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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby viximon » Wed Jul 26, 2006 9:33 am

That last chapter was full of emotional wives. Lovely. Poor "plain" Willow must be really feeling out of place. What about the other Willow? How the shifting happened? Yada yada
Very good chapter, keep it up :peace
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby SithLordWiccan » Wed Jul 26, 2006 10:02 am

You know, there are times, in both fics and the show, when I just wanna throttle Anya for being so goddamned insensitive to other people. This certainly is one of those times. For her to be so tactless in revealing to Willow that she (at least here, don't know yet if she is in the AU verse) is a lesbian is just the height of stupidity. It's certainly going to make dealing with Tara a whole lot more complicated than it really needs to be.

Glad to see that Buffy's being all helpful gal. You must be taking a page out of my book. Hopefully things will be better for your Buffy than they were for mine.

Can't wait to see the next update. (And hopefully, what happened to the other Willow.)
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby Lonewolf22 » Wed Jul 26, 2006 10:53 pm

SallyMcFine: Great update, sorry for the late feedback, haven't been online for a couple of days. I felt really bad for Xander and for Willow, I mean what could he be thinking, he and Willow best friends, then he finds out that that other Xander died in a car accident that he went through too, and poor Willow, her best friend all of the sudden is alive and well. I loved how Tara showed the other Willow that magic does exist, and very funny how she thought that Tara was a telekinetic. It was a little weird to see that the other Willow is not the big knowledge woman that our Willow is. I absolutely loved how Anya just up and told Willow that she is a lesbian, so funny. Where is our Willow? I can't wait to read more.

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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby watty » Fri Jul 28, 2006 5:37 am

Not quite complete meltdown, but closer and closer to it. Poor Willow. Talk about information overload, and on stuff that is so alien in her world.

I mentioned last chapter how the Scoobies instinctively rallied around New!Willow to make her comfortable. I'm still liking that aspect of their behavior. But I'm a little unhappy about the insinuation that Other!Willow may be responsible for the shift. I dunno, may be I read it wrong, but when Giles starts talking about Other!Willow staying up too late at the Magic Shop and Tara saying she hopes she didn't try any spells ... it just makes me want to go "hey!" at them.

Xander and Willow were definitely close. I must admit that if someone I hadn't seen since we were 13 came up to me, I may not recognize them. Not because I'm old, it's just that facial features change when one grows up. But since Willow lost Xander to tragic circumstances, I'm thinking she has him on her mind a lot which helps with the recognition. I'm also thinking that Xander is going to play a large part in New!Willow's acceptance of what's going on in this dimension, she trusts him so.

I actually think Anya has a point, that New!Willow needs to be told about her relationship with Tara. How were the Scoobies going to tell her? How was Tara? It'll be awkward when it comes to bedtime, and Willow's initial reaction about Tara wanting to have sex (that's what she's thinking, right?) is a fair one. Tara has been kind and considerate to Willow so far, even though she must be in knots inside, surely Willow can see that Tara is trustworthy (and won't jump her bones :P).

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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby AntigoneUnbound » Fri Jul 28, 2006 6:52 pm

Sally McFine, You're Ever So Divine... I love reading your stuff!

Now--let me move from that profound, insightful feedback to something a little more...meaningful. I think what I appreciate most (aside from your lovely facility with the language itself) is the way you combine elements that are necessary but which, in lesser hands, might not dance particularly well together. In these two updates, you need to impart the information re: alternate universes, with something akin to sufficient detail. And yet there's so much emotional stuff going on. How do you wind out the math stuff w/o losing the emotional? You mix those two so well. Your pacing is excellent, and your use of dialogue brings a huge, happy grin to my Irish face. I also love how you combine poignant with hysterical. (They're not just lovers, Anya--they're lesbian lovers!) Throughout this, you stay in Willow's POV, which could make conveying Tara's anguish difficult; you do it, however, through her troubled gaze and her strained silence and her hesitant speech. She must be in hell, yet you resist the urge to make that overly dramatic. Instead you let us feel her through watching her. (And who of us wouldn't like to feel Tara? I know I would.)

Some specific things that I particularly enjoyed:

*"I'm not up on my physics." Well that oughtta make everybody stop and tremble with dread. Truly, something is wrong in this world.

*Xander's dead?!? Yowza--that was a powerful touch. Really underscored how that crazy butterfly, flapping its wings, can alter the course of events. It also gave us a chance to see the development of her various relationships. We learn about this Willow in part through her loss. Speaking of her relationships, I absolutely love this sentence:
They had found each other at needy times in their lives, and after the need had ebbed, they had discovered that they actually liked each other.
That's just perfect, Sal. Captures how they came together, and what makes them stay together.

*The relelation about Shakespeare: fantastic! So that's where all those great plays came from! That was just a great touch.

Lovin' this, Sally! Can't wait for more.

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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby ringwaldoeuvre » Fri Jul 28, 2006 9:18 pm

This story is very compelling, and each chapter has been really great. I find the similarities and differences to be intriguing, so much so that I would probably be just as engaged in the other universe where the "other Willow" may have surfaced.

I especially like your attention to detail, and your meaningful dialogue. It provides character development and also moves the plot along at the same time. Very efficient of you!

I am, of course, very fascinated by where you will take the story next. Thanks, looking forward to more.

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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby Tarababy77 » Sun Jul 30, 2006 3:19 pm

Those were great updates!!! And it never fails, Anya can make a person blush with her outspoken'ness. But, I glad that Willow is not rejecting everyone and is willing to help with the situation. I hope she finds strength and content with Tara.

Anyhoo, keep up the awesome work. Hope to see more soon. Smiles. =)

BTW, thinking about a Willow who doesn't know quantum physics is pretty scary... =)
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby Emms » Mon Jul 31, 2006 4:03 pm

I owe you feedback, Sally! Man I'm falling way behind here. heehee. I'll come back and feedback as soon as I can, sweetie!
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby JustSkipIt » Mon Jul 31, 2006 7:10 pm

Hey SallyPants,
Sorry it’s taken me a little while to get to the fb for this fantastic story. First and foremost my compliments on using the word kerflummoxed. That’s a word that doesn’t really get enough play in fic or in the rest of life. Yet, if you think about it it would be a good word to print next to Xander’s name in a “how to write fan fic” primer. Perhaps Buffy’s too.

You write Tara’s support of Willow’s shock and ensuing story very well. She does a great job of trying to lay out the information everyone needs without tossing in any that everyone doesn’t need. I love the idea of 13 year old Xander driving his parents home. I’m not saying it’s a great event but obviously in this case, it made all the difference. I

"What else is different in your world?" Anya directed her question to Willow. "Are you..."

"Let's not overwhelm Willow with a lot of questions just yet," Giles interrupted.
Excellent job Giles (and obviously Sally) for extending our curiosity longer and keeping Willow in the dark.

"You guys must really think I'm gullible," she finally said.
Ha ha! See, no one ever seems to react like that. Crossovers are always like, “oh. Vampires. Can I have a donut?” I like this disbelief much better.

"Certainly Buffy's experience with her personal timeline being tampered with was odd
And euphemism of the day goes to…

I must say that I love Anya even more in fan fic than in the show. She’s just so ripe. She’s hilarious and honest and you do a wonderful job with her. She gets all the best lines: hippie communal property and Shakespeare. Fantastic.

"Yes, yes, Willow would be - can you give him a hand, Willow? Even if physics isn't one of your specialties, you likely have an aptitude for it."
Lol. Gee, welcome to the dimension: could you read some quantum physics. Tee hee.

I like your description of how Buffy and Willow formed their friendship.

Tara started to speak, but Anya beat her to it. "Yes - and lesbian lovers, too." She said it directly, not trailing off or whispering as everyone else had been doing all day.
Yay Anya. Way to completely freak Willow out and get that elephant from the corner. I can’t even imagine what that would feel like to Willow. I mean if she was gay and found out that she had a girlfriend, that would be one thing but not even having an inkling about being gay and here’s her lover? Major freak-out time.

Oh my god. Is she going to want to… Willow didn't finish the thought. She pressed her fingers to her temples.
I love this line because it’s just so classically ridiculous. I mean it’s like that “will she look at me in the locker room?” thought. Like all classically ridiculous thoughts. And at the same time, it’s very endearing and cute. Particularly since she doesn’t correct herself as soon as the thought enters her head and even more so because she doesn’t smile inwardly thinking that maybe… because…

I love this. Every single solitary part of this. Not just because you are writing so wonderfully but also because I seriously have no idea what is coming! Woo and hoo! (although I did call “it” with Xander). I can’t wait for the next update.
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby FineyMcFine » Sat Aug 05, 2006 4:16 pm

Knock yourself out

You write flowing and succinct prose which is a pleasure to read and your intriguing story helps too.


Your feedback is complimentary and effusive and always a pleasure to read.

I totally agree, I have always been very impressed with Emma Caulfield's acting. Sometimes BtVS had so many characters that it was hard to develop the minor characters as much as I would have liked. I've always been surprised that I haven't seen EC in more TV shows or movies - she's so talented.
What has the missing Willow been up to?


I suppose I've been coy about this for long enough. I regret to say it, especially since so many people are curious, but we're not going to see canon Willow for most of this story, nor get more than a cursory summary of what she's been up to. I outlined this story as AU Willow's "story," as well as a sub-plot that deals with the canon cast of characters. What I will say, though, is at the end we'll find out what happened to canon Willow.

Thank you for your continued interest!

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Boadecia

No kidding, I think that seeing shock and revulsion from anyone who looked exactly like your longtime partner would throw even the most grounded person for a loop. Another interesting scenario of this nature would be if someone lost their memory, much like Willow in hermitfish's story, what's it called...I seem to have lost my memory. Fragments of Perception, that's what it's called. Yeah.

and hmmm, is there going to be a parallel of willlow in another dimension?


I'm going to cut and paste this answer that I wrote for Knock yourself out since a lot of people have the same question:

I suppose I've been coy about this for long enough. I regret to say it, especially since so many people are curious, but we're not going to see canon Willow for most of this story, nor get more than a cursory summary of what she's been up to. I outlined this story as AU Willow's "story," as well as a sub-plot that deals with the canon cast of characters. What I will say, though, is at the end we'll find out what happened to canon Willow.

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Hey Anne - no frettage about the typos and the cat on your arms and lap, awwwwwwwww. Cats are sweet (well, some of them are, anyway...)

The hints that you are intrigued by were meant to be hints into where in canon S6 this interlude falls (which Grayson guessed correctly - it's right after "Life Serial", the one where the Nerd Trio messes with Buffy's head when she's trying out jobs at Xander's construction company and the Magic Box, etc.). And yeah - who was Tara irritated with? I meant it to be that she was irritated with Willow, because Willow's been working hard and driving herself really hard, for a few reasons.

Tara and Giles did do the Tinkerbell spell, the locater spell - it just happened "off-camera." When Giles told Xander to research physics with Willow, he also said "Tara, I need you to help me perform a locater spell." (or something like that). In the first draft I had forgotten about it, though, so I'm glad I put it back in since you had the same thought.

Thanks for reading!

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Hey Grayson, I can't imagine what it would be like to find out that you died in another dimension, and not only that, but a decision you made that night saved your life, and that you would have died otherwise. Thank you for your nice comments about how I write Anya - I find that she's a great character and always has something interesting to say when she's percolating around inside my head.

You win the prize for figuring out where we are in the canon timeline - it is indeed S6 right after Life Serial! That's correct with her timeline being messed up - she kept having to sell the mummy hand over and over again, like on Groundhog Day.

I'm glad to know that you like that we're in Willow's head - like I've said to others who have been wondering about canon Willow, we aren't going to see her that much in this story. Yeah, I wonder what Willow's reaction will be like. Well, I don't really wonder, since I know. :) We'll see some more of it soon.

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Hey Vale - I'm so glad that you love this story! :) Anya is quite the outspoken ex-demon, isn't she? Leaving nothing at all to the imagination, that's her. Thanks for reading!

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Ooh, I second the "what's the other Willow up to?" thoughts. There's gotta be a Tara in that Willow's current dimension


Well, I'm going to post the paragraph that I've been posting in replies when people have mentioned this here:

I suppose I've been coy about this for long enough. I regret to say it, especially since so many people are curious, but we're not going to see canon Willow for most of this story, nor get more than a cursory summary of what she's been up to. I outlined this story as AU Willow's "story," as well as a sub-plot that deals with the canon cast of characters. What I will say, though, is at the end we'll find out what happened to canon Willow.

HOWEVER. I will say that not only is this entire story planned out, there is a sequel, also, and so some of your speculations may be correct.

Hee, glad you like this Anya. I've tried to write her close to canon, which is my favorite Anya, of course. I appreciate your feedback. :) Thanks!

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Hey, db-pants! I'm so gratified to hear that you love the AU Willow. It was important to me that since she's from a similar, but not identical dimension that she be similar but not identical to canon Willow. And the powers of observating are a very Willow thing. And yeah - when Xander died she checked out a bit, and then her friendship with an isolated, non-Slayer Buffy didn't really create any kind of need for her to develop any kind of research or computer skills. And she didn't have much basis or interest, since it was a different world anyway.

I'm pretty sure she'll want to talk to Xander. In a way, it's like getting a whole new, what's the word, chance. Hee hee, yeah - I couldn't resist having Anya be the way Willow found out about her counterpart's relationship and sexual orientation. It was too good a use for the outspokenness of Anya masquerading as tactlessness. But how many times have we all seen a TV show or read a book where someone tries to keep something a secret from someone else and it ends up making it ten times worse? Anya might be on to something, for all that she's created some drama. Actually, that might be part of her strategy - bring down the wrath of the Scoobies upon herself and distract them from staring at Willow seeing how she's going to react...

You're welcome for the hint! So you figured out that it was after Life Serial too? :)

Hmmm. Canon Willow, if we're sticking to canon (which I am doing my best) did indeed start going...astray in S6. For all that many kittens don't really buy a lot of the storyline and the magic addiction, it's what we have to work with. I think there's a reason for it that's revealed in canon, though - so while I agree with a bit of the anger towards her, you shiny nickel-haver, I also want to explore a bit in this fic the reasons why things went the way they did.

Thank you so much!

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Hi Caz! I guess Willow is taking the revelations in her stride, although I hope it doesn't seem too much so - I'm trying to have her freak out a bit too. Yeah, that Anya - you can't take her anywhere. And yeah, I agree that Willow deserves quality time with the X-man (no, not THAT X-man). ;) It's in the plan. Thanks for reading!

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Poor Willow indeed! I think that one way or another Willow will get a little comfort. Thank you for reading!

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Thanks for saying that Anya is honest and upfront - I think she's totally honest and upfront, which is why so often she seems off-putting. People are usually dissembling and telling white lies, but not Anya. I'm glad you're interested in the story, and we'll have an update soon on Tuesday!

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I'm so glad that you're enjoying the story! Confusion abounds, for sure. And yeah - if Giles' theories about dimensions hold true, and it seems like he's pretty right on, then there are infinite universes where Willow is very very similar to how she is in canon, and where she's totally different. And universes where she doesn't exist at all. This particular Willow seems fairly close to her canon counterpart, all things considered.

And the 'real' Willow - I'll quote myself with the answer I've been giving to people who have asked:

I suppose I've been coy about this for long enough. I regret to say it, especially since so many people are curious, but we're not going to see canon Willow for most of this story, nor get more than a cursory summary of what she's been up to. I outlined this story as AU Willow's "story," as well as a sub-plot that deals with the canon cast of characters. What I will say, though, is at the end we'll find out what happened to canon Willow.

I will say that we'll find out some more about what part she's playing in it, though, even though she won't be making an appearance for most of the fic.

Buffy's timeline and Willow's zappage - coincidence, or conspiracy? You decide, in upcoming chapters. :) Thanks for reading!

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I'm wondering if 'messing with the timeline' is just another way of describing raising Buffy from the dead?


It was meant to imply that it was after "Life Serial," the one where the Nerd Trio messes with Buffy and she has to sell the mummy hand over and over again. And so thusly, canon Buffy has been raised from the dead, and is depressed, but she's doing an...okay job of hiding it, like I interpret her to have done in canon. She wasn't clinically depressed and all in Life Serial, just a little off and a little disconnected since she was keeping it to herself since she didn't want to crush Willow et al for bringing her back. You know how she was keeping the fact that she had been in heaven to herself?

I understand about not liking the Willow/magic/irresponsibility thing after S5. As for Willow possibly abusing magic, it's my interpretation in canon that she wasn't really "abusing" it as such until she and Tara had a fight in Once More With Feeling. I think she might have been using it a lot, overusing it, whatever you'd like to call it, before then, but she crossed a line when she made Tara forget their fight in OMWF.

However, we're not at that point yet in canon timeline in this story - DD is set after Life Serial.

Wonder if the Willows will get to meet, could be educational :p


Sure could be! I don't think I'm talented enough to write that believably right now, though.

Anya may indeed by 1100 years old but she hasn't learned any subtlety or tact in those years, gradually revealing differences would have been wiser.


Maybe...but I think that while on the surface, Anya was just being "herself" and speaking out, I think she was trying to save Willow the embarrassment of how the Scoobs would probably have handled it - hemming and hawing, dancing around the subject, until it was awkward when they were at Buffy's house and she realized that Willow and Tara share a room, and then Willow felt like she had been deceived. I don't know if Anya thinks much of their communication skills - I think of her line in OMWF saying "Or we could just sit around and glare" impatiently.

Anyway, thanks for reading, grimmy - I always enjoy your insights.

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What are emotional wives? Do you mean Tara, or is that an idiom I'm not familiar with? Yeah, plain Willow with no magic skills plopped down in this dynamic exciting world, yeah. As far as the other Willow and how the shifting happened, I'll post what I have been saying to everyone who has asked:

I suppose I've been coy about this for long enough. I regret to say it, especially since so many people are curious, but we're not going to see canon Willow for most of this story, nor get more than a cursory summary of what she's been up to. I outlined this story as AU Willow's "story," as well as a sub-plot that deals with the canon cast of characters. What I will say, though, is at the end we'll find out what happened to canon Willow.

Thanks for reading! :)

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Hey Sith - see above, one of the paragraphs in my reply to grimlock's feedback. I have a theory that Anya thinks people should be more direct and would save themselves a lot of grief, so I think this was Anya's way of trying to spare AU Willow further embarrassment.

I've always thought that Buffy was helpful, in fits and starts. In canon when watching old eps I view Buffy as being adrift at this point in the story, especially since most everyone is paired up and not her. Riley left her and she died, meanwhile Willow and Tara and Xander and Anya are a couple, and her mom dies, and she and Dawn aren't relating well at this point (klepto Dawn acting out, among other things). So I think that in a lot of ways people didn't really need Buffy as their number one friend when she used to be more hero-worshipped in high school. But this Willow needs her - she's the only familiar face, so Buffy is rising to the occasion.

Thanks for reading!

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Lonewolf22

Hey Lonewolf22 - thanks for continuing to read! Yeah, I know, it would be VERY unsettling to learn that your counterpart had died in another dimension - especiallly if you had experienced the same sort of thing and had made a different decision and it probably saved your life. How often do things like that happen and you don't know it - and then, how often do things like that happen and you DO know it?

Yeah, I think that while this Willow doesn't have the same math and computer skills (or at least, confidence) that canon Willow does, she's pretty smart. We'll see a little of that as we go along.

As for where canon Willow is, I'll paste what I've been typing to everyone who asks:

I suppose I've been coy about this for long enough. I regret to say it, especially since so many people are curious, but we're not going to see canon Willow for most of this story, nor get more than a cursory summary of what she's been up to. I outlined this story as AU Willow's "story," as well as a sub-plot that deals with the canon cast of characters. What I will say, though, is at the end we'll find out what happened to canon Willow.

Thanks for reading!

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Yes, you are so perceptive - closer and closer to meltdown, and information overload. And yeah, the Scoobs are mostly rising to the occasion with AU Willow, but all of the problems that were brewing in S6 (which can be also the same as problems with the storyline, but I digress) are present here. I recall that on the show when they resurrected Buffy and Giles came back and Willow told him what she had done, he got angry with her and called her a "rank, arrogant amateur." So I'm trying to preserve that dynamic of Giles and Tara being somewhat concerned about Willow's extreme use of magic. I think there are reasons for it, which I will explore in further chapters.

But yeah - I can relate to the feeling of being annoyed with Giles and Tara jumping to the conclusion that Willow was somehow responsible for what happened to her.

I think you're right and that facial features do change as people age, but they look similar enough in many ways that you can always have a tickle at the back of your head saying "I know this person." I think the neuroscience research that looks into how our brains recognize people is fascinating.

watty, bless your heart for thinking that Anya has a point. I agree with you. I think that Anya suspected the Scoobs were going to avoid the topic and try to break it to her gently, which probably would have ended up making her feel uncomfortable and like she had been duped. And yeah, I think that Willow probably realizes that her jumping to the conclusion that Tara would want to have sex with her was ridiculous, but I think it's somewhat representative about how people who don't have a lot of experience with gay people think of them in terms of the sex act. That's certainly how I thought about gay people when I was younger ("They do WHAT?") so I'm certainly bringing much of my own history into her reaction.

I put the steak and kidney pie and Marmite and toast in there just for you (and all others with an affinity for the UK). I can't imagine eating anything called Marmite, it would make me think of a Marmot.

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AntigoneUnbound, you ought to be crowned! :) Alternate universes, parallel dimensions, quantum theory - you are right, this information is usually the stuff that dreams are made of. And I say that in the sense of usually talk about physics puts people to sleep, as Buffy pantomimed. But it's not anyone's fault - it's the math's fault. Remember Milli Vanilli and their song "Blame it on the Rain?" Most people don't know that that song actually started as "Blame it on the Trig, yeah yeah. Blame it on the integer you didn't square last night..." But most people thought the song didn't have commercial appeal so they changed it to something more people could relate to.

Anyway, yeah - physics talk doesn't always intuitively mesh with panic, alarm, etc. Your compliments about the use of dialogue bring a blush to my cheeks even as they bring a grin to your Irish face. (And I love the phrase "lesbian lovers" - ever since on Friends when Ross' ex-wife was having a baby and everyone in the hospital was crowding into her room and the doctor finally said "Everyone in the room who isn't an ex-husband or a lesbian life partner, leave!"

Bless you and keep you, Mary, for pointing out that the story is told through Willow's POV. It makes the writing part a teeny bit more challenging since I have to show how other people are feeling through what they say and do rather than what they think, but Mrs. Beta and I thought that keeping it in AU Willow's POV only was the way to go - because this is her story primarily. Her bildungsroman, as it were.

(And who of us wouldn't like to feel Tara? I know I would.)


LOL!

The whole Xander being dead thing - I often wonder, what seemingly inconsequential decisions have far-reaching consequences, and how? One of my favorite games is "What If."

Mary, thank you thank you thank you thank you.

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ringwaldoeuvre

Hi Mary - thank you very much! I appreciate the feedback. Yeah, I think that a fun thing is little hints that specify differences between the world that we are all familiar with from watching the show, and then this world that is similar but different in some various ways. Thank you also for the dialogue comment - I think that dialogue, for me, makes a story easier and more enjoyable to read. The friction, tension, and pleasure that can result from characters talking to each other is the part of a story that I usually most enjoy reading.

Thank you for reading!

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Aaron, thanks! Yeah, Anya doesn't adhere to any recognized rules of "polite" interpersonal interaction, which is why we love her. We'll see what it is that she finds with Tara in some future chapters...

Thanks for reading!

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Emms

Okay, Emms! ;) Thanks!

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No worries Debra, and so glad you like the word kerflummoxed. Word dictionary claims it's not a word, but I know better. I picked it up from Mrs. McFine. Spellchecker kept trying to change it to flummoxed. And yeah - there's sometimes with baffled just won't do, and kerflummoxed is the word you need.

Totally. I applaud the young Xander for making a tough decision that saved his life, but that doesn't mean that he should have been faced with it. The people who ought to have been protecting him aren't the ones who need to be endangering his life. The moral, I suppose, is don't drink and drive.

Hee hee re: Giles cutting off Anya. I think he was on to her. And yeah, crossovers all too often have the characters exhibiting the willing suspension of disbelief too quickly, I agree. But also: mmm, donuts.

Heeeeeeeeeeeee - Anya is ripe! I love that expression. And I love giving her good lines. I can't help it, I'm an Anya-holic. (Dear, dear.) No kidding, welcome to this dimension, could you read some quantum physics. The way you state it in your fb makes it sound hilarious. I'm on a plane right now writing fb replies and trying not to laugh too obviously.

I'm super-psyched that you also like it that Anya spilled them beans to Willow. I think it was the best thing, all things considered. Hope you like what comes next, Debra!
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby FineyMcFine » Tue Aug 08, 2006 3:40 am

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Title: Dimension Dementia
Part: 6
Author: SallyMcFine
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Rating: PG
Disclaimer: All disclaimers apply
Thanks: To my beta, Mrs. McFine, for her editing and storyline skills that are out of this world.
Setting: AU/canon crossover
Summary: What happens when a shy, introverted girl is torn away from her world and deposited into a dimension full of vampires, demons, and…a girlfriend?
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Part 6 - Numb

The silence drew out as Willow fastened her seatbelt. Her mind was racing, but she felt denial lurking around the edges of her thoughts. She was stunned by what the demon girl - Anya - had said. Lesbian lovers? Had that been her way of trying to make a joke? But nobody had seemed to take it as a joke. They had seemed annoyed that she had blurted it out, as if they had wanted to keep it a secret.

Truth be told, she hadn't really paid that much attention to Tara since she had...arrived here. Tara's overly familiar attention in the beginning had been confusing, and she had been glad to turn her attention to Buffy when they had arrived at Giles' apartment. And when Xander had walked in - well, her world had been rocked, to put it mildly. But now, she found herself remembering when Tara had first walked out of Middle Earth - no, the Magic Box, she corrected herself - and kissed her hello in greeting. And the warmth that had spread through her body...

She closed her eyes and leaned back as Buffy put the car in gear. She was tired, confused, and upset, so she did what she usually did in these situations - tried to shove the troubling thoughts aside. It was something that had become good at ever since Xander had died. She had spent hours on her bed during that interminable summer before she met Buffy, breathing and grimly not thinking about Xander until it became second nature. She got so good at it that she successfully applied it to other areas in her life, like during arguments with Danny. Even though it hadn't ended up very well as a relationship strategy, all things considered, she didn't mind. It kept her from dwelling too long on anything upsetting.

It wasn't working quite as well today, however. One thing after another had been piling on to the chronic worry she had been feeling during the week about her head injury: being sucked out of her world with no idea how to get back, people who were both startlingly familiar and totally alien, seeing a long-dead friend suddenly alive and grown up - and now...this. She tried to swallow, but the lump in her throat refused to go away. Trying to hold back the tears only seemed to urge them on - but the last thing she wanted to do was to break down again in the car, without even the refuge of a bathroom for some privacy.

As they pulled away from the curb, she heard Tara's voice and realized the blonde was speaking to her. She opened her eyes and saw Tara looking at her, twisting her body slightly to face her in the back seat.

"Willow? I know all of this must be a lot for you to absorb right now. Believe me, we're going to do everything we can to find out how to get you back. It will be okay, I promise."

Willow didn't reply, but she was surprised to feel just a tiny bit better. Tara's tone was soothing, and the promise that everything was going to be okay, however unlikely that was, was slightly reassuring. She met Tara's eyes and nodded, and then leaned her head back against the headrest again.

After a stop at the high school - still the Sunnydale Razorbacks, and the school colors still the unsettling combination of maroon and gold - to pick up Buffy's sister Dawn, they were soon pulling up in front of the Summers home. When they had stopped at the high school, Tara had gotten out of the car to speak to Dawn for a few minutes before they got in. It seemed she had filled Dawn in on the situation and told her that Willow was feeling fragile, for which Willow was grateful, because the teenager only gave her a subdued greeting and didn't pepper her with questions.

Buffy unlocked the door and led the way in. For Willow, it was again a familiar but eerily different experience.

She had practically lived at Buffy's house during high school - before Joyce had died, anyway. The house here matched up well enough in terms of location and layout, but her first impression upon walking in was of subtle difference, just like everything else in this world. In her world, Joyce's decorating tastes had run toward the "country living" style of interior design.

This house was different - instead of gingham-checked lampshades, pictures of sunflowers, and rooster wallpaper, the walls were painted with rich, deep colors. The wooden coffee table held large hardback books about art on its lower shelf. Tasteful objets d'art dotted the room and made an uneasy truce with the telltale signs of a house peopled by women in their early twenties and a teenager - bottles of nail polish, a discarded sweater draped over the couch, copies of Glamour magazine, and an untidy pile of shoes by the front door.

Willow felt suddenly weary - if she had felt tired before, it was nothing compared to now. She couldn't face this familiar house and being surprised at every turn by what was different. She didn't want to be introduced to Buffy's sister after the silent car ride, or try to figure out her counterpart's relationship to Tara, or to continue to notice this Buffy's strength and confidence. She wanted nothing more than to crawl into bed in a dark room and just drift away for a while.

"Buffy," she said as soon as they were all inside, "I'm exhausted. Is there somewhere that I could just...take a nap?"

Buffy gave her an understanding look.

"Sure thing, Will." She glanced at Tara, whose expression was neutral.

"You can take my room - you can have it till we figure out how to get you home. Let me just get you some clean sheets and grab some stuff out of there." Buffy led Willow down the hall.

Dawn looked at Tara, who blew out a helpless breath.

"What is going on?" she asked Tara. "I hate it when you guys just tell me to just be quiet and not ask questions. Did something happen to her last night?"

"You could say that," Tara said, moving to the couch and sitting down. She took the crumpled cardigan from the back of the couch and started folding it absently as she filled Dawn in on the events of the morning and afternoon. As she was finishing the story, Buffy returned and sat next to Tara.

"How is she?" Tara asked.

"I think she was asleep almost before I left the room. She looked pretty beat."

"I don't blame her," Tara said.

"But wait a minute," Dawn said. Tara nodded and looked at her expectantly.

"How do we really know that she's from another dimension? Maybe it's our Willow, but her memory was altered somehow if she was experimenting with magic last night. Or maybe she accidentally conjured up a demon that changed her memories."

Tara sighed. "Giles and I thought about that. We figured that a locater spell would be able to tell us if it was really Willow, minus her memories. But it - well, it didn't work."

"What happened?" Buffy said. "Giles sent me to the Magic Box to get that demon book."

"The light appeared, and it just...didn't move. It didn't go out to the living room, or out the window, or the front door. It just sat there." Tara's shoulders slumped as she recounted this.

"Did you call her cell phone?" Dawn asked.

"Yes - it went straight to voicemail," Tara said. "And I didn't hear a ring - so if this Willow had been my Willow - our Willow - with amnesia, we probably would have at least heard it ring in her pocket or something."

"Well, wouldn't that mean that her cell phone is in this dimension, if she's in this dimension?" Dawn asked. Her forehead was creased and her voice rose as she asked the question.

"I don't know, Dawnie," Tara said. "I don't know what a cell phone would do if it were transported to another dimension." She closed her eyes against the ridiculousness of the conversation.

"Not that this is conclusive either, but she was wearing different clothes today than last night." Buffy said. "And her hair is a little different. It's pretty easy to make your hair shorter overnight - but not longer."

"You can do it with magic," Dawn countered.

"Right - but it's not probable. If Willow had lost her memory, I don't know why the first thing she'd do would be to magically give herself a new hairstyle."

"How probable is any of this?" Dawn said in an exasperated tone. "Willow can't just be gone. Why aren't we out looking for her?"

Buffy put her hand on Dawn's shoulder. "We're trying," she said. "We spent all day researching, and Giles thinks she's probably in the dimension where this Willow came from. Everyone's coming over tonight to talk about what to do next. We'll figure it out."

Dawn shrugged off Buffy's hand. “I'm not a kid. You don't have to humor me. All I'm saying is that you don't seem very concerned about it. Willow's missing and you're telling me that people are coming over tonight to talk about it?”

"Dawn!" Buffy said with an exasperated expression. "We're all worried about Willow. We've just had a few more hours than you to freak out about it, so we're more in action mode now."

"Nevermind," Dawn said. "I'm going to my room - I have homework. Sorry, Tara," she muttered, who had kept quiet during the sisters' exchange. Without another word, she turned and stalked off to the stairs.

Buffy stared after her. "Why is it that every time I talk to her she ends up mad?" she asked, frustrated.

"She's had a rough year - first your mom, and then you, and now one of the people who took care of her till you...came back. I think this is probably pushing those buttons, and that she's also worried for Willow," Tara said sympathetically.

"Well, it pushes my buttons too," Buffy said. "But I don't go to my room all huffy." She shook her head.

Tara raised her hands, palms up, in a classic I don't know gesture.

"Speaking of people going to their rooms suddenly around here," Buffy continued, "Giles had recommended that we break the Willow-and-Tara-gay-love information to Willow slowly since she's had so many shocks today. That's what he was talking to me about before we left."

"So much for that."

"Yeah, thanks to Anya's executive decision," Buffy said. "I don't think this Willow is gay, do you? She seemed to wig out about it."

"It doesn't seem like it. That's probably for the best, I guess. I don't know." Tara rubbed at her temples.

Buffy looked at Tara. "On the subject of wigging, you seem pretty calm. It's a little eerie. How are you holding up?"

"Me?" Tara said. "F-fine."

"Don't give me that, Tara - I know you better. You must be really worried about Willow - your Willow, I mean."

Tara forced a strained smile. "I'm worried, yes. I kind of wish I could freak out like Dawn, but I'm afraid that if I lose control now, that I won't be able to get ahold of myself enough to help figure out what happened."

Buffy nodded.

"Also," Tara said sheepishly, "Giles gave me a Valium."

Buffy did a double take. "A Valium?"

"Yeah," Tara replied. "He and I were doing the locater spell in the den, and I couldn't focus - I was really really upset. I couldn't seem to stop crying no matter how hard I tried. So he gave me a pill and said it was for emergencies, and this seemed to be one. He cleaned his glasses a lot too. I think it's wearing off now, but it helped me get through the afternoon."

Buffy shook her head. "Well, I guess that's good."

"Anyway," Tara continued in a falsely confident tone, "you know Will, she can hold her own. We'll find her. I'm more worried about how we're going to switch them back."

"How are we going to switch them back?" Buffy asked. "We spent all day researching it and came up with bupkis."

"We just have to keep at it - we'll find a way," Tara said.

"We have to." Her hands tightened on the cardigan in her lap as she said this. The gesture didn't go unnoticed by Buffy, who just nodded in response.
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby mole » Tue Aug 08, 2006 4:53 am

Dibs!!!

Just what I needed to cheer me up today, an update from Sally!

A few things that struck me this time around:

I wish I had developed a coping mechanism as strong as AU Willow's. There are definitely some experiences that I would like to block out. Of course, in so doing, a person runs the risk of complete emotional shut down - of experiencing life only on the surface. With all that has happened to her in the last 24-hours, seems Willow's carefully constructed walls are crumbling.

Your description of the Summers' home is beautiful. Not because you use flowery language but because as you describe the differences from this home and the one AU Willow is used to, you give Willow (and we readers) more concrete proof that this world is not the one that Willow went to sleep in last night. I suppose it's the subtlety of it all that I find so wonderful.

I know this is a story about Willow but I have to comment on Tara. Up to this point, she has seemed so strong throughout the revelation that this Willow is not her Willow. And while in this update we find that she has had a bit of pharmacologic help from Giles (did this seems odd to anyone else? Giles certainly self-medicates with scotch, but I don't recall precription meds), we see that she is just barely holding it together - knowing that if she allows herself to freak out she'll not be able to stop freaking out. I like the image of her folding the sweater as she talks to Dawn and, later while talking to Buffy, squeezing that same sweater as if it's a life preserver. Another subtle touch that lends veracity to the tale you're weaving.

Keep up the great work, Sally!
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby Boadecia » Tue Aug 08, 2006 6:10 am

Three cheers for valium!
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby viximon » Tue Aug 08, 2006 7:10 am

Ey! Good chapter. It was time to show how the scobbies (and mostly Tara) take over the Willow and doppleganger situation.

I really am curious about how all happened but I'll not pry. I like to see how the story go on. How will Willow move on on that world. The place of magic trouble Willow (the addicted one) empty now. Yadda yadda.

Good work, keep it up ;-)
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby a willow angel » Tue Aug 08, 2006 8:05 am

Yay! I've been looking forward to an update!

I have to say, the valium, classic!! Hehe.
Can't imagine Tara coping at all without a little help.

I'm interested to see how this Willow's feeling will develop towards Tara.

Great work!!
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby Grayson » Tue Aug 08, 2006 8:44 am

"I don't know what a cell phone would do if it were transported to another dimension." - I love it! So much of the time, the Scoobies are pretty blase about all the crazy stuff they see, but sometimes they recognize the ridiculousness of it all.

I could really see the scenes you painted in this chapter - we're not inside anyone but Willow's head, so you have to convey emotions through actions. I could envision Willow and Tara in the car and Tara mangling the sweater. You're doing a great job of adhering to the writing proverb "show, don't tell."

I also really like that you don't have cheesy romantic sparks going off between Tara and Willow (partly because that would mean Tara was cheating on canon-Willow with alterna-Willow, and partly because it would be way out of character for alterna-Willow). Willow has barely noticed Tara, and Tara's thinking it's best if this Willow isn't even gay. This story is quite different from most on the board, and I'm interested to see how it will meet the requirement of W/T smoochies. These two aren't getting together, I'm guessing. I guess I'll have to keep reading to find out.
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby SithLordWiccan » Tue Aug 08, 2006 10:02 am

Oh, so this is set in Season 6, eh? And here I was thinking it was in Season 5. Did you give any hints before now that this was in Season 6, or am I really as ignorant as I lead myself to believe?

Anyways, I'm glad to see that the gang is working hard to help Willow, though I've got to say that I don't particularly like Dawn's "Oh, this is really Willow, but she doing magic to fool us" explanation. Of course, given when this story is set, that's probably the most logical (if not thought out) way to explain things, but I think that Willow's got enough problems without having to deal with the possibility that she may have done this to herself.

I do hope that things turn out OK for Willow, and that Dawn doesn't make the situation worse than it is. (Can you tell that I don't like Dawn in this fic, despite the fact that she's had only one appearance thus far?)
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby db » Tue Aug 08, 2006 1:40 pm

Sally Pants!


I have *so* been looking forward to this update...

I am glad that you reviewed Willow's feelings regarding the situation- was it a joke, it didn't seem like a joke, and she *does* make me feel a little better and more relived, but I am *so* not going to think about it cause my head is gunna explode -- seems like a logical progression of thoughts for her... plus it made sense in a story-line-sort-of-way to have her collapse into naptime to give some important how-does-*Tara*-feel-about-all-of-this time.

Valium.

Good one Giles.

*sigh*

There are gunna be some Tara tears in our future, aren't they? Then it'll make me cry and I'll be sad...

...and I can't help but hope that this Willow discovers some very gay feelings - even though it will most assuredly make everything very, very complicated...

... and bupkis. Heh. Good one. Has Willow been teaching Buffy yiddish?


I am so so SO looking forward to your next update!

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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby dorksrcool » Tue Aug 08, 2006 3:03 pm

This fic rules.

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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby Lonewolf22 » Tue Aug 08, 2006 10:20 pm

SallyMcFine: Great update, I'm also really worried about Tara, I don't like Tara to take prescription drugs but I guess it was a good idea for Giles to give it to her, she has to be strong now, I just hope that she doesn't lose it. I hope that things between Buffy and Dawn will be OK, this is a lot to take for anybody. I just really hope that Tara will be OK. I can't wait to read more.

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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby DaddyCatALSO » Wed Aug 09, 2006 5:18 am

Hmmm, actually the interdimensional cheating angle is something I explored once for W&T in, of all things, a Christmas fic.

But having Buffy drive them back to La Casa Summers...canonical Buffy...that could be the most firghtening part of this story so far.
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby Guppy » Thu Aug 10, 2006 12:59 am

Ah these updates are wonderful! Poor Tara and Willow. I wonder what it's like for the other Willow in wherever she is.
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby watty » Thu Aug 10, 2006 5:23 am

Why haven't they lost it? Completely freaked out, like Dawn has? Often we can't see beyond the annoying whiny teen, but she never hides her feelings, she doesn't think freaking out is something to avoid. Her reaction was spot on for, and made me wonder how numb the Scoobies have become over the years -- they worry about the apocalypse first, then it's themselves.

I like how you've given us even more insight into Willow's character.
She was tired, confused, and upset, so she did what she usually did in these situations - tried to shove the troubling thoughts aside.

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She wanted nothing more than to crawl into bed in a dark room and just drift away for a while.

It's so easy to ignore and sweep unknown feelings under the carpet. And she did well to maintain a still upper lip in the car. But for once in her life, this isn't the occasion.

The running intrigue about the cellphone in other dimensions, I like it too. Gives this story depth and breadth (hee, this is becoming a geometry lesson).

And Tara. Oh Tara. She's barely holding it together, I can feel it from the looks she exchanged with Buffy (re: sleeping arrangement), how her shoulders slumped when she recounted the sitch with the cell, and the nervous action with the cardigan. Medication isn't always the solution, but I think Giles did the right thing -- Tara was the one who would be most affected by the news, but she would still try to think of others first and swallow her own desperation. This is the one time that moderate chemical assistance is needed.

I'm thinking ahead. Somewhere along the lines Willow will probably unearth the attraction for Tara (IMHO that's hardwired into her DNA, whichever version of Willow Rosenberg it is), so how? Tara won't touch her, not this version. :hmm I think I am beginning to see where this story, and the next (if there is a "next") may go.
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby sadie » Thu Aug 10, 2006 6:49 am

I'm loving this story. Very BuffyTVS, very every character. And so well written! Go you, Ms. Amazin Writer! :applause
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby JustSkipIt » Thu Aug 10, 2006 1:28 pm

Sally,
Such a good update. It seems kind of interludy. You know, like it contains the movement of the principals (or half of them at least) to their next setting (for a while, I’d imagine). I find it interesting that Willow’s conscious of the
warmth that had spread through her body...
I would almost expect her to just be ignoring that but maybe with everything else, it’s almost easier piled on top. I’d think that her terror at Buffy driving would distract her but that seems to not be a thing her.
Even though it hadn't ended up very well as a relationship strategy, all things considered, she didn't mind. It kept her from dwelling too long on anything upsetting.
The therapists among us are trying to set up a session with Willow right now…

I love the description of the Summers/Rosenberg/Maclay home. All teenage girls… I’m shocked at the amount of compassion Buffy is showing here. Particularly given the placement in season six which was certainly far from her most aware season.
"Yeah, thanks to Anya's executive decision," Buffy said. "I don't think this Willow is gay, do you? She seemed to wig out about it."

"It doesn't seem like it. That's probably for the best, I guess. I don't know." Tara rubbed at her temples.
Gee, you think?

Giles gave Tara a valium? Wow, that’s a shocker but I guess nothing really wrong with it. Man, poor Tara.

Ok, here’s what I have to say. I haveno idea how this will evolve. I think that you said that there will be 15 parts to this story. And you have to obey the CDP FAQ (say that 3 times fast) and I have no idea how you’re going to do it. Not to mention that waiting 20 more weeks (4 months???!!!) to find out sounds quite torturous. Of course I trust you but I’m pretty eager/anxious to find out too.
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby grimlock72 » Sat Aug 12, 2006 1:17 pm

I doubt Willow will sleep very well, way to much things to process. Lots of subtle changes compared to Willow's universe (which is the 'correct' universe from Willow's point of view so the differences read weird;-).

I do wonder if there even was a highschool in Sunnydale after season3? It was rebuild in season7, no idea where the kids went to in the years between ;-) Was kinda waiting for Buffy to explain how they 'had to blow up the school to kill the evil mayor' to poor Willow :devilish

This quote made me wonder:
She had practically lived at Buffy's house during high school - before Joyce had died, anyway.
it seems to imply that Joyce died when Willow was still in highschool ? That's somewhere in s2 or s3 then?

Anyway, it seems this Willow tries to ignore life's problems and just marches on. That tends not to work out in the long run so I hope she'll get some help. Loosing your best friend at such a young age is a shock of course.

Besides, the current problems wont go away or get fixed by ignoring them :)
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby taralicious » Sat Aug 12, 2006 2:22 pm

Sally,
I humbly beg forgiveness at the feet of your exalted writing style for overlooking this fantastic new-ish story of yours until now. :pray
The AU gambit can be a tricky one to pull off, the temptation being great to veer too far into either comedy, drama, or some form of personal wish-fulfillment but you have risen above this to produce a work of resounding humanity.
It puts me in mind of the second series episode of the new "Doctor Who" stories wherein the 10th Doctor, Rose Tyler, and Micky accidently get drawn into an alternate Earth.
Tom MacRae, the writer of that two part story, grounded the fantastical elements of such an occurence in the practical logistics of how such a radical shift in perception not only in how we viewed the world around us but in how we viewed both the subtle and not so subtle changes in those we loved and how those changes affected who we were in this alternate universe.
Instead of an ordinary London shopgirl travelling with a 900 year old alien, Sally you have a Willow from an Earth where the presence of magic and other supernatural forces are either non-existent or else the populace has denied any such possibiltiy as contrary to the laws of physics and other branches of science.
She then gets transported to an alternate Earth where all manner of beasties abound and where magic is a power to be wielded.
The comparison lies in that, like the "Doctor Who" story, your point of view is from that of the human heroine, whom we can easily relate to.
Willow has gone through hell and high water, fire and brimstone, emotional ordeals aplenty in her life and emerged with coping mechanisms which have served her well.
She is then thrown into an alternate Willow's life which completely strips down her essence to her very soul and she is left with no basis for how to process this alternate life of hers.
I love that you have painted this alternate canvas with authentic emotions which ring true; the denizens of Sunnydale, the core group anyway, are worried about their Willow and are passively concerned about the welfare of this "foreign" one.
She has gained and regained so much all in such a short time; some of it wanted and some of it unbidden and worrying to her.
Xnader being alive in this world being her saving grace and finding out through Anya, who else, that not only is she a lesbian in this world but that this overly friendly blond girl Tara may expect something from her.
That was my favorite line because it is such the knee-jerk antiquated classically doofus reaction to finding out that someone you just met is gay.
I look forward with great antici...pation to the way you chronicle how this plays out.
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby JustSkipIt » Tue Aug 15, 2006 4:16 am

No kidding, I'm sitting here thinking that you're update is running late and considering e-mailing you and just looked at the date. Dumb brain.
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby FineyMcFine » Mon Aug 21, 2006 5:53 pm

mole

Hi Michelle! I think that while Willow's coping mechanism has served her well up to this point in her life, that she'll start to experience some problems if she wants to make some...changes, if you catch my drift. ;) So yeah - maybe this experience is the shock she needs to prepare her for what's next.

I really appreciate the compliment about the subtlety. That's really what I wanted to go for in this entire story.

Valium! I took a bit of a liberty with canon here as well - in addition to having Tara and Willow have cell phones, I decided that it was likely that Giles had some Valium on hand even though it wasn't discussed in canon. Valium was pretty "in" in the 70's and 80's, and lots of people who take transatlantic flights keep relaxants on hand. Since Giles goes to England pretty often I figured it wasn't out of the realm of possibility for him to have something like that.

And yeah, I'm glad that you liked finding out that Tara wasn't really holding it together all that well on her own. I wrote the first draft a while ago and when I was editing chapters for the second draft my self-criticism was that Tara was taking all of this REALLY well. I freak out if I can't reach Mrs. McFine on the phone, so I didn't think it was realistic to be so blasé about one's girlfriend getting snatched away interdimensionally and replaced with a doppelganger. But it was also hard to convey Tara's internal anguish without getting into her head, and I wanted this to be AU Willow's story, and not get into anyone else's head. So the Valium thing seemed like it fit.

Thanks Michelle!

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Boadecia

Three cheers for valium!


Hip hip, hooray! Hip hip...*yawn*

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viximon

Hi vix - thanks! Yeah, I agree - we needed to leave Willow for a while and figure out what the heck the familiar characters thought of all of it. We'll find out what happened, don't worry - bit by bit. :) Thanks for reading!

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a willow angel

No kidding, I think I'd need more than Valium to keep it together if my lesbian life partner were snatched away from me. :D Yeah, we'll see what this Willow thinks of Tara as we go along. Thanks for reading!

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Grayson

Hi Grayson - yeah, I've sometimes found myself having weird conversations (not about cell phones though) during crises and thought I would try to replicate the moment.

Thanks for saying the thing about show don't tell - it's one of the hardest things to do! I hope the sweater wasn't cashmere - that stuff doesn't hold up well to manhandling.

And hoorah for appreciating that there aren't romantic sparks - I'm glad you like that. It would make things very awkward indeed for canon Willow when she returns (if she returns...) All I will say is, there will be smoochies for...someone in this story, eventually!

I always enjoy your feedback - you put such thought into your responses. Thank you so much for continuing to read.

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SithLordWiccan

Hey Sith - yep, Season 6. There were some hints, yes - the people messing with Buffy's personal timeline thing was a reference to Life Serial when Jonathan cast the spell on Buffy and messed up her getting a job with Xander's construction company, and made her sell the mummy hand over and over again in the Magic Box. And the references to how Buffy...went away for a while were about how she died at the end of S5.

I think of Dawn in this chapter as more freaking out that one of her primary caregivers has disappeared (made even more alarming after the death of first her mother and then her sister), and in her eyes no one seems all that freaked out about it, so she's panicking a bit and offering alternative explanations is her way of coping right now. But Dawn's a teenager and she's still figuring out how to deal with the world around her, and a lot of people find that process annoying, so you're entitled to your reaction to her, of course. Thanks for reading!

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db

db Pants!

Yeah, Willow would HAVE to react to this, in my view, even if she has a defense mechanism. And yeah - she had to collapse, and that was good because I had to spend some time with Tara and Buffy and Dawn, or else the story would have lacked some important information.

Hee hee, Valium! It's not that I think that Giles is a bad listener, because he's not, and he doesn't classify women as "hysterical females," but Tara's now their most powerful witch and he needs her to help do the locater spell and to figure out the magic side of how to get Willow back, so I think he figured it was a good temporary solution for when she was in tears. But I'll say that most of the Tara tears will happen off camera, because it will be really hard to write and I think if she starts crying she'll probably run away from Willow, which is who the camera is on most of the time.

Heh! Who doesn't need Yiddish in their life, eh? It seemed like a Buffy word to me.

Thanks for reading!

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dorksrcool

Thanks Amy!

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Lonewolf22

Thanks for reading! Yeah, on the whole I think it was a good decision for Giles to give her the juice. And Buffy and Dawn - as I recall in Season 6 they had a rocky relationship and then Dawn started shoplifting. Heh. Hopefully that will improve some. I appreciate that you're still paying attention to the story!

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DaddyCatALSO

What do you want for Christmas? Some interdimensional nookie! ;) What's the name of your Christmas fic?

No kidding re: Buffy's driving. I figured that I made enough fun of it in UberCon '05, though, that I decided to leave it alone - and I also figured that AU Buffy is probably a bad driver too so AU Willow's likely used to it. :)

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Guppy

Guppy, thank you! Yeah, it's a rough situation for everyone. We'll find out much later what it's like for the other Willow - maybe. ;) Thanks for reading!

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watty

Wazzup, watty? Yeah, one thing that Dawn has going for her is that she doesn't repress her emotions. Totally, the Scoobs are a little inured to things - maybe this will jar them out of it. Glad you liked Dawn's barometer-age on the emotional side for this update.

But for once in her life, this isn't the occasion.


You ain't whistlin', Dixie.

Heh, who can say what a cellphone would do in another dimension? I think it would probably just go to voicemail. The cell phone's service hasn't been erased - it's just the handset that has gone missing.

Yeah, Tara's on the verge of collapse herself, but drama in public doesn't seem like it's quite her way. Especially when getting Willow back will likely depend on her in large part. I agree that Giles did the right thing. Valium in the future is probably not a good idea, but right then and there, it was a good stopgap measure. And gawd, the sleeping arrangement - can you imagine???

I'm thinking ahead. Somewhere along the lines Willow will probably unearth the attraction for Tara (IMHO that's hardwired into her DNA, whichever version of Willow Rosenberg it is), so how? Tara won't touch her, not this version. hmm I think I am beginning to see where this story, and the next (if there is a "next") may go.


Perhaps, watty, perhaps. Of course, I also showed you the banner for the sequel, so you're more well-informed than most. ;)

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sadie

Thank you very much, sadie - that was really nice to read and I appreciate it!

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JustSkipIt

Totally interludey - it was necessary to move them, establish a few things, and get them set up for the next scene. And if we accomplished a couple of things about the characters along the way, then all the better.

Heh, you're the second person to mention terror with Buffy driving. Hee! I think that things like warmth spreading through your body when a member of the same sex kisses you when you're not yet aware that you're gay is one of those things that kind of sneaks up on you at weird moments, don't you? Also, I think that AU Willow's Buffy is probably a bad driver too so she wasn't too fazed by it.

Heh, my house is proof that you don't need a bunch of teenage girls living in the same house to have an untidy pile of shoes by the door. However, I should add that I am the only one responsible for the shoe pile - Mrs. McFine puts hers away.

Yeah, compassionate Buffy wasn't a big fixture in much of S6. I think that she certainly had the potential to be compassionate but no one was really giving her the opportunity in canon. Instead, they were treating her with kid gloves and just hoping she would get back to normal. I think that in AU Willow, who is so lost and sad and keeps turning to her in a way that no one else is, that that's giving her the opportunity to go outside herself.

No idea how this will evolve, eh? Well, I won't spoil it for you. I think 14 or 15, yeah. And I'll adhere to the FAQ, no worries there. Hee! ;) Thanks for reading dude!

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grimlock7

I think Willow will either sleep poorly or like the dead. I think there was a high school in some form or fashion in Sunnydale - I would guess they found a temporary or maybe even a semi-permanent place for the kids to go to school - education being federally mandated and all. But I doubt Willow would be able to handle the blown-up school mayor-snake story at that point - she was having enough trouble with garden-variety vampires.

In the AU, I had Joyce dying while they were in high school, yeah - one of those differences between AU Willow's world and canon world. Also, a convenient plot device to bond Willow and Buffy as friends. ;)

Indeed, the current problems won't go away by ignoring them. In fact, that's the one thing that will guarantee they don't get solved. You are perceptive, grimmy! ;)

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taralicious

Hey Blayne, no humble begging is needed. I'm just glad to hear from you, and thank you very much for feedbacking! And yeah, there are many pitfalls to avoid when writing an AU story - I've been tempted with a few of them already. Mary Sue is a big one to avoid, surely. Also, I think I would enjoy Doctor Who, although I have never read or watched it. I did like a video I saw on YouTube that featured Doctor Who and the shopgirl person.

Yep - the Scoobs are definitely worried about their Willow and this new one, for sure. For all the weirdness that has happened in their lives, they've never had to deal long-term with anyone from an alternate universe - Vamp Willow they sent back pretty quickly. You can think of Anya as being from an AU, in a way, and her integration into Sunnydale was definitely a long-term commitment on the part of the show that gave them a lot of material.

but that this overly friendly blond girl Tara may expect something from her.


LOL! That made me laugh - since of course Tara won't expect, YOU know, sex from Willow, as you point out. Heh. Thanks for reading!
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Re: Dimension Dementia

Postby FineyMcFine » Tue Aug 22, 2006 6:15 am

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Title: Dimension Dementia
Part: 7
Author: SallyMcFine
Feedback: I love feedback. Bring it on!
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: All disclaimers apply
Thanks: To my beta, Mrs. McFine, for her editing and storyline skills that are out of this world.
Setting: AU/canon crossover
Summary: What happens when a shy, introverted girl is torn away from her world and deposited into a dimension full of vampires, demons, and...a girlfriend?
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Part 7 - Sleep

The doorbell rang. "Dawn, will you get that?" Buffy called from the kitchen.

Dawn sighed and switched off the television, getting up reluctantly. She opened the door to reveal Anya and Xander holding two pizza boxes.

"Dinner!" he said as they came in.

"Giles should be getting here soon," Anya said. "He said he was going to come over."

"I'm already here, Anya," Giles called from the kitchen, where he was sitting at the table with Buffy and Tara.

"Where's Willow?" Xander asked, setting the pizza on the counter.

"Zonked," Buffy answered. "She was pretty tired when we got home. She's been napping for about four hours now."

"Should we wake her up for dinner?"

"Why don't we let her sleep a bit more before we start eating," Giles said. "I wanted to fill you all in on what we learned today - which unfortunately isn't much."

"You know what I don't get?" Buffy said. "So we've been through this whole dimension craziness before, back in high school. You know, when Anya conned Willow into trying to summon back her pendant?"

"That's my girl," Xander interjected with a grin at Anya, who rolled her eyes.

"I was a different demon back then," she retorted.

"Right, yeah," said Buffy. "But back to Willow - once we figured out what had happened with her vampire twin, Giles, you were able to do a spell that sent the vampire back to her own dimension. Can't you just do that with this Willow too?"

Giles sighed. "I wish it were that easy."

"Why isn't it?"

"When someone is pulled out of their dimension and deposited into another, they carry with them an imprint of the energy specific to their dimension. If our Willow were here, she would tell us how it relates to the direction and velocity of the spin of the electrons that are associated with the atoms and molecules specific to each dimension - they're all infinitesimally different. It's sort of a dimensional fingerprint, if you will. The spell I did when you all were in high school essentially helped the vampire Willow's molecules to find the world where they matched up, and gave her a boost to get her going."

"Right, and don't let the door hit you on your undead ass on the way out. So why can't we do that again?"

"Well, we could, in theory," Giles replied. "But there are two problems. First, our Willow is missing, and in sending this Willow back we have no guarantee that our Willow would return to us. There would be no opposing force on her end boosting her back to our dimension. And since the Willow we have here is our only link to the dimension where our Willow has gone, I'm loathe to send her back willy-nilly."

"But are we even sure that our Willow is really in that dimension?" Dawn asked. "Maybe she got knocked out or something, and she's still in Sunnydale."

"Again, that's possible, but unlikely," Giles replied. "This afternoon Tara and I performed a locator spell to find our Willow, compensating for the presence of our visitor to eliminate a false positive. It came up with nothing. These spells aren't foolproof, of course, but I'm reasonably certain that she's not here."

"And what this Willow described when we were first talking to her," Anya broke in, "it was pretty textbook for dimensional switches. Regular dimensional travel just makes you feel a little nauseated, but the blinding light, the roaring sound - totally characteristic of a switch."

"Why is that?" Tara asked, speaking for the first time since Xander and Anya had arrived.

Anya shrugged. "One theory says that people's molecules rush through each other as the switch happens, which creates a lot of extra sensory input. And sometimes mistakes happen, too - people have exchanged body parts if the spells were performed imperfectly. Not that we would ever know that with this Willow, since she's so similar to ours."

Tara looked queasy.

"The other wrinkle," Giles added, "is that from what we gleaned from this Willow, magic doesn't exist in her dimension. Or at least, it doesn't function nearly as strongly in her world as in ours. If it did, I have no doubt that our Willow would already be home - she's proficient enough with magic - and reckless enough - to perform a dimension-traveling spell on her own."

"Or she could be - ouch!" Anya said, rubbing her shoulder where Xander had poked her. "Well, she could be hurt - we should consider the possibility," she whispered to him.

Tara took a shuddering breath. "So where does that leave us?"

"Pretty much right where we started this morning," Xander said. "We didn't find out much else from the books."

"But I put a call in to D'Hoffryn," Anya said. "To see if he has any advice."

"And I've contacted the coven, and the Council," Giles added. "One way or another, we'll get Willow home, Tara."

She tightened her lips and nodded.

"And on that note, who's ready for pizza?" Xander asked.

"I'll go wake up Willow," Buffy said.

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Willow woke up extremely disoriented. The room was dark, the bed she was in was too soft, and there were too many pillows. It was like sleeping on a marshmallow, and she felt like she had sunk down deep into the bed and that it was slowly absorbing her. The fluffy duvet, much more insulating than the sheets and thin comforter she was used to, made her feel smothered and overheated. For several seconds, she had no idea where she was.

Then the terrifying, confusing events of the day came rushing back to her, and she remembered. She was at Buffy's house in Buffy's bed. And downstairs was Buffy herself, a much more confident Buffy than the one she knew, a Buffy who had hordes of other people occupying her time and attention. A younger sister, an older ex-librarian, a mouthy ex-demon, Xander - Xander - and a witch. Tara. Her girlfriend. Well, not her girlfriend, but her the other Willow's girlfriend.

She flung the duvet off of her chest, welcoming the cooler air, and she noticed the smell of pizza wafting up the stairs. Her stomach growled in response - she hadn't eaten anything at all since breakfast. She felt a pressing need to use the restroom, but was reluctant to leave the relative safety of the bed. At least here she could pretend that she was still in her own world. She lay there for a few more minutes, listening to the murmur of voices from downstairs. At some point she drifted off again, dozing lightly, and awoke again with a start when there was a soft knock on the door.

"Willow?" It was Buffy, silhouetted in the soft light from the hallway as she slowly opened the door.

"Yep," she answered fuzzily.

"I'm sorry to wake you, but there's pizza downstairs - if you want some, you'd better come soon or else Xander will eat it all."

"Okay," Willow said. "I just need to use the bathroom."

"It's the first door on the left," Buffy said. "But I guess you know that already. Or do you? Maybe my house isn't the same in your world."

Willow had spent enough time at her Buffy's house in high school that she remembered. "It's the same."

Buffy nodded. "See you downstairs." She closed the door.

After she left, Willow kicked off the rest of the duvet and got out of bed. She felt uncomfortably damp, having sweated while she slept, and she didn't have a change of clothes. She made do as best she could by washing her face and neck with cold water and smoothing her hair back, and felt marginally refreshed afterward. She looked at herself in the mirror, exhaled, and went downstairs.

Walking into the kitchen felt like walking into the cafeteria in middle school - she wasn't sure where she should sit or where she would be welcome. It didn't help that the conversation died down when she walked in. Adding to the surreal atmosphere was the knowledge that everyone in the room knew her - or someone who looked like her. She took a seat at the table, feeling very sorry for herself.

Tara handed her a plate, which she accepted gratefully.

"This one is meat, and that one is no meat," Tara said, indicating the pizza boxes on the table.

Willow nodded and took a slice of veggie pizza while Dawn watched with interest.

"Are you a vegetarian?" Dawn asked.

"Huh? Oh, no - I just don't eat pork."

Dawn nodded. Willow wondered - did the other Willow eat pork? Was she a vegetarian? Was she even Jewish? Growing up in the Rosenberg household, some things had just been the way they were, and not eating pork was one of the things from her upbringing that had stuck with her.

The room was silent, and Willow looked down at her plate as she ate, the sound of her chewing uncomfortably loud inside her head. Giles cleared his throat and finally broke the silence.

"Willow, I want you to know that we're doing everything we can to find out how to get you home," he said.

She wasn't sure what she should say. "I appreciate it," she said finally.

"I'd like to talk to you a little more tomorrow about your head injury," he continued. "It seems to me that it must somehow be connected with what brought you here."

She nodded and touched the back of her head. The swollen part where she had hit the freezer door was almost back to normal, and didn't hurt nearly as much as it had before.

"Anyone mind if I take the last meat slice?" Xander said.

"It's all you," Buffy said, leaning back in her chair. "I need to stay alert for patrol tonight, anyway, so I shouldn't eat anything else."

Everyone else seemed to take this as the norm, but Willow was curious. "What do you patrol?" she asked.

"Well, we told you about the vampires," Buffy said. "Usually it's just patrolling the cemetery, walking around the new graves in case one of the corpses emerges as a vampire, and dusting it."

"Dusting it?" An image of Buffy with a feather duster tickling a pale man with fangs jumped into Willow's head.

"Shoving a stake through its heart so it explodes into dust. It's one of the most reliable ways to kill a vampire, and easier than beheading."

Willow shuddered.

"Takes some getting used to, doesn't it? I had a hard time believing it at first too. But it's my destiny and I have to do it." Buffy's tone was curiously flat. "Anyway, in addition to the usual parade of born-again undead, lately we're dealing with bizarre new demon activity. A few days ago a bunch of weird stuff happened to me and I ended up getting attacked by a kind of demon I'd never seen before. So in addition to cemetery duty, I take a few swings around town just to keep an eye on things."

"It makes for a long night," Giles said. "Speaking of which, the sun will be going down in about twenty minutes."

"Right. I had better get going."

Willow was reluctant to ask for anything, but she figured now was a better time than later. "Um, Buffy?" she asked.

"Yeah?"

"I don't have any clothes. Do you think I could borrow some for tonight and tomorrow?"

Buffy nodded. "Sure you can. Except..."

Tara spoke up. "Willow, um - you can wear some of Willow's clothes." She made a wry face at the awkward phrasing. "You might as well, since you're the same size - and she would want you to."

The room, already silent, seemed even more silent after that sentence and its unfortunate connotation. It was as if her Willow had died, and Tara was offering her clothes to someone who could make use of them - at least, that's how Willow felt. She nodded, and looked at Tara, noticing how the blonde grimaced after she finished talking.

For the first time since she had been brought to this dimension, Willow began to realize that more people that just her were affected by what had happened. Buffy, Xander, Giles, Dawn, Anya - they had lost a friend. And Tara - Tara had lost someone she clearly cared about deeply. Willow could sense her distress, and wondered why she hadn't picked up on it before. Although, she admitted to herself, she hadn't necessarily been in any space to notice anyone's distress but her own.

It was apparent to Willow that it had cost Tara to say what she did, and she felt the need to say something back, if only to let her know that she appreciated the gesture.
"Thank you, Tara," she said. She wanted to say more, but wasn't quite sure how to convey it.

Tara looked up and though her blue eyes were worried and her brow was furrowed, a slight smile touched her eyes. "You're welcome."

Dawn stood up and gathered up the pizza boxes. "Does anyone want more of the veggie before I put this away?"

Willow shook her head. She had only had once slice, but it had more than filled her nervous stomach.

With dinner over, Xander and Anya stood up too. "Buff, do you want company on patrol? We were planning on coming with you tonight - it's our turn."

"Sure," Buffy said.

Willow stood up too and gathered up the dishes, wanting to feel useful. Before they left, Xander came up to her as she stood at the sink rinsing the plates.

"Listen, Willow - I know that today's been pretty crazy and all, and Anya and I have to go patrol with Buffy. But tomorrow maybe we can take some time together to catch up. This all must be pretty overwhelming for you."

She felt touched. "I'd like that."

"Good. Tomorrow, then." With a wave, he left the kitchen.

After the dishes were done, Willow felt at loose ends. She walked into the living room, where Dawn and Tara had gone after she had assured them she didn't need any help with the dishes. They were sitting on the couch - Dawn flipping through a magazine, and Tara not doing much of anything.

"Um," she said, feeling awkward about breaking the silence. "I was thinking that I'd go turn in and maybe read or something."

Dawn looked up. "It's only 7:30. Are you tired?"

Tara seemed to understand, though. "I'm sure Willow's pretty exhausted from...just everything today, Dawnie. Willow, I'll get you some clothes."

Willow moved aside to let Tara go up the stairs, and said "Goodnight, Dawn."

"Goodnight." The teenager gave her a sympathetic look that she tried to disguise as a smile.

Willow followed Tara up the stairs and into...Joyce's room? It was very changed from how she remembered it. A light herbal scent filled the bedroom. Two bookshelves lined the walls and were crammed to overflowing with a variety of books - worn and dusty-looking tomes as well as shiny softcover computer manuals. A string of white Christmas lights was draped over the bookcases. In the corner, a desk held a laptop computer, and on the wall was a large clock with several pointed sun rays emanating out from the face. The tables flanking the bed held an assortment of candles as well as an alarm clock on one, and a framed photo on the other. The bed was covered by a beige and red coverlet with deep red sheets peeking out, and a pile of pillows.

More striking to Willow than all the contents of the room, however, was the atmosphere it all created. It was clearly a well lived-in place, and just from standing in the doorway Willow could tell that it was intended to be a haven for two people who were very much in love. She felt her heart throb in sympathy at the absence of the other person as she watched Tara move about the room.

Tara removed some shirts, shorts, and undergarments from a dresser drawer and set them on the bed. She opened the closet and took out some additional items on hangers, and carried the pile to Willow.

"Here you go," she said. "This should last for a few days. And here's a spare toothbrush, too."

"Thank you," Willow said. "I really appreciate it."

Tara smiled, but the strain on her was evident. Earlier in the day, Tara had been so quiet and withdrawn she had hardly registered on Willow's radar. But since dinner, Willow had noticed more overt signs of worry. She figured it was probably best to go to her room - Buffy's room - and not prolong the moment. Giving her missing girlfriend's clothes to her doppelganger would take its toll on even the most resilient of souls.

"Goodnight," Willow said.

"Goodnight."

Willow went into Buffy's room and closed the door, setting down the pile of clothes on a chair. She wasn't sure how she was going to feel about wearing somebody else's underwear, but when she stopped to think about it, it was her own underwear. Sort of. She sighed. Thinking about this made her head hurt.

The toothbrush's plastic wrapping crackled as she tore it open. That had been thoughtful of Tara - Willow wasn't sure she would have had the presence of mind to think about a toothbrush if she had been in the same situation - in fact, she probably wouldn't have even thought of it herself until later that night.

She selected a pair of boxer shorts and a t-shirt with a kitten on the front as pajamas, changed clothes, and went to the bathroom to brush her teeth and wash her face. Having done that, she climbed back into bed. She had slept for several hours already today, but instead of reading, she closed her eyes, and soon drifted back off to sleep.
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