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Rating: PG-13, Willow misery
After an exhausting sleepless night, Willow forced food into her belly, made her excuses and set out for the Maclay farm. For the entire duration of her walk, Willow pondered Tara’s last words to her the previous night. They had spoken of their love for each other many times over the past weeks, but never with the finality and totality with which Tara had spoken them.
Love had not been a word Willow was greatly familiar with before she had met Tara. God’s love was something the Reverend Osborne had spoken of from his pulpit, but it took the form of a parent’s love for a wayward, petulant child who barely deserved it. What was love given and taken equally on both sides? It was different to anything Willow knew or understood. Husbands and wives sometimes had great regard and affection for each other, in lucky instances it was love of a sort, but Willow knew of no example where the two halves of such a partnership could be considered truly equal. Is it possible that Tara and I are the first? And if we are, where is our map, what gospel or other teaching is our guide through life? Is it our fate to discover this, to seek out the pathway of our love and mark the ways for others to come after? But if so, why does it appear that it is to be taken away so cruelly when we have barely begun?
These thoughts and more beset poor Willow as she walked out of the village into a landscape of rutted narrow tracks, fields, low rolling hills and copses of trees. Shepherds tended their flocks here and there; a few recognised Willow and waved. She waved back shyly, hoping that she would not meet anyone she knew well, particularly the village dolt Richard Alexander, a boyish prankster encased in a young man’s body, who for some reason had come to regard Willow as his personal favourite among all the girls of the village and made no secret of his intention to make her his wife. This, despite the fact that Mr. and Mrs. Rosenberg would never have considered him suitable for the important task of wedding their only child.
The farm of Miriam and Donald Maclay was a compact, richly-soiled holding located at the fringe of a great forest. A neat cottage was located a discreet distance from the generous barn. The only possible sign of anything amiss was the presence of twin pillars of smoke; one coming from the kitchen chimney, the other from a chimney arising from an annex at one end of the barn. Evidently, the sundering of the Maclay marriage was still in force.
Diffidently, the small redhead walked to the front door of the cottage and knocked. Soft footsteps approached and the door opened. Miriam Maclay was a thin woman in her mid thirties. Her back was slightly stooped, as though she bore an invisible burden, and her face was lined and the skin stretched taut over the chiselled bones of her face, making her look somewhat older than her age.
“You must be Willow,” Miriam said, “Come in child, I’ve been expecting you.” Willow was momentarily taken aback, for Miriam’s voice had the same quality as Tara’s, a warmth and softness of tone that seemed to lift Willow and draw her close. Led by that welcoming voice, Willow followed Miriam into the small cottage kitchen, where two mugs of tea sat steaming on the table. They sat at one corner of the table, their knees almost touching. Miriam lifted her mug and sipped, regarding Willow through the steam with affectionate grey eyes.
“I’m glad to meet you at last, Willow; Tara has told me all about you. It might have been nicer to have met under happier circumstances, but,…” Miriam let the sentence hang, unfinished.
“I know, I know,” Willow agreed. “Tara said you could help, she gave me something to bring to you. I hope there’s some way for her not to be hanged. Well, all of them really, I don’t think any of them have really done anything so bad, to be hanged I mean. Because, no one deserves that, do they?” Willow groaned inwardly. I’m nervous and babbling, stop it and shut up Willow. She’ll think you’re a fool.
But Miriam only smiled gently. “I know what you mean. There is a terrible wickedness among us, and all of those responsible are walking free and prospering.”
“It’s, I can’t begin to say how awful it is,” Willow added lamely, barely stopping herself from running off again. She brought the two objects out of her pocket and placed them on the table, to give her hands something to do. “These are what Tara asked me to bring you.” One was a lock of Tara’s blonde hair. It seemed to glitter in the light streaming through the kitchen window. The other object was a small wooden thimble. Miriam nodded, gravely. “What do they mean? How will they help her escape?”
“These mean freedom; but Tara doesn’t intend to escape,” Miriam said carefully.
This was too much for Willow, and the tears she had been fighting from the moment she heard Tara’s voice within Miriam’s began to flow. “I – I’m sorry, I don’t understand. How can you both be so calm about it? Tara is going to hang and she’s sending you trinkets, and you’re acting as if nothing’s happening. And I’m not even sure if you were there in the court yesterday. How – how could you not even be there for her?”
Miriam reached out and squeezed Willow’s hand. The young girl cried all the more. “Willow, I realise you’re upset. I have cried for her too, every bit as hard and for as long as you. I can see there is a great deal you don’t yet understand. I almost never travel into town these days, and I suspect that had I been in that court yesterday I would not have been able to restrain myself and I would be sharing Tara’s cell by now, with the good executioner Mr. Knight busily knotting a noose for my neck as well.”
Willow sniffed and dabbed at her eyes with her sleeve. She looked again at the two objects on the table. Miriam noticed, reached into her clothes and drew out two objects of her own. She laid them on the table, and Willow could see a lock of hair similar to Tara’s, though bearing an occasional grey streak, and another small thimble. Willow looked at Miriam quizzically.
“So many questions, so little time for answers,” Miriam observed. “Willow, there is a ritual, with these objects. If it is done at the right time and in the right way, it will free Tara’s soul and ensure it travels to a safe place.”
“Ritual? Soul?” Willow breathed, wide eyed. “You’re talking about…magic!”
“If you want to call it that.”
“Then, Tara is a … are you a … a …” Willow couldn’t bring herself the say the word.
“Call me a witch if you must,” Miriam said. “Tara is too young to be called one, but she has a gift, certain powers.”
“I knew it,” Willow gasped. “I sensed there was something, whenever I – we touched, something passed.”
Miriam was silent for a moment as she scrutinised Willow carefully. “You must have a gift too, to have sensed it. It doesn’t surprise me, Tara did choose you after all. You don’t seem afraid?”
“Afraid? Why should I be afraid? It’s Tara. But,” Willow continued, “if Tara’s hair and the thimble…”
“It’s blood,” Miriam explained. “A small drop, in the bottom.”
“I see. So, why do you need those too?”
“When the time comes, I will do the ritual, and my soul will travel with Tara’s.”
“But that could be years from now!”
Miriam shook her head. “Soon. Sooner than you think.” Miriam leaned back and undid the top of her clothes, letting the fabric spill away and expose her breasts. She reached for the surprised Willow’s hand, held it firmly but gently in her two hands, guided it to her and held it against her left breast, pressing hard enough for Willow to feel the beating of the older woman’s heart.
“What ….” Willow began, but then stopped, because at that moment she noticed that there was a lump in Miriam’s breast. It was firm, the size and consistency of an under ripe apricot, but to Willow’s sensitive touch, it felt spiky, like a thistle. It was like nothing Willow had ever known before. “What is it?”
Miriam sat back and dressed herself. “The executioner is weaving the rope for my Tara’s neck,” she said, for the first time bitterness coming into her voice. She pointed to her breast. “This is the rope that will drag me out of this world and into the next. Please don’t cry for me Willow,” she finished, for the redhead was weeping once more.
“You should see the surgeon…” Willow suggested.
“And what?” Miriam countered. “Have him cut me in that sty he calls his barber shop? I would die within a week from suppuration of the wound.”
“Magic?”
“Not for this disease, I have tried. There is some pain, in my back and around my sides,” Miriam gestured. “Herbs are good for those, but they will only help me for so long. Months, a couple of years at most. Then I will join my darling Tara, who will be waiting for me.”
This was too much for Willow. “And what about me?” she cried. “Tara will leave me, and you can go and join her and be happy. What am I supposed to do? I’m going to lose her, and I’ve only just found her! And – and what about everybody else, it’s not just Tara who is going to be hanged, it’s lots of other people, good people, and their families will be turned out into the cold, and – and I know I’m babbling and I should stop but if you are a – a witch and really have powers you should be doing something.”
“What would you have me do?” Miriam asked. “Call down fire and wrath from the sky and burn the evil ones in their homes? Tear down the prison?”
“Yes, for a start, I think that would be good.”
Miriam Maclay sighed. “So, to prevent an act of violence, I commit a violent act of my own. Nothing changes. Is that really what you want?”
Willow shrugged and rolled her eyes. “No, I’m not thinking, am I? But if we do nothing, the bad people still win, don’t they?”
“Do you really think so? Suppose these poor people all hang, what happens to the good Reverend? For the rest of his life he knows what he did to those people and he wonders when the day will come that someone tries to do the same to him. For the land-thief Putland, the same. He will go to his bed every night wondering if someone is plotting to take away what he stole. They will both be prisoners, in cells of their own making.” Willow lowered her eyes and nodded to show she understood. “But you did ask about Tara?”
“Yes, just before the tangential rant,” Willow sighed.
Miriam looked into Willow’s green eyes carefully. “What does Tara mean to you?”
“She’s my everything,” Willow said desperately, burying her head in her hands and sobbing.
Miriam waited patiently for the storm to settle. She took both of Willow’s hands in hers and said: “I understand you, Willow. Completely.” Willow was silent as she took this in. “The ritual, Willow, it can bind more than two souls, it depends who performs it. Would you consider…”
“I’ll do it,” Willow said at once.
“There is a cost.”
“I’ll pay it, anything.”
“I’ll explain it, Willow,” Miriam said, “and if you want, you may reconsider.”
Miriam and Willow talked until the afternoon shadows grew long. When they were finished, Willow made the long walk home in the twilight, calmer than she had felt for days.