. It just makes me cry.

PS. I was totally in the wow club when I first read this, too!

[AlysonGoddess]

Wondeful update!!!!!! Im glad buffy knows now!! And I hope Tara eventually comes back.. I mean she will right?? Update soon please!

ERIN

[dragonfly]

Hello there,

I am too with the WOW, I can feel all Willow is going through, I'm glad she told Buffy. I loved that scene when Buffy found Willow in the middle of the room with all her books around her. You have Buffy like the best friend ever,
I was once in a situation like that, one of my best friends got pregnant and she didn't know what to do, we were all young, it was a tough time for us, but everything turned out fine, thank God. After that we promised we'd be there when we had our babies, she has a girl almost one year old, I don't have children yet, sometime soon I think, my boyfriend and I are talking about it, and wedding and all, it kinda scares me sometimes. Anyway, this has nothing to do with your story, sorry.

Getting back to it, yeah, a friend is a precious gift. Where's Xander?
Please bring Tara back soon, she wouldn't want to miss Willow's pregnancy.

Update soon please.
Clau.

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YAY! I GOT IN! Great update! even tho i read it at your other post already...lol... BUT GREAT NEVER THE LESS! I RECOMMEND YOU ALL TO CONTINUE READING!


- thea