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CHAPTER 12 -

Curse of Fate



Although Tara could barely see the small shape in the distance as it moved around the battlefield, she could picture Willow’s rapt expression as clearly as if she were standing right next to her. The red-haired head bobbed excitedly as she scribbled notes on her pad or crouched to examine something on the ground that interested her. As always when she was watching Willow from afar, Tara found she could not relax, she was always poised on the edge of springing into action.

Here, in this place, it was all the more imperative that she remain focused and not lose herself to nostalgic thoughts as she was prone to do. Tara felt a slight chill run down her spine as she gazed out over the Covasna battlefield. It was the last place she had ever wanted to see again, even just looking at the dead inhabitants from a distance made her ill, dredging up the one memory she needed to suppress in order to be able to face each day. She felt like closing her eyes, shutting out the place but she knew she would not be doing her job. Instead she kept her gaze fixed determinedly on Willow…and that was part of the problem in the first place.

It was plainly obvious to Tara that the redhead did not actually remember visiting Covasna or the events that happened over one hundred years earlier. She moved about the battlefield as though the place was one life-sized book, the characters taking on physical form for her enlightenment and research. There was none of the revulsion or fear that would have clouded Tara’s own movements out in the middle of that place.

For a moment Tara was relieved Willow didn’t remember what had happened to her here. She already knew that any remembering of those events would be traumatic…and it would also undoubtedly be the end of the awkward, hesitant relationship that she had managed to re-kindle with Willow. Yet at the same time she knew that Willow had to remember…and in bringing her to this place Tara hoped to rekindle a spark of something, anything of her former life. If any place could do that to Willow…it would be the field upon which she died.

Tara’s skin crawled as she sensed another presence join her in her vigil on the end of the battlefield. She did not need to turn around, the foul sensation she felt in her gut told her exactly who it was and she had to make a supreme effort to suppress the anger she felt at his interference.

“You did not need to come,” Tara said coldly through gritted teeth. She left unspoken the other thoughts that were running through her head…first and foremost, that he would ruin everything by deviating from the plan. “I have everything in hand.”

“I have absolutely no doubt that you do, Tara.”

Tara could hear the thinly veiled sarcasm in his reply but did not let it affect the blank expression she maintained on her face. She turned to face her companion and she knew that he was searching for some form of weakness, the slightest twinge of her lips that would give away her feelings for Willow and would lead him to further suspect that she had an agenda different from his own.

“Never have you been one for tact or subtlety, Angelus…I am simply concerned that your presence will upset the delicate order of things,” Tara spoke, inwardly pleased as his own expression changed to one of mild fury. He had never been as adept at masking his inner emotions, especially his anger. “The master himself charged me with this task and I alone will see that it is carried out, I do not need help from you or William or any of your moronic sycophants.”

She refocused her gaze on Willow who had not seemed to move from the last moment she had saw her. Already she was irritated that Angelus had managed to distract from the task at hand, too much hinged on events progressing in a natural order.

“A state of affairs that you know I fought hard to rectify,” Angelus growled in reply, “I was disappointed that he did not favour my approach, one that no doubt would have yielded results far more swiftly than your pathetically soft-hearted tactics!”

“Because he is far wiser than you,” Tara had not intended to bate him, especially considering she knew just how dangerous he was.

“Bah!” Angelus roared in disgust, “You did me further disservice in rendering me your messenger boy.”

“Disservice?” Tara arched an eyebrow, “I thought it was trust…I knew how difficult it would be for you to stand in her presence and not be able to lay even so much as a finger on her.”

Tara heard him pacing in the undergrowth behind her; she heard fallen branches snap beneath the pressure of his boots as they thudded down into the earth with the force of his anger.

“Difficult!” Angelus’ voice was tight with the effort it required him to keep his temper in check, “It was almost impossible to stand in front of that little wretch and not rip her head off…especially given her current state in which she knows absolutely nothing, she’s helpless…I’m amazed she’s even got this far.”

“Did she recognise you?” Tara kept her voice under control.

Angelus was silent for several moments before replying, “I smelt her fear…but it was not fear brought about by recognition, familiarity perhaps…but nothing more. We exchanged very few words and I removed myself from her presence almost immediately after giving her the map. To stand there, in front of the woman who killed so many of our kind and appear to be helping her…even you would have to appreciate the irony of the situation.”

“I appreciate your restraint,” was all Tara said in reply.

She could hear Angelus grinding his teeth as he continued to pace. As she tried to ignore him and concentrate on Willow, a tiny thought began to tug at the back of her mind. If conceived through to fruition, it was an idea that would undoubtedly lead to the removal of the thorn in her foot.

Tara wondered if their master would notice Angelus’ disappearance…

~~~~~~

As Willow was in her element, moving further and further out into the battlefield, Myles and Alex continued to watch her from what they considered to be a safe distance. Myles shifted awkwardly on his feet, while he had no desire to follow her out amidst those piles of bones, he did not think he was discharging his duty very effectively by not being at Willow’s side. Just as he was about to suggest this to Alex, both men heard the clattering of hooves on hard ground. They spun to see the horses Myles had left untied bolting.

“God dang it!” Alex slammed the palm of his hand against his thigh as he saw the beast’s tails disappearing in the distance, back down the trail the way they had come. He pointed a firm finger at Myles, “You stay with her, don’t let her out of your sight…I’m going to get those bloody animals!”

Myles watched rather hopelessly as Alex turned and broke into a run; soon he too had disappeared back down the mountain. He turned and looked at Willow, now some distance away from him, still moving slowly around the battlefield taking her notes. With a sigh, he started walking towards her, careful not to step on any dead men as he went.

“Isn’t this all particularly fascinating, Myles?” Willow said enthusiastically as she heard footsteps behind her.

“Ah, W-Willow…”

Myles reply sounded much further away than his footsteps and she spun to see that she had not been addressing him at all. The young man stood some metres away from her, while in front of her was a tall dark haired man with pale skin. Willow’s jaw dropped in recognition.

“You gave me the map…”

He only had time to smile before a second person morphed into being at his side, Willow also recognised this next shape…it was Tara Maclay. Her heart immediately skipped a few beats despite her Tara’s expression was stern and her gaze directed towards the dark-haired man. Willow looked back and forth between the man and woman and her initial suspicions were confirmed. The stranger who had given her the map was indeed a vampire…and he too was standing in broad daylight.

“What is it with vampires these days?” Willow snapped in an exasperated voice, completely forgetting that they were usually merciless demons and she ought to be running for her life, “Can you all walk around whenever you please?”

Tara did not break into a smile, her expression remained serious, almost angry but Angelus laughed openly.

“Adorable as ever, isn’t she Tara?” Angelus reached out and linked his arm with Tara’s, Willow was pleased to see her jerk it away immediately, “You see Willow…some of us are older and more powerful than others, we are not bound by the same constraints as some of the weaker members of our race.”

“Some of us are indeed more powerful than others,” Tara gave her companion a pointed look, “Some of us are also wiser…and know when we are overstepping the mark…don’t we, Angelus.”

Willow could sense the tension that radiated between Angelus and Tara but she did not go as far as too sense danger. Somehow she knew that Tara would continue to protect her as she already seemed to do. Myles on the other hand was not convinced and he was eyeing up a rusted battle axe lying at his feet. Willow gave him a furious shake of her head to indicate he was not to try anything foolish.

“These times call for different methods, our time is running out, we need the skull and that scrawny little human knows where it is!” Angelus growled, turning to give Willow the force full of his baleful stare.

“What skull?” Willow squeaked, shrinking back slightly, she glanced down at a nearby skeleton and saw his toothy grin, “There are thousands of skulls here, I’m sure these chaps won’t miss one or two!”

Tara stepped between Willow and Angelus, her patience wearing thin as he refused to bow to her authority, “Threatening the girl will not deliver what we need!”

Willow glanced at Tara with a confused expression, “What we need? I say, what exactly is going on here?”

Angelus ignored Willow’s question and expressed his frustration as a roar, baring his fangs as he did so. Both Myles and Willow stumbled backwards with frightened yelps; however his fury in this instance was directed solely towards Tara.

“As your elder I hereby remove your rights to watch over our master’s interests in this matter!” his tone backed his words, deep and full of authority, “Your head is clouded with impure, irrelevant thoughts…when I explain this to him, he will realise his mistake and accept that my actions are the best course of action…we need to get this information out of her, we are running out of time!”

Tara’s face morphed into a mask of pure fury to match that shown by Angelus. So fearsome was her countenance that both Willow and Myles had to take yet another step backwards. Despite being physically shorter than Angelus, in her wrath Tara seemed to tower over him. Angelus would not back down; he faced Tara eye to eye.

“We will do this my way!” she growled firmly.

Angelus pointed his finger directly at Willow, “The red-headed whore knows where it is, that bastard of a brother told her and I’m going to get it out of her my way!”

“Angelus please, Abraham has been dead for years…how could he have told her himself? Tara backed off slightly, trying to reason with him.

“I don’t know…but I know exactly how I can get it out of her,” his eyes flicked to Willow, with a flourish he drew the sword he carried and for an awful moment Tara thought he was going to strike Willow, instead he levelled the sword directly at Tara’s neck, “I know what you are…but I also know that decapitation troubles you just as much as the rest of us.”

“No!”

Before Tara could say a word she saw a flash of red hair between her and Angelus.

“Willow, no!” she reached out towards Willow, intent on pulling her back.

Before she could reach the young woman, Angelus lashed out. His mighty hand struck her a glancing blow. Willow was tossed aside as easily as a rag doll with his powerful shove; she stumbled backwards and tripped over a thigh bone before she could arrest herself. Her arms wind-milled futilely before she fell, landing on her back across an armoured skeleton. The skeleton immediately crumbled beneath her weight but the awful sound Willow heard was not the shattering of bones and rusted armour but instead the tearing of flesh and fabric. She lay on her back, immediately feeling foolish at her rather clumsy manoeuvre and tried to think of an offhand quip to conceal her embarrassment. When no words came to mind she tried to spring back to her feet only to feel a searing pain across her entire torso that radiated throughout the rest of her body. She awkwardly glanced up to the figures standing above her to find twisted expressions on their faces, even the vampire Angelus appeared surprised...perhaps even horrified.

Willow furrowed her brow as she lifted her chin slightly to see a foreign object protruding from her chest, somewhere just above her left breast. She tried to bring her eyes into focus to work out what it was and why it was there but could not hold her head up any longer. It took every ounce of strength she had to reach up with her right hand and try and touch it. She felt a pitted, rough object surrounded by an awful dampness, when she lifted her fingers in front of her eyes all she could see was bright red blood. It dripped from her fingers and ran down her wrist. As it fell, she continued to watch with some sort of morbid fascination, marvelling at just how red blood actually was.

While Willow herself felt as though each of her movements took an eternity, mere seconds had passed since she had fallen and those left standing had now only just begun to react to the horribly unfortunate accident.

Tara had been moving to help Willow back to her feet while throwing a tense glare over her shoulder at Angelus. She saw the surprise on his face and her gaze darted back to Willow to see immediately what had Angelus’ attention. Her lips moved wordlessly as she cursed the fates for being so cruel. Willow had fallen onto a centuries old sword, it had slain the warrior beneath Willow and now it’s rusted and broken length was protruding from her chest.

Tara whirled on Angelus, a heart’s breath away from burning him to a crisp where he stood, “You fool! We need her alive, not dead!”

She dragged herself back under control and fell at Willow’s side, now seeing nothing except the redhead lying as pale as a sheet beneath her.

Behind her, Angelus took several steps backwards, away from Tara and the dying human woman, “I did not intend...” He shook his head several times before he was unable to face the scene before him any longer. Angelus turned and fled, shoving past Myles before he disappeared into a dark mist. The mist hung above the battlefield for a moment before fleeing into the forest.

Tara did not notice Angelus leaving; she only had eyes for the dreadfully wounded Willow. She lowered her gaze to meet Willow’s as hot tears ran down her cheeks, her heart breaking at the sight of the rusted weapon that had broken Willow’s flesh and the shattered bones that lay scattered around her.

“You silly child!” she sobbed loudly, “What on earth did you think you were doing?”

Willow reached up and awkwardly brushed Tara’s pale cheek, leaving behind a smear of blood as her fingers fell, she whispered, “I was protecting you.”

“You don’t even know who I am,” Tara whispered, catching Willow’s hand and holding it tenderly to her lips.

“Yes…I do,” Willow heaved with a tiny, spluttering cough, “Y-you’re the woman of my dreams.”

Tara knew she had to pull herself together but the sight of Willow again lying bloodied on the field at Covasna was too much for her to accept. She crumpled over the redhead’s body, cradling her head in her hands as she wept with great, heaving sobs. The helplessness that overwhelmed her was almost complete, each of Willow’s tiny gasps for breath only served to drive the sword further into her own heart. Tara did not hear the urgent footsteps behind her, then someone was shaking her roughly by the shoulders, forcing her to straighten up, she turned to see the boy standing above her, his own face white with fear and concern.

“Don’t just sit there crying!” Myles pleaded, he dashed away the tears stinging his own eyes, “Please help her!”

The boy’s urgent words drew Tara out of her despair. She felt wretched at her own helplessness and the fact that it took a human and a mere boy at that to jolt her to her senses.

“Come here and take off your shirt,” Tara demanded coldly.

“What?” Myles asked numbly, stumbling forward to stand beside the female vampire.

“Your shirt!” Tara repeated, “We need something to pack against the wound when I get this sword out of her.

“Oh,” Myles nodded dumbly, throwing off his jacket first and laying it down on the ground beside Willow. He then tore of his shirt, not even bothering to undo the buttons and deftly shredded it in two.

“You’ll have to help me here,” Tara seized the scraps of fabric that had once been Myles’s shirt and motioned him onto the other side of Willow’s body, “I’m going to try and break the top of the sword off and then we’ll lift her up…there will be blood, and lots of it, are you going to faint on me boy?”

Myles shook his head, the pallor of his cheeks suggesting otherwise, “No ma’am…and it is Myles.”

Tara nodded curtly and turned her attention to Willow, who was by now even whiter as though all the blood had drained from her entire body. She reached out tendering and brushed the tangled strands of hair out of Willow’s eyes.

“Will…we’re going to have to get this thing out…”

“I heard you,” Willow interrupted in a tiny whisper, “I trust you…”

With trembling fingers Tara reached out and grasped the rusty sword just above the wound with one hand, holding it firmly, she told a hold of it with the other and prepared to snap it. The metal was already weakened from lying exposed to the elements and it snapped effortlessly as Tara applied her inhuman strength. Simple and effortless as it was, Willow cried out in pain, more blood gushing from her wound. Tara looked at the bloodied shard in her hand for a second and then threw it aside with another angry curse at the cruel fates.

“Boy…Myles, I need you to help me lift her, one quick movement,” Tara commanded, placing her arms beneath Willow’s body, she hated to see the redhead wince in pain as she did so but nor could she leave her with the rusted sword in her body. “Lift!”

Tara and Myles lifted together, both hearing the awful rasping sound the sword made as it withdrew from Willow’s flesh. The wounded girl cried out just once as she was lifted, a strangled, wailing cry that brought tears to Tara’s eyes. She lifted her into a sitting position and deftly used the pieces of Myles’s shirt to staunch the blood that soaked Willow’s back. Then, cradling the shaking girl against her body, she wound a length around Willow’s chest to hold the pieces in place. Already her blood was soaking through the makeshift white dressings.

Myles crouched in the dirt next to Tara, waiting to spring into action at her next command but as the seconds ticked by nothing happened. The vampire remained cradling Willow’s trembling body against her own, her cheek pressed against her head, eyes closed with a thin trail of tears snaking from beneath the lids. Willow was deathly pale, her entire body trembling as though she had a chill. When Myles reached out and touched Willow’s limp hand, he found it icy cold. He looked up at Tara urgently, willing her back into action and out of this funk she seemed to have slipped into once more.

“What next?” he prodded insistently, “Shouldn’t we cauterize the wound or something? Stop the bleeding?”

Tara’s eyes peeled open to look at Myles but she remained holding Willow instead of moving to put Myles’s suggestion into effect, “I would, but flakes from the sword have broken off in the wound, if I seal it, the wound will fester and she’ll die…slowly and painfully.”

Myles’s mouth worked soundlessly, a sign of his frustration at being helpless as Willow grew weaker and weaker in front of his eyes. “What are you going to do then?” he demanded of the woman, knowing that they could not just sit back and let her die, especially not when she obviously meant so much to both of them.

“I don’t know!” Tara snapped in reply, her own frustration manifested in anger, “There’s nothing I can do, I can’t help her…not as I am, I cannot heal, I can only kill…”

Frowning, Myles did not understand what she was trying to explain…all he knew was that Willow was running out of time. As he crouched, his fingers drumming urgently against the dirt in front of him, he saw the vampire look up sharply and study him through her cold blue eyes as though she were sizing him up for some purpose. He met her gaze steadily, despite the fact that she made him decidedly uncomfortable.

“How old are you?” she demanded abruptly.

“Ma’am?” Myles was taken aback at the odd question…odd in their current circumstances at least, and coming from a vampire but he saw a flicker of hope in her eyes and he replied, “I’m sixteen and a half, ma’am.”

The tiny flicker of hope was extinguished almost as soon as it had appeared and Tara’s shoulders sagged, she whispered in a broken voice, “Too young…using you as a conduit will undoubtedly be fatal.”

Myles’s still didn’t understand exactly what Tara was saying but there was one concept he could pick up on, “There’s a way I can help Willow?”

Tara looked at the eager expression on the young man’s face and knew that he would be prepared to go to any lengths to save Willow’s life; she suspected that he would indeed die for her. This didn’t surprise her at all; she had always known that Willow was the sort of person that would inspire people to do something like that for her. She was an inscrutably good person, and the last thing she deserved was to die in such a futile manner. For a full moment she allowed herself to consider using the young man, taking his life to save Willow’s. She justified the thought with the fact that he was willing…but eventually came to the decision that she could not do it, not even to save Willow’s life.

“No, Myles,” Tara replied softly.

“Damn…straight there’s not,” a tiny, weak voice whispered defiantly in her ear, “No one will die for m-me.”

Tara couldn’t resist a pained smile at Willow’s defiance; her brave words did succeed in reviving her somewhat, breaking her out of the despair she had felt and she looked back in the direction of the forest with some degree of hope.

“Will, dearest, I’m going to lie you down,” Tara explained, she felt Willow’s head jerk in a weak nod and she gently brought her down to rest atop Myles’s jacket. As she looked down at her, she saw the shirt was soaked completely through, stained with the blood that was seeping from her body. She forced her gaze away and looked to Myles, “There are plants which I can use to pack the wound, perhaps they may have the effect of cleaning it…” It was an interim measure at best, Tara knew that there were no plants that could restore the amount of blood Willow had lost, “You stay here, try and light a fire.”

Myles nodded as Tara rose swiftly to her feet, throwing off her coat as she did so. She laid it the length of Willow’s body while Myles was already up and moving towards the few bare trees that had managed to take route in the midst of such death. She cast one last look down at Willow, her face stark white against the black of the coat, before turning to make her way towards the forest.

No sooner had Tara turned around than she felt a solid weight slam into her body, she was knocked to the ground and landed hard with the weight still atop her. She found herself gazing up into the furious expression of Willow’s brown haired friend, Faith. There was a hastily carved stake clutched in her fist, raised above her head as though she were just about to plunge it into Tara’s heart.

“What the bloody hell have you done to Willow, you bitch!” Faith was breathing heavily, exhaustion hidden beneath the intensity on her face, “Speak now or you’re dust!”

“I’m trying to save her life!” Tara replied quickly, keeping one eye firmly fixed on the stake which could end everything in seconds.

Behind them both, Myles had spun at the sound of raised voices and his eyes widened when he saw Faith had joined them. Although her appearance seemed nothing short of miraculous, she was about to destroy the vampire that was working to save Willow’s life. He dropped the small armload of sticks he carried and ran at the pair of women, intent on grabbing Faith’s attention before she made a horrible mistake.

“She’s a friend!” Myles yelled, no quite sure why he was waving his arms but it seemed to grab Faith’s attention, he was gasping for breath as he drew up beside her and he had to wait a few seconds before continuing, “Please…don’t stake her.”

Faith glanced from Myles back down to the woman lying flat on her back beneath her and finally to the deathly pale body lying just behind them. With the stake still clutched in her fist, she slowly drew back and allowed the vampire to stand. Both women kept each other in view throughout their movements. Faith’s eyes were narrow with suspicion even as Tara kept glancing worriedly at Willow as though she expected the redhead to breathe her last at any moment.

Meanwhile Myles, pleased enough with himself at having successfully averted an unwanted vampire dusting, was now looking at Faith as though he were sizing her up for something.

“Excuse me, ma’am,” he awkwardly managed to attract Tara’s attention, cheeks reddening somewhat as she turned to look at him, “You said something about me being too young to help Willow…what about Faith, she’s old enough right…being that she is pretty old?”

In any other circumstance, Faith would have taken umbrage at Myles’s impertinent remark, as it was she heard the words ‘help Willow’ and her attention was fully focused. Tara too studied Faith as Myles had, as though she were sizing her up.

Tara nodded curtly, “You look strong, I think I can use you if you’re willing.”

“If it will help Willow of course I’m bloody well willing,” Faith shot back, “I haven’t tracked you all the way here just to stand back and watch her die…just tell me what the hell I have to do.”

“Strictly speaking, you do not have to do anything, but I need you to act as a conduit between the two of us…Willow and I,” Tara was already rolling back the sleeves of her black dress as she regarded Faith calmly, “I can do magicks…”

“So you can heal her?” Faith interrupted, un-phased by the mention of the word ‘magicks,’ in her line of work, it was hardly unknown, “What are you waiting for then, heal her for godssake!”

Tara remained calm as she settled on the ground beside Willow and drew back the coat which covered her body. Willow was barely breathing; the shirt staunching her wound was completely stained with blood. Faith was far from calm however as she joined Tara on the ground next to Willow, her jaw dropping when she saw the bloodied dressings that had been hastily applied to Willow’s sagging chest.

Tara continued talking as she carefully but swiftly removed the dressings, “There is light and dark to everything…as someone like you would well know, being a vampire I have nothing but the dark variety within me…”

“Meaning?” Faith’s voice had disappeared to a mere croak as Tara uncovered the jagged tear in Willow’s pale flesh.

“Meaning I can only destroy, not heal,” Tara tossed the bloodied dressings aside and took Faith’s hand in her own, she placed it directly atop the wound, “but in using you as a sort of conduit I think I can heal her to some extent…enough to increase her chances of survival.”

“What are you waiting for,” Faith’s expression was twisted into a grimace at the feel of the wound beneath her palm; she was distressed at Willow’s complete lack of reaction to her touch.

“This is not going to be pleasant,” Tara cautioned, taking Faith’s remaining hand, “You will act as a filter for the darkness that resides within me…”

“Enough talking, I’m ready,” Faith snapped impatiently.

Tara nodded in reply and closed her eyes. Faith did not know whether she ought to follow suit but did so anyway. She tried to block out all external distractions and concentrate solely on what she was touching, Willow’s wound with one hand, and Tara’s hand with the other. When nothing seemed to be happening she peered through one eye to see Tara’s face a mask of serenity as though she too were concentrating intently. Faith quickly squeezed her eye shut once more.

Slowly but surely she felt a distinct warmth transferring from Tara’s palm to her own, gradually moving up her arm and across her chest. Faith shivered slightly despite the warmth. In her mind’s eye she could now see Willow’s wound and just how terrifying close she was to death. The object had very nearly pierced her heart. She watched as tiny particles of rust were cleansed from her flesh, everything which should not be inside Willow’s body was stripped away. Slowly but surely the torn flesh and severed vessels began to knit themselves together. Willow’s heart began to beat with a steady rhythm.

So far the process was far less intrusive than Faith had at first thought; the sensation was almost pleasant despite the vampire’s warning. However, when an indefinable amount of time had passed, Faith began to feel sick to her stomach, her insides started to churn uncomfortably and before long she felt as though she would surely vomit. The images of Willow’s wound inside her mind were replaced by a fractured series of moments in time, none making sense to her as she did not recognise the people. The images eventually came so fast that they melded into a blur, only a few moving slowly enough for her to understand. They were mostly faces…none she recognised until she saw that of a redhead she knew all too well.

The images were definitely clearer as though they were complete, cherished memories. Willow. It had to be Willow…and yet there was something about her that Faith knew was not the Willow she knew so well. The Willow she saw in the vampire’s mind was confident, vivacious and obviously completely at ease with who she was. There were flashes of sensual, languorous fucking where two sweat-coated bodies were entwined, almost inseparable. The Willow in that embrace was one she had never seen, she made love to the blonde whom Faith was surprised to see was not a vampire at this moment in time.

Those images were gone as quickly as though they had been snatched away, replaced by something altogether terrifying. The images were once again blurry and incomplete, as though they had been determinedly suppressed. What little Faith could make out was of a man, a savage, cruel beast of a man as he raped the woman the vampire had once been. As hard a woman as she was, Faith felt hot tears flow down her cheeks as the woman’s cries intruded every corner of her mind.

He was gone, replaced by an all-encompassing blackness that further increased the nausea Faith felt. Although she could feel her legs firmly folded on the hard earth beneath her she felt as though she were falling, her body hurtling through the blackness at speed. She felt her gut heave and she fell forward. Her face hit the dirt and seconds later she vomited, losing her grip on the vampire’s hand as she needed both to clutch at her gut. Her mouth was filled with a substance the consistency of tar that tasted vile. When she opened her eyes she saw the ground directly in front of her was covered in a thick, black liquid. She lurched forward again and another spurt erupted from her mouth. Behind her she heard the vampire moving but she did not care what she was doing, all she cared about was cleansing herself of the stuff inside her body.

She heard the vampire breathe a sigh of relief and whisper two words, “Thank god.”

Faith tuned slightly, wondering why in hell the vampire could breathe a sigh of relief at all…and why she was thanking an entity that she ought to be cursing. Then there was her relationship with Willow which also defied explanation and all common sense.

“Who are you?” Faith whispered seconds before she slipped into unconsciousness and fell face first into the dirt at Tara’s side.

~~~~~~

Several hours later, with darkness well and truly settled, Faith finally woke from her exhausted slumber. She sensed a presence nearby and knew instinctively that it was the vampire. Even before her eyes fluttered open she was asking about Willow.

“Will she live?” Faith croaked, still tasting the residue of the tar-like substance in her mouth.

Tara knelt in the dirt next to Faith and tenderly examined the brunette for any sign of affect effects from the spell. It appeared to have taken a lot out of her but other than being exhausted, she was fine. As Faith’s eyes opened, Tara pointed a finger in the direction of a small shape bundled beneath blankets not too far away from her.

“Much of her strength has fled her body…but she will now be able to survive the journey down the mountain,” Tara intoned quietly, “The wound is clean and I was also able to begin the healing process before you passed out.”

“Thank god,” Faith said with all sincerity in her voice, with Willow safe she turned her attention to the hollow feeling n the pit of her stomach, an aroma of something strong was making her mouth water, “I’m starving…”

Tara inclined her head towards the haunch of what looked like some sort of deer roasting on a spit above the fire. Myles gave her a little wave from where he was tending it. Faith sat up slightly, propping herself up on her elbows as she eyed the hunk of roasting meat.

“How the hell did you kill that?” Faith asked in a voice torn between scepticism and amazement.

Tara arched an eyebrow as if to ask how Faith could even doubt her skill as a huntress. She settled back on her haunches and watched the other woman peel the blankets away from her body and lift herself into a sitting position. Her movements were slow, as though she were testing the strength in her body, but Tara could tell that she had recovered quickly despite the traumatic experience of being used as a conduit.

“I know you just saved Willow’s life,” Faith said as she unfolded her body in a cat-like stretch, “but what is your business with her, vampire?”

“My business with Willow…” Tara repeated Faith’s words, drawing out the words as one would if they were reluctant to divulge a plan, “My business with Willow is my own concern, suffice to say it is vital.”

“Vital to what?” Faith growled. She was annoyed at being continually kept in the dark, first by Lara and now by this vampire who seemed to be the perfect antithesis to the rest of her kind.

Killing vampires was one of Faith’s favourite pastimes due to the immense variety of methods available to dispatch the creatures, killing this one was still an option regardless of her twisted relationship with Willow.

“Vital to the fate of millions of people across Europe,” Tara added simply.

Faith raised her eyebrows, “Willow has to save millions of people? That Willow over there, snoring like a train…the Willow that would much sooner read a book about a demon than actually meet one face to face, the one that couldn’t save herself let alone millions of people?”

Tara nodded, smiling a little at the mention of some of Willow’s traits, “Yes…that Willow.”

“Does she know this?” Faith demanded, her voice betraying her concern for her friend.

“Not yet…”

“But she will?” Faith interrupted, “Because the sooner someone tells Willow and I what the hell is going on around here the sooner we can start trying to keep ourselves safe! How the hell can I protect her if I don’t know what she’s up against…and then you come swooping in with your bloody condescending manner, seeming to know everything and refusing to tell the people that actually matter what the hell you’re doing…and why in hell do you have images of fucking Willow in that twisted mind of yours?”

Tara could hardly fail to notice the protective intent behind Faith’s words. She had already proven earlier the strength of her love for Willow. It was now written very plainly on her face as stared right back at Tara, her gaze challenging and direct, demanding that Tara explain herself. Such was the intensity of it, that it was Tara who had to break away first…although this was also due in part to the speculations that were running unchecked through her mind as to the true nature of Faith’s friendship with Willow. While she had not observed anything pass between the two that confirmed such speculations, it was a distinct possibility that Faith’s feelings for Willow went beyond that of friendship.

Tara smiled sadly, for all her watching and longing, she had always known that she could never reclaim what she had once shared with Willow. Even had Willow wanted it, as she had the night she was drunk, Tara would have denied her…there was no doubt that the denial would be difficult of course, but Tara knew she could not bring herself to do that to Willow.

She meet Faith’s gaze once more, the smile lingering on her face for a few moments, “The images mean nothing…you will start down the mountain tomorrow at first light, I cannot stay at your side but I will be watching over you…please take care of her.”

“Wait…where are you…” no sooner had Faith started speaking, Tara was done…she simply disappeared.

Faith sprang to her feet and looked across at Myles, although he had clearly been much too intent on shoving a hunk of venison into his mouth to notice Tara leaving.

“Where’d she go?” he asked a moment later, struggling to get his words out around his chewing jaws.

Tara watched as Faith shrugged in reply to the young man. Of course there was no way that she could see the fine dark mist of her non-corporeal form in the blackness.

Faith’s attention was quickly drawn away however as she saw a shape emerging from the darkness, it was Alex leading two horses. The man was a mess, caked in mud from head to toe, a bleeding scratch running the length of his cheek. His eyes widened when he saw Faith and even further when he saw Willow lying pale beneath her blankets.

“What the hell happened here?”

“A better question would be where the hell you were Alex Harris…I told Lara I didn’t trust you to protect her, and as luck would have it I was right!” Faith fired back, her strength returning as she was fuelled by anger.

Unseen, Tara left the pair of humans to their argument, she lingered over Willow for but a moment before she was gone, once again resuming her role as an unseen protector, although she knew that after the events of this fateful day, her role would never be the same again.

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Willow found herself standing on the battlefield at Covasna, it was in the dead of night and a wild wind whipped her hair about her face. Somewhere in the distance she heard the rumble of thunder. She remembered standing in the same place with Myles and the vampires, Angelus and Tara but she was alone now. Alone save for the thousands upon thousands of dead men littering the field, only illuminated with a flash of bright lightning. The rumbling thunder followed, closer now. The rain it heralded began to pelt down, a few drops at first and then a massive sheet of water followed with little warning. Willow glanced down at her own, already soaked body and saw a dark stain spreading outwards from her chest. Protruding from the middle of the stain was the point of a sword.

Another lightning flash, Willow looked up to see herself surrounded by dark shapes. The following thunder shook the ground beneath her feet.

The next sheet of lightning was so bright it hurt her eyes but at the same time she saw the dark shapes were the warriors of Covasna. They were no longer fleshless skeletons but breathing, walking men.

Willow was again shrouded in darkness but she could hear the breaths of thousands pounding in her ears.

Without warning, the sword that had been rammed through her body was withdrawn in one smooth movement and she fell forward into the mud at her feet…still hearing the breathing in her ears, coming closer and closer…


Willow woke. Gasping for air with short, urgent breaths, she clutched at her chest and found the heavy bindings covering her wound. She winced slightly with the pressure and found that she could not lift herself from the bed in which she lay. Her eyes darted around the darkened room but wherever she was, it was alien and unfamiliar.

Again she clutched at the wound in her torso but frowned when she realised it was in a different location to where she had been stabbed in her dream. In the dream, the sword had obviously gone straight through her heart while she was now feeling the wound just above her left breast, obviously having narrowly missed her heart. Willow felt that same organ now pounding wildly, sending resulting waves of pain flowing through her body. Everything hurt like hell so she was definitely alive.

She craned her head slightly to take in the entire room and froze with fear at the sight of a dark shape leaning against the wall. It passed when her eyes grew adjusted to the dim shadows and she was able to make out the now familiar long blonde hair. When the figure stepped forward she could also make out her blue eyes as they shone in the darkness. Willow quickly realised the woman’s eyes were shining with relief and a small smile tugged at one corner of her lips.

“I would ask how you feel but I would think it obvious,” she began lightly.

“Sore,” Willow responded, her own voice coming out as a weak croak that sounded strange to her ears.

“That is understandable…you survived a terrible wound and an arduous journey.”

“A journey?” Willow squeezed her eyes hut for a moment, “I remember being at Covasna, falling, the blood…and then nothing until now,” Willow opened her eyes once more, “Waking up in this room.”

“Faith and Myles and that lump of a guide brought you down out of the mountains, you remained asleep for much of it…and you were not lucid when you did wake,” Tara explained, having watched almost every moment from afar.

“I don’t understand how…I should have died.”

“Yes,” Tara replied quietly, knowing full well that if she had not been there and able to use Faith as a healing conduit, Willow would have died before even commencing the journey back to Klausenburg…for all the cruelty of the Fates, they also knew when to pull off a miracle.

“It is hard to believe…at last I will have a scar to match the best of Faith’s,” Willow found one positive point to note from her horrible wound, “I hope it is impressive.”

“You nearly die and you are concerned about a scar?” Tara asked in disbelief.

“Well I’ve never almost died before…I’m not sure how I should behave,” Willow frowned, her small body seeming rather helpless as she lay confined in the bed, “I am grateful of course…to you…to Faith…and Myles…I am not sure how I survived…”

“You survived because you and your friend Faith both have hearts of lions,” Tara smiled, allowing herself to reach out and cup Willow’s cheek briefly before drawing back to avoid further contact. She refused to notice the fact that Willow had leaned into the touch as though she craved it, “Faith seems to be a formidable woman…and a very loyal…” Tara paused for a moment before finishing lamely, “…friend.”

“She is!” Willow replied with an enthusiasm that far outstripped her level of strength, “She can be vexing at times but I love her dearly.”

Not half as much as I love you, Tara thought with an awful twisting sensation in her gut. At the same time she forced herself into a state of acceptance. Faith was strong; she would protect Willow with her life. However more importantly, Faith was whole and uncorrupted…while she was a travesty, neither human nor demon. It was a tortured existence that Tara could not share with anyone, not even the woman she knew to be her soul mate.

She watched as Willow fought a losing battle with her exhaustion and knew she ought to leave and let her sleep. The redhead’s eyes slid slowly closed despite her valiant efforts to keep them open, her head tilted to one side as she sank back into the pillow. Not wishing to disturb her, Tara moved towards the window. Her movements were reluctant, she wanted nothing more than to remain at Willow’s bedside and still be there when she woke if only to see her green eyes again.

“I wish you would stay,” Willow whispered, apparently not fully asleep.

“You know I can’t, Willow,” Tara said, turning her head slightly but not daring to look at Willow lest she give into her wish, “I have things to do…there is one ‘friend’ in particular whom I must pay a little visit.”

Tara’s mind turned to thoughts of Angelus, where he would be and what he was doing…and most importantly whether he knew she was coming for him. Willow had almost died; of course he knew she would be coming for him. She entertained no further thoughts of staying with Willow as this new purpose took root in her conscience. This she had to do to keep Willow safe, although she knew full well that the consequences could be severe.

“Answers…” Willow pleaded.

Still Tara did not turn around; she moved towards the window and placed a hand on one cold pane, “Read the rest of the diary, Willow, there are enough answers contained within its pages to lead you on the next step of your journey.”

“It is naught but…gibberish,” Willow protested weakly.

“Try Willow…you’ll find you knew the words all along…” the end of Tara’s sentence died away as she gradually dissolved into her misty self and left Willow’s room to begin her hunt for Angelus.


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Well dibsy doodle for me.

ETA: This doesn't really cover the fb for this fantastic update but I want to comment on this:
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don’t take me wrong but I’m exceptionally glad that you don’t know how this will go or where it will end up.
I'm also exceptionally glad. Diane and I have frequently discussed the constraints of this board and its FAQs on the writing experience. It's so hard to write with mystery when the reader knows that by definition the story will end with W/T together and "alive." That leaves us, writers, with only the freedom to determine how that happens rather than if. And it takes no small amount of skill to take those rules and still have mystery. So take my confusion as a compliment.

I'll come back later for fb for this chapter. Right now we're trying to get the baby to sleep.

Ok, I'm back for feedback and hardly know where to start. I think I'll skip around to what seems most crucial. Willow died at Covasna ? Huh? How in the bloody hell would that have come about? How would a gentlewoman or two gentlewomen have been on that battlefield? You're dropping hints that make me feel like I should have read something more thoroughly and then reassure myself that it just hasn't unfolded yet. Arggghhh. I can't even fathom why she would have been there.

It seems quite likely that Tara was, in fact, married to Walsh given the images Faith saw of her rape. Unless she was turned before being married but raped by a vampire first (which seems incredibly unlikely).

Miles is fantastic and I can't believe he's 16. 16? And the museum sends him on a dangerous mission? Boy they really feel like letting him have some experience. It makes me even more impressed with the way he's stood up to Harris.

Poor Tara for seeing Willow fall on the sword (again, sort of) and not being able to save her until Faith shows up. And Faith the ass kicker. At least she shows up and provides some much needed exposition.

Willow's line about vampires was great.

I need to go but this is so fantastic. Also long which means you write very quickly. Have you considered NaNoWriMo?

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wow the fics today have been bad for Willow this is the second fic I read today with her getting stabbed. :sob


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You sure do deliver what you promise. My heart nearly stopped when Willow was impaled. Well, not quite...but close enough.

Tara's abilities are interesting. And it seems that you're somewhat redefining the limitations of a vampire. Right now I'm confused, but I'm sure you'll provide an explanation in time. Haha, see the trust that I have in you?

I hope Tara KILLS Angelus. :P

As always, looking forward to the next one.

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I wish I could put into words how I feel about this story, I start and then I find that what I wrote just doesn’t do you justice.
This last update really upped the ante, the story is moving along and we are getting closer and closer to finding out the answers to the many questions you have created. It was so dark compared to some of the other chapters and the images that Faith saw almost made me cry. You are amazingly brave for taking on this type of tale and planning it with a happy ending.
One of the many aspects I love is your consistently descriptive method in telling the story, you don’t leave anything out, the thoughts, the locations help to create a vibrant world. The mystery is what makes this especially appealing, I usually hate suspense but you have kept me on a shoestring the whole time and I have enjoyed it!

I have never done this before but for you, I will break my sign silence – I <3 this story.

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Once again you answer so many questions and yet leave me hanging on the edge with yet even more unanswered questions! lol :D

I am really enjoying this story and the progression of the character development as well as how you are leading us ever so carefully into your world (i.e. the one you write so wonderfully about).

Keep up the fantastic work :D

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Hello Alcy :)

No fair I didn't reply in time :blush ^^

Two nice update with some answers... but not as many questions as before.
Still some of course. But now I know which skull Angelus, Spike and Tara were talking about, or I think I know. Well in every cases it is an important thing for the Bad Side.
I loved how Faith walked away from Lara to go help her Willow. I think like Tara, there is not only friendship there. But I am not sure about the nature of the relationship either.
And I still don't understand *what* Tara is. I mean she's a hotie for sure.... She seems to be a souled vampire... But the others treat her like she is very different. So I wonder i it is from a soul, or because of her magics? I know I'll find answers in the next chapters. :)

About Willow's injury... I have to say it was really.. stupid. What a way to die! "I fell on some hundreds year old sword. And the squeleton of the man who had this said sword." >___<
But I don't understand Angelus' reaction. I mean I understand her death would have been horrible for their plans, but 1/ doesn't he know you're posting it on the kitten and that you can't kill her?; 2/It seems he was very afraid but of what? Tara or Willow's injury???
Tara should have just burnt him like that *poof*... She was so right when she was afraid of his presence interfering. It has more than interfered. Crap.

Really two nice updates. Now I can't wait for the next one. We'll have a glimse of the diary right? *eyes shinning with excitment like a 5 years old at Christmas Eve :)*

Oh and thanks for the dream. Will the diary be said in Willow's dreams?

Thanks for your updates

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I hope Tara finds Angelus soon and make a nice pile of dust out of him. :wtkiss soon pleaase. :pray

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Wow, all the excitement. To put it mildly, Angelus is an anus and I can't wait to see what Tara is going to do to him. He just about ruined everything. So glad Faith showed up in time and Tara had the ability to heal her. That was too close. It was ironic that she was stabbed on the same field where she had died before. I'm going to make a stupid assumption that the other Willow became a hunter of vampires after Tara married Edward, oh but why??

Faith got a good glimpse of W/T's memories during the healing, but the one of what Edward did to Tara just made me sick to my stomach, so no wonder she vomited.

Awesome job again. Can't wait to see what's next. Oh, and thanks for more W/T interaction. One last question -- are they ever going to get to have sex, because they had such passion in their previous lives and that was ruined, so it would be unfair if they didn't get to finally have that part of them fulfilled. I know, I'll just have to wait and find out.

Love it!

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that was one hill of unpdate I was really worid about willow but I like the way she try to defend tara and the part of you are the women of my dream was somthing else. don't keep us waiting for long


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Alcy,

Yes, I’m slow to the party, again, but I wanted to check in quickly and let you know that you’ve pulled off another great update. Yes, poor Willow had a really bad day (stabbed twice), but I get it for the story. I love Faith, I can’t stand Angelus, and I hope Tara takes proper care of both of them.

Lots of stuff has already been mentioned, but this image will stay with me.
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…allowing herself to reach out and cup Willow’s cheek briefly before drawing back to avoid further contact. She refused to notice the fact that Willow had leaned into the touch as though she craved it…

Tara’s love for Willow, regardless of her incarnation, is palpable and that just makes me kinda all warm and fuzzy inside.

I have to second the nomination for the girls in their present form to get together, but it’s totally up to you and whatever you have in mind, and I know I won’t be disappointed with whatever you give us. I know it will be good.

Thanks again and I offer you another well done.

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Hm...interesting.
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Crap! I feared Tara would turn Willow and because of that Willow would get her memory "back".
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He's that young? Wow, pictured him around 22. Weird, and Lara just send him on this quest at that age?
And yay for Faith! Though she got there kinda fast!
So I guess the lord is quite the oppsite of Dracula then? Because Tara said it's vital to the population of Europe... meaning she wants to protect them from getting killed, right?
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Poor Tara, Here is Willow, love of her life, and not only doesnt she completely understand who she is but Tara also thinks Willow could never love someone like her. Can't wait for Willow to prove her wrong!

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This fic just keeps getting better and better, which is kinda hard to believe cuz it was great and i loved it from the start.

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I put off reading this for a long time mainly because I know nothing about Van Helsing and I've only read a few chapters of Dracula (I need to finish that sometime). But I'm really glad I jumped in and started to read this.

Whenever I ask myself what Willow and Tara actually are I think of that old SNL sketch with, I think, Bill Murray and Steve Martin. They both look off into the distance and just keep asking the question, "What the hell is that!?" then they add in a few, "Oh, I know what that is," but then they ultimately go back to "......What the hell is that!?!?"
But I do feel like we, as readers, are definitely getting close to understanding those characters with the help of the battleground story.

Right now my only real question is: Why does Willow have to figure it all out on her own if Tara (and Giles, apparently) already have it figured out?
I know this type of question is always answered with: Well then it wouldn't be an interesting story and there'd be no plot. But still! It's aggravating.

Also, it seems like Willow and Tara are/were on opposite sides. But wait, Tara said they were trying to save Europe - argh, so much back and forth!

And I'm so curious to figure out how and who exactly put the sword through Willow Van Helsing's heart to cause her first death, especially if Tara admitted previously it was her fault.

I think my favorite part of the previous chapters were Tara's journal entries, and now I miss them. They were like the frosting on the cake. But since I don't really enjoy frosting... they were like the cake under the frosting!

It's a great mystery and I love the image of scrawny Willow running away from burly prostitutes.


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:wave Hey I just wanted to tell you how much I love your story, it's a very good idea .
I love the not knowing what really happened all these years ago, how willow died and how tara became a vampire it's really interesting.
I'm on the edge of my seat everytime I read one of your update. I can't wait to see where you are going with all of this, keep up the good work. :clap

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Dearest Alcy,

I apologise that it's taken me so long to read and respond to your oh-so-fabulous story. (I've been a little frantic working on my own.) Am I ever glad I took the time.

I love the dichotomy of the chapters, how you begin with the journal entry and continue with the present day. You give us just enough information to tantalize us, tease us, keep up on the edge of our seats. In the beginning we wondered who W was, now we know so much. Too much, as Faith saw those hideous memories of Tara's about Edward.

Bookish Willow rocks, and I sincerely enjoyed her bout with Giles in the training room. Looks like her past life is catching up to her; a necessary thing for her to save the world, as everyone but her seems to know. And I just about freaked when Willow got impaled by the sword (of course, this is the KB), excellent description of that, by the way. I really enjoyed how Tara healed Willow through Faith; it made complete sense that her bastardized magic would have to be cleansed through a strong human, and one who loves Willow.

I get excited every time someone mentions Vlad Tepes. I lived for quite some time in Romania, and learned a lot about the legend of Dracula (very good for the tourist trade). I don't want to nose in where I don't belong, but if you ever need Romanian phrases (I still speak the language), their folklore, general dislike of gypsies, anything like that, just let me know. I can rant on and on about Romania and Dracula for ages. (He's a national hero, did you know?)

Now that Willow knows she can decipher the code in the diary (even though she may not know how), we can see her side of the tale. I'm really intrigued... when did Tara get turned, and when did Willow become a demon fighter? And when will they get together? Tara obviously is still very much in love with Willow, and Willow is definitely the same.

Excellent work, Alcy. I'm loving this!
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man its been a while but nice update i really love the story can't wait for more...and willow tara thingy that is going on between them is kinda cute in its own way i really like it.

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JustSkipIt: I agree with you regarding the constraints and the FAQs of this board, I understand this more than most people given that the very first fic I ever wrote mentioned ‘she who shall not be named’ and was very promptly deleted, while I have never made that same mistake again, I do constantly search for ways to keep things as interesting and confusing as possible…as do many of the fantastic writers that also frequent this board, yourself included! I didn’t set out to render Van Rosenberg as confusing as I possibly could, but I am pleased that it has ended up as close to a real mystery as I could manage, not really being a mystery writer myself.
Yup, Willow died at Covasna, and you make a very good point in wondering how the hell that came about, well, I’m not going to tell you now but I will tell you that she had a very good reason to be there.
Well yes, Edward was married to Walsh, in the diary entry for Chapter 10 I think it was, Tara was writing on her wedding night. So whatever happened to her happened after she was married.
I’m glad you like Myles, him being 16 doesn’t worry me too much, in the days before there was such a thing as teenagers, kids grew up very fast. They used to send boys off to sea at age 12 or less so I think it would be about right that he is 16. Although as Tara rightly points out, he is too young for some things. I hope by the end of this saga I will be able to find him a nice wife!
Poor Tara indeed, by the time I’m done expounding on her backstory, you’ll see why it was so hard for her to be at Covasna again.
I had to google what NaNoWriMo was and it looks like heaps of fun but I don’t think I’d give up writing fanfic for a whole month to work full bore on a novel. This is my chosen medium at present and I’m really loving it and the interaction with readers….and I think my partner would also have words regarding how I spent so much of my time for a whole month!

whatmakesyouhappy: Yes, Willow is having a rough time in this fic, and it does get a little rougher, but there will be hugs and puppies in the end!

diamondforever: I definitely wouldn’t like to get impaled, and I didn’t enjoy having to do it to Willow but it was necessary to move the story through to its next phase.
While there is a canon example of a vampire, it gets changed and reworked to suit each fandom, Dracula, Buffy, Anne Rice, everyone has their own rules, and I’ve got mine which basically involve me making up rules to suit the way I want to write the characters…which I guess is what you can do in your own story, I hope it’s not too confusing though.

Second Fig: Thanks ever so much for stopping by to leave feedback and let me know how much you’re enjoying Van Rosenberg, it definitely means a lot to me.
The story is really moving along towards something at the moment and that something will be at least partially revealed in the next chapter and we’ll move into a different phase of story telling.
This story is dark and I don’t really set out with the intention of making it as sad as possible, it just turns out that way sometimes.
I’m really glad you enjoy the descriptive aspect of the story, sometimes I feel as though I don’t describe enough…and I think that it was leads to me describing more. I love building up a picture of the entire world which they inhabit.
I hope you keep loving the story!

LittleBit: You know I love posing more and more questions! Your comments are great too, I do feel as though I am leading readers further and further into this strange world, I only hope I don’t get you all lost!

JujuDeRoussie: Hi Julia, you have to be quick around here to get in some feedback before I update…well some of the time anyway, I don’t always update so quickly.
Glad you know what skull they are all talking about, I think I dropped quite a few hints along the way!
Tara’s state of being is definitely a mystery, I’ll leave you to figure it out with some more clues, although we’ll be going more into Willow Van Helsing’s back story in the next few chapters, which I hope will be interesting anyway.
Willow’s injury was stupid of course, it was just one of those terrible accidents and Angelus didn’t intend to bring it about but he was responsible with his actions, he was afraid that Willow would die, which is precisely what they don’t want.
You shouldn’t have to wait long for the next update, I’m probably about half finished at the moment and it’s a really fun chapter to write so it should be done soon…and I’ll have some more from the diary in it.

[b[Zampsa1975:[/b] I have no doubt that Tara will find Angelus very soon and she’s pissed…so I’m expecting there to be dust involved!

Wimpy0729: Love your description of Angelus as an anus, well said! I think you’ll enjoy reading the first part of the next chapter.
I love your speculations too, you’ll enjoy the next few chapters for Willow Van Helsing’s back story and it will answer your question.
Of course Willow and Tara will have sex again! I’m just not going to tell you when and how long you have to wait but trust me, I wont be leaving any part of their lives unfulfilled.

Chummy: I think we should all be worried for Willow, she’s got some tough times ahead, I promise not to keep you waiting for too long!

dlline: Hi Diane, don’t worry about being slow to the party, I always love your feedback when it arrives.
Tara’s love, even in her present vamp form, is very palpable and I’m glad it makes you warm and fuzzy, sometimes there isn’t enough warm fuzziness in my fics so I’m glad you can find some!
I’ll take your nomination for the girls to get together in their present form, but I won’t give anything away as to whether they do or not. Thanks very much!

WillowRulez: Yes, Myles is that young, but I think he handles himself well in the midst of all the action going on around him!
Yay for Faith indeed, she did get there fast but just picture her travelling non-stop, taking trains and changing horses when she needed and it’s believable! Willow and Co weren’t exactly travelling quickly, I mean they had enough time to get chased by prostitutes!
I can’t wait for Willow to prove Tara wrong either…or will she? We’ll just have to wait and see.

ceridwen: Thank you for your kind words, I think it keeps getting better and better because of all the wonderful praise I get, definitely a good incentive to push myself further when it comes to writing.

theblew: I often wonder if titles put people off reading certain stories but I’m glad you decided to give this one a go because prior knowledge of Van Helsing and Dracula really isn’t required to be able to enjoy this fic. In fact, it’s probably better that you don’t watch Van Hlesing, horribly bad movie that it is!!
I love your analogy of the Saturday Night Live sketch, it’s very appropriate! But be rest assured that you will eventually have all your questions answered, and you are right, bit by bit, there’s a picture building up here of what happened in the past and how that will affect the present.
There do appear to be some people that are withholding information on poor Willow, but for good reason, without giving away too much information let me just put it this way, Willow could be given all the information they have and it would just ruin her ability to come to her own understanding, there are some things that need to be figured out on their own for everything to come together in the correct manner, and Tara and Giles know this.

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Also, it seems like Willow and Tara are/were on opposite sides. But wait, Tara said they were trying to save Europe - argh, so much back and forth!


That’s an interesting point, the real question to ask is whose side is Tara on? In the past? Present?
I’m sorry that Tara’s journal entries are finished but hopefully I can make up for this a little in the next chapter, you’ll see what I mean soon. Thanks very much for your feedback!

will: Thanks for taking the time to say how much you love the story, I’ve been cooking this one up in my little brain for a while and now that I’m giving life to it I’m really happy with the way it’s working out and all the confusion and mystery that it has created.

Phoenix: Hi there Phoenix, thanks for stopping by, I’m not surprised it has taken you a while to catch up with us as the story has grown rather quickly and I also understand that one can get so busy writing that it’s hard to find the time to actually read.
Structurally, this is the most complex story I have ever written, and I’m glad that it seems to be coming out okay. Readers seem to love the diary entries which is great, and I miss writing them now that they’re finished. It’s difficult to know how much to give away but judging by the confusion I’ve created, I’m definitely not giving too much away I think!
I can’t decide which incarnation of Willow I prefer, but given that readers haven’t had the opportunity to really meet Willow Van Helsing yet, I’ll let you all make up your mind after the next few chapters and her past life does indeed catch up with her.
Wow, I can’t believe you lived in Romania, I knew he was a national hero and some of his movements etc but that was about as far as my library research took me, I do not think that I will be historically accurate at all but it is still great to be able to inject the flavour of history into a fic and I hope you enjoy my incarnation of Dracula, I’ve never been a huge fan of the novel, or Anne Rice books etc or any of the various vampire tales until Buffy came along so I’m very much a greenhorn when writing about this wonderfully portrayed character.
You will definitely get to see Willow’s side of the tale in the next few chapters and some of your questions will be answered in fairly short order. Thanks very much again, your own writing is so fantastic I’m just thrilled to bits that you’re enjoying this story!

WolfDragonGod: Hi there, welcome back to the story and I’m glad you’re enjoying the relationship between Willow and vamp Tara, it’s kind of weird but cool at the same time and I’m having heaps of fun writing it.

I'm really enjoying writing the next few chapters so I hope you all enjoy reading them just as much, should be posted in the next few days or so.
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CHAPTER 13
The Mirror


Tara knew he would not be hiding. Despite her anger, he had no reason whatsoever to fear her. Of the two of them, he was by far the stronger, being several hundred years older than she. He had been present at her turning, he had watched throughout those horrible dark years before Abraham Van Helsing found and imprisoned her. He thought he knew her. However, what Angelus did not know was that she was not afraid of him. There was no way he could possibly comprehend the extent of her love for Willow…and the strength which that love gave her, the strength to hunt him down like the animal he was.

She did not even need to hunt; Angelus was waiting for her in the back streets of Klausenburg, in a part of town so dark and disused that even the bottom dwellers would not venture there. She sensed his foul stench before she even laid eyes on him, a reek so powerful she almost retched…he had wanted her to find him.

Angelus watched Tara approach from his perch high on a flat rooftop. Her body melded completely into the darkness around her save for her pale face and that long, blonde hair which seemed to shine even in the absence of moonlight. His mouth twisted into a leer, when he defeated her and she was laid out helpless beneath him, he would cut off every strand of those white blonde tresses…although, and his mouth twisted into a broad smile at his next thought, her hair would provide a useful handhold when he took her brutally. He could hold her hair and force her to keep those blue eyes of hers locked on his as he claimed his right as her elder, a right which she had consistently denied him all these years.

He saw her looking up at him now, that impassive expression which angered him so. There was no respect there at all, just as always. From the moment she had been turned, Tara Maclay had made for a surly, disrespectful vampire, refusing to submit to his authority…and even worse, their Master had claimed her as his favourite and indulged her every whim. Even after she changed into something impure, he still accepted her. It irritated Angelus to no end…if he were Master, then Tara would not be permitted to continue to exist let alone saunter the streets as she was now, thinking she was so far above him. Angelus snarled, baring his fangs.

“I can smell you from here, Angelus,” she said quietly, her voice carrying up to him on the breeze, “No need to breathe one me…oh wait, I forgot you can’t breathe can you, you undead bastard.”

“Come up here and say that,” he taunted like the schoolyard bully he must have been as a child.

Tara obliged, climbing up the side of the building effortlessly with her inhuman strength. She sprang lightly from sill to gable and finally onto the roof next to Angelus.

“You don’t have to do this, Tara, you know as well as I that Red’s injury was an accident.”

“Yes, but I also know you would have hurt her given a chance…you wanted to torture the skull’s location out of her!” Tara growled, her blue eyes flashing even in the darkness, “How on earth do you think a memory that severely repressed would be able to be retrieved through torture?”

“You’d be amazed at what can be uncovered by using a little pain…if you had the guts to try it,” Angelus circled Tara, not letting his gaze off her for an instant, “but you won’t…because that little mortal has got you wrapped around her little finger…and I’m the only one that sees it, even our master is blind to your infatuation, he is ignorant as to your true motives.”

“I dare you to say that to his face…he knows I exist only to serve his will,” Tara kept her voice calm and level despite his best attempts to rile her, “You’re pathetic in your jealousy, Angelus. You know I will have our Master’s favour when she gives me the skull using my methods…I should think that in destroying you I will further gain her trust!”

“Destroy me? Ha!” he snorted derisively, “You know you cannot.”

Tara arched an eyebrow, “I would dearly love to prove you wrong.”

He arched his back, stretching his muscles in preparation, “None of your magic tricks then, bitch!”

“I promise,” Tara replied evenly.

He came at her with all the rage and fury he had previously held suppressed in her presence. Beneath the force of his blows, Tara finally realised just how much he hated her, the depth of his resentment towards her for stealing his place in their Master’s shrivelled and merciless heart. Even as she matched him blow for blow, replying to each one of his punches with one of her own, she knew that his physical strength far outstripped her own and it would only be a matter of time before he won out.

They danced across the rooftop, both using every inch of its surface, moving off chimneys and railings to leap down on the other, it continued in this vein, with neither managing to get the other into a weaker position. While Angelus was stronger, Tara was faster, always one step ahead of his fists. She watched as he seized an iron railing in his hands and ripped it clean off its mountings. It swung in his grip like a sword, she dodged his first strikes easily but eventually she was not fast enough and the pipe caught her full across the stomach.

Tara doubled over and gasped for air. She had never felt her beating heart to be a weakness that others could exploit but usually she fought far lesser beings, beings that did not know she was something other than a true vampire. Before she could straighten her body, Angelus surged forward and knocked her to the ground with the weight of his body.

As she was laid out beneath him, Tara almost panicked at the feel of his weight atop her body. Just the feel of him dragged up memories long suppressed of another man who had strived to make her entirely his, reducing her to the basest form…merely a vessel for his pleasure to be used and abused as he chose.

Angelus lowered his head and pressed an ear to her chest, Tara could already feel her heart hammering like a train. He paused there, keeping his ear pressed against her chest as he listened to the organ beat wildly.

“Strange,” he whispered, remaining still, “I always thought that I would not miss it, if you could live forever would you really care that your heart was not beating?”

He lifted his head and stared her in the eye, waiting for his answer.

“If it didn’t I would be just like you,” despite the fear she felt, Tara managed to get the sentence out without a stutter, she had to fight to keep thoughts of her husband from her mind but even so her subconscious insisted on supplanting the face of Edward Walsh onto Angelus. The fear she felt threatened to bubble to the surface but she fought, her entire body trembling with effort. “I’m nothing like you, Angelus.”

He grinned, lifting one hand to stroke the hair that clung stubbornly to her face, “But you were once…and you did horrible things, I should know, I was there. Do you want me to remind you, Tara?”

“I was never like you!” Tara cried, her fear giving way to anger, “She never stopped l-loving me!”

Tara’s form suddenly shimmered beneath Angelus and he growled, knowing that when she formed into her misty form it would be very difficult to follow her. With her weight gone from beneath him, his body hit the cobbles beneath him hard. He scrambled to his feet to see her re-forming in the street below him. A laugh escaped his lips, even for the most powerful vampires, it was difficult enough to shapeshift once and one could not do it in quick succession. She had not run far enough by any means. Angelus’ own body shimmered and he floated down to join her. When his body reformed there was a broad smile on his face.

“What is this, Tara?” Angelus began striding towards her in a relaxed manner, “You want to run but can’t face the label of coward…will you stand and fight after all?”

“I just needed more room,” Tara said as she held out her right hand for him to see more clearly.

Angelus watched a flicker of light dance across her palm and recognised it instantly for what it was, his eyes went wide when he realised what she intended. Seconds later the flickering light had become a raging ball of fire hovering just above her palm. Her face was thrown into light and shadow in the face of the fireball and he could see the hellish expression that had twisted her features. At that moment he knew nothing would save him.

“You promised, you whore!” Angelus’ voice had raised an octave.

“I lied,” Tara growled in a cruel tone, lifting the dancing fireball higher so she could watch him squirm.

“Who do you think you are, Tara?” Angelus screeched as he scrambled to his feet, pointing a trembling finger in her direction, “He did not appoint you his executioner!”

Tara calmly faced his accusation, knowing she had all the time in the world as he could not change into his non-corporeal form so soon after the last change. She knew full well that she would have to answer to their Master for destroying Angelus but it was a risk she was willing to take to see him gone forever. When her ferocious gaze did not waiver, Angelus turned his back on her and ran full tilt, hoping to make it around the corner in front of him before she burnt him to a crisp. Both knew that he would never be fast enough…

“That’s right, Angelus,” Tara whispered, gaining immense satisfaction from seeing his fleeing back, “Run…for all the good it will do you.”

Sweeping forward in a graceful swirl of dark fabric and white blonde hair, Tara launched the fireball at the fleeing vampire. It burst on his back and spread rapidly down the rest of his body…in hindsight Tara thought that perhaps her enjoyment of watching Angelus being reduced to a pile of burning embers would have been heightened had she been able to see the expression on his face as he was destroyed. Still, she did enjoy grinding the weakly burning fragments of what was once Angelus into the cobblestones of the alley beneath the toe of her boot. It was a fitting end for the bastard…now she just had to convince her Master it had been the right thing to do…

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Willow shifted uncomfortably in her narrow bed, her chest protesting with the small movement. She awkwardly tried to fluff the pillows at her back but gave it up as a hopeless task; there weren’t enough feathers in the pillow to be fluffed in the first place. She did take some comfort from the narrow bed and hopelessly inadequate pillow; at least she was uncomfortable in her own bed, in her own home. Willow could lie back and gaze at her walls crammed with assorted clippings and artwork and remember why she had saved each one, or drawn that particular sketch. They were hers…all undeniably Willow-orientated and she felt safe in the knowledge that they were a glimpse into who she was. It was her past, a past she could remember…

Willow had spent much of the past month, throughout the journey back to England, dwelling on her past. Her withdrawn, contemplative state had concerned Faith of course but her friend had wisely given her the space in which to deal with the events at Covasna even though Willow could tell Faith was struggling to keep her questions at bay. It was only upon her return to England and the musty familiar smell of her own home, that Willow was finally able to clear her mind of the thoughts that had consumed her since her injury. She was no longer struggling to discern her relationship to Tara Maclay or more importantly to Willow Van Helsing, instead she slipped back into the role of Willow Rosenberg, researcher. Her copious notes from Eastern Europe and Covasna were piled upon her bed and littering the floor, completely obscuring her rag rug. She happily buried herself in starting the paper which she would deliver to rapturous applause at the year’s Royal Society Conference (In order for this belief to work, Willow had to conveniently forget that she detested public speaking).

Burying herself in her research Willow was also able to forget that she had lost the diary somewhere in her travels. In many ways it was a relief, the last thing she wanted to do was continue reading the damn thing when what she had read had seriously compromised her sanity. On the other hand, she desperately wanted the answers it could provide. Although Willow felt torn between delving deeper into the mystery and retaining her sanity, it was only by being extremely close-minded that she could bring herself to believe that she still had a choice at all.

A knock at a door interrupted her futile pillow fluffing. Whoever it was did not wait for an invitation to enter before swinging the door open, Willow already knew it was Faith…who else would be quite so rude? Her flat was so tiny she could see the front door very clearly from where she lay in bed.

“I say, Faith,” Willow made a half-hearted attempt at being angry at her friend barging in unannounced, “I could have been naked!”

Faith sighed regretfully, “But you’re not…damn!”

Willow grinned, unable to remain even half-mad at Faith, especially given that she was so glad to see her. After spending two days alone in her little flat without a soul for company, even a bookish, introverted soul like Willow was bound to long for someone to talk to.

Faith glanced around Willow’s tiny flat with barely concealed disapproval on her face, “I know now why I don’t visit you at home often…are you sure it hasn’t got even smaller since my last visit?”

“Well obviously I should talk to Lara about my earnings; clearly researchers don’t get paid as well as agents!” Willow shot back, rather offended at Faith’s criticism of her tiny space in what was a very large world.

Willow immediately noticed that Faith ignored the mention of Lara, her face clouded slightly at the mention of their employer’s name. She did not press the issue, knowing that whatever had happen between the two of them, it was none of her affair. The look was gone almost as soon as it had appeared and Faith steered the conversation back towards Willow.

“Why don’t you talk to your parents, surely the colonel could afford to purchase you a small townhouse?” Faith said as she crossed the tiny kitchen to move into Willow’s bedroom.

“The colonel would purchase me a palace if only I were to marry,” Willow sighed grandly, she brightened almost instantly, “but he knows I would throw such an offer in his face if he were to dangle it in front of me…I would rather live in the most squalid tenement than suffer the indignity of a marriage arranged by my parents.”

“That’s my girl,” Faith reached out and gave Willow a playful tap on her shoulder.

“Faith!” Willow cried out as though she were hurt, her expression mortified.

Faith took a hasty step back, holding back the hand she had just tapped Willow with as though it were a dangerous weapon, “I’m sorry Will, I don’t realise my own strength sometimes…did I hurt you terribly?”

“No!” Willow replied in exasperation.

It was then that Faith noticed Willow wasn’t looking at her at all; she was staring at the floor by her feet. Faith glanced down to see several sheets of paper beneath her booted feet. She lifted one foot with sheets of paper stubbornly clinging to the sole. Before she could remove them herself, Willow’s hand shot out and retrieved her notes.

Perched on the edge of the bed, Willow stared in horror at the smudged ink on one of the sheets. She stared up at Faith as though her friend had just committed murder.

Faith unleashed an apologetic grin as though that were sure to make Willow forget the awful transgression. Willow was not to be appeased so easily and she gingerly hunkered down on the floor to retrieve her papers as though she feared Faith would ruin all of her work.

“Will, don’t hurt yourself, I’ve got them,” Faith moved much faster than Willow and was able to scoop up the reminder of the papers before Willow could strain herself, “Did I smudge them terribly?”

Cradling the papers in one hand, Faith assisted Willow back up onto her bed with the other. Her brow furrowed with concern at the sight of Willow’s white as a sheet face. The wound had truly taken a toll on her slender friend, Willow lacked the physical strength that she herself had and the road to recovery for her had been long and arduous. As she watched Willow scan her papers for damage, Faith could not forget that it was the strange blonde vampire who was responsible for saving Willow’s life. She also could not forget the images she had seen while linked with her. Even though she knew it could not possibly have been the same Willow sitting in front of her now, she still could not look at her in quite the same way.

“Will…this may seem an odd question,” Faith began cautiously, “but what exactly is your relationship with the blonde vampire?”

Willow glanced up, the papers on her lap forgotten, “With Tara?”

“Tara?” Faith repeated, she could not fail to notice the way the name rolled off Willow’s lips, it was almost a caress…and Willow’s black-rimmed eyes sparkled.

Willow nodded, “Tara Maclay, she wrote the diary you found at Tirgsor…although she was a young woman then…”

“As opposed to the blood-sucking demon she is now?” Faith interrupted fiercely, “Will, what the hell have you got yourself in to here?”

“Nothing I can’t handle!” Willow replied, she couldn’t quite fathom why, but Faith calling Tara a ‘demon’ just didn’t sit right at all, “Tara has done nothing but protect me…I did not tell you at the time but she saved us both in the graveyard.”

Faith raised her eyebrows but she did not let herself get distracted, “Will, you’re skirting the issue here…your relationship with her?”

Willow looked slightly wounded, “I cannot tell you Faith, mostly because I do not know myself…suffice to say I think I knew her…in a past life.”

Faith snorted loudly, unable to stop herself, “Oh…I think you did more than simply know her!”

Willow frowned innocently at the exceptionally knowing look on Faith’s face, “What does that mean?

Faith bit her lip, it was at times like these that she realised how innocent Willow truly was, she regretted her quick words but there was something in Willow’s expression that hinted at more than she was letting on and she decided to elaborate, “When I linked with her I saw…well, I don’t really know what it was that I saw…but it was disturbing and I think you should be careful around her…in fact, better yet, stay away from her altogether.”

Willow tried to keep the heat from rising into her cheeks at Faith’s insinuations; the words of the diary were etched into her mind. If Faith had seen half the passion that had been contained within those pages then it was no small wonder that she was asking leading questions.

“The diary…” Willow began, seeking the appropriate words to explain and yet reluctant to even try.

“Oh,” Faith turned to rummage in the rucksack she had lung over one shoulder, she retrieved a familiar slender volume and passed it to Willow, “Myles found this in your hotel room in Klausenburg, I believe he has conveniently forgotten to return it to you until now.”

This time Willow knew she had failed to keep the heat from colouring her cheeks. At the same time as she accepted the diary from Faith, she ducked her head, letting her hair fall forward over her face to disguise her embarrassment. As impossible as it was, she was beginning to feel as though the diary was a part of her and the events depicted within its pages were part of her life. It was as though Myles had read intimate details of her own life as opposed to someone who had died over a hundred years earlier.

“Will?”

Willow jerked her head upward, hoping her cheeks had cooled somewhat, “What?”

It was then she noticed the moisture shining in her friend’s eyes, as though Faith were on the verge of tears. Willow was seriously unnerved, she had never seen Faith show any sort of emotional vulnerability for any reason, for physical or mental pain. She searched through the last few words she had said only to realise that she had said very little of consequence. If she had done anything to hurt Faith, then it would have been in what she did not say.

“Faith…” Willow began hesitantly.

She watched as Faith stood in one swift movement and backed away as though she suddenly realised that she was about to cry. She stopped in the doorway between Willow’s bedroom and the kitchen and rested one hand on the doorframe as though she needed the contact to keep herself steady.

“Why is it that no one will tell me what the bloody hell is going on around here?” she growled exasperatedly, “Of all the people in the world I thought you would always be honest with me…and now I find you’re just as bad as that two-faced bitch!”

Willow tried to rise as swiftly as Faith had but she was forced to face the fact that she could only manage an awkward stoop, aided by a shaking hand on her iron bedstead. Her expression however said more than her movements, she was confused and hurt. Faith had never turned on her so savagely…and certainly not without good cause.

“In what way am I not being honest with you?” Willow pleaded, the very fact that Faith was mad at her at all was tearing her to pieces, “And what two-faced bitch are you referring to?”

“Croft, you would think if the bitch was fucking me then she could at least cut me in on what she knows!” Faith spat, Willow’s jaw immediately hit the floor in shock, “And you, I’m your bloody best friend and you evade the truth like it’s a bloody disease!”

Willow had a million adamant refutations running through her mind, she knew full well that she knew little more than Faith and she wanted to explain this to her…but the only concrete thought that she could concentrate on was Faith’s relationship with their employer. Although Willow had never been sexually attracted to Faith and she merely ogled Croft in the most innocent way, the revelation both stunned and hurt her.

“You and Lara…” Willow mumbled; her lips barely moving.

Faith glared at Willow for a moment as though she were stupid before turning and making her way towards the exit, her last words spoken over her shoulder, “I’m going to leave you to your research…just read your little book and bloody well leave me alone. I don’t know what the hell is going on…but I do know enough to know that I don’t want to be a part of it.”

Willow jumped at the sound of the door slamming behind Faith. She used her white knuckled grip on the bedstead to lower herself back down so she was sitting on the edge of the bed. For all the confusion that she felt over how little she knew about what was going on in her life, she had not even dwelt on the possibility that it also affected Faith as someone who cared about her. The fact that she was in a relationship with Croft had obviously heightened her emotional susceptibility but Willow knew there was something more. Faith had mentioned that Lara knew something…Willow frowned, while Croft always seemed to know just a little bit more than everyone else, this appeared to go beyond that into the realm of withholding vital information. Rather than become frustrated and angry herself, Willow turned her attention to the diary in her hand. Willow thought she ought to make a cup of tea before reading but a part of her did not expect to be able to read the text no matter what Tara said. She opened it half-heartedly and flicked though the pages, past Tara’s handwriting and to the heavy, straight backed script she had previously been unable to decipher…

30th September 1779…

Willow glanced up and stared at a spot on the wall opposite her in shock, she lowered her gaze back to page in front of her and read again, 30th September 1779… The words were written as plain as day…only Willow could tell that they weren’t, nothing had changed within the text, it still appeared to be in some sort of code with the letters and words scrambled into a meaningless order. However, Willow now found that as she ran her eyes over the text she saw the words clearly formed in her mind. Her tea forgotten, she remained perched on the edge of the bed as she continued reading, her hands shaking as they gripped the diary.

I write these words with very little enthusiasm, I think that I shall not keep writing as it seems to be an entirely futile endeavour to reflect on that which has passed. No matter what one writes, words cannot change the past. The words written on the previous pages prove that all too undoubtedly. But my mood can hardly be labelled cheerful, the very house in which I sit and write adds to my melancholy, most of the furniture here at Hagley Park is draped with abysmally gloomy dust cloths for we cannot take it with us when we leave here. Leave…Abraham and I are leaving Hampshire behind us, his idea rather than mine but I was not adverse to the suggestion. As much as I love Hagley Park and Hampshire, there are too many memories clinging to every surface…I have not even been able to sleep in my own bed these past weeks. Curse this miserable existence…curse my life and that…that woman…I would be far happier if I were dead. What a miserable, wretched creature I am…Tara has married that man and all I am left with is this wretched diary detailing our affair…

I forced myself to read the words she wrote and they served the purpose she intended, how could they not…to ignore the pain written on these pages would render me as callous and uncaring as that pig Walsh. I certainly have no desire to sink to the level of that cruel, wretched bastard and each time I think of him wed to Tara my eyes burn with a fierce hatred I did not think myself capable of. If I did not have Abraham as a restraining influence I think that I would do something very foolish indeed.

For some time following Tara’s marriage to that bastard, dying seemed a viable option to ease my pain. I soon found however that my meddlesome brother knew my own thoughts even better than I and was not about to grant me such a simple way out. He detailed servants to follow me at every hour of the day, whenever I turned around there would be the day maid or the parlour maid standing behind me, innocently dusting the same spot over and over. I asked them to leave me alone but they just curtseyed and backed off a few paces as though they had been commanded not to let me out of their sight. The cutlery was kept locked away, even the forks, I could not find a serviceable length of rope…even in the stables and my windows were fastened shut so firmly I could not pry them open with brute force. I knew I could have found a way to kill myself despite Abraham’s every precaution but the lengths to which he went to keep me safe made it impossible for me to take such a cowardly route. For all the pain I felt, Abraham loved me and he wanted me to live.

For all the love I feel for my brother, I do hate him so. He does not realise that he is condemning me to a joyless, empty existence in this dark, dark world…for there is no joy, nor light without her by my side. I feel ashamed that some tiny amount of solace could come in the form of occasional glimpses as we attend the same functions about London; it is not so big a city that we can avoid one another for the rest of our lives. In response to that thought, I very quickly made up my mind that I would never attend another social function as long as I lived, the thought of seeing Tara from a distance on his arm would be too much for me to stomach, I would be forced to see his cruel leer and perhaps even suffer the absolute humiliation of watching a growing pregnancy…although I knew it already, that would force me to face the fact that her body belonged to him. I cannot bring myself to dwell on such a thought…I cannot and will not
, Willow paused, the words ‘will not’ were underlined with a heavy line which had almost pieced the page of the diary, she could feel the pain written in those words, accept that…but I am lying to myself, that bastard probably has his fingers on her body right now…I would like to break every single one of them…I hate him…and I hate her for marrying him…and I know I will hate living in London…with its bloody dirty streets and pretentious fat old tarts prowling everywhere and into everyone’s business, just to step out my front door onto Gordon Square will be an exercise in self-restraint…

Dragging her eyes away from the text, Willow hastily flicked to the inner front cover of the diary and re-read the address she had found written there, Gordon Square, London. Abraham and Willow Van Helsing had moved from Hagley Park to settle in Gordon Square, London. The townhouse Willow had visited on a whim and left without ever entering some months ago, had belonged to the Van Helsings.

“For a genius…I’m so exceptionally stupid!” Willow berated herself sternly.

For all the excitement she felt, there was also a numb terror, she remembered all too well how the house had made her feel upon seeing it…and the distinctly undignified manner in which she had fled after seeing something in one of the dark gable windows. Willow glanced back to the diary in her hand, torn between reading the rest of it and returning to the house with a firm resolve to at least knock on the door.

Willow stood, somewhat swifter this time although she felt a rush of blood to her head as she did so. She did not bother to get dressed; instead she merely pulled a heavy coat over her pyjamas and slipped her feet into a handy pair of slippers. With the diary tucked safely in the pocket of her coat, she made her way out of her flat and out into the broad light of day.

In remaining bedridden for so long, Willow had not realised just how much strength she had lost. Even making it up onto the nearest tram outside her flat took an exhausting amount of effort. She collapsed onto a seat, attracting a number of stares from other passengers who could no doubt see her slippers and pyjama bottoms protruding from beneath her coat. Willow did not care, she kept one hand in her pocket, holding the diary firmly, her heart was beating at a million miles a minute and she felt like she would faint at any moment.

Sometime later, already needing bed rest, Willow found herself once again standing in front of the imposing townhouse on Gordon Square, the austere façade seeming to have grown even bleaker and darker since she had last seen it. She distinctly remembered seeing light shining from within but now the windows were all dark, everything about the house appeared dead. Willow risked a quick glance up to the attic windows but she saw no terrifying white face staring back down at her. Even so, she approached the massive black door unable to hear anything but the pounding of her own blood in her ears.

Willow had an inkling at the back of her neck that for some reason she ought not knock at all. She tried the brass knocker at her eye level but found it immovable, as though it were stuck fast to the door. Knocking produced no better results; she could hardly make a sound by pounding on the door with her small fist. There was only one thing left to do, her hand shook at she reached for the heavy brass door knob. More than a part of her wished to find the door firmly locked and barred against entry, however, as her fingers closed over the knob she felt it hum beneath her touch. Yelping in fright, Willow snatched her hand away and took a step back. She looked down at her hand, but apart from the trembling there was nothing out of the ordinary.

“Don’t be such a coward, Willow,” she whispered to herself, steeling herself to touch the knob once more, “It’s just a house, silly.” Just a house…although, it could be infested with rats, insects, frogs…or it could be just your run of the mill house possession, or unfriendly spirits desperate to keep intruders out…don’t forget your line of work Rosenberg!

Willow paused; anything was possible in her line of work…except perhaps the frogs. She seriously wondered if she should find Faith, apologise for whatever transgression she was supposed to have committed and ask her to visit the house with her. Willow shook her head, she drew in a deep breath and steeled herself for another try at the knob. Even before her fingers touched the brass she was prepared for the shock she felt, she did not snatch her hand away as she felt the gentle vibrations course through her hand and the rest of her body. She now realised that the sensation was not unpleasant, it was almost as though the house itself was welcoming her home.

“Hello to you too,” Willow whispered with a firm turn of the knob.

For all its bulk, the black painted door swung easily on its hinges with none of the sinister creaking normally associated with haunted houses. Willow breathed a hesitant sigh of relief at this but paused before stepping over the threshold. She remained still as she waited for her eyes to adjust to the darkness of the entrance lobby.

“Is anyone h-home?” Willow managed to stammer, her voice seeming to disappear before it had even travelled into the house, “Helloooo?”

Willow waited at least a minute, both out of courtesy and the fact she was dead scared. Eventually she accepted that no one was coming to greet her and with a deep breath, took a step over the threshold and into the house. She moved further into the entrance way, buoyed somewhat by the fact that nothing sinister had yet emerged and also by the rather pleasant feeling she felt coursing through her body, increasing with each step she took further into the house. Willow glanced over her shoulder to find the door still open out onto the street, not looking in the least like slamming shut of its own accord. Reaching back to close it gently, Willow felt only a small shiver of fear as shut and she only opened it once to check she wasn’t locked in.

With the door shut behind her, Willow felt overly warm in her overcoat. If she had expected to find the empty house chilled and musty, she was mistaken. She drew off her overcoat and found herself comfortable in just her slippers and striped pyjamas. Before leaving the coat hanging on the rack by the door, she retrieved the diary from its pocket and tucked it firmly beneath her arm.

The lobby was much like every townhouse Willow had ever entered. Directly in front of her and rising above her head was a flight of stairs which no doubt travelled up all three floors. The scarlet carpet running up its length appeared fresh and new, with no of the wear marks usually found denoting the well-worn path found up most flights of stairs. Willow glanced up at the landing above but saw nothing but darkness. Ahead of her was a hallway lined with paper in a bold blue Oriental-like print, the detail seeming to make the hallway darker, smaller…and yet rather than give it a claustrophobic atmosphere, it felt warm and inviting. A highly polished hall table sat opposite the flight step, Willow ran her fingers over its surface to find not a trace of dust on the wood or on the handsomely embroidered cloth. Sitting the centre of the table, where one would usually find the telephone in most modern houses was an Attic black figure vase, similar to ones Willow passed by each day at the museum. Beneath her studied gaze, she had no doubt that the amphora was authentic and with a wry smile she wondered whether Abraham Van Helsing had pilfered it from the museum’s collections.

Padding along in her slippers, Willow moved past the stairs and to the first door leading off the hallway. A sudden glow caused her to almost leap straight out of her slippers, as it was; she dropped the diary with a dull thud. Before bending to pick it up, she saw that a gaslight set into the wall was suddenly burning brightly, the flame dancing merrily behind its glass housing.

“Okay,” Willow whispered, wondering if she had inadvertently flicked a switch as she moved through the hallway, she chose to believe she had even though she had touched nothing except the coat stand.

She slowly opened the door in front of her; it too swung inwards into darkness. Willow waited in the doorway and found the large room beyond partially lit by the dull light creeping beneath the heavy curtains. It was a formal sitting room. The first thing Willow noticed was the massive black marble fireplace that sat directly across the room from her, it’s mouth plugged with a brass fire screen, its surface flickering with the reflection of the light that had just lit behind Willow’s head. Eerily, most of the furniture in the room was covered by huge white dustsheets…despite the almost complete lack of dust.

Willow had always hated the white sheets; they rendered objects into featureless lumps, concealing what lay beneath. When she had been very small her brother had told her that ghosts lurked beneath, ghosts that would be unleashed if you ever dared to take a peek beneath. She smiled when she remembered Alex’s most terrifying prank, he had once peered beneath a dustsheet in their attic and acted as though something had grabbed him, drawing him beneath the sheet, his pretend screams were easily drowned by Willow’s own as she had gone sprinting off to find Giles to help her rescue her brother. They had found Alex quite intact, perched on a settee, draped in the dust sheet and looking very pleased with himself.

Now the sheets did not scare Willow so, without realising quite what she was doing, she strode across to the nearest one and swept it back with a sharp tug. There was nothing beneath it except a black coloured sofa with plump cushions still waiting for someone to sink against. Willow moved throughout the room, throwing off every dust sheet to reveal the furniture beneath. By the time she was finished uncovering every piece of furniture, she was breathing heavily with exertion and her wound was throbbing in protest at her activity. The room she had revealed was inviting. Several black sofas and ottomans, liberally strewn with white cushions, waited to accept a visiting party of guests. Willow could almost see the thick mahogany table in the centre of the room spread with a china dining service, a pot of tea and a plate of cucumber sandwiches and finger cakes.

There was just one dust sheet remaining in use in the room, it was hung above the fire place and appeared to be covering two large frames. Willow threaded her way through the seating to stand in front of the fireplace. As she tugged this particular dust sheet off, she did feel a chill at what would be revealed beneath.

“Oh my god,” Willow stumbled backwards, the backs of her legs hit an ottoman behind her and she went tumbling over the footstool and onto her back. She winced at the contact but kept her gaze above her on the two paintings which she had just uncovered.

Willow scrambled to her feet as fast as her injury would allow and went straight to the high windows. With an urgency that surprised her, she swept back all three pairs of heavy black velvet drapes to let more light into the room. When done, she crept back in front of the paintings, her lips parted in awe.

Both had matching frames of thick, finely worked wood overlaid with gilt, the shine not having dulled despite however much time had passed. The painting on the right was undoubtedly Abraham Van Helsing, although it was a portrait of him most unlike the one Willow passed by every day in the bowels of the British Museum. Willow was hardly a painter herself but she could see that it was done by a fine artist, the oils seeming to bring the man’s face to life. He was young, far younger than he had ever been in any portrait Willow had seen previously. There was no facial hair on his smooth, strong jaw-line, nor any grey in his thatch of red hair. His green eyes danced merrily and there was a slight curve to his well-proportioned lips, as though the artist had captured him during a moment of mirth. Now, seeing him in his youth, Willow could see exactly why Faith had so often teased her for having a resemblance to him. The resemblance was made all the more apparent when Willow finally allowed herself to dwell on the painting hanging to the left.

If Willow had ever wondered what she would look like wearing her hair swept up into an elaborate coif atop her head, with her creamy white bosom almost bared to the world, she could now see for herself. It was Willow Van Helsing…and yet she was also Willow Rosenberg…

Willow had to take a seat on the ottoman she had tripped over earlier. As she studied the painting, it was all too like looking into a mirror…although Willow could not quite imagine herself wearing the same expression. The Willow in the painting looked older, and yet Willow knew she had not lived past her twenty-fifth birthday. The expression she wore shared none of the mirth of Abraham, she was sad to the point of appearing tortured and Willow suspected the artist had taken liberties to make her appear more cheerful than she actually was in life. Having read much of the diary, Willow could understand the expression in the face of what had happened to her.

As Willow studied the painting she saw, tucked in one hand, just below her breast, a slender little book. Willow quickly recognised it for she held it in her own hand in the present. Despite Willow Van Helsing writing her first words in the diary with little enthusiasm, it appeared that she valued it enough to be painted holding it. Although Willow could not guess the exact date of the painting, she suspected it was several years after the first entry, possibly just before her death.

Although she had known of her intimate connection to Willow Van Helsing since her dreams had started to mirror the diary, Willow did not know what to make of this latest connection…or if it was more than that. She seriously wondered whether the grave in Hampshire was nothing but an empty façade, and no coffin lay in the cold ground beneath it. Willow’s first instinct was whether she was a hell of a lot older than she had always thought.

She dismissed this as impossible, she remembered growing up, they were hazy memories dulled by the passage of time but she remembered her lessons with Giles, sitting patiently at a small desk beside Alex. Alex…Willow remembered her own brother and could not help but wonder in looking at an image of Abraham Van Helsing, if she was seeing the man he would had grown into had he lived.

Unable to remain staring at the paintings any longer, Willow stood and turned her back on them. As she did, she caught a glimpse of a shadow moving out in the lobby beyond the door. Without pausing to give herself time to be afraid, Willow dashed out into the hallway in time to see a pair of white feet padding up the stairs.

“Excuse me!” Willow called, making a beeline for the stairs herself, “I say, do hold up a moment won’t you?”

As she sprinted up the stairs, chest already heaving, Willow did not consider her actions. She was following someone or something up a flight of stairs into a dark and empty second storey having no idea where she was being led. Faint footsteps on the stairs above her head told her that someone was definitely there…why they were ignoring her calls, Willow did not know.

Moments later, quite out of breath, Willow emerged in the beginning of the second floor passageway, seeing nothing down its dark length save for faint light emanating from the open door of one of the rooms halfway along its length. It was at this point that Willow chose to exercise a small amount of caution, slowing her pace so her slippers were practically silent on the rug beneath her feet. She inched along the hallway, keeping to one side of the passage and not moving her gaze from the doorway ahead.

Willow paused just beside the doorframe, her entire body tensed, torn between her desire to run away and the desire to enter the room. When she finally managed to do it she did it quickly, practically leaping into the doorway like a maniac. If anything was waiting for her in the room, it would have undoubtedly been caught in the act…but there was nothing there except a room. Willow’s arms fell to her sides as the tension drained from her body almost immediately. The room that she found in front of her was nothing like she had been expecting. Unlike the sitting room below, the velvety blue curtains were already open, light spilling through the wide windows to illuminate the surfaces within. Again there was no dust…and nor were there any dust sheets. As Willow entered the room she felt an eerie sense of familiarity, as though she knew that if she opened the topmost drawer of the bureau she would find neatly folded under-things and the second drawer, gloves and stockings. She knew the framed illuminated texts on the walls were authentically medieval without the need to examine them closely. More than anything, she wanted to fold herself beneath the thick, downy blue cover that was spread across the mattress of the massive four-poster bed that took up much of the centre of the room. Willow crossed to the right side of the bed and sat on the very edge, gazing down at the contents of the bedside table. Nestled directly beneath an old fashioned candle holder, was a thick, leather bound book, Willow picked it up and settled it on her lap, A Treatise on Vampyres.

“Light bedtime reading,” she commented as she ran her hands over the tooled cover, not daring to open it.

The book had been concealing a small framed portrait; Willow gently plucked it from the table and held it further into the light to see a faded drawing done in thick India ink…Tara. Willow brushed the frame with her thumb; she had hardly expected any other portrait to sit at Willow’ Van Helsing’s bedside. Already knowing that it would be alright, she tucked the small frame into the breast pocket of her pyjamas. She felt as though she were being watched but as she glanced up, there was no one there. As her eyes roamed the room, she could not look past a tall mirror which ran from floor to ceiling. It was set into a beautifully tooled silver frame. Willow approached from the side and gradually the tiny details in the silverwork became apparent, it was as though it were a life story told in silver. Willow started from the bottom and worked her gaze upwards to see children playing, an ‘A’ and a ‘W’ linked, riding ponies, a quill denoted studying and writing, sheaves of parchment were curled as though ready to be written on, two feminine hands entwined, the flanks of a naked woman and the unmistakable curve of a breast. Willow moved in front of the mirror as she neared the top, seeing images of crossbows and swords replace the innocent ones below it and what looked like a Japanese temple and a samurai mask.

As her eyes roamed the entire frame she caught sight of an inscription at the very top and could just make out what it said, tu fui, ego eris

“What you are, I was. What I am, you will be,” Willow mouthed the translation.

When Willow jerked her head downwards and met her reflection in the mirror, she blinked rapidly, unsure of what it was she was seeing. While she expected to find her reflection staring back out of the mirror wearing her faded red slippers and striped pyjamas, she found none of these things. The only thing that was correct was the diary she held clasped against her chest. The rest of it was not right…her reflection’s hair fell in ringlets down over her shoulders even though she remembered tying her hair back that morning. As she looked down her reflection’s body she saw it clad in a long white dress, once again leaving her bosom half bare as what the style of the late eighteenth century. Her white feet were bare. Willow blinked but there was no change in her reflection. She lifted trembling fingers towards the surface of the mirror and was both relieved and unnerved to see the false reflection also lift its arm. Willow stopped short of actually touching the glass; her fingers poised inches away as though she could not bring herself to make contact.

“It’s just a mirror,” Willow whispered.

She heard the whispered words issue forth from between her lips but the reflection was silent, the lips did not move save to part a fraction. At that moment Willow knew that it was no reflection she stared at. Her terrified subconscious was urging her to move away from the mirror but not one of her muscles responded. Her hand remained outstretched, hovering next to the mirror.

Her false reflection’s cold fingers emerged from the mirrors surface, curling tightly around her own with vice-like fierceness. Willow only had time to utter a small gasp before she found herself swiftly jerked forward. From the moment her body was swallowed by the mirror that was not a mirror she found herself in another time, as a very different Willow...

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Who knows when I can read it but I'll dibs it now!

ETA: Wow, that is a love about your writing (and it's a long list) is that you don't skimp on anything. Here you have basically three different scenes and each is fully detailed and empassioned. It doesn't feel at all like you sat down with an outline and said, "Ok, what has to happen here to get to there?" No. It feels like three distinct and fully embodied events.

With Angelus and Tara you show the hatred and the background of that hatred to the extent that no reader could fail to understand it. It's palpable how much they hate each other. You also (for the second time) allow the reader to experience her rape(s?) without having to experience them. First Faith witnessed them in her linking and then Tara thinks of them when Angelus is on her. I don't know about anyone else but it came as no surprise when she burned him up in spite of her promise.

Then Faith and Willow. Poor both of them. Faith is so hurt and it's hard to say whether she's more hurt at Lara who is actually keeping secrets or at Willow who she believes is doing so. She' s jealous and it's hard to tell if she even knows why. And her running out makes it impossible for Willow to try to follow her.

And Willow's diary. What pain and angush she feels. The tone is so completely different from what we know of the diary. Her pain and torment and matter of fact interest in suicide is such a constrast to Tara's tales of passion. And Willow goes there, enters the house, strips the sheets, and gets pulled through a mirror? Wow and double-wow. That's like the most confusing and awesome thing ever. Please do not be hit by a train and if you do, please leave Mrs. Alcy a vague outline and instructions to let us know what we would have found out or we may never be able to sleep again.

Now strange happenings are afoot. (I'm going for understatement of the day). One thing I've been thinking about since the events at Casovna (sp) is that we know very little about Willow Van Helsing. The story of Tara's love for her and hers for Tara gives literally no background on her. She and her brother moved there. Is she a witch? A researcher? A ... what did they call debutantes? I was confused in the earlier update about how she got to Casovna. Did she travel with her brother (both he and Edward Walsh are in the military, yes?)? Was she chasing Tara? Did she have her own purpose? Has she in fact placed the magical charms on the house and diary?

I'll end with this: ??? and if I didn't say, fantastic.

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Arrgh! You stopped there?! Damn, Alcy... and they call me the queen of the evil cliffhanger. I think I've just been stripped of that little title.

But I want you to have it. What a totally great update. From the fiery implosion of Angelus, to which I'll offer up a hearty Yay!, to the close to fiery implosion of Faith (I'm a little confused by her vitriolic response, but I'll trust you on that one), to Willow's little trip across town, it's all great stuff. I love the old townhouse with its lack of dust and Willow's obviously intimate knowledge of the dwelling and its contents. And now she's gone! Gone!?! Dude!

Sucked in, again, I am totally sucked in and I can't wait to see what happens next. Totally rockin' great stuff, again.

Thank you.

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oh COOL.

i second the evil cliffhanger notion. i have this terrible nagging feeling that the next chapter for willow will be most difficult indeed. i have a feeling her emotions will give her a run for her money.

i loathe edward walsh. with every update, a part of me yearns to rip Tara away from him. It's too horrible to picture, and because of that, you've done a wonderful job. damn you! :P

thank our lucky stars for these frequent updates :)

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OMFG This was AWESOME!! I was biting my nails the whole time.

Oh, yes, I loved Tara opening up her whoop ass on Angelus. So, so good. I got so excited when she told him, "I lied" that I actually jumped up and shouted "YEAH!" at the screen. On a weird side note - I was watching Sci Fi channel while reading this and David Boreanaz is in some movie on here (maybe The Crow 4?), making out with Tara Reid and being an asshole, makes me even happier that he got dusted.

Then the rest was just WOW. Willow actually going to the house was creepy, then when she found the pictures, with WVH holding the diary was like an aww moment for me. So, Tara's last entry wasn't the last thing in the diary and now we get to read Willow's entries, which will be cool, even if she does sound bitter, that's totally understandable. But we still know how much it meant to her.

THEN that mirror. Again, OMFG. Where is Willow, our present Willow??? Oh man, this is so good.

More very, very soon please!


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ahem... Alcy,

*squeeeeeals and runs around emphatically in tight circles*

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!shesinthemirrorinwillowvanwassersocks'time!! andshemightnevercomeback!!!butwhowastheshadowyfigure?!ihopeitwastarasoshecansaveheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh :pinky

*passes out* my heart is racing! for the next update.. :smug

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Hello Alcy :)

Yay! Thanks for sharing again this diary with us :-D

The update was great. I am so happy Tara killed Angelus! Maybe she could have tortured him a bit? No? Ok. ^^

Now about Willow, bad girl, she should know better than get up when she has been wounded so badly. But I am glad she went to the house :)
By now people should know to never go close to a mirror, especially when it is not *your* reflect in it. Even if now is not now but the end of the XIXth century.

The house seems nice, and the mirror seems really nice too. But what next? :)

Thanks for this quick update ^^

I'll wait patiently for the next to know what happens.

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wow no that was a great chapter i wonder what will happen next.

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 Post subject: Re: Van Rosenberg (Updated 24 Oct)
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Hm, Tara breathes AND has a beating heart. Good that she destroyed Angelus though. He was very unlikeable in this fic :D
I think Tara (or was it Lara?) was right, Faith does have feelings for Willow. The little quips, warning her about Tara... it doesn't seem like something a friend would do the way Faith does.
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No matter what one writes, words cannot change the past.

Well put.
Interesting that Willow wanted to kill herself. I always thought Tara would have had those thoughts (too).
Cant wait for what happens "inside" the mirror!

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 Post subject: Re: Van Rosenberg (Updated 24 Oct)
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Good to see Angelus throughly dusted... So now Willow Rosenberg truly is Willow Van Helsing (Rosenberg)...

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 Post subject: Re: Van Rosenberg (Updated 24 Oct)
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Holy Batman! You're right, the wheels are definitely starting to roll! There was a moment of true contentment when Tara killed Angel -- I know I'm beating a dead horse here, but I'm so excited to see where you're going with this.

I'm so completely hooked on this story, and am so delighted that your updates are coming at such a regular pace. :) Looking forward to the next installment!

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 Post subject: Re: Van Rosenberg (Updated 24 Oct)
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I cannot believe that's where you stopped!!!!! Ok I can but that's just because what better place to stop? Fabulous cliffhanger but please get back to the story soon as I really want to know what/which Willow she is now .. even though I like the Willow she is now ... nothing wrong with being all sweet and innocent! :D

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