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FIC: Road to Nowhere

Postby CaptMurdock » Sat Mar 23, 2002 12:38 pm

Spoilers: "The Gift"

Distribution: Just ask. I'll probably say yes.

Disclaimer: The usual stuff about Joss, Mutant Enemy, Sand Dollar productions, UPN, the San Pedro Beach Bums…just seeing if your paying attention.

Feedback: I have greatly appreciated the feedback I've gotten so far. This one I'm taking a little longer to write, as even Mrs. CaptMurdock, loyal literary critic that she is, has intimated that my previous stories were a little abrupt. So be it. You've been warned.

Notes: This takes place a few weeks after the events of "The Gift." This is a multi-part story, so check back here for more story after a few days.

Summary: Willow and Tara decide to take a vacation up north, though Willow has an ulterior motive…

Rating: PG-13 for "spicy talk," as opposed to "potty mouth."

Road to Nowhere.





Willow waited almost two hours after her last exam for Tara, in the dorm room that was ostensibly Willow's but that they really both lived in. This situation was rendered more permanent, as Tara's dorm room now had a rather alfresco feeling, thanks to a now-departed hellgod with superhuman strength and Lee Press-On nails.



The blonde witch finally walked in, shoulder bag full of books weighing her down a bit more than usual, frown lines starting to etch themselves permanently in her face. Tara threw down her book bag and threw herself on the bed beside Willow, who was reading A Wrinkle in Time. She blew out her breath through pursed lips, ending with a growl in her throat.



Oh boy. Willow looked up from her book. This can't be good. She cleared her throat ostentatiously and asked in her cheeriest tone, "How did your Lit final go?"



"It went lousy!" Tara almost shouted back, not even looking at Willow. The redhead actually jumped a bit. The slight motion on the bed was enough to alert Tara that she might have crossed a line here or there. She turned slowly with as contrite an expression as she could manage. "D-did I just s-snap at you?"



Willow was not really mad at Tara, but felt that a little mock-sternness was in order. "Yes. You did. How could you?" Then she saw Tara blanch and couldn't keep the pretense up any longer. "I'm kidding, I'm kidding. Don't join a convent, okay? I take it the final didn't go well."



"I don't know. Maybe. My brain is so fried I think I could mistake Flaubert and Bronte, and they didn't even write in the same language!"



"Which Bronte?"



"Any Bronte. I could go for two weeks without reading anything deeper than Calvin & Hobbes." Both girls, in the wake of the Glory situation and Buffy Summers' funeral, had been involved in a hodge-podge of make-up classes, lab work and exams. Fortunately, the college administration had bought into the 'drug-cult' cover story, including Tara's 'forced ingestion of psychotropic substances' by 'escaped mental patients.' That, plus the administration's sympathy over their friend's tragic 'suicide,' had enabled the rules to be bent enough so that the girls would not lose their GPAs, if they could make up the work within a horrendously short time.



"B-Buffy gives her life to save the world, but does that cut us any slack?" Tara had asked once during an all-nighter. "Shouldn't we get, like, I dunno, automatic passing grades because our friend…uh…"



Willow jumped in before she could finish that sentence. "I caught that movie on cable. Total stinkburger. I would've walked out on that one if I saw it on an airplane."



"Huh?"



"Dead Man on Campus. Way bad movie."



Now Tara flopped over onto her stomach, burying her head under her arms and letting out a pathetic kill-me-now moan. Willow put her book on the nightstand and crawled over to straddle her girlfriend's hips. "Oh, my poor baby," the redhead exclaimed. "Let Willow Rosenberg, M.D., see what can be done." She started rubbing Tara's shoulders. "Very tight there. Indicative of stress and other bad things."



"'M.D.', huh?" Tara replied, putting arms under her head. "I didn't know you were even pre-med….oooooohhh," she moaned as Willow's fingers kneaded her shoulder blade area.



"Of course. M.D. stands for Doctor of Massages." She chuckled.



"Mmmm. Willowhand – The Best Medicine," the blonde replied dreamily. Willow didn't say anything in return, but lifted Tara's shirt to rub the fair skin underneath. Tara shivered at her girlfriend's touch, which moved up and down her back, interrupted only by the elastic brassiere strap. Willow, however, was not in a patient mood, so her fingers soon diverted to the hooks holding the bra in place. This did not go unnoticed. "Oh, now, I see your evil plan. Get me in a, a helpless position and then ravish me." Tara rolled partially onto her side – carefully, as to not throw Willow on the floor beside the bed – and looked at her lover, blue eyes boring into green, her trademark lopsided grin growing into a full-blown sexy smile that made her nose crinkle in that way that made Willow's knees weak.



Willow leaned down to kiss Tara, what Spike would have called a full-blown snog instead of the usual peck, then broke it off and got out of bed. This earned her a patented Tara-Pout, which with her full lips was quite impressive. The slim redhead turned and smiled at her lover. "I have a surprise for you."



Tara tilted her head down and gazed upward, her eyebrows peaked, her best Sultry Look. "Umm…does this involve chocolate, or things that make interesting buzzing noises?"



"Neither…although that's not a bad combination to try on a future date, that I haven't planned yet, but you can rest assured I will, missy. No, actually, what with our finishing up our finals, I say we've earned ourselves a little vacation."



Tara sat up, a startled expression. "V-vacation?"



"Sure, why not?" Willow responded. "Get out of Dodge for a week. Hey, even Marshall Dylan must've taken some R&R some time or other. We just missed that episode, or they may not have put it in syndication for some reason. Old TV shows, that happens sometimes."



Tara rolled her eyes. "That's it. I'm cutting you off from TV Land marathons. You have a Rerun Monkey on your back!"



Willow put her hands on her hips in mock outrage. "This coming from the woman who stayed up all night for a Bewitched marathon!"



Tara shrugged. "That was different. That was, uh, business." She waggled her fingers in a circle around the room, indicating various Wiccan objects and by extension their shared lifestyle. "Y'know…business."



"Learning to wiggle your nose like Samantha Stevens does not qualify as 'business!'" By way of answer, Tara attempted the famous nose wiggle, failing to make more than her mouth and chin move side to side.



She stood up and walked over to Willow. "So, uh, where do you have in mind for our 'vacation?' London? Paris? Vienna?" She paused for a second, then blurted out "Burbank!" with a grin.



"Nope!" Willow responded with a grin of her own. She snatched some papers off the desk next to her PowerBook. "Santa Cruz!" she said, displaying several printed web pages of geographical and municipal information.



"Santa Cruz?" Tara said, her brow wrinkling as she scanned the pages Willow was thrusting almost under her nose. "Isn't that some hippie/New Age/mystic/surfer hangout up near the Bay Area?"



Willow chuckled. "Yeah, you'll so stick out like a sore thumb there, won't you? But it's also a bedroom community for Silicon Valley…"



"Ohhhhh," the blonde Wiccan interjected. "I think I get it. This is your big chance to visit Apple Computer. A pilgrimage to your Holy Land."



"OK, kinda busted on that one. But Santa Cruz has a boardwalk, and beaches and forests with real trees –"



"Something we never see here in Sunnydale," Tara said, smiling.



Willow rolled her eyes. The enthusiasm that she had hoped for from Tara was taking its time coming. "Well, there's also the Winchester Mystery House in San Jose, just up the road."



Tara's eyes widened. "You mean that big house owned by a crazy rich lady who kept adding onto it, with the doors that lead to nowhere, and stairs that just up to the ceiling, and…"



"Yeah! Oh, come on, Tara, it'll be fun! And, we can, like, have some Alone Time together. We really haven't since…you know." Buffy Summers funeral was three weeks in the past, and still Willow could barely bring herself to mention her deceased best friend. "I mean, all we've done for three weeks is college catch-up work, with the occasionally Scoobie mission as a kind of snack. Oh – Scoobie snacks!" They laughed at Willow's dumb pun.



"Willow," Tara said, stifling her laughter with an effort, "how are we supposed to pay for this?"



"Already taken care of, courtesy of the Sheila Rosenberg Foundation," Willow said, beaming.



"Oh, Willow, you shouldn't impose on your moth—Waitaminnit. You've already paid for this? You set this up already? Willow, why didn't you ask me if I wanted to take off for a week?" Tara crossed her arms and glared, perhaps a bit more harshly than she truly intended.



Willow looked contrite and sad, like whenever one of her ideas was shot down. "I thought you might like to get away from it all for a week. With your bad case of Finals Burnout, I thought you'd appreciate this." Willow sat down in the chair next to the desk, her head hanging low. Tara sighed and squatted down, lifting her girlfriend's chin to look in her eyes.



"Sweetie, I do appreciate it. Really. I just think…I want to be asked, okay?" The redhead nodded without saying anything. "And, I think, we should, you know, make sure Giles and the others are okay with this first."



Willow swung away from Tara and stood up, an irritated grunt escaping her. After several seconds, during which Tara also stood, Willow turned around, her expression dark. "Y'know, I would like to have a relationship with you, that does not involve six constant companions!" A pause for mental recalculation. "Five. Five constant companions. I mean, what do they need us for anyway? Besides the spells and stuff, which, I'm sure, Giles and Anya, between the two of them, can handle most of that stuff anyway. Giles is much better now that he's out of "Lost In Space Weekend" mode. Dawn, she's doing better, going to summer school, gotten back into that good ol' Summers Work Ethic." She smiled. "Xander and Anya are busy planning the Wedding O' The Century, when they aren't busy…well, you know what busy beavers they are doing that stuff, and could I have picked a less appropriate animal metaphor there?" Tara giggled. "And Spike is…well, Spike is Spike. Nuff said." Willow then gave her pouty-lip and puppy-eyes a workout. "Can't we just go away? I think they can manage without us." Blink. "For a week."



Tara smiled. "Okay, you talked me into it. Not that you really, really had to. I take you've already figured out our transportation and accommodations and stuff?"



"Yeah! We take the train up, rent a car from the local Avis, and I got us a room at the Brookdale Lodge. It sounds great from the web page! It's got a restaurant that has a creek running right through the middle of it!"



Tara blinked a little at that. "That might put a damper on dessert. But I'm sure it's fine. Speaking of damp, I need a shower in the worst way."



Willow sauntered saucily up to her girlfriend and wrapped her arms around her midriff. "Mmmm. Want some company in there? Showers can be hazardous places. Never hurts to have a shower buddy with ya."



"Well, it does when the shower buddy uses all the shampoo." Over Willow's indignant expression, Tara smiled and pecked her on the lips. "But it's worth it with you." She gave Willow a squeeze, then disengaged herself to get her robe, hanging on a hook on the bathroom door next to Willow's. "Coming?"



"Right behind you," Willow said, slapping Tara playfully on the rump as she went into the bathroom. After the door closed, Willow went to check on the documents that were tucked discretely under her laptop.



One set of pages was the procedure of transferring academic credits to the University of California, Santa Cruz. Two other sets were college transcripts, labeled ROSENBERG, WILLOW D. and MACLAY, TARA J. The last set was selections from an apartment-rentals search engine, for Santa Cruz, California.



Satisfied that everything was in place, Willow slipped the papers into her laptop carrier, and went to join Tara, who hopefully wouldn't use all the shampoo, just because she had longer hair.



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Spedoinkle! Does Willow have a plan involving their transcripts and UC Santa Cruz? Will Tara discover the dastardly scheme of her True Love? Is this the end of Little Rico? (Wait. Sorry. Wrong movie.) See what happens in the next exciting (or, at least, mildly interesting) chapter.



Oh, by the way, after watching the rerun of "The Body," that Willow's dorm room has a door that suspiciously looks like a bathroom door. It's got a robe hanging on it, and we know it's not the closet.



Road to Nowhere

Part 2



"We're on a road to nowhere

Come on inside

Takin' that ride to nowhere

We'll take that ride"



"I'm feelin' okay this mornin'

And you know,

We're on the road to paradise

Here we go, here we go"



"Allmmost theeerrre," Tara drawled with a distinct Star Wars rebel-pilot-attacking-the-Death-Star inflection, driving their rented Mercury Grand Marquis (they had actually reserved a Sable, but luck had given them a free upgrade, so the two vacationing wiccans were stylin').



"Stay On Target," Willow answered back, riding shotgun and clutching her MapQuest direction pages. The road they were on was lined with more trees than Willow had ever seen in her life. Total Forest Primeval. She now had to take back some of the more nasty thoughts she had expressed about those kids in The Blair Witch Project ("How the hell can you get lost less than two hours from civilization? Hello, cell phones, anyone?") Looking at the immense screen of trees whipping past their car, impeding the view more than ten yards out of the window, she had to admit that she would not want to get lost out there without a Boy Scout troop, a fully-equipped tank and a satellite uplink.



"Isn't it gorgeous up here?" Willow said, hiding her nervousness behind a cheery demeanor. "All natural, and non-citified, and untouched by the hand of man. Well, except for the paved road, and the quite-helpful signs pointing in the right directions..."



Tara smiled and took her right hand off the wheel to pat Willow's knee. "Honey, you're so City Girl. I would think you would go nuts out here in the sticks. Y'know, w-where Starbucks fears to tread. If you don't have access to at least three different types of psuedo-coffee, you go nuts."



Willow smiled tightly. "You never know, I might surprise you."



"Continuously. Oh, I think this is it!" Tara turned into the driveway of the Brookdale Lodge. It turned out to be a large group of one-story buildings, the front facade having a kind of turn-of-the-century feeling. Tara parked the Grand Marquis near what looked to be the entrance to the registration area and turned off the engine. "Here at last."



"Here at last," echoed Willow. The two girls looked at one another, and, as one, cried, "Thank God Almighty, here at last!" They kissed in a chorus of giggles, then popped open doors and climbed out of the Marquis.



"Ohhh...legs!" Willow exclaimed, stiff from being in the car immediately after getting off the train, four hours from Sunnydale. Tara, having recently renewed her license by mail, had driven the rented car from the Avis stand to Brookdale, a small community inland from Santa Cruz. The blonde stretched out her long, skirt-clad legs, silently thanking the gods for cruise control.



"It's really nice here. Reminds me of home." The blonde noticed her girlfriend's reaction, understandable given her reaction to Tara's family. "In a...in a good way. The place I grew up looked something like this."



"Oh," Willow replied, retrieving her purse and various papers scattered on the dashboard. "So, you think you could feel at home in a place like this?"



Tara blinked. "Think I just said something like that, didn't I? I-I mean, not to stay or anything, right?"



"Right-right-right," Willow agreed, nodding vigorously. "Just being my weirdly inquisitive self. Let's go in and get bunked down. Getting late, and tomorrow 's Lotsa-Stuff-to-See-Day."



"Willow, we have five days. Let's pace ourselves."



The lobby of the lodge was quaint, small and almost people-free. Willow rang the small bell for almost half a minute before the deskman apologetically showed up to confirm their reservation. Tara amused herself with the antiques on display around the lobby, including an old operator switchboard like those she had seen in old movies and Laugh-In reruns. "One ringy-dingy," she whispered, holding an imaginary headset to her head.



What did you say?



Tara started, thinking someone had spotted her being goofy. Turning around, she saw that no one was there.



She turned back to where the deskman was looking at Willow's confirmation printout. The redhead was chatting with him amiably, and did not seem to have recently directed a comment at Tara. Besides, the voice did not sound at all like Willow. Way too young, for one thing.



Tara walked down the corridor leading off the lobby towards the restaurant, now closed. There was a bar open, that a brief glance told her was also empty. Interestingly, the lodge's swimming pool was adjacent to the bar, where a large glass window gave any prospective elbow-benders a view at any swimmers in the pool. Tara smiled at the thought of what Willow might think of being spied upon whilst taking a dip.



Quite suddenly, she had the feeling she was not alone in the room. She glanced behind her -- nothing. Still, a small hiccup of sound, like the echo of a footstep, came to her ears. It seemed to come from the closed restaurant. She stepped towards the French doors, through which she could hear the rushing water of the creek Willow had mentioned before. Maybe that was what she had heard.



Somehow she did not hear the footsteps until it was too late, and the hand dropped on her shoulder...



"Whatcha doin' sweetie?" Willow chirped as Tara, avoiding coronary thrombosis by the slimmest of margins, turned around to face her.



"Wh-wh-wha -- I-I thought I h-heard someone. S-someone over here. I-in there," she blurted, pointing towards the restaurant.



"Did you find anyone?"



"N-no. There doesn't seem to be..."



Willow instantly snapped into Scooby Mode. "Trouble?" she asked.



Tara shook her head. "I don't think so. Look, I'm beat from the train and driving. No need, y'know, to go to Purple Alert."



Willow shrugged. "If you say so. I got the key," she said (and it was an actual key, not those electronic cards that hotels everywhere were using.) "Let's see what we got." As they walked towards the car, something occurred to Willow. "Purple Alert? What's that?"



"W-well, you said we needed different alerts for different grades of emergency," Tara said brightly.



"Yeah, but purple? Now that's just plain silly. Purple is not an 'alert' color. More like a 'hey, everybody, something neat-o is happening' color."



****



As it turned it, the room was pretty nice. Besides the huge bed, there was decent closet space, a small kitchenette, a nice view of the mountains, and, best of all, an extra-large circular bathtub, which the girls just had to try out.



"Sweetie, it's not that I mind doing this," Tara said as she gently glided the Gillette razor down Willow's shaving-cream-covered leg, "b-but wouldn't it be easier to use Nair or something like that?" The two wiccans sat in the bathtub on opposite sides, Willow's left leg up where Tara could shave it. She carefully manuevered the razor around the slender ankle, then swished the razor around in the warm water which filled the tub two-thirds full. "There. All done."



"Thank ye, gracious lady," Willow replied in a posh accent. "No, I tried one of those on Buffy's..." she slowed down a bit, then continued with resolve: "...on Buffy's advice, and all I can say was: YEOW!"



Tara raised her eyebrows. "Did it b-burn you?"



Willow nodded. "I thought at that moment, I had solved the mystery of spontaneous human combustion."



Tara laughed. She picked up the large can of Barbasol shaving cream sitting on the side of the tub. "Isn't this the brand they used in Jurassic Park?"



"You got it. Gives you a smooth, close shave, and it's excellent for transporting stolen dinosaur embryos!"



Tara laughed again. When she stopped, she got a sly look on her face, then leaned forward towards her lover, shaving cream can in hand. She depressed the button and aimed the spout at Willow's chest.



The redhead looked nonplussed as her girlfriend manuevered the can over her chest, like a gangbanger tagging a wall with graffitti. "Tara, may I ask what you think you're doing?"



Tara drew a circle on Willow's chest. It wasn't a perfect circle as Willow's small but perky breasts spoiled the symmetry, but Tara liked it anyway. She added two dots near the top of the circle and a small curve near the bottom. "I'm making a happy face!" she announced brightly when she was done. She giggled at the amazed expression on Willow's face.



However, Willow was nothing if not quick to recover. In her sweetest voice, she asked "May I?" with an outstretched hand. Tara dutifully, if not prudently, passed over the can. Willow began to squirt shaving cream onto her hand, taking great pains to look as if she was trying to create a difficult design. Despite herself, Tara actually tried to guess what Willow might be attempting to draw, even thought a lot of cream was ending up in Willow's hand. "There!" She proudly held up her hand upon which a small mountain of shaving cream sat.



Tara asked, "What is it supposed to be?" leaning forward before the first hint that this might be a setup crossed her brain. Her world went briefly white before her blink reflex kicked in, as Willow quickly nailed her in the face with shaving cream.



Willow giggled naughtily, as she watched her girlfriend, looking as if she had just stepped into a Three Stooges short, carefully wipe shaving cream from her eyes. Blue orbs blazed as Tara fought to keep the laughter that threatened to spill out inside. She ostentatiously blew air from her mouth, clearing a way through the white stuff covering that portion of her face, and said, "Death is far too good for you!"



Willow shrieked as Tara made a grab for the shaving cream can. She managed to use her legs to pin Tara to the other side of the tub, keeping her hands from snagging the can, while Willow held the can as far away from Tara as possible...



...which turned out to be a tactical mistake, as Tara noticed, in between struggles against Willow's legs, that the shaving cream can was upside down and pointed directly at Willow's head. Time for a little magic, I think, and ethics can take a holiday! She concentrated on the red plastic button on the can that incorporated the spout, and mentally invoked a relatively minor spell.



Willow's first indication of something amiss was when the plastic doodad hit the top of her head and bounced onto the floor. She looked up at exactly the wrong time. "What the heAAAARRLLLLPP!" she said as the contents of the can delivered themselves under pressure onto Willow's head. Her features quickly disappeared under the onslaught of shaving cream.



Tara's squeal of triumph lasted only until Willow had the presence of mind to turn the can on her. "Will--NOOOOO!" she screamed as streams of white covered her face, hair and body.



The two struggled until the can was spent, leaving them looking like two shapely snowwomen and the bathtub looking like an extra-large cream pie. They laughed and got onto their knees, hugging one another and trying to clear each others faces without much success. Gradually, they discovered that in this situation, with the shaving cream on their bodies heightening every sensation, that they didn't really need eyes. Just hands.



Fifteen minutes later, washed off as well as they could be, they rested against one another, completely spent and satiated. They surveyed the incredible mess around the bathroom, then in perfect wordless communication, mutually decided that it had been worth it.



"Th-that was intense," Tara finally said, breaking the companionable silence.



"Yeah," Willow said. "I'd like to see Xander and Anya top this." At her girlfriend's bemused expression, she amended herself. "No, I don't mean I want to see them do anything like this. I don't want to see them do anything more intimate than holding hands and making goo-goo eyes at each other. Even that's kinda sick-making."



"What, we make goo-goo eyes at each other," Tara countered, locating the shampoo bottle and preparing to give herself a good lathering.



"Yeah. But when we do it -- Major Cuteness ensues."



****



Yes, lots of cuteness in this chapter. I guarentee a little more angst in upcoming segments.



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Road to Nowhere, Part 3



As it turned out, the bathtub incident was but a prelude to an intense evening for Willow and Tara. In contrast to the almost frenzied sex they had performed on one another while covered in shaving cream, the next several hours in bed were spent in quiet, almost prayerful communion upon one another, until they were both exhausted enough to fall asleep.



Some hours later, Willow woke from a very strange but somehow amusing dream of Spike in a karaoke bar full of demons, singing "House of the Rising Sun" to a mortified Buffy. Stirring slightly, she noted that it was still dark out, and she was still spooned up against Tara, her bare chest against Tara's bare back, her loins against Tara's warm bottom. Willow was wondering what could have woken her up when she felt Tara stiffen, then shudder.



"Mmmh…n-n-no…noooo," Tara moaned. Willow started, then responded by wrapping her arm around Tara's waist. She wondered what particular nightmare her girlfriend might be having…



"No, I d-didn't…stop, that hurts!" Tara almost shouted. Her right hand shot out from under the covers, the hand that Tara still had use a squeezy-ball as part of her rehabilitative therapy. The hand Glory crushed as part of her attempt to find the Key. Now Tara was shaking it back and forth as if it was in the grip of an invisible monster. "P-p-please…no…don't d-d-do that to..."



"Shhh…baby, shhhh…you're okay, you're safe, I love you," Willow whispered, trying to calm her while in the verge of tears herself. "Oh, God, Tara, you're okay, it's over," she whispered, trying to brush the hair from Tara's eyes.



As Willow's fingers touched her temple, Tara reacted as if a live electric wire had jabbed her. She flailed about, throwing the covers off herself and Willow, crying out inarticulately. Willow flashed back to those horrible nights when Tara was brain-sucked, when she had to use the restraints the hospital provided ostensibly for her "comfort."



Restraints. Such a nice euphemism for straightjacket. Or, as Xander had put so wonderfully after driving the two of them to the dorm, "the ol' wrap-around canvas tuxedo." Willow hadn't come that close to punching his lights out since he blithely announced he had slept with Faith.



Finally, Willow was able to wrap both arms around her, simultaneously whispering, "Tara, it's Willow, please be with me, I love you."



Tara's breathing became slower, deeper, as the nightmare subsided. "W-will…"



"I'm here, baby," Willow replied. She felt Tara snuggle back against her and sigh. Within minutes, she was breathing deeply, back in alpha sleep. Willow, once she was certain that Tara was not dreaming and would not wake, got out of bed and padded to the bathroom. Closing the door, she sat on the toilet and let herself shed the tears she had been holding back.



Along with the pain and grief concerning Tara, she had a flash of déjà vu: sitting in the girls' bathroom at Sunnydale High, crying her eyes out for a love that never was and now never would be. Xander had crossed the ultimate line, even worse than when she had found him kissing Cordelia Chase. He had actually slept with Faith. After that, any lingering attraction she had ever felt for him was gone. She could give herself to Oz and never look back…



…and look at how well that turned out, she thought ruefully. Actually, when all was said and done, things turned out all right. At the wake after Buffy's funeral, Oz had been there with his new girlfriend Randi, who (surprise, surprise) was a werewolf, too. Not at all like the skanky (and departed) Veruca. Buffy would have liked her, Willow had thought at the time. There were some wistful glances between the two former lovers, but mostly it was wishes of luck and happiness, and promises to keep in touch (Willow tactfully reminded Oz of several large Internet providers that did not require a fixed address, or even a personal computer). But they both knew that their mutual account was closed.



When Tara had been taken away from her by Glory, Willow had been consumed with guilt, that she had driven the woman she loved right into danger, that she would never be able to tell her she was sorry and that she loved her and would never leave her for woman or man. Her guilt increased as the time for the final battle neared, because she was afraid that if they failed to stop Glory she would never see Tara, whole and entire, again. Her joy at Tara's recovery was overlaid by grief at the death of her best friend, and her secret guilt that she had been, deep down where she could barely admit it to herself, glad that someone else besides Tara had been the one to be sacrificed, as Willow had been sure that someone would have to give up his or her life to save the world. Herself, she had been willing to take the chance, even if it meant she would die never seeing Tara well again. But to live the rest of her life, with only the memory of her love -- that would have been too much to take.



The sobs seemed dredged up from the very bottom of her soul, but finally they slowed, then stopped. Willow stood and faced the mirror, using the Kleenex provided in the handy dispenser by the lodge to wipe the tears from her face. In the harsh light over the bathroom sink, her face was puffy from crying, but that would hopefully be gone by morning.



"You know what you have to do. You can't ever let her get hurt like that again. She's not gonna like this at first, but you gotta convince her." With her voice thick with sleep, she could barely recognize herself. "I'm sorry, Buffy. But I have to do what's right for me and Tara now. Whatever I owed you for saving my life, and making me a stronger person, I've paid it in full." Fresh tears started, as she prepared to separate her heart from her dead friend. "This is the end of The Fantastic Four, okay? I quit."

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I'm getting there, I'm getting there. It's just taking me longer than I thought. As Shemp once said, Rome wasn't built in a day, and neither was Syracuse.

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Road to Nowhere

Part 4



"You want some whipped cream to go with those waffles, miss?" the brunette waitress at the Brookdale Lodge coffee shop asked. She became rather mystified when the petite redhead and the curvy blonde looked at one another in silence, then burst into giggles. The waitress was vacillating between confusion and annoyance when Red, in a sweet-as-pie voice, said no, thank you. Bemused, she went back through the virtually empty coffee shop back to the kitchen. If those two cuties aren't doing each other, I'm a Chinese jet pilot.



Tara was still laughing when the waitress disappeared. "You are so the bad influence on me, Willow!" She scooped up another forkful of her veggie omelet and shoveled it in.



Auburn eyebrows arched like a St. Louis monument as Willow looked up from doing major surgery on the enormous waffle on her plate. "Me? You started it."



Tara hadn't quite finished her mouthful of eggs. "Drue. I dind 'ear you gomplain doo lou'ly." A couple of final chews and she swallowed. "Of course, it was hard to tell if you were complaining – you were just b-being loud." She chuckled again as she reached for her wheat toast.



"And here I thought you liked applause," Willow said before popping syrup-and-strawberry-preserve-laden waffle in her mouth. "Mmmmm-mmm. Man, this is good. I woke up starving." Both girls had forgone their usual light breakfasts in favor of the large selection that the coffee shop had on the menu. Besides her omelet and toast, Tara had a short stack of hotcakes, now mostly gone. Willow had managed to down a nicely-done slab of ham in addition to her waffle. Coffee and orange juice were also in evidence.



"Among other things," Tara said with a twinkle in her eye, remembering the morning "session" in addition to the lovemaking of the previous night. "I don't know, sweetie. With all this fresh air fueling us, at the rate we're going, we're not gonna live long enough to get back to Sunnydale."



Willow didn't quite choke, but she did start enough to cough. Covering her mouth to keep from spraying Tara with half-chewed waffle, she managed to keep from having the Heimlich Maneuver done on herself.



"You okay, honey?" Tara was concerned, but also slightly suspicious, for reasons that she could not quite identify. It was one of those below-the-surface vibes that she had learned to trust over the years, especially after she had moved to college and found out that it was "University On The Hellmouth."



"Yeah, I'm fine. I just, just thought that was funny. See, this is me, tee-hee-hee, here we are in the forest primeval, shagging like bunnies!" Knock off the stupid babbling, Rosenberg, this is your girlfriend who can spot you trying to hide a fib a mile away! Cover, cover! "You got anyplace special you want to see today?"



Tara shrugged. "Just the Winchester House. But that can wait. I know you're dying to see Apple Computer."



That earned Tara a cheeky grin from Willow. "Yay! Maybe if I'm lucky, Steve Jobs'll be there, and I'll get to talk to him, let him know that I think his new interface has a few problems, but I've worked them out, see, and – and your eyes are glazing over."



Tara shook her head. "It's all fascinating, darling. But we better get going; it's almost noon."



Willow was astonished. "We slept in that late?"



"It wasn't just the sleep, remember?"



"Oh, yeah."



Tara scooped up the last of her omelet, then stopped before she ate it. "Oh, I called Xander while you where in the bathroom."



"Oh?" Willow asked. Gee, why not a octave higher, Rosenberg, there are a few windows in here that didn't shatter from the sound of your voice! "What'd he have to say?"



"Actually, he s-said something kinda weird," Tara said, a puzzled expression on her face.



Willow schooled herself to remain nonchalant. What could Xander say – or know, for that matter? "Uh-huh?"



"He said that if we happened to be passing back through Oxnard, and just happened to stop into a place called the Skin Flute," a little uncertainty crept into Tara's voice at that part, "to say hi to a guy named Raul. Do you know what he's talking about?"



Willow chuckled, partly out of relief. "Well, it has to do with something Buffy told me when we were dormmates, something Xander told her when he came back from his road trip. Better hold onto your hat there, missy."



******



After paying the breakfast bill and driving for about an hour in the Marquis, Willow and Tara came to 1 Infinite Loop in Cupertino, California – the home of Apple Computer, Inc.



Needless to say, Willow was in awe. To see her stare at the beige buildings, one would think that she was gazing at the Emerald City in the Land of Oz (no pun intended). "It's, it's fantastic. This is, like, Camelot!"



Tara could not resist an opening line like that. "It's only a model," she replied in a squeaky English voice.



"Shhh!" replied Willow, also in character. She smiled and beckoned to her girlfriend. "Come, let's all go to Camelot!" They marched together in step, singing "We're knights of the Round Table…" in search of the public relations office where they could arrange a tour. "Y'know who we show screen that movie for? Anya!"



Tara considered that suggestion. "Monty Python and the Holy Grail? I dunno. She'll probably go through the entire movie pointing out, um, inaccuracies in the clothes and the food, or tell us that King Arthur was actually some slob of a guy with terminal acne on his face." Her expression twisted as she remembered Tim the Enchanter's warning about the "foul beast" guarding the cave. "Oh, Willow, that-that's terrible!"



Willow giggled. "I know!"



"She'll have nightmares for weeks about the killer rabbit! Xander will kill you!"



Willow doubled over in laughter. It took her a second to get the breath to say, "It'd be so worth it!" She adopted Tim the Enchanter's Scottish accent. "If ya do doubt yar courage, come nah farther, for Death awaits ye, with great, nasty pointy teeth!"



Tara shook her head. "I don't understand why you h-hate her so much."



Willow stopped laughing a second after she heard that. "I-I don't hate Anya." Tara raised an eyebrow at that, her patented tell-me-another-one expression. "Really. Okay, so she's not one of my favorite people in the whole universe, but, hey, considering she was a vengeance demon called forth by my worst enemy in high school who tried to wish all of us into a parallel universe where Buffy never came to Sunnydale and Xander and I got turned into vampires, can you say eww, I knew you could, and then later, she tried to use me to get me to get her powers back, and she managed to get my evil skanky ga— ah, sadistic vampire self into this dimension, and was ready to help Evil Dead Me into recreating Vampire World, okay, then she did give us some info on the demon that the Mayor was turning into, of course she then wanted to get out of town before the Ascension, and only came back after it was all over because she wanted to sleep with Xander, considering all that, I think I treat her all right."



Tara smiled. "Great soliloquy, honey. I think the oxygen-rich atmosphere is affecting you in other ways." She looked down at her toes. "I think – Anya and I are kinda like, um, the Scooby Wives Club. We've sort of bonded that way. I think Riley would have been the t-treasurer, or sergeant-at-arms, but he left."



"Tara," Willow sighed. "How many times have I told you? You're part –"



"—Part of the team, I know, you've told me," Tara finished. "I suppose I am, but Anya and I got brought into this not because of who we are, but who we're dating. Y'know, Oz felt the same way."



Willow blinked. "How would you know that?"



"I talked to him. At the wake." Tara reached out and touched Willow's shoulder. "It's okay. He said he didn't feel like an outsider. I don't either." Willow nodded. Tara saw that her girlfriend's enthusiasm for the tour had gone. "C'mon, you gotta show these guys what they're doing wrong."



*********



After the tour, and after Willow filled out about twenty suggestion cards ("What?!? They shouldn't've gotten rid of CyberDog!"), Tara had decided that it was a little late in the day to head over to the Winchester House. After a brief discussion, they drove back to Santa Cruz. They found the Santa Cruz boardwalk, with the pier jutting out almost a mile into the ocean, shopped in a dozen little stores for souvenirs to bring back for everybody, and ate dinner in a seafood restaurant that had apparently been a family concern for most of a century.



"Are you sure you're okay with this?" Willow asked. "I don't want you to get sick…"



"I'm allergic to shrimp, baby, not fish," Tara replied, browsing through the menu. "And I haven't had salmon steak in years."



"That sounds of the Yum."



After dinner, they walked to the end of the pier to watch the sun set. With so few tourists in the town, they had the whole area to themselves, and so treated themselves with a few unselfconscious public smooches. Arms around each other, they settled against the railing, looking out to the sea while the breeze blew their hair around until Tara's dark blonde tresses mixed with Willow's auburn hair.



"You know what I want to see sometime this week?" Willow piped up. "U.C. Santa Cruz!"



Tara frowned. "Do-don't we have something like that at home? Y'know, lots of buildings, grassy fields, library, chemistry labs, dorms and lots of teachers?"



Willow nodded. "Hopefully without the secret government demon-containment facility and the occasional roving vampire. I'm just interested in, y'know, how the other half lives, see what kinda courses they have, or don't have, and then I can laugh the Laugh of I Mock Your Inferior School. Of course, they might even have some courses that U.C. Sunnydale doesn't have, but, hey, let's take that chance."



Tara shrugged. "Well, it might be interesting and fun. I'm sure it will be, if I'm with you."



Willow reached up to brush some hair out of Tara's eyes. "Hey, I gotta tell you something. I love you."



Tara smiled and gazed at her. "I love you, too."



Willow jumped in quick after that. "I know. I'm trying to say…I've been doing a lot of thinking since you…uh, had your problem…"



"What Glory did." Tara's reply was very flat, in contrast to the depth of the pain that Willow knew she still felt.



"Yeah. I mean, I came so close to losing you. There were so many times when you'd…like, be almost normal, you'd be Tara, my Tara, and then…" Willow paused to swallow back a sob. "It was so frustrating, but I knew, if I was patient, if I took care of you, even if took the rest of my life, you'd come back for good."



"Baby, I am back. I am here," Tara replied. "What are you trying to say?"



"From now on, it's you and me. Whatever we do, wherever we are, we're together. Okay?"



"Oh yes." Tara kissed Willow, then took a half-step back. "Willow…are-are you p-proposing to me?"



Willow couldn't keep a short bark of laughter from escaping her mouth, even as she had to blink back tears. "Ah, ah, no, not as such, no. But, y'know, maybe someday in the future, probably after college, we could conceivably stand up, in front of all our friends, in a rather broadminded little synagogue or chapel…wait a second, I'm seeing Sad Face; why am I seeing Sad Face?"



Tara looked down before answering. "B-because someday you might…want ch-children. I can't give you that, Willow. When we had that fight, you did touch on the f-fact that I'm…afraid that someday you might children. You might need a man. I can't be one."



Willow rolled her eyes. "Then we can adopt, or use artificial insemination, or genetic engineering, or win one on a game show." Tara chuckled. "We'll work it out. Together. We can give the kid one of those shirts that say 'My Mommies Love Me.'" The two of them laughed this time. "This is all in the future, y'know, when we've got warp drive, replicators, we're living in a condo on Mars, right next to a big canal with hoverboats…"



"Sounds great," Tara said. She looked out over the ocean where the last light of the setting sun was dying out. "We should get back to the Lodge."



Willow frowned and took a quick look around the general area. "You thinkin' vampire activity?"



"Well, I'm thinking of some k-kinda activity. But it won't get started till we get back to our room." Tara had her lopsided grin, which combined with her rather bold pass made Willow giggle.



"Hmmph. And you were something about me being affected by the fresh, foresty air. You are getting to be such the tart."



******



Some hours later, Tara lay in bed while Willow was taking a shower. She had asked Tara if she wanted to keep her company. "No, thanks, sweetie, I'm really beat." Willow had smiled, said something about a beating a record, and went to the bathroom in search of soap and shampoo.



Tara drifted in the nether state between wakefulness and sleep, her breathing slow and steady, the warmth of the sheets and blankets on her skin keeping off the chill…



Tara opened her eyes. It did seem a little cold in the room. Not see-your-own-breath cold, mind you, but a little cold considering the amount of activity that that had taken place within the last few hours, and that none of the windows were open and it was summer.



The lights were off, so Tara could only make out the general shape of the room, which incidentally was much bigger than the usual sort of oversized closet that passed for a hotel room these days. Their luggage, including Willow's laptop case, was on the far side of the room, wreathed in shadows. There was faint light escaping from the closed bathroom door, where the sounds of Willowshower could be heard.



Again the feeling of a presence seized Tara, stronger than in the lobby the previous day. Tara tried to peer through the gloom but could see nothing, or rather no one. Just then, she heard a sound over by their luggage, the sound of something shifting on the low dresser.



A burglar? Tara was frightened, not merely for herself but for Willow, who being in the shower was vulnerable to a predator. Tara mentally readied herself to hurl a defensive spell at any intruder who might be in the room. Okay, now I need to see what I'm up against. If I skooch over to turn on the lamp, he might hear me. I need the element of surprise here. A moment's concentration was all it took to make the lamp switch itself on to reveal…



…no one in the room except Tara herself.



Frowning, she started to get out of bed to go check out the other side of the room. She stopped herself when she remembered she was naked. Ordinarily that wouldn't bother her (and with Willow it could lead to a very interesting time) but she felt more selfconscious than usual. Her extra-large Babylon 5 nightshirt was laying on the bedspread; she grabbed it and pulled it on.



A quick examination showed nothing missing or largely out of place. Willow's laptop carrier, however, seemed to teeter on the edge of the dresser, so she set it back so that it would not fall to the carpet. As Tara did this, her fingers brushed a small sheaf of papers that were partially hanging out of one of the zippered pockets. She frowned as she tried to remember if they were showing before or not. It seemed unlikely that a burglar (if there had been one) would be interested in Willow's web pages.



Her curiosity momentarily got the better of her as she hauled out the papers, telling herself that it was so she could straighten them out, and was only glancing at them to keep them organized. However, her organization became less efficient as she saw that some of the papers were college transcripts.



Some of the papers were her college transcripts.



All at once it hit her. Willow. Getting away for "a week." Wanting to see U.C. Santa Cruz. How "comfortable" Tara felt here. Being together "just you and me."



Tara sat down, not sure whether it was the hot blood in her face or the cold nausea in her stomach that made her feel worse.



Willow emerged from the bathroom a few minutes later, wearing her robe and toweling her hair off. "Oh!" she said, surprised. "I thought you'd be zonked out by now. Why didn’t you come in?" No answer, combined with Tara staring off into space, made Willow worried. "Tara, is something wrong?"



Tara tossed the transcripts and the transfer application web pages onto the table. "Y-you wanna tell me a s-story about this?" she asked, finally locking eyes with Willow, who for the first time in a year and a half did not regard it as a pleasant experience.





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Road to Nowhere

Part 5

Willow stood there in shock, her damp hair doing nothing to dispell the chill that was sweeping through her. She had hoped that another day or two would have passed before she broached the subject with Tara, but the papers on the little table and the ice-blue eyes boring in her pretty much kiboshed any delays.



"Um, where did you get those?" Willow asked, stalling for time. Where was her celebrated glibness now? This was no time to have Oz-like brevity in her speech.



Tara, regardless of her obvious anger, almost looked amused at that question. "Ah, are you going to tr-try to tell me that you don't know about these?"



Make no mistake, Take-Charge Tara was open for business.



"This isn't the way I planned this," Willow began lamely, sitting in the chair opposite Tara.



"Planned what?" Tara shot back, putting across in no uncertain terms that she was not going to tolerate any more stalling.



Willow swallowed once, then plunged in. "I think we need to relocate. To here. I mean, Santa Cruz, not this hotel, not that I don't like it..." All of Willow's carefully planned speeches had apparently decided to fly off to Borneo. "Anyway, out of Sunnydale. You and me."



"Um, I kinda guessed that. When w-were you planning on telling me? Sometime after our first month here?" Tara covered her eyes with her hand, squeezing them shut, then looking again at her girlfriend. "Please tell me that this is not some, uh, elaborate kidnapping scheme."



Willow's jaw dropped halfway to the table. "Of course it's not! Is that what you think? Tara, I could never do anything like that to you! I love you, don't you know that, I'd never..."



"Go behind my back -- again! You did it when you showed Dawn which magic book to grab, and you're doing it now!" Tara's voice was louder now than Willow could ever remember hearing it. "Th-this is 'Willow knows best, so I'll just, just get around dumb ol' Tara--'"



"Oh! So not true!" Willow shot back, losing her temper, but partly because she felt guilty; Tara had hit home a little more than Willow would like to admit. "I have never said or, ever thought you were dumb! I'm sorry you feel that I don't tell you every damn thing, but I'm doing this for you!" Willow started to choke up on her last few words. She stood up and walked over to the other side of the room. "Please, Tara, baby, I don't want to fight."



"Well, I'm s-sorry, but I need to you to be honest with me n-now. Why do you want us to move here?"



Willow took a deep breath, trying to control the sobs that threatened to burst out of her. "I want us to live here, away from Sunnydale. Away from vampires and demons and hellgods and danger and death," she paused to choke back a sob, "I don't want you getting hurt anymore, I don't want you to ever get hurt again."



Tara stared at her lover for a long moment before standing and walking over in Willow's direction (though stopping, Willow noticed, a hands-span too far to touch). "Honey, what happened to me with G-Glory, that wasn't your fault..."



"Yes it was!" Willow shouted back. "Okay, even if we hadn't had that fight, she only went after you because you were Buffy's friend, she knew the Slayer was hiding the Key, she went after the one person who was 'new,' which you were, I suppose, there was no way she could know that Dawn hadn't been there all along, and..." she stopped as the sobs finally burst forth. "I can't let anything happen to you. You're...you're my life, don't you see that? Oh, God, crying now!"



"W-Willow," Tara said, sniffling back a few tears herself, despite the fact that she was still angry, "I know you, um, want to take care of me, but, but I've been taking care of myself since I left home. I knew what I was getting into when I started hanging out with you and Buffy and the others."



Willow shook her head. "No, it was stupid and foolish of me. I made it all sound so exciting, just because I got all excited when I first knew Buffy, and I almost got killed by a blond bimbo vampire in a Catholic schoolgirl uniform," Tara raised her eyebrows at that. "Don't ask. Anyway, what I'm trying to say is, I want us to have a life for ourselves, that doesn't involve the Hellmouth and the next Big Bad that's going to blow through Sunnydale."



Tara stood still for a moment, then slowly nodded. "I'm listening."



Willow wiped her eyes with the back of her hand. "Okay, we transfer our academic credits to UC Santa Cruz. That's why I brought the transcripts, so we could fill out applications and enroll while we're here, then we can go back to Sunnydale and arrange the move. I think we can find a nice apartment off-campus, a place that takes pets so we can have Miss Kitty out in the open. I can probably get a job in one of the Silicon Valley firms, they're all over the place, and hey, we'll be only a hour or so from San Francisco, nice big city with a sizable gay and lesbian population..."



Tara sighed, her blue eyes closing in exasperation. "Y'know, this-this all sounds great, but..." Willow made an impatient "What?" gesture. "I think you're running away from, well, Buffy."



The redhead made a growling sound that Spike would have given a six out of ten. "No! This has nothing to do with Buffy! Yes, she was my best friend, and I loved her, and she's dead, and I miss her, but I have to live my life for me and for you now. I can't keep fighting demons for the rest of my life just because she might want me to...and I'm not even sure of that!" Tears rolled down Willow's face, her eyes stinging. "Even Kirk and Spock went home at the end of the five year mission. Well, it's been five years and I've had enough!"



Tara chose not to bring up the fact that Kirk and Spock came back for six movies. She decided to stay on topic. "What about the others? Xander, Anya, Giles, Dawn? How can you leave Dawn? She's lost her mother, her sister...her father is still God-Knows-Where..."



"Giles'll take care of her," Willow countered, sounding like she was trying to convince herself as well as Tara. "She's a Summers, she's a survivor. Before you know it, she'll be going toff to college anyway. Xander, he's getting good at construction, he and Anya can move somewhere else, too, a good carpenter can get a job anywhere, right? And, and we'll be there for their wedding, I never said we would never see any of them again, and hey, Spike, he was taking care of himself for a century before we were born, he'll be all right, right?" Willow wiped her face again, then moved forward towards Tara and took her hands in her own. "I just want us to have a chance for a normal life. Haven't we, like, earned it by now?"



Tara said nothing for a long moment. Abruptly, she pulled her hands away from Willow's, to the other's dismay. "D-did it ever occur to you that I m-might not want to leave these people? That maybe they mean something to me? That I might consider them f-family, because they accepted me even I... All you thought of, was how to cure your guilt over what happ-happened to me. Not about what I want. You, you're so busy trying to protect me from skinning my knees, you don't even care about my feelings enough to even ask me if I want to do this!" She turned away from Willow to look for her jeans. Slipping them on, she turned back to Willow. "You keep on trying to f-fix the world, Willow, and you keep messing up because you're trying to fix what isn't broke! When are you going to learn?"



"Where are you going?" Willow whispered, as Tara found and slipped on her shoes.



"I don't know. I j-just can't stay with someone who feels she has to keep things from me."



At that point, Willow's temper reached the redline. "You mean, things like the family you were too embarrassed to tell me about? Oh, wait, that was you, wasn't it?"



Wrong thing to say. If Willow had spit in Tara's face, she probably could not have gotten a more hurt, more betrayed expression. "D-don't wait up for me." She grabbed her key and billfold and just managed to not slam the door on her way out.



Willow sat on the edge of the bed, for a long moment too stunned to cry.



***********



After midnight, the crowd in the Lodge bar was still going fairly strong, dancing to a mix of 80s and 90s hits. Tara, however, was in no mood for crowds, so she headed for the restaurant.



It turned out to be a huge, elegant, multi-level dining area with, incongruously, a rushing creek running over rocks, surrounded on both sides by bricked enclosures. The effect was somewhat Old World, and the noise of the water could preclude quiet conversation, but Tara could see how this would be a nice getaway spot for young couples on a honeymoon, or even celebrities trying to "get away from it all."



Of course, as she had said to Willow before, she would hate to be around if there was a flood. She had read on one of the newspapers in the glass-fronted display cases in the lobby that back in the early seventies, the entire lodge had been flooded when the creek overflowed. One young girl went missing, presumed drowned, although the body was never found. Since then, there had been hints of unnatural phenomena, but nothing concrete for psychic investigators to pinpoint. Tara had idly wondered if the mysterious presence she felt earlier could be connected to these events.



Right now, the restaurant was deserted, except for Tara, nursing a cup of coffee and a chocolate cheesecake. The coffee helped keep her awake and on edge; the cheesecake, her usual placebo for The Blues, was doing little to assuage her anger.



Damn her anyway! she thought, stabbing another piece of cake. Almost all my life, people have been "taking care of me," which was their nice way of telling me I was too stupid to talk care of myself. I know I'm quiet and shy and my stutter doesn't help, but I can take care of myself. I don't need her telling me, "Hey baby, here's the deal, take it or leave it!"



Having articulated that thought, she realized she was being a little unfair to Willow. Granted, her lover had no right to go behind her back, but it wasn't as if Tara had been kidnapped by her. If anything, that sounds like the start of a kinky and fun scenario, but I probably better not give Willow any ideas. Willow, as usual, was doing as she thought best, and was simply used to doing things her way. Being the smartest kid in class, she was used to being right all the time.



Besides, Tara knew that finding Willow Rosenberg, against odds that would make Heisenberg's nose bleed, was the best thing that ever happened to her, and it was going to take more than a minor subterfuge for Tara to toss Willow away. Not without a fairly stern lecture, of course. Can't let her get the idea that she can get away with this stuff all the time. I'm lucky to have her, but I've got my pride and my standards, y'know.



With resolve and forebearance in her heart, she finished the last of her cheesecake, then craned her neck to see if she could spot the waitress to get the check. Nope. Probably would have to go find her...



"You have to come," said the voice just her right.



Startled, Tara turned to see the young girl sitting at the table to her right, the girl that had not been there a second ago. She was about Dawn's age, give or take, and in fact reminded Tara quite a bit of the teenager. However, her hair was a shade blonder, the lips thinner, the eyes almost as brown as Xander's. The stranger sat in the chair wearing a denim shirt and jeans, which for a reason Tara could not identify, looked wrong somehow. The cut was very loose, for one thing, and yet the fabric clung somewhat to the girl's skin, as if...



As if it were damp, Tara realized with a shudder. The young girl, presumed drowned. This is her.



The girl spoke again. "You have to come to the house. Soon. There isn't much time left."



"Wh-what h-house?" Tara replied, trying to remain calm and simultaneously deal with what she was seeing and thinking.



"It's just up the road aways. You were planning on going there anyway, you and your friend. We need your help."



Tara's brow furrowed. Even in her extremity of fear, her nurturing instinct pushed outward. "Help? H-how can I help you? You're..." She could not bring herself to say the word.



The girl did not seem to care, however. "You're the first one in so long who even knew I was here. Please, it's only a short time before I'm drawn back there. You and your friend, you must help us. Before it's too late."



"Too late for what? I don't understand--"



"Tara?" Willow's voice made her involuntarily snap around, to see her girlfriend at the entrance of the restaurant. She turned back only to find the girl had vanished. Getting up, she looked around the chair for any sign that anyone had sat there.



Willow, on the other hand, was miffed that Tara had not acknowledged her presence. She made her way over to the table where Tara was moving around, looking as if she had lost a contact lens or something. "Hey, Tara, c'mon talk to me! I kno
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Re: FIC: Road to Nowhere

Postby CaptMurdock » Sat Mar 23, 2002 12:38 pm

Willow, on the other hand, was miffed that Tara had not acknowledged her presence. She made her way over to the table where Tara was moving around, looking as if she had lost a contact lens or something. "Hey, Tara, c'mon talk to me! I know I screwed up, but please, can't we go back--"

"Willow; Willow! Did you see her?"

Tara's outburst cut Willow short. "Uh, well, y'know, when I went through the door just now, I thought...I dunno, I thought I saw someone just for a brief moment, but I thought I was just tired or something."

Tara exhaled. There was nothing out of place at the table, but she could not deny what she saw and heard. "I, I think there's something going on around here, Willow. Something that might be dangerous. And I th-think it has something to do with the Winchester House."

Willow, understandably, took a moment to absorb all of this. Her response, though not well-thought-out, was also somewhat understandable: "Geez, you got some kinda jones for that place!"

-=-=-=-

Part Six

"Are you sure that's everything?" Willow asked Tara, for what was probably the third time. The two of them had gone back to their room, after a fruitless search for the girl had garnered them nothing more than strange looks from lodge patrons and personnel.

Tara nodded, pinching the bridge of her nose and trying to keep her irritation from showing. Besides being tired, she was still mad at Willow for her subterfuge about getting the two of them up to Santa Cruz on a pretext. "She kept saying w-we had to go to the house. The house," using her fingers like quote marks, "'just up the road.' She somehow knew we were going to go there anyway, soadd it up yourself."

"Yeah, it comes out 'Winchester House' to me, too," Willow conceded. "Although why some tourist attraction is the center for supernatural activity is beyond me. I mean, it's like Walt Disney building his Magic Kingdom on the Hellmouth."

Even tired and angry, Tara found that amusing. "I-I'm not so sure, Will; I've been to Disneyland. Anyway, the lady who last lived in the house, uh"

"Hang on," Willow said, booting up her laptop and looking for the Web pages she had saved before they came up here. She and Tara were sitting at the table, their chairs more or less at twelve o'clock and three o'clock. The page came up on the laptop screen. "Here it is. Her name was Sarah Winchester."

"'She was heir to the family fortune created by the massive success of the Winchester repeating rifle'," Tara read from the screen. Instead of moving closer to Willow, she remained a conspicuous distance away. She had to squint to read the text, until Willow, making an effort not to show exasperation, slid the laptop over to her. "Thanks. 'In her later years she developed an obsession with the occult, demanding an increasing number of renovations to the family mansion, including some that made no sense.' Huhn."

"Huh? I mean, what huhn? Or huhn what?"

"Ohuh, I'm not sure, but I seem to remember something about how mystical, um forces can be, like, channeled by structures, like churches, or houses. Part of it had to do with resonating with the essence of the living soul that inhabits the house. I think this even has to do with why vampires can't enter a house unless the person who lives, y'know, invites them in." Tara yawned, then moved her head around with the accompanying sound of popping cervical vertebrae.

"Is, is your neck hurting you?" Willow asked brightly, unable to keep a hopeful tone out of her voice. "Want me to rub it?"

"No," Tara answered flatly, letting it hang there a second before mitigating it with a "Thank you." She stood up. "We need to get to bed. We'll have to head over to the Winchester House in the morning and see what's going on there. Okay?" Willow nodded listlessly. Tara walked over to the bed and kicked off her shows. She made as if to take off her jeans, then stopped.

"Um, Tara, I just wanna say that" Willow began, hoping to get a reconciliation.

"Willow," Tara intoned in her best don't-contradict-me-dammit tone, "I really think we should get to sleep." Lifting up the covers, she slid into bed, turned on her side facing outward and laid her head down so fast she almost banged it on the headboard. "Good night," she said, closing her eyes.

"G'night," Willow mumbled in reply. She sat there for a minute before somehow finding the energy and the will to gather her pajamas. She sat on the edge of the bed on the other side from Tara and proceeded to change clothes. Midway through she had to stifle a sob.

With a cold certainty, Willow felt at that moment that Tara had already decided that being with her was more trouble than it was worth, that once they got back to Sunnydale she would put in a request for a dorm reassignment. Of course, she might elect to transfer to another school anyway. Willow knew how lucky she had been when Oz decided to forgive her for kissing Xander; how foolish of her to think that she might get that lucky twice. Or, rather, three times, given how lucky she was to find Tara in the first place. Okay, four, considering that whole reverse-brainsuckage deal. Eventually, Willow thought as she finished changing, you just kept pushing your luck until it goes away.

She lay down, also facing out, creating a vast no-woman's land in the middle of the bed. Trying to be as quiet as possible, Willow nonetheless cried herself to sleep.

Tara raised her head slightly, hearing Willow's hitching breath slow as she drifted off. Oooh, I can't stand it anymore. She rolled over and draped her arm over Willow's chest and squeezed lightly. Even in repose, Willow seemed to lose some of her tension, and instinctively shifted her body against Tara's, as if sensing that her lover would watch over her in her dreams.
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FIC: Road To Nowhere 7-End

Postby CaptMurdock » Sat Mar 23, 2002 12:41 pm



Road to Nowhere

Part 7

Disclaimers: The usual about Joss, et. al. The lyrics quoted below are the property of Missing Persons (or whoever wrote them, whichever comes first).

Notes: The Winchester Mystery House is of course a real place, but any dissimilarities between the real one and the one is my story should be attributed to artistic license and imperfect memory (hey, I've only been there once!)



*********



Since neither of them slept very well, Willow and Tara approached the new day with the enthusiasm of having root canal. They had a rather subdued breakfast, in contrast to the day before, wherein the waitress could not help but notice their changed demeanor as she served Willow's bagel-and-cream-cheese and Tara's "sassy eggs." The girls' sincere but subdued thanks was almost the only time they even spoke. Uh-oh, she thought, already dreading a lousy tip, Trouble in Paradise.



Perversely, the only station that the Marquis' radio could pick up besides boring classical, fruity jazz and el depresso country-and-western was the local all-bouncy-80's-all-the-bouncy-time haven, The Station That Time Forgot, where Culture Club never died and Quiet Riot rules forever. Terri Bozio's squeaky voice was really starting to work Willow's nerves:



(Life is so strange)

Destination Unknown

(When you don't know)

Your destination!

(And something is changed)

It's unknown

(And then you won't know)

Destination Unknown



"God, don't they have music from this century up here?" Willow muttered, breaking the rather stiff silence as they drove up to San Jose.



"Well, you were the one who picked this area for our little vacation," Tara replied offhandedly, before realizing how snarky the comment might sound. Willow stopped short of actually gasping, but did sharply inhale before turning to look out the window to keep Tara from seeing the tears of anger and remorse in her eyes.



Tara, for her part, sharply berated herself for speaking so harshly. She wanted to tell Willow that she didn't mean to say what she did in quite the manner she did, but Willow was turned away from her, the posture in her back sending a clear hazard warning. Sighing, she resigned herself to let the matter drop.



**********



Finding the Winchester Mystery House proved rather easy, thanks to Willow's judicious use of the Internet. Tara parked the Marquis in the adjacent lot and got out, looking over the huge mansion. The house was done in a hodgepodge of styles from the last century (or rather, Tara corrected herself, the nineteenth century), reflecting the eclectic tastes and, as legend had it, increasing eccentricity of Sarah Winchester. That said, it certainly didn't look sinister, at least in broad daylight.



Willow got out the passenger door. Tara noticed, or maybe finally allowed herself to notice, how pale and drawn her companion looked. She had virtually none of the usual Willow-bounce to her. All at once, Tara regretted not only the "cool" shoulder she had been giving her, but also for dragging her along on this strange little quest.



"Are you s-sure you're up to this?" Tara asked, after locking her door and coming around the front of the car, covering half the distance between herself and Willow.



The redhead didn't quite meet her eyes. "No. Let's do it." She settled her purse on her shoulder and strode toward the public entrance, leaving the blonde in her wake.



Since the tours were guided in groups, the girls were obliged to wait for the next run in the mansion's rather comprehensive giftshop. They looked over commemorative mugs, glasses, film slides, books, pens, pencils, notepads and other memorabilia to be had for only a mildly extortionate price. There was even a special cat-toy, which Willow immediately bought for Miss Kitty Fantastico. Tara in particular mulled over a selection of refrigerator magnets, some shaped abstractedly like the Winchester House itself.



Tara noticed Willow standing behind her. "Which one do you like?" she asked, indicating the plethora of decorative lodestone.



Willow, despite being rather down in the dumps, was able to come up with a chirpy quip: "Honey, one more magnet on that mini-fridge of yours and we might brown out the dorm." Tara's answering grin did lighten Willow's heart somewhat. Just then, the indicator near the far door of the gift shop changed. "Uh oh. Looks like they're ready for us." Tara nodded, quickly swinging by the register, while Willow rolled her eyes, to purchase the gaudiest of the fridge magnets, before they both headed into the mansion proper.



********



"I will say, I've been in some weird places, but this is…another weird place," Willow concluded, as the tour led through rooms on varying levels of the house. They had already passed by an alcoved stairway that went to a blank ceiling ("Dude....Stairway to Heaven...denied!" Willow quipped, earning her a smothered Tara-grin and rolling of eyes), a door that opened onto a brick wall, another door that opened onto a ten-foot drop into the main kitchen ("Well, it's convenient for those late-night attacks of the munchies," Tara allowed, bemused) and other architectural oddities. There were many rooms that were quite stunning in the styles and materials used in their construction.



The house had a light, airy quality to it, with many windows to let in more sunlight than Willow or Tara had anticipated. Even so, they both had a vague sense of unease, not so much an apprehensive feeling as a maddening familiarity.



The tour had stopped briefly in the magnificent main ballroom of the house, an large room done in dark woods that Willow judged to be big enough to hold her entire high school graduating class, including the Mayor after his ascension to Big Snake-ness.



Discretely, Tara pulled her over to a corner of the room, well away from the rest of the tourists. "Are you feeling what I'm feeling?"



Willow blew out air from pursed lips, exasperated. "Well, how am I supposed to know what you're feeling? I mean, I know what I did was wrong, but you've been giving me 'stay-away' vibes since last night, and, and I don't know what to do or say or, or..." Willow finally stopped babbled after the third time Tara made a slicing motion across her throat. "What? What?"



"I m-meant, are you picking up the same vibes from this house as I am?" Tara said, trying very hard to not be mad at, or amused at, her girlfriend's wild assumptions.



Willow, for her part, recovered as gracefully as she could, which is to say, not much. "Ohhhh! Yeah, yeah, of course. Well, huh, now that you mention it," she snapped almost instantly into Scooby Mode, years of instincts taking over, "yes, it does feel weird in here, and somehow familiar?"



"Yes! I was hoping maybe you could remember someplace you've been before that felt like this."



Willow nodded, closing her eyes and forcing her sleep-deprived brain to cull through its exhaustive memory files for a similar sensation. C'mon, Rosenberg, you took Psych 101, evil government scientist or not, she knew her stuff. Associate, dammit, associate!. Then came the memory of the taste of dust in the air, and the smell of burnt meat(?) and the echo of footsteps on linoleum. Just needed to find the right visual image…



"Hi!" said the tour guide lady, with an incongruous Texas accent, completely disrupting Willow's train of thought. "We need y'all to keep with the rest of the tour group, and we'll answer any questions you might have at the end of the tour!" She then moved off to lead the group into another part of the mansion.



"Y'know , we're never going to be able to mount a serious investigation with Perky McPerkster getting in our face every five minutes," Willow muttered, giving the tour guide the evil eye (thankfully, not literally).



Tara nodded. "It's okay. I prepared for this eventuality." She reached into her shoulder bag and pulled out a little brown plastic container, which Willow recognized as being a relic of Tara's brief all-expense paid trip to Brain-Drain City.



"Ooh, get you – 'Tactical Tara.' You gonna slip her a mickey?"



Tara gave Willow a rather indeterminate look, somewhere in the trackless wastes between Amusement and Irritation, making Willow berate herself for pushing her luck once again over a cliff. Instead of replying to the remark, the blonde witch took off the cap and poured a small amount of light-grey powder into her hand. Holding the fistful of powder in front of her mouth, she muttered an incantation too low for Willow to hear, although she did catch a reference to "Blind Cadria." Making as if she was coughing, Tara blew the powder in the direction of the departing tour group, with the guide at the front.



*****



With preternatural speed, the powder flew in a cloud and covered the group invisibly, causing a subtle alteration in their perceptions.



A minute later, after showing the group of tourists the next room in the mansion and pointing out the exotic moulding along the ceiling panels, the tour guide did a quick head count.



Nope. All present and accounted for.



She led the group to the next part of the mansion. Unnoticed behind them, a part of the mahogany wall bulged obscenely outward, as if something living was struggling to burst forth from the wall. A moment later, it subsided back, leaving the wall unmarred with so much as a crack.



**********



Willow nodded as the tour group left with no sign that they ever remembered the two witches had been there. Tara screwed the cap back on and replaced the bottle in her bag.



"Fairly impressive," Willow commented, smiling at her girlfriend.



Tara returned the smile with raised eyebrows. "Well, it's not flashy, like the stuff you like to do."



Willow raised her eyebrows in turn at the dig. Okay, moral superiority's fun and all that, but that's going a bit far. She was just about to respond when the voice behind them said: "Well, you took your damn time getting here!"



Startled, the girls turned around to see who had said that. They were not prepared, however, to see an old woman dressed like a refugee from Somewhere in Time, or maybe Great Expectations, depending upon one's level of cultural literacy. Strangely, instead of the bun that they would have expected the woman to tie her grey hair back in, she wore it loosely, given her a somewhat harried demeanor.



"W-w-waitaminnit!" Tara said, being first to catch her breath. "Were you expecting us? Wh-who are you?"



"Uh, Tara," Willow said, pointing at the floor in front of their new acquaintance. Tara picked up on what Willow had noticed in her analytical way: the woman seemed solid enough, at least so Willow and Tara could not see through her, but she cast no shadow from the light coming through the window behind her.



"Her name's Sarah Winchester," said another voice, this one coming from another corner of the room. Willow jumped again, but Tara recognized the girl-spirit who had spoken to her at the Brookdale Lodge restaurant.



Tara thought she looked the same as the last time she saw the young girl, but this time, Willow was able to see her, too. "Is that…"



"Uh-huh," Tara said, staring at the girl. "How did you get here?" she asked the girl. "Did you hitch a ride with us?"



"No, girl, she didn't," answered the ghost of Sarah Winchester. "She comes here quite a lot and keeps me company. And a damn good thing, too, because she was able to bring you here."



Willow's eyes widened, following the young girl's apparition as it crossed the room to stand next to the old ghost. "Hold on – you told her to bring us here?"



"Actually, it was my suggestion," the girl said, looking sidewise at Sarah, who rolled her eyes in a "whatever" expression. "My name's Brenda, or rather it was."



"'Was'? Then, you're the girl who-who…" Tara couldn't quite finish the sentence.



"Drowned. In 1974."



Willow smiled shyly. "And here I thought you were just being retro," she said, indicating Brenda's clothes.



"Why did you bring us here?" Tara asked, getting the discussion back on track.



Sarah looked at Brenda before answering. "We need your help. Rather, the help of an experienced witch. Better yet, two, like you."



"You want us to, I dunno, exorcise you from this house?" Willow guessed.



Brenda had the good grace to look amused, while Sarah affected a disgusted air. "No, of course not!" the latter thundered, causing Willow and Tara to step back a bit. "This house is a conduit between this world and the world that exists beyond. A portal to Hell."



All at once the thought snapped into both of the witches' minds, the reason that the atmosphere of the house seemed so familiar:



"Tara, do you remember that time when we…"



"…we were looking for Riley, in the ruins…" Tara continued



"…the ruins of Sunnydale High!" Willow finished.



"You've been to someplace like this before?" Brenda asked.



The witches nodded. "This house," Willow finally replied, "is on a Hellmouth."





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Road to Nowhere

Part 8

"I'm sorry I can't offer you anything to drink, but you see...I'm dead!" The ghost of Sarah Winchester cackled at her little joke, while her companion spirit, Brenda, rolled her eyes and shrugged apologetically at Willow and Tara.



Sarah had directed the group to a little-used room of the mansion that was deemed too ordinary to be a part of the tour. She had wiped her hand across a table and looked at the non-existent streaks of dust on her ectoplasmic fingers (for that matter, the dust on the table remained undisturbed. "For a major tourist attraction, they could at least take better care of my house!" she had growled. "But it's probably just as well, 'cause otherwise somebody might have torn it down, or at least tried renovating it, and that would've been disastrous."



Willow, in contrast to her earlier indifference about coming to the house, was at what Tara thought to be a Stage Two Scooby Mode, in other words, asking incessant questions. "So you knew you had built your house on a Hellmouth?" she asked incredulously. "I thought ours was bad, with a high school built on top of it."



"Not at first," Sarah replied, a modicum of defensiveness evident in her voice. "It wasn't as if the surveyor put it on the map: 'Hellmouth here, extra-strong foundation needed.' I don't even know if it's the same thing you described where you come from."



"Well, what exactly do you have here?" Tara asked.



Sarah seemed to consider this. "It's a natural confluence of mystical forces, embodying a space where the walls between dimensions are naturally thin."



Willow and Tara looked at one another, and in perfect sync, said "Hellmouth." Willow continued, "But that doesn't explain about your house. And why are you here?" she added, pointing to Brenda. "Didn't you, like, die at the Brookdale Lodge?"



Brenda nodded. "When the river overflowed upstream, the creek running through the restaurant flooded the entire lodge. I didn't get out." She said this in a rather matter-of-fact way that simply made it all the more chilling. "I found that for whatever reason, I didn't...pass on, I suppose you could say, but instead I was stuck at the lodge. Occasionally, I could make people aware of my presence, but not enough to really do any good.



"Then, one day, I found...I don't know how to describe it, really," Brenda continued, considering a long moment. "It was sort of like finding a secret tunnel, only it wasn't underground, and I couldn't see it, but I went through it, and found myself here."



Sarah took up the story: "Apparently, the house was able to form a natural pathway from her lodge to my house. And so she was able to slip back and forth between places." She looked at Brenda with affection. "She ran across me soon enough, and we've spent years talking together. I can't use the passageway like she can, but she goes through and comes back with some rather interesting gossip."



Willow felt a rush of hot blood to her face as she imagined what sort of things could constitute "interesting gossip" to a pair of ghosts, especially in light of some private activities she and her girlfriend had participated in the night before last. She stole a glance at Tara, and felt a certain relief that her girlfriend was blushing as much as Willow felt she herself was.



Tara nodded and hoped that the redness in her face wasn't too obvious. "Um, that's i-interesting. But you," indicating Brenda again, "said that you were being drawn here, and that, that there was something you needed our help with."



Sarah nodded gravely. "You asked about my house, and why I kept adding onto it year after year, and made the contractors build things that made no sense. Well, after I discovered that the house was built on a...Hellmouth? That's as good a name as any. I made inquiries with every mystic and sorcerer I could find. I even consulted Alastair Crowley - would you like to see the letter he sent me? Probably worth a fortune by now. Anyway, most of those I talked to were fakes, but a few knew what they were doing. One of them told me that the structure of the house could contain and safely dissipate the energies coming from the Hellmouth, but only if I made the house bigger and encouraged construction along certain lines."



Tara caught Willow's eye with a slightly smug look, then asked, "Did it work? Unh, kinda dumb question, but..."



Sarah nodded. "Oh, yes, it worked. It isn't quite like putting a cap on a oilwell, though. The house had to be able to channel the energies in such a way that they would actually work against the Hellmouth opening. That's why there's a staircase that goes up into the ceiling and a door going into a brick wall."



"Wow!" Willow exclaimed. "Mystical judo!" Tara had to smile at that. "And the door that opens ten feet above the kitchen?"



Sarah chuckled. "Oh, that was just me. I thought it was hilarious. Besides, it made keeping an eye on the cook that much easier."



"But waitaminnit," Willow asked. "Why is there a problem now, after - what - most of a century?"



Sarah looked grave, which given the fact that she was dead was hardly a stretch. "The balance of forces keeping the portal closed has always been razor-thin. Unfortunately, less than a month ago, something happened to disrupt the balance, to weaken the natural walls between dimensions and cause the portal to open - letting God knows what through."



"Not only that," Brenda added, "but something is drawing me to this house, whether I want to be here or not. Not that I really love the Brookdale Lodge, but I like having a choice, y'know?" She shrugged in a way that reminded Willow of Dawn...



...and it was then that Willow turned to Tara, who was turning to her with virtually the same expression. "Less than a month ago. Dawn..."



Tara nodded. "The Key. G-Glo--" she choked on the rest.



"Glory," Willow finished, putting her hand on Tara's arm. The blonde was so distraught over the memory of her recent experiences that she didn't pull away. "When the portal was opened in Sunnydale, it must have had some effect here," Willow concluded.



Brenda's eyes opened wide, another gesture that carried an aching familiarity. "You guys have seen another portal open?"



For her part, Sarah had a question of her own. "'The Key?' I've heard of that, but I never believed it was real."



"Oh, definitely in the 'real' column," Willow replied. "How did you hear about it?"



"As I said, I used to consult some fairly knowledgeable people. You sure you don't want to see Alastair Crowley's letters?" Thankfully, she took the wiccans' silence as negation. "I can't believe it. Someone actually used the Key to open the dimensional barriers? Who'd be crazy enough to do something like that?"



Willow looked at Tara, who managed to nod. "Well, it's your basic Long Story..."



**********



If it could be said that the spirits of the formerly-living were capable of looking stunned, then Sarah Winchester and her ersatz ward looked as if someone had beaned them both with two-by-fours by the time Willow and Tara had finished their account of the final battle with Glorificus.



"Well, that explains most of it," Sarah conceded. "Thanks to that stupid bitch of a hellgod, my house is about to get sucked into the ninth circle of hell. Having to endure dozens of construction workers, tromping through the halls, followed by three generations of tourists - all of that, for nothing."



Brenda shook her head. "There must be something we can do."



Sarah took on a somewhat long-suffering air. "I think I explained to you before, my child, the concept of 'dead!' There is very little of the physical world, or even the metaphysical world, that we can affect, in the best conditions. With the Hellmouth's energies out of balance to the point where it's drawing you here from Brookdale, there isn't a thing we can do."



"Uh, hello, still among the living," Willow said, raising her hand as if in class.



Sarah nodded. "Well, yes, that was my plan..."



"My plan," Brenda interjected.



Sarah paused for a second, fixing the other ghost with a piercing stare. "The plan, anyway, to bring you here, once she had managed to find out that you were witches. But I'm afraid that this is beyond your abilities. Sealing a Hellmouth is not something you do every day."



Willow gave her sickle-sharp grin. "Well, actually, now that you mention it..."



Sarah looked at her with new eyes. "You're that good."



Tara looked at Willow, then at Sarah. "Level five."



Willow nodded. "Heck, if we were back in Sunnydale, that's the town we come from, by the way, we'd already be doing research in this magic shop that a friend of ours owns, and Xander, that's another friend, would probably do research and then come up with tactical strategies—"



"I think that's redundant," Tara interrupted.



"Huh?"



"Tactical. Strategies. I-It's redundant. I think."



Willow blinked a couple of times, not entirely in a piqued fashion, before continuing. "Um, anyway, Xander would be doing that, and his girlfriend Anya would probably be making inappropriate comments, but occasionally coming up with good ideas, and Giles, he owns the Magic Shop, he would probably be telling us how extraordinarily dangerous and foolhardy this all was, and then Buffy, she—" Willow stopped, her babbling hitting a brick wall of unpleasant memories.



Brenda looked at them sharply. "What? What's wrong with 'Buffy'?"



Tara swallowed before answering. "She…died. Recently."



Brenda and Sarah made expressions of sympathy. The elder spirit quickly got back on track. "So, can you do it? Stabilize the portal between worlds?"



Willow nodded, confidently if not enthusiastically. "Yeah, we can do it. We might need a few ingredients, and we'll have to call Giles and consult some, y'know, literature by long-distance, but it can be done. We can do it." She looked over at Tara. "Right?"



"Right," Tara replied. "We should do it tonight, after all the staff has gone home. Is there much security here after dark?"



"Not much in the way of people," Brenda piped up, "but they have some kind of automated system with cameras, all hooked up to a computer. How are you going to be able to get past that?"



Willow gave Tara a classic what-are-you-kidding-me look, and replied in her best Darth Vader voice. "Leave that to me."



****************



"You found a what in where with who-hunh?" Xander said over the phone, after the two witches had left the Winchester House, gone to get a few supplies at a magic shop in Santa Cruz, and then returned to their room in the lodge. They called Giles at the Magic Box where, naturally, Anya was, with Xander having gotten in from his construction job. They were expecting Dawn and Spike any minute.



The first minute of the conversation, after the usual pleasantries and badinage, was rather awkward as Willow and Tara kept trading the handset back and forth. The phone in their room was not equipped with a speaker, but a quick incantation from Willow fixed that, and now the voices of the Sunnydale contingent eminated from the air near the phone. "I just hope Verizon doesn't hear about this," Tara said, giving Willow arched eyebrows.



"You're, uh, quite sure it's a Hellmouth?" Giles said. Willow could just imagine him adjusting his glasses nervously.



Willow looked over to Tara, who gave a noncommittal look in return. "Well, it does seem to have similar properties, but I don't think this one is nearly as powerful as the one in Sunnydale. I mean, Sarah, she was able to contain this one for almost a century just by having a black belt in feng shui."



"Yeah, and a brown belt in Cal/OSHA violations," Xander quipped. "Oh, God, I'm doing the seeing-the-world-through-carpenter's-eyes thing again. Kill me now."



"Ah, now, I thought their music was wonderful…" Giles said absently before realizing what Xander meant. "Oh. Sorry."



"Thank you, VH-1."



"I-I think we're getting off-track here," Tara broke in, just barely keeping herself from laughing at the long-distance byplay. "We need to get the incantations you used when those demons tried to open the Hellmouth. Willow told me about that," she added, looking at Willow.



"The Sisterhood of Jhe? Big scary stuff. Giles, do you remember which book we got the counter-spells from?"



Anya broke in. "Oh, you mean Hedron's Almanac. I'll get it!" Sounds of footsteps came over the line as the ex-demon scurried off to get the book.



Xander took the opportunity to rib the girls about their romantic getaway. "You guys still keeping each other busy, or did you have to get outside help?"



An "Oh, dear God" came from the British contingent.



"Xander!" Willow cried. "That fiancée of yours is starting to rub off on you!"



Tara smiled evilly. "A-Actually, Xander, we, we were able to find a couple of female mud-wrestlers to come to our room for a reasonable price."



Willow's jaw hung halfway to the floor as Xander muttered, "The head-movies, oh God, the head-movies," and Anya came back into earshot saying "Xander! I want mud-wrestlers, too! Preferably male." Giles just groaned inarticulately. Tara started laughing.



Suddenly new voices came over the phone. "Hey guys, what's goin' on?"



"Dawn's here!" Anya exclaimed, loudly and unnecessarily. "Hello, Dawn!"



"Hi, Dawnie," Tara called, stifling her laughter.



"Tara! Hi!" the teenager shouted back over Giles' speakerphone. "Are you still up in Santa Cruz?"



"Yeah, we're here," Willow said, recovering from her shock at Tara's joke.



"Well, don't anybody say 'hello' to me," drawled a familiar Cockney accent. After the girls said hello to Spike, the vampire apparently wanted to satisfy his curiosity. "So, are we being frisky little minxes up there in the sticks?"



Anya had just piped up with "Tara was just telling about…" before both Xander and Giles shouted here down. Just barely audible, Dawn could be heard to mutter, "I miss all the good stuff."



"Anyway, Giles," Willow said, taking a second to collect her thoughts, "do you have the Almanac?"



"Yes. I'll bring it up to you on the first flight I can get…"



"No, no, no need to get on a plane," Willow said quickly. "Tara and I can handle this. I just need Xander and Anya," she framed this last part to them, "I need you guys to take the Almanac to my dorm room, use my scanner, Anya, you know how, right?"



"Of course. I'm getting to be quite computer-literate. Did you see the new web page I just designed for the Magic Box? It's…"



"Yeah, I'm sure it’s great. Scan in the incantation and email it to me. I have a holding account," she recited an email address, "you can just dump the pages in there, and I can get them with my laptop."



"I'm sure we can handle this, Mr. Giles," Tara added.



"All right." His reluctance, even over the phone, was palpable. "I want you to call me, day or night, when you've completed this…mission," he finished, for lack of a better word. "And, if I don't hear from you in, oh, a day or so, I'm coming up there."



"So am I," Xander added.



"We'll be careful," Willow assured them.



"You bloody well better be," Spike said, his tone for once neither nasty nor sarcastic.



Dawn called out. "Yeah, what he said. I love you guys."



"We love you. All of you," Tara said.



"I'll scan those pages in for you quick as I can, Willow," Anya said. "You two hurry up and get back here, so can tell me all about the se—" Amazingly, a dial tone sprang up at that exact second.



Willow inhaled slowly, then looked at Tara, who in turn gazed into the redhead's eyes. "Now, we wait."





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Road to Nowhere

Part 9



"H-How long will it take?" Tara asked, a few minutes after the phone connection was broken.



"Hmm?" Willow said distractedly. "Oh, uh, lemme think…I guess, twenty minutes for them to get over to my, uh our dorm room. Maybe five minutes to boot up the computer and the scanner. I hope Anya's as good as she says she is. I wonder if I should have specified just a scanned image, I hope she doesn't try OCR, converting all those old fonts into text is a headache, you should have seen some of the stuff the optical character recognition program came up with when I scanned in the Chronicles of St. Anselmo…"



"How long!" Tara broke in sharply, then waved a hand to indicate her regret at using so sharp a tone. "How long?"



"Half-hour, maybe forty-five minutes." Willow briefly rubbed her temples, the tension in her head mirrored throughout her body. She abruptly stood up and paced to the other side of the room.



"Um, how will we know wh-when it's come through?" Tara asked, still sitting in the same chair.



"Oh….the laptop is still online, through the cellular modem, and the email program is scanning for new messages every five minutes, and it'll notify me when there's something new in my mailbox..."



"Okay, okay, so the laptop will tell us, that's good," Tara said abstractedly. "What about the security system at the Winchester House?"



Willow half-turned and said, "I'm bringing the laptop with me…with us. I can use it to remote-access the security system's mainframe and basically cause it to not see us."



Tara shrugged. "You know more about that than I do."



Willow felt the little switches holding back her temper being flicked off in her brain, and she didn't even try to stop it. "What's that supposed to mean?"



Tara's voice remained level and even. "It means you know more about computers and, and online stuff. What did you think I meant?"



"I am getting so sick of your…morally superior attitude. Not that you don't have a right to feel that way, okay, I screwed up, I admit it, alert the media why don't you, but it seems like every five minutes you make some little comment and what, I'm supposed to just go on my merry way, oh well, I should just take my lumps, 'cause if I don't she going to…" The last few words were swallowed up as Willow started crying.



"I'm going to…what?" Instead of answering, Willow shook her head and turned away. Tara got up and crossed over to her. She put her arms around the smaller girl, and was surprised when Willow shook off her arms and stepped away.



"No, don't-don't do th-that," Willow sobbed, her hitching breath making it difficult to speak without, ironically, sounding a bit like Tara. "I d-d-don't want you to let m-me off the hook out of, of p-pi-pi" A fresh round of tears cut off the sentence.



"Pity?" Tara sighed. Willow nodded through more racking sobs. "Willow, I'm not pitying you, and I am sorry I was such a bitch today." Willow attempted to say something in response to that, but was unable to control herself enough to be anything approaching articulate. Tara made a "wait here" gesture and went to the bathroom for tissues. Handing a half dozen to the redhead, she commanded, "Blow and wipe."



Willow did as she was instructed, making sounds somewhere between Dizzy Gillespie and Jumbo the Elephant. Tara led her over to the bed and had her sit with her back against the headboard. Then she climbed over and made herself comfortable in the same position a handspan away from Willow.



After wiping her eyes for the second time and blowing her nose for the third, Willow had passed the worst of the emotional storm and was able to look over at Tara without breaking down again. "Baby, you weren't a bitch today. Not really. I mean, on the Cordelia scale, barely a three."



Tara smiled. "'Cordelia scale?' She has her own scale?"



"Well, she used to have her own butler, or maybe masseuse, or whatever." Willow shrugged.



"She didn't seem that bad at the wake," Tara countered gently. She knew that Willow had had a lot of history with the girl who had come down with Angel for Buffy's funeral, and found it difficult to merge the charming, if somewhat flighty, young woman with the virtual demoness of Willow's adolescence.



"I think she was being on her best behavior," Willow said, with a shadow of a grin. "Who knows…maybe she realizes that she might have to get into heaven someday."



Tara tsked. "You're terrible," she said, giggling. She sobered as quickly as she could and went on. "Yes, I was m-mad at you for formulating your little plan behind my back. You could, no, should have discussed it with me. I just have issues with p-people treating me like I can't take care of myself; I know I shouldn't get defensive about it, but I do."



"But, you have a right to get defensive about it," Willow said. "And-and now, you're mad at me, and I-I don't know what you're going to do, and I don't know what to say or how to make things right, or even if I should try to make things right because I'll just make you mad again..."



"Sweetie, slow down."



"I don't want you to leave!" Willow blurted out, facing Tara with new tears in her eyes.



Tara's heart nearly broke at that. "Oh, baby…I'm not going to leave you. I think you got more out of that drama class than I thought." Willow managed to chuckle at that even while crying. "Sweetie…you are the most wonderful thing to ever happen to me. I'm so lucky to have you, don't you know that?" Tara looked away for a second, gathering her resolve, then turned back to look her lover again. "You said before how it was because of you that Glory…hurt me. Well, if it wasn't for the fact that you came into my life, and dragged my butt out of my little dark room, I wouldn't have had the courage to face Glory down.



"My father…" Sigh, with a slight chin quiver. "He did everything he could to make me feel worthless, not even worth being human, being weak and blaming it on my 'demon nature.' And I believed him. But you didn't. You believed in me. When we did that astral projection spell, which is way advanced for us at that time, you trusted me to be your anchor."



Willow smiled, even as fresh tears spilled down her face. "I remember. That was the first time we…"



"Yes," Tara replied, her eyes decidedly moist as well. "You trusted me when you had no reason to, whether it was spells or…sharing yourself. Oh, God, this is sounding so sappy," she said, giggling.



"That's okay. I've been lacking my USDA daily requirement of sap." Beat. "That sounded funnier in my head."



Tara laughed, and Willow joined in. The blonde wrapped an arm around the smaller woman's shoulders and pulled her in for a long kiss. For a long, timeless interval there was no sound except for breathing, and maybe a tiny noise in the back of someone's throat, though it would have been hard to tell from whom.



All at once a stentorian voice said, "A question!" following by a strange musical arpeggio.



Tara broke away from Willow with a start. "Wh-wh-what?" she cried, looking around the room for the source of the voice.



The voice continued: "Since before your sun burned hot in space, and before your race was born, I have awaited…a question!"



"Who is that?" Tara asked, wide-eyed, turning towards a surprising calm and somewhat bemused Willow.



"That's the Guardian of Forever. That means I have mail."



"The who of what?"



"It's from a Star Trek episode, silly." Tara stared, then rolled her eyes and guffawed. Willow giggled along with her, and the two of them were practically helpless with laughter for the next two or three minutes. Finally, after regaining their breath, Tara indicated the laptop from where the soundbite had come from. "I guess that's Anya."



Willow nodded. "Uh huh. I gotta go check the pages." However, she didn't move from the bed, putting her arm around Tara's back. "I love you, Tare-Bear," she said, using the pet name that Tara used to hate, then admitted she had grown fond of.



"I love you too, darling." She initiated another kiss, not as long as the last one but every bit as passionate.



Willow made a bit of a sad face. "I wish we could…" She let the thought hang in the comfortable space between them.



Tara nodded. "I know. Me too."



Willow looked over at the laptop, and at the bags of supplies they had gotten at the magic shop in Santa Cruz. "It's time."



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Road to Nowhere

Part 10



In what Willow hoped was a good omen of things to come, getting past the Winchester House's modern security system proved to be a breeze. Since the system was remote-linked to the security company's headquarters, Willow had a ready-made access using her laptop's cellular modem. She vocalized as she worked: "Dunh, duhn, dunh-dunh, dunh, dunh."



Tara recognized Lalo Schiffin's familiar theme, if not the source. "You liked that movie?"



"What? Movie, nuthin'. Gimme Peter Graves over Tom Cruise any day."



The girls made their way into the mansion, which of course took on an entirely different aspect in the dark of the night. Naturally, neither one of them had thought to pack a flashlight or even buy one while in town, so the Winchester Mystery House truly earned its name as Willow and Tara, with only a couple of candles to guide them, walked through dark corridors wreathed in bloody shadows, punctuated by strange creaks and groans that seemed to come from the very walls.



"D-D-Do you hear that?" Tara whispered, trying to keep her teeth from chattering for reasons that had nothing to do with the ambient temperature.



"Which 'that' would that be?" Willow whispered back. "I mean, this house is shaking and shivering like it's in a hurricane, which is, y'know, strange considering that outside there's maybe a five-mile-an-hour wind, so exactly which unearthly sound are you referring to, I mean, can you be more--"



"Don't you two ever shut up?" came the voice behind them. Tara jumped and shrieked; Willow, the more experienced of the two, merely cried out and dropped her candle, assuming her best fighting stance that might intimidate a ten-year-old with muscular dystrophy.



The spirit of the woman once known as Sarah Winchester stood there, ethereal hands on ethereal hips, a look of weary disgust on her non-existent features. "Dear God, if we had such 'stealth' as yours against the Injuns, this'd still be Injun country! And for God's sake, pick up that candle; you wanna set the house on fire?"



Tara gulped air as if she'd been stuck on the bottom of the UC Sunnydale pool for five minutes. "You s-s-scared the crap outta m-me!"



Sarah looked at her with amused disdain. "I'm a ghost, girl. That's one of the perks." She looked at Willow, who had picked up the candle and straightened her shoulder bag. "Are you two ready? If you're not, too bad; I think things have come to a head. If it doesn't get done tonight, it'll be too late."



Tara looked puzzled in the candlelight. "But, but I thought...I didn't think it was this close to breaking loose!"



"It wasn't before," said another voice, coming up the corner. The figure stepped out of the shadows and revealed itself as Brenda. "It's gotten much worse since this afternoon. Sarah and I can't understand why. It's as if something has further disrupted the balance of forces that keep the portal closed."



Tara wondered if the minor spell she did to "cloak" themselves from the tour group had anything to do with the increasing instability of the barriers keeping the portal closed, but she decided not to say anything. Looking over at Willow in the flickering candlelight, she could see that her girlfriend was mulling over the same disturbing thoughts.



Recovering quickly, Willow replied, "Never mind. We can still do the incantation to close the portal completely. We need a place to set up, someplace where the forces we need to bind the portal are strongest. Do you know where…"



"The ballroom," Sarah answered. "It's the heart of the house. If you cast your spell there, that should stabilize the house's energies and keep this…Hellmouth of yours from breaking loose." The ghost looked away, as if distracted by something, though neither of the witches could see anything. "But you'd better hurry. There's not much time left."



"Before the Hellmouth opens?" Tara asked.



"Among other things," Sarah muttered. When Willow looked about to ask for clarification, the old woman cut her off. "C'mon, time's a-wastin'"



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"In the name of the All-Seeing,

In the name of the All-Knowing,

In the name of the All-Forgiving,

And the All-Bestowing.



"Though the shadows now banish

The sun's comforting light,

May the love of the Goddess

Protect us tonight!"



The huge ballroom looked even bigger lit only by the candles that the witches had lit in a circle around them. They sat cross-legged on the floor, shoulder-to-shoulder facing opposite directions, like when they had done the astral-projection spell to find out why Buffy had been acting so strangely. Each had the ingredients they needed for the spell; the idea was to cast in two directions simultaneously to be as effective as possible. Synchronicity was essential, more so than when they were struggling to pluck the petals from a mid-air rose.



"Night becomes day,"



Matches light blue and gold candles.



"Fire becomes ice."



Ice cubes held over the flames snuff the candles.



"Elements in balance,

We ask thee twice,"



Fire, air, water, earth. Each of the elements was represented by the ingredients and paraphernalia that Tara and Willow had bought, or by the very words that they spoke, as they charged the spell with air.



All at once, Tara's head snapped up, looking away from Willow's laptop that showed the scanned pages from Heldon's Almanac, as her mystic senses, honed from childhood, twanged with an unexpected increase in eldritch power.



Willow stole a glance over to her partner. "What?"



"W-We have to finish. Now." Tara leaned over to grab the powder formed of each of the elements they had cast, nodding at Willow, who was already doing the same.



Suddenly the air in the room seemed to turn to ice water and flow like the Colorado rapids. The candles surrounding the girls were blown out instantly, plunging the ballroom into almost total darkness.



Tara held onto the powder in her hand for dear life. Her hair blew over her face as the wind seemed to swirl around from every direction at once. She closed her eyes as she gathered her courage. "Willow! Stay still! If we leave the circle the spell will be b-broken! I don't know if we'll get a second chance at this1" She expected an answer, and was frightened when none was forthcoming. She didn't hear Willow get up (and despite her admonition, did not really expect her to leave) but opening her eyes only confirmed what she knew she would find…



Willow was gone.



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"Tara! Tara?" Willow would have sworn she had not moved, and that she had not heard Tara move, but the blonde witch was gone.



The ballroom looked really huge now. Really huge, the walls seemingly light-years away from where Willow sat alone. Okay, what's going on here? Did the room just get bigger? Did I shrink? I mean, I've heard of shrinking violets, but shrinking willows? That's supposed to be "weeping willows," and why the hell am I thinking this now? Where is Tara? She again shouted Tara's name, and looked around for any sign of her or of the two ghosts. Nothing. She remembered that Halloween party in college where she had become separated from the other Scoobies, and had tried that guidance spell with disastrous results. Granted, she was a lot more skilled now, but this house was currently in the middle of a major four-fold cross-rip, and any misplaced magical energy could really bring the house down. Literally.



The wind, which seemed to come from nowhere and everywhere at once, was dying to a manageable level, but Willow began to long for her old Eskimo outfit. At this point, having the harpoon along seemed to be a good idea, too.



I'll have to try thought-casting, she decided. I just hope that doesn't disrupt the portal anymore than it already is. Here's hoping your line ain't busy, "Imzadi." She took a deep breath, trying to center herself while offering a quick prayer to Marina Sirtis, matron of TV telepaths…



…and then heard a voice call her name. Willow looked around in relief for Tara. No, there was still no sign of her lover. She wondered for a second if Tara had had the same idea, to telepathically contact her, but dismissed that; the voice didn't sound quite right. As a matter of fact, Willow mused, it sounds a lot like…



Realization hit her then, like a icepick to the heart. Something akin to a moan, or a whimper escaped unbidden from her lips as the slight figure coalesced out of the deep shadows. Willow knew the silhouette instantly; she had seen the petite torso and lanky stride almost every day for five years…up until about three weeks ago.



"Buffy?"



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While keeping a fistful of the powder necessary for the final step of the spell, Tara managed to tie her hair back. The howling wind was blowing her long locks every which way, getting in her eyes. Twisting her hair around, painfully tight, helped her focus her thoughts.



Willow's still here. I can't see her, hear her, but I feel her. Beyond that, she really couldn't tell much; Willow's high-grade anxiety was getting mixed up, in Tara's head, with her own stark terror. It was one thing to read about this kind of spell in a book, with Miss Kitty Fantastico on your lap and a cup of herbal tea at your elbow, or even practicing it with Willow in her dorm room with the cheap Christmas lights, mainly as foreplay for some hot-and-heavy, since they often practiced this sort of thing in the nude. Tradition, you know.



But this was way beyond her experience. Her mother's teachings, a part of her childhood since almost before she could walk, had little bearing on this Witches of Eastwicke roadshow she was experiencing now.



Now she was getting feeling of major distress from Willow, making Tara herself badly frightened. Whatever could make the Cool Monster Fighter herself…



"Tara?"



The Wiccan became even more terrified, and yet an undercurrent of wonder swept through her. She knew that voice. It was the thread of oral history woven into the fabric of Tara's childhood memories. She still heard that voice sometimes, though for the last three years, it had been relegated to the land of dreams.



"Mama?"



*****************



"Buffy?!?" Willow blinked rapidly and looked again at the apparition coming closer with each step. It was Buffy Summers, all right, apparently back from the dead and needing a place to crash, or something like that. She was dressed in the same outfit that she did the swan dive off the tower in Sunnydale into the dimensional portal, the same clothes that her broken body wore as Willow had cried over it, as Tara held onto her shoulders. The image that had been burned into her memory, that kept resurfacing in dreams for the last three weeks, was now standing in front of her.



"Willow? Oh, thank God, Willow!" Buffy cried out, her hands pressed against some invisible barrier. Oh, of course, Willow thought, the miniature tricorder that she called her brain snapping online. If she's on the other side of the barrier…



"Buffy? Is it…really you?"



"Willow, it is me! I've missed you! Please, help me!"



"Help you…how?"



Desperation played on the deceased Slayer's features. "You can't complete the spell! In a few more minutes, I can cross back over!"



"Wha—What are you talking about?" Willow took deep breaths, the air feeling like molten glass. "Buffy…you're dead!"



****************



"Mama?" Tara stared wild-eyed at the image of her mother, looking almost exactly like she had three years ago…except her hair had not fallen out from the chemotherapy and she was not bone-thin. Despite Tara's best culinary efforts, her mother had wasted away to nearly nothing in the months before she died. Yet here, she looked to be in the bloom of health, the way Tara always liked to remember her, in a summery dress that billowed in the breeze like her golden hair.



"Little angel," the apparition said, "it's so good to see you. I've been away too long."



"Mama," Tara cried, a world of heartache and years of unshed tears making her voice catch. Without realizing it, she had risen to one knee, the hand not holding the powder stretching just to the limit of the protection circle. "Oh, Goddess. Mama."



The woman smiled. "My sweet girl. Don't cry. We'll be together again in a short while."



****************



"Buffy, I have to complete the spell!" Willow felt hot tears forming in her eyes, making it hard to keep control of her voice. "The whole house rests on, uh, a kind of mini-Hellmouth. If I don't complete the spell…" Willow groped for words, and felt her much-vaunted vocabulary fly off to Bermuda for the summer. "…it would be bad," she finished lamely. "And, and anyway, Buffy, you're dead! I saw you die! You're buried, y'know? Great White Hunting Ground and all that. You…"



"Will, please!" the image of Buffy replied. "If you let the barrier stay in place, I really will die!" The eyes seemed to penetrate Willow's heart. "Willow, you're my best friend. I can't believe you'd leave me here, and not allow me a chance to live again! Don’t you want that?"



Willow wavered, and could not answer.



*****************



"Oh, Mama," Tara wept, her outstretched hand shaking with the depth of emotion she felt. "I've m-m-missed you so m-much," she stuttered, for once not caring about it.



"My darling girl," Tara's mother said, smiling in the same crooked way her daughter did. "Just a few moments more, and we can be together again. Like before."



All at once a memory snapped into Tara's brain like a slide changing in a projector in a college classroom: a memory of a moonless night, the light of cold stars and a few candles, the sharp, tangy smell of disturbed sod-grass and the musty odor of fresh earth. Tara's breath froze in her throat, and fresh tears fell from her eyes, but these were not from grief-relieving gladness, but of guilt and remorse.



A pair of ice-blue eyes looked into another, so like her own. "Mama…d-do you f-forgive me?"



****************



"Oh, Willow," Buffy gushed as Willow made to put the powder down. "I knew you wouldn't let me down again."



Again? Horrid realization burned through Willow's brain like a hot meat cleaver. "You're not Buffy. The Buffy Summers I know – I knew -- would not be so selfish as to even remotely endanger the world just for her own life…the life she sacrificed to save the world, on more than one occasion!" She raised the fist containing the powder high, preparing to cast it for the spell's conclusion.



The Buffy-thing screamed in outrage.



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"Do you forgive me?" This time, the question came with no hesitation, only resolve as Tara faced not only the image of her mother, but her memory as well.



The woman smiled in confusion. "What would I possibly need to forgive you for?" she asked.



"If you,you are truly my mother," Tara replied, matter-of-factly, "you'd know, wouldn't you?"



"Tara…why would I be mad at you?"



Tara's gaze hardened, so much so that the apparition took step back. "What I did that night went against everything you taught me. How can you – how could she possibly forgive me?" Tara raised the powder high, her voice rising almost to a scream. "When I haven't even forgiven myself!"



******************



As one, two hands cast the powder down. Two voices invoked the spirits of eternal balance, night and day, good and evil, life and death.



The energies flowing from the ersatz Hellmouth, channeled by the outlandish structure of the Winchester House, set themselves in balance with and against each other, rendering the portal to other realms sealed against anything trying to get into this world.



The two demonic shape-shifters, empaths who tried to pick the witches' brains, briefly reverted to their natural, hideous forms before being bounced away by the portal's natural barriers. The illusion they had generated upon Willow and Tara faded away as well.



*******************



"Oh, there you are!" "You're back!" The two witches fell into each others' arms as soon as they were able to see one another. It was almost half a minute before the silence of the house became noticeable.



"Hey…I guess we managed to do it right the first time!" Willow said, looking around and not seeing much due to the candles being out. Tara quickly produced her matchbook and lit a couple so that they could see. "All the weird creaking and groaning noises have stopped. Always a good thing in my book. Hey, you're crying – what's wrong?"



"Um, nothing. Just stress. Y-Your face is wet, too, you okay?"



"Must be that bad old stress. What do you, y'know, feel? Are your spider-senses tingling anymore?"



Tara smiled at the comic-book reference. "I d-don't have spider-sense, I have radar sense, like the guy in the red suit." She concentrated for a moment on the environment in the house. "I-I think everything's okay. Doesn't feel nearly like Sunnydale High anymore."



"Certainly without the carnage and the remnants of fried mayor-snake."



"Oh, I've been meaning to ask – does it taste just like mayor-chicken?"



"Eww. And to reiterate for the audience at home…eewww.." Willow looked around, then suddenly turned back to Tara. "Sarah! And-and Brenda! We gotta check on them!"



After quickly gathering their supplies, the girls hurriedly searched through the house, calling out the names of their ghostly acquaintances. However, no apparitions, friendly or otherwise, materialized.



Willow tried frantically to think of a way to contact them through the Internet, forgetting for a moment that ghosts don't have email. "Although Moloch…" she muttered, then trailed off. Bad memory. "Tara…anything?"



The blonde witch closed her eyes briefly, then shook her head.



*******************



Back at the lodge, they called Giles to tell them of their successful venture. As it turned out, they hadn't even woken him up, which told volumes of the depth of his concern for the two of them.



"You're, uh, quite sure you stabilized this, uh, mini-Hellmouth?" Before either of them could answer, Giles added as an aside: "Oh, the things I hear myself saying in this job."



Tara was the first one to get herself under control, while Willow had trouble with the corners of her mouth. "Um, I'm pretty sure everything's okay. Still, I wish w-we knew what happened to Sarah and Brenda."



Giles cleared his throat. "Well, uh, seeing as they are, well, already dead, I doubt that very much, that is, bad, can happen to them."



Willow nodded. "Good point, Giles." She sighed. "Look, it's late, and we are beat. We'll call you tomorrow." Giles agreed, right through a yawn and said goodnight. After he hung up, Willow hung her head down in exhaustion. "Man, just hit me in the head with a hammer and stash me in bed."



Tara shook her head. "I need a shower first." She was about to ask Willow something when she felt a tingle from her sixth sense. Fighting the urge to say the inevitable four-word soundbite made famous by Haley Joel Osmun, she merely said, "Um, company's here."



Willow looked over to where Tara indicated. At first she saw nothing, then a faint shape coalesced out of the shadows in the far corner of the room. It was Brenda, although she was literally a shadow of her former self, translucent instead of opaque, the patterns of the wallpaper clearly visible through her "body."



"Hi!" the ghost said. Even her voice was oddly attenuated, though clear enough. "It took me a while to get enough energy to manifest even halfway." Off their puzzled looks, the teen spirit (no relation to Nirvana) quipped, "What – you think it's easy, manifesting in the physical world. It ain't cheap."



"What about Sarah?" Tara asked.



Brenda looked rather sober. "I'm not sure…but I think she's, like, gone on. To the next plane of existence, or whatever else lies beyond this world. I think maybe it was her time, or something."



"What about you?" Willow asked. "Are you gonna be okay?"



"Oh, sure. In a month or so, I'll be back to full haunting mode – which won't be much, 'cause most people don't even know I'm there. But at least I can go back and forth from here to the Winchester House whenever I want."



"Well, that's good," Willow enthused. "You can kinda keep an eye on things there, and still have a nice place to crash here!"



Tara piped up. "Oh, and give us a call if the house – oh, wait. You can't use a phone."



Brenda dismissed Tara's concern. "I don't think you have to worry. As long as nobody opens any interdimensional portals, I think the house'll be fine." Brenda smiled, then continued. "Hey, I'm gonna get going. You guys probably have…stuff, to do."



"Bye," Willow said, waving.



"Take care, " Tara added as the ghost faded from sight. She then looked at Willow, a small, sad smile on her lips.



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They showered together, more out of a desire for companionship than anything naughty. They faced each other and ran soap over skin while standing under the spray of warm water. Under other circumstances, it would have been rather erotic, but now neither one of them seemed to want anything other than basic affection.



Willow ran her fingers through Tara's wet hair, her other hand in the small of Tara's back, perhaps drifting lazily down the round bottom. Tara's hands rested on Willow's stomach, fingers coming over the ribs and just grazing the underside of the small breasts.



For a long while there was nothing but the sound of their breathing and the rushing of the water from the showerhead, the gurgling of the drain.



Now, a faint vibration, conducted by skin through soapy fingers. "You're shaking," Willow said, looking into Tara's eyes.



"S-so're you," Tara muttered back, resting her forehead against the redhead's. She wrapped her arms around the smaller witch, drawing her in, simultaneously giving strength and getting it as Willow followed suit. All of the pain, the tension, the terror of the past day, had caught up to the both of them at once.



As one, the two nearly fell to their knees, as they both wept under the cascading water, each tasting the other's tears of regret and release.



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Afterwards, they sat on the bed in their robes, Willow combing out Tara's long hair. "We should get to bed. It's a long trip back tomorrow."



Tara half-turned. "W-We gonna go back to Sunnydale tomorrow?"



"Well, yeah."



Tara got up and crossed over to the stack of papers, including the UC Santa Cruz transfer applications and their transcripts. "I, uh, thought we'd go over to the Santa Cruz campus tomorrow."



Willow's expression would have been appropriate to Tara suggesting that the two of them sign up to be strippers in a
CaptMurdock
 


Re: FIC: Road to Nowhere

Postby CaptMurdock » Sun Oct 10, 2010 11:55 pm

Willow's expression would have been appropriate to Tara suggesting that the two of them sign up to be strippers in a logging camp. "Tara...why are you...I thought...uh, help me out here."

Tara sat back down next to Willow. "If this, I mean, us m-moving here is really what you want...I'm game," she finished brightly. "You and me, right?"

"Oh, Tara," Willow said, tears in her eyes. "If I start crying again, I think I'll dehydrate! I love that you're willing to do this for me"

"You've changed your mind?"

Willow cringed the tiniest bit. "Well, I thought that we could just leave Sunnydale and leave that whole mystical, demon-y, world-about-to-end-so-drink-up situation behind. But I realize, we are who we are, and what we are. No matter where we go, were gonna be the go-to gals whenever danger rears its ugly head."

Tara smiled. "I think you're right. And I'm glad you changed your mind; I really didn't want to leave D-Dawn, and Giles, and Xander and Anya. I think I'd even miss Spike."

Willow grinned. "Y'know, so would I. Ol' Billy Idol Batboy. Of course, you tell him I said so, and I'll turn you into a shrimp, and you'll be allergic to yourself!"

Tara did her best to look stern, failing miserably. "Oooh...something tells me that you're getting seduced by the dark side of the Force, my dear." She kissed Willow, then drew back slightly. "Whatever we do, wherever we are. Together. Because, someday, I hope to be Mrs. Willow Rosenberg." Tara drew back a bit as she processed that. "Actually, you would be Mrs. Willow Rosenberg, if we got married."

"You can be Mrs. Tara Rosenberg, if you want. I could be Mrs. Willow Maclay."

"I've never liked my last name. I've been thinking of dropping it entirely. Be just 'Tara.' Like Cher, or Madonna, or Sting."

"'Sting Rosenberg.' That might look interesting on the mailbox." Willow's finger traced the lapel of Tara's robe, slipping inside to touch the sensitive skin between Tara's breasts. The redhead looked at Tara with hungry eyes. "I need you."

The blonde wiccan undid the tie holding her robe closed, then reached over and did the same for Willow. "I' m yours."

After some intense sessions where the two of them tried to melt together, tried to become one large organism with two mouths, four hands and a whole lot of skin, the couple lay down in preparation for (hopefully) dreamless sleep, Willow with her head on Tara's breast, listening to her heartbeat like an ancient lullaby. Tara had thought that Willow had drifted off, when she heard her lover say sleepily, "Sing to me."

Tara ran her hand down Willow's side. "Wh-what do you wanna hear?"

"Anything."

Tara was about to cajole Willow for something specific, when she suddenly had an inspiration, from a song they had heard a few days ago. Her high, sweet contralto came out, reverberating through her sleepy lover's head:

Well, we know where we're going,
But we don't know where we've been.
And we know what we're knowing,
But we can't say what we've seen,
And we're not little children,
And we know what we want.
And the future is certain,
Give us time to work it out.


The End
CaptMurdock
 


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