The Crappy Feelings Thread (HOTLINES in first post)

[love_2003]

The internet wasn't working all day so I had to go to school and use the computers there. I have a group project due today at 1pm and of course I waited for the last-minute-panic to set in before starting to work on it. When I got home from school earlier the internet still was down and just when I was thinking of giving up and going to bed the internet starts working. So here I am trying to get everything in order for later today.

[Boschi]

I cleverly transplanted many tomato plants (cold sensitive) into my hoop house, and then watched the forecast change to predict 6+ inches of snow and temps in the mid twenties.

Poop.

[JujuDeRoussie]

I've been spoiled 2 Saturdays (great thing ) in a row and forgot that once at home there was always a bit of crap happening on Saturdays.

I don't write it in the rant thread 'cause it is not meant as a rant. just facts and the hope that sharing them will makes me feel lighter.

My uncle is a Elementary School teacher. He makes an excellent job. But now he is "on hold" until September. Something happened and it was his fault. But it was outside of work and it never influenced his work. Now it makes him ultra depressed. I guess smoking pot is wrong when you have to be a model for 6 years old kids. But he also has to move away. Change school. And it makes me feel very sad because he is someone very responsible, he doesn't smoke much, just from time to time, never before to drive, never in front of kids... Never while drinking alcohol. Well you get it, he has a responsible consumption. Still he got caught by the police, and even though they won't charge him, his work does. His work is his life. Anyway...

Now on a lighter note, I'm crappy because I didn't wake up on time this morning, and so I couldn't go to my grandfather's where another uncle (who I see three to four times a year) is visiting, as are friends from Alsace. Those Alsacian friends are viticulturists and they brought nummy white wines with them. I love to try wines. Can't drink but to try? I love it. Plus I don't see those persons very often. =(

And now on a heavier note (told you, lots of crap). The mother's cancer is spreading. Well that's how she feels. She runs exams next month so we'll know for sure. But... she feels it. She feels that things aren't so well. She is in more pain, more often, eating is becoming painful most of the time. Anyway she told me exactly "I need you to pass this year. I need you to succeed, because I know that I won't live until the end of your studies".

Crappy Saturday!

*wanna go to an Amber signing again.. much better*

[Trom DeGrey]

The eggs are not happy in my belly.

[LesbianJedi87]

I could do with less of my sister's bitchy condescending tone and she should really stop going in to work on weekends cause that fucks my day up and I never get to SLEEP any more if all I ever do is work work work. So lame. Ugh.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

My throat's all icky.

[Dorothy]

I feel like I can't handle my life and want to get away from it.
I want a life without things I can't handle, without mean people and most of all without family! But though my parents are assholes I can't just turn away and never look back, neither can I let my sisters go, though they are both way fucked up and ocassionally treating me like shit. My parents made them believe I was mentally retarded, selfish and mean and they can't just stop believing that.

Especially the youngest, though she says she doesn´t, yesterday things became very clear that in her heart she believes I could be angry with her when she doesn´t really deserve it and that I would pick on her just to make her feel bad. She totally scolded me though I was trying to help her.

I think I´m just not cut out to live this life the right way, or in any good way for that matter. There´s so many things I can´t do or have never learned thanks to my fucked up mother and I just can´t get beyond it.... maybe I should get a big "FAIL" tattoo on my forehead so people will be warned in advance.

[EvilKittycatofdoom]

A friend of mine died on sunday. I just found out it was her. She was 15 and a great person. She was trying to cross the freeway. Now I am sad and angry and all kinds of things and I started crying in the olive garden.

[Trom DeGrey]

I don't know that I'm feeling crappy necessarily, but my Sunday has definitely been bizarre. I live and work in the same building. This was a hospital for many years and the man that bought it in 2000 has completely revitalized it and turned it into a mixed zone building. So, I live upstairs and my office is downstairs. I had a rare Sunday appointment, so I was up a little early when one of my roommates that works third shift came in and said there was some sort of excitement going on in the parking lot outside my main business entrance.

The excitement?

A resident had been found dead in the parking lot! Shot in the face no less. So, I call my clients and ask them to use a different entrance when they come in, and then I'm left to wonder just what the hell happened. This is a great neighborhood and we have very little turnaround among residents in the building. It was unnerving to think that this was just some random act of violence. Then the grounds manager came in and stopped at my office. He told me that the resident's ex-wife apparently laid in wait for him and shot him when he went out to his truck.

Holy crap!

Now, I'll admit that I was a little relieved it wasn't something totally random, but I didn't feel good about feeling that way either. So, my clients come in, we do their session and when I'm done I see the grounds manager again. He informs me that this woman fled to a gas station in a nearby town and told the clerk what she'd done. When the police arrived, she pulled the gun again and shot herself in the chest.

Are you kidding me??!!!! In this little 'burg????

What really upset me in the end, was when the time line was finally established. They think she killed him at around 9am. That's when my roomie gets off work and she only works a two minute WALK from here. If she hadn't have piddle-farted around at work, she could have ended up being a witness. Or worse.

Strange, strange shit.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I've been on my antibiotics almost 48 hours and I'm still sickly :(

[Foomatic]

Really? REALLY?! Bah.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

My friends got to see the *surprise* world premier of the new Star Trek movie and I wasn't there. And Leonard Nimoy was. SOOO not fair.

Also, my lease is up way earlier than I thought. My roommate told me sometime in June before I moved in, now she says it's May 20th. Grrrr.

[LesbianJedi87]

Base wide power outages all day till 5 pm is not my idea of a good. day. sigh.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I yet again have no internet at my apartment :(

[Sandman78]

Lilly is going through a bout of teething and now she has fever and is not a happy baby...I feel miserable for her 'cause all I can do is sit here and try to soothe her.

[Dorothy]

[LesbianJedi87]

me niece is getting her front teeth and she's miserable as well. when all she wants to do is cling to me and lay down something is def wrong. I feel soooo bad for her.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

My back hurts from limboing in class :(

[Dorothy]

I love her to bits but can't do a thing to help her out of hellish dimention #41260

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I just found out my dad and stepmom's puppy disappeared to days ago. I love that dog :(

[Sandman78]

On top of teething, Lilly now has a terrible cold...poor baby.
That means no sleep for Mama or Mommy.

[riotgrrrljaz]

Sandman78

On top of teething, Lilly now has a terrible cold

i'm sorry, hope she gets better soon!

[Sandman78]

i'm sorry, hope she gets better soon!

Thanks for the kind thought...I hope she does too.
OT: Miserable babies are hard to soothe sometimes, I wish I had all the answers.

[JustSkipIt]

Sand - Sorry about Lilly. Have you tried a steamy bathroom? That's about the only thing I know. That and trying to get her to sleep sitting up. But it really sucks.

Feel better, Lilly!

[Sandman78]

Thanks Deb, Lilly & I appreciate your thoughtfulness. I'm definetly gonna try the steambath and see if that helps with her congestion.

OT- Doctors appointment tomorrow...so not looking foward to it.

[Dorothy]

buh!!! life sux

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I have been getting way too many headaches the last few weeks. It's not as bad as last spring when I had a five day migraine, but it's still pretty damn unpleasant.

[LesbianJedi87]

I'm homesick sooo bad. I get to go home in a month in a half but it's going by too slow. Meh.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I'm really going to miss living close enough to my best friend to visit on a whim and hang out really late. I'm already missing this and still have it... Why can't I just enjoy it for now? Why do I have to think about the fact it's not going to last?

[Kessari]

My best friend called me today. Well, that's not a bad thing , but the reason why he called... He was on a business trip and I had a bad feeling when he said he was gonna fly. I love flying and so does he, but I had a bad feeling somehow this time. So he called, saying that, when they were landing, they suddenly went on full speed again and went into the air. The systems crashed while the pilot attempted to land and they almost crashed!
OMG, I don't wanna think about that. A good friend of my dad and I died on New Years Eve and I don't want to think about losing my best friend. GOSH!!! I need a drink... or ten.

So, I'm off to bed. Need to be at the hospital at 8 tomorrow. This is not making me feel any better, but I know I have to do this. It's scaring me to death though... I so hope this goes well. I really need a drink!