The Crappy Feelings Thread (HOTLINES in first post)

[JujuDeRoussie]

My godfather has forgotten my birthday :(
He didn't call me. My uncles and some of my friends who forgot it's ok, but him it hurts.

[Lifty]

Happy Birthday JujuDeRoussie if it's today! and I know how bad you feel, cos my parents when on a holiday once during my birthday without realising and I had to stay with my Grandmother who made countless attempts to make me feel better.

[woahnellie]

I'm having a day I haven't had in a long while. I feel like I don't know what the fuck I'm doing here. Why am I even here? What's my purpose in life? Do I even need to be here?

[JujuDeRoussie]

Happy Birthday JujuDeRoussie if it's today! and I know how bad you feel, cos my parents when on a holiday once during my birthday without realising and I had to stay with my Grandmother who made countless attempts to make me feel better.

Thanks Lifty Well i was on the 9th, but yep... my godfather is really like a father for me so it hurts. But it is ok I guess.

Topic: don't wanna go in the wind and rain '-___-

[sweet satin lover]

My sisters computer is making weird noises....I hope it will be ok.

[da101uk]

*sniffle* i'm not well i'v got a cold my glans are swollen *owee* which means i can't sleep so and had a serious case of this weekend *sigh*

[JustSkipIt]

More meetings. It's going to be a crazy week and I hate meetings.

[littlewicca]

I feel like I don't know what the fuck I'm doing here. Why am I even here? What's my purpose in life? Do I even need to be here?

I had the same feeling today but it was for a little time, but it still bothers me.

My crappy:

Did I destroy it all? where did all go? How can I not feel it wasnt me?

[Yours]

I'm feeling... useless? Is that the word? Not being able to help my friends... Yep useless is the word.

[The_Marinaford_report]

I feel as things will never change for me, that i will never be truly happy

[ambercissism]

I can't smell a thing, I can't taste...

[The_Marinaford_report]

i made to little mini frostys today and one fell apart when i picked it up and the other jumped off of my truck, made me feel real Crappy i froze my hands making them.

[mangled_monkey]

I'm beginning to think that avoidance of the actual issue while making it seem like you're dealing with your biggest issue wonderfully is a family trait.

[Belli Bear]

uhg, on a birthday note i'm gonna bitch a few years too late: my parents forgot my 18th birthday. I seriously could not believe it. I live with them. They see me everyday. To the americans in the room its like them forgetting my 21st as 18 is the important age here lol. God i was SO amazingly upset I dont think i'll ever get over it.

aaaanyway, in more recent times: my neck really hurts and i cant remember the third important thing i have to do today... go to alpha.. do foodland thing... and bleh...


*sits thinking* thats crappy

-bell XxX

[Lifty]

I had like 10 friends sleep over last night. And they are all great, amazing people, but they just reallt SUCK when it comes to cleaning up after themselves. And i tried and tried my hardest to make the place neat, as did one other friend, but to no avail. SO this morning we all had to leave at like 6am to got to some charity thing, and i got this furious call from my mum telling me to come home immediately. SO now my friends are banned from my house, and my mum doenst believe that i made an effort, and i am kinda pissed at my friends too, because they are so irresponsible. And it's like, yeah i love you guys, but can you show a little bit of respect for some else's stuff? Plus, i bought my mum $20 roses to say sorry, and she bashed them against a wall and made me clean it up:( ...Cant wait to tell her i'm gay...

[writerfreak]

I called my ex.....the one from high school...and she's on her way over to hang out. What am I doing? I feel terrible about this.

writerfreak

[tazraven]

Rejected. Damn it.

~Sara

[Sn0wflak3]

My best friend whom i love so much (as a friend.. and romantically) is goin through some seriously tough times with her gf. n while some may think i would be going woo and hoo at this, i'm not, cuz it kills me SO MUCH to see her go through this pain. I just wish i cud make it all go away n let her be happy. she deserves to be happy.

[littlewicca]

I have a bad head ache

[JujuDeRoussie]

Why does she keep doing that to me? Am I that much a bother? Am I truly a worthless b****? For someone on the outside in RL it would seem I don't care about what she does to me, that it doesn't hurt me. But on the inside? It makes my whole heart bleed. My whole being shatters.
sometimes it is so strong that for a second no more but still too much, for a second I think "fine die then!".
I feel so dirty.. and not the good kind of dirty....

[sweet satin lover]

My feet hurt so much! Ouch!

[umgaynow]

I think I must have been a really terrible person in a former life...cuz I just seem to have the most crap luck of anyone I know

I got my first denial from SSDI...then I had to apply for something called a "review by federal reviewing official"...denial #2 and as it turns out just some experimental thing they were trying here in NH and are probably not going to keep doing...then my doctor of 9 years took off to CA and didn't leave a referral...I finally got a doctor (a 3rd yr resident) saw her Monday and couldn't get examined cuz I was in too much pain...

anyway, I need to establish a medical history with this new doctor before my appeal hearing...I applied for the appeal last month (2 yrs after original SSDI app)...everyone else I know who has gone through this didn't get their hearing date for 6-9 months...I got mine today and it is in March! Now I have 2 months to get a corroborating medical history...uh yeah, good luck with that...cuz so many doctors are willing to sign official government type documents for patients they have only seen once or twice...grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

The one time the government is efficient is the one time I really need them not to be...I have a feeling there will be another appeal after this in a higher court and I really don't know what the hell I'm gonna do then...because Legal aid won't be able to represent me for free like they're doing now and I have no money to pay a real lawyer...............

What happened to the good karma I was supposed to get from spending my birthday money on Christmas prezzies???????? This so blows

[Miss Elly]

My stomach really hurts

[kisstheviolets]

I have a feeling there will be another appeal after this in a higher court and I really don't know what the hell I'm gonna do then...because Legal aid won't be able to represent me for free like they're doing now and I have no money to pay a real lawyer....

most social security attorneys work on a contingent basis. they would take 25% of your retro-award or a max of $5300. if they represent you in appeals beyond the first administrative hearing - starting with the appeals council - they can take 40% of your back pay award. my mom lost her administrative appeal and is now having her attorney appeal to the council... unfortunately, your statistical best shot is winning at the administrative appeal. best of luck, sandi.

topic: i think i have something seriously wrong with me. i have had a cough for like four years now because i always had colds through law school and am prone to develop bronchitis whenever i get a cold. it started getting better when i was in california last year, but it totally resurged with a vengeance when i went back to new england this fall. now it's so bad that i just cough and hack and feel like crap without actually being sick. its completely abnormal and makes me think that i'm maybe dying or something. cause seriously, who coughs like this besides people with emphasyema or something? i don't even smoke! ugh. i don't have health insurance, so i haven't been to a doctor in forever and probably won't be able to go for a while. it's kind of crappy and freaking me out just a bit.

[sweet satin lover]

My kitty scratched my eye and now it has swollen up and keeps on watering and I am in pain and soooooooooo tired. :(

[writerfreak]

Goddess, I'm so fucking tired. I feel crappy because I'm so tired but my roommate expects me to come home and clean the whole goddamn house after I'm the one who spent the whole day in the hospital with my best friend who was in the middle of giving birth while she sat at home and pined over her stupid boyfriend all day. It's not my fucking responsibility to clean up her messes and especially not when I've been on my feet for the better part of 24 hours trying to be there for my best friend. Which is more important, my best friend squirting a kid out or some dumb bitch I happen to live with telling me I need to clean when it isn't even my mess. Fuck that shit. I hate people right now. She just had to go and ruin one of the best days of my entire life didn't she...

writerfreak

[sweet satin lover]

My tummy really really hurts.

[LesbianJedi87]

My best friend's birthday is soon and for the past 8 years I've always forgotten the date. She knows this and isn't saying a thing when it comes to her plans for it either! I feel bad for always forgetting, but it's not my fault that so many people have birthday's this month!

And my girlfriend and I have been getting into horrible (actual) fights. Over what? A PHONE. I bought a new phone (prepaid, free texts and picture messages, along with other things) and would be able to get her one for CHEAP too and with the same plane. She won't let me and this is causing lot's of arguments...it's just a phone.....but I think I'll get it for her anyway and send it for her birthday....

[umgaynow]

my neck is super stiff and my hands are killing me...I'm never going to finish those Christmas/Solstice presents on time

[da101uk]

Just read in the paper Terry Prachett's been diagnosed with alziemers, goddamnit!! Not only is he a kick ass writing machine but a really nice bloke......there really is no justice in the world!!