The Crappy Feelings Thread (HOTLINES in first post)

[KiWy]

*hugs Juju* yup, thought just the same when i read the news, those old bastards won't ever change, they're mammoths i swear. And that was part of my crappy feelings today too.
Others are that my day, all in all, was crap, and I've got a very annoying headache...

[SickSadGirl]

I've been feeling better. I'm getting things done and have motivation. I actually care about what's happening in my life again, and care about the people around me. But, last night I just wanted to get away from my friends. All they did was argue and tell me how much of a bad friend I've been. I know I'm not the best person in the world, but I don't need them shoving it in my face everytime I see them. I am trying.

[Laragh]

I pulled a muscle in my arm :( Not even doing anything fun!

[CrazyTaraWitch]

Tomorrow is one of those dates I just wish I could skip... I know dates shouldn't matter, but I think about them and they bog me down; tomorrow's a big one and it's causing me to notice how much is missing from my life at the moment.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I got my computer last April, and I already had to replace the charger in October, and now charger number 2 is having lots of trouble and will probably break soon. I so can't afford to get a new one :(

[KiWy]

The icy cold makes all my body hurt. My muscles are always tense whenever I get outside, and then hurt all day long. I hate this weather...

[The Best Name On The Site]

I feel disconnected from everyone I know personally. I get along fine with people on the internet but face-to-face or on the phone, I just find myself drowning.

I'm still in high school, but I'm not being bullied, I'm not being ignored. I have friends that like me, that think I'm interesting and funny, I have teachers that care about me, but it's like the more I try to get to know them, the more I feel like I'm just wasting my time. I know I'm supposed to be in that stage where I'm a social butterfly or whatever, but I find myself making excuses to not go out and all I want to do is go to my room and sleep or write. I even wear headphones so no one bothers me.

Being with my family is even worse. I try to bond, try to talk with them and know them beyond, "Oh, hey that's my sister. We shared a uterus." I just can't open up.

And it's not like I have good days, where I'm happy to hang out and kick my feet up on someone's couch and talk with their mother. It's like everyday is the same and time just drags on and I can't move with it.

And now I feel even worse because I clicked new topic by accident and created an accidental new topic. I hope the mods fix it soon.

[Ariel]

Hi everyone,

For me it's about exhaustion. Being tired and not having time to get it all done. I often pull into a parking lot, set my phone clock and sleep for 20 - 40 minutes once a day because there's too much work and not enough people. I do the KB, even though it's a lot of time, because it feels so good to be part of this community and it's so great to write for so many supportive, funny, amazing people.

BEST NAME ON THE SITE:
Hang in there, girlfriend. Some amount of alienation is normal but alot may be a sign to talk with someone. I'm not an expert, just a concerned kitten who likes your writing. But think about sharing your feelings, if you can. I've definitely appreciated help from friends and a counselor. Take care.

[KiWy]

When that girl i hang out with in my class starts making racist puns, even jokingly, but still does it, in front of me, making comments to me with the words that hurt, and using the word "war" telling me stuff...I hate it, because she has no clue what she's talking about, and because it hurts deep inside.

[JustSkipIt]

So its a snow day which is sort of cool. But my work is so weird.yesterday they sent a note saying bad weather was expected and basically to either use leave or work from home.so I got up at five and started working. Then the office said it would open at ten. Then they said it was closed.but they didn't say if we get the time off.if so, I've worked for hours and won't get credit.if not I'll have to take four hours leave.plus I'm waiting for the roads to clear enough that I can go t to the gym to run.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I'm paid by the hour, and thanks to snow today, finishing early Tuesday, blackouts making busses run late Wednesday, and hitting my head yesterday I missed nearly 10 hours of work this week :( My paycheck is going to seem very small...

[vazy]

Well yay vent-y fun!

Basically a couple of years ago I met my best friend, at the time I hardly knew her but she liked the same stuff than me and was funny. But then around Christmas she told me about her depression. And so I listened to her and helped her out through it. Then in about March she starts selfharming and talking about commiting suicide. I still kept at it I spent most nights sitting up texting her until ridiculous 'o clock in the morning. We got through it together. And because of it ended up being close. Despite the fact she had many mental breakdowns and refused to talk to anyone but me about them. She still has them which she ends up screaming at me telling me she hates me and that half the shit that happens to her is my fault and that I'm a bad person. It hurts so bad when she says stuff like that but I try to keep at it helping her. Usually if I leave her she says sorry and that she didn't mean it and it won't happen again, and I forgive her 'cause well she's her. But it happens again and again. And I really don't know how much more I can take.

Jeez way big rant

[nightmask]

I have to wake up at 5 tomorrow in order to be ready for my bus, but I can't sleep because I have chills running down my back (the kind you get when you feel sick) and my neck aches really badly ;.; I just wanna sleep and stop feeling so cold! >.<

[KiWy]

I got home 2h30 late tonight, thanks to my mother's awesome clients who spent 3 hours deciding for a yes or no question...yay

[Silent_X]

I am usually an industrious girl. I even like work most of the time because it gives me an immediate purpose. But lately I've been going through a down time and I've lost my drive to work hard. All I want to do is curl up and go to sleep. And with some issues regarding my mom's job I'm trying to help out there in addition to my schoolwork, which starting to really pile up on me. It seems like big clusters of days all attack me at once and I can't or won't formulate a plan anymore. I hope this phase goes away soon. I hate letting people down and I'm so used to being able to cope that this is really messing with me.

[Nue]

my best friend needed me today and I couldn´t be there for her... because I'm so insanely tired, I can´t think of anything but sleep...

[KiWy]

won't be able to talk to or see my girl for 3 days from now..sucks..

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I left my hat on a bus. My hat keeps me warm, no hat = cold Jas :(

[Laragh]

Microsoft word just changed every instance of the word 'Willow' to 'Tara' in my story. My fic now reads like Tara's having some kind of insane hallucinatory relationship with herself.

This should be fun to fix -_-

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I'd forgotten about our word. I found myself using it in the traditional way just now and... suddenly I remembered what it used to mean. I always think I'm better, 99% over it, and then something like this happens and I miss her again. We've been apart now longer than we were together, I shouldn't miss her anymore. Most of the time I really am okay, and despite lots of complaining and uncertainty my life's actually going fairly well right now, but then there are moments like this and I wonder if the pain will ever completely go away.

[EasierSaid]

For the first time in two weeks the puppy and baby are asleep at the same time, and I am too sick and exhausted to actually take advantage and do something I want to do (like write or read). Boooooooo....

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I should feel something. I'm supposed to feel *something*. My brain knows how my heart ought to feel, tries to tell the rest of me that I'm hurt and betrayed and angry and sad and maybe even a little hateful, but I don't feel any of it. I feel empty.

[vazy]

Yeah so my closest friends have stood me up again. Fun.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

Sucks to be erased.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I think I only made a B, or maybe even C, on my test today, and I really need to make an A in this class :( If I made a B it's still redeemable, but a C will be very hard to bring up.

[vazy]

Due to the fact I didn't want to take my art into school in the rain and wind, despite its plastic wallet, and my sketchbook has been dubbed 'boring' by my art teacher, she's threatening me with subject report. And I love art and 'm fairly good at it. This sucks.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I've been on antibiotics for over a week now and I'm still half-sick :(

[Nue]

I don´t have time to write anymore... my life is a HUGE mess right now, and my writer´s block is hurting my head...

besides, I´m on meds again, so I´m not feeling myself lately...

[KiWy]

I need her right now, cause I'm feeling horribly down... and of course that's right when she can't be here tonight. yay

[Kessari]

I think I just re-re-broke my toes... *cries*