by CrazyTaraWitch » Sat Jul 07, 2012 10:47 pm
Insecurity :/
My girlfriend and I had our real disagreement (I wouldn't call it a fight, but it's definitely the closest we've come) a week ago, and though I guess we fixed things now I can't stop worrying. She's acting normal, except twice I've sent her random "I love you" messages and she hasn't responded; sometimes she doesn't, and it doesn't normally worry me, but after last week it makes me feel insecure. I'm worried things aren't okay, but she doesn't talk much about feelings, so I don't know how to help things get better. I feel like bringing up the issue again would just make things worse, because I honestly think we came to the only resolution we could, it's just a sucky resolution, so I'm stuck feeling insecure and not knowing how to improve the situation, or even ask if we're really okay.
There's even a part of me that thinks, This is probably what the beginning of the end was like with my ex, only I didn't see it that time. And then I tell myself I'm just being insecure, but I don't know if that's really all it is, or if someday I'll look back and see that almost-fight as the day she started to fall out of love, like I can now look back on a fight from 2.5 years ago as the day my ex started to fall out of love.
It really really sucks to feel insecure and have no idea whether it's just paranoia or an actual issue to worry about.
"To days to come."
"All my love to long ago.
I hope, we'll have more happy ever after
I hope, we can all live more fearlessly...
~Jas