A Moment of Truth

[Leaf]

I have just taken a job that I am so deeply under qualified for that it is laughable.
I honestly can't tell if I am being brave and confident or if this is the most foolish thing I've ever done.

[JustSkipIt]

I need to eat less junk food but I don't want to. I work out very hard but I know I'm being held back by my diet. I eat healthy stuff but then chocolate on top of it so it's counter productive.

[DameSansMerci]

I just woke up to get some schoolwork done, and now here I am on the board posting and wishing I was still asleep. I need to get some willpower and motivation...

[Emms]

I really want to feel like I'm a part of that group... but I can't get past feeling like an outsider... why do I care so much about people accepting me? And why do I struggle so much with being honest with people about things like that?

[DameSansMerci]

I'm afraid to keep pushing my gayness on my parents...even though I've come out to them multiple times, they ignore it...and now that they're finally treating me like their daughter again, i'm afraid to rock the boat...

[mangled_monkey]

I haven't wanted to cry as much as I do right now in a long time.

But I can't.

[DameSansMerci]

I didn't want to help shovel the driveway today...I'd just finished shovelling the damn thing! but my parents needed my help...my mother has a bad back...I feel guilty now for having done it in a begrudging sort of way....

[writerfreak]

I really just want to say fuck my job and go home and never leave her arms again.

writerfreak

[Willowtree252]

Today was the most wonderful day ever I found out that 2 of my friends that I am crazy about at work are gay and all 3 of use had been playing the guessing game now we are out to each other and life is great. Life is funny sometimes (just to let you know I was not keeping it secret but in our business it just isn't a good Idea to come out to everyone)

[Sandman78]

I fear that I will never be the kind of woman my partner deserves.

[Saena]

I'm so much needier now than I ever was before (especially in terms of affection). Sometimes I feel guilty about it. But when people are receptive to it, like they were today, I finally feel contented and happy again.

I think I'm finally learning how to respond to and comfort people. Strange how, when events cause me to lose touch with myself, I become more responsive to those around me...

Saena

[Auriam]

Sometime i feel like i'm stupid and unattractive

[theweeone]

Topic: its my birthday and im alone...sometimes i feel like no one really cares about me.

Angel

[-Always-]

theweeone- I care!!! *hugs you*

I'm going crazy figuring out how to tell my family I'm gay.

I'v also got huge self improvment issuses

[theweeone]

thanks -Always-

[Lifty]

theweeoone: for your birthday!

topic:i have hairy toes, i was told that i had hobbit feet.

[theweeone]

thanks lifty

[Cup]

why do i always panic about everything?

[Willowtree252]

Dating is so hard. Do thay like you or not, do thay want you are not, are thay going to hurt me are not? I am going to go slow and hope for the best cause she is the greatest and a keeper

[morningstar]

i ran away today. i stormed out of the house knowing i had to come back that my rents pay for everything that the only thing i owned was my wallet and the money that i worked for in it not even the clothes i wore were bought by me.

but i ran away took an hour walk,

had my rents searching (even though my mom ran out and yelled at me to go and get my coat cuz its freazing out and threatend that if i kept walking it would get me in big trouble) I didnt fall for that trick again. last time i wanted to take a walk in the middle of the fight she insisted i come back to get a cell phone. when i was in the door she closed the door and refused to let me back out.
i just told her this time that i am going for a walk


funny this time the whole reason i was leaving is cuz of the cell phone. no it wasnt an argument about a bill. i am not one of those teens who talks or texts hundreds of dolloar a month... i dont even go over the minuets.

i left the phone at home yesterday and drove to do part of my newly aquiered job. i thought i had the cell but i didnt. after the job i went right to babysitting. my mother new that this is were i was going. she knows that i didnt go anywhere else and that she doesnt have to worry that i will go to a party or all the other things the TV insisits that teens do.

i am supposed to have the cell to drive the car even if i know were i am going. (I was only going to a place were we used to live and the babysitting place which is a job i have had for two years which are all less than a mile from the house)

today i had to leave to go do my job. she insisted on seeing the phone even when i told her that i had it right in my pocket. she said she didnt trust me

she didnt trust me enough because i left my phone once at home,

great moment of truth

she doesnt trust me

AND I DIDNT EVEN DO ANYTHING WRONG!!!!!!!!!!
great way to end a really happy week i was haveing. im just a stupid kid who cant wait to get out of the house... typical...

ETA: my mom apologized which as a teen you know I love to hear... but seriously she did and said that she had no clue why she was being really crazy about the cell thing (her words not mine) and I apologized about being rude cuz if your parent apologizes you have to apologize back its just like an unwritten rule or something. But she apologized so everything is back to normal.

[summer fairy]

I'm afraid I'll never get the confidence I need to even just ask the name of the women I think I love

[gorn]

@summer fairy -
Faint hearts never won fair maidens! If it's in the stars, you've got nothing to lose by asking. If not, no amount of waiting is going to change things. I used to be like you, too, but the day I learned this lesson and put it into practice my life changed forever. Good luck!

[summer fairy]

Thanx hun, I am going to really try

[gorn]

Good for you!

[summer fairy]

The thing is I only see her when she is at work and I just freeze.

[Willowtree252]

Here is the deal I have been seeing these 2 woman we are friends one is my age and carefree she says let see what the world has to offer and have fun. The other is older and the kind you want to settle down with and make a life but she has been hurt in the past and she has a wall up I want to help but she is set in her way.s and I kinda want to go with the other one and see what,s out there and let myself go why not I am single and not tied down but I want to be tied down I guess I am just going to see were life take,s me

[mangled_monkey]

I'm afraid to talk to her again, and I don't know why. Really, I just want to hug her, just once, just so I could die happy knowing I got the privilege of holding her in my arms for that brief amount of time... Then I think that I am FAR too romantic and sappy and basically don't deserve a girl as awesome as her. Which leads to being afraid to talk to her, when I was doing just fine before... Erg.

[summer fairy]

She was not there yesturday! Ah well..

[Auriam]

I think that i'm falling for someone i wouldn't !

[JujuDeRoussie]

Sometimes I just want to give up everything... today is one of this times...