The Crappy Feelings Thread (HOTLINES in first post)

[umgaynow]

Why does my mother have to be such a world champion colossal bitch????

[Dorothy]

*shrug* cause that's what mothers do, sorry
Want me to go all Halfrek on her ass?

[MelCar19]

I finally get to sleep after a night of coughing and sneezing and someone let the dog outside to go to the bathroom, and fell asleep... I'm tired of being the one who is woken up and has to bring her in! Now I'm tired and cranky and I suppose I should try going back to sleep

[Dorothy]

I'm not here,
detatched from the world,
not feeling a thing
trapped in anger and fear

untill someone makes it real,
makes me a person,
gives me a hug and says;
"I care about you"
not to my face,
but to my heart
Where I can believe.

[MelCar19]

I can already tell that this will be another sleepless night =/

[JustSkipIt]

I don't know if this qualifies as crappy, maybe crummy.

I got pulled over by a cop and got a ticket yesterday. It was for an expired inspection sticker and the inspection was more than a month out of date. Well, ok the cop said I could just get it inspected and make the ticket go away. Her quote: "it will be like we never met."

So, $28.75 for the inspection. And I need new tires on the front wheels so a few hundred bucks there. And it's $20 to dismiss the ticket it turns out.

Boo hiss.

[Kessari]

Bloody hell, this headache gets worse and worse. Had it since I landed back in Germany on Friday night... Worst thing is, I'm not allowed to take any Aspirin and my other painkillers just won't work. *sniffs*

[CrazyTaraWitch]

A little over a year ago, when I was 18, in my last semester of high school, and had never had a proper job, I sliced my finger and had to go to the ER. My parents at the time were still paying for my medical bills, and my mom thought she'd taken care of it. Then a few months later, still before I had a job, I got a letter saying there was an unsettled balance related to my trip to the hospital. I showed the letter to my mom, she said she'd figure it out and take care of it, and I pretty much forgot the matter. Today I found a letter dated 8 months ago from a debt collection agency saying I still owe the money, but don't have to pay all of it--if I pay by November 13th 2008. Since I didn't get the letter until way past the deadline, I not only owe the full amount but I'm also worried my credit's shot. I've never had any sort of credit before, good or bad, and this is not how I would've wanted to start.
Grumble grumble grumble.

[Dorothy]

I dont enjoy drinking anymore :(
It just doesn't feel as good as it used to.

also; my stomach's all acidy this morning

[Kessari]

So much to do and I should probably already be on my way to hospital... I just feel all sick and don't want to go. Wanna cry, curl up in bed and hide from it all, but nooooo I have to be responsible and an adult and just swallow my pride and get over it. I really don't want to though!

[Dorothy]

awww *hugs* I'll be thinking of you *hug*

[CrazyTaraWitch]

She's scared and I can't do anything to make it better. I miss her already, and I won't be able to talk to her for two weeks.
I shouldn't feel lonely and sad just because someone I've only known for a few weeks, and online at that, is gone for a little while...But I miss her, and I hate knowing she's scared :(

[JustSkipIt]

I just kind of feel crappy today. I don't have a good reason or a good enough reason but I'm just blah and angry. I'm not sure why but I want to snap out of it but I just haven't. I'm working at home and need to get some stuff done before watching the kids while my wife works tonight. But arggghhh!

[kisstheviolets]

i feel about as shitty as one human can feel.

i've been really testy and edgy for the past couple of weeks, very quick to anger which is strange and unsettling because i'm usually fairly laid-back. the other night i was half-asleep and my girlfriend asked me to put her computer on the desk. i was grumpy and said "i'm not getting up. you do it. and take care of this while you're at it..." and handed her the almost empty water bottle we keep by the bed. well, being the playful little shit that she is and not realizing how cranky i was, she proceeded to sprinkle some of the remaining bit of water on me. i got pissed, stood up and took my wet shirt off and then felt the rest of the water hit my back. i didn't have time to think or anything, i just felt crazy head-melting rage and grabbed the water bottle and chucked it right at her (i didn't have my glasses on and it was dark, but apparently my non-aim was spot on). she put her hands in front of her face and deflected it but the look on her face when she turned the light on to grab a pillow and a blanket (to head to the couch) was probably just as bad as if i'd punched her with my fist. it was horrifying and probably the worst thing i've ever done. i don't know what happened.

we had a big talk the next morning and she said she wasn't actually as upset about the throwing since she's kind of a thrower too with a very bad temper (but she asked that next time i not throw something in her general direction) but was mostly frightened by the raging hateful look on my face that just came out of nowhere. i feel terrible. i don't do things like that. i love this person and yet i made her afraid of me, if even only briefly. how do you deal with a temper problem you didn't even know you had?!

just needed to get this off of my chest. feel free to chastise me. i deserve it.

[Kessari]

Dear God, I just talked to my doc and he said that if we had waited one more week he would not have been able toperform surgery... It hurts like a bitch and I'm close to having a panic attack... When did I become such a whimp?

[Dorothy]

*hugs and sends magically perfect painkillers*

my crappy;
My friends, best friends kinda, at least that's what I used to think... one of them asked me to go to a themepark yesterday if she had the day off, so I woke up on time, waited till she had word about her job, asked her if she had the day off...

Then she said she felt like Duinrell, but not like traveling there, so I suggested a theatre festival, a drink, the beach...

She said she didn't know what she wanted to do so I said "if you can't choose, I'll kidnap you to the beach... eh, if you wanna and feel like going with me and all, damn, I suck at kidnapping here "

She said she didn't know yet so I said "I mean, if you wanna do something and with me and all then count me in ok?"

She said ok and now, like half an hour later, I read a tweet of the other best friend that she's going to the hague with friend #1... I feel SO fucked up, they're probably gossipping about me, friend #1 is probably explaining to friend #2 why she didn't want to invite me too and...

I just wish they said it to my face, this not being sure makes it even worse and I just wanna die :(

[CrazyTaraWitch]

Worrying about her like crazy...

[Taralover]

My latest roleplay online has messed up, and it was so good at first.

[Kessari]

I feel like I gonna die...
If I don't accept this treatment now I will end up in ICU they said... I don't want to though evev though I know it will help me. What if it goes wrong? What about us?

I will do this, but it feels like a part of me just died.

[Nue]

I´m really worried about Kessari... I hate doctors and their treatments ¬¬

[CrazyTaraWitch]

There might be a better position at my work that I want to apply for, but I'm scared of the rejection. I think it would be a long shot for me to get the job, especially if it's with the older kids, and I don't know if I can get over the fear enough to even try, but I also know if I don't try I'll probably be mad at myself.

[love_2003]

Summer school is over by August 1st and I already know these last 2weeks are going to make me feel crappy. I'm worried I wont get enough hours at my internship site. I've started to realize that when I get really stressed out I start to have a "don't care" attitude. I can already start to feel it coming. I usually listen to music to help me distress but it hasn't been working lately. I just need to make it to August 1st and then I will have a couple weeks off until fall semester starts August 24th.

[Belli Bear]

My girlfriend and I just bought the new Buffy game on DS only to find out it is (in our opinion) amazingly shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit so typical.

[Nue]

having a massive crisis... great day to start my week... I´m so not ready for this ¬¬

[Taralover]

One of the websites I really like going to, broke. It might be fixed in hours or it might take months.

[MelCar19]

Was in a really bad mood all day and now I'm just really depressed... Just kind of feel worthless to the people around me and kind of wish I wasn't me...

Think I'm just gonna head off to bed early, well it's early for me 12AM

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I just talked to my best friend for the first time in a couple weeks and she's really stressed and down and I feel like a bad friend. She's been planning to move to another city, but both her potential roommates fell through, and I had told her I would maybe move with her but then decided not to cause I want to save money and have the slight potential for a better job here. I feel awful cause I got her hopes up and now she doesn't have anyone and may not be able to move cause she might not be able to afford a place on her own.
This part is stupid and I know it, but I also feel guilty cause she's so miserable and I'm so happy.

[Nue]

feeling so depressed... my head hurts, my chest hurts, I can hear my soul crying...

[Taralover]

My computer is acting stupid again and as far as I know, the broken site is still broken.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

My dad called to ask me to have dinner at his house tomorrow and I didn't really want to but my sister's usually there on wednesdays so I said yes cause I miss her and I have things I want to tell her and questions I want to ask her. Then as soon as I agreed to go he told me she probably wouldn't be there and now I'm grumpy cause I don't want to go and I feel like he tricked me (cause even if he'd never say it he *knows* she's the main reason I spend time there when I do, and the way he didn't mention her absence until I'd said yes makes me feel like he cheated somehow).