The Crappy Feelings Thread (HOTLINES in first post)

[Thianne]

*hugs Saena*

[Saena]

Thank you Vale!! *hugs back* I'm so much less tired this afternoon. It's amazing how much better that makes things.

Saena

[Floyd]

My lab partner in Chemistry SUCKS. He's really clumsy and always drops things and isn't that good at Chemistry so he doesn't understand anything. And today he ran out when the bell went, leaving ME to do all the tidying up. I want to kick him in the balls.

ARRRRRRRGH!

[StaceAngel]

I give up. Its just so much..easier to give up now *sighs*...

[Saena]

I give up. Its just so much..easier to give up now *sighs*...

*bighugs* I know how you feel, and it will get better. I'm sure of it.

Saena

[Foomatic]

I'm super bummed because two of my best friends since middle school can't make it to my ceremony. There's just no reason; I sent out the save the date magnets NINE MONTHS in advance. In nine months, they couldn't have asked for that weekend off, or, seeing that they are both nurses who work 3-4 days a week, they couldn't somehow arrange to be off that weekend? I just don't get it.

[StaceAngel]

I give up. Its just so much..easier to give up now *sighs*...

*bighugs* I know how you feel, and it will get better. I'm sure of it.

Saena

Thank you, things are a little easier today The hug was much needed though!



However i did just smack my toe against the fridge and theres blood can i buy a new toe? *hops off to the body shop*



Stace xXx

[umgaynow]

My dog is sick (nothing major) and I have cramps...frowny growls all around

[Lindelaure]

My girlfriend just dumped me. Because she found out I had feelings for my best friend. Said best friend got back together with her girlfriend, who happens to be a good friend of mine. And now I feel so empty because i know i love my girlfriend, but i dont know what i feel for my best friend, so my gf says we have to break up so I'll figure things out and decide who I want to be with. It's not like I have an option, I can't and won't be with my best friend right now, I just wanna be with my girlfriend. Argh I HATE love. I really really do.

[sam]

One of my dogs died unexpectedly on friday morning and here's the thing, it wasn't even the dog we were expecting it to be. but my fanily and I don't know why it happened.
I feel so distraught and sad.

[DreamLover]

I just hate this feeling....a feeling of being a number in this fucking world. <<< it's short but it say's enough.


Hugs for everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Saena]

I. Am. Exhausted.

(In other words, there's nothing really wrong in my life, but everything seems that little bit more trying when you've had a long day.)

Saena

[umgaynow]

Oh yea! It's time for my autumnal change-of-seasons Fibromyalgia flare...I get to feel weak as a kitten and even shittier than usual for the next 2 to 3 weeks...being housebound is sooo much fun! NOT!!

[Boschi]

M'Tired. Have silly piddling crap that I really should get done tonight. Don't particularly want to.

Want to be curled up with my love, reading, with no threat of a busy or stressful tomorrow. As a matter of fact I would really like it if I could just sort of control time enough to hold a night in place as long as I like.

Oh bugger - there's this whole mess and I'm mucking through it but it pisses me off that I'm in a position that restricts my actions, words and possibilites.

Some delightful doors are open right now, but at the moment I'd prefer to beat my noggin 'gainst the closed ones.

Grr.

- Boschi

[MagicPancakes]

The past 24 hours royally sucked...

I worked a half day yesterday because I had to take my kitten to the vet for a follow-up visit (last week he got attacked by our adult cat and she cut his eye really bad and we had to take him on an emergency vet visit to get it checked out, he's fine) and the stupid secretary woman there is a real twat...she's a know-it-all type and every time I'm there with one of my various cats she tries to make me feel like a horrible pet owner. So after surviving the vet visit, my girlfriend and I went out to dinner. Dinner was fine, the bus ride home was fine, and around 6 her mother calls her to let her know that her father shot himself in the head.

A little about her father: He molested her for 8 years of her life, finally got sentenced to 20 years in prison, and was released after serving only 7 years. The entire time he was in there he sent her letters and stuff even though he was/is not supposed to contact her and even after she showed the letters to his parole officer, he was still released. He earned 3 Bachelor's degrees while in prison (which pisses both of us off because neither one of us can afford to go to college). Upon his release he was supposed to live in a men's shelter in Indianapolis as part of his parole. Instead he moved in with his mother. He is a registered sex offender and is considered extremely violent.

My girlfriend, Christie, moved from Indiana to Philadelphia to be with me in May. She hasn't been able to see her grandmother since before her dad was released in late April 2006. She hasn't been able to talk to her or even write her because then her father would be able to get her phone number, address, etc.


Yesterday around noon the cops went to Christie's grandmother's house to serve her father's arrest warrant for violation of his parole. He saw them coming and hid in the basement of the house with one of his two guns. His mother told the police he wasn't there but let them in to do a search, and when he heard them coming he shot himself. He didn't die, didn't even really do any damage, the bullet barely grazed his forehead. The cops found him, ordered him to drop the gun, he refused, they shot him with a stun gun and he still refused to drop his weapon and finally aimed it at an officer who fired two shots into his hip. He was alert and responsive when being loaded into the ambulance and all he had to say was he didn't want to go back to prison.

He's supposed to be going back for 14 years but who knows...he was supposed to serve 20 and only did 7 originally.

Anyway....that's kind of rant-y but I'm really freaked out for her and her family.

[Smilis]

Hey!

I am feeling very very crappy but it is really my own fault.
I love to play games and betting on things, so naturally I play alot of poker.
I win some I loose some and thats ok. I don't play for alot... until tonight.

I've been on a loosing strike for some time now but tonight everything was gonna be ok again.

I had AA and when the flop comes its AAK. You know nothing really beats a four of a kind. I mean come on how many people get a Royal Flush?? And really who in their right mind calls a 1500$ bet when there is AA on the flop? I mean that was a mistake, I wasn't suppose to go all in but hit the wrong button.
But one guy did and I'm like jippie I'm gonna win big. The pot is 4536$ and when the river comes he gets his Royal Flush.

How is this really possible???

So right now I'm feeling like I want to kill something. Good thing I live alone right now sad as it may be.

I'm never gonna play poker again! Never...

[river]

i feel so sick. i cant breath through my nose...and my head...

[HalfCamel]

i feel so sick. i cant breath through my nose...and my head...

Right there with you, River. I've been like this since Tuesday. Not good at all.

[river]

@half camel. i hate this feeling. but so we can be sad together

[umgaynow]

It's raining again

[amber 4 prez]

I was dumped, my first time in about a year and a half in trying to make something work and I was cheated on (right infront of me) then dumped...I'm soooo much prettier than her new girlfriend.

[kisstheviolets]

i'm not exactly upset about this, and while it's kind of crappy, it's kind of amusing.

a bit of background: i have been in five relationships where my ex married the person they either dumped me for or dated immediately after our break up. the joke among my friends is that if someone is feeling particularly matrimonial, they should date me and set a date for their nuptials because it's all but guaranteed.

so, my ten-year high school reunion is next saturday (and i'm 95% sure i'm not going) and i was looking at the guest list. i see the name of a girl from my class who i haven't thought of in years but i remembered her name because my sophomore year boyfriend dumped me for her just a few days before my birthday. the ex moved 3k miles away the following school year and i heard they tried to keep dating. by senior year i'd come out and never heard a peep about him again.

so i see the girl's name on the list and i follow the line to the right where the married names of the female students are located... and, lo and behold, her last name is the same as my exboyfriend's. so apparently, my streak of preparing my significant others for marriage began when i was fifteen and not when i was twenty-one.

while this is still somewhat crappy, it kind of makes my statistic a little less bleak. after all, six in thirteen years sounds MUCH better than five in seven

[Boschi]

I really thought I'd managed to successfully negotiate the splitting of all assets and requisite contracts associated with the break with my ex. It's been 2 f-ing years for cryin' out loud.

So now it turns out that property tax on the house was not paid during the split up year, or the year prior. We paid off the mortgage, but did not give the tax office a new forwarding address, so they have presumably been sending bills for property tax to our old mortgage company.

And while, yes, we should have known this and dealt with it, we were just tad distracted at the god damned time.

Long rant short - I need to cough up about a thousand dollars. Which I can't particularly afford.

Bleep. Bleepity bleep bleep.

- Boschi

[FineyMcFine]

I have a cold and I'm congested. Bleah.

[river]

still feeling sick and i ate too much

[Bound2Her]

Im so tired from not being able to sleep right for the past 3 days. :\

[Saena]

Dealing with people makes me tired. And I just got up 40 minutes ago. :(

Saena

[Saena]

Oh yeah, and today spawned another crappy feeling as well. (Keep in mind that I did not, in fact, have a bad day; I had rather a good one. But this was just a frustrating moment.) I'm coming home from college this weekend for fall break, and my parents and I had coordinated how they were going to get my sister and I home, who was going to pick us up, and so on and so forth. I thought everything was set. But today my sister's boyfriend's mother emailed my mother (they're friends), and offered to drive us home on Friday, to which my mother automatically said yes, since she'd have to drive two hours up here by herself, which she hates.
I'm not happy about this. But before I go any further, consider the following things:
1) I do not hate my sister's boyfriend. Actually, I don't mind him at all. He's a perfectly nice person, and apparently my passive-aggressive nature intimidates him a little, which I can appreciate. I also am not opposed to their relationship. My sister can date whomever she chooses, and I (most likely) won't try to stand in her way.
2) I do not hate my sister's boyfriend's parents. I have only met them once, but they seem like decent people, friendly and talkative, the kind of people who would ask me about my life and listen to the stories I tell, like many of the adults in my life at home. It's not like sitting in a car with them for two hours will be utter torture.
3) I do not want my parents to be inconvenienced. My mother feels more comfortable not driving us back by herself, and coming back on Friday afternoon instead of Saturday morning will allow us to see my dad before he goes off for a weekend retreat with the church youth group. All well and good.
OK, so now that those misconceptions are cleared up...here's the problem. I'm having third-wheel issues. Even though I'm sure his parents will strive to include me in conversations and such, I just get incredibly awkward feelings when I think about a car ride with my sister, her boyfriend, his parents...and then me. No matter how nice they are, no matter how good it is to offer to take this burden off my parents, I was looking forward to having my mom up here to drive us like usual, and I was looking forward to having a break from constantly seeing my sister and her boyfriend together. Often these days I feel like a third wheel around them, and I'd rather not have to endure that on long car trips, especially if we're all crammed in the back seat together, as we're likely to be. I feel like it's selfish to be so demanding of this, because again: it's a nice thing to do, and I know that it won't cause me any pain to just do it. It just frustrates me, that's all. *Grr*

Saena

[Bound2Her]

Im afraid to call my girlfriend tomorrow. :\

[Guppy]

My coworker just called me crying. Her son took a bottle of pills and he's being admitted to the hospital. She'll let me know more when she does but that just leaves me feeling helpless. I'm a fixer damnit! Why can't it all be fixed?