Synaptic Misfires Of My Mind

[behindhereyes]

Hey,



This is my first time posting anything besides fb.... so, pretty much I apologize in advance. Thought maybe I could vent through words...





Light Deprived



The darkness is there... waiting, watching

Hoping I falter in word, or deed

To envelope me, and consume

It's famished

The ledge is narrow... the fall great

Wanting to leave this place

Needing to go... somewhere, anywhere

Someplace less...light deprived





behindhereyes

Kim

"To the world, you may be one person; but to one person, you may be the world"

[EasierSaid]

Venting is good, and this is very good indeed. Hopefully it's more, 'fun with the imagery' than actual, real life darkness, but if it is, I'm glad you decided to post. Good to get it off your chest and out into the ether!

[little miss 666]

HELLO!



i am also really glad you've decided to post. I find your style of writing (or what little i've seen of it) to be really refreshing, i haven't read anything that mimmics the way you shape your words and sentences in a good long while.



I really liked what you wrote too, i can't explain it, it was like it had a musical quality to it. I dunno lol, it was good!



And YES! i'd definately like (need) to see more haha! NOW DAMMIT!



- Bellness

The shape of you

Is etched inside

My bruised and somewhat sculptured mind

[onyxsundrops]

I think it's great that you've decided to post and vent some of your thoughts, feelings, etc. I enjoyed your first poem and I very much look forward to reading more from you.



Yvonne

[tarawhipped]

Kim,



So glad you decided to join the world of the posters. You did a wonderful job of conveying a lot of emotion in just a few short lines. I look forward to seeing more from you in the future.



-Cam

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What should I be but just what I am? - Edna St.Vincent Millay

[SJ]

Great poem,thanks for sharing

[Wired vixen]

*Falls into thread* Hey there!



I liked this first one! And the fact that its only a few lines, it has a stronger effect than some long ones, so i hope you'll post more!







Stace xXx

"Um...dont mean to ruin the sexcapades...but we need the chips out there. Xanders being a chip whore." -She's my always by spikeizmine87

[Spikeizmine87]

Kim! Kim has poemness! kim should write more poems! yippie!!

-Rose

"You were everything, everything that I wanted, we were meant to be supposed to be, but we lost it. All the memories so close to me just fade away.."-Avril

[behindhereyes]

Hi everyone...



Thought I'd respond to the nice fb you've left... and post a new poem.



Heather : You were my " first " fb ever...I agree venting is wonderful, and you know I'm all about getting things off my chest . Thank you.



Bell : I'm really glad you liked it. Musical quality huh... might have been the blues. Thanks



Yvonne :

I really appreciate your fb... coming from someone whose own poems, that have moved me so deeply... it really means so much. Thanks



Cameron :

I was pretty heavy with the darker emotions in this... I'm gonna try to find the lighter side. Thanks so much Cam



SJ :

Thanks so much for not only reading this, but for actually liking it.



Stace :

The few lines said everything I needed to express, what I wanted to convey.... I'm glad the effect came through. Thanks



Rose :

* tackles rose * Thanks I'm gonna try to write more.



Here's another one...



Question Of Hope



How can that be my reflection in your eyes

When facing the mirror, I'm translucent

A mere outline of the human form

You see me... how do you do that

Can my eyes be that different

My vision so altered

Which is false...

What I see everyday... everywhere

Is the truth in your eyes

Is that what hope looks like

I need to know how that feels

I want to recognize it

I want it to know my name

and welcome me



behindhereyes

Kim

"To the world, you may be one person; but to one person, you may be the world"

Edited by: behindhereyes at: 1/2/05 4:12 pm

[Spikeizmine87]

Awesome poem kim! Kinda reminds me of a poem i once wrote, good thing! So write more!

-Rose

"You were everything, everything that I wanted, we were meant to be supposed to be, but we lost it. All the memories so close to me just fade away.."-Avril

[onyxsundrops]

Hey Kim, I hope you reconsider and continue writing because I love this poem. Being invisible and unable to see yourself or what others see in you mixed with a hint of envy because you wish to find it. Very well-written. Thanks for sharing your work.



Yvonne

[WickedReds]

WOOT kim is all with the poemness... these r great kim.. now bring me more Mwahahahaha!!!!!!!!



-reds



Mein Banane tanzt für Schmutz

Smutbunny Anthem: *sung to tune from Goldfinger* Smutbunnies...they'e the bunnies, the bunnies that love the smut...and Willow's butt. They surf for smut fiction...always lookin' for the next naked sweaty fix...of Tara's tits.- Written By Cameron(tarawhipped) For Us Smut Bunnies

[SJ]

Like that poem,great writing

[Wired vixen]

Poemness, poemness, i looove your poemness...

Quote:

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How can that be my reflection in your eyes

When facing the mirror, I'm translucent

A mere outline of the human form

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Wow....that mirrors hope with total loss (like my pun? ) Ironic yet it makes total sense, good stuff!!



More please?







Stace xXx

"Um...dont mean to ruin the sexcapades...but we need the chips out there. Xanders being a chip whore." -She's my always by spikeizmine87

[tarawhipped]

Nicely done, Kim. I especially like this bit, really moving and real:

Quote:

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I want to recognize it

I want it to know my name

and welcome me

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Glad to see you continuing on here, Kim, and I look forward to more.



-Cam

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What should I be but just what I am? - Edna St.Vincent Millay

Edited by: tarawhipped at: 1/3/05 12:33 pm

[veiled isis moon]

wow, really really enjoyed your couple of poems. I like the sometimes dark and questioning thread in your writing. Can i ask for some more?

[wimpy0729]

Hey Kim! Glad I found these. They're all very touching.



I have one request...can you perk them up a bit? You're making my mind actually have to think, and it's not used to it.



Seriously, very good job. Please keep doing what you're doing. Can't wait to read more.





Wimpy

[bluewillowwitch]

Kim ,

I just your poems and I love them. I love the way that you use your words. I can feel the emotion behind them. I can't wait to see some more of them.





Grace

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"Fate keeps on happening."--Anita Loos



"Sometimes you have to walk through Hell to get to Heaven."--Me

[behindhereyes]

Hi all



This is a tiny short one... that I came up with during chat. And hey it's not even dark





Forever



Two faces

Turned to wards one another

Eyes locked

Words unnecessary

Souls speak

Love knows them

Love breaks the silence

The sound reaches us

It whispers Willow and Tara forever









behindhereyes

Kim

"To the world, you may be one person; but to one person, you may be the world"

[SJ]

Lovely poem

[mswaterbug2000]

Wow Kim. I really like your work. You are very talented. Thank you for sharing this.

[onyxsundrops]

I want the darkness, Kim. No, I'm kidding. Great tiny poem, I'll be waiting for more.



Yvonne

[Wired vixen]

Great poem kim! Keep em coming



Stace xXx

Light up, light up...As if you have a choice, even if you cannot hear my voice...I'll be right beside you dear.... <3

-Snow Patrol

[stillrunning]

Hi Kim! I just wanted to say that I love your poems!! I like that you're able to display such emotion in such short poems. Great job!

"Heaven's not a place that you go when you die...it's that moment in life when you actually feel alive"

[behindhereyes]

Hi all



I had to write this one..



My Friend



There you were among the masses

Never knew if I found you, or you found me

I was drawn to your quiet strength

With you it was safe to be me

I gave you my truth, my secrets, and my trust

You gave me hope, strength, and understanding

My heart cried out and yours answered

Now I'm so afraid, what would I do without you

They tell us to wait, that time holds the answer

Please don't leave me

My tears feel like a betrayal, of what I've learned from you

I'm holding you tightly, giving you all that I have

I hope you can feel it, that you know

My friend you hold my heart

Stay... please don't leave me



For Pam Benson



behindhereyes

Kim

"To the world, you may be one person; but to one person, you may be the world"

Edited by: behindhereyes at: 1/26/05 8:37 am

[Rhiannon9891]

Kim,

That was very nice....a little sad, but nice.I like your poemness,keep writing.



Rhiannon

She is like a cat in the dark

And then she is the darkness

[wimpy0729]

Hi Kim



You know, this was so personal and intimate I had trouble finding the words to express how it made me feel. Many, many emotions running through me. One word that kept coming back to me though -- beautiful. That's the way you conveyed your feelings so well. Wish I could say more.



Pam

[behindhereyes]

Hey







Deflated balloon



Starting with such promise

Soft, and innocent

Belief in the idea

Discovering life is harsh

The true face cruel

It's not supposed to be easy

The struggle can build character

Or it can shatter

Life suffocated

The flat balloon

Forming,and molding like a second skin

Covering my face

Blocking the air, and muting the sound

Fighting without strength... Is no longer fighting

What remains of the balloon is still

No more soaring... journeys end





behindhereyes

Kim

"To the world, you may be one person; but to one person, you may be the world"

[WickedReds]

wow... wow... thats all i can say Kim.. i just love ur stuff..



-reds



Meine Banane tanzt für Rußflocke 

Smutbunny Anthem: *sung to tune from Goldfinger* Smutbunnies...they'e the bunnies, the bunnies that love the smut...and Willow's butt. They surf for smut fiction...always lookin' for the next naked sweaty fix...of Tara's tits.- Written By Cameron(tarawhipped) For Us Smut Bunnies

[onyxsundrops]

Incredible, Kim. As I've said, I like that you write what you're feeling and that you've allowed us to view a glimpse. I hope you continue to do so, thanks.



Yvonne