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Finally! An update.

Postby Marilda » Fri Nov 01, 2002 3:31 pm

The task he must perform isn't easy, isn't desirable, but it's duty and duty prevails. He follows them on their journey to what he assumes is their home and smiles at the way they walk. They lean into each other, their bodies holding each other up, unwilling to lose the physical contact that reinforces the truth - the solidness of their bodies both being next to each other, in motion, with breath.



They stop in front of a house and speak to each other animatedly, then the redhead brings the girl in for what looks to be a reassuring hug. She again takes her hand and leads her up the steps.



The door opens and Willow peaks her head in.



“Hello?” she says tentatively.



“Willow? Hey come in the kitchen, I'm like cooking and stuff!”



Willow looks at Tara at the sound of Dawn's voice and and quirks her head toward the kitchen, beckoning Tara to follow. Tara hesitates, then reluctantly threads behind her girlfriend, her feet dragging, her stomach churning at the notion of seeing her Dawnie again. Nervous that she'll be feared, or worse rejected.



They stop at the doorway and see Dawn rapidly put a top back on a saucepan, shaking her arm in agitation at the burn she just gave herself.



“Stupid hot things.” she mutters.



She squats down and begins rummaging the cabinet below the sink for more cookware.



“Dawnie.” Willow says softly.



“Hey,” she answers distractedly with a precursory glance over her shoulder. “This cooking thing is way harder than I thought. Do you know where we keep that thing with the holes in it? You know to wash the salad?”



“Sweetie, can you stop for a second. Um, there is something we have to tell you.”



“Uh-huh.” she answers as she continues searching and banging pots together in the progress. “I can never remember what the heck it's called, is it a colander or a strainer or what? I mean you'd think they'd give the thing a better name you know?”



“Dawn...”



“A-HA! Found it!” she says standing up. “Now I just need to get the tomatoes sliced and did you say we?”



She turns around and finally looks at Willow.



It takes her a second, just one second for her eyes to focus on the person standing behind Willow. It takes her just that second to take in the features of the face and the contours of the body. It takes her mind at least ten times as long to associate a name to the body, and her heart what seems like a full minute to begin to believe what her mind is telling her. Once her heart begins believing, her body reacts, causing her grip on the stainless steel colander to loosen. It drops loudly to the floor, filling the now eerily silent room with resonating sound.



Dawn jumps at the sound and looks at the object, not able to phantom how it reached its current destination. She looks up and sees that the woman is standing before her and forgets about the metal on the ground. Her heart tells her mind to speak and she opens her mouth to try. When no sound comes out, she shakes her head and tries again. This time, there is success.



“Tara?”



One word conveying such huge possibilities in the mind of the young woman. The possibilities of a dream, a cruel trick or a twisted form of torture enter her head. But there are other possibilities, coming from a secret recess of her heart, a piece of herself she thought closed off, hardened by the cruelties that life had dealt her and the realities of living on a Hellmouth. Those possibilities were of hope, of love and miracles. Or perhaps of the miracle of love. That she wanted this to happen was true, that she chalked it up to the unrealistic fantasies and logic of girlhood was a given. Love is more powerful than death. Tara is dead. She loves Tara, therefore Tara should no longer be dead. Unrealistic logic and childlike fantasies. And yet...



“Dawnie.” Tara says and begins walking toward the girl.



“Oh God...Tara?”



Tara reaches her destination and grasps the younger girl into a hug. Dawn stands unmoving, hands on her side as she feels arms come around her. Then, like a beast unleashed, a dam broken, she latches on. Her hands seeking to solidify the image grasping on to her, making her mind believe that it is true. She leans in and rests her head against Tara's shoulder and listens intently for a heartbeat. Hearing one, she sighs and begins crying. She doesn't consider herself a young girl any longer but she still believes in the power of love.



Hours later and the sun is setting. He had stood outside and seen it all. Had seen the reunion of a family. He saw the phone calls and the frantic running into the house by other people. The girls family, he thinks and smiles again. He saw the hugs and the tears and he felt the joy and while the joy made him happy, it didn't deter from the duty.



He looks up and sees the silhouettes coming from the bedroom window. Sees two bodies close together, sees them leaning their foreheads on each other then begin kissing. He sees as the bodies descend on what he assumes is a bed and then the lights turn off. He sighs and wishes it were easy. It is love, one might even say true love, but it doesn't make a difference. Love does not rescind death. Death happens, whether love exists or not. It is there, a constant, a main-stay, a fixture. And death had come back to reclaim one of its own.



Marilda
 


Re: Finally! An update.

Postby Miss1234Kitty » Fri Nov 01, 2002 5:01 pm

Nooooooooooo! Tara is BACK. To STAY. He's not gonna take Tara again, is he? Please no! Not Willow, or Tara, or Dawn, or Buffy, or Anya, or Giles, or Xander. I will very graciously allow Spike to return and then be tortured and staked cos I hate him. But please don't kill anyone else!



Wonderful update, by the way.



Gem

Miss1234Kitty
 


Re: Finally! An update.

Postby BigMac » Fri Nov 01, 2002 6:43 pm

Great Fic :clap :clap :clap I hope there is more.

Tara: Assume Crash

Positions

BigMac
 


Re: Finally! An update.

Postby mollyig » Fri Nov 01, 2002 11:33 pm

There was something so lovely about Dawn shedding her cynicism, believing again in wishes coming true, at the return of Tara.



Adding up the total of a love that's true, multiply life by the power of two
Indigo Girls

mollyig
 


Re: Finally! An update.

Postby Marilda » Sat Nov 02, 2002 11:01 pm

Gem- Hee. Yeah I can't kill what's already dead. Anyway thanks for the feedback, glad you enjoyed the update.



BigMac- Thanks for the kind words and yes there will be more. Hopefully soon.



Mollyig- I'm glad you enjoyed the way Dawn reacted.

Marilda
 


Re: Finally! An update.

Postby deixs » Tue Nov 05, 2002 6:11 pm

O my god, I had tears in my eyes while reading your fic!!!! :cry

The reunion was so sweet, Willow trying to re-map Tara.

Please :pray :pray don't let him take Tara back!!!! She belongs with Willow, that's her heaven!!!!

deixs
 


angst

Postby vmpIrslAr » Wed Nov 06, 2002 6:00 am

Oh GOD! do you know I was reading this story through tear stained eyes. It's been a while since I have read a fic addressing that painful event. And it remains painful everytime I'm reminded of it. It hurts as much as if I had lost some one. Well I guess we all did.



But the utter lost of that love in BTVS was absolultely devastating. So now I'm crying and typing and being all emotional.



Anyway, please keep writing...I want to believe that Tara will come back someday...and stay with Willow.

VmpIrslAr out.






"she's my everything."

vmpIrslAr
 


Next Part

Postby Marilda » Fri Nov 29, 2002 12:01 pm

Alright so I know I'm not the most frequent updater in the history of fic updating and I'm sorry. In my defense life is crazy. But then again, that's a defense that can pretty much be used by anybody so don't know how effective it is. Anyway thanks for the feedback and sticking by this story and for even reading this story aftef all the long freaking breaks I take. The next part will come, hopefully soon.



P.S. I've been catching up on the fic on these boards and my God we have some incredible writers on here. I'm in awe of all the talent. Any of you live in Texas and go to Texas Tech cause yeah we could sooo use you on the newspaper writing team :D



Next Part



It all started with a kiss-the reunion of two lovers. Mouths moving toward each other.

The feel of each other's breath on their lips. A whisper. An invitation. A murmur. It was just

a kiss. And yet. The kiss led to more, had to lead to more.



In the afterglow of the events that transpired from that kiss, Tara lays on their bed and reflects.

It's a wonder that it's their bed, their room;that she's able to think that again, that it's able to be so.

She feels...spent, languid even. Her body feels tired, used and sated. She runs her hand up her shoulder to the nape of her neck, feels the rapidly cooling sweat.



How long since it began? she thinks. Minutes? Hours? Days? How long have she and Willow been in this room? This sanctuary of lovers?

The questions cloud her mind for a second and then she smiles. Why does it matter? All that matters is that it happened.

She looks down and sees her lover draped halfway across her body, her head lying on her shoulder, her arm holding on possessively to her waist. Is still happening, she thinks. All that matters is that she was able to love Willow again and cherish her body. That she was able to solidify her memory of the contours of that body once again. She tasted her wetness, felt her tremble, heard her scream.



And God, Willow had done the same. Tara closes her eyes and sees Willow, moments (it had to have just been moments) ago, her head buried between her legs, wantonly using her tongue to give her pleasure. And she sees her own hands buried in Willow's hair pushing her towards her center. The feeling of her lover's lips on her, tasting her, was indescribable. She sees how her hips thrust up to meet each flicker of the tongue. She sees Willow stop feasting and look up at her.



Tara lays in bed and shudders at the memory of that look, but not out of fear. She shudders because that look means she is incapable of logical thought, that rationality has gone out the window. It is that look that confirms that Tara is still totally and completely under her lover's spell.



The look was feral, primal - a wolf calling out to his mate. Willow's green eyes were darker, dilated; filled with desire and dominion. Tara saw that look and she ascended, or fell, as the case may be. She saw it and her body tightened, her nerves heightened and her hands sought purchase as release washed over her. She saw the look and any lingering thoughts of returning to where she fled from dissipated.



A short time later and Willow finally stirs. Tara moves her hand from her neck and softly caresses Willow's cheek.



“Tara?” A groggy voice inquires. When she doesn't receive an immediate answer her body stiffens and the hold she has on the other woman tightens forcefully. She opens her eyes tentatively, as if afraid of what she'll find. Blue eyes stare back at her questionably. Willow breathes a sigh of relief.



“Baby?” Tara probes.



“I thought it was a dream.” Willow says softly.



“What was sweetie?”



“You. You coming back. I thought it was all up here.” She moves her hand to indicate the side of her head and sighs. “I thought I had the dream again.”



“You've had it before?”



Willow nods. “Constantly. Only whenever I'd wake up you'd be gone and I'd be empty again... waking up was torture.”



Tara cups Willow's face with her hand. “Sweetie, we've been through this, I'm never leaving you.” She sighs and grins halfheartedly, “You make me complete remember?”



Willow laughs softly and leans in to kiss the other woman. Her lips hover over Tara as their breathes mingle, “I remember.” She whispers.



The kiss became heated, become passionate, become more.



Marilda
 


Re: Next Part

Postby deixs » Fri Nov 29, 2002 12:46 pm

Glad that you finally updated!!!!

Wonderful how you described Tara's thoughts!



Stef :p

deixs
 


Re: Next Part

Postby willntlover » Fri Nov 29, 2002 1:22 pm

:heart Everytime I think I've read the most heartfelt dialog between these two characters :sniff: you top it.



Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! for the groovy update.



-Will

"Hear that baby? You're my always."



willntlover
 


Re: Next Part

Postby mollyig » Sat Nov 30, 2002 12:22 am

Love how you presented this chapter, with Tara languishing the next morning thinking about her reunion with Willow.



Willow's worry that it was all a dream was very touching.

Adding up the total of a love that's true, multiply life by the power of two
Indigo Girls

mollyig
 


Re: Next Part

Postby RalSt31 » Sat Nov 30, 2002 4:06 am

This is a very original and emotional story. I love how you've portrayed Tara's desire to leave Heaven and Willow's fear that it was all just a mirage and her love hadn't returned. The spectre of death waiting around the corner also gives it an urgency and feel of trepidation that has me on the edge of my seat.



A great story, that I hope to read more of soon :)



RalSt

RalSt31
 


Re: Next Part

Postby UnrealisticExpectations » Sat Nov 30, 2002 8:09 am

I love this story, and yes, I've cried through parts too.



And I just have to state that I don't give a frilly damn about death's duty. He cannot have Tara.... just don't let him take her again. Please.

UnrealisticExpectations
 


Re: Next Part

Postby SilverWingedNemesis » Sat Nov 30, 2002 11:05 pm

*SIGHS*



Must...have....more....





*GIGGLES*



Aren't I awful!!!



Thanks for this..update soon?!?



~NICKOLE~

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"She's my everything"

SilverWingedNemesis
 


Feedback

Postby Marilda » Sun Dec 01, 2002 6:42 am

Well look at me! All with the response and the feedback and stuff, I feel extremely proud of myself :D



As to most everybody's response that they cried while reading this fic, thanks! I think. I don't know how to feel about the fact that you had tears in your eyes. Cause on one hand it could mean that wow my fic caused someone to cry, which isn't good, but on the other my fic caused some sort of an emotional response which IS good. And I was going for the desolation and desperation that losing someone causes so crying would actually be considered a good response to the fic. You know what? I'm going with the thanks. What is it that Willow said, "Any response is good except projectile vomiting?" So as long as their is none of that, I think I'm doing okay.



As to the Willow is her heaven comment, yeah I think that's the point. It's about examing what Heaven actually means and is. For me personally, growing up in an extremely religious household heaven meant this grand reward you would get after leading a good and pious life. But then there's talk about love and how important that is in our lives. I guess it's about examing which is more important in a sense. What is heaven? Is it an actual place or a state of mind?



Stef- Thanks for the feedback. Yeah can you believe I updated? I'm surprised too.



VmpIrslAr - Yeah, there love story was a very poignant one for me, still continues to be. Marilda cries into VmpIrslAr's shoulder, "There's was a miraculous love." :D



willntlover- i'm glad the dialogue rang true for you. Thanks for your continued support of this fic chica, you've been behind it since the beginning.



mollyig- You too! Thanks for sticking by this fic. I'm glad you enjoyed the latest part.



RalSt- Hey! Been talking to you alot lately huh? Anyway thanks for the kind words and yes there will be more....soon.



unrealisticexpectations- Death's duty can go to hell huh? Hee. Yeah, stupid death.



Nickole- Um okay. Giggles back. you're not terrible, why are you terrible?





Marilda
 


Re: Feedback

Postby willntlover » Sun Dec 01, 2002 7:41 am

crying is definitely of the good with your story!



:)



-Will

"Hear that baby? You're my always."



willntlover
 


Next Part

Postby Marilda » Sun Dec 08, 2002 3:03 pm

Next Part.

Yeah okay, I’m on crack.



Tara grabs the towel off the rack and proceeds to dry herself off, taking her time in the process. No point in hurrying, she thinks, no reason to anymore. She hums a song under her breath, not actually paying attention to the melody. As she puts on the robe she realizes that it’s the Smurf’s theme. La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la LA. She bursts out laughing. Of all the songs stuck in her head….



She goes to the medicine cabinet, wipes off the steam with the hem of the robe and goes about her morning ritual – brushing teeth, putting on lotion, etc. As she does this, she begins thinking about the Smurfs. Yes, okay, she hasn’t watched the show in – ever, so the details area bit fuzzy, but she remembers the population of girls to boys being vaguely disproportionate.



Well that’s just sexist! She thinks. Stupid little blue men! They’re so threatened by women that they have to eradicate the whole gender? Of all the nerve! Then she stops, ponders and seems to vaguely recall their being a female Smurf in the group, but only one. Well that’s just typical, she continues. Only one female? She was what? Their domestic slave? Probably in the kitchen all day slaving to make a vast amount of food for a bunch of ungrateful slobs. Stupid little men! They should all just die - wait, die?



Hmm, how did the Smurfs further their population?



Her eyes widen as she realizes that the female Smurf was also their SEX Slave!! And Ew! Wasn’t there an old man too? Yuck! She had to sleep with the old man?! Why that’s the most disgusting thing she’s ever heard of. First of all, there had to have been wrinkle issues and….



“Tara?”



Tara turns from the mirror and into the face of a certain redhead who’s leaning against the bathroom door.



“Hmm?” She asks.



“What are you thinking about?”



Tara reflects for a moment, realizes the weird turn her internal monologue has taken and vows for discretion.



”You baby. Always you.”



Edited by: Marilda at: 12/9/02 5:07:59 am
Marilda
 


Re: Next Part

Postby deixs » Sun Dec 08, 2002 4:15 pm

I can't beleive that Tara was debating the Smurf population!!! This was so funny.



Stef :p

deixs
 


Re: Next Part

Postby RalSt31 » Sun Dec 08, 2002 8:47 pm

I thought Willow babble was fun, but Tara tirades are just the cutest ... if a little weird ;)



RalSt

RalSt31
 


Re: Next Part

Postby willntlover » Sun Dec 08, 2002 9:21 pm

OMG :lol



if that's fic while your on crack, then smoke on! :) J/k



ANd the last line had me rolling:D



Thank you for the charming update!!

-Will

"Hear that baby? You're my always."



willntlover
 


Re: Next Part

Postby SilverWingedNemesis » Sun Dec 08, 2002 11:40 pm

HEHEHE



That was great!! *GIGGLES*



Oh, I just LOVE THIS!! I can't wait for your next update!! :pray



Keep up the great work!!



~NICKOLE~

------------

"And I'm eating this banana. Lunchtime be damned! "

SilverWingedNemesis
 


Feedback and Next Part

Postby Marilda » Mon Dec 09, 2002 7:57 am

Stef- Well come on! The smurfs are soo sexist. Of course she'd be debating the population. :D



RalSt- See, I have a theory about Tara's tirades So much time spent with the champion babbler has got to do something to you right? So Tara was just infused by Willow's babblin spirit.



Will- You're encouraging me to smoke crack? What would your parents say? Just say no :D



~NICKOLE~ Glad you enjoyed sweetie.



Okay so yeah, this morning I do think I was actually on crack, that or the lack of sleep and studying non-stop for finals took its toll. Anyway, feeling bad about the crack induced post, I decided to do the next part. Although, after reading it, some might prefer the crack-induced fic better. Not so much with the funnies in this part.



Next Part.





Moments later and they sit on the bed staring at each other. One set of eyes conveying questions, the other trepidation for giving the answers. The air is tense, thick with anxiety and the disparity of discourse. But it is underlined by something else, something constant that calms the rough winds of confrontation and revelation. It is underlined by devotion and a deep-seated knowledge of rightness and fate. Willow leans in and kisses the blonde, delicately, slowly, not thinking about passion or desire, well not as much as normal, rather thinking about love and belonging. She takes the other women’s lips in her own, caressing them, caressing her. Those lips convey rightness, understanding, loyalty and love.



“Baby,” she begins. “If you wanna wait….”



Tara sighs into her lover’s lips and mentally steels herself for the revelations she is about to disclose. “No, you need to know, I just…” She trails off, knowing that what she has to say will cause the redhead pain and she would rather go to the depths of hell rather than see her girlfriend suffer.



She is overcome by urgency, needing to convey the importance of her next words. She grabs the redhead’s hands into her own, moving them to rest between her breasts, mentally urging them to feel every emotion that is making tidal waves in her heart. “Sweetie, you’re my world,” she imparts frantically. “N-Nothing…” She pauses, catches her breath and starts again. “You have my heart. Since I met you, since I saw you…” she pauses again, cursing her mind for not knowing how to decipher the truth so blatantly evident in her soul, cursing the world for not inventing the words. She sighs “You just…you have my heart. I need you to know that, to understand that.”



Willow nods, trepidation making its way into the confines of her mind, trying to find a place to stake claim, make roots.



“What did you do?” She whispers softly, illogically hoping that the words didn’t carry over, that the questions plaguing her mind would disappear into the air.



“I remembered,” Tara replies.



“You’d forgotten?”



“I was here when you were crying in Buffy’s arms, when you asked her if I was happy.”



“Oh God.” Willow takes her hands out of the other girl’s grasp. “Oh baby, I’m sorry.” Her eyes widen as she realizes that it was her fault. “It was me wasn’t it? You WERE happy and then you saw me with the crying and the pain…oh God, I made you forget the happiness?”



“Wait. Sweetie…” She says as she tries to take the other women’s hand back in her own. “Listen okay?” When Willow again moves to take her hands away, Tara reinforces the grip. “Please.” She gets a slow nod from the redhead and begins to tell the tale of her ascension to heaven and return to earth.



“I remember floating and feeling dizzy. Like my body felt weightless and my mind didn’t know how to adjust to the concept? Then I was there. I can’t describe it, not really.” She thinks. “It, it’s beyond words. I was looking around, you know? Trying to take it all in?”



Willow listens intently, trying to mentally picture herself in the situation. She gives a slight nod, urging the blonde to continue.



“I was still trying to figure out what the heck was going on when I felt something, someone. H-he was just there. And seeing him, I knew. I knew what happened, where I was. And sweetie, I didn’t care. Once I figured it out all I could think about was trying to get back to you.” Tears fill her eyes, threaten to overflow.



Willow leans in and rests her forehead against the other woman.



“I went kind of crazy,” she continues, smiling sheepishly at the notion. “ T-they let me see you, let me come to you. That’s when, you know, with Buffy…”



Willow leans back and stares at the other women’s eyes. “I knew I felt you.”



Tara just nods. “They told me it was a chance to say goodbye but I...I couldn’t accept that. So they….” She trails off.



“What?” Willow asks, squeezing Tara’s hand reassuringly. “They what?”



“My memories. They took my memories.”



Willow looks up, aghast. “Oh, baby…”



“The memories of you, of us, God, all of them were just gone. Everything went away even…” She stops, pain momentarily flashing in her eyes, she mentally shakes her head and continues. “Then I remembered again. I don’t know how long I was without them, how long I forgot.” She looks up. “How long was it?”



Willow looks at her, not comprehending. “What? Oh. Months. You were dea-, you were gone three months.”



Tara nods, storing the information. “Then I remembered and I had to get back. So I figured out a way, made a deal with someone and then I was here.” She smiles, shrugs and hopes that it’s enough. Hopes that Willow won’t ask more. But Willow, her Willow, was anything if not intuitive.



“Even what Tara?”



Tara looks up, confused for a second, thinking that Willow was going to ask about the other.



“Huh?”



“You forgot even what?”



Tara releases her lover’s hands, not prepared for THIS confrontation. She stands up off the bed and walks over to the dresser, frantically searching for something to do with her hands. She looks over her shoulder and grins half-heartedly.



“Does it matter?” She asks hopefully. “They made me forget you. That, I can never forgive them for.”



“Even what?” Willow asks again. Her face set in grimly determined lines. She remembers conversations had in the past, childhood traumas not fully known, haunting only in dreams and chased away by the sun. There remnants only visible through a haze of mist.



“Willow please…” Tara pleads. Her hands now face down in the dresser, trying to find purchase.



But Willow is like a dog with an itch, scratching and prodding, feeling the hurt it is causing itself in the process, but determined to make the itching stop.



“Tara. Even what?”



“My dad.” Tara replies softly. “Even the dreams were forgotten.”



Willows discharges a shuddered breath. Knowing that the next question has to be asked, knowing that the answer will stab at her heart.



“And when you remembered again?”



Tara closes her eyes, her hands now in fists on the counter, their trembling barely restrained.



“I remembered you.”



“Tara…” Willow warns.



The hand struck her suddenly, snapping her head back, bruising her cheek. There was a voice, deep, male, angry. Telling her she was worthless, making her feel as if she deserved the pain.



Tara turns around, her eyes pleading with Willow not to make her say it. “Sweetie, it doesn’t matter,” she says almost desperately. Knowing how Willow will take the situation, knowing she’ll blame herself. She would rather go through the depths of hell, she thinks again.



Willow stands up, approaches the blonde. “Baby, I need to know.”



A voice raised in anger, sweet sickly breath blowing on her ear, telling her to be a good girl. Hard fingers, piercing pain.



Resigned, she looks down. Her arms crossed defensively over her chest, her hand at her sides, her fingers digging into flesh.



“The dreams became clear.” She disheartenely professes.



Willow’s heart begins to break. Her voice trembles. “You remember everything?”



Tara, still looking down, nods.



The dam inside of Willow breaks, anguish for her lover, for the torments now clearly present. What was a mirage became a reality, what was a mist in the night became a razor-sharp image clear in the glare of the sun. Tears flow freely, her heart breaking for Tara, for what remembering cost her.



It was all her fault, she thinks. Tara remembered and now she didn’t even have the comfort of dreams. God, Willow thinks. She remembers waking up to Tara screaming, to sickening sounds of a child in pain. She remembers gathering the blonde in her arms and gently guiding her awake. And she knows, she knows, that Tara didn’t remember everything. Yes, she felt the fear, yes she felt the pain, but the dreams were always masked. And now…God.



She reaches out to try to comfort the blonde but pulls her hand back down. She doesn’t know how. A silent sob escapes and she tries again. Her hand touches the blonde’s face and forces her to look into her eyes.



Tara looks up and sees Willow’s tears. Her pain forgotten at the sight of Willow’s anguish. “Oh sweetie, no…” She starts, she too, reaching for her lover’s face. “Sweetie, please don’t cry.” She says and palms her hand on her lover’s cheek. Her voice breaks. “I can’t stand to see you cry.”



Willow breaks, wanting the comfort of her lover’s body; she enfolds the blonde in her arms. She hangs on tightly, her body betraying her, contradicting her mind, contradicting what she KNOWS she has to do, what she has to say.



“You have to go back.”





Edited by: Marilda at: 3/21/03 11:26:29 am
Marilda
 


Re: Feedback and Next Part

Postby deixs » Mon Dec 09, 2002 10:01 am

What? :jaw

Willow can't be serious! She can't ask Tara to go back! No, no



Stef :p

deixs
 


Re: Feedback and Next Part

Postby willntlover » Mon Dec 09, 2002 12:39 pm

Holy cow! So not what I expected Willow to say. But you can totally see her saying it :)



Just one question, how come she didn't really remember her 'father memories' before? Did her mom do a spell??



Loved it, as usual :) :)



-Will

"Hear that baby? You're my always."



willntlover
 


Re: Feedback and Next Part

Postby Grimlock72 » Mon Dec 09, 2002 12:40 pm

eeerm.... and what will going back solve ? It's not like you lose memories on entering now is it ? Besides, doesn't Tara get to decide if the good memories are worth the burden of the bad ones ???



Of course Willow wants to fix what went wrong, which in her mind is Tara remembering what her "dad" did to her. Question should be; does Tara want to fix it ?



Waiting for Tara's response here...



Grimmy

"You hurt Tara," Willow said too calmly. "The last one who tried that was a god. I made her regret it." -- Unexpected Consequences by Lisa of Nine

Grimlock72
 


Re: Feedback and Next Part

Postby barnabasvamp » Mon Dec 09, 2002 2:36 pm

Wow!! Great update.

Totally unexpected, but very believable, reaction on Willow's part.

OK, real curious about "the deal" Just what has she promised??

BV

"In front of total strangers won't you kiss me, Flowers for no reason but you miss me - OOH, I wanna be in love"

Melissa Etheridge-Skin

barnabasvamp
 


Curious

Postby vmpIrslAr » Mon Dec 09, 2002 11:41 pm

YES, I'm very curious about this deal too. Why do I get the feeling that there is more angst to come?



As for Willow not wanting Tara to suffer those horribles memories and going back... *speechless*



Such love, such sacrafice... love conquers all reason.

VmpIrslAr out.






"she's my everything."

vmpIrslAr
 


Wow and Gee Gosh and I need help

Postby Marilda » Tue Dec 10, 2002 2:21 pm

Okay, I'll come back sometime later and respond to feedback. But just wanted to take the time to say that I'm now freaking addicted to Willow/Tara fic. Not that I wasn't before, mind you, but usually I could read other kinds of fic. Which is not the case now. It's all Willow/Tara, all the time. And you know who's fault that is? ALL the Freaking Writers on PEns!! Darn YOU! Darn you for being so amazingly talented.



And yeah, is there a writer appreciation thread? Cause not souding like a bad idea right now.



Oh, and don't be like me!! UPDATE!! Who cares about life and bills and responsibility? It's...all..about...the...fic!

Marilda
 


Re: Wow and Gee Gosh and I need help

Postby 4evaWill » Tue Dec 10, 2002 11:18 pm

Well... I was afraid of reading more fics at one time because I'm worried that I'm gonna mix them up... but well, this one has me absolutely and completely blambustered. I love!! :love It is so brilliant!! :clap Cheers all round... :grin Willow telling Tara to go back, not so good, but I shall :pray for the best of them... really liking and looking forwards to more!!

Cath :angel

Tara: No, I-I understand. You have to be with the person you l-love.

Willow: I am.

4evaWill
 


whole-heartedly agree

Postby vmpIrslAr » Wed Dec 11, 2002 4:14 am

Life... overrated.... W/T fic... there isn't a high enough rating...





lol



So take your own advice and UPDATE, PLEASE:pray

VmpIrslAr out.






"she's my everything."

vmpIrslAr
 

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