The Crappy Feelings Thread (HOTLINES in first post)

[writerfreak]

My sister is in a bad/sad mood and I feel crappy that I cannot do a single thing about it.

writerfreak

[kisstheviolets]

we had the DTR talk tonight ("defining the relationship") and i can't really tell how i feel. the most prominent feeling is crappy, so this thread gets my post.

i shouldn't be the one feeling crappy. i went out with a girl today, someone i'd dated very casually and briefly forever ago and hadn't seen in about 7 years. so when my other girl called tonight (the one i spent a week with in key west and have been talking to almost daily since we got back from vacation) i mentioned the "date" to her. she got a little short with me and was asking in an "i'm trying to sound genuinely happy for you and interested in how it went" sort of way whether or not i had a good time. i guess i wanted her to be a little jealous. i mean, she has said she's gotten jealous just thinking about me being with someone else. so when i do go out with someone she's all happy? i told her nothing happened and she says "well you can do whatever you want. it's not like we're anything." i let that statement go, and she went out for drinks with her co-workers. i texted her and said "i know i can do whatever i want. and right now i want you." i then felt sick for a couple of hours.

so she called a bit ago when she got home and it was clear we had to have the talk. it wasn't bad. i mean, we're both on the same page, it just sucks. or it feels sucky. i don't know.

the main points:

* we currently live 2800 miles apart. while there are plans in the work for an unrelated relocation that would put me less than 300 miles away, the fact remains that for at least another month there will continue to be a sizable distance.
* this is an issue because she is newly out and really eager to meet women and date (we have a big age difference - 8 years - and i've been out more than half of her life). i don't know that i can hold her attention long enough for me to get out there. and even then, with a 300 mile distance, i won't see her enough to compete with all the chicks at her college who will smell the freshly out meat (and yeah, i realize that sounds totally gross).
* she likes me, doesn't like the idea of me with anyone, and worries she's getting too attached. i feel the exact same way.
* she also thinks that we could have something if we were closer, and wants to see if that's true when i get out there.
* but ultimately, we agreed that we would continue to be free to see other people and not label anything yet. it was all very rational, but i guess part of me was just hoping we'd buck rationality. you know, sometimes you just want someone to be all crazy romantic about you.

so really, nothing changes. we continue to talk daily, make plans to see each other, and what, get even more attached? this is not going to end well. i swear, i've been here before.

i was not supposed to like her. i really do hate surprises.

[littlewicca]

I feel i cant eat anything or drink

[JustSkipIt]

We took my IPod on vacation for literally the first time I've ever not just used it at the gym and it was stolen from my car. Boo hiss.

[gorn]

Help!! I'm still at work!!

[Justified12]

I HATE EXAMS!!

[JujuDeRoussie]

They are gone... my big sister is gone
I will not see her before mid September!!
Plus she will have sun and I will have rain >___<

[Boschi]

Woke this morning to the worry that I have fallen so far behind in planting that I will never have enough product to go to market this year. Am fighting off the urge to call it a bust and walk away from this year. Which would leave me feeling profoundly inadequate (and frankly embarrassed to even be around my uber-farmer gf).

I have no idea how much of my current situation is caused by legitimate reasons (late start, lack of equipment, pesky life stuff) and how much is excuses. So basically I'm kicking myself back and forth between motivational speeches and (metaphoric) self flagellation.

Fuckadoodledoo.

[JujuDeRoussie]

I had such a bad headache last night that I couldn't stay in front of my computer... I went to take some pills and try to rest a bit before my gf was here.... but I fell asleep and I missed her :(

And I still have this headache

[adwrsj]

i gave up smoking on sunday, i had a really rough day at work today and can't relax now, and i really need a ciggy

[dlline]

I was just informed by my middle school english teacher girlfriend that the language arts teaching community has officially determined that spelling no longer counts. It has been deemed irrelevant. I know there are a lot of people who will agree with this, but I just can't count myself among them. Neither can my girlfriend.

It's really hard to sit back and watch the decline of a civilization and the death of a language. That sucks.

[tazraven]

I feel your pain, Diane. Whoever said that spelling wasn't important never had to read student's essays and try and decipher their misspelled meaning.

On another crappy note, I'm gonna be sick. Worrying about my genetics test, which takes place in an hour, is really getting to me.

[umgaynow]

constant irremediable pain...62 days and counting!! Sure I'm stoned off my ass on Percocet, but ya know...the pain is kind of a buzzkill...I am sooooooooooo sick of being sick

[dlline]

What do you do when you don't eat poultry, have a broken front tooth, and are lactose intolerant when your girlfriend's parents decide that the menu for the day is chicken wings, corn on the cob, and homemade ice cream?

a. Punt
b. Fake a migraine
c. Throw a tantrum
d. All of the above

[JujuDeRoussie]

B: Fake a Migraine

Poor Dlline... your teeth are making your life a hell lately...

[Pinocchio1940]

I was just informed by my middle school english teacher girlfriend that the language arts teaching community has officially determined that spelling no longer counts. It has been deemed irrelevant. I know there are a lot of people who will agree with this, but I just can't count myself among them. Neither can my girlfriend.

It's really hard to sit back and watch the decline of a civilization and the death of a language. That sucks.

It's sad to think that some don't believe that spelling is important. I think it is, and most people are surprised by my use of language, in that sense, just the fact that I catch others' mistakes...

[Willowtree252]

a. Punt
b. Fake a migraine
c. Throw a tantrum
d. All of the above

My friend I am going with all of the above


My left ear is sick

[littlewicca]

aww im sorry dia!

I have a cold :( :(

[JustSkipIt]

Well, I'm pretty pissed. I just got up to go to the gym and it was closed. They were only open 6-8 yesterday which is similar to Sunday hours. Mondays they open at 5:00 and have classes at 5:30 (which instructors didn't mention being canceled today) but today, no classes. A whole bunch of people were there standing around. Now I can't work out today and I would have gone Tuesday if I had known. Boo hiss!

[JujuDeRoussie]

great my eczema is back

[littlewicca]

my cold still here and i have a head ache. And is not friday, well it is but not friday night
I miss...

[Willowtree252]

To say my life could be a Jerry springer show is an understatement Damn Mississippi relatives and wannabes. Every body now Jerry... Jerry........... Jerry I could not believe something my Megan told me tonight at dinner...... oh wait yes I can shit

[Pinocchio1940]

To say my life could be a Jerry springer show is an understatement Damn Mississippi relatives and wannabes. Every body now Jerry... Jerry........... Jerry I could not believe something my Megan told me tonight at dinner...... oh wait yes I can shit

If someone told me that I'd would be upset too. Keep your chin up though. Nobody can make your life better but yourself... and a good attitude.

[littlewicca]

im agree but, hey, people can help too, just a few, most of them hurt you, but some helps and love you.
I do

[ellbogen]

one word: jetlag (or is that two?)

In any case, I have it. And it feels ka-rappy!

[woahnellie]

ouch my head... why won't it go away?

[littlewicca]

my head is hurting too, i have a head ache, can we disconect it?

[Willowtree252]

My son got hurt pretty bad tonight he got his hand slammed in a car door. we could see all the way to the tendon and bone he had stitches and now he is back at his home. I missed my best friend by 5 min and now I am sitting here wishing I could talk to her

[Willowtree252]

Forgive me for Double posting but I just got a call from my son the Keflex they gave him he had an allergic reaction and he is back at the emergency room my god what a night I pray he will be ok.

[writerfreak]

I miss her, I miss the kids, all the kids hers and mine, I miss everything. And I'm sad and I don't really know why.

writerfreak