A Moment of Truth

[jay/wt4evr]

One of our kittens is very sick and in the hospital she is one of my closes friends and I am so worried about her I wish I could catch a plane and go to her but I cant I feel helpless thank god I am on the list to be notified of her condition. please pray that she will
ok she is my kindred spirit.

hope she gets better,really

[woahnellie]

i hope everything is ok dia. she's in my thoughts and prayers.

[Willowtree252]

Thank you all I just got permission to tell .... It is writerfreak her heart is real bad and I will keep yall updated how she is pray please pray. she has always been there for me through thick and thin she is true blue and loyal to anyone who she calls friend. I want her back on this board writing soon.

[jay/wt4evr]

all our prayers are with her we won't let her down

[gorn]

I don't know why, but when I first read Dianneswillowtree's post I thought she was talking about a pet kitten, not one of us.

Our prayers are with writerfreak, hope she's going to be ok. Please keep us informed.

[Willowtree252]

sorry gorn I will keep you all informed but I see a friend of hers on here using her account she may update us both I hope for the best I do believe they are wanting to do surgery.

[writerfreak]

I'm sorry if I am not supposed to do this. Writerfreak asked me to leave a post on the board thanking all the kittens for their prayers and support. She isn't well enough to type or read on her own but she said she hopes everyone is well and wants you all to know that she will be undergoing a major surgery and will be back as soon as her recovery permits. She also says that since it will take a while she expects updates to all of her favorite fictions, and that if any of you would like to say anything personally you may send a personal message asking for the number and can leave a voicemail or text message that will have a better chance of reaching her in a reasonable time. Again she thanks you all for your thoughts and prayers.

[DreamLover]

I hope you will get better soon. Sending some strenght your way.

[writerfreak]

Hey guys. Yes, it is really me. I don't have much energy so I'm afraid I can't post much but I wanted to say thank you myself to all the kittens who have sent their prayers and strength and support. I'll thank all of you individually at a later date when I'm not so weak and tired. Oh, and my moment of truth. I hate hospitals. The food sucks, the pillows aren't fluffed enough, its always too cold, and they keep me way too doped up to funtion because I'm always tired. I want out of here. Now. writerfreak

[jay/wt4evr]

Hi writerfreak it's good to know you're strong enough to post, and it's good to know we were in your thoughts hope you'll be back soon, brand new :bigwavve
moment of truth I hate hospitals too they even smell bad

[writerfreak]

Before I get to my moment of truth I would like to thank all the kittens on the board who kept me in their thoughts and prayers, these kittens in particular: Dianneswillowtree, Emms, LesbianJedi87, WiccaNess, Lifty, gorn, DreamLover, MissKittyB, jay/wt4ever, littlewicca, and woahnellie. Now onto my regular posting. I know she caused this. She knows she caused this. That's why she's here. Everyone knows that's why she is here. But now the danger is over so why won't she go away? Why must she stay and torture me? She hasn't left since she got here. Thank Goddess she hasn't brought 'her' here. No, she hasn't. Because she sits here holding my hand or playing with my hair, talking of the way things were before she left, and the way things should be. Seemingly oblivious to the tears in my eyes that threaten to fall. For the one hour a day I let her in she tortures me. She has that same old look in her eyes that I get lost in, the same everything. And she talks, its like she never did any of it. Its like it was when she still loved me. Everything feels like it was. And I'm the only one who sees her act like this. We are the only people in the room for our time together. She tells me she loves me still. She hugs me and holds me when I start getting scared for surgery. She kisses my forehead or my cheek. So unknowing that every touch of her lips or everytime I'm in her arms is torture. It's heaven and it's hell at the same time. I wish she could see what she is doing to me. I wish everyone could see so they don't think I'm crazy. The worst part is that I know it isn't all an act. They say it is but they don't see it. They don't know her the way I do. I just don't know why she did what she did. The truth is she will have my heart, have me, forever. Even when it's killing me. writerfreak

[MsKittyB]

My father died when I was 18. In my father's will he left me money. Which really scared me cause I could have sworn my father hated me and wanted nothing more to do with me. In the will he stated that the money was to be left with me, and no other person in my family was to recieve a dime out of it. I didnt want his money but I recieved it when I turned 21. I had to go threw all the bullshit with with my family over money that I didnt want in the first place. Truth be told now at the age of 32 I haven't touched it. I believe his money is just as evil as he was, and I wont touch it. Its there, but I dont want it.

[Yours]

I'd love to know what it's like to sleep with someone you're in a relationship with. And when I say sleep I don't mean sex I mean just to sleep.

[mangled_monkey]

*clears throat at writerfreak* ahem... forgetting someone?

Anyway, my moment of truth:

I don't think I can be friends with someone who likes she who shall not be named better than Tara. That speaks to a whole complete lack of standards that I don't want in my friends.

Also, I added at least 5 bricks today.

[writerfreak]

Actually no hon I didn't forget you. I hadn't finished thanking people yet. More thanks to these special kittens: Sara, JujuDeRoussie, and Boschi. And my truth, thank Goddess, she is gone. writerfreak

[Lifty]

I lied to my best friend about me and my girlfriend. Now i feel awful, because i hate hiding this relationship, and i hate keeping my girlfriend separate from my friends. Also, we're going away tomorrow for two weeks, so i wont be around, but i've invited 4 people up to the beach house, one of them being my gf, and my mum absolutely hates her even though she doesnt know about us yet, so i havent told mum she's coming. Now I'm scared. For my life. Literally.

[Yours]

I really want to tell her, she'd give me great advice and she'd support me. But what if the little things change by me telling her? I don't think I could cope with that. She means the world to me, I don't know if I should take the chance of telling her or not.
I know she wouldn't think any less of me but I'm scared.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I don't know how to tell her, or even if I should, and it's driving me crazy.

[writerfreak]

Am I wrong to want this? Should I give it a shot? My truth is I dont know what to do. writerfreak

[JujuDeRoussie]

I'm becoming crazier and crazier, a madwoman... It depresses me. Deeply. I really feel nuts.

[Auriam]

I'm the stupier person when it's about human being and their relationship !

[Auriam]

Sometimes i feel like just because i don't speak to everybody about the wrong stuff in my life and only share good things, i'm left outside cause of other people.

[kisstheviolets]

i don't know how to be in a normal, adult relationship and i'm less than two months from being 30. my relationship capabilities have not evolved much since i was 23 and since i keep dating girls in that age range even as i get older, i am scared shitless by the fact that i'm totally dating a grown-up now (though she's actually just my own age). it's pretty pathetic, if you ask me.

[sweet satin lover]

I wish that I could take her with me she makes me laugh and is fun. I will look at what she gave me and try and be positive there.

[umgaynow]

I finally spent the last of my Christmas money today...on socks and underpants...yeeeeha! fun! Now I am flat broke again except for loose change

[littlewicca]

I dont want my cousin and her boyfriend to come home tonight..

[jay/wt4evr]

I want to be mature enough to find something to regret of my age god I hate being me

[Sn0wflak3]

I want to be strong enough to say no to the person i love.. and am trying to get over. But i know i won't, and i know i'm setting myself up to get hurt again.

[Guest]

I wish my emotional growth spurt would expand so I could level up to my family and finally impose myself as a true adult. Cultural roots have been highly restrictive in this context.

[satinpaper]

I wish I had a glimpse of the forth dimension. I suspect it might improve my dating skills. Nothing else does.