The Crappy Feelings Thread (HOTLINES in first post)

[mangled_monkey]

We watched a video today in my Human Sexuality class about female genital mutilation. It showed a nine year old girl having her clitoris cut off with no anesthetic and while being told she was a wimp for crying.

We saw the video at 9am, and I still feel sick. I cannot comprehend why this still takes place, and it saddens me that it does. Actually, saddens isn't a strong enough word for what I feel, but I don't think I could properly articulate it.

[littlewicca]

im tired of the rain, it makes my internet crash. I have a head ache cause for the thinking

[Auriam]

my girl are going to do something she doesn't want. But she has to do it. God i soo wanna be with her to take care of her !

[kisstheviolets]

i've felt like utter shite for the last week or so. i'm having a flare up, and it's heavy on the chronic fatigue. i feel like i just can't sleep enough and it's so hard to wake up in the morning (so i kind of haven't been which then throws off my whole sleep schedule).

in addition to all of this, i'm getting totally discouraged by the job hunt. i have a part-time gig for which i'm totally thankful, but i've been sending out loads of resumes for full-time associate positions and have heard absolutely nothing.

and because i feel like crap and am so bummed out all the time, my mom and brother keep trying to talk me into moving to portland every time we talk. while it would be nice to be with family and start someplace new, i don't want to be a quitter who bails because the going got tough for a while.

i just need to win the lottery and sleep for a week.

[Bound2Her]

I'm being guilted (is that even a word? Oh well...) into staying here till December and people are deciding what I should do with my life without even talking to me about it. Last time I checked this was my life. Blah!

[Sapphire eyes]

I wish I could let go of my anger and release my pain. I wish that the events of the 11th of February had never happened, it was nice shopping and laughing aith my mum and sisters and then it all went black and my life changed. Please, I need to get past this, all this anger and negative energy is eating away at my very being. I am trying so hard but I must keep trying harder and harder....

[JujuDeRoussie]

God the smell is so bad that I have to go to bed now... I can't even concentrate enough to finish the chapter I was reading, or the sentence itself!! ewwwww

[umgaynow]

I went to my new doctor on Monday...she obviously either doesn't believe in Fibromyalgia or has a really skewed understanding of what it is...I am completely uncomfortable with her treatment plan...now I am going to have to call and request a transfer to another doctor in the clinic and pray that I have better luck...because they are the only practice in town that is taking new patients...damn it, I thought I had this shit all settled!

also I got denied for APTD and Medicaid this week...with some really messed up stuff from my evals on it...I'm sorry, but I don't think any shrink can determine that you have disorders etc. based on one 45 minute interview...no way...and if I was only using "low level effort" on my functional capacity exam, why have I had pain constantly in the same spot since that day? God, I hate government agencies!!!

I wish I'd just get the second denial on my SSDI so I could call the lawyer again

[Sapphire eyes]

18 months to 2 years thanks Tim thanks alot! :(

[Emms]

I was bitten by a hobo spider tonight.

[umgaynow]

I was bitten by a hobo spider tonight.

YIKES

On topic: What the hell is wrong with the Red Sox...wait a minute I know what the hell is wrong with the Red Sox...what the hell is wrong with Tito Francona and his pet sucky relief pitchers? You used to know when to take someone out...what happened??

[Auriam]

i doin't good today i feel sick

[Emms]

I'm just feeling crappy and detached today. There's just this feeling of not fitting in anywhere (it's a thing. I'll get over it). I could say more, but I'd probably come off as a little co-dependant (which I'm not) anyway...bah.

[Sn0wflak3]

Love hurts like a son of a bitcha

[Boschi]

So I'm sitting here at a goddamned coffee shop instead of lounging around the house with the gf, as is my usual Sunday habit, because she and I managed to get into a heated, yet completely nonsensical, argument over the Jena 6 case this morning.

By "case" I apparently should not mean "fuck up" or "mistake" or... I don't know what the fuck else. I felt like every time I tried to talk we ended up debating why I should or should not use certain words to describe.. "the events" (can I say that, does it imply or fail to imply something it should/shouldn't???!!).

Now I'm all about deciding on a vocabulary that suits involved parties. I think that's half the battle sometimes - figuring out your own biases, different perspectives, etc. But this was above and beyond trying to negotiate respectful communication. This was just.... AAAARRRRRGGGHH!!! WHAT THE FUCK?? I felt like I was the sucker in some demented game of "Paint that Girl an Idiot/Racist/Moron/Redneck".

Again I say. WHAT THE FUCK??!! DID I WAKE UP IN BED WITH AN ALIEN THIS MORNING?!

So I'm sitting here, reading up on the case, reviewing my comments and perspectives and thinking, again, WHAT THE FUCK??!!

Allright, now I need to go back to trying to regain composure....

[river]

i am sick and my head hurts... i hope i can sleep tonight

[Willowtree252]

You know your world is fucked up when it hits you that your mother was right .

[kisstheviolets]

600 miles might as well be as far as 3,000 at this point.

[Willowtree252]

This is going to be the hardest week of my life I am trying to keep my morals after Tuesday all the drama should stop.............. I am really starting to want to move her in with me for the first time in my life I feel secure.

[JustSkipIt]

Well, in the past 24 hours the following has happened:

* my son accidentally head-butted me hard enough to give me a black eye
* my wife yelled some really really terrible things at me.
* I just had a car accident at the grocery store.

Yes, crappy.

[littlewicca]

Head ache

[LesbianJedi87]

I didn't get to talk to my girlfriend tonight because she procrastinated all week and decided to wait to do some project till tonight. Blah.

[Second Fig]

A good friend(?) totally backed out on me, and I don't know what to do about him.

[gorn]

HELP!! I'm still at work!! Somebody get me the hell outta here!!

Oh, jeez ... I'm the last one. I gotta turn out the lights and lock the door.

[woahnellie]

My body hurts everywhere :( !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Willowtree252]

I am not going to bleed all over the board with this I know how people hate that.

[kisstheviolets]

hot and cold. hot and cold. hot and cold. someone needs to decide if they're in this or not. my heart can't take the back and forth anymore. i'm too old for this.

[Willowtree252]

I think I am going to be sick, my head is splitting and my mind has more on it than I can take I pray I can sleep tonight.

[LesbianJedi87]

I don't want to spend the rest of this week and next week getting up at 7 am for really no other reason just cause my niece is up. All she does is watch cartoons till her mother gets home and that's 4 more hours of sleep I could get. I mean yeah, gotta watch her in case she lights the house on fire (which would never happen) but she wouldn't be up either if her brother would quit waking her up. I need my sleep.....or just....a lot of coffee....

[littlewicca]

I worried my friends, last night one and today another one. is it i cant do anything right? Im sorry :(