by Dorothy » Sat Jan 03, 2009 1:45 pm
The fact that I even have the slightest hessitation that being a lesbian might be wrong and I could choose to be straight.
I did have a very unfulfilling relationship with a guy that was very Oz-like; calm, seemingly emotionless, but an animal if he feared losing me as a girlfriend... I didn't love him, I just felt safe with him protecting me from my family.
And I'm out and proud for more than half of my life... Heck, even my religious grandmother tries to fix me up with girls.
It would even be easier being straight, I can get loads of guys and I know exactly how to play a man... but YUCK no! none of that ookieh stuff for me .
I don't know how this evil could creep in, I know very little people that were so certain and proud about being a lesbian as me... I used to feel that atraction to a woman is the most beautiful and natural thing in the world.
So PLEASE would somebody be so kind to smash my head in with a big, big rock to remove this scary little begining of a thought?
Manchmal in der Nacht hab ich phantastische Träume. Aber wenn ish aufwach, quält mich die Angst.
Manchmal in der Nacht bin ich so hilflos und wünsch mir, es käm einer, der mich führt und beschützt.
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