by CrazyTaraWitch » Sat May 01, 2010 7:44 pm
Being alone, never again finding someone to love me, never having the life I want, never being able to love someone else like I love her, forgetting what it's like to be loved, forgetting how perfect and wonderful and magical it was when we were together, losing my faith in love, losing all the self-esteem she helped me build now that I've lost her, never finding someone else who makes me feel as incredible and *real* as she did, feeling stuck and numb and like I'm not living my life, never being able to fully trust someone again now that the person I trusted most broke my heart, building a life I'm not fully committed to, forgetting how beautiful she is when she smiles... I'm scared of holding on and I'm terrified of letting go.
Seems like a lot of things scare me right now.
"To days to come."
"All my love to long ago.
I hope, we'll have more happy ever after
I hope, we can all live more fearlessly...
~Jas